50: Leaving again


    Sophia''s POV


    My mouth hung open while I looked around the room. If I said I was shocked, that was a huge


    understatement. The room was painted in purple and white giving off the vibe of a princess bed. If


    only, it wasn''t. I wasn''t a princess.


    The remainder left a bitter taste in my mouth. I wasn''t loved here no matter how much I tried to


    convince myself otherwise. But no matter how much I looked at it, I wanted to be here because the


    bigger part of me felt like I belonged here.


    "Do you like the room?" Orion asked me and I smiled without giving him an answer but was sure as


    hell my facial expressions must have given me away. I was in awe of the room.


    And I recalled what Orion and I talked about before. It was about Alexander thinking so much about


    me. I had wanted to ask him more about it but I knew it would be stacking up lies against one


    another. Something I wasn''t prepared for no matter how much my heart craved to believe what he


    said.


    As I stood in the middle of the room with Orion''s eyes on me, I ced my bag on the floor and


    turned around to him, "You don''t have to wait for me to see my reaction. I like the room. It''s… nice,"


    And lovely, what I had always wished for as a child. I almost said.


    "Okay, if you say so. In case you need anything, I would be in the room to the left. Just knock and I


    will answer you."


    I gave a short nod while I looked away from him. He knew I wouldn''t call for him and I would be


    gone sooner orter. I''d figured I would need good food and a little bit of rest if I were to take up my


    journey to another pack. Or worse, to the human town.


    I cringed at the thought of going there. Never would I ever want to be amongst the humans but I


    knew it was better than being here. At least there, no one would be able to give me the look of


    scorn or something close to that.


    I let my feet take me to the bed, where I imagined I would get a good sleep and some rest if ever I


    felt like it.


    "Why?" Orion''s voice stopped me before I could take another step. I swiveled around and found him


    by the door, his hand across his chest, intrigue dancing in his eyes.


    "Why what?" Although I knew exactly what he was talking about, acting dumb gave me more time to


    think about a response. Of course, I wouldn''t be telling him the real reason I left Ryven''s pack.


    I promised Ava that what happened in the cell would stay between the three of us. I contemted


    telling Orion the truth about leaving Ryven. But I figured it was of no use.


    "You know what I mean," Orion said and I blushed hard in embarrassment because he read me like


    an open book.


    "Nothing. I just wanted to leave."


    "And Ryven let you? Just like that?" He asked with disbelief and amusement dripping from his


    voice.


    "Yes? I have a right to leave whenever I want to. I begged him and he let me go."


    "Do you have any idea how that sounds? I know you don''t even believe yourself," he said and


    walked into the room again, closing the door behind him while I cursed under my breath. Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "That''s what happened. Believe it or not."


    "And I choose not to believe it. When you want to talk about it, you know where to find me. But for


    now, take care of yourself. You would need the energyter," he said and walked out of the room


    and I released the breath I didn''t know I had been holding. And then my legs found their way to the


    bed.


    I stood up quickly, resisting the urge to sleep on it, and walked to the bathroom. My mouth almost


    dropped to the floor. I was supposed to be used to this by now but I couldn''t because I could never


    imagine my life this way in Alexander''s pack. But Ryven had given me this much, yet he was a total


    douchebag.


    So also was Alexander.


    I quickly got into the bath, soaking myself in hot water for a few minutes while I tried to make heads


    or tails why I was here. Was I that desperate for love? The answer was no. But why did Ie back


    to Alexander despite what he did to me? Despite knowing he had let me be bullied when he knew I


    was his mate.


    I knew that was why I was here. To get answers for all that happened in the past, only then would I


    be able to rest. Before I leave the pack, I would defile Alexander once again and go to him. I would


    ask him all that had been bothering me.


    I stayed in the bath until the water almost turned cold. Getting out of it quickly, I changed into a new


    pair of skinny jeans and a big blue baggy sweater.


    Whilebing my hair, I heard the door open. I thought it would be Orion once again until the smell


    of Alexander hit my nose and I stiffened. I hated how much power he had over me. His scent made


    heat pool in my lower belly and I imagined what would have happened if he hadn''t asked me to


    leave.


    Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath to calm myself down but it did little to dull the ache that had


    started between my legs. It was beginning to grow when Alexander walked into the room, his


    presence overbearing. It felt like the air had been dragged out of the room and I was left panting.


    While in his office, I tried to ignore it and to a certain extent, I could but right now, in the bedroom


    where the soft bed was waiting for me, for us, I felt the walls I built breaking.


    "Why are you here? I''ll be gone soon. No need to remind me once again," I said, the sound of it


    tasting bitter on my lips.


    "Stay," Alexander said and I whipped my head so fast to look at him. Not because of shock but


    because of anger. The arousal that was building up in me died while fierce anger took its ce.


    "Who do you think you are to order me around? I''m leaving and that''s it," I seethed in rage and his


    face was left emotionless. Bastard. It pained me greatly that I wasn''t able to know what he was


    feeling.


    Was he feeling regret? Jealousy like Orion had said? Or was he sad about letting me go and being


    unable to stop me now?


    "I''m sorry," he said and I had to be sure he was the one speaking and not some other person hiding


    in the room. My heart gave a stupid leap in my chest as I stared at him.


    The voice that came out of him was wrung with emotions. So much of it. It was like all the emotions


    he had buried in him came rushing at that single sentence but it carried a lot of weight. I was almost


    tempted to run into his arms and tell him everything would be fine.


    How foolish that was of me. But I couldn''t help it when he stood there looking at me like his world


    was about to be taken away from him.


    "I''m sorry for everything. I know I had been a …" he stopped trying to look for the right words while I


    watched him, too stunned to utter a sentence.


    The man standing in front of me was someone I wished to see every day. I was supposed to feel


    rage, burning anger at him but I felt none of that. Instead, I was numb. All the anger was drained


    from me. I just wanted to be home. All the suffering was catching up to me and I was honestly tired.


    I just wanted toy in bed, have a good night''s sleep which was devoid of nightmares, and wake up


    a smiling girl.


    Or woman rather.


    Maybe I should forgive him. My child deserves a pack to call his own and a father. I didn''t even


    know what to think, about how Alexander would take the news that I was pregnant.


    He walked closer to me, his face a nk sheet of paper. The way he moved, graceful which I was


    secretly jealous of, with poise and intent.


    I gulped and took a step back. I just wanted it all to be over.


    "Say something, Sophia," the way my name rolled off his tongue made me squirm in my position,


    the sound doing more harm than good to me.


    "You don''t expect me to forgive you for all you did even while knowing I was your mate, you let them


    treat me the way they did. Did you ever for once think about how I must have felt?" The anger came


    back in full force and I began to wonder about the devil that made me think it would be wise to


    forgive him so easily.


    "I''m sorry. When you left, I realized I couldn''t do without you and then, Ryven informed me you


    didn''t want to have anything to do with me." He said. If he was surprised I knew about him knowing I


    was his mate before I turned eighteen, he didn''t show it.


    "Yes, I didn''t. Do you have any idea what I went through there?" My eyes watered and the damn


    tears threatened to spill after lodging in my eyes for days without showing itself.


    I watched in anger while his eyes slowly gave off the light of regret to be reced by anger. It would


    have been funny only if it wasn''t because of the situation I was in.


    "What did that bastard do to you?!" He growled, the color of his eyes changing to that of his wolf''s


    and I sneered.


    "Funny how you are no different from him," I balled my fists. "What did you expect? For him to take


    me as his Luna immediately I walked into his pack? You must really be delusional."


    "Ryven promised he wouldn''t harm you. And I would be a fool to let this slide," he ignored my


    comment and turned around, heading for the door. His words carried the promise of revenge as it


    hung in the air like a thick nket.


    "Don''t touch him." I heard myself say while he turned to me, disbelief on his face.


    "Would you rather he goes scott-free after treating you like you don''t matter?"


    I smirked, my eyescking warmth, "Yes, at least he was better than you, my supposed mate who


    ought to protect me!" I snapped and his jaw ticked violently. "If you start a war, you''re never seeing


    me or…" I stopped before I could mention the fact that I was carrying his child.