94. You love him, don''t you?


    Lauren.


    Have you ever felt like you’ve been hit by an over speeding train? Or like your heart has just been


    dropped in a mincer?


    That’s what I was feeling right now when Sebastian uttered that one word. Mate.


    The goddess must hate me. Most think that I am blessed because I’m her executioner but they are


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    probably wrong. So fucking wrong because just like before she has managed to rip my life apart.


    Casting me back into darkness.


    Who would have thought that the woman I’ve been dreaming about, the woman who I’ve had to share


    in her pain would turn out to be Sebastian’s fated mate?


    “Red” I hear Sebastian calling out my name but I ignore him.


    I take a step back from Mayra and avoid Sebastian at the same time. She’s unconscious right now but


    still alive.


    When the goddess spoke to me and told me what I needed to do. I hoped that I would find Mayra alive,


    but now that she is, I don’t know what to do or feel. But relief isn’t among the feelings that are raging


    war inside me.


    Turning my back to her. I start helping the others. Sebastian was her mate. I was sure he would help


    her but I just couldn’t. I needed to get the job done. To finish my mission. So with that, I push my


    feelings aside and focus.


    “Everything will be okay Ren, I promise you” Blue tries tofort me, but at this point I wasn’t sure who


    she was trying to convince.


    It’s obvious what would happen now. Just like with Darren I would be pushed aside in favor of the true


    mate. The thought of that tears into. Almost bringing tears to my eyes.


    I finish untying the rest just as Hunter and some of the warriors arrive.


    “Alpha, Luna…we’re done, all the humans are dead and the rescued wolves are outside” Hunter tells


    us.


    If he only knew that I wouldn’t be their Luna for much longer. That the woman that was supposed and


    fated to be their Luna has been found. He wouldn’t be giving me such respect.


    “Help us get these ones outside” I tell them with a fake confidence when inside I felt utterly destroyed.


    They go into action. One of the warriors tries to take Mayra but Sebastian snarls at him. Bearing his


    fangs.


    I watch as he gently lifts her from the gurney and holds her close. The sight shatters me. He couldn’t


    have made his intentions any clearer.


    Without sparing him or anyone a nce. I leave the room, with my head held high. I may not be his


    Luna anymore but I was still an Alpha’s child.


    Getting outside I allow the fresh to work its way into my lungs. I felt dead. Felt like my heart has been


    ripped open once again.


    I count about forty or so werewolves who had been captured. They were in a horrible state and I knew


    that it would take a lot to bring them back to their former self. Not only physically but also mentally.


    I was just wondering how we were going to get them back to Sebastian’s pack when I saw people and


    vehicles breaking through the forest.


    Help. Had Sebastian arranged this? I wondered.


    My assumptions are quickly shattered when the cars stop and Sylvia gets out from one of them. After


    assessing things, her eyesnd on mine and shees to me. She then pulls me into a hug.


    “Everything is going to work out. Trust in the goddess” she tells me.


    She must have known what we would find. Or more specifically, who we would find. I wanted so badly


    to believe her but I couldn’t. I’ve seen this y out once before. I wasn’t about to let it destroy me like


    again.


    She then starts giving out instructions. All the wounded start being helped into the vehicles while I stare


    at the moonpletely lost. My mind is running miles per second. Making ns in advance.


    “Lauren” I jump when his handnds on my shoulder.


    I turn to look at him but it’s too painful to do that so I look at the ground.


    “They’re almost done…is Hunter ready?” I refer to what he had instructed Hunter to do.


    “Ren”


    “I’m tired and I just want to sleep…So could you tell him to hurry up a bit?” I ask, ignoring the way his


    voice sounds torn.


    I couldn’t stand here. I couldn’t be this near to him. I turn about to leave but he grasps my hand and


    stops my movement.


    I continue looking down. Refusing to look at him. Afraid of what I would find there. Maybe, love or relief


    at having found his mate.


    He brings me to his chest. Hugging me but I don’t hug him back.


    “I’m sorry…so fucking sorry” he mumbles. His voice full of emotions.


    I don’t know what he was sorry for. Maybe because he knew he was about to end our contract. Which


    had developed into something more. At least from my side.


    I don’t reply. Don’t say a word. I just pull myself from him and walk away. Without looking back.


    Minutester I watch as the building burns to ashes. After I’ve made sure there is absolutely nothing


    left except a charred ground where the building used to be. I change into Blue and run.


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    By the time I get back to Sebastian’s house. It’s already day time. During my run. I made some


    decisions and it was time to implement them.


    I get inside the house and find Sylvia in the living room.


    The house was eerily quiet for some reason.


    “Where is Sebastian?” I ask her.


    I take the t-shirt she hands me and put it one.


    “He’s at the hospital with Mayra” she replies.


    That sentence manages to squeeze my heart in a way that Darren’s betrayal never did.


    I push those feelings aside.


    “What happened, Sylvia? I thought his mate died. He felt the bond break” I asked her


    I was confused. Could it be that Sebastian lied to me? Because that was the only exnation given his


    mate is very much alive.


    “He didn’t lie to you” she says, reading my mind. “The torture that Mayra endured broke her wolf and


    thus shattered the mate bond. That’s what Sebastian felt. Of course like any normal person, he


    assumed that she was dead especially when he started showing signs of going feral.”


    “The moment he came close to her, he felt the tiny spark of the broken bond. And fang recognized his


    mate even though she is probably broken beyond repair” she finishes.


    I sit there and absorb all that she is telling me. If Sebastian felt a spark of the broken bond then it


    means that there was a possibility of reviving it.


    “You love him, Don''t you?” Sylvia asks out of nowhere.


    I nod at her. It was one of the things I realized and epted during my long run. But isn’t the whole


    thing just tragic? That I realized I was in love with him when he found his fated mate and I had no


    chance with him.


    “What are you going to do?”


    I sigh and breathe through the pain in my chest. “What must be done”


    I loved a man that wasn’t meant to be mine once I held on to that love and it nearly destroyed me. I


    wasn’t going to make the same mistake. I knew what I had to do.