Chapter 79
Chapter 79 She was naked on top of William
The next day, Doris met William out in a clearing a bit away from the camp. He stayed at a different cabin
and she hadn’t seen him since he brought her back to the camp the day before. No one had ventured out
to even notice she had been gone, not one person was concerned about her. Only him. She hated how
that made her feel inside, as if her heart could stop for him and she despised her own weakness. It was
right that he slept in his own cabin. There were more than enough and it wasn’t right for them to share a
bed in the first ce. She brought clothes that were too big for her and an extra set just incase it ripped
off during the process. Thest thing she needed was to be wandering around naked because her wolf
tore her clothes. He stood with his hands deep in his pockets and his eyes anywhere but her. She tried
not to notice how lovely he looked in the color red. It made his eyes look even more blue than normal-if
that was possible. She set down her things and went to stand in front of him. “Does it always hurt when
you change into your wolf?” “Yes. You just get used to it.” William said. They were far enough from the
camp that no one would see or hear them as she attempted to change on demand. At least no one
would see her failures. His words though made her want to turn back to her cabin and hide under the
covers. But she couldn’t. She wasn’t like that anymore, she couldn’t live her life in fear. She had to
control her own future and her life was meant to be lived, not feared. If she now had a wolf inside her,
she would learn to embrace it… or try to. “Okay.” Doris took a breath. “What should I do first?” William
looked down at her with raised brows. “It’s not about forcing it. It’s about calling it to your will.” Doris
furrowed her brow in confusion. “I tried to call it in the snow but it wouldn’te” “Did you try to call to it?
Or did you try to force it toe?” William asked as he crossed his arms over his chest. “Your wolf
doesn’t like to be controlled when it’s new.” Doris stood there and looked around as if the answer would
fall from the sky. “How do you suppose I call for it? Just… say her name?” William rolled his eyes to the
sky and let out a breath of frustration. “No. You call her from within and let it take control of you. You
have to be willing to let her do that.” “Oh.” Doris chewed on her lip. She supposed a part of her had been
trying not to let the wolf takeplete control of her body. She pushed back even in her darkest times,
she didn’t want to lose that sort of control to something she didn’t really trust yet. It was hard to even
think of doing that now. Doris took another deep breath and closed her eyes. She could feel her wolf hum
inside her as if it was waiting for her to call upon it. The stubborn wolf must have always been listening
beneath the surface. It made her resent it a bit more when she realized she knew Doris had been
suffering and didn’t once offer to help her. Perhaps it wanted her toe to the decision on her own-but
a little guidance would have been wonderful when she felt so clueless. “Keep your eyes closed and
speak inwardly to your wolf.” William said by her ear. She could feel him as he moved around her, almost
as if her own body tracked him like he was a part of her. She shivered at the sound of his voice and felt
her cheeks heat almost instantly. Doris cleared her throat and went for it. “Cordelia?” She asked in her
mind. “Yes?” Cordelia responded, it sounded as if she was smirking. Doris tried to keep the conversation
in her mind even when her lips parted to answer out loud. “I… give you permission to take control.” “Oh,
do you? That’s nice.” Cordelia responded. Doris sighed and opened her eyes. “She’s being stubborn.”
“Our wolves can be bolder versions of ourselves.” William said. He was still behind her. “Call to her,
command her to take control and shift.” Doris closed her eyes and tried again. “Cordelia. Imand you
to take over.” Doris said with a bit more confidence than she felt. She could have sworn the wolfughed
at her and her hands curled into fists at her sides. “You’re not doing it right. Listen to our mate a little
closer.” Cordelia said. 23 Doris blew out a frustrated breath and opened her eyes to find him standing in
front of her again. “It’s not working. She won’te.” “She must be testing you. She wants you to be
stronger.” William said. He studied her face as if he could see her wolf if he looked hard enough. “It’s not
always about asking, she can feel what you want and it’s her choice to answer.” Doris closed her eyes
one more time and tried to focus on what he meant. Don’t force her, let here. But don’t ask either?
Doris tried to find a bit of bnce in herself and she knew her wolf lingered nearby patiently. Why
couldn’t she have a wolf that actually liked to do what it was told? She felt a sense of calm wash over her
as she released a breath. She imagined her wolf stepping into control and allowing her body to be
her own instead of staying in the background of everything. Doris allowed her to have the freedom, the
power she knew she craved. There was no one to save, not even herself. She just wanted her toe
out and see the daylight for once in her life. “Alright…” Cordelia hissed. “If you insist, I’lle out to
y.” Doris felt the shift mimic the feeling from before, but she didn’t ever think she would get used to it.
Not in a hundred years. Her bones cracked, every single one of them. They shifted and formed new
shapes that made her feel intense agony as she dropped to all fours. Her clothes stretched and ripped
from her back despite her attempt at finding something big enough tost this sort of thing. She
supposed nothing she had wouldst this, would it? White fur exploded across her skin, she felt her legs
shift and her fingers fomm into paws. Her screams turned to howls almost instantly, it was as if she no
longer owned her own body the second Cordelia stepped in. She whimpered when she realized it
worked. His advice worked and she should have been happy but she only felt more afraid. She didn’t
want this body, she didn’t want this life. Doris turned to look at William and realized he had shifted too.
His wolf was ck as night with bright blue eyes she would never forget. Her wolf was excited to see
him, Cordelia hurried to press her nose against his in a sort of greeting and didn’t listen when Doris tried
to tell her to step back away from the prince. It wasn’t proper for her to act that way with him, no matter
how much her wolf wanted to. Doris forced her wolf away and she heard Cordelia growl inwardly. Doris
wanted to shout, but she couldn’t. All that came out were more howls or whimpers. Was she able to
speak inside her head as a wolf? Doris didn’t understand how any of this worked, not in the slightest.
Everything just made her even more confused than thest. William watched her curiously and walked
around her wolf. She sat still and let him observe her until he wandered into the trees and came out a
few minutester as his human version. He had his clothes on still, thank the moon goddess for that.
“You need to learn how to pull it in and change back. You never want your wolf to have too much
control.” Cordelia bared her teeth at William as if she was threatening him. Doris forced Cordelia to go
towards the woods so they could change back but she wouldn’t budge. A dark sort of feeling lingered in
her mind, she knew it wasn’t her own thoughts that made her feel that way. It was strange not being able
to control herself, to have a wolf with a mind of her own that just demanded to be heard even when it
wasn’t
right. Her wolf jumped on William. He caught her in mid air and fell back into the snow. Once she was on
top of him, Cordelia released her hold and allowed Doris to shift back into her human form. Doris didn’t
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