《Perspective Engine One (THE PSYCHO-LITRPG)》 1 - A New Perspective ¡°Dr. Lee, can I be honest with you?¡± I asked, thirty-five minutes into my forty-minute therapy session. I wouldn¡¯t have to talk about my latest screw-up for too long, thankfully. ¡°I wouldn¡¯t like it any other way, Madison,¡± Dr. Lee said, taking a sip of what I assumed was water from her mint green Stanley cup. The psychologist was a thirty-something Chinese woman. She always wore a dark-colored turtleneck with small jade beads. Dr. Lee had a kind face and I loved her cute little green necklace. If only therapy helped me. Even a fucking little. ¡°I did it again,¡± I said, choking on the words as they entangled the shame I felt. ¡°I stepped on that damn scale.¡± Dr. Lee pursed her lips and looked down, scribbling something on a pad. ¡°And how did that make you feel?¡± ¡°Sick to my stomach. I don¡¯t know which weighs me down more Dr. Lee, being Bipolar or being a fat-ass.¡± ¡°Madison, when you talk about yourself that way, how does it make you feel?¡± I almost rolled my eyes at her constant drilling. ¡°I feel what I always feel,¡± I said, shaking with tears. ¡°Miserable, I¡¯m miserable.¡± I shook my head and grabbed the AriZona sweet tea sitting on my desk. Unfortunately, the bottle was almost finished. ¡°I thought we were getting rid of the scale, Madison, you told me you were going to dispose of it.¡± Well, I didn¡¯t use the word ¡®dispose¡¯ that¡¯s for sure. ¡°I know Dr. Lee, but I plucked it right from the bin before trash day, I just had to see it one more time. I was hoping my weight went down.¡± ¡°Okay,¡± Dr. Lee said, clearing her throat. ¡°How much did it say?¡± ¡°Four and some change, and it hasn¡¯t changed for the better.¡± ¡°Let¡¯s focus on something else,¡± she said, ¡°have you been writing in the daily gratitude journal and reading from the list of positive affirmations?¡± I grabbed my bottle and took another sip. There was a new condensation ring left by the tea on my desk. There were hundreds at this point. I swirled the little remaining tea. My twelve-pack was down to its last bottle. I¡¯d have to get some more delivered. I glanced back at the psychologist and considered what she had said. ¡°I still don¡¯t have anything to be grateful for, Dr. Lee. I¡¯m sorry. You know what, I¡¯ll be grateful if I get my case of sweet tea same-day delivery.¡± Dr. Lee sighed. ¡°¡and the positive affirmations?¡± I shook my head, looking away from the small box of my psychologist on the computer screen. I refused to make the box larger than it needed to be. I also refused to look at myself in the mirror image that Zoom forced upon its users. I hate seeing myself. ¡°Not that either.¡± ¡°The medication at least?¡± With this question, the psychologist took a tone that reminded me of the last five therapists. They always started bubbly and focused but eventually, they withered, and finally, I broke them. Anything under the weight of my life. Broken. ¡°I haven¡¯t missed a day of it but it doesn¡¯t work¡yeah, I don¡¯t think it works.¡± ¡°Well, you¡¯re doing something. That¡¯s good news, at least,¡± Dr. Lee said, sounding almost patronizing. I shook my head. Reading Webtoons made me feel better than this shit. There was the strange probing at times. Then there was the belittling. This woman may have been my worst mental health professional yet. ¡°Listen, Dr. Lee, I have been in therapy for a decade, I¡¯m about to be twenty-five tomorrow, I don¡¯t think I can do all these things you¡¯ve been pushing on me.¡± ¡°Madison,¡± Dr. Lee took her glasses off. ¡°Have you tried?¡± ¡°Not hard enough, I guess. But I don¡¯t like this talking down to me, Dr. Lee,¡± Like I¡¯m depressed but you don¡¯t have to be rude. I crossed my arms. ¡°Is that how that felt? I¡¯m sorry Madison. I just feel like therapy has been challenging for you,¡± ¡°So is this you giving up on me then?¡± I asked, mostly to get a reaction. Dr. Lee leaned forward into her camera. The screen flickered as the psychologist smiled. ¡°Madison, this entire time I¡¯ve just been creating your profile. We haven¡¯t even started treatment yet.¡± ¡°Oh,¡± I said. Sure felt like it started already. ¡°Tell me how you found this program?¡± ¡°Google ads,¡± I said, ¡° I saw ¡®Perspective¡¯, and it was like the word spoke to me.¡± ¡°The word did speak to you, Madison. I believe that you need a big change.¡± ¡°Me too,¡± I nodded. ¡°That¡¯s because we recruited you.¡± ¡°Recruited?¡± I furrowed my brow at the word. ¡°After getting to know you for these past five weeks I have concluded that you are the perfect fit for Perspective¡¯s fifteenth experiment.¡± This content has been misappropriated from Royal Road; report any instances of this story if found elsewhere. ¡°Experiment?¡± I asked, leaning back in my chair. It creaked a little. ¡°What do you mean experiment? ¡°It¡¯s more than an experiment. It¡¯s an experience and opportunity for you.¡± Dr. Lee said, her smile broadened now, teeth shining white. I didn¡¯t like experiments. Those chemistry experiments in tenth grade had the entire class whooping with glee while I found it boring. Especially the experiment understanding calories. That one felt targeted. ¡°I don¡¯t like experiments. Never wanted to be a part of one.¡± I grabbed my mouse and hovered the cursor over the ¡®x¡¯. This was getting weird. ¡°I thought this was therapy, not a science project and all that.¡± ¡°It is therapy. But you failed therapy Madison. Now we need to change your entire perspective.¡± I closed out the session with a click. I had to do it. Was it rude? I didn¡¯t care. She was being rude. I glanced at the time ¡ª 6:00 ¡ª Time was up anyway. I turned my back to the computer screen and tightened my lip. Why am I always getting caught up in scams and other weird shit? There was Brad, the catfish bastard who fleeced me out of $200. He was cute in his profile picture. Which was a damn stock photo. Whatever. Therapy wasn¡¯t for me. I promised Mom I would do it three months every year. She made me make this promise when my life went to shit in high school after Papa died. Mom reiterated this promise three years ago as pancreatic cancer took her too. Now that these three months were up, I doubted I would ever go back this time. I sighed as I glanced around my pathetic room. The full-sized bed was sunk in, the carpet floor ragged, dirty clothes overflowing, and the TV remote was still missing in action. It had been two days, and I needed to find that damn thing. I lived in a one-bedroom apartment with a small kitchen and a small living room that overlooked downtown Minneapolis. Rent was cheap enough to accommodate me for the next ten years while I spent the life insurance money my parents left me. Eventually, I would get a job again and then the money would last me even longer. ¡°I wasn¡¯t finished explaining the experiment, Madison,¡± I spun back around and there was the Zoom call ¡ª active. The psychologist¡¯s window covered the entire 20¡¯ screen. The woman¡¯s face loomed large, as she leaned forward into the camera, her eyes accusatory and piercing. ¡°What the fuck is going on?¡± I said. ¡°I want to be discharged from the program!¡± ¡°Madison, you are client #670,¡± Dr. Lee said, holding her clipboard to the screen. The numbers were written neatly in bold marker for me to read clearly. ¡°You don¡¯t have any pets so that¡¯s good. No friends or family so that¡¯s good.¡± Her voice lost its softness, not truly speaking to me but reading from a list of notes. ¡°I do have friends and family!¡± I said, knowing I had already told the woman in a previous session my friends and extended family hadn¡¯t heard from me in years. Why couldn¡¯t my parents have given me a sister or a brother before they went and died on me? ¡°We have ensured the last six months of your lease have been paid for. Unfortunately, the length of this experiment is a year. Movers will put all your things in storage when the time comes. We will pay the monthly bill.¡± ¡°Dr. Lee, you are scaring me,¡± I said, my finger clicking the ¡®x¡¯ rapidly but the Zoom meeting refused to close. ¡°We believe that you need Perspective, Madison. It will be dangerous, you might snap, but you need Perspective to wake you¡ª¡° The monitor went black. ¡°Perspective that,¡± I said, crossing my arms with the desktop power cord in my hands. I leaned over and struggled to plug it back in. Screw it. I dropped it to the floor. That¡¯ll need to stay off for a long while anyway. I¡¯ll have to find the remote before I get bored. I picked up my bottle of iced tea and downed the last of it, then stood from my chair with a grunt. Damn this body. My feet hurt. My knees hurt. My back hurts. Every damn thing hurts. I slowly walked to my living room, if you can call limping and twisting trying to avoid the pain, walking. I should have been nose blind to the smell of old cardboard by now. I wasn¡¯t. The mountain of Amazon boxes on my couch rivaled Kilimanjaro. Cleaning that all up was another task for another day. A manic day. I stepped into the kitchen, opened the fridge, and scanned the shelves. The groceries were dwindling fast: Two gala apples, one cup of Greek yogurt, a glass bowl of partially eaten mac and cheese, and a half gallon of whole milk, half gone. My eyes stopped on the last bottle of the AriZona Iced Tea sitting on the top shelf just waiting for me. Last one. And that the weirdo psychologist distracted me from putting in a new delivery. There was a knock at my door. I shut the refrigerator door and squinted my eyes. ¡°Hmm?¡± Who the hell could that be? I considered for a split second that it was Dr. Lee¡¯s creepy ass. That would be illegal. ¡°Who is it now?¡± I asked tiredly, trudging to the door. ¡°Prime Delivery!¡± A man said. ¡°It says to deliver it to you by hand,¡± Had I put the order in before the session and forgotten about it? ¡°What is it?¡± I asked cautiously. ¡°A big ol¡¯ case of AriZona,¡± He said with a chuckle. As upset as I was from that crazy session, a bout of amnesia made sense. I had completely forgotten about putting in the delivery. I opened the door to see a young black guy with sleepy eyes and long dreadlocks carrying the case of tea. ¡°Here you go, miss,¡± He said with a smile, showing opaque Invisalign braces that weren¡¯t very invisible. ¡°Thanks so much,¡± I said, ¡°I forgot I ordered it,¡± ¡°Well, it says here it was a gift. Somebody likes you,¡± He pointed to the tag that said ¡®A gift for you!¡¯ ¡°Gift?¡± As the words left my mouth three large men walked off the elevator. The delivery man and I looked at the men as they approached my door. ¡°Perspective said they¡¯d be together. Clients #592 and #670,¡± the front man said, with a gruff Italian accent, ¡°two-for-one fellas.¡± My eyes widened as I shared a look with the courier. Suddenly, a man broke off from the three with a sprint, slamming into the delivery man. ¡°Shut the door!¡± The courier shouted, his voice filled with fear as he wrestled the attacker. ¡°Call the cops!¡± I slammed the door, throwing on the chain lock. ¡°Shit!¡± I screamed, looking for my cell phone. ¡°I¡¯m calling 911, assholes!¡± I ran, as best I could, to the bedroom and there my phone sat, vibrating like hell. There was an incoming video call from Dr. Lee. I tapped my finger frantically on the decline but the video call remained on the screen. The vibrating phone slipped to the floor out of my sweaty hands. That traitorous b¡ª I heard the door unlock and the doorknob turn, as it caught against the chain. I stumbled from the room, my mouth was dry with heavy pants as my heart beat out of my chest. I slammed myself against the cracked door. Being a big girl has its perks, bastards! I smiled at the thought. ¡°Come with us Madison,¡± the man said, leaning against the door. ¡°don¡¯t make this harder than it needs to be.¡± ¡°Stop it!¡± I screamed. ¡°Somebody help!¡± The men slammed their bodies into the door repeatedly with heavy thuds. Pain joined the struggle, my knees became weak. ¡°Oh no, oh no!¡± I screamed, as the men powered through me and the chained lock. The metal chain links clattering around me as I began, what I imagined to be, a theatrical tumble. I stumbled from the door, trying to prevent myself from falling, I fruitlessly slid along the wall, tripping forward and finally plowing into my couch. The mountain of empty boxes fell over me and my damn TV remote, which was hiding on the cushion, fell to the floor with a crack as its AAA batteries scattered in different directions. The three goons were only two now, and they were walking toward me. ¡°What do you want from me?!¡± I screamed, as one of the men lifted a can and sprayed a cloud of tranquilizer mist into my face. 2 - Perspective Engine One ¡°No!¡± I screamed, lurching awake. My head swirled as I lay on some sort of hospital bed. I was wrapped in white sheets, my arms tucked tightly along my sides, with a large white comforter atop me. I tried to sit up but couldn¡¯t. Where did those jerks bring me? The room I had awakened in was white. Too white. The ceiling, the walls, the floors, the four fluorescent lights ¡ª all white. If there was a door, which there noticeably wasn¡¯t, that too would¡¯ve been white. The room was the size of my bedroom. No one else was there. And it was uncomfortably quiet. ¡°Hello?¡± I said, ¡°hmm.¡± My voice was different ¡ª it felt wrong. I forced myself up from the bed, pulling the sheet off my and tossing the comforter aside. I gasped. She was a child. Still hefty, I was always a little bigger than the rest of them, but I was a child nonetheless. I wore black scrubs without pockets, grippy socks, and a patch over the left side of my chest that read #670. I felt my face. How old was I? Twelve? Younger? ¡°What the fuck?!¡± I shrieked, my shrill pre-teen voice piercing the empty room. I stood from the bed and stepped on the white glass floor. The cold sterile room made my skin ripple with goosebumps. Man, it¡¯s cold! But then another realization dawned on me. There was no pain. There was no anything. My mind was sharp and clear. I felt¡ª Perfect. ¡°What the hell is going on?¡± I whispered. There was a quick beep of an intercom above. ¡°Good morning Madison, welcome to Perspective¡¯s fifteenth experiment!¡± ¡°Dr. Lee?¡± I said, tilting my head to the ceiling. The damn psychologist sounded chipper again. Reminiscent of our first therapy session. ¡°I trusted you! What the fuck is this?!¡± In that moment, swearing attached to my child-like voice made me feel like I would be scolded for the language. ¡°You are currently in the highest-graded therapy-based virtual reality AI system, Perspective Engine One.¡± ¡°Virtual reality?¡± I¡¯d thought about getting one of those VR headsets when they were first popular. Too much standing, I decided. ¡°Well, that explains why I¡¯m a kid. Now tell me why I¡¯m here.¡± My teeth clattered. ¡°And turn the heat up please, I¡¯m freezing.¡± I forgot what it was like to not have built-in insulation. ¡°You were brought here to defeat all of your mental health and physical health problems!¡± How the hell could a VR headset defeat¡ªnevermind even the thought of what the woman said was stupid. ¡°I told you over ten years of therapy hasn¡¯t been able to fix me. This is a waste of both our time.¡± ¡°Have you noticed how great you feel and how clear headed you are?¡± Hmm... I did feel amazing. ¡°Okay, sure, I¡¯ve noticed.¡± ¡°Each of your afflictions have been removed from you. They have become physical manifestations that you will encounter in Perspective.¡± Dr. Lee said. ¡°The VR-AI system labels them: Physma.¡± In an instant the room went black and fear washed over me. Before I could scream, the lights came back on and there, in front of me, was small black creature. It looked like a doberman pinscher with a massive sunflower seed in place of its head. I almost fell on the floor lurching away, as the sunflower seed head split open like a blossoming flower revealing hundreds of sharp teeth and a long spooling tongue. ¡°Physma come in all shapes and sizes,¡± Dr. Lee said, ¡° and this little one is hungry,¡± The monster bounded at me, leaping in a long arc, sharp teeth aimed for my head. ¡°Ahh!¡± I screamed, raising my hands to shield my face, before the creature burst into dust. ¡°Don¡¯t worry, you won¡¯t have to face one yet.¡± Dr. Lee said with amusement. Love what you''re reading? Discover and support the author on the platform they originally published on. ¡°This is sick! I want to leave!¡± ¡°Not until your Big-Three Physma are defeated.¡± Fizz-ma? ¡°What the hell are you talking about?¡± ¡°Your Big-Three Physma are: Social Isolation, Bipolar Disorder I, and Morbid Obesity. These are very formidable foes but with time, experience, and courage, you will be able to face them and¡maybe defeat them.¡± I crossed my arms. ¡°I¡¯m not going to participate in this nonsense. I refuse.¡± ¡°We can unleash your Physma on you now, if you like. You are of the beginner class, so you¡¯ll easily snap, then once we bring you back, you can try again.¡± Madison imagined trying to fight three of those creatures. She was screwed. ¡°Beginner class? Is this a game?¡± ¡°Perspective prefers to be called a strategic simulation,¡± Dr. Lee said, ¡°but yes, you are currently the weakest class of the simulation.¡± ¡°Strategic simulation¡Okay, can I have an instruction manual or something?¡± ¡°No, you will learn as you go. We, the treatment team, will guide you the best we can. I will say, if you would have listened to me and completed your daily coping skills, you could have been at a much higher starting level but¡this is fine.¡± I rolled my eyes. ¡°I didn¡¯t know I was going to be shoved into a clusterfuck of a situation. Is this dangerous?¡± ¡°Perspective? Yes, it is very dangerous.¡± ¡°What the hell do you mean, ¡®very dangerous¡¯?¡± ¡°Most participants snap, unfortunately.¡± She clicked her teeth. ¡°We are at a 90% snap rate in the fourteen experiments before this one.¡± ¡°Snap? What is that? You did mention it earlier, when I was HOME.¡± I said the word as loudly as I could muster. ¡°If you exert yourself beyond your mental capacity, you will snap. To snap is to lose all brain function, leaving you in an unconscious vegetative state.¡± I shuddered at the idea. This is insane. I need to GTFO. ¡°Don¡¯t worry,¡± Dr. Lee continued, ¡°you will be kept alive in our state-of-the-art medical stasis bay. Since the first experiment, we have brought back 20% of all the participants who have snapped. That number is getting better and better!¡± The psychologist¡¯s voice seemed overly chipper after telling me this experiment could leave me brain dead. ¡°Your situation was very severe Madison, you had nothing to lose. I¡¯m glad you decided to come here.¡± ¡°What the hell!¡± I yelled, my youthful voice cracking. ¡°I did not agree to this!¡± ¡°Actually, you did. You signed the contractual paperwork on the first day. Six signatures, Madison. Even the one that detailed being extracted from your home if you refused to come willingly.¡± Damn it, I do remember it being a lot of signatures. Who the hell reads all that intake bullshit. ¡°You also took the calibration medication as well. That allowed your brain to become supple enough to adhere to the vigors of the Perspective Engine One.¡± That¡¯s why that medicine didn¡¯t work. It wasn¡¯t even treating me. That has to be malpractice or something. I shook my head. ¡°Why didn¡¯t we talk about this in our sessions?¡± ¡°I didn¡¯t want to scare you away. I also had to see if you were a good fit.¡± I sighed. ¡°What do I even get out of this?¡± ¡°I got ahead of myself, I should have mentioned this. Each time you defeat one of your afflictions, they will heal and cease to exist in your life in the real world. At the end of this, you will be a very different woman!¡± I blinked at the thought of it. The thought of being healed. Freedom from the weight of it all. ¡°Oh.¡± I said. ¡°There¡¯s also a cash prize of $81,426.¡± ¡°That¡¯s¡oddly specific.¡± I squinted. ¡°Well, can you give me a rundown of the experiment?¡± ¡°Well Madison, the treatment team needs to learn more about this new experiment as well. No one knows what happens one moment to the next. Perspective only reveals a small fraction, even to us, at the start of each phase.¡± ¡°Perspective sounds controlling.¡± I said. ¡°Perspective was created to ensure minimal external manipulation as possible. Be very careful what you say about this V.R. A.I., it doesn¡¯t take kindly to disrespect.¡± I toyed with the idea of raging against the machine. But I decided against it. ¡°It¡¯s the perfect system to conduct experiments,¡± Dr Lee said, ¡°that could play a major role in the world we live in. Imagine a world where you can get rid of physical health and mental health by simply defeating them.¡± The idea did seem revolutionary, but I didn¡¯t want to be a part of the revolution. ¡°Fine. Since this is mandatory, let¡¯s get it over with. Where do I start?¡± ¡°Good. Perspective doesn¡¯t think it¡¯s good for clients to go about this experience alone. You personally know how hard life is alone, Madison.¡± Fuck off, Dr. Lee. Although when the woman mentioned going through the experience alone, Madison remembered the Prime courier. ¡°What happened to that guy with the dreads? Who delivered the package?¡± ¡°Oh? Client #592? We were trying to bring him in for a while but he was always driving here and there. Glad you helped us help him.¡± I clenched my fist. Tricking people into therapy and kidnapping them. These people are fucked. A wall in the room flashed blue three times, before disappearing. On the other side of the wall was a wide blue corridor. The walls, ceiling and floors were covered with fur and there was a small white door at the end of it. I knew it¡¯d be a white door. ¡°Please walk through the door.¡± I took a step, before stopping. ¡°What¡¯s on the other side?¡± ¡°It¡¯s the first phase of the experiment: Team-building.¡± 3 - Team-Building I walked down the soft blue corridor and ran my hand along the furry wall. It was plush, dense, and curly like poodle fur. Childish curiosity led me to lean in and sniff the wall. Was that a shampoo I smelled? A better question, what the hell was that curiosity? Sure is a strange place. I turned the round knob of the white door and found a small square room. The furry blue ceiling, walls, and floors continued into the room beyond the corridor. In the middle, were three men dressed in black suits sitting at tan computer workstations. None of them had shoes and socks on. I felt fear and anger growing as I appraised the strangers. How do I know I can trust anything or anyone in this¡thing? The one in the middle stood. He was tall and thin, clean-shaven and pale. He brushed a long strand of brown curly hair that fell in front of his eyeglasses. He was rather cute, I decided. Even if he was evil. ¡°Madison, I am Paul, Remedy Specialist,¡± he smiled as he extended his arms and bowed, ¡°Welcome to The Upgrade Room.¡± ¡°Paul, huh,¡± I squinted at him doubtfully. His height seemed about right even though he seemed a little thinner. ¡°You wouldn¡¯t have happened to be one of those assholes that blasted me up with tranquilizer, would you Paul?¡± Paul¡¯s face darkened as he shook his head. ¡°How do you expect them to trust us when you¡you know what, never mind.¡± He sighed. ¡°I¡¯m sorry you endured that Madison. No, I was not one of those bastards or as you put it, assholes.¡± Hmm. Now he was cute and kind. ¡°Okay,¡± I said, accepting his answer. ¡°Are you a fake A.I. person?¡± ¡°We¡¯re as human as you,¡± Paul said, poking himself in the chest. I could see he liked to use his hands when he talked. He was cute, kind, and real. ¡°Let me show you.¡± The suited man walked toward me from around his desk, his long skinny feet leaving weighted impressions on the fur floor. I found myself smiling as he casually approached. Then grew furious when he took a knee and handed me a damn lollipop. ¡°There you are, little girl,¡± he said, then stood and walked back to his desk. ¡°We will ensure you have a better experience with Perspective moving forward.¡± ¡°I would have you know that I am a twenty-four-year-old woman!¡± I yelled, before covering my mouth. I had forgotten that today was my birthday. ¡°I¡¯m twenty-five today.¡± ¡°Oh? Well, happy birthday, Madison. The Prospective engine should have a birthday gift for you then. However, allow me to correct you, you are not twenty-five.¡± He leaned over his hidden computer screen with a finger pointing at the monitor. ¡°In Perspective, you are nine, well, now a ten-year-old girl. So, you shall be treated as such.¡± And here I thought I liked this guy. ¡°Okay, whatever Paul.¡± With all the things he just said to me, I decided that I needed some answers. ¡°What is The Upgrade Room? You said the system has a gift for me? And who are those two?¡± ¡°Whoa now,¡± Paul clapped his hands together and held them in place. ¡°Let¡¯s slow down, Madison. One thing at a time. We can get this out of the way first.¡± He flared his hand in circles toward the first of the other two. ¡°Introduce yourselves, gentleman.¡± ¡°Hullo Madison, I¡¯m Bill, Memory Specialist.¡± Bill was a graying, balding, barefoot man in a matching black suit with dandruff on the shoulders. He sat to the left of Paul. Bill didn¡¯t stand, but only waved from his chair, as his toes wiggled in the fur at his feet. Before I could reply the other man spoke. ¡°I¡¯m Hal, Inventory Specialist.¡± Hal was a teenage boy with black hair that covered his eyes. Kids these days. How the hell can he see? Hal could have been a few years older than the Prospective engine had made me. Hal held his hand like a gun at me with something on his finger¡ª ¡°What the heck!¡± I said, dodging as a rubberband flew by my head. ¡°Good reflexes pipsqueak,¡± Hal smiled. I gritted my teeth at the slur. He¡¯s one to talk. I could literally crush him in the real world. ¡°Now Hal, what did we say about shooting at clients?¡± Paul said, with a condescending tone. ¡°Suck it, Paul,¡± Hal replied, this time aiming his finger gun at the Remedy Specialist. The rubberband flitted with a snap and popped Paul in the temple. Paul shook his head with a sigh before pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose ¡°So you¡¯re saying I¡¯m able to get a few things to protect myself from those creatures.¡± ¡°Right, unfortunately, you are of the Beginner Class, which means you only have a base remedy, that birthday gift item, and a single memory from your life.¡± I considered the three things that he mentioned. I¡¯d have to ask him about each of them because all this stuff felt so foreign to me. ¡°What¡¯s a base remedy?¡± ¡°The base remedy is from the Physma you encountered in that ¡®Welcome Room¡¯. When you defeat Physma, you internalize the ¡®remedy¡¯ of the affliction which becomes an offensive, defensive, or utility power.¡± I considered the idea of defeating something. I hadn¡¯t defeated anything in my life except a warm box of extra cheese pizza. ¡°What¡¯s about the memories?¡± I asked. ¡°A memory,¡± Bill said, crossing his legs under his desk and then wiggling his toes as he spoke, ¡°can be just the thing you need to handle what Perspective throws at you. Memories can be manipulated to change your perspective of situations. It¡¯s why I strive to remember everything in my life. Even though I regret not asking Louise to marry me¡ I still remember the good times we shared. Even though I regret¡ª¡± ¡°Here we go,¡± Hal said with a sigh. The teen looked ready to aim a rubber band at the old man. ¡°Oh hush up boy, you wait until you have regrets that keep you awake at all hours of the night,¡± Bill said, before glancing at me and then Paul. He shook his head and took a deep breath. ¡°We all have a lot of regrets, am I right?¡± I smiled uncomfortably. ¡°It¡¯s okay to share.¡± The older man rested his chin on his palm and looked past me speculatively. These guys felt¡real. ¡°Did you give her the memory from Perspective yet, Bill?¡± Paul asked. He looked at me. ¡°Perspective will provide the memory, you only need to hope that it¡¯s a good one.¡± ¡°Oh that¡¯s right,¡± The balding man said, scratching the stubble on his chin. ¡°Sending it now.¡± ¡°Paul, you didn¡¯t turn on the interface yet,¡± Hal said, his fingers clicking away at his screen. ¡°I didn¡¯t? Crap.¡± Paul said, leaning back over his computer. His hands glided frantically over the keys. I looked between the three men, as they all seemed to work hard on my behalf. What is this place? Above there was a loud beep. ¡°Upgrade Room staff,¡± a woman said over the speaker, a different voice from Dr. Lee, ¡°please release the clients to the first phase.¡± ¡°I already sent over her birthday gift from Perspective, so she¡¯s good on my end,¡± Hal said, ¡°Piece of crap item if you ask me.¡± ¡°No item is a piece of crap,¡± Bill said, ¡°and the memory is also uploaded.¡± Paul tapped several keys and then lifted his finger theatrically to tap a final button. I nearly jumped out of my skin as a glowing panel appeared in front of me: [ Beginner Class ] [ Remedies: 1 ] [ Inventory: 1 ] [ Memories: 1 ] [ Missions : 0 ] Unauthorized duplication: this narrative has been taken without consent. Report sightings. ¡°Okay, you should see your Beginner Class interface. It¡¯s bound to change as you grow, choosing new classes and all, but for now, this is what you get.¡± It tracked my eyes it seemed, as I looked up and down it still appeared in sight. Even when I closed my eyes, there it was, glowing like an alarm clock in the night. ¡°How do I get rid of it? It¡¯s literally blocking my vision.¡± ¡°You can make it smaller, just reach for it and use your fingers to adjust it like a touch screen phone.¡± I reached out my hand over the red and blue information bubbles, then pinched my fingers to shrink it as small as possible, then placed it on the left in my vision. ¡°That will take some getting used to,¡± I said. ¡°Eventually you¡¯ll barely know it¡¯s there,¡± Bill said. ¡°Well, just command it to give you what you want when you want it.¡± Paul said.¡°Ask it to show you your Remedy.¡± Open Remedy? I saw a new box pop into my vision and there was a feeling that I could press this button with my mind to activate it. [ Cure for Xenophobia ] ¡°How''s the cure for xenophobia?¡± The old man and the young man looked at the Remedy Specialist quizzically as Paul¡¯s grimacing face betrayed his thoughts. My heart dropped at the sight. ¡°Yeah, she¡¯s brain dead,¡± Hal said. ¡°Send us to experiment sixteen, Perspective,¡± ¡°Wait, is this not good?¡± I said, eyes darting with worry. ¡°Why is this not good?¡± ¡°Utility remedies are, well, a mixed bag,¡± Paul said. ¡°That specific one does just about nothing for combat. It just allows you to feel comfortable with the unknown.¡± ¡°Damn,¡± I said, putting my hands on my hips. ¡°And the memory?¡± ¡°Don¡¯t open it!¡± Bill shouted, nearly jumping out of his seat. Everyone looked at him as brushed his black blazer, settling himself down. ¡°Sorry for getting loud. Only use the memory if you feel hopeless. They won''t come back.¡± ¡°Okay,¡± I said with an uncomfortable nod. Paul adjusted his glasses. ¡°You want to avoid all Physmas in this phase until you come back. The good news is you won¡¯t be alone, other clients should be able to protect you. Hopefully, Perspective will be kind and it will give you better remedies and accessories during the next phase. Now let¡¯s see that item.¡± Hal chuckled to himself. Hmm, open inventory? I thought A long list of empty spaces appeared in front of me. My eyes widened at the sole item in my inventory. I tapped the air and a twelve-pack of AriZona Iced Tea appeared in my arms. ¡°That was your birthday gift?¡± Paul said, turning to Hal. ¡°Told you, man,¡± Hal said, ¡°crap.¡± ¡°I¡well, I agree with Hal,¡± Bill said, his voice concerned, ¡°what is Perspective thinking?¡± While they all seemed perplexed and bothered by my gift. I was utterly shameless. ¡°Wow, thanks Perspective!¡± I said, leaning to the side to pull a bottle of iced tea from the tight plastic wrap. Once I retrieved it, I lifted the remaining eleven bottles still held together by the plastic casing. Place in inventory? I thought. The eleven bottles disappeared. ¡°Easy enough,¡± I said, twisting the plastic top but struggling to open the bottle. ¡°I have these small child hands, so infuriating.¡± I put the top between my molars and bit down with a twist until it satisfyingly snapped open, a little of the sweet liquid spilling on my scrubs. I knocked half the bottle back immediately. ¡°That hits the spot,¡± I said. As I savored the sweetness of my favorite beverage, I considered if this strange experiment may have been a decent place to spend my twenty-fifth birthday. To hell with the idea that I¡¯m a ten-year-old, I am a grown woman! With lived experiences! I looked up and realized the three men were staring at me. ¡°Damn she¡¯s really into that tea,¡± Hal said, as the three of them burst into laughter. ¡°What?¡± I said. ¡°I love sweet tea!¡± They continued laughing as I grew embarrassed. ¡°I wasn¡¯t sure if I was going to have it ever again after being dragged into this thing¡¡± ¡°Okay okay, well sorry to interrupt tea time Madison, but you have to start the phase.¡± Paul said. ¡°Wait wait, what about the last prompt, it says missions?¡± ¡°Ah, completely forgot about that. Perspective will assign missions based on how things are going during the phases. They¡¯re mostly optional, but if you receive these, that means Perspective is paying attention to your progress. If you complete these, Perspective will give you bonuses such as items, remedies, and classes. ¡± ¡°How could you forget that?¡± I asked, bewildered, ¡°that sounds like a great addition to the simulation.¡± ¡°We often try to forget just how manip ¡ª no ¡ª how suggestive, Perspective can be. Now, back through the door, you came.¡± He raised his hand, palm side up, to usher me towards the door from where he stood. ¡°Wait, why do I feel defenseless?¡± I said. ¡°They said Perspective was very dangerous.¡± ¡°Because you technically are,¡± Paul said. ¡°At least you have your tea. Savor the enjoyable moments because this experiment is intense. Find some friends when you get in there. Let them know you¡¯re not ready to fight yet, but perhaps you can help in other ways.¡± Paul said. ¡°You got it, Paul,¡± I said, holding my bottle up in celebratory cheers. ¡°Remember to remember,¡± Bill said, with a rueful smile. ¡°Good luck kid ¡ª don¡¯t snap just yet,¡± Hal said. The teen stood from his desk and saluted. There were rubber bands all down his wrist. I waved at the three, realizing it was the first positive experience I¡¯d had in this place. I turned to the white door and opened it. Sunlight poured into the room. Warmth from the blazing sun above embraced me like an old friend, the cold sterile room I¡¯d woke up in a distant memory. ¡°This Perspective thing is pretty interesting,¡± I said. ¡°It is,¡± Paul said from behind his desk, loud enough for me to hear. ¡°See you again kiddo,¡± I walked out. As the door shut behind me, I heard Hal say: ¡°Perspective really hates some people huh?¡± Before I could even consider his comment, my eyes sparkled as I took in the scene in front of me. Ahead, a busy construction yard bustled with life. I had to cover my nose and mouth with the dense cloud of dust in the air. A tiny orange excavator dug into a mound of dirt, while a cement mixer parked in the distance perpetually spun. If I hadn¡¯t known I was in VR because I was a damned pre-teen, I would have thought I escaped the artificial psych ward. My eyes immediately shifted to the sound of a loud jackhammer. A faceless man with the power tool drilled into a concrete floor with ear-splitting strikes. No face¡Must be artificially generated content. I took my attention off the site to see there were dozens of children standing on the outskirts, wearing familiar scrubs with socks. These were the other suckers who got roped into this weird thing. Someone is going to lose a toe at this rate. The few faces of the clients I could see seemed bewildered and afraid. The sounds of the construction yard stopped as if they never were. A woman¡¯s voice broke the silence, her voice loud and filled with cheer. As she spoke the words dropped in front of me like a Star Wars movie. ¡°Welcome to the first phase of Perspective¡¯s fifteenth experiment! My name is Elanor, manager of the treatment team, I am thrilled to lead this experiment. I know you, the clients, have been dying to meet one another. Apparently, Perspective thought this year¡¯s team-building activity should be¡you guessed it! A building activity! Clients, you will need to make three friends who will accompany you through the next two phases of the experiment. I imagine some of you will click. I imagine some of you will ick. But whatever it is, you better make it quick. Perspective has chosen to be cruel on day one. You will need to survive two full days in this phase, and I can promise you, you will not be able to do it alone. There will be a temporary timer in your interface. You won¡¯t need to sleep a wink, so you better get to work! Here are some barriers: One of your Big-Three Physma will return to your body during this phase just to slow you down. We hope that Physma doesn¡¯t make it harder to make friends. If it does, you need to figure it out! Perspective says you¡¯ll have to think like Noah in this phase. Build fast and build well or you will certainly drown. Last, but certainly not least, everyone get ready to face your first Physma in battle!¡± ¡®Your Big-Three Physma will return to your body¡¯? What does that even mean? As soon as Elanor finished speaking, the bright sunny day grew obscured as massive gray clouds rolled in fast, darkening the sky. The machinery stopped operating and the faceless workers disappeared. Then, new clothes popped onto me in the blink of an eye. I recoiled at the sudden shock of the instant change. I had a hard hat and goggles on my head, with a ventilated mask covering my mouth and nose. My scrubs were exchanged for a bright orange vest, thick tan overalls, and black steel-toe boots. I felt ridiculous. A large blue circle spinner appeared above my head. My Big-Three afflictions were split evenly into three spaces like a pie chart. Social Isolation, Morbid Obesity, and good ol¡¯ Bipolar Disorder. I glanced around the construction yard to see that all the other children or rather, clients, also suffered the same fate. A red needle popped on the wheel and began spinning fast and faster. My heart thumped as my eyes followed the tiny red needle, which slowed until it finally stopped on a slice of the pie. ¡°Damn it,¡± I said, as one-hundred extra pounds engulfed my ten-year-old body. [ Beginner Class + Morbid Obesity ] [ Team: 1 of 3] [ Remedies: 1 ] [ Inventory: 1 ] [ Memories: 1 ] [ Missions : 0 ] [ Time until Phase One completion: 47:59 ] 4 - Phase One 4 - Phase One A drizzle of rain began to fall around the site. I looked down at my body, wide and heavy, then at my hands. I had thick round fingers and dense big palms. ¡°I can¡¯t believe I let myself get this way.¡± ¡°Alright guys, gather around!¡± A boy shouted, running to the center of the massive yard. He climbed atop a tall scaffolding ten feet from the ground. ¡°My name is Jax, I work as a foreman in construction. This Virtual A.I. bullshit picked the right one! Let¡¯s get it done!¡± The heavy gear on him made the boy look like a trick-or-treater. His words struck me with a strange encouragement. I began to realize the stark difference between my challenges with obesity now versus in the real world. There was no ¡®comorbidity¡¯. The word was created to bundle a person¡¯s diagnoses together like a snack variety pack. Although the weight burdened me in the VR system, I felt motivated and energized in ways I never had. I looked up from my hands and walked forward, moving slowly in the direction of the boy who gave instructions. Jax was a strong-faced child, with tan skin and eyes fiery with determination. If I hadn¡¯t known that he was an adult trapped in a child¡¯s body I would¡¯ve pegged him for an Eagle Scout. ¡°How do we know we can trust you?!¡± A boy shouted. This one question became dozens more from the crowd of children circling Jax. ¡°Should you even be up there?¡± A girl asked. The questions went unanswered. ¡°You three,¡± Jax said, pointing to a group of boys, ¡°flatten out those two tarps, then I¡¯ll show you how to hang them. We need a dry construction area for the concrete.¡± The boys looked at one another, a bit of confusion between them, before nodding and following his directions. Jax took his goggles off, looking around squinting through the mist. ¡°I need someone to drive over that cement truck and park it nearby!¡± He shouted. ¡°Yessir,¡± A boy replied, he¡¯d already somehow gotten dirt on his face. ¡°Names¡¯ Ralph, I¡¯m a truck driver, I can do it.¡± ¡°Good stuff Ralph,¡± Jax said, ¡°now I need some guys to gather some bricks. Make some piles here.¡± He pointed to the base of his scaffolding. ¡°We can do it, Jax,¡± Some boys said. I noticed the boy who first questioned him also began working. This Jax guy was some kind of natural-born leader. Why the hell was he here? I was approaching a pile of loose bricks in my walk toward Jax and had an idea to work. I almost laughed at the thought. Manual labor. I walked past them, then stopped. Why would I go ask Jax what I can do to help when he already said something to do? I could at least carry a few rather than just walking by them. I turned and lifted six and tucked them under my arms. Nope, too heavy. I put two back and continued walking, a laborious effort, to the bottom of the scaffolding. There was a bubble that appeared in front of me. (Minor Strength Sphere progress: 5%) I stopped to read the text. What is a minor strength sphere? I didn¡¯t remember Paul and the other guys talking about this. The percentage was increasing at a slow rate as I carried the bricks only to disappear when I put them down. Hmm. I began to wonder what would happen when it went to 100%. I allowed curiosity to get the best of me. I walked back to the pile of bricks and grabbed four more walking back to the growing pile of bricks. The percentage was now at (30%). I looked around to see that everyone was working together at this point, following the instructions given by our impromptu leader. I glanced up at Jax who had his back turned to everyone following his directions. Ralph and a couple of other boys were standing among him talking. Must be making the leadership group or something. I continued my trek back and forth to the bricks, my heavy weight making the task slow and strenuous. We were Sixty kids or so just making an effort to build in the rain. I smiled. It felt good to be a part of something. A cog in the machine they say. After a few marches to and from, a new bubble appeared in front of me. (Minor Strength Sphere progress: Complete!) (A Minor Strength Sphere has been added to your inventory.) I pulled the sphere from my inventory, a small green orb was the size of a tennis ball. It felt warm to the touch and there was smoke swirling inside it. I wonder what I¡¯m supposed to do with this. ¡°Well I¡¯ll be, you got that pretty quickly!¡± Ralph said, the dirty-faced boy walking towards me. ¡°He told us females wouldn¡¯t get strength spheres for a few hours.¡± ¡°Who told you that?¡± I asked, examining the dirtball. He was covered in so much filth it was as if he had intentionally covered himself in it. Maybe he had. His voice was very American, bragging about his pickup truck at a gas station, American. ¡°Jax of course! Can I see the sphere? He¡¯s collecting those ones from the females.¡± I looked at him in confusion. After I carried all those bricks to earn this thing, I was supposed to give it to him? Screw that. I still didn¡¯t even know what it was for. ¡°What do you mean females? Why is he collecting them?¡± ¡°He told us he was in a previous experiment,¡± Ralph said. ¡°Said the men need them more than the females, is all.¡± ¡°I¡¯ll go talk with him,¡± I said and whisked the sphere back into my inventory. Ralph sucked his teeth. I walked past him toward Jax, who now stood under the scaffolding to shield himself from the rain. Jax was standing alone, which made this conversation easier. ¡°Hello, Jax?¡± I said. ¡°I¡¯m Madison.¡± He looked at me with a glance then averted his eyes. No reply. ¡°So¡Ralph told me you would like the strength spheres?¡± I asked, stepping closer to him. "From women only?" ¡°Yes,¡± Jax said, looking at me through the soft rain shower. We locked eyes for a split moment, the boy¡¯s gaze was hard and impatient before I looked away. ¡°Perspective gave me a Misogynist affliction, which is bullshit because anyone can see plain as day that females don''t need strength.¡± He said, matter-of-factly. ¡°Men are working hard and are superior for this kind of labor. You can climb aboard once we¡¯re done but you¡¯ll have to give up that strength sphere.¡± The words struck me like a slap in the face. ¡°I feel like I earned it though.¡± ¡°I don¡¯t care how you feel. I mean look at you! You having any spheres, let alone a strength sphere would be an utter waste of resources.¡± I stepped back, stunned and offended. The world was always a cruel place. As a recluse, I had forgotten some of the bullshit you would deal with simply for being a woman, let alone a plus-sized woman. This short conversation with Jax confirmed my suspicions that nothing had changed. I continued stepping back, as another girl stepped forward and punched Jax right in the mouth. The foreman, dumbfounded by the power of the blow, stumbled and collapsed. The girl spat as he squirmed back, crawling away from her. ¡°Who the hell do you think you are? Telling women to give their earnings away?¡± she said, voice piercing. ¡°Whoa,¡± I said, looking at the girl. I couldn¡¯t see her face very well under the equipment. The girl had dark brown skin and seemed brimming with confidence. ¡°We¡¯re all kids here, motherfucker¡± the girl said furiously, ¡°and I¡¯m not letting a man in a boy¡¯s body or a boy in a man¡¯s body, treat me like shit ever again.¡± ¡°Hey!¡± Ralph said, running from behind us. ¡°We need him! He¡¯s helping us build the structure!¡± ¡°We don¡¯t need no man,¡± the girl said, ¡°ladies! If you don¡¯t want someone telling you to give away your strength, meet me over there, we can build on our own protection together.¡± The girl stamped off and I, as well as the other girls, followed. So that¡¯s how it¡¯s gonna be? A bunch of the girls stayed with Jax, sitting on the outskirts of where he, Ralph, and the other boys gathered. Jax was on his feet again, holding his mouth in the distance, as he glared in our direction. We walked about twenty feet away from the boys before we came to a stop. ¡°Alright ladies, I¡¯m Victory. I appreciate y¡¯all standing with me on this. Does anyone have any experience with this construction stuff?¡± We had settled into a group of about a dozen, as the rain continued to fall around them creating soft pattering sounds. ¡°I do,¡± A girl said, walking forward. She was short and thin, with glasses under her goggles, and a long blond fishtail braid peeking from the back of her hard hat. She looked intelligent rather than simply smart. ¡°I¡¯m Irene, a structural engineer. We should talk about the things that we got from Perspective first. I think that will help too.¡± ¡°Good idea Irene,¡± Victory said. ¡°Take it away.¡± ¡°Yes, so first off, let me explain the spheres. This isn¡¯t my first attempt at the experiment, I was knocked out of experiment seven in phase two and am just now returning.¡± A wave of fear washed over me. From experiment seven to experiment fifteen. How many years is that? Eight? What is this shit? ¡°Spheres can be used in four ways,¡± Irene continued, ¡°they can be used in full effect by bursting them and breathing in the fumes. They can be combined to make new spheres which can be a way to find spheres you may not be able to get during an activity, the third way to use them is passively, just sitting in the active inventory slot, you¡¯ll pull some of the benefits. The last way, unfortunately, I haven¡¯t discovered yet.¡± ¡°Why can¡¯t I get more than one strength sphere?¡± A girl asked, ¡°It¡¯s not gaining any more percentage.¡± ¡°Ah, well that¡¯s one way the beginner class is limited. You can only make one of each sphere right now. Grinding isn¡¯t effective.¡± Irene said. ¡°You¡¯ll get more though. Different actions trigger new sphere growth so you¡¯ll never know how you¡¯ll develop one.¡± There were more hands raised to ask additional questions but Victory chimed in. ¡°Thanks, Irene,¡± Victory said. ¡°We need to get to work ladies, hold your questions until we get this sorted out! Any other ideas before we get started?¡± ¡°I think we should break up into groups of three,¡± Irene said. ¡°We have to form a team of three by the end of this anyway. It will also help us divide up the tasks.¡± She pointed at me since I was closest to them. ¡°How about you join Victory and I?¡± Irene said. ¡°Um, okay,¡± I said, walking toward them. ¡°I¡¯m Madison, nice to meet you.¡± Victory seemed to appraise her with a long glance. This story has been unlawfully obtained without the author''s consent. Report any appearances on Amazon. ¡°So my Big-Three affliction this phase is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder,¡± Irene said, ¡°My first remedy is ¡®fear of falling¡¯ so I can hover.¡± ¡°You have anything good, Madison?¡± Victory asked pointedly. ¡°So, uh, I got a twelve-pack of tea as a birthday gift but my remedy isn¡¯t really helpful. Hopefully, Perspective will give me something better in the future. But I do already have a strength sphere.¡± ¡°Okay, before we get too comfortable, I don¡¯t think this is a good idea,¡± Victory said. ¡°No offense Madison, but,¡± The girl gave me a look from head to toe. I flushed with embarrassment and clenched my fist. ¡°Wait, but I can work hard,¡± I said, looking between Victory and Irene. ¡°This morbid obesity is the affliction that I had placed on me at the start of the phase.¡± Victory nodded, placing her hands on her hips. ¡°It¡¯s not about work ethic. I think you should keep delivering bricks. We,¡± she paused, her hands moving between Irene and herself, ¡°need someone who''s a leader...I¡¯m not getting that from you.¡± ¡°But I can learn to lead,¡± I said. ¡°I just need a chance.¡± ¡°Sure you do,¡± Victory said, warily. ¡°Look, it¡¯s up to you, Irene, didn¡¯t mean to offend you none, Madison.¡± I looked at Irene who was examining me like a damn Petri dish. ¡°You¡¯re right, Victory. I¡¯m sorry Madison,¡± Irene said, ¡°maybe find some other girls who wouldn¡¯t mind taking you on. You can even wait on the side while we build, you¡¯ll always be welcome.¡± Irene turned to another girl who stepped forward to take my place. ¡®¡®What the fuck,¡¯¡¯ I whispered, dragging my feet away from the three girls as they began talking strategy. There was a wound, I noticed, as I felt pain return, raw and cutting, deep in my chest. The rain continued to pour, heightening my feelings of sadness. I looked around to see complete trios had formed between the other girls in their group. ¡°We don¡¯t have enough space,¡± A girl said as I glanced at her standing alongside another. Planet Earth didn¡¯t have enough space. There was a small collection of exposed soaked bricks sitting alone on the edge of the construction site. I sat down in that wetness, which was immediately noticeable on my bottom as it soaked through my overalls. I didn¡¯t care. I sat in the storm for a while, as seconds turned to minutes and minutes turned to hours. I passed the time by examining the progress of two growing structures as rainwater pelted the construction site. When I first started, I was surprised to see: (Minor Surveillance Sphere progress: 7%) As the new sphere charged it gave me something else to focus on. I took time to count just how many kids, or clients rather, there were. It took effort, but there were almost thirty clients evenly split between Jax and Victory who were moving frantically, working hard to help in some way. There were the brick gatherers, the cement collectors, and the structure makers. There were also a lot of kids, almost half of the workers, who were not helping at all. Ten or so had found their own places to sit and wait in the rain while others, with more mentally debilitating afflictions, were outright impeding the developments. They¡¯re all shitty like me. I chuckled as I observed a girl stealing massive amounts of supplies, grabbing bricks, tools, even a few cans full of wet cement, and pilfering them away into her inventory. Lucky for the builders, new bricks and other necessities were generated by the VRAI system every couple of minutes. Damn. I hadn¡¯t even considered putting the bricks in my inventory. Would have saved a ton of time transporting them that way. (Minor Surveillance Sphere progress: Complete!) (A Minor Surveillance Sphere has been added to your inventory.) I pulled the pink, smoke-filled sphere from my inventory to examine it before I tucked it away. I thought about what Irene said regarding the spheres. With little effort I made a mental note: Smash it to cash it, Combine it to refine it, fill it to feel it. I began tinkering with my inventory, filling the two spheres in my active inventory slots. There were four total slots and I was interested to see how the spheres could play a role in the next part of the first phase. The puddles of water in the site had become a shallow pool now, covering up to my ankles. I had my now nine-pack of AriZona¡¯s Sweet Tea sitting on the bricks next to me along with two empty bottles. I pulled another free, tapped the plastic cap, then twisted it open. Guess I need to start figuring out which group I want to beg for a spot. I took a long sip of tea as I considered my options: Jax¡¯s group had the larger structure so far, with bricks stacked in simple horizontal rows. They were forming a wide thick wall for them to stand on. It seemed sturdy, might need that sturdiness with all this damn weight. They were all boys though, so I figured that might be uncomfortable. And, they¡¯ll want my strength sphere. I held up my chunky middle finger. Victory¡¯s group seemed to struggle a bit more with building speed, but the attention to detail was evident in their meticulous development of an endless brick stairway with an intricate diamond-like pattern. Irene¡¯s OCD must¡¯ve been in overdrive. There were already so many steps¡too many steps. It felt shameful that I hadn¡¯t been able to help them build much yet I would still take up a place on one of their walls. I did try to help though. I felt another part of me that didn¡¯t want to return to either of the two leaders. I considered going to no place at all, just sitting here and waiting for the water to rise, until it swallowed me in it. ¡°Hey you,¡± a girl said from behind, ¡°why were you staring at me earlier?¡± I turned to see the supplies thief crouching in a puddle. She had a mischievous face, a skinny girl with green eyes, and a shaved head. ¡°I just thought it was funny,¡± I said with a smile. ¡°Don¡¯t worry, I won¡¯t rat you out and cause problems.¡± ¡°Well, here¡¯s a tip. If you can lift it, you can lift it into your inventory,¡± she said with a smirk. ¡°Now I want to know. How did you know I was watching you?¡± ¡°I used my memory as soon as the phase started. It gave me a good advantage. Figured with my Big-Three affliction, kleptomania active, I would be screwed no matter what. Who trusts someone who constantly steals from them?¡± ¡°You¡¯re a klepto? Shit, that¡¯s brutal,¡± Madison said, looking at the girl differently. ¡°I¡¯m morbidly obese.¡± ¡°I noticed,¡± the girl said, ¡°is that why they all kicked you out? I also saw you¡trying to help those leaders, you¡¯re hard to miss.¡± ¡°So how did your memory help you see me spying on you?¡± The thief gave me a wistful smile and I understood I would never know how the hell that memory helped the girl. ¡°I¡¯m Rey, what¡¯s your name?¡± She held out her hand. We were similar in some way, Rey and I, instantly untrustworthy to someone who didn¡¯t understand how our afflictions made our lives difficult. Nearly impossible. ¡°Madison,¡± I said, shaking her hand. Rey¡¯s palms were coarse, one step away from sandpaper. Strange for hands that belonged to a girl. ¡°Well Mads, I can call you Mads?¡± I nodded. First time for that nickname. Rey stood and then said, ¡°You should use your memory.¡± ¡°I was told that I shouldn¡¯t use it unless there was an emergency,¡± ¡°It is an emergency. I bet you¡¯re doing exactly what you do in the real world when people treat you like shit. Nothing, right?¡± I felt flat-footed by the forwardness. ¡°These clients don¡¯t understand what they¡¯re doing,¡± Rey said. ¡°They¡¯re leaning into their afflictions like they do in the real world, trying to tackle a virtual problem. This whole experiment is about perspective.¡± Rey tapped her temple when she said the word. ¡°You only have one perspective right now, Mads.¡± ¡°You¡¯re right,¡± I said. ¡°Thanks for the advice.¡± She nodded and walked away. I followed the girl with my eyes as she walked back towards the busy yard. ¡°Oh, and sorry Mads,¡± Rey said, ¡°I don¡¯t even like sweet tea.¡± Then with a smile, the thief sprinted off into the commotion of a group of Jax¡¯s kids trying to stop some twitchy kid from operating the crane. I frantically turned to my side. The eight bottles of sweet tea were gone, including the half-finished bottle I had just opened. ¡°Son of a bitch!¡± I yelled as I stood from the bricks. I searched for Rey through the storm but the damned thief was nowhere to be seen. I sat back down on the wet bricks and shook my head. Be calm. She can¡¯t help it, she can¡¯t help it. ¡°But next time I see her!¡± I belted over the constant pattering of rain. I shook my head and considered what Rey had said about the memory. The Perspective interface always floated in the corner of my view, I¡¯d done a good job to ignore it. [ Beginner Class + Morbidly Obese ] [Team: 1 of 3] [ Remedies: 1 ] [ Inventory: 2] [m. str. sphere] [m. surv. sphere] [empty] [empty] [ Memories: 1 ] [ Missions : 0 ] [ Time until Phase One completion:40:24 ] View Memory. The world around me peeled away, as the soggy construction site rippled into darkness. There was a moment of total nothingness. I floated in the void, seeing nothing, feeling nothing, being nothing. Then everything rebuilt itself, images piecing together like fragments of torn paper perfectly reassembled. It was a sunny day in Hopkins, Minnesota. The warmth of the day felt amazing in contrast to the wet yard I¡¯d been sitting in for hours now. As soon as I saw the memory, I remembered everything about it. It was my sixth birthday. The view of the memory was distorted. I had a bird''s eye view, floating above the scene, on the outside looking in. But if I focused, I could see the world from my six-year-old eyes, my childhood perspective. We were outside, Papa and I, as he guided me along on my new bike. Damn it. I miss him so much. One heart attack changed a million things. I examined myself, an adorable little girl who was closer in appearance to my VR self, rather than the pathetic version of myself in the real world. I was wobbly on the pink bike, scared shitless. Obviously way too big for it. Okay, what about this memory matters? I looked at my father, the large, wide-shouldered man smiling, walking in his t-shirt and slippers alongside me. Then I felt him too. I shifted into his worldview. There was no fear. No criticism. No doubts. He was showing his daughter how to grow, how to change, how to ride a bike. His smile was a wide and prideful one. Infectious. I felt myself start to smile hovering over the scene. Papa saw that his daughter was capable of doing good. She could do more with her life. He saw that she was capable of greatness. That I was capable of greatness. Even in me just riding this bike, I was more capable than he was at this point in his life. Because he knew he had Stage IV heart failure and I didn¡¯t have a clue. Reality snapped back much faster than it left, I returned to the construction site, water dripping off my hard hat. My tears became one with the rain both falling together before I wiped my eyes. He knew he was dying. And he was hopeful in me. Pathetic, worthless, me. I blinked, taking a deep breath to refocus on the site. When I saw the clients, there was a noticeable difference. I felt for them the way my father had felt for me. My eyes widened as her mouth gaped open. They¡¯re not worthless pieces of shit at all. None of them. They¡¯re capable. Sitting on their unused remedies, memories, and spheres. ¡°They¡¯re capable of greatness,¡± I whispered. My vision flooded with a new purple message. [ New Mission - Connect with the Idle Clients - 0 / 10 ] A mission? So Perspective must have enjoyed the intense memory of my dying father. I shook my head as I stood from the bricks and walked in the direction of those clients. Not the hard-working groups of Jax and Victory, but the clients who were wasting away, doing nothing to help. Above there was a long beep. Hello clients! We can see a lot of you are working very hard out there! While some of you seem rather¡stuck. Perspective has informed us it will begin its first escalation. There are a few of you out there with Aquaphobia, also known as Fear of Water¡At the forty-hour mark, you¡¯ll have the chance to defeat your fears. We can¡¯t wait to see how Perspective will manifest this Physma in the experiment! I¡¯ll inform you now, that the greater the affliction affects you, the bigger it¡¯ll be. 5 - Escalation of Afflictions 5 - Escalation of Afflictions