《What am i ?》 Chapter 1:when did my life begin? My eyes are open but their is darkness, i look to find some light be their is none, (its funny i should be panicking i was in my room i had just gone to bed and now im here). "HELLO" : A womens voice is heard i turn around to see who is calling me but it is too dark, i can not see her, i stare out in into the void waiting to see who is calling me, Strange you are the first who has yet too ask who is their dont worry child of man their is no need to be afria... "Im not afriad" i cut her off in a defensive tone, there is nothing but silence but then, Suddenly thier is movement light passes me by like the universe is rushing past me, this world is moving while i remain still suddenly a great light envelops me, its too bright i enstictivly close my eyes and slowly open them to let them adjust and thier i see am standing in an empty hall of white marble it is breath takeing and i am captivated by it, i imagine i have a look of awe about myself and their a throne of gold with a women siting on it looking at me with a look that is hard to desccribe some where between a look of shock and interest, "Unbelievable" she says "I dont normally do this speaking to a mortal face to face like this but it has been a long time scince i was pleasantly surprised you have no idea how many mortals i have processed that all ways have the same look of confusion and ask me the same questions where am i ? where are you ? who are you ? what do you want ? all day long it gets so terribly boring i don''t even bother bringing them here any more only a select few have been here you, "alright" i say "who are you young one" she asks, "It is rude too not introduce yourself before asking a persons name" i reply my face returning to its indifference, too true very well, i am crone or the dark mother now a lower tier, goddess of direction but once i represented part of the circle of life but that was long ago now i am forced to lower myself to help young souls such as your self into new lives for the whim of the gods for their entertainment. "Im dead?" i ask doubtfully my tone of voice outling my in-difference, "Yes.." she says, "i dont belive you" i say in an acusing tone, "MY MY so your not all that speacial after all" I furrow my face, "now now theirs no need too look at me like that you are correct in a way your not dead yet it is time i told you why you are here you see your world can no longer sustain so many of your kind and so the gods are uproot a few thousand of you to other planets so your planet has time too recuperate, how ever the gods are normally un-interested in the lower plains and dont really care if you destroy yours selves infact they think its rather amusing how ever after so much time and seeding many other planets only for them to either rebel against the gods or destroy them selves it has become boring so they come up with a new entertainment where they begin life on a new planet wait a few century''s then transplant mortals from completely different planets where the planet is slowly dying by the hands of the inhabitants to that planet and watch them, sometimes they would even make a few of them fight each other once they got strong enough that is for the chance at power or wealth or some other inconsequential object that you mortals want, again all for the sake of amusement" "i see"so am i dead or not" i asked, "im getting to that" the goddess said, then im sent flying back into the void at great speed and before i can regain my senses the goddess talks, "this is were you get too decide what new planet your going too" and boom over a hundred planets appear before me, "cool" i say, so what type of planet do yo want to go too how about this one a planet nearly made up of entirely of water no how about one that technology is far more advanced then yours no how abou..." "Magic" i blurt out, "magic ?" she asks, "yes" i reply "i see their are a few i can send you too that have magic do you want to be sent their as is or be born there" the goddess says, "ahh i see so thats why im dead but not dead" i point out, "precisely" she agrees, "what type of benifits do i get if i goe thier as i am"i ask "none at all infact because you come from a world where this is no magic your body will not be able too use it"she replys then a rows upon rows of different life forms sprout out in front of me, some are humanoid while others are completely animistic just above their heads are names of all the species i can see dawaf fiary elves ent ork goblin and even human. "Wait human i thought you said humans can''t use magic ?" i ask, "no i said you can''t because you were born on earth but if you were born on this new planet with native humans who have the ability to use magic then so will you, you will be reborn as a baby and start your life a new with all your memories intact so dont worry about that" she says a little annoyed, "right sorry"i say aplologetically, looking closer i see that the human and most of the humanoids look like me , "so i guess i also get to keep my appearance its just somewhat altered to fit that particular species but why is thier also female versions of me too" i say out loud, "no not always only races such as ent will u get too keep your apperence if you pick a race such as elve then it will be dependant on your parents in that world and fate if your remain a guy or reborn female the races you see now just give you an idea on what you could look like" she say still a little annoyed, "great" i say sarcasticly (i could be unlucky enough to be female "sigh" im still a virgin i and if i get reborn a female before i even loose my virginity too one is "hmmm" actually it mght be better scince i haven''t lost my virginity its not a huge loss but if i did then i become a girl i might be a little weirded out that being said humans adapt rather quickly so even if i did become female im pretty confident i could cope with it after all the more you convince your self of something the more you believe it). 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"well she said if you don''t have any more question i will be going then lots more i have to process" she says almost interrupting my thought, "wait your leaving?" i scream , "yes i have things to do " she say even more annoyed, "ok ok i have just a few more questions" i ask pleadingly, "fine but make it quick i have lost my interest in you" she replys a little snobishly, "you said that i can be any one of these speices naturally i want to remain humaniod and be able to use magic the thought of becoming female is a little daunting" i say, "AND WHAT IS WRONG WITH BEING FEMALE" she yells at me, "nothing nothing i have nothing against females i love females females are the best"i say a little paincked and reply as fast as i can in attempt too appease the goddess, "hahahaha im just jokeing you can relax im just messing with you mortals"she say with a smile on her face, "so what is your question then"she asks, i wipe the sweat off my head and ask, " if its possible to become female their is obviously some leniency to how and what form we reincarnate into so i was wondering can we be a mixed race" "hoo hoo and you have piqued my interest again mortal not many ask that question the answer is yes u can be a mixed breed if you want such as half elve" she replys with renewed vigour, "thats great then my next question do we get the racial benefits of both parents"i say enthusiasticly, "yes in way but your racial benfits would not as strong as a pureblood"she says as she looks at me dubiously not sure where im going with this, (a smile is on my face one that does not seem right too other people even the goddes is looking at me weirdly) i smile almost psycho-tacitly and i say, "goddess why dont you have all of the races in front of me..." in seconds shes infront of me i didnt even see her coming andshe grabs me buy throat, and in anger she yells "who are you? how do you know this is not all the races of these worlds?" i look at her still trying to maintain my smirk , she shakes me and increase her grip , Anthony WHO TOLD YOU ? (she new who i WAS all this time) hahaha *cough*haha *cough* *cough* ah, why are *cough* you so angry i new because im not stupid this attitude is most unbecoming of a goddess even a cough fallen one *cough* she increasse her grip again im staring too loose consciousness, she releases me i fall to the ground cough cough cough wheeze wheeze, "TALK" SHE SCREAMS, "first tell me why have you concealed some of the races from me" i manage to wheeze out, there''s a brief second of anger on her face then a look of admiration she starts luaghing "hahahahahaha yes i knew you were different" "no bodys different" i manage to say after recovering from being strangled, "no im a goddess i have seen many lives and you are different that being said you different in the sense your different from the rest of your kind its like your weren''t even meant to be human" "yes your right i have conceled some races from you although i dont know how you know but that is because they are exempt from reincarnation" she tells me, "i thought it was something like that" i mumur, "so tell me how did you know" sheasked with eyes full of curiosity, "lore" i say, "lore what do you mean lore"she asks quizzically, "back on earth i didnt play many gamesand i didnt work or play any sports nor did i have a girlfriend to spen time with and so i spent a lot of time reading, specifically fan fiction stuff about reincarnation or summoning all pertaining a fantasy setting and so when you said i am different i dont think i am as thier are a lot of people who read and write fantasy novels its just that those people were happy picking one of the races that you see here be it human, beast man or elve, hell even some would like to be a goblin i know one particular novel where being a goblin turned out quite well for the protagonist" i say as matter a factly, she looks at me stunned not knowing what to say, "What are the races that are not shown" i ask a little excitedly but not showing the goddess my true feelings, "Demons" fuck yes i scream inwardly, "As well as angels and dragons those three are races you can not reincarnate into"she finishes saying i little defeatedly, "i want to see if i can become a demon"i ask her, "look you carnt the are exempt from the reincarnation life circle the follow their own i have told you this already"she says, "i know but i believe i can"i say, "how not even the gods can mess with the life and death cicle their races are just to old the were created the same time as the high god even though all their infighting and constant wars with the gods have weakened them over the years we can still not interfere with such primordial laws"she says dejectedly, "i think we can you can contact them can you not" i ask, "well yes but i would not lower myself too even think about contact one of them its its beneath me to even contemplate it"she say disgustedly , "i thought your job was to help me go to a new planet for the whim of the gods" "grrr yes" she says angerly, "please help me become a demon" "fine but how is contacting a demon going to help you become one"she asked bitterly, "hmmm i though we might be able to the demon to help"i say full of hope but unsure of myself, "hahaha kid you obviously have never met a demon before their not just going to help out of the goodness of their own heart hahaha especially since their race doesn''t exactly like mine and so once the find out your entire existence ist to amuse the gods they definitely wont help"she says musingly, "hhmmmm i have an idea on how to do it but it may take awhile"she says, "oh how" i ask, "no no if you are soo set on becoming a demon you will just have to wait and see".... Im changeing a few things as i dont like the direction /////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// Here is a short bio on what i originally planed for my story. ////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// Marc was a human male, born on earth 1992 died 2015 (23 year old virgin), Picked by a minor god as well as 10 thousand other humans but divided amongst several other major and minor gods with the stronger souls going to the major gods and the minor souls going to the minor gods, To be relocated to other planets so earth may heal as well as for the amusement for the gods, Marc was supposed to be given a choice where when and in what form (such as stay as a human or be reborn into a different species with memories intact of course) they would be relocated too but Marc fought the system and using his own strength slipped through the cracks witch is unprecedented as he was only a minor soul, He found himself on a planet with magic (of course he did not know that at the time) and in the womb of his soon to be mother Marc was knowledgeable about the development of babies witch was instrumental for him to survive properly and develop in the womb as well as when he is a baby so he let his mind go only hanging on to knowledge the may be useful for him to survive go, he did this in order to not interfere with his developing body and especially his brain as brain damage was something he did not want and with 23 years worth of memories could cause some damage to his young brain, With his memories slowly slipping away the man he once was was no more, so when he was finally born instinct took over, Instinct to cry instinct to breath instinct to eat/drink(aka milk duh) and with fragment memories of his late life as well as the knowledge that came with it a new personality started to emerge, Illume was born and he was no longer a he but a she, In the eyes of her parents Illume developed normally for a child but the was always a worry as a union between a phoenix and demon has never been conceived of before, So her parents were always vigilant and ever worrying how ever the worry did not always lay with that fact, That Illume"s father is the grandson over the demon lord although the last of his four brothers and weakest of them he was still nobility in the demon realm and ever since he was conceived he was to betrothed to a giants lords daughter so that the bonds between the giants and demons was strong, Although she was not a princess peace was assured because although weaker than his brothers and even though he did not like the giants daughter he still had the blood of his grand father (the current demon lord), Which was very old and very powerful in its own right if their union would happen, and it did happen as he grow older he married the giants daughter and they even had two twin daughters of their own, How ever as fate would have it, he fell in love with Illumes mother, On one of his escapades to find freedom at the local adventures guild to drink and forgot about his life for a while, but one day a naive but powerful young lady the hit it of instantly, They went off on adventures together and he taught her things and they grew closer however he did not tell her who he was, On one night when returning to his home after spending the day with Illumes mother, he over heard his wife (the gaint) talking to her friend about how incompetent he was not only in life but in bed, The next day he was hurt and so he broke up his marriage and went to the guild to look for illumes mother their he asked if she would spend the rest of her life with him... She said no (hahahaha sorry that was a bit sadistic funny though:P anyway) she said no but she would like to spend more time with him so they left to travel but time was short as they grew closer but it came a time when they realised that they didn''t know anything about each other about their past although it didn''t matter to him he new that eventually his family will find him and force him to renew his vows, but he wasn''t the only one that was fretting illumes mother was also anxious as the reason she said no to him the past months ago was because her own family are expecting her back and so with both of them being anxious that anxiety became fear, fear of rejection on whom she is and whom he is,whom she is, where he comes from, where she comes from, and so that fear turned into hate, hate that they don''t have the courage to face the rejection and so they lashed out at each other and fought it started with words then it got violent and they started getting physical now even though i have said that illumes father was the weakest of his brothers he was in no way weak compared to most demons and so they fought with all the power they had until half a forest and a mountain and all of its inhabitants were dead were their spent the last of their power until they were spent were they then collapsed into each others arms, it wasn''t until mourning that they realised how much damage that had done and so they talked for the first time since the fight began and it started rather simple, hello my name Eltair Kollan Gray, and i am 219 years old,my grandfather is the demon lord Etraine Kollan Gray, my father is next in line to the throne so to say i am the demon princes 4th son it is a pleasure to meet you, and then he bowed to illume mother, illumes mother was in shock as the man in front of her continued to bow how ever she then started to laugh, of course that was not what illumes father was expecting as normally as soon as any one mentions the demon lord or that he is his grandson they immediately start to quiver and show the utmost respect of coarse but here in front of him a women who he thought was the most beautiful women he laid eyes on was laughing at him, If you stumble upon this narrative on Amazon, it''s taken without the author''s consent. Report it. just as he was about to say something to her she said sorry sorry that was unexpected we level un entire mountain and then you just go and say that your the demon lords grandson hahaha she started laughing again, he too although initially shocked started started laughing too, and so illumes mother gave a curtsy and said hello Eltair mine name is Vivian Chol and then fire erupted from her body but it did not burn only a slight warmth a very comfortable heat and she said and i am a phoenix of coarse Eltair was shocked because nobody has seen a phoenix in over a thousand year and thought were all but extinct be here one was right in front of him, it was then his turn to be initially shocked then started laughing they then slowly embraced each other and started to fight in a whole other way (they had sex or more specific made love) until they spent the entire day in each others embrace and until night were they began to get hungry and so Eltair went and hunted some food while Vivian got some wood and made the fire were they then ate and embraced each other, My family will look for me... my family are expecting me back.. they both said at the same time almost interrupting each other the looked at each other confused and then vivian started to tell her story you see on every 150 a new phoenix is born but the when they are born they are not flesh and blood in the strictest sense you see you heard the stories of a magnificent bird made of fire but that bird is not one phoenix it is the collective of all phoenix once upon a time we interacted with people and took on forms simillar to that what we are wanting to interact with but back then the world was new, The races although fearful they weren''t openly hostile and so we conversed with each other but time past and races evolved became greedy and the fear the once had although still their was over shadowed by power, pride the races began to think that they were better than the others and so wars broke out we tried to stop it but that only added to they misery the races began to see us as hostile because if we weren''t with them then we were against them we tried to help some races the ones that were still to primitive or just didn''t have the power to defend them selves but time past and and the races saw our power as a threat and some wanted to harness our power for them selves and so the hunted and killed many of us and siphoning our power for their own and so we left and merged into one being with many personality''s but with the collective will and power of all the phoenix and we headed for the stars and every 150 years a new phoenix is born in the collective and its has been like that for millennia, Until now that is Eltair said, No i was born 276 years ago and i was born in the collective and the teach you that the lower planes are full of pride full children who will kill you without a second chance and so i stayed but i found my self wanting, wanting more than just the confines of the collective and so every now and again i used too peak and these prideful children and although i found much sadness i saw great hope and so i thought perhaps that the collective was wrong and that perhaps the lower races have changed and so i took my questions to the collective telling them of the change that they are wrong but they would not listen and for years i begged and pleaded but they would not listen and so i told them that they are the prideful ones now that we are the ones who are scared it was then that the elders of our race conceded and said perhaps you are right very well you will go down to a planet and converse with them and if they have indeed changed like you said then we will make our race known once more and join them but if you are wrong then we will destroy that planet, Thank you elders i said, You have until the next birth of the phoenix and if you do not return then we will destroy that planet and leave and never return, and so that was 23 years ago, I see my and i thought my family was complicated, and so Eltair told Vivian of his story, time passed and the left together now knowing each who each other were and they fell in love with each other and got married as they thought that with each others family coming closer to get them that they should make the best of the time they had left together, however complications arose although i say complications i meant only one Vivian was pregnant all though the have been careful and Eltair even has the ability to make his sperm inert, That fight that they had all those months ago, had left him mentally and physically exhausted and in that moment of heated passion he forgot too make his sperm inert and therefore in that moment conception was achieved and this is where our story really begins. what every one looks like apart from current Illume ///////////////////////// VIVIAN (Illumes mother) ///////////////////////// 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Report any occurrences. https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcThl39oUDmDuAFMBP6cS5TjsTboHI8RuRyP1cyx86h6Vd50reTW ////////////////////////// Marc Illume Kessler //////////////////////// (Illume will never have wings a side effect of being only half demon half phoenix) (male form is main picture that is Illume Marc Kessler) (future weapons made by kessler using science and enchanting ) https://fc03.deviantart.net/fs70/i/2011/218/8/b/fire_element_by_tyffo-d45myss.png http://www.google.com.au/imgres?imgurl=http://www.theswordstall.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/06/violet.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.theswordstall.com/product/the-hobbit-balins-sword/&h=1048&w=2500&tbnid=RSxHWpWB9tBgJM:&zoom=1&docid=GRMPAfWTryVNpM&ei=95OFVe3bPMPx8gXQ6p2wAQ&tbm=isch&ved=0CB4QMygCMAI&biw=1366&bih=643 http://www.google.com.au/imgres?imgurl=http://th05.deviantart.net/fs71/200H/i/2012/244/9/1/brs_jet_by_chocokobato-d5d65pt.png&imgrefurl=http://www.deviantart.com/morelikethis/345333696/manga&h=169&w=300&tbnid=WVXaprco_3jKoM:&zoom=1&docid=IuKmuOvtwmis3M&itg=1&ei=g5SFVe-zOpXd8AWIqrLoAQ&tbm=isch&ved=0CBwQMygAMAA http://www.google.com.au/imgres?imgurl=http://xdesktopwallpapers.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/07/Prey%2525202%252520-%252520Screaming%252520And%252520Shoot%252520With%252520Gun.jpg&imgrefurl=http://xdesktopwallpapers.com/prey-2-screaming-and-shoot-with-gun-20955.php&h=1080&w=1920&tbnid=f7vVmf3jduggKM:&zoom=1&docid=GWr9qii1dfa4gM&ei=GZSFVYKrG5GB8QWh_YDIAQ&tbm=isch&ved=0CBwQMygAMAA ////////////// Future villian ///////////// http://images5.fanpop.com/image/photos/27200000/Blackheart-Pissed-Demon-Form-wings-folded-sussie-black-sapphire-27244270-997-681.jpg unedited future chapter Illume was born with out an issue, much too the relief of her parents and acted like any normal child although like every parents they though she was special and a genius every time she picked up a block and put it down it was nothing special to any one else, how ever it was what the parents didn''t see is what really made illume special you see every time she was left to her own devices she would exercise not to strenuously but just enough to star gaining proper motor control as well as keeping limber and she did this until she was 5 then she started on mental tasks all the while maintaining a steady pace of callisthenics push ups and curls because she new that she needed a strong body and strong mind and what she was doing was great building blocks for any future advances in growth she had learnt quite a bit in these 5 years she was born she managed to learn hoe to speak her fathers language witch seemed to also be the language on the continent she was on and yes it was a continent as she asked as well as she has been slowly being able to read and write of coarse when she was 3 years old as that was what she expected she said her first word witch was Marc obviously her parents were ecstatic although unsure why that was her first word in fact Illume herself was unsure why she new that word but it seemed important to her of cause shortly after she said mummy and the daddy although it was slightly slurred and wasn''t as precise as when she said Marc but since then she has been a chatter box always talking and even her mother started teaching her a different language but only when daddy wasn''t home she was confused by this but didn''t press the issue as that line of thinking was most likely above the level of a 3 year old as a 5 year old she is able to do a lot more and she is a lot stronger than most other 5 year old, Stolen content alert: this content belongs on Royal Road. Report any occurrences. a year went by and illume is now 6 how ever her parents seem to be worried about something they took her aside and told her that they are going to see a friend of theirs and so she packed her things and they set off when they got their it was at a creepy house with a slanted roof she began to worry if she had done something wrong if her parents were in trouble when her parents knocked on the door a young boy answered the door he couldn''t have been more than 13 years old and told them to come inside as we were expected and as the walked in the door shut behind them startling her they were then led to what i can assume as the lounge room were to large chairs were facing a roaring fire and then a hand reached over to a glass that was on a small table next to the chair on the right then an old raspy voice said well come on in i wont bite
Just a quick spoiler its about magic or rather her inherited demonic abilitys (father''s side) and a breif mention of inherited mothers abillitys just so you know this is no vrmmo so no pop ups and although their is magic what Illume uses is mostly passive abillitys ie: eels have a naturaly ability to electrocute prey similar thing it was suggesed to do romance so i did just not with the main mc hehehe :P