Chapter 78: 78 The Heart Wants What It Wants
The Heart Wants What It Wants
- She''s saying that there''s a lot of reasons she should finally leave him, and her mind knows it''s not
right, but she can''t get her heart to stop wanting him. It''s a mind over matter dilemma.
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"Yes." I answer firmly.
My heart breaks into pieces as I answer him. My lips are saying words that I don''t want to say in front
of the man I love. As I answer him, I could feel his pain living inside his eyes. I was surprised that
Dakota didn''t tell Nick about it. I guess she didn''t tell him about how she walked inside my office and
humiliated me in front of her.
"When?" He asked.
"It''s on the invitation card."
"No." He snapped.
He exhales heavily and walks in little circles while massaging his temples.
"I meant when did you n this? Tell me, when was it? Savannah you knew how I felt about you and I
told you the whole truth." He adds.
"Nick." I snapped, almost sounding like a yell. I took a deep breath in. "I can''t. I just can''t do this
anymore."
I curl my fist behind my back. Don''t cry. Don''t show him your tears Savannah. You''re stronger now.
You''re a strong woman. I scold myself.
"I can''t wait for you anymore. I told you that." I added.
I try to bite my tongue for five seconds to avoid myself from crying before saying the next words to him.
"I''m tired of waiting for you. I''m tired of waiting for nothing from you, all the fucking time and yet you
always fail me. This is so redundant and I''m so so tired with all of it. I''m so tired of getting tired! I may
love you still, but please." I say weakly.
"Let me go." My voice shakes.
He didn''t answer for a while and I just went silent.
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"How can I let you go when you''re all I have that I took advantage of?" He says to me.
I exhale. "You had me all along but you lost me not only once Nick. You always lose me."
"And now that I found someone for me, I''m not letting you break my personal space again. I''m happy
with Damon. I came here to invite you and Mrs. Wilde personally on my wedding day." I add.
He didn''t say anything.
"I would be happy to see you there Nick." I continued.
"Then what was that night for?" He asked as I see him hid in his years.
"We made love Savannah." He adds.
I shake my head. "We just fucked, Nick. It was just a one night stand and I don''t want to remember it
ever again. It was a mistake. I was drunk and I''m sorry."
"You don''t have to be sorry for such a wonderful night." He tells me.
Don''t give in Savannah.
"I came here for that and now that you have it, I''d be happy seeing you both there." I say.
"Have a good day Mr. President." I marched my way to the door and left.
I exhaled heavily through my mouth and started leaving the door. I marched my way inside my office
and my tears streamed down my face after holding it for so long. Goodness Savannah! Why do you still
cry over Nick for god''s sake? Why do you still get affected by him when it''s been years?
?????
Two weeks before my wedding, the wedding gown just arrived from Mn and I was staring at myself in
front of the mirror. I loved it with all the sparkling crystals on it, even though I didn''t really design it for
myself. It was more of Damon''s mom''s ideas with a little help from my mom.
It sort of looked like, everyone was so excited and ecstatic about the wedding but not me. Everyone
was so happy seeing their own gowns arriving. Everyone was looking forward for it aside from me.
Everyone was busy for that day toe. Everyone went wedding gift shopping for us. Everyone was
totally prepared. Everyone but not me.
I stare at myself longer at the huge mirror and imagined myself walking down the aisle for Nick as it
slowly starts to fade away cos realityes in. It''s been weeks since thest time I saw him and it was
on that day when I gave him the invitation card. After that, he didn''t visit the office anymore even
though Dakota wasn''t around yet.
He''s hurt, probably, but he has never been hurt the way I did.
"You look beautiful on this gown." I tell myself as I smile.
I exhale heavily. "Beautiful."
I stare at myself.
"Smile Savannah." I pulled my head up.
"A week to go and you''re already Mrs. Patricks." I added.
The following night, I was driving my way to the hotel where me and my girls were going to have our
bachelorette party that was initiated by my college friends in NYU. I invited a few from my high school
friends as well but Tracy said she couldn''te tonight since she''s busy for work, instead she
promised to be there for my wedding day.
When I saw Erica and Helen, my high school friends, they quickly dragged me to the room where
everything was going to happen. Damon was also having his stag''s party but it was on a different
venue. I didn''t really cared about him screwing other women tonight because I trust him and I did it
once behind his back as well.
"We are so gonna enjoy this." Helen says to me.
"It sucks so bad that Savannah is getting married too soon!"
I smiled at them as I settled myself on the couch. I had no idea what was going to happen but I''m sure
as hell there''s going to male strippers here tonight. All the other women were giddy but I just sat here
with a ss of vodka on my hand.
"Weedies!" Helen says to all and she was answered with shrieks.
"Settle down. Settle down. Don''t get wild." Erica adds.
Wild. I sigh. Nick Wilde.
"Reserve your energy in a while because it is the night that we celebrate Savannah''sst days of being
single!"
They shrieked and cheered for me.
"Let''s all have a toast for the luckiest woman on earth, to be married to the most amazing man I know.
To Savannah and Damon." Helen makes a toast and all of us raised a ss.
After making a toast, one door suddenly opened and the male strippers started entering and doing their
thing right away without further adieu. They started stripping off their policeman outfit, imagine Magic
Mike, that''s how these men are dancing right before us while taking off piece by piece from their
clothes.
They started crowding around me and pulled me up from the couch. They danced and grind against me
but I just stood thereughing at myself and the other women who were obviously going crazy about
these three good looking men with super hot beach body.
A lot of dancing happened when the other women started getting involve and I sat back down. I was in
the mood to party tonight but when I remember that I''ll be married days from now, it kills me every time.
I have been literally trying to force myself that I am emotionally ready to get married to Damon, but I
always end up not wanting to get married to him yet.
There were so many booze and loud music and so much grinding on top of myp. I wasughing and
touching the male strippers'' bodies. I was enjoying it for a few minutes. I didn''t really mind at all, they''re
paid to do it and we can touch freely. Rhey were all hot anyways and one touch won''t harm. I was also
dancing with my third ss of vodka on my hand.
When I felt bored inside the room, I sneakily stepped out and left. I wanted to be alone so I started
walking around the hallways of the hotel all by myself until I found the hotel''s bar lounge. I walked my
way inside and found ady singing with the pianist right before the hotel guests. I take a seat right
before the bartender and ordered myself a ss of margarita. I sigh heavily.
"You''re alone ma''m?" The waiter asked.
I nod. "Yeah. They''re all having a bachelorette party upstairs in the hotel room and I got bored of it."
"Who''s bachelorette party was it?"
"Mine."
He chuckles. "You''re getting married. Congrats ma''m."
I smiled ruefully before taking a long drink from my ss. I groaned.
"Your fiancé must be so happy. He''s lucky to have such a lovely woman, ma''m." He says to me.
"Thank you." I tell him.
I stare longer at the female singer as she sings soulfully the song Un-break My Heart while I feel every
lyric of it sing to me. I need to embrace reality and be happy of what''s happening in my life and my life
with Damon in the near future.
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
"Didn''t know I''d find you here."
I froze when I recognized that voice as I finished my ss of alcohol. I thought I was starting to hear
things but as I turned my head to my side, I found Nick sitting right next to me. He smiles at me and my
heart elerated so fast. He appears so causally as if we didn''t talk about my uing wedding.
"One ss of whiskey please." He tells the bartender.
"Your fiancé has came." The bartender smiles at me.
I wish he was my fiancé.
Un-break my heart
Say you love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out that door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry this tears
I cried so many night
"He''s not my fiancé." I tell him.
The bartender shies and started handing Nick his own drink.
"One vodka please." I say right away.
When I grabbed my ss, I take a quick drink from it and just looked straight ahead. I didn''t want to
look at Nick again, I''d just probably just end up crying right in front of him.
"Your bachelorette party''s done?" He asked me.
"No. Just went out to get some air."
From my peripheral view, I see him taking a drink from his ss.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
He sighs. "Tracy told me you''d be here. I was hoping to find you."
He travels his head to me. "And I did."
I take a longer drink.
"It''s a bachelorette party Nick. For women only." I say.
"I was thinking maybe I could be the one stripping for you."
I paused of a while and started chuckling softly. I noticed that he smiles too. I nce at him and he was
already looking at me so seriously.
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don''t leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
"You''re beautiful tonight." He says.
I sigh heavily as I feel my tears building up behind my eyes. I smile. "You know what''s funny Nick?" I
asked.
He sighs. "What is it?"
"I couldn''t exin how much pain you caused me, but damn..." I look at him.
I can''t forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
"I can''t find a single reason to hate you and to un-love you." I added.
Don''t leave me in all this pain
Don''t leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights
when I held you beside me
"I still love you until now even when I''m about to get married to another man." I continued as Iugh
humorlessly while wiping my tear.
Both of us went quiet and I think the bartender was listening to us.
"Well, I''ll always love you and you know that." He tells me.
I close my eyes as I feel my heart aching from hearing those words. I wiped my tears that were still
falling on my cheeks and I ordered another ss of margarita. I drank it all in two gulps and coughed
afterwards.
"Can I ask you a favor?" I asked him.
He nods. "Anything."
"Could you buy me another room? I don''t feel like going home." I say.
He nods.
Nick pulled out his card and paid my bill too. He started holding me and helped me in standing. I know I
could still stand but I was already having blurry vision so I held onto him. He bought a took for me and
even though I insisted that I''ll pay for it, he didn''t allow me to. He opens the room for me and helped me
get on top of the bed.
I groan. "Thanks."
He pushes my hair off my face and we just stared at each other while he was over me. We were just
simply staring at each other''s eyes while we were in a room where the nightstand was the only thing
lighting the room. I quickly pulled myself up and he moves away a little. We sit right across each other
and still no words came from our lips. I could feel the tension in between us, growing like a raging fire.
"Nick." I say.
He sets his hungry eyes at me.
"Kiss me." I demanded.
Slowly, he pulled his hand up and held my cheek as he moves in leaning closer to kiss my lips. When I
felt him pressing them on me, I feel bolts of electricity electrocuting me but I was alright as it grows
stronger. I feel his tongue against my tongue but he quickly pulled himself away.
"More Nick." I tell him.
"If I continue... I won''t be able to stop myself tonight Savannah."
I exhale. "Then don''t."
He looks at me, while our foreheads were resting against each other.
"Make love to me Nick." I begged.
I kissed his lips briefly. "Make love to me for onest time."
I sigh. "Onest."
"Please." I begged again.
He quickly dips his mouth on mine and kissed me torridly. He inserts his tongue inside my mouth as I
lick him back. My head leaning to the side and him on the other. Our kiss turned hungry as I feel him
unzipping the back of my dress and pulled it off of me.
Iy down on the bed with him on top of me, pulling out my dress down to my legs with my underwear.
He unlocks my bra right away and I was also busy taking his clothes off of him.
I opened my legs wide for him to enter as he settles his erection inside of me. I moaned on his mouth
as I feel him blocking me but he didn''t move yet. We were still kissing each other torridly until his breath
was the only air Im breathing.
He starts moving slow while his hands were roaming around my body. I locked my feet around his waist
just right behind him while he gains speed. He pulled both of my arms up above my head while he pulls
his considerable length all out and ms into me.
I moaned.
Nick kisses my neck while he keeps pulling himself in and out of me. I bite my lower lip hard as I feel
my heels digging on the bedsheets. My eyes shut close as I feel my body erupting and convulsing with
so much heat and lust. I feel alive when he''s inside. I feel like I''m on fire when he makes love to me.
"There''s nothing like onest time for what we have, Savannah." He whispers to my ear.
His hands grabbing tight on my wrist as he pounds on me relentlessly as I feel my upper body arching.
"Argh! Nick Iming...."
"This isn''t thest of us." He says as he kiss my forehead.
He moans as he grows even faster.
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