Chapter 214


    Chapter 214 – What You’ve Done To Me


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    We don’t spend very long in the bath.


    As soon as I’m fed and clean, Sinir takes me to my nest andys me out like his own personal feast,


    and he wastes no time in ravishing me.


    I’ve never been frightened of Sinir. Not at his wildest or grouchiest, not even when he’s on the


    warpath against others, or assailing me with the full force of his magic. If anything, it’s been an


    incredible turn on to know that I can call such a powerful man my own, that I’m the sole soft spot in his


    imprable armor.


    But when he makes love to me now, I feel afraid. Not for myself – never that – but for the feral energy I


    can sense swirling through his body. His wolf is in full control and he’s near rabid with desire – ruthless


    in his affection. He isn’t gentle, nor would I ask him to be. I love his rough passion and savage intensity:


    the way he makes me feel as if I’m the only woman in the world and he’ll die if he doesn’t have me this


    instant; the way he drives into me with reckless abandon and earth-shattering skill, drawing sounds I


    didn’t even know I was capable of making from my mouth before he greedily swallows them with his


    tongue.


    Still, there’s a dark edge to his carnal hunger, as if it’s not just sensual release he seeks, but


    absolution. The dominance he exerted earlier is nothingpared to the chaotic power fueling him


    now, and while I might not understand everything behind his actions, I realize that as much as he wants


    me, he’s also hurting. I’m seeing the results of everything he’s pent up over thest few days, and my


    wolf is only too eager to submit, to give him whatever sce we can, for however long he needs it.


    So I give myself to himpletely, letting him im me over and over again, and trying to survive the


    endless onught of pleasure he delivers. At some point it bes too much, and my vision cks


    out as I crest the peak of yet another orgasm. I don’t fight the darkness, because I know I’m safe in my


    mate’s arms at longst.


    I’m alone when I wake, and instantly I fear Sinir’s return was all a dream.


    I jerk up in my nest, my wolf whimpering as I scan the room. However, almost as soon as the sound


    leaves my lips, a soft purr rises to meet it, and I shift my worried gaze to follow theforting rumble.


    Sinir stands on the terrace looking out on the sleeping city, but now he turns and strides back to the


    bed, “It’s okay, E. I’m here.” He assures me, wrapping me up in his strong arms.


    I cling to him with all my strength, unable to form words just yet. My heart feels as though it just took a


    plunge off a high dive, without knowing if there was any water waiting to break my fall. Luckily there


    was, but my pulse is still racing with the fright. Sinir strokes my spine and kisses my hair, murmuring


    sweet nothings in my ear. It takes me longer than it should to calm down, but my wolf is seriously on


    edge after thisst week.


    “What were you doing?” I finally ask, unable to keep a petnt note from my voice, my inner animal


    thoroughly affronted that he scared me this way.


    “I was just thinking.” Sinir answers, his warm breath fluttering over my ear. “I haven’t had a moment


    to stop since the explosion – I’ve been so focused on getting home. But now I’m here, everything is


    hitting me at once.” As soon as he says it, he opens the gates and lets the emotion pour through our


    bond. I’m thankful that he doesn’t try to hide his pain from me, but the force of it is staggering. Not only


    grief for Hugo and his men, but confusion and guilt over how he survived when they did not. More than


    anything else, I sense a deep well of helplessness, brought on by his inability to protect the people he


    loves in all this chaos.


    I hold him tighter, ‘They were good men.” I tell him softly. ‘They loved you, they would have been happy


    you survived even if they didn’t.”


    “But they shouldn’t have had to die.” Sinir replies thickly, burying his head in my neck and breathing


    in my scent. “We didn’t even see the attacking. We don’t know how Damon managed it, or where


    the bomber is now.” He doesn’t say it, but I can sense how badly this grates on his nerves. One more


    thing he can’t control, one more tragedy piling onto his conscience. “I’m so sick of this war, and it’s


    hardly even begun.”


    “I know.” I say honestly. “And I know how badly you want to fix all this, how agonizing it’s been for you


    to see your people suffering. Please just remember that you’re not in this alone, Dominic. You don’t


    have to have all the answers. Your family, your pack – we all love you and we’re in this together.” I


    remind him, hoping the words don’t sound hollow to a man who has the weight of the whole world on


    his shoulders. “We’re all mourning for Hugo, for every wolf in those cars. Don’t let our relief that you’re


    okay make it seem otherwise, because we all lost a great deal in that ident. We’ll make sure they


    didn’t die in vain. We’re going to get through this.”


    ‘Thank you, baby.” Sinir sighs, his salty tears feeling hot on my skin.”I really needed to hearthat.”


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    I nod, still a bit afraid to trust that he’s truly here, while also hating that his homing carries such


    heartache. “I would have told you sooner if those bullies had let mee after you.” I quip, only half


    joking.


    “Mmm,” Sinir rumbles appreciatively. “And I suppose that’s the only reason you were so determined


    toe after me? Because you knew I neededfort?”


    I’m suddenly very d he can’t see my face. “Not entirely.”


    “What else?” Sinir asks, pulling back to look down at me and, as usual, filling me with the sensation


    that he can see straight through me.


    I shrug and lean my cheek against his shoulder, wishing we didn’t have to have this conversation, but


    knowing he won’t rest until we do.


    “Come on trouble, talk to me.” Sinir encourages. “You kept saying you knew I was okay after the


    attack, but that’s not the way it sounds.” He sighs, petting my sides. ’You copsed. You’ve been


    neglecting your health, and cutting yourself off from the baby? None of that seems hopeful.”


    “I said I knew you were alive. But I didn’t know you were okay…” I correct him, staring at myp. “And


    everyone was telling me I was just in denial. I was afraid to sleep because it might prove them right if


    you didn’t turn up… and I think I was so desperate toe after you because I needed to prove them


    wrong. I needed to know I wasn’t just blindly hoping. The truth is that I was terrified.” I confess shakily.


    ‘You don’t realize what you’ve done to me, Dominic.”


    Sinir takes my face in his hands, his thumbs brushing away rogue tears as they slip down my


    cheeks. “What have I done, baby?” 1


    The concern on his face nearly topples me over, but I manage to stay upright – if only because I need


    to reassure him. “Before I met you, all I ever wanted was a baby. That’s it.” I exin, still amazed by


    how quickly everything has changed. “I would have loved a partner, but you saw what I was willing to


    settle for with Mike.” My mate growls at the sound of the human’s name, and as much as I want to


    smile, I can’t. The confession I’m about to make is too grave, too terrifying when our lives are so


    precarious.


    “But you ruined all that.. you made my old dreams not enough anymore.” I share, searching his


    emerald gaze for understanding. “You opened my eyes to worlds I didn’t know existed, a kind of love I


    never dreamed I might have. You spoiled me… spoiled me for anyone else, nothing but you will ever


    be enough for me now.” The worry dissipates from Sinir’s gaze, and he watches me with such


    tenderness that my wolf melts into a puddle. “I can’t lose you, Dominic. I love this baby with every fiber


    of my being, but I need you too. I don’t want to go back to the way things were – living a half life and


    convincing myself it was enough because I didn’t know any better.”


    ‘You’re not going to lose me, sweetheart.” Sinir promises, and I can tell he believes it, even though


    this isn’t something in our power.


    ‘You don’t know that.” I reply, thinking of Isabel, or Henry and all the people who have lost mates. “Look


    at what has already happened.”


    “Exactly.” Sinir purrs. “Look at what we’ve already survived, look at the forces that have tried to keep


    us apart and failed. What can’t we do?”


    I furrow my brow. “But-” I want to say that this is all still beginning, we still have the summit ahead of us,


    and who knows what other challenges. But I don’t get the chance.


    Sinir’s fingeres over my lips, “no buts, no what ifs. You’re my destiny, E. I’m not going to let


    anythinge between us.