Chapter 174


    #Chapter 174— E Apologizes


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    After my snack, I meet with the chefs to talk about menus for the summit, then ask to have dinner sent


    up to my rooms.I’m feeling too pensive and tired to be social tonight.


    I’m still reeling from discovering how badly I handled my troubles with Sinir, and I’m both dreading


    and eager to make amends.I know I won’t feel better until I do, but the prospect is more than a little


    daunting.I’m too much of a chicken to call him on the phone, and I don’t know where he is or what he’s


    doing right now anyway.So I decide to wait for our dreams, where I’ll be able to feel his touch and let


    my wolf take over if things get too hard.I know Sinir probably won''t be asleep for hours, but it was a


    long, emotionally draining day.


    So as much as I want to put off our meeting I take a quick shower and climb into my nest.


    It smells like Sinir, and that blessedfort is enough to whisk me off into my dreams.


    When I arrive in the dream forest I have nothing but time to kill, and I spend it thinking about what I


    want to say to Sinir when he appears.


    Of course, the more I think about my mistakes, the worse I feel, and soon I’m fighting the urge to cry.


    When my mate finally takes shape in the distant trees, I feel a deep pang in my chest.I can’t bring


    myself to look at him.I kneel at the foot of the bed, my hands resting on either side of my belly as I stare


    at myp.I can perfectly picture his handsome face, rugged lines and bronze skin practically glowing in


    the light of the moon, his zing wolf eyes piercing me through the darkness.


    "Hello trouble."


    Sinir’s deep voice wraps around me like a warm embrace, and I can see his ck-d legs just in


    front of me.


    Strong fingers catch my chin, and then he’s tilting my face up to his.He searches my features with


    lethal intensity, and his voice is husky when he speaks.


    "What, no smile?" He asks, running his thumb over my lower lip, his longer fingers syed across my


    cheek and delving into my hair.


    "If I didn’t know any better I''d think you weren’t happy to see me."


    I can feel his wolf prodding at our bond, trying to tempt my own inner animal to rise to the surface.


    "What is it, little wolf? Talk to me."


    "I owe you an apology." I admit, wide eyed and trying to stop my voice from quavering.


    "Already?" He inquires, the corner of his lip twitching upward.


    "I’ve only been gone a day, how much mischief could you possibly have made? Other than skipping


    lunch of course."My jaw drops, and in my surprise and outrage, I forget some of my shyness.


    "He actually told you?! That rat!" Sinir chuckles, stroking my hair back from my face.


    "You missed our bedtime call, so I checked with Roger. He exined that you’d had along day and


    probably went to bed early."


    A new stab of guilt assails me.


    "I forgot."


    I bury my face in my hands, "I’m sorry, I wasn’t thinking.I just didn’t get a chance to nap and I was


    sleepy and the nest smelled like you and —"


    "E," Sinir pulls my hands away from my face, his brow furrowed with concern now.


    "Baby, it’s okay."


    "No it’s not." I insist, furious with myself now.


    "I keep letting you down, you’re always there for me and every time you need me to be there for you, I


    fuck it up."


    My words are met with a deep growl, and I know Sinir is warning me to stop this, but I can’t help


    myself.


    I forge on, my voice thick, "I’ve been such a horrible brat to you.


    You’ve got the whole world on your te and you were still thinking of me every step of the way —


    figuring out how to best use my talents while also looking out for the pack and keeping us safe.


    All I did was give you a hard time for being stressed and then run away when things got hard!"


    I’m on my feet now, pacing back and forth while the huge Alpha patiently waits out the storm, watching


    me with the bearing of a wolf about to pounce, his hands in fists at his sides as he glowers down at me.


    "When we started out I gave you so much ck aboutmunicating with me, but when you tried I


    refused to listen because I didn’t like what you were saying.I wasted our time together and whined and


    comined — and even now I can tell you’re pissed that I''m being hard on myself and you’re getting


    ready tofort me and tell me I’m wrong and I won''t have it, Dominic!" Imand, pointing my index


    finger at him sharply.


    "I deserve your anger, I deserve to be held ountable and I’m not going to let you smooth this over


    because I’m breeding or new to being a wolf! Yell at me, or walk out on me, tell me I''m a spoiled


    hypocrite — anything!"


    I’m breathing hard and near tears, my emotions swirling out of control.I’m prepared for the worst, and I


    even wee it, anything to ease my guilt.


    However Sinir simply crosses his arms over his chest, his expression dark and foreboding.


    For a minute I don’t think he’s going to speak to me, but then he rumbles, "Get on the bed, E."


    I blink, taken aback by his starkmand.


    "Why?"


    My mate arches a menacing brow, one which has me scampering onto the plush nkets.


    When I’m kneeling in front of him again, he steps forward, and I don’t need to tap into our bond to feel


    his disapproval.It rolls off him in waves.


    "Who is in charge here, mate?"


    I shudder at the pure dominance in his voice.


    He lets his alpha power flow out of him freely, and maybe for the first time, I feel the full force of his


    strength.


    I’m confronted with the reality of exactly how much magic courses through his veins, the reason why all


    the other wolves on the continent were prepared to bow down to him.


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    I’ve always known he was strong and fierce, I’ve always understood that he’s clever and kind, but


    before now I never quite realized how much more raw power he possesses than everyone else.


    I’m also astounded to realize how much control he must employ every second of every day in order to


    keep it in check, to stop it froming out this way and terrifying everyone he meets.


    A moment ago I might have challenged him, but now I have no option but to submit.


    "You are." I answer meekly.


    He nods, not showing me any mercy.


    "And who decides how I feel? Who gets to choose whether or not I’m angry?"


    "you do?" I squeak, my wolf squirming with the desperation to cease the onught of his power.


    She’s on her back, belly up with her tail between her legs, but still Sinir does not relent.His clenched


    jaw twitches dangerously.


    "And who gets to tell me how to deal with my mate?"


    "Well technically your wo—- no one!"


    I cut off my defiant response when Sinir unleashes yet another wall of power, disproving my earlier


    assumption that I was feeling all of it.


    "That''s right, little wolf."


    Sinir affirms, finally uncrossing his arms so he can grip my nape.


    "On all counts."


    He growls wordlessly, and I shiver in his hands.


    "You may be feeling guilty, and if you ask me nicely, I can help you work through those feelings.But you


    do not get to tell me how to feel about you or our rtionship."


    "I''m sorry." I sniffle.


    "This was all supposed to be an apology, I just got so upset when I realized I -missed our call."


    "You don''t say?"


    Sinir intones sardonically, his thumb brushing up and down on the side of my neck.


    "Now, would you like to try your apology over?"


    I nod, amazed when I realize how much steadier I feel now that he’s taken me in hand.


    "I’m sorry that I didn’t talk with you, especially after making such a big deal aboutmunication.


    novelebook I''m sorry that I ran away, and that I’ve been self-involved and unsupportive. I''m sorry for


    lashing out when I knew your heart was in the right ce."


    "And?" Sinir prompts me ominously.


    "And I’m sorry that I lost my temper and yelled at you and tried to tell you how to feel and how to treat


    me."


    "And?" He says again, still radiating with an overwhelming amount of strength.


    I rack my brain, trying to figure cut what I’m forgetting.


    Sensing my confusion, his wolf’s voice sounds in my head.


    Food and rest, sweet mate.


    "I’m sorry I didn’t take care of myself today."


    I add atst, feeling a huge weight fall from my shoulders now that everything is out in the open.


    "Good girl."


    Sinir praises, and my wolf preens happily.


    "Now I’m going to tell you some things you''re not going te like, but you''re just going to have to deal with


    it." He warns, pulling back on his overwhelming power atst, and I’m surprised to find I miss it.


    "You haven’t let me down, E And I’m not angry.


    We''re in an unimaginable situation here, and despite what you may think, you have supported me and


    comforted and inspired me ina hundred different ways since we arrived, and that is not up for debate." I


    nod, understanding that he needs me to ept this withoutint.


    Sinir sends a rush of genuine emotion through the bond, reassuring me that he’s not only saying


    these things to cate me, thuy but that he actually feels them.


    "Now, if you don’t mind, today was the longest fucking day of my life, and I haven’t even gotten to kiss


    you yet."


    Feeling a bit more centered and brave now, I peek up at him from beneath myshes.


    "And if I do mind?"


    Sinir chuckles, shing his fangs, as he leans in anyway.


    The moment before his mouth crashes into mine and heat explodes through every inch of my body, I


    hear his sensual purr.


    "Too damn bad."