8. Waves and Confessions


    "I don''t know why I''m here," I tell the janitor as I stand in his closet and he raises an eyebrow before


    shutting the door and leaving.


    I got a note from Theodore saying to meet him here. "It''s important" but it been thirty minutes. I


    should''ve known.


    I angrily stomp out and lucky me I find him leaning against a locker talking to some girl.


    But who am I right?


    I only roll my eyes and get to the first period early. I sat in my seat mming my book onto the desk


    and doodling all over it.


    The door opens and I assume it''s the teacher so I don''t bother lifting my head.


    "This isn''t the janitor''s closet." The deep voice rings and I grit my teeth.


    "What game are you ying at?" The stupid idiot raises an eyebrow at me and I roll my eyes. "How


    dare you just ditch me so you could lean against a locker talking to some Betty bye-bye."


    "Betty bye-bye?" He saysughing and I m the book shut. "Rx Quen I was just discussing


    something with a friend."


    "Oh okay. That makes everything better! I don''t even know why I agreed. I don''t even know what I''m


    doing anymore." Tears spring to my eyes mentally curse myself. "You have me on this stupid


    rollercoaster and I want to get off!  I can''t do this! I came to college to learn. And to get away from you.


    Okay? You took away everything from me. What else do you want Theodore? What else?! Because


    I honestly have nothing left." Grabbing my stuff I decide that maybe its best I look for another


    apartment.


    I skip ss for the rest of the day just sitting in the dorm on myptop, searching for apartments


    nearby.


    They''re all so expensive but I found a decent one that I could pay the two first months, but then I''ll have


    to get a job.


    Dialing the number, I wait a few seconds and on the third ring, a woman answers.


    "Um. . . hello, I''m calling about your one-bedroom apartment? Not too far from Hudson College?"


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    "Thanks so much for helping out." I sigh at Ocean and he smiles picking up the boxes.


    "You''re wee."


    Amazingly, I got the apartment on the same day that I called. Seems like she was in desperate need of


    the money, I hope she doesn''t need it all the time.


    Halfway done, Theodorees stomping in.


    "What is going on here?" He all but roars and I stand tall.


    "I''m moving out," I inform him and his face falls.


    "What?"


    "I''m gone, Theodore. Bye-bye." I smile sarcastically as Ocean loads thest box. There wasn''t much


    stuff anyway, I just wanted it to move fast.


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    "Quensi wait!" He grabs my arm and I re and his hand that wraps around it.


    He releases and I cross my arms staring at him.


    "I''m sorry okay. I- I don''t know how exactly to do this. I like you, you know I do, but it''s hard to express


    things that I''m not ustomed to. I''m sorry that I made you so mad all the time and that I kiss you


    when you don''t want to. I''m sorry. I''m so sorry. If you want to leave that''s fine, I''m not going to stop you,


    I just want you to forgive me."


    I''m speechless by the end of his confession and I nod.


    "I-I need some time. . ." I tell him and he nods stepping aside.


    "Goodbye. . ."He murmurs and I nod.


    "Bye. . ." I turn around and leave. It feels strange as I hug Ocean and get into my car driving off. I


    ignore all feelings and push them deep down where they belong.