55: Not believing me


    "Don''t lie to me, Sophia. I''m not the father of your child,” he said and I could see so much pain in his eyes. He was hurting so was I for not believing


    me.


    "Do you think I''ll dly carry the child of Ryven?"


    "It doesn''t matter what I think. What matters is, you''re pregnant for Ryven," he stopped, his jaw twitching violently. "How was he? Was he better in


    bed than me that you have to hide his baby from me? Do you think I''ll harm your child?"


    I opened my mouth but he cut me short. "Well, I guess all these don''t matter. What matters is, you''re pregnant for him. So what are you gaing to do


    about it? Does Ryven know about it?" He asked and I was appalled by how well he decided to move on from the topic.


    Not because he wasn''t hurt but because thinking about it would bring him more pain. I had been there. And I knew exactly how that felt. He wasn''t in


    denial nor was he in eptance.


    "Ryven is not the father of my child," I said slowly, enunciating each word as if it would let it sink into his head. But it did little to what I expected


    Alexander was standing still, his eyes never leaving mine as he stared at me. I felt like a fool. And I was hurt because I thought we were finally going


    somewhere in our rtionship. He didn’t trust my words and I wondered why. I wanted to ask him. But what would it matter? He sees what he wants


    to see and there was nothing I could do about it.


    I needed to leave. The idea that I had easily betrayed him for someone else was still fresh in the air. I would have been able to fight him on this but I


    couldn''t. Not with the way he looked at me. And I would be honest with myself for the first time in a long while - how he looked at me broke me into so


    many pieces.


    I wanted to reassure him. But I could I when he had already made up his mind that the baby in me was Ryven''s. And the most painful part was him


    believing Dianne’s mother’s words over mine.


    "I can''t have this argument with you now. I''m hungry. I need to eat.” I turned around and walked away from the room.


    I no longer had an appetite. It was lost the moment I met Dianne’s mother. And I knew I wouldn''t be able to eat when Alexander looked at me with so


    much hurt reflecting off his eyes.


    I walked to the kitchen with maids giving me weird looks and I knew my conversation with Dianne''s mother must spread. She wasn''t particrly silent


    with her words.


    Not paying any heed to them, I dished out some food and ate the little I could. I ate for my baby bi needed strength for her. I smiled when I thought


    about my baby and I genuinely hoped she was a girl. Agirl I couldn''t be; strong and happy. I would make sure to provide everything that she needs.


    I finished my food in the huge dining room in the blink of an eye. The good was honestly so good. But I couldn''t eat more than three spoons. At least


    that was somethingpared to eating nothing.


    Having nothing to do, I walked outside the pack house. It was rare for me to be idle. I still haven''t gotten used to the feeling. I needed some of it and a


    good exnation for Alexander on the reason the baby was his and not Ryven''s.


    And while I walked to my favorite spot by the side of the house, I came up nk. More nk than I had ever been my entire life. I couldn''t lie to


    Alexander that I didn’t feel a thing for Ryven.Content ? N?velDrama.Org.


    There had been that one time when I wanted to have sex with him. But one I knew was, if I had sex with him, I wouldn''t have done it without


    protection. It was because I believed Alexander''s words plus he was my mate I had let him


    Hell, I didn''t even for once stop to think I might get pregnant forying with him just once.


    "You seem to be so lost in thought. What''s bothering you?" Orion''s voice roused me from my thoughts as he came to stand beside me.


    "It''s nothing," I lied easily while I stared into the forest. The wind was coal against my face. It was the perfect weather for a little pic except that the


    person my heart craved a pic with was probably hating on me for nothing.


    I felt Orion''s gaze at the side of my face, "This doesn''t look like nothing. Did you talk with Dianne’s mother? I saw how hurt you were from the


    revtion that she killed her son."


    I nodded my head, "I was. But now I''m past it,” I said and I suddenly remembered what she said about Alexander not being the Alpha anymore.


    "What does she mean by Alexander is on the verge of losing his Alpha position?” Orion turned sharply to me and I turned my head to look up at him.


    There was a look of shock on his face.


    "She told you that?" When there was no reply from me, he took my silence as a yes and continued, "Alexander''s position is being threatened as


    Alpha because she doesn''t have a Luna. He was supposed to mate with Dianne ￠ long time ago but he refused and the members of the court have


    no choice but to remove him and put someone else."


    "And who do they n on putting?”


    He paused as if the words were too heavy for him to utter, "They n on putting Diane''s mother.”


    My brows furrowed from his words. Nothing was making sense to me. How could theybel him ipetent because he had no Luna but wanted to


    put someone no better than him? Dianne''s mother isn''t fur to be the Luna of this pack.


    Not like I was discriminating against


    women. Because for goodness sake,


    Ava was the new Alpha of her pack?


    Dianne''s“nother was fit to be Alpha


    becaus? shecked the attributes of


    a leader, From what I''ve seen, she


    wauid do anything to achieve her


    g@als. >


    "Dianne''s mother is now the leader


    of the court. And whatever she says,


    gets the approval of many. But other


    people are silently working against.


    her. Theyare Alexander''s trusted


    allies. But even if the court is infavor


    of Dianne s mother bing-the


    Alpha, they are not blinded by her


    abilities. At the end of the-day, all


    they want is to make this pack move


    forward. And at thest meeting


    yesterday, your name was brought


    forth for one fit for an Alpha.”


    I turned away from the leaf I had been watching while Orion spoke, "Me? Why would they choose me?"


    "Words have gotten out about who you are. I don''t know who started it but as soon as you came, it spread like wildfire.” he muttered


    "But do they know it''s just a rumor?" I asked and Orion appeared to be deep in thought.


    “They don''t think so because there is


    evidence. One of the people working


    for Alexander received an “


    anonyméus video of you in your wolf


    form. ficaptured your face before


    yOue could turn into one. I believed it


    was-someone from Ryven’ spack


    that sent that.’ Content pétongs to


    Fear rattled in me at the possibility of someone watching my every move.


    "You don''t need to be afraid bi think the person did it in favor of you. Maybe a friend so that you would receive the respect you deserve,” Orion shifted


    from one foot to another before sitting on the ground.


    "I had no friends there. I was always by myself.”


    "A secret admirer perhaps," Orion said with amusement in his voice. I looked down to find him throwing a wink my way and I couldn''t help but roll my


    eyes, a smile tugging at my lips.


    “Be serious," I smiled at him.


    "But I''m serious," he ced a hand on his chest, "You hurt me, Sophia," he said and I kicked him which he expertly dodged.


    "So right now, we''re betting on either Alexander or you being the Alpha. But either way, as soon as you be Alexander''s Luna, the better for us


    all."


    A tug pulled at my heart at the mention of me being Alexander''s Luna. "I don''t think they would be possible anytime soon," I muttered, sadness eating


    away at my words


    "And why is that?" Orion asked, all yfulness leaving his features


    "That''s because I''m pregnant for him. But he believes I''m pregnant for Ryven because of what Dianne''s mother said to him. Why was she at the pack


    house anyway?" I tried to make light of the situation by shifting to another topic but Orion wasn''t.


    He slowly stood up. "You''re pregnant for Alexander?" He asked, his face a mask of confusion. And I nodded. "That can''t be. You have to be mistaken


    somewhere.”


    "I''m not mistaken. The child belongs to Alexander!" I snapped, mad at him for doubting me too when I thought he would be the one to talk to


    Alexander on my behalf.


    "Alexaby can''t impregnate a woman. He lost that ability when he was a teen,” Orion said and I froze before looking at him.


    "That''s not possible. There has to be a mistake somewhere. The baby in me belongs to Alexander. I never had sex with Ryven.” I argued back and I


    could see Orion''s confusion deepen with time.


    "Give me a moment. I''ll be back," he turned around without waiting for me. "I believe you, Sophia. There has to be a mistake somewhere,” he stopped


    and said that before walking off.


    I was d he believed me. At least I wasn''t alone in this. I was out in that same spot thinking of what could be wrong, I didn''t take track of time.


    Night came and fell. But I was still in the spot, under the tree. I was too tired to go inside as I watched the night sky. And then, shuffling from the dark


    forest brought my eyes to the space before me.


    "Hello? Who''s there?" I asked but there was no reply. I turned around and found to my horror I was the only person in that vicinity. And I felt the


    unmistakable feeling of someone watching me.


    I stood up but strong arms mped around my nose and mouth with a handkerchief. I struggled against him but I couldn''t do much as I felt my


    consciousness slowly slip from me.