Chapter 78: 78. Wholeheartedly


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    Sa?da’s POV:


    I was afraid. Afraid that he was angry at me. He looked so stern while he drove and I felt awful. He kept


    his frown on and the vein at his temple was still swollen. I wanted to say something but decided to shut


    up.


    I was a little confused when he took a road other than the one that led to the pce. We literally drove


    out of the sultanate and headed towards its outskirts. I didn’t say anything.


    We drove for a while until the little woods and Asahd ended up parking at the top of one of the beautiful


    hills at the outskirts of the sultanate of Zagreh. It had an amazing view.


    When he stopped the car, I watched him silently. He closed his eyes and leaned forward, resting his


    head on the stirring wheel. I decided to speak because I was worried for him.


    “Are you okay? What’s wrong?” I asked gently and he was silent at first, but then answered.


    “I can’t return to the pce in this state,” he muttered and my heart broke a little. He was trying to calm


    down.


    “I’m sorry all this happened,” I started, a lump in my throat. “I told Noure about us because I thought he


    would call the engagement and wedding off or something. But things didn’t turn out the way I expected


    them to and I’m so sorry, Asahd. Please, don’t be angry with me.”


    He took a deep breath and raised his head, opening his eyes. He turned to me and said:


    “I’m not angry at you, sweetheart.”


    Relief immediately washed over me.


    “I’m angry about that fool that insists on having you when he doesn’t deserve you,” he closed his eyes


    and rubbed his forehead like his head was aching.


    “He–” he started softly and spoke like there was a lump in his throat too. “He seeded in making me


    insecure, you know.”


    I stared at a suddenly fragile Asahd and I broke even more on the inside. He opened his eyes and


    looked at me, they were watery. My breath literally hitched and I was already sad as hell, seeing him in


    such a state.


    “He made me doubt if you really love me,” Asahd swallowed and blinked several times, looking at the


    stirring and seeming to regain hisposure in order not to shed a tear. “He made me doubt for a


    while, telling me that you were only using me and stuff.”


    He swallowed and faced me again, his beautiful brown eyes still watery. The look he had on was the


    purest I’d ever seen and I thought I would sob or something. My eyes were already prickling.


    “I know,” he started, finding it difficult to speak as he definitely was fighting back the urge to cry. “I know


    I used to say that even if you were just using me, all that was important was you desiring and being


    with me. But now I want more. I take back what I said, Sa?da. I don’t want you to just desire and use


    me or whatsoever. I want you to love me. I need you to love me.”


    I didn’t even know when the tears rolled down my cheeks and the goosebumps covered my skin. My


    heart was palpitating and I’d lost my speech.


    He turned on his side and held my hands in his, looking me in the eyes.


    “P– please love me,” his voice was shaky as he begged me. “I don’t care about the rest. Just love me.


    Please. I know you already do,” he smiled a little, caressing my cheek gently. “When I came to get you


    in his apartment, before entering, I heard everything you told him about me and your love for me. Yes


    Sa?da, I will forever put your needs before mine.”


    I stared into his beautiful eyes, leaning into his touch. Yes I loved him. So much. More than I’d ever


    loved anyone else. Yes, it was at that moment that I epted theplete fact. I’d doubted a little for


    a while. But it was over now.


    “You made me confident again. Strong. When I heard you,” he smiled a little and I melted. “But I need


    to hear you confess it to me one more time,” his voice was soft and gentle, so was his touch.


    He looked so innocent. So pure, emotional and fragile. How could I not fall in love with him?


    ′I love you to death, Asahd.′


    I broke my silence, more tears rolling down my cheeks.


    “Asahd,” I started, my emotions overwhelming.


    “Yes,” he replied softly.


    “I love you. I love you very much,” I kissed the hand he was rubbing my cheek with. “More than I have


    ever loved Noure. I love you in a way I have never loved him.”


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    Saying it out loud was a total relief. I saw the look in his beautiful brown eyes, brighten and he smiled.


    “Does this mean–” he started but I cut him.


    “Yes. I love you. And only you. I don’t love Noure, anymore. It’s you I love, wholeheartedly. I swear my


    heartpletely belongs to you now Asahd.”


    He smiled happily and closed his eyes in relief. Immediately he did so, a single tear seeded to roll


    down his cheek.


    “You don’t know how bad I wanna jump right now,” he chuckled gently and I giggled a little, holding his


    beautiful face in my hands, wiping that tear.


    He opened his eyes and leaned over till our faces were inches apart.


    “You own my heart,” I whispered onest time before leaning in and kissing his soft lips.


    A sweet feeling went down my spine immediately I did that. He kissed me back, real nice and slow. Our


    kiss was gentle and passionate and never had I felt so relieved and happy. I wanted him so bad.


    Asahd’s POV:


    I was happy. Very happy. Finally. She loved me wholeheartedly. She had always loved me


    wholeheartedly, but now she’d confessed it.


    She’d finally epted it. I’d needed her to realise it. Sa?da had always been the type to doubt her own


    feelings until she couldn’t deny them any longer. Because she was afraid of them. Of maybe


    But I was going to reassure her. I already had ns. She was going to be my wife, whether she got


    married to Noure first. But she would end up being my wife in this life. I saw no one else but Sa?da. She


    would birth my kids. Whether with Noure or not. Even if it had to cost my throne. I didn’t care. I was


    ready to risk it all.


    I kissed her like it was ourst moment on earth. She kissed me back and I held her so close that I


    could feel her beating heart.


    “I love you, darling,” I whispered against her pretty lips.


    “I love you even more.”


    Oh, I loved the sound of that.


    “Oh yeah?” I smiled and she giggled softly, brushing her lips against mine.


    “Mhm.”


    “Pinch me, I’m dreaming,” I said and sheughed. “For real. You don’t know how crazy you drive me.” I


    kissed her again, not ready to let go.


    I pulled up in front of the pce and the guards immediately rushed to open the doors. I gave Sa?da a


    quick nce and she did same. I wished I could kiss her again and she probably wished same.


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    We entered the pce and reached the stairs.


    “Will I see you tonight?” I asked lowly so the guards around would not hear. She blushed and smiled a


    little.


    “Yeah. Why not. If I’m not too busy.”


    I smirked and she blushed even more.


    “Too busy for me?”


    I could tell she wanted tough from the way her lips twitched to the side.


    “You forget I also have other duties, my Prince,” she mused lowly. We were almost whispering and it


    was amusing.


    “Okay miss,” I smiled and my eyes dropped to the lips I wanted to kiss again. “I really want to kiss you


    right now,” I confessed and sheughed a little.


    “I want the same thing so bad,” she admitted and I smiled like a dumbass, making herugh out.


    “What’s so funny? What’s the gossip?” we heard Djafar as he walked into the room.


    “Oh, nothing serious,” I mused and turned to him. “How are you, my dear Djafar?”


    “Quite exhausted but how would you know?” he rolled his eyes and Iughed. “Since we returned and


    after your new found friendship with Sa?da, you don’t even have my time anymore. You used to share


    gossips with me and now it’s with my daughter. The betrayal,” he acted yfully dramatic and we


    “Father, that’s not true,” Sa?da mused.


    “Mmhm. Yeah right. You two are always whispering things, but oh well,” he shrugged and weughed


    again.


    He joined us.


    “But it’s very fine by me. I’m happy you two finally get along this well.”


    “Me too,” I smiled at Sa?da who reddened a little.


    “Anyway, your father is in the living room. Come along now, we have a lot to discuss concerning some


    of the sultanate’s new projects.”


    “Ughh,” I waszy as hell and rolled my eyes. “Now? Really? Do I have too?” Iined like a child.


    “Yes, future sultan. Come on,” heughed and pulled me along.


    I didn’t even have the time to say onest thing to Sa?da and so I waved. Sheughed and waved


    back.


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