Chapter 8


    Nathan cried in my arms that night. Luckily I was there when he was about to fall or else he might


    be broken his foot that time. He surely in sadness and I just couldn’t do nothing about it. I’m a useless


    friend for him who can’t afford tofort him properly when he needed it.


    Sasha tried tofort him already, but it won''t do either, our other friends too, but still he just


    locked himself in his dorm for about several days now. Seth couldn’t even do nothing about it as his


    roommate. He told us that Nathan will start shouting if he tried tofort or even speak to him.


    I''m truly worried about him. I as his friend really don''t want him to fall sick if he keeps acting like


    that. Seth said he didn''t eat much, he only lying in his bed, crying.


    "Are you nning to see him, Be?" I was surprised a bit when Sasha suddenly patting my


    shoulder as I was thinking about Nathan’s condition.


    "Hey, girl...." She smirked. "Why are you surprised all of sudden? What are you thinking right


    now?"


    "U-um...no....nothing." as usual Be Dawson will started to stutter. "I''m not thinking about


    anything."


    She knits her eyebrow. "Really Be?"


    "Y-yes....Sasha. Why would I lied to you?"


    She shrugged. "I don''t know. Maybe you''re hiding something from me?"


    Oh for your information, none of our friends knew that Nathan was with me that night. I didn’t tell


    anyone so everyone will not think nonsense about us. "What do you mean, Sasha?" I scoot away from


    my bed and went to my study desk to organize my anatomy books. "I''m not hiding anything from you,


    trust me."


    "Oh yeah...." She still didn''t trust me right?


    Oh god....what should I supposed to say to her?


    I just can''t tell her:


    Oh yes Sasha, I''m actually hiding something from you. It''s about Nathan, I have been crushing for


    him since we were kids, how about that?


    No....that should be a secret for me to keep. Or she will tell him about my feeling to him. I just can''t


    handle myself if he rejects me.


    "Hey....where are you now?" She flicked her finger in front of my face to wake me up from


    daydreamed, again.


    "Oh....sorry." I gave her a quick smile. "Still here, in this room. Sorry about that."


    "So, are you going or not?" She knits her eyebrow, waiting for my answer which I really don''t


    understand what she means by that.


    "Go to where?" I''m currently have no idea right now.


    She sighed heavily. "Oh my god....really Be?"


    "What?" I’m so in confused with her question.


    "Ugh....just forget it." She totally pissed off with me right? "I''ll be going out with Seth now, see you


    She swiftly went out from the front door without waiting for me for a reply.


    She did frustrated with me…ughh…sorry Sasha.


    *


    I went to the cafeteria alone to get some food, well....my girl friends are all on dates right now, so


    here I am all alone, still single without having any boyfriends ever. Even my crush doesn''t like me or


    even now that I like him.


    He doesn’t even notice me at all and only focus on Sasha even though he knew that Sasha with


    Seth. Sometimes I felt so fed up with him, but there was nothing I can do about it. So, I just went to


    somewhere and think about him who will never be mine ever.


    I sighed heavily. "Lucky for them to have boyfriends." I murmured to myself when saw several


    couples, eating at the cafeteria.


    My eyes caught at one guy who is sitting by the corner table at the cafe. He''s wearing ck t-shirt


    Còntens bel0ngs to N?(v)elDr/a/ma.Org


    with blue short pants. His blond hair is messy and he just staring at his food, without even touch them


    at all.


    I feel sorry for him when saw his perfect handsome face full with sadness.


    Poor Nathan, he lost his parents all at once.


    He must really in pain right now.


    Should I gofort him?


    But I''m so......shy to do that.


    What if I faint again?


    He must be thinking weirdly about me.


    Ughh.....but he''s so much in pain.


    Ohe on Be, stop being like this will you. Until when you want to be like this and hide


    yourself like this. You already changed your style, you cut your long precious hair and so let help


    Nathan to get rid of his sadness. Maybe he will start to acknowledge you and think you are there as his


    friend of course.


    So, I made my mind and brave myself to approach him. Nathan is still staring at his food, totally


    not notice with my presence.


    "U-umm......Nathan." I called him, although I was stuttering at first.


    He slowly looks up at me, with his eyes look so puffy because of crying so much. His blue eyes are


    full with sorrow which totally different than before which look livelier.


    He didn''t speak at all but only gave me a weak smile. He then moved his gaze back to the


    untouched food in front of him.


    "Na-Nathan, are you okay?" I brave myself more to ask about his condition.


    He just nodded as an answer.


    I think he needs time to be alone and I made a big mistake to approach him at the first ce,


    "Oh...okay. I think I should go now. Just let me know if you want anything.”


    I decided to leave him alone, since he looks like he doesn''t want to be disturb. But suddenly, he


    grabbed my wrist when I was about to walk away from the table.


    "Please......stay." He said, weakly.


    I turned to look at him again, and he was looking at me with his ocean blue eyes were full with


    tears.


    "I....just need....someone to talk with." His voice is even cracked. Actually, I really don''t like to hear


    his voice like that. It makes me feel....hurt.


    "B-but...."


    He cuts me off, "Please.....Be."