Chapter40


    L’sPOV


    Iwasdumbfoundedasthepackmedicscarried Gregaway.IlookedtowardsAdrianwithfearinmyeyes.Wouldhegoberserkonmetooifhedoesn’tlikewhatIdid?Willhegoaroundbeatingpeopleandmakingabadnameformewhenhedidnotevenchooseme?


    EvenforafactthatGregisawerewolf,hecouldnoteasilyrecoverfromhisinjuryandthepackmedicshadtobecalledintotakecareofhim.ThatwashowbadAdrianhithim.N?velDrama.Org ? content.


    Avianca,LotanaandAlexalllookedatmedifferentlyandIcouldn’thelpthesighthatescapedfrom mymouth.Lwastheonlyonewhostoodbymeasthemedicsleft.


    “L,I…….”HewantedtospeakupwhenLshuthimup.“Thisisnotthetimetoapologize,Adrian.Youshouldn’thavedoneitifyou’dhaveapologizedforit.Sinceshecameintothispack,you’vecausedhernothingbutpainandanguish.Ifyoucan’tf**kingmakeherhappy,atleaststaythefuckawayfromher“,shescreamedinhisfacebeforeholdingmyhands.andpullingme outofthere.


    Iwasthinkinghe’dhaveherheadforspeakingharshlytohimbuthebarelyreacted.Nathanstoodbyhimbuthelookedlike.he’drathergoafterhisownmate.PeoplearoundgaveusdifferentlooksandI’msurepeoplewhodidnotknowIwashismatenowdid.


    Ldidnotletgoofmy handtillwereachedthecar.She


    10.00<b>%</b>


    enteredthecarandshetookadeepbreathbefore turningtowardsme.


    “Areyouokay,L?”SheaskedandIdidnot knowhowtoanswerherquestion.WasIokay?Inoddedmyheadandshelookedlikeshedidnotbelieveme.


    “Youcantellmehowyoufeel,L.It’sokaynottobe okay,don’tyouknow?”Shesaidgentlyandthatwaswhenmytears.brokeandIstartedcrying.


    Iwasn’tokay.Iwasn’tfineatall.Iwantedtoscreamat thetopofmylungsandkickhimtillhe’s downinpaintoobutIcouldn’t.Iwantedtobelovedbymymateandmeetnewpeoplethatwon’tregardmeasafreakbutmychancesareruinednow.InsteadIoptedforasimple“I’mnotokay“.


    “Hey,hey,it’sokay.It’sfine,babygirl.WeshouldgoandcheckonGregfirst,yeah?”Inoddedmyheadatherwords.andtriedtostopmytearsfromflowingreadily.


    Bythetimewegottothepackclinic,myheartwasthreateningtoburstoutofmychestfrombeingsonervous.Whatiftheydonotwanttomeetme?WhatiftheycastmeasideanddecidethatI’mnotworthyofbeingintheirpresence?MythoughtswereracingmilesperhourandIhadtoholdmyhandstightlybecausetheywereshaking.


    “IswearIcanfeel thegearsturninginyourhead.Don’toverthinkwhatmighthappenorbe.I’msureGregdoesn’tholdanythingagainstyou.Andtherestofthegroupwilleventualleto,it’sjusttime“,shesaidreassuringlybeforewesteppedoutofthecarintotheclinic.


    WeaskedaboutGregonceweenteredtheclinicandbecauseitwasapackwherealmosteveryb*dykneweveryb*dy,we


    wereeasilydirectedtowherehewas.


    Aswegotcloser,wesawAvianca,AlexandLotaning.outoftheroomhewasin.Lotana’seyeshardened.


    immediatelyshesawmeandwas abouttochargeatmewhenAlexanderheldherback.


    “Whatthefuckdoyouthinkyou’redoingbyshowingyourfacehereafterwhatyoudid?”SheshoutedandItookastepbackfromher.“I–I’ms–s–sorry“,Istutteredoutandshegaveoutafakugh.


    “Sorry?Ofcourse,you’resorry.You’renot theonelyingonthehospitalbedbecauseyourmatedecidedtogoballisticonmybrother!!!”Sheshoutedagain.


    Brother?Greg isherbrother?Theylooknothingalike.TheimageofLotanabeingheldbyAviancaandAlexsparkedamemoryinmyhead.


    Itwasamemoryofayoungermecryingoutformy parentsandbrother?Ineverrememberedhavingabrotherallmy life.Thememorywassovivid,itfeltlikeIwaswitnessingitatthat


    moment.


    Lotanawas stillshoutingatmebutIcouldn’thearwhatshewas saying.Lwasbesideme butIcouldn’thearwhatshewassayingeither.IwasinthatmemoryandIcouldfeelmyselfshakinguncontroblywithtearsrollingdownmyface.


    Myyoungerselflookedsosadandbeautifndmyheartcouldn’thelpbutbreakforher.EverythingsuddenlywentquietandallIcouldhearwasabuzzingsoundinmyhead.L’smouthwasmovingbutIcouldnotmakeoutwhatshewassaying.


    What’sgoingon?What’swrongwithmyb*dy?Whycan’tImovenortalk?IcouldseeLotana,Avianca andAlexruntowardsmetoo.TherewaspanicinL’seyesandIwantedtoknowwhatmadeherlooksoafraidbutIwasn’t ableto.


    ItwaslikeIwastrappedinmyownmind.IfeltmyselfbeingliftedandcarriedtooneofthehospitalbedsandIwantedtoscreamatthemthatIwasokaybutnothingwasforting.


    Iwassuddenlynotinthehospitalroomanymore.Ablindingwhitelightshoneontomyface,soIclosedmyeyes.WhenIopenedthem,Iwas backinthegardenwhereImetthemoongoddess.


    MyscarswerenolongervisibleandIwasinawhitegownlikebefore.Iwasabouttoshoutintothegardenwhenabrightlightcameoninfrontofme.IcouldseetheshapeofawomaninawhiteflowinggownbutIwasn’tabletoseeherfaceduetothelightthatshonefromit.


    “Weebackagain,child“.