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    Chapter 6 – Asher


    A showerter and a couple of coffees down, and I felt slightly more human, or as human as a


    werewolf can feel on next to no sleep…


    “Right Ash, we need to sort this sh it out.” Caleb’s voice was sounding more than a little stressed


    out, telling me I was in for more than a fun day.


    “What sh it now?” I asked with a deted sigh. I am sure we had dealt with everything that needed


    doing yesterday.


    “Quit sounding like you are overworked.” Caleb gave me a dirty look. “My Dad’s birthday party for a


    start. Plus, Eden is on my case about the teacher for school. We still need to rece Eloise.”


    I do recall him mentioning needing to re-advertise for a new teacher, but I had thought Eden may


    have dealt with that. Being Luna, and a mother, I thought she may have wanted to be involved with


    those sorts of tasks. Evidently I was wrong. As for his Dad’s party, I think he was more than capable


    of sorting out that himself, or his Mum was. Seriously, is it my job to do everything around here?!


    “And you are doing what exactly?” I question, feeling more than a little pi ss ed off.


    “Alpha duties.” Caleb says with a smug smile. Alpha duties knowing him would be sitting at his


    f**king desk with his feet up enjoying a coffee. Lazy f**ker. Delegating all his work to me, I am sure


    that is all he does.


    “Well, I am sure your Dad would rather you took a part in arranging his party, or even his wife?”


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    “It will keep you busy.” Caleb said to me with a smile, and I knew then the reason why he was giving


    me the responsibility of the job. He was trying to find ways to upy my mind. Something he had


    been doing since I had passed away. Something I did not need doing for me, yet something he


    and his mate seemed to find the incessant need to do. I truly wished they would stop…


    The loss of a mate is a pain like no other, but I did not need treating like I was broken. Incapable of


    functioning any longer. “I do not need keeping busy Caleb.” I snapped, standing to walk from the


    office, needing to get away from my friend before I said something I regretted.


    “Ash,e on, please, I am trying to help.” My best friend calls out to me.


    “Cal,e on, if this is about I, she has been gone nearly seven years this year. I do not need


    keeping busy. I am doing that myself. I am Beta, that keeps me busy in itself. If I needed help I


    would f**king ask for it, okay?”


    I saw the concern on his face, and it did nothing but irritate me. The same concerned expression I


    see on the face of my other friends, or my parents… the elder women in the pack… all feeling


    concerned for my well-being because I lost my mate. Worried I was falling apart. Worried about my


    heart… my soul. I got tired of sympathy. I didn’t need it. It did not bring back my mate. It didn’t make


    me feel any better. If anything, it made me feel worse…


    “Ash, you aren’t okay though. We can see that. You are withdrawn, you are angry. Moody. Isted.


    Borderline depressed…” Caleb looks to me with worry.


    “That is your expert medical opinion, is it? Wasn’t aware you’d been studying to be a doctor as well


    as being the pack Alpha, I must have missed that!” I said sarcastically, with a shake of my head at


    my friend, truly not wanting to deal with all of this right now. “Look, if you actually want me to help


    with sorting your Dad’s birthday, you know I will, he is my Uncle, after all. As for the teacher, I can


    put another job advertisement out, but we had no responsest time. So I think we are going to be


    struggling with that, unless you want to look out of area.”


    “We may have to consider that if there are no avable teachers within the local packs.” Caleb


    agrees, and I know that would be something we need to consider as the necessity for a teacher was


    bing urgent.


    “I will sort the advertisement out again, but I will consider one for further afield too.” I told him, hating


    the idea of strangers within our pack, but we want a good teacher for our school. That has always


    been the case, and unfortunately this time there is none within our own pack that have decided to


    train.


    “Okay. And I am sorry, Asher. I just worry about you.” Calebes and puts his hand on my


    shoulder, so I give him a friendly nod. I guess he means well, even if he irritates the hell out of me.


    I can’t help the darkness that has clouded my life since I lost my mate. And I cannot make it go


    away. I have tried, numerous times. It appeared it was here to stay. The only thing keeping me


    going was my job. My pack. They relied on me. And that gave me a purpose. A reason to get up


    each day. But, the dark thoughts guing my mind and the mind of my wolf, Zion, were almost like


    a curse upon my being. They held me down. Almost suffocated me. Especially when I was alone.


    Yet, I preferred to be alone. The pain I felt was almost addictive.


    There was no other way to describe it. I think I almost enjoyed the pain I felt. I enjoyed the darkness


    that lingered over me now. It was who I had be. The Asher I had been was gone. He was gone


    the moment I’s life was torn from her. The moment she was torn from me. The young, carefree,


    happy, joker alwaysughing and joking with pack members was long gone. Reced with a


    withdrawn, isted, lonely guy who felt down most of the time. Avoiding interaction with pack


    members whenever he could, and now had a reputation for being moody and snappy… Gone was


    the happy, handsome Beta, leaving more a moody, f**king monster that nobody wanted to be


    around…