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    Jill Malik P.O.V


    Amari wasn''t part of the n. When I decided to go to Jordan, I didn''t knew that I was pregnant.


    After two months, I suddenly got really sick and I started to vomit constantly. I couldn''t eat, because


    everytime I did it immediately came out again. The idea of me being pregnant didn''t even crossed my


    mind, because I thought that I was getting really sick because of all the things that had happened.


    Irina on the other hand wasn''t really sure about that. She bought a pregnancy test for me and after a lot


    of ''you should do it'' I finally decided that maybe she was right. In the end, she was afterall. After visiting


    the doctor I heard that I was already three and a half months pregnant. The doctor told me that if it


    wasn''t about all the stresstely, I wouldn''t even be sick.


    Ethan suggested that I had to tell Flynn about it, but that time I was still so mad at him. I didn''t forgave


    him yet and I didn''t wanted to tell him about it, because that meant that he would know where I was.


    Ethan tried to convince me to call or text Flynn, but I was so stubborn that I just didn''t do it. I told him


    that I would do it after she was born. "I''ll be ready to face him then." was my excuse.


    When Amari was born, Ethan and Irina told me again to send a picture of her to Flynn. I was nning


    on doing it, but things got really hectic. Amari suddenly got sick and had to spend a week in the


    hospital, that I totally forgot about the picture.


    And now, three yearster Flynn still has no clue that he''s a father.


    "Mommy, where''s dad?" Amari walked into my room while I was packing. I smiled at her and took her


    on myp.


    "He''s in New York, babygirl."


    "Is that far?" she asked as she rubbed her eyes. I yed with her hair and nodded. "Yes, far far away."N?velDrama.Org: owner of this content.


    Having Amari in my life changed me. She was my little princess. My little ray of sunshine. Her smile


    and chattering brightened up my day.


    "But why is he not here?" she asked innocently. I let out a sigh and kissed her forehead. "You''ll see him


    in a couple of days, okay. Now, go to aunt Irina and help her with the garden." Amari jumped out of my


    lap and ran out of my room.


    I let out a sigh as I watch her leave. At moments like these I regret that I have never told Flynn about


    her. I really wanted him to see her grow up and hear her say first words. Sometimes I questioned


    myself if I''m the one at fault here. Sometimes I wished I would just hear him out instead of run away.


    But now there''s no turning back. I already did it and it hurts.1


    It hurts every day.


    Seeing my daughter, who''s an exact replica of him except for her hair, growing up brought memories


    back every time I looked at her. His smile, hisughter, and the way he looked at me in the morning. So


    loving and kind. It was like I was his world, his universe.


    But god, how was I wrong.


    I thought fairytales exist. I thought I was the princess and he my prince charming. I thought our


    wedding was my happily ever after.


    But no.


    Fairytales don''t exist.


    This is reality and here, in this cruel world, there''s no happily ever after. 2


    ..........


    "Mommy, are we going to see dad soon?" Amari asked as she tugged on my hand. I held Amari''s hand


    firmly as I looked out for my driver. A couple hours ago I arrived in New York, Ethan arranged a driver


    for me to drive me around in New York.


    "Yes baby girl. But...Oh there he is. Our driver is here, princess. You''ll see dad soon okay?" I looked at


    the ck sleek car that stopped right in front of me. The door opened and a bald man stepped out.


    "Miss Malik?" He asked, removing his shades revealing hazel-green eyes. "I''m Todd Collin, you''re


    personal driver."


    "Hi Todd, Nice to meet you." I greeted the big headed bald man with hazel green eyes. He didn''t look


    older than fifty. I wished I had other ways to describe him, but at this moment this was the only


    description I coulde up with. He wore a ck suit, the ones personal drivers wear, and he had


    white gloves on.


    I ushered Amari inside and sat down next to her. Todd ced all my suitcases in the trunk and then


    went back to the passenger seat.


    "Do you know the address to the apartment?" I asked when he started the car. He looked through the


    rear view mirror and nodded his head.


    "Yes, I got all the information." With that he started driving.


    Amari looked out of the window and then looked back at me. Her eyes sparkled. "It''s so beautiful,


    mommy." She pressed her nose against the window to see all the skyscrapers passing by. "D''you lived


    here?" She asked in her cute toddler voice.


    I found it so cute that she could already talk at the age of two and a half. This year she''s turning three


    and she could easily pick up words and phrases. I only need to say something once and the next thing


    I know she''s the one using them.


    I took her on myp and nuzzled my nose in her hair. "I lived here with your dad three years ago."


    "Is three years alot?" She asked and then hold three fingers up. "This is three. Is it a lot, mommy?


    D''you miss dad?"


    "I miss dad everyday, princess. As much as you miss him." I whispered softly as I stared outside the


    window. Familiar ces where passing by.


    Suddenly my chest tightened. Oh god, Ximena.


    I haven''t talked to Ximena in three years. I had sent my letter of resignation a couple of hours before I


    left New York, three years ago. Since then, I haven''t heard anything about her. I haven''t even contacted


    her.


    I was still in touch with Reina and Luca though. Reina was expecting a baby girl at the end of this year.


    At this moment she was craving all kinds of food and poor Luca has to deal with mood swings every


    second of the day. One moment Reina is all happy and chattery and the next she was bawling her eyes


    out over some random thing.


    "But mommy---," Amari''s voice woke me up from my thoughts. She was still not done with interrogating


    me. "Why''id dad never visit me?"


    "Baby Girl, that''s because mommy is a meanie."


    She immediately looked up at me with her big blue eyes. "No you''re not."


    I chuckled lightly, but then Amari pointed at something outside. "Cake! Mommy, cake. I want cake!"


    I looked outside and saw Eir Bakery pass by. "Do you want cake, princess?" She eagerly nodded


    her head. I knew she loved cake, all sorts of cakes. Cupcakes, red velvet, chocte cake, name it and


    she will eat it for you.


    "Todd, Can you please turn around and stop at Eir bakery?" I called. Todd turned his head around


    and nodded. "Of course, Miss Malik."


    "Mommy are w''going to get cake?" Amari asked excitedly. I nodded my head and she immediately


    hugged me tightly. "Thank you mommy!" she squealed.


    I giggled and kissed her cheeks. "Everything for you princess, everything."


    The car stopped at Eir bakery and Amari and I stepped out. We stepped in the shop and Amari


    immediately pointed at her favorites. "I want that mommy and that one!" She pointed at the


    Cheesecake eir and Macarons.


    I chuckled and walked towards the nicedy behind the counter. "Hi, can I please have two


    Cheesecake eir and a box of Macarons."


    She smiled kindly at me. "Sure, that will be $17 dors."


    I pulled out my credit card and handed it to her. Momentter, she returned back with my deserts and


    credit card. "Enjoy."


    I smiled at her and grabbed Amari by her hand. "Come on, princess. I already bought cake. It''s for after


    dinner okay?"


    She nodded her head and hopped happily next to me. I opened the door to exit the shop and my soul


    almost left my body.


    Right in front of me, a pair of bright blue eyes was staring at me in shock. The one person I haven''t


    seen in three years.


    Flynn.