Chapter 38


    Chapter 38


    Upon paying closer attention to his words, I caught a hint of vulnerability and helplessnessced in his


    tone.


    The old me would have been overjoyed to hear this.


    I closed my eyes and didn''t say another word, neither did I try to break free from his embrace. We


    stood there stiff for a long time before he finally let go of me. He then asked in a soft voice, "What is


    your room number?"


    That immediately brought a frown to my face. "It would be better for you to get a room of your own," I


    told him.


    He proceeded to stride into the hotel like he hadn''t heard a word I said. I stood there contemting for


    some time before I headed to the elevator and pressed the button that brought me to the 5th floor.


    As I got to my room and pushed the door open, I was so startled I froze in ce. "How did you find out


    my room number?" I asked, baffled as I was sure I didn''t tell May my room number.


    Nichs took off his tie with an indifferent expression. "What an unfortunate coincidence that you live in


    a hotel that belongs to me. Oh, and one more thing—May Sommer''s didn''t even contact me."


    "You knew I was in Eldham from the time I checked into this hotel with my ID card? When did youe


    here? How long have you been waiting outside?" I looked at him in surprise and asked.


    I ran away to Eldham with the sole intention to get away from him, but I had no idea that I had foolishly


    entered hisir.


    Nichs didn''t say anything as the corners of his lips curled into a smile. Despite him being so angry


    he could explode just awhile ago, he was now in a very happy mood.


    I, on the other hand, was feeling gloomy as I went into the room and got to my suitcase. He didn''t stop


    me when he saw me tidying up my clothes. He only spoke again after I was done with my chore. "You


    can''t run away from me, Renee Felix. I will go wherever you go. I have the time to spend on this


    anyway."


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    His words made me stop whatever I was doing. Turning to look at him, I coldly asked, "What the hell do


    you want from me?"


    We were like a knot that couldn''t be undone. This, however, wasn''t my fault. It was because he kept


    sticking to me like an annoying fly.


    He had be rather stubborn when it came to me after he lost his memory.


    "Marry me again. Be Mrs. Forger once more."


    I somewhat subconsciously shot him a reply. "Impossible."


    I would never be his wife again in this life.


    His face visibly fell when I unhesitantly rejected him. As he raised his hand to touch my cheek, I turned


    my head the other way to dodge him. He then squatted down to look at me at eye level. His deep eyes


    seemed to shine as he looked into mine, and it was so piercing my eyes started to burn.


    I still couldn''t suppress the thundering emotions that would arise because of him.


    These emotions all came from the pain, sadness, helplessness, and greed of the past.


    I suddenly understood why everyone told me that Nichs was the one who stayed with me for three


    years.


    This man was both the reason for the love and the hurt within the deepest corner of my heart, even if


    the love had been passed on to him from elsewhere.


    Just as May said, Christopher''s appearance had been a sh in the pan. He was the reason I got to


    know Nichs. Thinking of this, my fixation from nine years ago seems to waver ever-so-slightly.


    I couldn''t help feeling dejected as my faith crumbled.


    As I lowered my gaze, I heard him say, "Renee, I don''t know what happened between us as I lost my


    memory. It feels very back-and-forth to not be in control. You are used to being in a position of power


    as the president of Felix Corporation, so I am sure you know how I feel. I want to regain that memory,


    Renee. My doctor said that I need to get in touch with people and things from the past, and you just so


    happen to be the most crucial person in this."


    I was the president of mypany, which meant that I was always at a high position. Naturally, I would


    understand how important figures habitually felt the need to have everything within their control.


    I then stood up and smiled indifferently. "What makes you think I will help you?"


    He stood up as well the next moment. He tilted his head and looked at ripples of the river water before


    he said softly in a low and maic voice. "I can give you love and care if that is what you want.


    Coincidentally, I want my memory back. We have what each other needs. Give us a chance, Renee."


    He said that he could give me love and care the way I wanted to receive them…


    He had given me those before, but he didn''t evenst more than a few days before he went away from


    my life.


    The next time we met again was when he insisted on sending my friend to prison. He didn''t even


    reconsider his decision no matter how hard I pleaded with him.


    I recall how I had brought up my lost child then. "I didn''t say anything when you took my child away


    from me two years ago, Nichs. I didn''t even make noise when you said that I had no right to be the


    mother of your children when we were in front of the doctor! Now that you have taken away my chance


    of bing a mother, how about you let May go in return?"


    Nichs at the time was extremely kind to Maria, but he was oddly cruel and cold-hearted to me. It was


    ringly obvious how pathetic I must have seemed when put toparison like this. All in all, the only


    reason he had acted that way was because he didn''t love me then.


    It wasn''t as though I couldn''t understand why he did everything he did. He didn''t love me, after all.


    However, I couldn''t forgive and forget the fact that he was already treating me that way back when I


    was still his spouse.


    He had never respected me as a person, and neither had he shown respect for me as his wife.


    I walked to him and as I held his hand tight, I slid my fingers between his. He looked stunned by my


    sudden approach. I then raised our hands in front of my face and asked without that much of an


    emotion in my voice, "Why do you think I need your love?"


    Nichs was at a loss for words.


    I could get anyone to date me, but I would never go to him or Christopher.


    Seeing as to how he wasn''t going to reply to me, I asked again, "Were you not curious about what


    exactly happened between us?"


    I could feel his grip tighten then as my palm turned white from theck of blood flow. Still, I put on a


    calm face and smiled. "I fell in love with a man nine years ago. He was like my religion, and I would


    always follow him. However, he left my world soon after. Fast forward to six yearster, your father


    came to me and asked me to marry a member of the Forger Family. As you already know, the Felixes


    were in such a high position we looked down upon the whole of Bryxton. On top of that, the Forger


    Corporation was only a technologypany that hasn''t even been around for ten years. Naturally, I


    rejected your father''s proposal."


    Nichs pursed his lips for a moment before he asked, "And then what happened?"


    It was still fresh in my memory how my heart quivered hopefully when Chairman Forger took out that


    photo. The only thought I had at that time was that I had to marry the man in the photo no matter what.


    So when I learned of Maria''s existence, I took the initiative to look for her like how wealthy women


    would deal with their husband''s entanglement outside. I was willing to endure the pain and hurt by


    myself.


    With my eyes wet, I started barking one question after another. "I thought you were him when your


    father showed me your photo, and that was why I married you with no hesitation. But you? You abused


    me for three whole years and killed the child in my womb! How do you think my uterine cancer came


    about? How do you think my body got ruined like this?!"


    His pupils abruptly dted as he heard my usations, and he took a step back.


    But I wasn''t done with him. "You forced me into sleeping with you when my body hasn''t recovered from


    the abortion! I couldn''t bear to reject you because I thought you were Christopher. I never once rejected


    you! Even though you hurt me time after time, I always forgave you unconditionally and did my best to


    treat you well! I was even willing to give you mypany and everything else after I learned about how


    much time I have left!" I eximed tearfully as I covered my eyes with my hands.


    I knew that the more selfless my words sounded, the more I was hurting Nichs. Every sacrifice I had


    done was because I had mistaken him for Christopher.


    I didn''t know why I was spouting things to hurt him intentionally, but it felt great the more I talked.


    Slowly and steadily, I was returning all the heartache he had caused me before.


    His voice was deep and heavy when he finally spoke again. "Does this mean that I am a thief who took


    what never belonged to me?" he asked.


    I released his hand and lifted my chin to look at him.


    Nichs'' eyes had turned red at this point. He was probably holding back his anger after listening to


    my words.


    After all, he was a possessive man. He could never ept the fact that he had received love that was


    mistakenly given to him because of a misidentification. I gave myself a minute to think things through,


    and I finally told him truthfully, "Yes. You were never the man I was in love with."