Chapter 54 (Beauty''s Breath) (Beggar)


    “You won''t take me with you to see the horses?” Hannah''s daughter Jo asks me. She has her entire


    face shoved in mine by the bar.


    Zero and the other fully patched members are downstairs in the basement, having Church.


    Whisp and Chadley are preparing food for everyone while Den and Jade guard the main gate.


    I have been sitting here in the bar googling random shit, and babysitting Jo. But my mind is on finding


    La, killing Thorn and finishing this shit with the club. Putting an end to these killings has now taken


    first ce for the club but not to me. I see all of them as important.


    What I don''t think about is the new life growing inside my body. My mind shies away from that part


    which should be the most important piece in my life.


    Thest time it happened, the life growing inside of me was all I could think about. I was amazed that a


    filthy beggar as myself could carry a life. Something so precious.


    Look where that ended up.


    This is the part where I am supposed to think that this time is different, that I am different, but that


    would be a foolish thought.


    I am much worse than I was. So, although I want to think about it, or how I am going to tell Zero, I do


    neither. I concentrate on the fucked-up parts of my life and a few sweet yet annoying ones. For


    instance, the little girl that acts like a boy who is currently blinking at me waiting for my answer to


    change. She is persistent.


    “Fine, I’ll take you, just not now kid, why don''t you go get me one of those muffins Chadley made?”


    “If I do that, AFTER will you take me to see the horses? Pleeeeease Beggar, my papa said he ain''t


    takin’ me to see shit until I fess up.” Her curly hair reminds me of a barbie doll. Those naughty eyes and


    thick eyebrows resemble a she demon.


    The kid is cute, and has one hell of mean streak in her, but she is straight up.


    When I got back earlier and heard the little demon screaming Papa, I was speechless to find out she


    was referring to River.


    What shocked me more was that River was nning on proposing this week to Hannah. All the


    members of the club wereing to Ka in a few days and one of those members so happened to


    be Zero’s dad, Toad.


    Not sure how that was going to y out. Thest time he came to Ka while I was around was the


    night I ran away from the clubhouse.


    Zero said he came around a few times while Kylie and I were La''s prisoners. Zero also mentioned


    that his dad knew about my connection to La but not my connection to his brother, Thorn.


    That piece of information is the most important part, it holds my identity in his eyes. I wonder a lot at


    night about his dad’s reaction to me when he finds out that I am not just the woman his son sleeps next


    to, but I am his other son’s killer.


    Even now as I sit here with this innocent girl looking at me with such trusting eyes, I am still a killer and


    my death toll has not reached its limit yet.


    My stomach growls from hunger and my mouth waters as I think of how nice those muffins are going to


    taste.


    “I''ll tell you what, if you get me two muffins, I''ll take you to see those horses and give you one of those


    chocte ice-creams Knight keeps stashed in the barn fridge.” I wink at her, watching her face


    transform as it brightens.


    She jumps down and like Jo, she is gone.


    “I think the idea of punishing a kid is so that they learn a lesson. I don''t think allowing her to go see the


    horses after she let them out is teaching her anything,” Whisp voices out as she walks into the bar


    area.


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    Her hair is now cut so short and dyed ash blonde, it makes her face stand out. She looks gorgeous like


    this.


    “I think not fessing up when you did something good, is a lesson in itself and should be rewarded,


    besides she didn''t do it.” I drink the rest of my fruit juice and m the stic bottle on the counter.


    “Then Ms Detective, who the hell did? It took us two hours getting those horses back in the barn.”


    “I ain''t no snitch,” I inform the woman that once hated me, now I would say we were getting to the


    friend zone. But I wouldn''t go as far as saying or believing that we were already there.


    “Oh,e on Beggar, who am I going to tell?” She gives me that big eyed stare she gives the men


    whenever she is trying to convince them of something. Thank fuck I don''t have a dick or I''ll cave.


    “Someone, and before we know it, the entire Clubhouse would know.” Hearing Jo''s sneakers skidding


    on the floor, I get up off my chair as shees running into the bar area holding two cupcakes instead


    of the muffins.


    They don''t have frosting on it as yet, but these are the red ones, my favourite.


    “Thanks kid.” I take the one and wink at her, as I take a big bite.


    Jo bites into hers too, the kid is cute.


    “Let''s go before the men get done.”


    I leave Whisp standing in the bar with Jo walking next to me.


    “You know, I never really opened the stable. I keep tellin’ everyone it wasn''t me, but nobody besides


    Uncle Spade believes me.”


    “I believe you kid, in fact I know who did.”


    “You lie, who was it?”


    I stop on the hill as she jumps in front of me, her mouth messy with crumbs.