《Shadows Keep》 Day of Loss: Ground Zero His wake up alarm sounded like police sirens blasting in his ear. David didn¡¯t open his eyes but reached a hand over toward his dresser to bat at his phone. Silence the blasted alarm. Wasn¡¯t it Saturday? He could sleep today. Track season officially ended yesterday, though he¡¯d been out for the last two weeks with shin splints. ¡°You¡¯re only a sophomore,¡± Coach had said. ¡°There¡¯s always next year.¡± The smell of eggs cooking filled his room. His mom must be up. He grabbed his phone. Seven in the morning. He pinched the side buttons, but the siren only grew louder, more piercing. ¡°Shut up!¡± he grumbled, tossing the phone at the beanbag chair in the middle of his room. A low rumble reverberated through the walls of his bedroom. David blinked groggily and sat up as the sleep fog cleared from his brain. What the¡ª? The siren wasn¡¯t coming from his phone. The rumbling grew louder, more insistent, and was accompanied by a strange, crackling sound. His bedroom door burst open, and his mom ran in. ¡°David! David, wake up, we have to go¡ªwe have to go now!¡± ¡°Now?¡± He swung his legs over the side of his bed, his addled mind tripping in confusion. ¡°What¡¯s happening?¡± The house shook again, and a noise like a thunderclap, or like a giant egg cracking, had him turning from his mom to the window. His eyes widened in shock at the sight before him. The sky, usually a soft gradient of dawn colors at this hour over the gentle rolling hills of Cody, Wyoming, was an angry, swirling mass of dark gray and black. A colossal plume of ash and smoke rose rapidly in the west, its base glowing ominously with bursts of fiery orange. Streaks of lightning crackled within the plume, illuminating it in brief, terrifying flashes. The sound was deafening now¡ªa continuous, roaring cacophony that vibrated through every fiber of his being. It was like nothing David had ever heard, a monstrous blend of thunder, explosions, and the grinding, furious noise of the earth itself. He felt the tremors beneath his feet, each one stronger than the last, shaking the floor of his bedroom. ¡°Mom!¡± he shouted. ¡°I know!¡± she said. ¡°Dad¡¯s got Grace, the car is running, we have to leave!¡± He grabbed his phone and jammed his feet into his running shoes, turning away from the window to follow his mom. But he couldn¡¯t help one more glance. The ash plume was expanding, darkening the sky as it grew. The sun, hidden behind the thick cloud, cast an eerie twilight over the mountains. Ash began to fall like snow, a soft, persistent patter that coated the grass, the trees, and the rooftops in a thick layer of gray. In the distance, he saw the flicker of lights¡ªelectrical discharges illuminating the darkening landscape. His mom¡¯s fingers slid around his wrist, and he turned and ran with her, through the house as the ground shook and the roar of the eruption filled his ears. *** This is what the end of the world looks like. The thought ran through David¡¯s mind as he trudged along next to his father and sister, keeping pace with hundreds of other survivors who had escaped the wrath of Yellowstone. Just fourteen days ago. They¡¯d made it just over a thousand miles before the gas stations ran out of fuel. It hadn¡¯t been far enough. They¡¯d crossed into Kentucky two days ago, but it didn¡¯t look any different than Wyoming. Any different than Missouri four days before that. The devastation reached its fingers out here as well. The volcanic eruption had come out of nowhere, shattering the land and blanketing everything in ash. The sky was a dusky gray, the only color in this desolate landscape. Ash rained down from the sky, a silent, relentless shroud that smothered everything in its suffocating grip. Everywhere David looked, he saw the haggard figures of those who had survived. The smell of sulfur and smoke lingered in the air, a constant reminder of the chaos and destruction that had been unleashed upon the world. David opened his bag and pulled out a granola bar. Three days ago the group had run into a military unit handing out bags of food, urging them to keep going. ¡°We¡¯re setting up camps in the south,¡± they¡¯d said. ¡°We¡¯ll have shelter, food, everything you need until we can get back on our feet.¡± So much optimism. David didn¡¯t feel it. But he hadn¡¯t turned down the bag of supplies. He counted the bars he had left. Five. That was it. He dropped the bar back into his bag. David''s feet dragged through the ash like freshly fallen snow, leaving deep imprints behind. The horizon was filled with ruins of buildings and broken trees, the sky a gloomy mix of gray and red as the sun attempted to peek through. East. Go east. And then south. Get to Georgia, Alabama, Florida. That¡¯s what everyone around him said. Like somewhere magical and untouched by the ash existed if they just went far enough. The gray sky seemed to press down, suffocating the earth below. His home, his entire way of life had been taken from him in an instant. He couldn''t help but feel a sense of hopelessness and despair wash over him. Don¡¯t think about what you¡¯ve lost. The fabric covering his mouth was stained with soot and sweat. He trudged on, his mind numb and his body achingly tired. Thirteen days of walking. A river flowed just down the hill. The dam upstream kept it to a trickle. The soldiers standing by it handed out bags of MREs to anyone who ventured close. ¡°This hydraulic power is our future,¡± the kid in camo said, catching David¡¯s eye as they passed. ¡°Already there¡¯s talk of a filtration system to clean the water as it goes downstream.¡± ¡°Keep going,¡± a thicker man with buzzed gray hair said. ¡°We¡¯re prepared for this. We¡¯ve got it under control.¡± David didn¡¯t answer. But he accepted the rations and added them to the granola bars. A few people trekked down to see if the water was good. It would be full of ash, but a good filtration system would clean it. His family didn¡¯t have one. They¡¯d refilled their waters at the natural spring the day before. It might taste funny, but it hadn¡¯t killed them. Yet. Grace stumbled beside him. Exhaustion etched her pale face, her eyes dull. Tracks from recent tears left lines through the soot smeared across her cheeks. Her hair, usually cascading in golden curls, now hung limp and dirty around her face. Her small hand was tightly clasped in his own, her fingers coated with a layer of ash. She sucked in a breath, the dirty fabric pressing against her mouth, and then wheezed, bending over and clutching her chest as she coughed. David¡¯s heart constricted. They couldn¡¯t lose her too. This story originates from Royal Road. Ensure the author gets the support they deserve by reading it there. "Keep moving," his father urged, his voice a hoarse whisper amidst the muffled cries and coughs of the fleeing crowd. David jerked his head in a sharp nod. "Grace, we''re going to make it," he said, though the words sounded as frail as the hope they tried to conjure. "David?" Her whisper barely reached his ears. He squeezed her hand, wishing he could shield her from the reality that had become their existence. "Yes, Gracie?" "Mom would be proud of us, right?" A shard of ice lodged in his throat. He swallowed hard. ¡°Yes. She would be.¡± He doubted Grace heard his response, though. She stopped walking as another violent cough racked her small frame. He exchanged a glance with their father, finding the same worry etched into his dad¡¯s features. "Can you walk, sweetheart?" Dad asked, voice edged with urgency. "Trying," Grace managed between coughs. ¡°Come on.¡± Dad bent and picked her up, cradling her in his arms. ¡°Take a little break. Just for a minute.¡± Grace didn¡¯t argue. She leaned her head on his shoulder and closed her eyes, resting. The ground cracked beneath his feet, fissures forming like a spiderweb. The trees swayed wildly, leaves and branches thrashing about in an uncontrolled dance. David''s feet sank into the newly formed cracks, sending plumes of ash into the air as he struggled to regain his balance. His dad¡¯s body crumpled against the ground, a cloud of gray dust enveloping him and Grace. ¡°Dad!¡± David tried to move toward them, but the ground trembled, his solid foothold morphing into something unreliable, writhing and shifting like a living thing. He couldn¡¯t stay upright. He fell to his knees as the earth split open beside him. His heart raced, and he pushed forward on his hands and knees, the blood pumping hot in his head. The cacophony of screams and crumbling terrain and powdery ash filled all of his senses. He couldn¡¯t see his dad. Or Grace. Not with the ash everywhere. ¡°Dad!¡± He coughed and choked on the word. The shaking stopped, and he shoved to his feet. People scrambled in every direction. ¡°Dad!¡± he screamed. ¡°Grace!¡± ¡°David!¡± He spun to his left, disoriented. Two figures sat in the dust, and he tumbled toward them. ¡°Dad!¡± David thrust his arms around his father¡¯s shoulders and clutched him, wanting to cry, wanting to be held and coddled like Grace. But he couldn¡¯t. ¡°David,¡± his dad breathed out. Grace threw her arms around them both. The word came out strained, and David backed up. The dust and debris in the air made everything hazy, but he could still make out the trembling of the ground and the tense set of his father''s jaw. ¡°What¡¯s wrong?¡± His eyes locked onto his father''s pained expression, his face contorted in agony, his hands gripping his leg tightly. ¡°My leg is broken. And I think I sprained my wrist.¡± ¡°Shit,¡± David breathed. ¡°Don¡¯t talk that way. Not in front of your sister,¡± his dad admonished. Quietly. His words laced with pain. ¡°Sorry,¡± David said automatically, but his eyes were on his dad¡¯s face, the color leeching from his skin, the sweat glistening on his brow. ¡°Can you stand?¡± ¡°The bone broke through the skin.¡± Shit, shit, shit! David didn¡¯t say it out loud. His fingers trembled as he shoved his father¡¯s hands away and pushed the pants leg up. Blood seeped along the leg, and his stomach churned at the gruesome sight. ¡°Okay,¡± he said, taking short breaths to stave off the nausea, ¡°we can fix this. It¡¯s okay.¡± He unwrapped the fabric around his face, but his dad¡¯s fingers stopped him. ¡°Take mine,¡± he said, tugging at the wrappings shielding his mouth. He didn¡¯t argue. That would waste time. His whole body shook as he grabbed the cloth and bound it tightly around the bone, fingers becoming slick with blood as he tried to shove it back into the skin. He panted with the effort to keep his focus. His dad made a noise, a sound between a grunt and a whimper. David didn¡¯t look at him. He tightened the fabric and tied it off, his fingers slipping twice as he worked the knot. Then he pulled the pants leg down and stood up. ¡°We have to keep going,¡± he said, and he didn¡¯t recognize the hard, cold tone of his voice. ¡°You can lean on me.¡± ¡°All right.¡± David got under his father. He swallowed a grunt and stumbled slightly under his dad¡¯s weight before straightening. Grace hovered beside them, far too silent in the face of these tragedies. Was she in shock? What were the signs of that? ¡°One step at a time,¡± David breathed. ¡°We can rest later.¡± A cracking sound rent the air, and David froze. Before his mind could interpret what the noise meant, screams of terror rang out around them, and people began running, over the cracked ground, past them, shooting up the hills and toward the trees. ¡°The dam! The dam is breaking!¡± The words echoed around him. David''s gaze shot upstream. A thunderous roar filled the air, drowning out all other sound. He could see the dam in the distance, shaking and crumbling under the relentless force of the river. His dad¡¯s voice screamed in his ear, ¡°Move!¡± Move. The command put fire in his limbs, and he pushed up the hill, faster. The cracks grew louder and more frequent, like a giant reloading and shooting a rifle. People cried out in fear and desperation. The ground trembled under David''s feet, the vibrations thrumming through his entire body. His heart raced, pounding against his chest with each beat, his fingers shaking as he clutched his father''s arm. His feet felt unsteady on the shaking ground, and his hands shook as he tried to support his injured father. His heart dropped into his stomach. They were still too far away to make it to safety before the dam gave way. If he could run¡ªhe was a sprinter. Fastest eight hundred in the state. "Come on, Dad," he urged, straining against the weight of their combined bodies. "We have to go faster." "I can''t," his father gasped, beads of sweat forming on his forehead. "I''m slowing you down." He looked down at his injured father, struggling to keep him upright as they moved. The fear on his face mirrored David''s own. They weren¡¯t going to make it. And his father knew it. ¡°Take Grace,¡± he said. ¡°Run.¡± ¡°No,¡± David said, shaking his head, but his father¡¯s hand clawed into his arm. The screams from behind them grew louder, a horrific symphony of terror. ¡°Go!¡± his dad screamed. Another tremor shook the ground beneath them and David knew they had no choice. If they didn''t find shelter soon, they would be swept away by the river or crushed by debris from the collapsing dam. Grace stood frozen, curls matted with ash, her small frame shaking. His father released him. ¡°Save her.¡± It was not a request. It was a command born of love, a father''s final order. "Love you, Dad," David choked out. And then he scooped Grace up in his arms and ran harder than he ever had. She Was a Problem August 20, 003 I used to love writing in my journal. But I¡¯ve had this book for two weeks now, and I find I¡¯m loathe to fill it with my experiences. Because nothing is what I thought it would be. Amari means eternal beauty. Which is ironic, because the only thing more dangerous than being a girl these days is being beautiful. I¡¯ll never forget what they did to my sister. And that¡¯s why I don¡¯t write.
David ¡°Shit.¡± David pressed his gloved hand against his ribs, feeling the sharp sting where the man had landed a lucky hit before David¡¯s kick landed him flat on his back. David¡¯s breath came in quick bursts, visible in the cold night air, but he didn¡¯t have time to dwell on the pain. He glanced down at the man groaning in the dirt at his feet, blood trailing from a split lip. ¡°You done?¡± he asked, voice flat. The man, one of the newer refugees, clutched his stomach and wheezed. He didn¡¯t answer. David exhaled through his nose, shaking out the pain in his own knuckles. His gloves were too thin. He needed new ones, but new anything was hard to come by. ¡°Next time,¡± he said, stepping back, ¡°don¡¯t steal from supply. You¡¯re lucky it was just me.¡± He turned away before the man could respond. If the camp officials had caught him first, it would¡¯ve been worse. He could still report the man for attacking him, but the punishment was exile. Death would be preferable. A shadow moved near the edge of the firelight. ¡°Trouble?¡± David scowled at Jed, who leaned against a rusted-out water drum, arms crossed. Even in the dim glow of the campfires, David could see the glint of amusement in his eyes. Of course Jed would be here to see that. He and his wife Susan had taken David and Grace under their wing when he stumbled into the refugee camp. Three years later, they were the closest to family he had, and the only people he trusted with Grace. ¡°Nothing I couldn¡¯t handle,¡± he muttered. Jed pushed away from the drum, his scarf pulled up high over his nose. It hid most of his face, but his voice still carried the familiar dry edge. ¡°Looked more like you were about to throw your back out.¡± David rolled his shoulders, ignoring the jab. He was only nineteen, but most days, he felt twice that. Jed gave him a once-over. ¡°You good?¡± ¡°Fine.¡± Jed didn¡¯t argue, but he didn¡¯t look convinced either. ¡°Curfew¡¯s soon. You coming?¡± David shook his head. ¡°Got patrol.¡± Jed let out a quiet breath. ¡°Don¡¯t be stupid out there.¡± David scoffed. ¡°No promises.¡± Jed turned to go, but hesitation flickered across his face. ¡°What?¡± David asked. Jed scratched at the back of his neck, avoiding eye contact. ¡°Didn¡¯t make quota today.¡± David¡¯s stomach twisted. No quota meant half a ration¡ªbarely enough to keep a man standing. Jed was already lean from months of scraping by, his face more hollow than it used to be. If he didn¡¯t eat, he wouldn¡¯t have the strength to work tomorrow, and the cycle would just keep going. Stolen novel; please report. David shouldn¡¯t interfere. The system was already stretched too thin. If he started playing favorites, people would notice. But this was Jed. The guy who¡¯d shared his rations with David when he¡¯d been too sick to stand. The one who watched over Grace when David was stuck on patrol, who always acted like family even though he and Susan weren¡¯t. David pulled a ration slip from his pocket¡ªhis extra one for working the night shift¡ªand shoved it into Jed¡¯s hand. ¡°Take it.¡± Jed stiffened. ¡°David¡ª¡± ¡°Don¡¯t argue with me.¡± David kept his voice firm, even though it felt like he was breaking a part of himself along with the rules. ¡°You need it more than I do.¡± Jed hesitated a moment longer before curling his fingers around the slip. His voice was quiet when he said, ¡°You¡¯re a good man, David.¡± David huffed. ¡°Yeah, well¡­ don¡¯t go telling anyone.¡± ¡°I¡¯ll share it with Grace.¡± David nodded in acknowledgment. Though between the three adults she lived with, Grace was as well provided for as any child in the camp could be. It helped that the more shifts he picked up, the more rations David got. And he picked up a lot of shifts. The wind howled, sending a fresh wave of ash through the camp. The fires flickered, casting long, skeletal shadows against the tents. David pulled his scarf tighter around his neck and started toward the outer perimeter. The camp never truly slept. People whispered in the dark, huddling close for warmth. Somewhere in the distance, a child cried, the sound swallowed quickly by the wind. He scanned the rows of tents, looking for red. Nothing. His jaw tightened. She was out here somewhere. The thief. He didn¡¯t know her name, but he¡¯d seen her¡ªor glimpsed her, at least. The red scarf she always wore made her stand out, even when she was trying to disappear. She was fast, always one step ahead of him, slipping between tents and vanishing before he could get close enough to grab her. And she was a problem. Food supplies were already thin without her thieving. And nowt fuel was going missing too. People were freezing at night, shivering against each other for warmth, while she helped herself to whatever she wanted. David clenched his fists. She was clever, but at some point she¡¯d mess up. And he¡¯d catch her. Tugging his gloves tighter, he moved into the shadows, eyes scanning the darkness, checking the exhausted faces of refugees warming their hands by the community fires. The night was long. And she couldn¡¯t hide forever.
August 27, 003 Let¡¯s try again. In a few years, a month, a week, this could be all that¡¯s left of me. The only evidence that I existed on this earth. I should make the best of it. It¡¯s been a week since I first tried writing. Two years since I kept a journal. I used to love chronicling my life with my dad and Gemma¡ª No. Not Gemma. I¡¯m a medic at Camp Orange near the mines in the Talladega National Forest in Alabama, living with my grandmother. I grew up only an hour from here. I suppose I should consider myself lucky for the proximity, or I could have ended up in a labor camp, a coal mine, or worse of all, with the Marauders. Rumors of breeding camps whisper through the med center. Places where women are stolen and transformed into baby making machine to repopulate the earth. Women don¡¯t get pregnant any more. If they do, the baby isn¡¯t carried to term. The viruses we carry in our bodies attack the fetuses and don¡¯t allow it. But we found a woman outside the camp covered in the blood of afterbirth. No baby. She was weak and in shock and died before she said a word. The sight of her filled me with terror. I hate this world. No man shall ever see my face again. I keep it covered with my scarf. It filters the ash. And it hides me. Two weeks ago, Abigail sent me to the laundry room for clean towels. When I opened the cabinet, a loose drawer fell out. I¡¯ll admit for a moment, as I stared down at the piles of spiral-bound notebooks, I felt a surge of excitement. I grabbed three of the notebooks and a handful of pens and hid them in my jacket, then took the towels to Abigail. I¡¯ve struggled to remember life before the Disasters that ripped apart our world three years ago. Now I can. I have a way to write my memories down so I¡¯ll always have them with me. I didn¡¯t realize how painful it would be to relive them, though. It might be best to forget any life ever exited other than this one. My days are busy in the med center. We watch for signs of the Drange and treat the mining injuries and give comfort to the dying and bury the dead. There is much to do. Mema is in the tent, waiting for me to bring back the rocks heated by the communal fire. We have a brazier but we¡¯ve gone through our fuel rations, so no fire. I have cloth ready to wrap the rocks the moment they¡¯re done so I can carry them back to the tent. My hands are caked in dust and cracked from the cold, but the rest of my clothing keeps me warm. It¡¯s not enough. Mema¡¯s cough is aggravated. She needs more food, more warmth. My shift at the hospital ran late today. By the time I got to the rations table, the bread was gone, and the soup I collected for the two of us resembled dirty water. It¡¯s a step above starving. But the tall guard is on duty again. The watchful one. The only reason he didn¡¯t stop me stealing bread yesterday is because the mining accident distracted him. I have to lie low for a few days. One, at least. I can afford to lose my rations, but not Mema. I keep Gemma¡¯s red scarf wrapped around my face. The bright color attracts too much attention, but I can¡¯t seem to let go of the sentimental object. Sometimes I imagine it still smells like her. It¡¯s getting colder. Ever since the eruption¡ª