Chapter 102: Forbid


    I hate it to see them cry and when I''m the reason for it. I felt so bad I felt so stupid and I couldn''t take


    the way I''m feeling. It was the best way to get Lucia to go and see someone. She is on drugs for God


    sake damnit how can she be so stupid. I was now in the guest room pacing back and forth. I couldn''t


    stand the way of hearing my beautiful daughter cries. She don''t deserve it. She deserves her mom but I


    couldn''t let her be close to Lucia she wasn''t herself and I don''t know what she is capable of her since


    she has a huge kind of power.


    How could she just disappear like that from my grip that''s impossible. My heart hurts. This was not my


    way to return back home to fight with her or anyone. I had done what I thought was right searching for


    him. I need to talk to uriel Lucia''s angel where is she after all she should have helped her be a good


    person but here she was going around doing drugs.


    "Oh my, my Mate is pregnant." I felt tears prick out of my eyes as I remembered that I was also raped


    like her and I got pregnant just like her. She didn''t ask for this to happen yes I was fault in this is


    because of me that she is pregnant but no because of me that''s she using drugs. She made that


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    decision and it was wrong of her to let this get her down. I know being raped its like your life been suck


    out of you.


    I sit down on the cold floor with my elbows on my knees and my head between my hands crying just


    thinking about how I couldn''t figth them off. They was strong they had a hard hold on me while they


    rape me time after time. This wasn''t my attention this wasn''t my wish for her to be caught up with this to


    went thr what I went through and I wasn''t here to help her through with all that pain I wasn''t here to


    help her at all. I''m feeling bad about that I felt so ashamed about that. I should have been here for her.


    But I wasn''t.


    "I''m so sorry, I''m so sorry." I cry to myself. I felt someone sit next me and took me into they arms


    huggeme tight as I cry now all my fears and pain out. I know it was my friend and I''m so grateful that


    she was here tofort me I wasn''t really in the mood for any one but this is just What I needed.


    "It''s okay Brenda . I''m here now Jacky is also here and Katshiwe we here for you my friend. You not


    alone."She told me as she just hold me to cry everything out.


    " I think we need to go out like we always do so that Brenda can calm down. "I heard  jack said.


    " That''s a good idea we need a friends outing it will be so cool us going oit you remember that time.


    "Kat spoke happily.


    I move from Naomi and wipe my tears listening on what they discussing about us going out tonight


    which I don''t know. " what do you think Brenda? Naomi asked me.


    I look up and different eyes orbs looked at me making me hissed at them to look at me like that. I stand


    up from the floor and walk into the bathroom ignoring them. I wasn''t really in the mood for people I


    know they meant good but really going out is thest thing onmy mind. I''m going to watch Lucia so


    closely and I''m going to kill them who sell drugs to her. But I don''t thing she will go out to smoke them.


    Because I know she can''t be away from LJ she is her everything. She has to choose between her


    drugs and LJ.


    "Brenda you can stop ignoring us or are you angry with us too." I heard Naomi''s voice.


    "You will be crazy if you angry with us too we just here to help you." Kat giggle.


    "Yes you can''t lock yourself up here soon or other time you have toe out." They talk as I just roll


    my eyes and let the waters run down my body. I felt a little pain in my rib where she kick me she did


    kick me hard making me smile. She really got domes bolls trying to fight me back but feeling back all of


    the sudden but how she has changed. If she is this way with me how is she with LJ I''m really not letting


    her close to my child.


    Where could he be...how could he just vanished like that. I haven''t seeing jerome around and I need to


    visited him he should be down in the dungeon my parents mush have punish him. He she know where


    the alpha is and when I find him I will not spare him one bit.


    My mind drift off to Lucia not knowing how she got in contact in using drugs but I can think off only one


    person and that''s Norma if I have to find out she is after this I''m going to rip her head off I swear I growl


    getting so angry hearing Naomi and the Jacky asking me if I was fine in here and not ry an kill my self.


    "Please just leave my room I wanna be alone! I shout from the bathroom where I''m busy brushing my


    teeths. They can be so boring sometimes don''t they understand the meaning of just wanted to be


    alone.


    " We going no where until you promise go out with us to night. " Kat spoke seriously. Like I know them


    they will not take no for an answer and if really want to leave them I need to tell them that it is fine. It''s


    not like  i have a  choice.


    " I will go only if you leave me room as in right now. "I spoke walking into the room seeing them Lay on


    my bed next to each other.


    " Okay then. "they say and speed out of my room leaving me alone to dwell in my sorrow. I throw


    myself down the bedying on my back with my eyes close listening to LJ anx Lucia cries.


    Was I wrong to forbid them from seeing each other.