Chapter 15


    “He said I might not be husband material.”


    Flynn seems taken aback. “Oh. How did you feel about that?”


    “Angry. Worried that he might be right.” Ashamed.


    “In what context did he say it?”


    I wave my hand dismissively. “He was lecturing me about the sanctity of marriage. He said if I had no


    respect for that, I had no business being married.”


    John’s brows draw together.


    “Since Elena was married.” I rify for him.


    “I see.” Flynn purses his lips. “Christian,” he says gently. “Your father may have a point.”


    What?


    “Either you were a willing participant in a rtionship with a married woman, a rtionship that cost her


    her marriage—and much more, considering what happened to her—or you were a vulnerable


    adolescent who was taken advantage of. Which is it? You cannot have it both ways.”


    I re at him. What. The. Hell?


    “Marriage is a serious business,” he says.


    “Fuck it, John, I know that. You sound just like him!”


    “Do I? That’s not my intention. I’m just here to give you some perspective.”


    Perspective? Fuck.


    I re at him, then down at my hands, as the silence grows between us.


    Perspective, my ass. “I think Carrick’s wrong,” I mumble eventually, and I realize that I sound like the


    surly teen my father still thinks I am.


    “Of course he is. No matter what my views are on your rtionship with Mrs. Lincoln, over the years


    you’ve demonstrated a constantmitment to her. I think it’s your regret at terminating all contact with


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    her that is wearing on your conscience.”


    “There’s no regret!” I snap. “I’ve done this willingly.”


    “Guilt, then?”


    I sigh. “Guilt? I don’t feel guilty.” Do I?


    John remains impassive.


    “Hence the nightmares?” I ask.


    “Maybe.” He taps his lip with his index finger. “You’re giving up a long-standing pivotal rtionship to


    please your parents.”


    “It’s not for my parents. It’s for Ana.”


    He nods. “You are rejecting everything you know for Anastasia, the woman you love. It’s a huge step.”


    He smiles once more. “In the right direction, if you ask me.”


    I gaze at him, not knowing what to say.


    “Think about all I’ve said. Time’s up,” he says. “We can continue talking about this when I see you


    next.”


    I get up, feeling somewhat bemused. Flynn, as ever, has given me a great deal to chew on. But until


    we speak again, I have one outstanding question. “How’s Le?”


    “Making good progress.”


    “Well, that’s a relief.”


    “It is. I’ll see you next week.”


    Taylor is waiting outside in the Q7.


    “I’m going to walk home,” I inform him. I need some time to think. “I’ll see you back at Esc.”


    He gives me a pained look.


    “What?”


    “Sir, I’d be much morefortable if you rode in the car.”


    Oh, yes. Someone’s trying to kill me.


    I scowl as Taylor opens the rear door, but resigned, I climb inside.


    Am I no longer master of my own universe?


    My dark mood worsens.


    “Where’s Ana?” I ask Mrs. Jones when I enter the living room.


    “Good evening, Mr. Grey. I believe she’s in the shower.”


    “Thanks.”


    “Dinner in twenty minutes?” she asks as she stirs a pot on the stove. The aroma is tantalizing.


    “Make it thirty.” Ana in the shower has possibilities. Mrs. Jones tries to hide her smile, but I see it and


    ignore it. I go in search of my girl. She’s not in the bathroom but the bedroom, standing at the window,


    wrapped in a towel and dewy from her shower.


    “Hi,” she says with a huge smile that vanishes as I approach. “What’s wrong?”


    Before I can reply, I wrap her in my arms and hold her tight, inhaling her sweet, just-showered


    fragrance. It soothes my soul.


    “Christian. What is it?” She runs her hands up my back, pressing me close.


    “I just want to hold you.” I bury my face in her hair that’s twisted into a chaotic topknot.


    “I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.” Her voice is tinged with tension. I hate it when she’s anxious. I bring


    my hand up to cradle her head, tip it back, then press my lips to hers and kiss her, pouring my anxiety


    into our kiss. She responds immediately, caressing my face, opening up to me, her tongue sparring


    with mine.


    Oh, Ana.


    When she pulls away we’re both winded, and I’m hard.


    Fucking hard. For her.


    “What’s wrong?” she asks, gently cajoling me and scrutinizing my face for clues.


    “Later,” I murmur against her lips, and start walking her backward to the bed. She grabs at mypels


    and tries to divest me of my jacket while her towel falls to the floor, leaving her naked in my arms.


    Reaching up, I tug on the stic holding her precarious bun and release her hair so that it tumbles


    down around her shoulders and breasts. My hands skim down her back and I cup her backside, pulling


    her against me. “I want you.”


    “I can tell.” She wriggles against my erection.


    Fuck. I grin and gently push her onto the bed so that she sprawls across it in all her naked glory, while I


    stand over her, my legs between her knees.


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