Chapter 0215


    “And he stopped you because he is trying to protect you. I still don’t understand the purpose of her


    visit.” Raven scrunches up her face. “She came alone. She told you she hasn’t seen my brother in


    months.”


    “Dane doesn’t believe that?”


    She cocks her brow. “He doesn’t?”


    Shaking my head, I sigh, I wasn’t supposed to tell her that. “He is certain he could smell him on


    her.” Again, I had been too caught up in the ever seeping darkness to take notice of anything but my


    apparent half sister.


    The world could have been imploding around me and I would have been oblivious.


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    She pauses to let my words sink in and then carries on as though I never mentioned him. “Just


    turning up to tell you your father allegedly had an affair, I call bullshit. Damien saw her like six


    months ago. She was in the city. It wouldn’t have been hard to find our location, even if my dipshit


    brother is helping her. So why has she waited all this time?”


    “Your guess is as good as mine.”


    *****


    Dorothy is ying peek-a-boo with the boys. Their giggles turn into hystericalughter as she pops


    up from under their high chairs. She had this amazing way with them and loved to make them


    laugh. Damien said she had a need to feel wanted. Something I understood too well.


    She never talked about what happened to her to anyone other than Damien. If someone walked in


    when she was mid chatting, she would stop immediately. I was happy that she had a safe person.


    There were times where I wondered if I would have turned out like her if I had been saved after my


    parents death rather than being forced into hell until I met Dane.


    “Dottie.” Damien mutters. “Please eat your breakfast.”


    “I’m just ying Daddy.”


    “You can y as much as you want when you have eaten.”


    She continues to pull faces at the twins as she settles on a chair at the table.


    “How are you?” Damien asks while putting pancakes on Dorothy’s te.


    I nod, because if I let out how I really feel, I was scared that there would be noing back.


    When breakfast is done, Raven takes the kids to go get cleaned up and dressed for the day.


    I sit there, watching Damien move around the kitchen clearing up. “How did it feel?”


    He pauses and slowly turns back to me. “I’m assuming you are asking me what it felt like to be


    Rogue.”


    My shoulders drop as I nod my head. He puts down his tes and sits back at the table opposite


    me. A crease forms between his brows.


    “At first it felt right.”


    I snort. That was thest thing I thought he would say.


    “I’m going to tell you how it is, Neah. There is no point in lying. You talk about the darkness and


    that’s exactly what happens. It creeps in, sticking to your insides like a cancer without you knowing.


    There will be little shes of it and it’s always there, tightly coiling around your insides until there is


    no goodness left.”


    He leans forward to grab the juice and pours himself another ss. I’m sure right now, with this


    conversation, he would prefer something much stronger.


    “Decisions will be darker and you won’t realise until it’s toote. When it finally happens, you


    feel free. Everything bes easier. Life makes more sense.”


    “But eventually, you end up trapped. A vicious cycle, destined to achieve one goal. That life that was


    once freeing bes the very bane of your existence. You have to fight it, Neah. You have to be


    the Alpha you are supposed to be and you can’t do that if you be a Rogue.”


    “Do you think my past has led to this?”


    “Likely, yes. There is something inside of you that looks for freedom and you feel as though you are


    yet to find it. You need to look around you Neah. Everyone here cares about you. No one here


    wants to harm you. You are not beaten, you are not starved. You have a mate that adores you. You


    have everything going for you. Do not let one scorned woman tear you down from who you are


    supposed to be.”


    “It doesn’t stop.”


    “It will never stop.” He frowns “The darkness will always be there. It will never fade. You need to


    learn to channel it. But don’t let it be you.”


    “You still fight it, even now?”


    “I will for the rest of my life.” He smiles, his eyes lighting up. “Raven helps, but she doesn’t know


    how much. She’s a beacon of light in the darkness and when I feel the darkness slipping. I seek her


    out. Mallory and I can help you as much as we can, but until you find your own light, it will be a


    battle.”


    The question burns and I should force it down, but it tumbles from my mouth as though it needed to


    be heard. “What if I can’t? What if… What if this is too deeply embedded inside of me?”


    “Do you really believe that?”