Chapter 189


    Mango had relented but Nathaniel felt no joy. This was because he felt the resistance in Mango''s


    heart, but even then shepromised for him.


    Mango now was exactly the person like she was five years ago, who waspletely devoid of her


    own opinions and she lived only by Nathaniel''s wishes. Once, Nathaniel had enjoyed it and he felt


    that it was an honor to be loved by a woman like this. However, now that he was in love as well, he


    realized how powerless and sad it was to lose yourself for someone you love.


    Nathaniel stood in front of the bed and he did not move. Mango was surprised.


    "What''s wrong?"


    "Don''t worry about me. You can do whatever you want. What I really want is a wife, one who is true


    to herself and not a person who gives herself up for me. No matter what, I will be right by your side."


    Nathaniel''s voice was not loud but soft and gravelly. Nevertheless, Mango was very touched.


    She suddenly realized that her efforts five years ago might not have been as big of a deal as she


    thought it was.


    At the time, all she did was follow behind Nathaniel. Back then, she looked at Nathaniel and she


    fantasized about when he would stop to pay attention to her. However, she had never realized that


    this kind of love was abnormal. Instead, that was a lowly sort of love that meant nothing.


    If you wanted someone to fall in love with you, you have to show him your best qualities. Thus, you


    should not lose yourselfpletely for him.


    Five years ago, Mango was nothing but a puppet. At the time, she had no soul and no thoughts of


    her own. Everything she did was so that Nathaniel would look at her, even if he looked at her with


    nothing but pity.


    Once upon a time, she was a proud and popr girl. No matter if it was in school or in the Art


    Faculty, she was highly respected and adored. Flowever, ever since she met Nathaniel and fell in


    love with him, she hadpletely lost herself.


    In thest eight years, looking back on it now, there seemed to be very few moments that were truly


    worth remembering"


    Instead of actively strengthening herself, improving herself, trying to make herself worthy, and


    keeping up with Nathaniel, she had been humble and wasting away her time in pursuit of love.


    Flow could this version of Mango be worthy of Nathaniel in any way?


    Flow could she be an equal to him? Furthermore, was it even justified to say that she was


    Nathaniel''s wife?


    Nathaniel was born with a silver spoon in his mouth. Thus, he could have any woman he wanted.


    Flence, was it fair for Nathaniel to deal with the negative consequences just because he loved her?


    Of course not! She had no right to ask Nathaniel to stay for her!


    Mango felt that God had been merciful to her because Nathaniel could fall in love with her. Whether


    it was guilt or true love, Mango did not want to think about these useless things. Instead, she knew


    that being with Nathaniel now was a new chance.


    It did not matter how pathetic she had been or what she had missed. Right now, she had a great


    chance to start over with Nathaniel.


    After Mango thought about all of this, she suddenly felt that she used to be so self-absorbed. If she


    had figured it out earlier, would she and Nathaniel not have been like this today?


    Mango felt thankful for the fire incident five years ago that at least kept her from losing Nathaniel.


    Moreover, she was also grateful to herself that her feelings for Nathaniel remained strong even


    though five years have passed. Additionally, Mango was most grateful for that disaster because it


    made her realize what a rare man Nathaniel was. Indeed, he was a man worthy of her lifelong


    devotion and herpanionship.


    Mango had never understood her needs as well as she did right now.


    She just wanted the man in front of her!


    Not only did she want him by her side, but she also wanted his heart, his love, and his entire life!


    However, Mango did not want to just receive without giving back. Life was a long and winding path


    and no one would put in the effort for someone for no reason, even if it was the person they loved


    the most. Hence, if one wanted to be someone''s equal, one had to be strong to pass through trial.


    Mango sighed softly, but her gaze slowly became brighter.


    Then, she averted her gaze from Nathaniel and she looked at the scenery outside the window.


    Suddenly, she felt it was wonderful. The sky was a brilliant blue and the sunlight wasfortingly


    warm.


    Why should she refuse such beautiful things?


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    Mango smiled slightly and it carried a sense of relief.


    Nathaniel felt taken aback and he was confused at that.


    He had not seen Mango smile in a long time. Ever since Mango had returned, she had been holding


    herself back and she lived life cautiously.


    Then now, she smiled.


    The whole world seemed to change for her and it became very colorful.


    Soon, the torment and fear in her heart had slowly dissipated.


    Nathaniel did not know what Mango had thought through, but the serenity and relief of the moment


    rxed him.


    He sat down beside Mango and he asked softly, "Do you still need a psychiatrist?"


    Mango shook her head and she said, "The psychiatrist can only guide me. If I don''t want to confront


    my fears, there''s nothing he can do either. Thank you, Nathaniel."


    Nathaniel was a little confused by her sudden gratitude.


    "Thank me?"


    "Yes, thank you. Thank you for not giving up on me for thest five years, and thank you for falling


    in love with me. It doesn''t matter how much of that love is actually guilt, but I''m serious right now. I''ll


    ask you one more time, do you really intend to be with me for the rest of your life? You''ll always be


    with me, no matter how difficult the future may be and no matter who opposes it?"


    Mango looked at Nathaniel with an unusual brightness in her eyes, which were so much of hope in


    it.


    Nathaniel felt like he was looking at a beautiful starlit sky, deep and mystifying.


    He took Mango''s hand and he ced it on his chest where his heartbeat was beating hard. Thus,


    Mango was very shocked. The warmth of his body traveled down her fingertips and it spread from


    her fingers to her whole body.


    Truly, it was as warm as a beautiful spring day.


    So, this was what it was like to be in love.


    After eight years, she finally experienced that same heart-pounding sensation again. However, the


    only difference was that eight years ago, her love was unrequited. Now, eight yearster, they were


    finally on the same page.


    Nathaniel looked at her seriously and he said, "For as long as I live, I, Nathaniel, will be with no one


    else "Really? I won''t allow you to regret that decision then!"


    Mango smiled confidently.


    Although she was still haggard and thin, Nathaniel seemed to have seen the Mango she was half a


    year ago right then.


    At the time, Mango was excellent at painting and she was regarded as the best in the whole Art


    Faculty. Thus, Nathaniel still remembered that the first time he saw Mango was the moment she


    won the contest.


    She was young and full of confidence as if all people would obey her will.


    That one look at her firmly engraved Mango into Nathaniel''s memory.


    After that, Nathaniel found that he quite liked her when the two of them coincidentally slept with


    each other in the hotel.


    The young and energetic Mango was perfect for someone who was as cold as him. Perhaps she


    could bring him a little excitement.


    Back then, he had decided to marry her no matter what anyone said. Nathaniel had told everyone


    that it was because he had to take responsibility for sleeping with Mango. In truth, he knew better


    than anyone else that he had feelings for her.


    However, Mango seemed to have changed into another person after they got married. She was


    obedient and respectful to him until she hadpletely lost her former confidence. With that,


    Nathaniel had once thought that he might have gotten married to the wrong person. Even so, what


    could he do?


    Mango loved him so much and she never did anything bad to him. Hence, Nathaniel could not


    divorce her.


    Therefore, Nathaniel no longer paid attention to Mango. Although he knew that she had put in a lot


    of effort to the point which she lost herself, he still did not like it. However, after the big fire incident


    five years ago, he found that even if Mango was no longer herself, his feelings for her were still


    there in his heart.


    Nathaniel thought that perhaps the loss of his child had made him feel guilty. Now that he saw


    Mango''s confident expression again, he felt the same sensations in his heart like he did half a year


    ago.


    Their rtionship had taken a lot of detours over the past six months. Nevertheless, their hearts


    were tightly entwined together now and one nce could make them feel warm down to the core.


    Nathaniel held Mango in his arms and he said gently, "Did you know? When I first saw you, you


    wanted to rule the world and everyone else paled inparison to you. Back then, I thought that


    you were brilliant. But then over the next eight years, I never saw you like that again. I even thought


    that marrying me made you lose all your vitality. But now seeing you like this, I''m sure you can


    regain yourself, right?"


    Mango was surprised and she asked quickly, "Didn''t you see me for the first time at the party?" "The


    first time I saw you was when you won the painting contest."


    Nathaniel''s words surprised Mango for a long time.


    It turned out that he had noticed her earlier than she thought.


    Thus, their first encounter was glorious indeed.


    Mango smiled widely with satisfaction.


    "Thank God it wasn''t at the party, if not I''d die of shame."


    Nathaniel hugged her gently and he said softly, "If that were the first time, I wouldn''t have married


    you no matter who you were."


    "Then what have I been doing for the past eight years?"


    "It''s all over now, and our future will be bright. Trust me. Our daughter will have a sessful surgery


    and I will find our son. Wisdom will grow up happy as well. Our days together will only get better


    from now onwards."


    Nathaniel did not avoid the topic of Zion''s disappearance.


    It was not like that Zion would return if he did not talk about it. They were husband and wife, and


    they would deal with whatever issues that concerned their children together.


    Mango somehow felt quite sad upon hearing that.


    There was still no heads up about Zion so far. It was not good news for Mango, but she also knew


    that the most important thing now for her was to cure herself. If she copsed, then how could she


    go on for the sake of her child as well as Nathaniel?


    After that, Mango sighed and she said, "Do you want to know what happened that made me unable


    to eat?"


    "Don''t force yourself if you don''t want to tell me. When you change your mind about it, I''ll be there


    for you. Whether you tell me or not, it won''t change a thing. I''ll be with you and I will protect you. I


    promise you that my feelings will never change."


    Nathaniel''s words touched Mango''s heart. She took a deep breath and said, "I think it''s better if I


    told you. Maybe it would help me get over the trauma."