Karli and I failed.


    Correction: I failed. I was the one who made the crazy bet with him, who pushed through thete nights and the doubts and the flu and created a whole new business n. I’d forced everyone to believe the same thing I did, just because I wanted it so much. Because I was too stupid to see the writing on the wall.


    The bookstore is gone. It has an expiration date, and always had, from the very beginning. Eleanor’s face swims in front of me, her kind eyes, her sharp voice. So what? she’d said once, when I’de to her upset about being called a bookish nerd in school. Poprity fades. Smarts don’t. I’m betting on you. Turns out she lost that bet.


    Cole takes another step toward me, but I back away again. There’s too much emotion running through me at the moment, more than I can handle. It burns.


    “Skye…”


    “You’re going to tear it down,” I murmur. “It’ll be gone.”


    All of thete nights, his help, his encouragement, and in the end, it doesn’t matter.


    “What do you want me to say, Skye? We had an agreement.”


    “You helped me,” I say, the blood beginning to pound in my temples. “You helped me with this.”


    He nods, but it’s sad, and that’s when it hits me so clearly that he did it to spend time with me, to sleep with me, and not for the business. Of course not. I already knew that, didn’t I? So why does it hurt to have it confirmed? To have the illusion shatter?


    I put a hand to my chest, to where my heart feels like it’s breaking. “You’re going to tear it down.”


    “Skye, I don’t know what to do.” He takes yet another step toward me, but I hold up a hand this time. I can see that it hurts him-me not letting him near. “Are you asking me to stop the demolition? That wouldn’t be a sound business decision. But… just tell me what you want.”


    Judging from the pained look on his face, he means it, too. I could ask him not to do it. I could stand here and beg him to reconsider. He wouldn’t do it for the bookstore’s own sake. But he might do it for me.


    What are we, exactly? Enemies, but not just that. Friends, but not just that, either. Lovers… I can’t begin to think that way. And if I spent whatever capital I had with him begging… I’d never be able to show up to Between the Pages without remembering what I’d had to do to get it.


    Smarts trumps being popr, Eleanor had said. I couldn’t be someone who called in favors to save a business, not like this. Not the way I’d earned them with him.


    “I can’t,” I say, backing toward the hallway. Humiliation and failure makes my cheeks burn. “You’re right. I can’t ask you that. I’m sorry.”


    “Don’t. Skye-wait.”


    I shake my head, feeling myself unraveling and unable to stop. “I can’t, not with any of it. This… it’s too much.”


    Cole puts a hand next to me in the hallway, caging me in, his jaw clenched tight. “Wait. Skye, please… let me help you somehow. Let me be with you tonight.”


    “Why? What are we?” I fumble with the sp of my purse. “Nothing. We’re casual.”


    He frowns. “I know what we agreed to. I’m still not sure if I can offer you more, but-”


    “But what?” Augh escapes me, though the only funny thing here is my own poor decisions. “I went into this against my better judgement. Even knowing you’d tear down the business, I did it anyway. I thought it would be an adventure. God, I can’t believe I’ve been so stupid!”


    He stiffens as if I’ve struck him, his hand sliding off the wall. “There is no getting around this, then?”


    “That you’re tearing down my bookstore?”


    He gives a harsh nod, lips a t line.


    “No.” I press the button for the elevator, the doors gayly chiming as they slide open. “No, there isn’t. I can’t… Cole, I can’t.”


    “So we’re over.”


    I don’t trust my voice to speak, the taste of tears on my tongue. He’s said the words, and once they’re out, I can’t see a way around them. We were never really anything, really.


    I nod.ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org .


    Cole’s eyes shutter, and he crosses his arms over his chest, strong and sure and distant. “Well then,” he says. “Thanks for a few enjoyable weeks.”


    I mash my fingers against the button and the elevator doors close in the nick of time as my tears break free, running hotly down my cheeks.


    Sadness is a funny thing. Ites in bursts, all at once, and then disappears again, lying in wait for the perfect opportunity. Pushed away by good times or ignored when inconvenient. I’d known that Between the Pages might close for months. I had grieved Eleanor when she passed three years ago. And I’d never really expected the game with Cole tost.


    And still.


    All three things hit me at once, so hard that I have to reach out a hand to steady myself against the elevator wall. This morning had started with a purpose, a job, a potential future. A man who made me feel like life itself pounded in my veins, free and strong and alive.


    It ended with all of those things gone. And worst of all was the feeling that all of it was somehow, someway, my fault. If I’d worked harder. If I’d known the right things to say. If I’d made different decisions.


    We’d been so close, and instead, Between the Pages is to be dust and rubble, an impersonal ss structure rising from its wake. Maybe it’ll have a hotel bar on the top floor for billionaire owners and unsuspecting young women to meet, I think bitterly, but the thought just brings on a fresh round of tears.


    Funny how sess works. I’ve been asked about it often in thest few years-sometimes more than once a day. In interviews. In speeches. Atworking events. Teach me something about sess, they’ll say, often with a glint in their eyes. What’s the secret?


    Or, my personal favorite, to what do you owe your sess? As if debts were involved-as if I had sacrificed to the gods.


    Funnier still how public sess rarely trantes to private sess. I could have an apartment my mother called ostentatious, a developmentpany that was soon the biggest on the Western seaboard. Regr international travel and a charity organization in the works. But at the end of the day, the one person who gave me true happiness had walked out.


    “So, tell me,” the reporter in front of me asks, a practiced smile on his face, “what’s the secret to your sess?”


    I don’t feel particrly sessful at the moment. The interview I’m giving is a necessity, ording to my publicity team, to counteract Ben and Elena’s smear campaign. All because I worked too much and missed what was right beneath my nose-my best friend and the woman I thought I loved. Work getting in the way of a rtionship. It seems like a recurring problem in my personal life.


    The reporter clears his throat. I’m taking too long to answer, clearly, my mind stuck in the past-on what happened three years ago. On what happened only one week ago in my hallway.


    I lean back and cross my leg over my knee. “Well, if the answer is a secret, it’s an open one. It’s hard work and good luck. Being in the right ce at the right time. Knocking on doors until one eventually opens.” I tap my hand against my knee, contemting a more honest answer. Skye’s joking admonitions about privilege ring in my head. “And for me, I certainly had help in the beginning. My family was supportive. My friends were supportive. I graduated university without debt. I’m well aware that other entrepreneurs face difficulties I didn’t have.”


    The reporter raises an eyebrow, jotting this down. It’s an answer that will be dissected. Exined. Analyzed.


    “And a helpful business partner?” he asks. Behind him, Bryan’s face freezes in fury; Tyra gives me a silent shake of the head. The reporter is going off-script. We could ask for this to be struck from the record.


    I meet his gaze head-on, this poor man, sent to interview someone who got three hours of sleepst night and who couldn’t care less about this interview.


    “Well,” I say truthfully, “he was helpful until he wasn’t. We wanted to pursue different directions.”


    The reporter nods eagerly, encouraged by my answer. “Would you say that the split was amicable, then?”


    I think back to thest time I saw Ben Simmons. Fuck you was one of the final things I’d said, if I remember correctly. He’d been angry too. Asshole! You always think you know better!


    “Amicably enough.”