Chapter 188


    My Love My Hatred Chapter 188


    I walked around the campus aimlessly, then I saw you. You and Leo. I saw your smile, it was such an


    innocent and bright smile. I could see Leo Mason reflected in your eyes. I was jealous, I was so


    envious of Leo. I thought, if only you had smiled at me so warmly once in all these years, maybe, just


    maybel wouldn‘t have treated you so badly. If you had smiled at me once, maybe would have softened


    my heart towards you, I wouldn‘t have been so cold blooded.


    I started to be like a stalker, following you and Leo all the time in secret. Leo found out and I went back


    from your campus.


    After many yearster, I only


    realized why I did something so strange, it was because, there was always a voice in my heart, telling


    me it was your birthday, telling me that the day I went to see you was the day you officially became an


    adult. A poor looking girl finally grew into a beautiful, gorgeous youngdy. I thought, why not go and


    have a look at her......


    And so, I flew to your campus. After seeing you that day perhaps I didn‘t want to admit or remember


    why I did this, I forgot about it totally,


    I forgot temporarily about the things that I did.


    I was very sure it was you who stole the data from my safebox. Leo told me before, that you are an


    extremely


    smart woman. You started working part time while studying in high school, and you were even able to


    get into the best university. Leo said you could easily remember everything you see for a time period


    after looking at it once. I knew how you were able to guess my password, because you knew me well


    since then.


    I thought my password was hard enough, but she was still able to unlock it. I could have installed at


    CCTV, but I didn‘t. I could have changed my lock to a finger print lock, but I didn‘t. I really wanted to


    treat you like family. I didn‘t know why I didn‘t do those things to protect my own data, maybe


    subconsciously I was trying to test you?


    You didn‘t love me, but Leo thought you still loved him. Seems like he was also a fool to believe that


    you loved him still.


    He had been doing this research for a long time, even when you guys  were still together, you would


    know. Yet, you still chose to give it to Nius, how cold blooded have you be, Jennie? I didn‘t


    know if I should happy, because at least now it proved that you didn‘t love Leo Mason anymore.


    When you called out his name on bed, I knew you did it on purpose, because your lids were moving,


    you weren‘t really deep asleep. When you used to shout and cry for him long time ago, I knew it was


    sincere that time, I could feel how painful and hurt you were. But it all changed, I didn‘t know when, but


    I knew you didn‘t love him anymore.


    Since when did you stop loving him? Did you really hate all of the Mason‘s so much? Even when we


    have a child, you still weren‘t able to let go of the hatred?


    Jennie, you‘ve changed. I couldn‘t see any kindness in your eyes anymore, I couldn‘t find any


    innocence in you anymore. You were not the girl that remained kind and nice even though life gets hard


    anymore.


    Now, you‘ve be cruel, you‘re full of plots. You knew I hate it when you interact with any men, but


    you still flirted with Anthony. You smiled at him,ughed with him...... you were carrying Lexi in your


    arms that time, yet you flirted with another man, how would a child think?


    She‘s growing up slowly, Jennie. Couldn‘t you be nice to me, to the family, for Lexi? Didn‘t they always


    say mothers are willing to sacrifice anything for their child? Why couldn‘t you?


    You were always thinking of ways to make me angry, to plot against me. You didn‘t think about the


    child, the family. What would happen to a child who grows up in such a family


    environment? The both of us weren‘t able to grow up in aplete and healthy family, why couldn‘t


    you make it possible for our Lexi?


    I thought with Lexi with us, you would start to settle down and be a good wife, a good mother.


    I was wrong, I was so wrong. If one child wasn‘t enough, is 2 enough? 3 children? Would you stop all


    the things you‘re plotting against me for three children? I didn‘t really want a son, I just said that as an


    excuse. I just wanted more children so you would be more responsible as a mother. I wanted


    to use our children as a way to keep you by my side.


    Jennie, tell me. I really don‘t know  anymore. What should I do to keep you by my side? I can give you


    anything, anything in the world, but I will never let you go. I will never let you leave my side!


    Jennie, could you stop? You must have wanted to stop all this punish and abusing life right? I didn‘t


    want to hurt you or threaten you anymore, but you were always trying to challenge my limits, challenge


    my love for you.


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    Jennie, please. I love you. I don‘t care if you trust me or not, but I love you, sincerely! But I wasn‘t sure


    if I was able to continue loving you, the you who had be cruel, full of plots and cold blooded. I


    didn‘t know if my love for this you, would be able to keep up. If one day I stopped loving you, your life


    would turn to hell again......)


    Hi readers, sorry for the slow


    update of story these few days! I have been extremely busy! I will update more tomorrow! Please stay


    tuned for more! Finally, Jennie‘s character changed from an innocent girl to a cold blooded girl, and


    Lance is beginning to soften down, but there will be more change of development in characters in the


    future chapters! Thanks for the support. Happy Reading!