24. Nothing personal


    Darren.


    I stare at the woman who I thought loved me. She looks nothing like her impable self. Her hair has


    not been brushed for days and her skin looked pale and ashy. Even though she had changed clothes


    they weren’t her usual designer brands. I could tell that she hated that.


    After the paternity tests hade out, Sebastian had handed her over to the council for trial. His


    ims based on her drugging him then taking advantage of him. Also lying about the child she was


    carrying being his.


    Given he was a prominent alpha the council had responded immediately. Taking her off his hands and


    locking her in their cells as she awaited trial.


    “Why Miranda? Tell me why” I ask her, unable to hide the tremble in my voice.


    I was allowed to see her only because I was her mate. I couldn’t stop myself froming to see her. I


    just wanted. Needed to know why she did this to me. To us. Nobody knew that I came to see her.


    Otherwise they wouldn’t have approved of this visit.


    She shrugs her shoulders. “It’s really nothing personal Darren. Stop taking it to heart”


    I look at her as if I’ve never seen her before. Is this the same woman who had approached me a year


    ago with her ims of love? Telling me that even though she got mated to Sebastian she never got


    over me? That she always loved me.


    How could I have been so blind and stupid? She was so sweet and loving and like the fool I am, I fell


    for her act. I left Lauren, the perfect mate. Trampled on her love all for her and all she can tell me is


    that it’s nothing personal?


    “How is it nothing personal? You fucking cheated on me with multiple men” I shout at her. Still unable to


    grasp the truth after a little investigation.


    I was losing it. My anger and pain warring against each other. Kai was shattered when we got the


    results and realized the pup she was carrying wasn’t ours and neither was it Sebastian’s. The


    N?vel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive ? material.


    realization literally brought us to the ground.


    She rolls her eyes and just looks at me unbothered. Like this was nothing of importance to her. Like my


    pain was insignificant. She was my fucking mate. My fated mate and it’s as if she felt absolutely nothing


    for us.


    “When Sebastian and I separated, he took everything from me. I was left with nothing. I needed


    someone to cushion my fall from grace. You were the perfect man for the job” she says, staring at her


    nails as if she hasn’t just crushed my world.


    “Perfect man for the job?” I ask stupidly. Unable to believe what I was hearing.


    She replies nonmittedly. “Hmm”


    “So you used me?”


    “Pretty much” she says with a cold smile


    How have I never noticed how cold she was? How cruel and deceitful she was. This version I was


    seeing of her shed with the one I knew. The one she pretended to be. I wanted to me the world,


    me Lauren for not fighting harder for me. me my family for allowing me to fall for her trap. But in


    the end the me is on me.


    “Did you ever love me? Truly love me” I hoped that she would say yes. That a part of her no matter


    how tiny had loved me. That all this hadn’t been for nothing.


    She sits upright in her tiny cell bed, sighing as if the thought of loving me made her tired.


    “If you want the truth then the answer is no. I didn’t love and I never will Darren. You might be my fated


    mate but I never even liked you. I only stayed with you those first few months because of your title.


    When I got a better man I left and never looked behind, that was until he found out the truth and kicked


    me out, but I never loved you”


    If I thought I knew pain before then that was nothingpared to how I was feeling right now. I felt like


    my insides have been shredded. Like my chest has been torn open and my heart has been ripped


    apart.


    I grab the bars of the cell to steady myself. I feel like I have just been sucker punched. Everything that I


    had believed had been a lie. Nothing had been real for her and she was just using me. The funny thing


    is that I would haveid down my fucking life for her.


    “Seriously can you be any more dramatic?” I hear her sneer but it sounds like it’sing from


    underwater.


    I needed to leave. The room was closing in on me and I couldn’t breathe. My lungs felt constricted. Like


    I was suffocating. I turn around to leave. Blindly. My eye sight was perfect but in the moment I couldn’t


    fucking see.


    “Darren?” she calls in a small voice.


    Against my better judgement I turn around. “What?”


    “How long will it take you to take me out of this ce? It’s disgusting”


    I look at her in contempt and shock. Here I was hoping that she was going to tell me that she had loved


    me. That she wanted me. Yet here I am again as the fool. Just like from the start, she just wanted to


    use me. To use the position I held.


    How could she even think that I would help her after the train wreck she just caused? I''m I really that


    gullible that she thinks she can y me a third time?


    “Why don’t you ask the bastard you fucked behind my back to get you out? Or maybe you can spread


    your legs for one of the guards since you’re so good at it. I’m sure they’ll consider letting you out once


    they’re done with you” I hear her gasp but I no longer give a damn. I was done with Miranda.


    Without sparing her another look I leave even though my soul called out for its other half.


    I end up in a bar, drunk and pissed as hell. No matter how much I drank, I couldn’t seem to drown the


    pain I was feeling. It was a constant ache that bled with each breath I took. A fucking reminder that I


    loved and I lost. If could I would tear the useless piece of my body called my heart but I can''t.


    My mind thinks back to Lauren and Iugh at the irony that hits me head on. Didn’t she ask me the


    same question I asked Miranda just a few hours ago? I feel even more stupid when I remember telling


    her that I had never loved her and that my heart had always belonged to Miranda.


    How ironic is it that Miranda told me the same thing I told Lauren. Karma truly was a fucking bitch.


    Because here I was drunk off my ass with a bleeding heart. I had broken Lauren, torn her heart and


    trampled on her love. A love I now wish I had never let go off because she now belonged to someone


    else and I had nothing but heartache and regrets.


    Was it toote to im the woman that I had thoughtlessly thrown away? Would she even want me


    back enough to leave Sebastian, after everything I''ve put her through?