"Brother, is it really so hard after marriage?" Chu Zhixi asked with some worry, holding Wu Mian''s hand.


    "The man just now is really not easy." Wu Mian said. "Now, many of them are parents who help to get the down payment. The husband and wife work hard and make monthly payment. If their parents can''t help, they will be ill and need to be hospitalized frequently. The days must be hard."


    "I patronize the doctor when I am in the hospital. I didn''t notice these."


    "Do you still go to the theatre without seeing a doctor?" Wu Mian smiled. "It''s all right. Get drunk and relax. Things will pass. As for the future, you have to endure whether it''s good or bad."


    "But..." Chu Zhixi didn''t know how to describe it.


    "You mean there''s no hope, right?" Wu Mian understood Chu Zhixi and said it for her, "The alarm clock has rung in the morning, but I still have to get up and work; the fatigue of working overtime yesterday has not gone, so I take them to squeeze the bus and subway; I do routine work, day after day, year after year, without growth. In the future, I can see the head at a glance, and I don''t even know where the road will be directly broken. What is waiting for me is unemployment."


    Chu Zhixi''s parents are also employees of public institutions. They earn a lot and are not very busy. She has never been in contact with this kind of life. After listening to Wu Mian, she substituted herself in, and immediately felt that the whole person began to get worse.


    "There is not much left after the salary is paid and the money and housing loans given to the old man are removed; the couple want to go out to eat something delicious to celebrate their wedding anniversary, but no one is willing."


    "Brother..."


    "Most people live like this," Wu Mian said. "We all hope that life can be easier. We all feel that we have worked very hard, but life is always so hard."


    "You don''t want to read all kinds of chicken soup, but chicken soup is everyone''s favorite. Why? Can''t it give people a vague hope even if it is false."


    "Brother, what if you were in his position?" Chu Zhixi asked.


    "Ha ha." Wu Mian smiled, "do you remember when you were in concord?"


    "What''s up?"


    "I had a headache once. You were still in surgery. I ran to the overpass opposite the hospital. You looked for me for a long time later."


    "Remember, I was scared that time. I thought you were going to jump off the overpass. Find a big truck and plug your head..."


    "Don''t be so detailed. I''m beginning to have a sense of picture." Wu Mian messed up Chu Zhixi''s hair and said with a smile, "that time I was really uncomfortable. My brain hurt like someone stabbed me in the head with an awl. I was so hard that I trembled when I walked in pain."


    Wu Mian felt the girl hold her hand tightly.


    He responded gently, "at that time, I was on the overpass watching the cars coming and going, and the crowd was surging.


    Pedestrians after work may look tired or expressionless; when they see children doing homework at small tables next to the public toilet, they also ask their parents who are cleaning; a thin woman pulls a pile of bottles and cans far higher than herself, and her eyes are still staring at the passers-by to see who their purified water bottles are empty. "


    "Before that, I thought I was the worst person in the world."


    Wu Mian recalled his feelings at that time and wanted to smile to make Chu Zhixi relaxed, but the smile condensed on his face, a little dull and stiff.


    "That''s the 15th day after the teacher said I was the future young commander in surgery. Everyone thought I had unlimited scenery. Only you and I knew that I could hardly hold on at that time. I went crazy every day. Sometimes I wondered if I should go to become a monk. Maybe under the Green Lantern and ancient Buddha, I recited the same scriptures and porridge every day. Maybe I could be better."


    "And then?"


    "I can''t bear you," said Wu Mian seriously. "I won''t talk about love, but I just can''t bear you."


    "Almost everyone works very hard. The word" living "has done everything in the world. Day after day, year after year, it is so difficult to have a little harvest. The joy of each harvest is quickly crushed and flattened by life, and there is nothing left."


    "That day I sat on the overpass and looked at the crowd below. Mr. Yu Hua''s" live "appeared in my mind. I always thought" live "and" Farewell My Concubine "were the two best films in China. They were ill fated and had a hard life."


    "Then unconsciously began to recite Teacher Yu Hua''s" living ".


    Mr. Yu Hua said that the word "alive" is full of power in our Chinese language. This is a word that only we can understand.


    Its power does not come from shouting, nor does it come from attack, but to endure, to endure the responsibilities entrusted to us by life, to endure the happiness and suffering, boredom and mediocrity given to us by reality.


    Our kind-hearted people can endure anything as long as they can keep themselves alive. The meaning of kindness is too heavy and the price is too high.


    What''s more sad is that these kind-hearted people are still standing upright like Fugui, smiling and realizing the meaning of living. "


    Chu Zhixi could not understand the thorough meaning of every word in Wu Mian''s words, but she could know what her brother was expressing when she held Wu Mian''s hand.


    "At that time, my mind seemed to be struck by lightning for a moment, and I felt I had a thorough understanding." Wu Mian looked serious, looked at the bustling flow of people in the distance, and said softly, "so I decided to contact the matter of going abroad and take you around the world."


    "Oh, so it is. Why didn''t you tell me?"


    "I don''t know how to say that I can''t be negative. It''s better not to instill these negative energies into you. Although the conclusion I draw from it is relatively sunny and positive... Hahaha, I can''t say it. Remember what I said about the United States emperor?"


    "I can''t bear you!" Chu Zhixi said with a smile after learning from Wu Mian''s words.


    "Yes, to live, to live strong, not pretending to understand the true meaning of life, is to live tenaciously. I am miserable, and others are no better than me. I can not stare at my bad places. Look at the good places. For example, my surgery is good, and my diagnostics are unparalleled in the world!"


    "Hahaha, brother is right."


    "I endured no matter how hard it was later. In fact, before that, I thought about dying many times. If it weren''t for you, I guess the grass on my grave would be tall."


    Hearing Wu Mian''s description, Chu Zhixi was a little afraid, although she also knew that it was once.


    "Don''t worry, I can''t endure him!" Wu Mian grabbed Chu Zhixi''s hand and looked at the sky and clouds in the distance with a look of arrogance and stubbornness in his eyes.