Chapter 70 Not Likely


    Kalliyah''s Pov


    I look at him not knowing what. He looked good like he hasn''t being in any pain. He was nicely shaved


    and he smells good. Has he moved on? Is a another girl in the house with him, why does he look so


    hot?


    "Kalliyah," I lifted my gaze to his emerald eyes, he sound shock that I''m here. I''d be too if i were him. I


    didn''t exactly leave things friendly; i was mean and selfish. I was only thinking of myself.


    "Can Ie in?" I found myself asking. It''s not like i want to stay out here in cold night air in my


    situation.


    He look at me for what it seems as it was ages until he nod his head. He moved to give me way to pass


    the door. I slowly walked pass him into the house that i miss very much. I walked to living room and


    took a seat in the couch thaty in front the firece. He was still standing looking down at me, not


    saying a word.


    "Can you please sit down?" I ask slowly.


    He lifted his hands and scratch his head. "I should go and put on some cloths first." I look down at his


    bare chest.


    I nod and he left.


    I look around the house i use to ''live'' in. The house shared many memories, happy, sad, excitement


    and love. I miss it here. I miss everything in this house. Especially him and that''s why i''m here.  I''m


    here to get back my baby, my man;  if he''s willing to have me back. It seems that he has moved on with


    his life, maybe found another girl better than me or probably he just has forgotten about me.


    I haven''t forgotten him though. He''s the first thing i think about when i wake andst when i go to bed. I


    still love him and not one day my mind hasn''t drift to him and how he treated me with love when my


    memory was gone. How he told me he loved me multiple times but i never repeated it once until i


    thought i had lost him. Lost everyone. But the question that i need the answer to is Does he still love


    me? Does he forgive me for hurting him for making him cry? Will he take me back?


    I need him. I need Alex especially now.


    I sat down looking into space until i saw Alex taking a seat in the one diagonally from me. When he sat


    down he held both of his hands together not looking at me. I didn''t know what to say so i stayed silent


    looking on his garment which was nothing fancy. He''s wearing a grey in T-shirt and sweat pants.


    Grey. Where is Grey?


    "Where is Grey?" I voiced my thoughts.


    "Probably in the basement." he answered trying to keep his sentences short.


    "Oh, that''s good. I''m d he''s okay. He''s probably happy here. Happier than i ever made him with all


    the nice dog food you can afford. I could never.."


    "Are you here to discuss the dog or to talk about us because i''m confused?" Alex interrupted. I look at


    him and swallowed. How do could i bring up the past and not feel bad.?


    I''m happy that he even said us which meant there probably is still an ''us''.


    "No, i''m not here about the dog, i''m here about us." I swallowed as i repeated his word. I bent my head


    looking at my hands. I wasn''t really sure what to say next because he didn''t seem like he wanted to


    start and build a conversation with me but at least i can try. Try and make things better between us.


    "I''m sorry." my apology came out slower than i expected. "I''m sorry for hurting you. I''m sorry for making


    you cry. I wanted you to feel the way i felt when you pushed me out of your house. I was more than


    hurt, i felt like damage goods and i wanted you to know how it feels to have someone you love hurt


    you. Do you know hurt i was when you kicked me out? Do you know it felt when that suitcase hit my


    head. It hurt like hell, i felt like i wanted to die and maybe i did. You hurt me, Alex, you hurt me." I wiped


    the tears off my cheeks with the back of my palm.


    "I know! I know Goddammit! I know I hurt you and I''m sorry. I told you I''m sorry over and over. Why


    can''t you just forgive me?" he shouted from his seat.


    "I do. I forgive you and i understand why you did it. I understand now why you did what you did. I


    forgive you. But do you forgive me? Can you forgive me for hurting you?" I tried my best to not break


    downpletely in front of him. I can make the tears  fall but I will not breakdown.


    He shake his head and pause. My heart rate increase, he doesn''t forgive me.


    "There is nothing to forgive. You didn''t hurt me, I hurt myself. I hurt myself when i didn''t trust. I hurt


    myself when i let my guard down. I still fell for you even when I thought you might have being the one


    my father slept with. I still fell and so when you didn''t forgive me, it was my fault. My fault for falling in


    love with you. You didn''t hurt me, Kally. I hurt myself. I hurt myself when fell in love with you."


    "Are you still?"


    "Am I still what?" he asked confused.


    "Are you still in love with me?" I bent my head afraid the answer might be no.


    I heard him sigh but didn''t answer. My heart felt like it was shattered in a billion pieces, he doesn''t love


    anymore. Of course he doesn''t, he was a fool to fall for me in the first ce. I can''t believe i came here


    hoping and praying that he still feels the same way. Of course he doesn''t love anymore. I''m no longer


    his heart and that hurt. That hurt a lot.


    "I never stopped." the words didn''t register to me clearly at first so i lifted my head to look him in the


    eyes.


    "What did you just say?"


    "I said i never stopped loving you. I haven''t stopped" he was looking in my eyes.


    "You haven''t?"


    "No, you''re still my heart. There is not one day that I  don''t think about you. I try not to, hell I try drinking


    to get the pain away but nothing works. It alles down to me seeing your beautiful face in my


    thoughts. I just can''t help myself. I can''t help that i''m madly, truly and deeply in love with you.


    I wipe the tears from my eyes and tried to smile. "I love you too and I never stopped loving you, not


    once i didn''t wake up thinking about you or go to bed without thinking about you, not dreaming about


    you. It''s only you. I''m so sorry I called you a fool, if you are  a fool. I am too. Because only fools fall in


    love right?"


    He smiled and got up from his seat and came in front of me.


    "We are both fools." Iughed and he smiled at me.


    "So are we cool?" I asked not really sure where we stand.


    "Yes, we are"


    "Can we go back to being normally?" heughed at words.


    "Normal? Baby, we were never normal."


    "Well, that''s true." I agree and smiled.


    Alex came closer to me. cing his forehead on mine, looking in each others eyes. He lowered his lips


    to mine in a tender kiss.  The kiss that he was free to do because  i''m  finally his forever. When the kiss


    was to be deepened i pulled away.


    I took a deep breath while Alex looked at me confused. "Is everything okay?"


    I smiled. "Everything his perfectly fine, I just wanted to tell you something."


    "Tell me what?"


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    "Well, I''m going to have our baby."


    "What?" he asked uncertain.


    "I''m pregnant. I found out two days ago and I couldn''t keep it from you. I didn''t know my biological


    father and i don''t want that for our baby. I don''t want to cry myself knowing that i make a mistake with


    not forgiving you because i do love you. I do, very very much."


    Alex smiled at me. "We''re going to have a baby. We''re going to have a baby!." he jumped up in joy. "I''m


    going to be a father!"


    Heughed and hugged me tight. I couldn''t helpughing myself.


    "You''re happy?"


    "Happy? I''m overjoyed." he looked in my eyes and leaned closer. "I love you and I''m happy that we''re


    going to be have a baby."


    I smiled at him. "I love you too, very much."


    "I love you  more than you can imagine."


    "Not likely."