Chapter 148


    Chapter 148: Words with Ss


    Cassie.


    I hadn’t expected to run into Ss on the way home, but now that I was faced with him, I was actually


    pleased. I had allowed myself to face a moment of weakness by letting my heart y tricks on my mind.


    To think the mate thing was actually possible with Lucas was a stupid decision to begin  with.


    Pulling from Ss, I quickly wiped away my tears and pushed a smile on my face.


    “God, I feelpletely stupid,” I whispered as I gazed up  into his hazel eyes, “uh–so how are you?”


    Ss gazed down at me, giving a small chuckle as he ‘reached up, rubbing the back of his neck as if


    hesitant to speak. “I’m okay. I actually wasing to see you, but I can. see that whatever I had to say


    can wait… what’s going on? Why are you crying?”


    He wasing to see me? The thought was sweet, but I wasn’t sure why he would have been going out


    of his way to see me. “Uh, nothing. I’m not sad, more angry than anything.”


    “Angry about what?”


    Shrugging my shoulders, I turned and made my way toward a small bench that sat off the edge of the


    sidewalk. “Men–in more precise measures, Lucas. It’s all stupid and not important, honestly.”


    Ss followed my movements as he came to sit next to me. He didn’t bother to push for more information


    and instead nudged my shoulder with his own, causing me to smile.


    “Well, the topic of men was the reason why I wasing to see you. I wasn’t sure if your brother had


    spoken with you yet, but I wanted to exin myself.”


    Confusion filled me as I furrowed my brow, staring at him, trying to figure out what exactly he was talking


    about. Taking a moment, I thought back to when my brother  confronted me in the hallway at the school,


    and suddenly what he had said dawned on me.  that was


    “So when he said the guys were talking about me, you?” The sheepish grin that crossed Ss’s face at


    my question let me know it was exactly what he was talking about.


    Obviously, my brother had overheard a conversation between him and somebody else, which caused the


    entire scene in the hallway. Not only that, but the word had  gotten out, leading to Lucas hearing what he


    had heard.


    Words seemed to travel very quickly around this ce, and that was something I did not like.


    “It wasn’t what you thought. I don’t know what your brother told you, but I promise… Nothing was bad,”


    Ss said  quickly, causing me to halt and what I was going to say  next.


    Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes and allowed myself to think very thoroughly through all of this.


    Ss didn’t e across as the kind of guy who would just say shit for no reason. And, in fact, if he was


    the yboy kind of guy. Why would he even bother toe here and try to exin himself and then also


    comfort me when I was at my  weakest moment?


    “What exactly was said?” I asked him as I opened my eyes and stared back into the bluish–green


    haziness of his own.


    Rubbing the back of his neck, his eyes darted around before they finally met mine once again. “A few of


    the guys saw us talking the other night, and because of it, they assumed that we were hooking up, which


    of course, we didn’t. And then, they saw Lucas act the way he did toward me. Guys are going to make


    assumptions.”


    Whatever his words as he spoke, and nodding my head, I  followed along the best I could, trying to


    understand his point of view. However, if these guys have made  assumptions, why had he not corrected


    them? Because obviously, they were letting people believe that more happened than actually did.


    “Ok. And did you correct them to prevent them from · spreading these ridiculous rumors over something


    that didn’t even happen?” Ss gave me a meek smile, and that smile let me know he hadn’t entirely told


    them the truth, which pissed me off even more.


    Not only did I have to deal with the shit Lucas and my brother were putting me through, but on top of


    that, I had to deal with everything else in my life constantly spiraling  out of control. And now this issues


    with Ss because  people seem to think I’m a girl who likes to sleep around.


    This ce was supposed to be about growing into the person we were meant to be, and instead, it


    reminded me so much of high school, so much of the drama, I was d to get rid of when I graduated.


    Standing to my feet, I shook my head and quickly turned, heading back down the path toward the


    building we stayed in. Thest thing I wanted to do was say something mean to Ss and cause even


    more drama.


    My mom always told me if I didn’t have anything nice to  say, it was best not to say anything at all. So


    that was what I was going to do.


    However, Ss had other ns because as soon as I started  heading down the sidewalk, he was on his


    feet rushing after me, his hand gripping my upper arm as he stopped me in my tracks and turned me to


    face him.


    “Please don’t walk away from me. I want to talk to you about this. In fact, there’s a lot that I want to talk to


    you about,” he said softly.


    There was nothing but sincerity in his gaze, and as much as I wanted to tell him to go fuck himself and


    never put his hands on me again, part of me couldn’t help but want to give him that chance to exin


    and fix things.


    “How do you expect to fix what has already happened, Ss? What else is there that we need to


    discuss? You made it very clear the guys here, and probably a lot of the girls, are assuming I’m


    somebody I’m not.”


    I had never imed to be this badass girl people thought I was. I was 18 years old, trying to figure out


    my life and where I wanted to go.


    Did I have a rebellious nature? Absolutely.


    But that didn’t mean I was ready to stand toe to toe with  the world as if I had my shit together. What I


    wanted was to  be able toe here and heal from everything that had happened, including losing


    Melissa, the woman I had loved all through high school.


    I had pushed the thoughts of losing her to the back of my mind, not trying to dwell on it what had


    happened because it was a situation I couldn’t fix. However, this ce turned out not to be the sce I


    was looking for, and instead, had be just as much a nightmare as where I had lived before.


    I took a moment to think about what I had asked him, and he opened and closed his mouth as if he


    wanted to say something but wasn’t sure. “Will you please just have dinner with me? I can exin


    everything then.”


    I’d be a fool to agree to have dinner with him, but I was  curious to know exactly what it was he was


    going to do to fix things. Taking him up on this offer was not going to make anything better between


    Lucas and me. But honestly, after the way Lucas had treated me today, regardless of what he assumed


    to be true… I had no reason to say no.


    Nodding my head slowly, I shrugged my shoulders, gesturing with my hand that yes, I would. A bright


    white. smile crept across Ss’s face at my acknowledgment to go to dinner with him. He was pleased,


    and honestly, I wasn’t surprised he was.


    He was a very strange man in a way. There was something dark and mysterious about him that pulled


    me in, but I couldn’t help but feel he didn’t just look at me like a person but as a prized possession to


    own, which was a little  unsettling.


    He hadn’t actually done anything to make me feel that way. It was simply the gaze he gave me was as if I


    was a piece of gold littered with jewels he wanted to have.


    Which perhaps was normal because he was a dragon, and they were known to be very materialistic.


    “Great. I’lle by and pick you up at 7. I promise you won’t regret this.” He quickly turned, not giving


    me a moment to decline or say anything else, and disappeared from my sight. And once again, I was left


    alone to ponder my thoughts.


    l, of course, instantly regretted I had agreed to go to dinner with him because it would only add fuel to an


    already zing fire. I sagged my shoulders and continued walking down the path in the direction I was


    headed.


    The only thing I wanted to do was curl up in my bed and take a nap. The day had been long and


    draining. I was still slightly hungover, and with everything that had taken. ce, I didn’t know what to do


    with myself.


    It was the first time in a very long time I had wished my  mother was present. That I could go to her for


    advice, have her bring me a hot cup of tea, and sit on the bed and talk to me.


    My mother and I hadn’t been close in years, and once upon a time, we had been. When I was little, I was


    everything to her, just as Pollux was, and she was everything to me. But then, of course, as I grew, we


    grew apart, and it became moreplicated than we would have liked.


    Our rtionship was strained, and it became more strained the day I turned eighteen.


    She may have fought for me to try to get me and Pollux to


    stay, not wanting to have us leave, but honestly, I believed a part of her was relieved I was going


    because, for once, she could try to live normally without worrying who I was going to hurt if I got upset.


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    The moment I stepped into my room and closed the door, tears began to flow down my face. Everywhere


    I went, everything I did, I caused problems. I had to figure out how to fix myself, and perhaps it was time I


    changed slightly  who I was.


    Instead of being the girl who stood out among the masses, perhaps it was time I tried to blend in. At least


    then, if I blended in, I wouldn’t stick out with everybody wanting to  have a piece of me or something to


    say about me.


    Because the girl I was, was not a girl she would want to be proud of.