53: I''m such a loser


    I looked at the man whose face was almost covered with the cloak he was wearing. But I could still make out some of his features. He had sandy


    blond hair which almost covered half of his face. He was moving forward from the back of the crowd. Then his eyes met mine and he stopped. I could


    feel his rage. Was he rted to Rudolph?


    Alexander''s fingers almost slipped from mine but I held it tighter and squeezed gently. That seemed to work as he stopped trying to get his fingers out


    of mine.


    "And why do you say so? What evidence do you have?" Alexander asked slowly and calmly but I could detect the anger hidden just beneath his


    words which made the hair on the back of my neck rise from dread.


    And I knew others in the hall could feel it too as their faces went pale and they looked everywhere but us. I thought Alexander hated me before but I


    came to realize he had all been fake because the voice of anger that rose from him seemed like it came directly from hell.


    The man looked on, unafraid. And I secretly apuded him for his bravery and foolishness. It''s either he would be dead now or he would face a lot of


    torture before Alexander decided to end his life.


    "It''s everywhere. Just because she is your mate doesn''t mean she can go Scott-free! Demoting her to an Omega was us being lenient with her and


    now our Luna?" The man''s voice rang out clearly amongst the crowd.


    "And what makes you think you can talk to her that way?" Alexander growled as I almost flinched from the gaze of the man. But I had to stand my


    ground in front of the people.


    Thest thing I wanted was for them to see me as someone weak and pathetic. I also wanted them to know that I was still part of the pack even if


    Alexander hadn''t yet told me anything about it.


    Although a little part of me wanted to be part of the pack and address the people. But that wouldn''t be possible if the man hadn''t been put in ce. I


    tried not to let my heart swell at how well Alexander defended me. I doubted I would be able to face off such a huge crowd on my own without


    stuttering and making a fool out of myself.


    But at that moment, I couldn''t concentrate on the growing feeling inside of me. Instead, I Concentrated on the man and what he was saying. What he


    was saying was supposed to make a lot of sense if it were before. But now, it made no sense since Alexander had already made it clear he had


    evidence for me.


    I saw Alexander''s hand slip from mine and he walked down to where the crowd stood. And I wanted to apud him for it. He was like a domineering


    man whose gaze could burn everything in its path. I knew I was blessed with a wonderful mate, except that stupid part of me denied it and told me it


    was all a facade.


    "She''s an Omega. And I am higher in status to her,” the man said bitterly but I could make out fear in his words. He hadn''t expected Alexander to


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    I watched as the bravery went out of the man as he took a step back. I could see him fighting with himself as his fists balled beside him.


    "She''s not an Omega. She came out being an Omega when I found out she wasn''t the one who killed Rudolph.” Alexander''s hands came behind him


    as they sped together. I knew he had a smirk on his face because of how well he was taking control of the situation.


    And that small pay of me was proud of him. I could feel the nces being constantly thrown my way to gauge my expression. I probably had an


    expressionless face. I couldn''t give anything away when whatever Alexander had with him hadn''t been revealed yet.


    "You said you know she killed Rudolph. Could you tell everyone how she did that?" Alexander asked and the crowd fell into a hush. But the man''s


    face, which was covered by part of his cloak was pulled down by someone behind him. His face wasn''t something I recognized. I was so sure of it


    because I would be able to remember any eyes I had seen which were greener than the forest.


    "Cat got your tongue? You spoke like you were so sure. Not so sure anymore?” Alexander asked once more. They were about three feet apart from


    each other. But I knew if Alexander were to end the man’s life there, it wouldn''t take more than a step to do so.


    "And do you know what happens when you nder a Luna?" Alexander asked again and I paled. I knew what happened. The person was hanged in


    the pack’s square


    A gasp rang out amongst the crowd. And they were all thinking what I was thinking. I wasn''t yet a Luna but none was brave enough to point that out.


    And it wouldn''t be me either.


    "She''s not yet out Luna do they won''t stand,” a voice I would recognize anywhere spoke and I found her instantly. She was standing at the far end of


    the hall. She was barely recognizable


    I tried not to let the hurt show in me. But it did because I could no longer hear the voices in the hall nor could I see the man as he retreated to the


    back, in shelter of the one who sent him - Dianne''s mother.


    I didn''t think it hurt this way with the way I havee to ept that she was evil when Alexander and I talked about it. But it did nothing to prepare


    me for the way she looked at me. Not the kind I was used to. That was filled with love and care.


    Just how many of her words had been lies? I tried not to think about these. But they came rushing at me when I looked into her eyes. They were cold


    and mocking. I thought I would be able to face her and demand an exnation.


    But I couldn''t. She was the woman


    that had reced myother in my


    heart. I never''did think for a moment


    I would goine I in this position where I


    would be hurt by the person I least


    suspée ed. Did she just do that so


    she.could be the Luna? How


    could she kill her son ancpin the


    me on me?


    I tried to tell myself this was all a dream. The heartache threatened to ovee me as I felt the room going further from me until I saw the door in


    front of my eyes.


    I couldn’t do this. Maybe I was a fool. Areal one like Ryven said and I was not Luna. I could never be not when I couldn''t even face off someone who


    didn''t bat an eye to bring me down. To my lowest.


    And then the tears fell. They didn''t fall when Ryven told me about it, they didn''t fall wnen I met Dianne They didn''t fall when Alexander confirmed it


    with me. But they fell when I looked into the eyes that had slowly reced the eyes of my mother.


    I was a bad child who reced her mother’s eyes with that of a criminal. I deserved something more than being demoted to an Omega.


    As I rushed to Alexander''s room with my hair whipping around my face, I didn''t think I would fall because of my blurred vision. My hair hade


    undone from their braids as I ran


    I just wanted to be alone and probably think about what to do because, at that time, I couldn''t see past my grief. I didn''t care that I got looks of


    surprise.


    Pulling open the doors, I banged it shut and copsed on the floor, my back to the door. I heard knocks and knew without a doubt it would be Orion. It


    would have been Alexander if he wasn''t addressing his members.


    "I''m fine," I choked out, not even believing myself even if I tried to believe it a thousand times while I ran.


    “Open the dogy, Sophia,” Orion said


    but I didn''t d@the exact opposite. I


    stood up and ripped the clothes =


    from meg tet down my hair from the


    different pins that adorned therm: I


    needéd a hot bath. Maybe that”


    would clear the clogs in my-brain


    even if my heart did not indicate


    stopping to hurt at any moment.


    I felt like if I did nothing. I would probably pass out from the hurt my heart gave out.


    I walked to the bathroom on rubber legs, a smeared face, and aching legs. Running the hot water in the tub, I got into it, ignoring the banging on the


    door.


    I thought about all the times Dianne''s mother consoled me when I was sad. How she nursed me to health when I was sick and how she protected me


    from the wrath of Dianne. She told me she loved me like she would love her daughter and she wished I were her child.


    How many of them were lies and how many were truths? I bit my lips as I tried to focus on the after on my skin, how nice it felt a bit in the wrong


    mood.


    It didn’tst long though because I fell into a sleep which I was woken up from minutester by someone touching my face.


    The Sparks were there. It was Alexander. Even before opening my eyes and realizing what I was doing, I leaned into his hands and created such


    wonderful sparks.


    I opened my eyes and found him looking at me with nothing in his beautiful eyes. I was mesmerized before realizing how much of a fool I made him


    as I ran out of the hall.


    "I''m sorry,” I tried to look away but Alexander brought my face back to him. He shook his head and I noticed a towel in his hand. I let him take me out


    of the water.


    I was in my panties and bra which did little to hide all my assets. I couldn''t care less. I was tired, humiliated, and hurt


    He wrapped the towel around me


    and lifted mecoff the tub, carrying


    me bridal style to the bed. As soon.


    as my head hit the pillow, I fell into


    the sleep that consumed me. But


    before Scumbling to sleep, I felt


    Alexander s arm wrap around me


    ftom behind before cing a kiss on


    the top of my head.


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