Lina
Masha bragged the very next day about what a hot night they had. I was jealous, I was angry. There was a storm of all kinds of emotions raging inside me. I couldn’t fully enjoy that night with Vova. He was annoyed and incredibly angry at my “Stop, I don’t want to!”
For the first time, I was able to tell him no.
“What’s going on with you? Lina, what the fuck is going on with you? Are you so upset that you can’t work with d anymore?”
“No, I’m just not in the mood.”
I got out of bed and decided to sleep the night off in another room. Vova didn’t follow me or stop me.
In the morning he left early for work while I was still asleep, and close to eleven Masha came to me in spite of the snowy weather and started bragging, telling me everything in great detail.
“He is a real man. And what was his…”
“Mash, I’m not interested, really.”
“I’m sorry, but I just haven’t met so hot for a long time, he’s so passionate. You said he was calm and bnced, but sexually he ispletely different. And you couldn’t possibly know that. And you don’t need to know that.”This content belongs to N?/velDra/ma.Org .
“You’re right, I don’t. Are you off today?”
“Yeah, and tomorrow. It’s after the new year. I took the day off.”
“Do you want tea or coffee?”
“Yeah, but I’m more hungry than anything. By the way, d’s the one who called me a cab toe and see you. Can you feed me? I’m so hungry. You know how many calories I had to burn today.”
“Sure, I’ll make you something.”
“How about you? Did it continue?”
“Of course, we’re doing fine.”
“And I hope things work out with d, too. You know, I’ve never… I’ve never been as rxed as I was with him, I even gave him a blow job in the car, and right there in the car we…”
“Mash, I’m really not interested, I do not devote you in the details of their intimate life.”
“What a boring you have be. It’s contagious, soon you won’t smile at all, and when you be dimir’s wife you’ll be too conceited.”
“Who told you I was going to be his wife?”
“Aren’t you?” she plops down on the sofa as she walks into the living room, filling the ss of whiskey on the table.
“That hasn’t been part of the n yet. Okay, sit and rest, I’ll be back with breakfast soon,” I said and headed into the kitchen. Just a few minutester, while I am making sandwiches with Masha, my smartphone vibrates. It’s d. And he sent me a message. I see a closed text message icon, but I hesitate to open it. After our conversation in the kitchen, I don’t know how to act. I tried to persuade them to stay with Masha yesterday, but he refused.
“Hi. I hope Masha is already at your ce? Thank you for meeting such a charming girl. You have a wonderful friend. By the way, I decided to talk to Vova today and ask her to take the job in the office instead of you.”
I don’t want to write long, so I close the door to the kitchen so I can’t hear anything and call him.
“Yes?” he answers happily.
“What does it all mean?”
“What does it mean? Actually, good morning to begin with. It’s customary.”
“She has no experience. ”
“Believe me, she has enough experience to be useful to me. I made sure of that today! That’s exactly the kind of assistant I need. And you shouldn’t even care, you’re not part of ourpany anymore. Yes, you’re fucking my boss and best friend, but that doesn’t mean anything. You should know better.”
“Why would you do that? You used to be so different. What’s changed?”
“A lot, L?na. You know, you’ve really be a kindred spirit to me. And I was hoping we could be friends.”
– I don’t understand you, d. Yesterday you insulted me, you made a real mess of me with that cupcake-eating thing, and…
“Oh, so you liked it after all?”
“What are you ying at, d?”
“You,” he answers, then drops the call altogether.
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Lina surprised me when she decided to visit me the next day. It was unexpected. I waste for work, and she was at her parents’, but she decided to make it clear. She was hurt by my words and she never understood the meaning of the phrase ying you.
“I shouldn’t havee,” she came to me already with words of regret. It was a bad sign. Especially since I had made up my mind. Of course I did not want to see Masha around even in the office. And in fact today it happened again that we slept together. I drank and decided to dump all the tension on her again. She liked it, and I didn’t care. Vova… It was much harder with him. He understood, but he knew I couldn’t do anything to hurt him.
“It was a good start. Come in, make yourself at home,” I invited her in. I don’t have this kind of mansion, but I’m happy with this kind of real estate. It’s my own earned and earned property.
“I was at my parents’ house after a trip to the hospital. I don’t know what brought me to you, but…”
“Curiosity.”
“d, this is all wrong. I don’t mean you any harm, I just…”
“Neither do I. God forbid. You’re with my friend and let’s leave it at that.”
“No,” she pulls off her coat and throws it on the couch, even though it’s covered in snow. Yes, I can call for a cleaning service and I can afford it. But why should I spend a lot of money just because it’s hard for her to hang her coat up and at least shake the snow off of it to begin with?
But all this bespletely irrelevant when she takes a few steps toward me and takes my hand.
“Let’s just stay friends. It’s as simple as that, d. I don’t want to ruin your long friendship with dimir. I understand that you depend on him. I know that.
“What could you possibly know? Get off me!” I try to shake the hand she’s clinging to. Her words hit me where it hurts the most. Yes, I owe a lot to Vova, and I never hid it.
“d, please don’t be angry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I don’t know how to exin what’s going on inside me. I just don’t know. I…” but she doesn’t finish, our eyes meet, and she kisses me first. Lightly and gently, lightly running her tongue over my lower lip. I can’t be gentle and I don’t want to. I suck her lips in, I bite, and I don’t care if it might leave a mark and my friend notices. Everything bespletely unimportant.
“You can’t,” she pushes me away with those lying words. You can’t?
“Can’t what?” My palms are already slipping under the tight wool skirt she’s wearing with the warm tights. She’s so funny. It’s safe to say that she didn’t originally intend to go out with me tonight. She’s modest, but that’s what turns me on about her. I understand Vova now more than ever. His words. His conclusions. Lina really isn’t like everyone else. She tries to hide her true desires. Dulls her enjoyment and pleasure. Vova is very difficult with her, I can see how sullen he’s been walking around thest few days. But she came to me…. And I missed her, and I wanted and want…
“All this, you can’t,” she breathes heavily and touches her lips with her fingers when I slow down and pull away from her slightly.
“Do you love him? Lina, just say it. Yes or no? It’s as simple as that.”
“No, I don’t love him. No.”
“Do you love me? Do you love me?”
“d, it’s veryplicated. ”
The desire evaporates instantly, as if it never existed. She hesitates. She doesn’t know what she wants. But I do. I know exactly what I want right now! We’re not little children to y children’s games. It’s a game of chase and hide-and-seek.
“You know, it’s only difficult for those who make it difficult not only for themselves, but for those around them as well.”
“d, I’m sorry.”
“Maybe you don’t know how to love at all. You’re ttered by the attention of two men. And what’s more, that these men can ignore their long friendship and fight over you?”
“No. You’re wrong. ”
“Lina, get dressed and go away. Don’t y with me, I’m not a boy. All right, I won’t tell Vova anything about your visit. You can’t tell me how you feel about me, and I can’t figure out how to proceed.
“d, I feel, I,” this time I recoil myself.
“Vova’s going to propose to you.”
“What?” She sounded surprised, like she didn’t expect to hear it. He’s pretending?
“Yes. Yesterday I tricked you by telling you on the phone that he didn’t care. He does care. Except I’m starting to wonder if my friend needs someone like you.” She ps me in the face after saying that.
“You idiot! I thought that..”.
“You didn’t think, you didn’t know what you wanted. You know the way out!”