idental Surrogate For Alpha Novel Free -Chapter 60


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    Sinir is watching me struggle through the idea that he somehow shared my dream, that he knows


    everything I said – secrets I would never admit if I’d known he wasn’t just some fantasy my sleeping


    brain cooked up. I just admitted how deeply I’m attracted to him, how much he turns me on. I can’t


    believe how shamelessly I rubbed myself all over him – I might as well have been a dog in heat,


    practically begging him to make love to me.


    I did beg, I realize btedly, And he left. He walked away even though I was his for the taking. He must


    have thought my behavior was pathetic. He’s wanted to kiss me in the past, he even said he wanted


    me in the dream, but that was before I debased myself that way. I suppose that sort of thing isn’t


    befitting of a Luna at all.


    Suddenly Mike’s voice sounds in my head, and I remember the way he belittled me for liking sex.


    You’re a stunner, E, but you’re too eager. Men don’t want a girl whose legs fall open at the first


    opportunity – show a little ss. He never realized it was the physical intimacy I liked, never connected


    the dots that sex with him was more about conception and closeness than pleasure. It would be


    different with Sinir, I can tell that much already. I find more pleasure with him in the forey than I


    ever found with Mike in ten years of being together. He’s awakened parts of my body I didn’t even know


    existed – and now he knows it.


    Sinir is still stroking and petting me, and I can’t take it. I’ve got to put some distance between us or


    I’ll lose it. I wrench myself out of his arms, and he lets me go – again, the little voice in my head moans.


    I climb out of the bed and though my cheeks are already flooded with heat, I can feel myself flushing


    deeper still. “I… you… that was real?” I stutter, trying toprehend the impossible.


    “No, it was a dream.” Sinir exins. “But we shared it. Bonded mates often visit each other in their


    dreams.”


    “But we aren’t mates, I’m not even a shifter.” I protest. “How did this happen?”


    “As you said, it must be another gift from the baby.” Sinir replies easily.


    “So you knew, all along, that it was real?” I gape, my embarrassment and shame quickly giving way to


    outrage. “And that I had no idea?”


    “Yes.” He confirms gravely. “I knew.”


    “Why didn’t you tell me!?” I burst out, feeling like I might cry. “You had to know I wouldn’t have said or


    done those things if I’d known! I was vulnerable and you took advantage!”


    Sinir rises from the bed, unfolding his big body and prowling after me. I can see now that he isn’t as


    unaffected by this situation as I initially thought. His eyes are zing and his muscles racked with


    tension. His hands are closed into white-knuckled fists and his voice is low and husky. “E, I might be


    a shifter, but there are limits to even my abilities.” He rumbles. “I would have to be dead not to respond


    to such a tempting invitation, and you called me to your dream, not the other way around. I got caught


    up in the moment just like you did. I couldn’t resist… not until you reminded me that you don’t


    understand our ways.”


    “How can I have called you to my dream, when I didn’t even know I was doing it?” I question, confusion


    swirling around me in a dense fog. “And why did youe?”


    “Because I wanted to.” Sinir replies, his jaw clenched so tightly the muscle twitches. “I was telling the


    truth about the power you have over me, E. I might keep some things from you, but I don’t tell


    falsehoods. I don’t say things I don’t mean, even in dreams.”


    I wrap my arms around myself, unsure what to make of this new information. I want to believe him, as


    terrifying as that is, but doubts continue to gue me. “Then why did you leave?”


    Sinir exhales, and I can tell his patience is hanging by a thread. “Because you thought it was just a


    fantasy and I’m trying to respect your wishes.”


    “Oh.” I utter softly, furrowing my brow. That isn’t what I expected, and though it should make me feel


    better to know he took me seriously when I told him I wasn’t interested in being with him, part of me is


    deeply disappointed. I know I’m being contrary and hormonal, but I can’t help it. I need more time to


    process this, and until I have it I’m not going to be making sense – even to myself.


    Sinir’s gaze sharpens on me, pinning me in ce. “Why did you think I left?”


    I shrug, “I thought maybe I was being too eager. I know men don’t like that.”


    The imposing Alpha crosses the floor until he’s towering over me. My first instinct is to back away, but I


    find my feet frozen to the floor, unable to move. I peek up at him hesitantly, and find a fierce expression


    on his handsome face. “Any man who wants a lover without passion is an idiot. Yours is electrifying,


    and knowing I can set you alight makes me feel more powerful than anything else. Your ‘eagerness’ as


    you call it, is a gift, and I’d like to hunt down every man who’s ever made you feel otherwise and beat


    them to a pulp.”


    I drop my gaze to the floor, staring at my feet. His words warm me through and through, from the top of


    my head to the tips of my toes. Still, I can’t help thinking that this is very dangerous territory. It’s getting


    harder and harder to resist my attraction to him, and it’s especially difficult when he speaks to me this


    way.


    So why are you resisting? The little voice in my head demands. You like him, he likes you, why are you


    fighting it?


    She has a point. I’ve just been given proof that Sinir not only returns my attraction, but also that he


    takes it seriously. Still, I can’t help but remember the second half of his statement – he doesn’t waste


    his time on rtionships that aren’t going anywhere, but that’s exactly what we would be. We have no


    future together, and we both know it, we’re just in denial because we want to give into our desires.


    Because there’s one thing more important than either of us. I remind her, Our baby. We’re about to


    bring a child into the world, and it deserves two loving co-parents who can give it their full attention, not


    a pair of exes too caught up in their own drama to priotize their child’s best interest.


    But why are you so sure you’d end up as exes? She inquires. You’re predicting the end before you’ve


    even had a chance to begin.


    I’m being realistic. The best Sinir and I can hope for is a temporary fling. I bite back. Maybe we could


    have some fun together, but at the end of the day he’s going to end up with a she-wolf who can rule by


    his side. I’m ying a dangerous game here pretending to be something I’m not, and it’s safer for


    everyone involved if I fade into the background after the campaign while he finds love elsewhere.


    Sinir is watching me again, and he taps his finger lightly against my temple. “You wanna tell me


    what’s going on in there, trouble?”


    “We can’t keep doing this Dominic.” I state, drawing in a shakey breath. “If we stay on this path, we’re


    headed for trouble.”


    He nods, cupping my cheek and smiling when I reflexively lean my head into his hand. “Listen E,” He


    broaches carefully. “I don’t need to know why you don’t want to get involved, but I don’t have unlimited


    self control. If you invite me into your dreams in the future, if you offer yourself up to me that way again,


    I don’t think I’m going to be able to say no.”


    “But I didn’t know I was doing any of that.” I say, “not for real. I don’t even know how I called you to


    me.”


    “I know that.” He remarks, “I’m just trying to be up front with you about where I am with all this.”


    “Well we only have to worry about this until after the pup is born right?” I ask, more upset by this


    thought than I could have predicted. “I’ll lose the connection to you when I’m no longer carrying him.”


    “We’ll always be connected through our pup.” Sinir corrects me, “but yes, I suspect many of these


    bonds will fade in time.”


    My face falls, and I wish I had the same talent Sinir does for masking my feelings. I’m about to pull


    away from him when he stops me. “There’s something else, E. This may sound terrible to you, but


    there’s something else you have to understand about shifter rtionships.”


    “Yes?”


    “It’s in a she-wolf’s nature to make her mate prove himself to her. She won’t ept him until she’s been


    convinced he’s the one. It’s a sort of mating dance – like the wild hunt, she ys hard to get and he


    gives chase.”


    “Okay.” I gulp, my tongue darting out to lick my lips. “So what does that mean?”


    “It means that if you give me reason to think that you do want to be with me but you’re holding yourself


    back for some reason, my wolf is going to react the same way he would to a she wolf drawing him into


    the hunt.” Sinir announces ominously.


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    “You’re saying that you might stop respecting my wishes if you think I don’t mean them?” I repeat,


    indignance rising up inside me.


    “That’s what being an alpha is all about. Doing what’s best for your mate even when she doesn’t


    agree.” Sinir confirms.


    “But I’m not your mate.” I say, amazed that I’m having to remind him of this for a second time tonight.


    “We’ll see, E.” Sinir purrs, his eyes glowing with barely restrained fire. “We’ll see.”