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 Prologue 1 : The Lonely Daughter

    Prologue 1 : The Lonely Daughter


    Part 1 :


    The bell rang three times, giving sign of the end of today school life.


    Normally this would be something I hate, signaling how little more time left I had at school before coming back to my home away from my friends.


    But not today, it is the coming of promised day.


    "All right, make sure you do your homework and study for the test next week, this is all for today."


    "Rise!,  greet the teacher!."


    "~Good afternoon, ~dear teacher."


    Leo is loud as always, forcing everyone to rise to greet the teacher may be your job, but you don''t have to yell that loud every time...


    Though I also greet the teacher with spirit today, perhaps because it is a special day after all?.


    I put all the book inside my bag and rush outside the classroom, slipping through the corridors and stairs before blocked by incoming student traffic jam, only to be halted by a familiar sound.


    "Lis, you going to the clubroom right?"


    It is my former classmate Ravena, who also happen to be in the same club as me.


    "Ah, I''m sorry but I got to skip the club activities."


    "Another call from home?, geez~, must be your father coming home early again."


    My Dad is one of those parents who safeguard their children with full care.


    Normally I''m not allowed to stroll outside the house after school, club activities are considered on the borderline limit. I''m only allowed to stay for club activities if my Dad doesn''t come home early.


    Apparently his heart can''t stay calm if he didn''t see me at home.


    "No, its not that, we''re planning to go outside today.


    "Wow, tomorrow must be raining sugar. I won''t hold you any longer then, be sure to tell him about our plan as well!."


    "Yep!, see ya later!"


    Vena was pulled back inside the class before she''s able to reply my farewell, it seems she''s on cleaning duties today.


    Most people will be surprised at how close we are after only one year of friendship.


    Everything started because of the "Yearly Class Shuffle", the school tradition to reform the class every year despite having 8 class at every grade, resulting in heavy chaos of classmates rotation.


    All of my close friends was moved to other class, leaving me alone with no one to talk to for the first few days, until I met Ravena.


    She was the receptionist for the afterschool novelty club, replacing her older sister who has graduate that year.


    The club was on the verge of disbanding after unable to recruit anyone last year, a dangerous situation considering only 2nd grade may register as new club member.


    Long story short she grabbed me on my way to the library, which is right beside the clubroom, allowing easy access to borrow the novel we need.


    We manage to get another 2 new member and successfully meet the club minimum member quota. Although all four of us are close friend, Ravena is the only one in the same class as me.


    Yet, again the great class shuffle hit me this year, totally separating us to different class on different floor.


    It''s funny how the clubroom help us befriend previously unknown classmate, and now become the only place both of us can regularly hang out together after school.


    After a few more stairs and corridors, I finally reach the school locker located at the entrance hall. Its just a small locker used to store handphones while at school, although it''s allowed to be used during club activities.


    After taking out my handphone and greets the teachers on guard duty, I head outside to call for my pickup.


    Slowly walking while waiting for my call to connect, I can only silently watching my schoolmates going home in groups.


    Something I''ve been unable to do since a few years ago.


    "Yes Milady?"


    My driver voice pulls me back to reality, nowadays he''s the only partner I have on my way home.


    "Ah Kalvin, I''m going home early today, can you pick me up?."


    "Of course, I''ll be there in a minute."


    Ending the call with a thank you, I start looking for an empty bench in school frontyard.


    My house isn''t a minute drive from school, no matter how skillful Kalvin is in finding fastest route utilizing rat road he''s still bound to spend at least 15 minute getting here.


    At least that''s what I thought before recognizing the silhouette of the car that just stopped in front of the entrance.


    A man came out from driver seat under the gaze of passerby students, partly because of his butler attire and the aura he''s emanating that would make you think he''s coming out of old fairy tale.


    After replying the greeting of several students, that man start to walk towards me with a small smile.


    Most people would think that''s just a face expression you used after being greeted by middle-school girl. But I know better, that''s a face of victory I used to see long ago. He''s making fun of me.


    "...How do you know?"


    "My~, what are you talking about Milady?, didn''t I say I''ll be here within a minute?."


    "Ha!, very funny. Too bad I already lost my sense of humor for your jokes."


    "We had to find a way to restore it then."


    Now he''s grinning even more. This guy..., he really trying to lit my fuse.


    "Keep that smile and I may walk home by myself."


    "And be late for your long-awaited theme park visit?, I was told by your father to bring you home as soon as school end."


    "So it''s father after all.., I really had to talk to him about your behavior"


    "Giving me a pay rise?, I appreciated your generosity but for now I prefer a hot chocolate at home. Shall we?"


    Kalvin offered his hand to help me rise up from the bench. I''ve planned to give him another round of scolding, but the thought''s gone when I saw the scar on his right hand.


    I accept his offer instead, closing the scar with my own hand while pulling him as strong as I can, yet he stood unshaken, still giving me the same smile.


    I lift my face and stare right into his playful eyes.


    "You better didn''t make more jokes on the way home."


    Part 2 :


    Antol Park is one of few places I have memories of, our family used to visit it every month.


    Nowadays father is busy at work and I''m occupied with school. I think the last time we visit the park is three years ago.


    Now would be a good time to rekindle our old memories. If only the one I''m supposed to share it are here.


    "..already 25 minutes pass the agreed time."


    "Well, now you know how your father feel while waiting for you to come home."


    "It''s different!, I never made promise to be at home when father is off from work!."


    Just where is Dad?, first he ask me to meet at the theme park instead of going together from home.


    I thought he already here preparing something for me, who knows I will be the one waiting for him?.


    Simply standing in front of theme park gate without entering it is the ultimate form of temptation. There''s no way I can hold out anymore.


    "..Kalvin, come with me."


    "W-wait, what?."


    I drag Kalvin by his arm to the ticket locket. Underage require guardian to be able to enter the theme park, a response to recent criminal activities in this area.


    As expected of entertainment district with various night time activities.


    Luckily we decide to visit the theme park on the afternoon, the security shouldn''t be too tight right now.


    "Welcome to Antol theme park!, how long will be your visit?."


    "Hold on Alis!, we should wait for your fa-."


    "Hsst Kalvin!, just give me your ID Card."


    The clerk lady is watching us with smile all over her face, probably considering calling a security any time now.


    "We would like 4 hours package for both of us."


    "Certainly, that will be 60 gulden."


    "It''s 60 gulden Kalvin, you have enough right?."


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    I gave Kalvin my sweetest smile, just like school bully asking for lunch money from his peon. Kalvin''s face is full with hesitation over handing his money and ID Card or receiving the full brunt of my anger if he fail to do so.


    "...Here it is."


    In the end he decide giving up would be the best choice for both of us. Dunno why he so reluctant over it, Dad will compensate him later anyway.


    The clerk accept Kalvin money and ID Card, although she pay more attention to the latter.


    There''s something in that card which manage to change her image of us, soon after she return it together with paper bracelet.


    "Sorry for the delay, please use the bracelets while staying within theme park area. Please also take notice that most service will not accept customer with bracelets past its active time, you can visit customer centre located in the park central district if you need additional time."


    Receiving the paper bracelet while ignoring most of clerk instructions, I wear it on my right arm with the barcode on the outside.


    It seems we need to swipe it at the machine behind the ticket locket, makes me feel almost like a mall item.


    Walking past barcode scanner machine, I was welcomed with Antol park biggest area, at least according to the map on the bracelet.


    It is food and drink station, complete with outside tables under the sun, perfect location for waiting someone.


    "Come on, get us a table while I order some drinks."


    "...To use the ID Card for entering theme park, how can I explain this to my supervisor...."


    I leave gloomy Kalvin while heading to nearest drink station without waiting line. It seems other people prefer carbonated drink station beside it, I don''t know how they can stand waiting that long.


    Even though it may be your favorite drink, that doesn''t justify the need for such a long waiting line.


    While the carbonated drink station''s waiting line seems to be growing longer. It didn''t take long to leave the stall with 2 drinks in my plate.


    "Here, Hot Coffee for you."


    "Aah.., thanks."


    It seems he is still gloomy over his ID Card, why have it if you didn''t plan to use it?.


    "Stop murdering the mood over a single card, just drink your coffee already.


    "A single card?, do you know how long it takes for me to get this license?."


    "Doesn''t that just mean you are stupid for it to take so long?."


    I don''t know exactly what that card supposed to do, but no matter who Kalvin has showed it, they always display respect for him afterwards.


    Although I didn''t saw him flash it that often, I think there''s one time when we saw a traffic accident and he show it to the police officer afterwards. Allowing us to get back home without being questioned.


    Not that I care, so far this is the first time that card actually prove to be useful.


    Anyway, just where the hell is Dad?. How long I''ve been waiting already?.


    "Stop pouting like that, you make my coffee taste worse than it already is."


    "Go away then, I don''t need you here anymore."


    "Too bad you can''t take the drink out from this area, else I would be waiting for your father outside instead."


    Just as Kalvin finish talking, my phone start to ring. I throw the phone towards Kalvin after a quick glimpse at the caller name. He drew a heavy sigh before answering the call.


    "Yes Sir?, ..... Ah yes, we already inside the theme park, ...... It''s straight from the ticket locket , I will pick you up Sir."


    Kalvin hand back the phone after the call, I accept it with my head facing the opposite of ticket locket. Sign of rebellion to go to Dad.


    "Haah..., just make sure you stop pouting after your father apologizes. It''s no good for both of you to continue this farce."


    "It''s none of your business."


    "Actually it does, seeing your face pouting like that really tempt me to take a picture."


    I almost throw the phone in my hand towards him, unfortunately he''s a really fast runner and I''m not a baseball pitcher.


    Soon enough he already in front of ticket locket, having a conversation with a familiar figure.


    Now he''s pointing at me, what?, you afraid Dad can''t find his own daughter in this crowd!?.


    I turn my head away from the locket, quickly gulping down the ice tea I ordered.


    After a few minute I hear a familiar footstep, it is heavy and slow, similar to its owner.


    "Alisia, sorry for being late. The meeting took longer than expected.


    "Hmph!..."


    "Let Dad make up for it, which venue you want to visit first?."


    "....The roller coaster."


    I know Dad couldn''t ride the coaster, doctor told him to evade any activities which will lead to unnecessary stress to his heart. I''m sure he will ask for another venue instead, a golden opportunity for other demanding request.


    "All right, let''s go."


    "Eh..?"


    How?, what could this be?. I have no recollection of Dad accompanying me on the roller coaster before, this could even be the first time Dad ever ride the coaster, yet he simply accept my request outright?.


    Dad truly kept his word and sit together with me as we ride the coaster, his face doesn''t show too much happiness, but there''s no usual sign of stress from work either. Probably busy holding his stomach content from going up.


    Thankfully we manage to complete the trip in one piece, although Dad is unwilling to ride it second time in a row.


    We spent a few hours going around the theme park visiting venue after venue, just when is the last time we been hanging out together this long?.


    "..Huff, that castle really had a lot of stairs."


    "Should we rest first Dad?, there''s a resting area just ahead."


    "Yeah, let''s just walk slowly, there''s something I want to tell you as well."


    Something Dad want to tell me?, could this be the reason of theme park visit?.


    "Dad know it''s been too long since we hang out together, hopefully you have fun today."


    "...yeah, today is kinda fun."


    "I just want to show that you can have fun with Dad as well. Today this theme park, soon we will have more time to spend on other places as well."


    I can only stare at Dad with confusion, normally after work he will be too tired to do anything else, leaving me alone with entire mansion to play with as a cage.


    It is no wonder that I then began to look at school as my only place of freedom, there I found Ravena, and we have made promise to be friend forever.


    It will be hard to take, but I don''t want to lie to Dad. This is the best time to tell the truth


    "... Dad, about my high school choice."


    "Ah yes, there''s no good one around here isn''t it?. But don''t worry, Dad promise the place where we will move have perfect school for you."


    "Mo..-move?."


    Moving from this city?, I never heard about this before. There''s no all-girl high school in this province, how can I fulfill my promise to Ravena if we really move so far away?.


    "Dad!, I decided to enter normal highschool in here!, it may not be an all-girls school but there''s dormitory in the complex, several of my friends are going there as well, we have promised each other!."


    "Ah..., I''m sorry Lis but the move is already decided. Dad will quit from work soon to spend more time with you, so you don''t have to be worry of being alone anymore. The dormitory is no good as well, you know Dad is worried about you."


    I don''t know what kind of expression I show to Dad right now, is this what people call despair?. Dad will spend more time with me, but I had to let go of all the friends I made this far?, what kind of stupid joke is this!?.


    "But, Dad will-"   *Thump!*


    ...!?


    There''s a strange sound interfering Dad words. His mouth stuck open with painful expression on his face, as if being struck by lightning.


    Dad''s feet shaking, unable to hold his body any longer and start falling towards me like a broken doll.


    Both of us are laying down at the floor with Dad''s body above me, I can feel warm sticky sensation seeping through my dress just as color slips out from the face in front of me.

 Prologue 2 : The Iron Butler

    Prologue 2 : The Iron Butler


    Part 1:


    That little girl, I really hope she doesn''t ask ridiculous demands from her father, this theme park visit are too important to be sullied by your pouting. Then again, perhaps I shouldn''t have added fuel to the fire.


    There''s nothing I can do but to sit and wait for the result, it''s funny how my real job and my front are both adept at waiting for their master to finish their business.


    Taking shelter from the sun inside a small shed designated for drivers waiting for their employer, I look at GPS map displayed on my phone screen once more, making mental image of countless routes to reach home.


    It is somewhat become a habit for me, naturally this would be my other colleagues job while I stick close to our target. But since I''m the only one guarding her all duties have become my responsibility.


    While nothing have happened so far, it is imperative to stay on guard all the times. For the enemy will only attack at our weakest times.


    Which somehow just happen right now, an unknown man is standing beside my car. He''s knocking on the window a couple times, is it possibly a theft?.


    "Hey! What do you think you are doing!."


    I scream while charging towards him.


    That man take a few steps back and bump the other car, almost triggering the alarm.


    "Whoa, hold on a moment. I just want to know if you are inside the car or not. Your window black glass is really dark." Said the man while holding his hands to the air.


    His face is strangely calm, unlike a thief caught red-handed.


    "And just why would you do that?. Don''t you plan to break in afterwards?."


    "No no no.., I swear you have the wrong idea here. I''m president Lee substitute driver for the day, I just thought maybe we can spend time together while waiting for them."


    Substitute driver?, it''s true that I didn''t see Mr.Lee driver while picking him up at the gate, the car is different as well. Could he possibly be speaking the truth?.


    "Why is Mr.Lee in need of substitute driver?, what''s wrong with the usual one?.


    "Ah, he have stomachache while waiting for Mr.Lee to finish his meeting, so my employer offer me to be his driver instead. I''m Research and Marketing department board member, George Lotovia''s driver."


    Lotovia, either this man telling the truth or he has done background check before stealing the car. The latter seems implausible, I just had to accept he''s telling the truth for now.


    "I''m sorry for the suspicion, it''s simply occupational duties, I hope you understand."


    The man seems to be overwhelmed by my sudden apologies, he looks even more flustered now.


    "Ah no, it''s my fault to be that suspicious as well. My name''s Patrick, I hope you are willing to excuse my rude behavior.


    "Same as me, I hope you can forget mine as well. I''m Kalvin Wreist, Mr.Lee private driver, although I mostly drive for his daughter."


    "Alisia Lotovia, am I correct?. She''s quite a celebrity in the office, although no one has seen her these days. I''m told by my associates that her mother used to bring her to work."


    Used to is the perfect word for describing Alisia current situation. I was told that the office is almost like a second home for her, always clinging to her mother whenever she leave for work.


    But everything changes after that day, both for her and her father, now she mostly stayed in house except for school, certainly over-protective by some people standards.


    I don''t know how many people have asked me about her circumstances, some of them may not have bad intention, but leaking my employer information is not my habit.


    "Yes, she no longer visit the office anymore. There''s nothing a middle-schooler had to do with that place at first place, right?. How about we move to the shed as well?, there''s no use standing in here anymore."


    Patrick seems to noticed my effort to change the conversation topics, he hurriedly reply my invitation as well.


    "Uhm.., how if we go to that cafe instead?. I want to buy you a drink for all the trouble."


    Part 2:


    I can see the theme park from here, not all of it of course, but there''s good enough vision to view half of it. Guess that''s why the cafe second floor are more flocked than the ground.


    While I was looking for my owner in vain, Patrick have returned from toilet, a farce of course, it almost clear as day he went to cashier instead. It seems he have paid for my drink even though I''ve insisted not to.


    "The view from here is great, right?. I''ve only found this place after my third visit, certainly better than staring at your car for hours."


    "It certainly seems so, the coffee is much better over here as well."


    "Right!?, the coffee at the office is really worst, you would think they are using a century old coffee beans. By the way I -."


    Patrick didn''t seems to stop talking anytime soon, you can''t call this a conversation when one''s speaking non-stop and the other one is simply nodding several times.


    I wonder how''s Little Missy and Boss faring over there, I hope they will be able to heal each other wounds. It is time for both of them to move on and continue their lives free from old burdens.


    "-And that''s how I get hired by Mr.George. What''s your story?, how you come to work for them?."


    "~hm....??."


    ...Just a few second of lapse in focus and suddenly the conversation are pointed at me. There''s no way to change the topic either since I didn''t remember anything Patrick says.


    Oh well, I guess I can satiated his curiosity of thanks for buying me a coffee.


    "My father is a butler in Mr.Lee house, he has worked over there for quite a while. His first employer is Alisia''s grandfather, Tauvan Lotovia. I myself only start working a few years ago, replacing my Dad after that incident."


    "That incident.., if I remember correctly isn''t the driver was also killed together with her?. Then could that means both your father and Alisia mother was in the same incident?."


    Patrick show the same response I have gotten multiple times before, people will only remember important person names in casualty list.


    Why would they care about the driver who died together with his famous passenger?, the fact that he didn''t recognize my surname after my introduction is the proof.


    Not that I care anyway, it''s enough already for Alis to be the only one consoled.


    "Yeah, that''s true. I was currently abroad for studies when it happened, Mr.Lee insisted for me to come back and replace my father. He say he felt responsible for the accident, and the least he could do is to give me my father job."


    "...I''m sorry for your lost, and for digging up this matter."


    Patrick''s face clearly show his guilt for asking me about my past. There was a time when this question would bring old memories, but that time is long past.


    The only way I can grieve for father is to continue his work serving Lotovia family, to protect them until the time comes to unravel all secrets.


    "It''s fine, Mr.Lee and his daughter are both trying their best to overcome it, naturally I had to set aside my grieve and support both of them as well."


    "Ah, talk about Mr.Lee, do you know the rumors?, I only heard it myself after listen to his secretary gossiping about it. They say Mr.Lee is trying to sell his company share to outside, despite Lotovia group being a privately owned company for over 50 years. Today board meetings are supposed to be questioning Mr.Lee about it."


    I tried my best to keep a straight face after hearing that rumor, not because of the selling share news, but because even a mere driver have heard about it.


    There''s no doubt other board member know about this as well, just what have Mr.Lee told to them?.


    Instinctively I turn my face towards the theme park, once again looking for my employer with no result.


    Patrick seem to noticed the meaning behind my actions, he smile sheepishly while pointing towards karaoke building rooftop across the street.


    "There''s no way you can see them from here ,the building has to be at least that tall in order to fully saw the whole park."


    Just as Patrick finish speaking, I hear a strange sound echoing through the street.


    Other customer around us began to speculate the origin of the sound. some say its a tire blowout, but I have hear it far too often to be mistaken, it was a gunshot, and the sound came from karaoke rooftop Patrick just pointed at.


    I turn my face back at Patrick, but it''s not him who sit in front of me anymore. the face may still be the same, but anyone could see he have changed.


    "You are not a mere driver, who are you?."


    "Same as you Mr.Kalvin, my employer gave me a job and I execute it. Lotovia group didn''t take traitors lightly. I suggest you hurry to your employer side, else bad things may occur."


    He finish his coffee and rise up, leaving me confused in his trails. I don''t know what''s going on, but one thing I''m sure Patrick isn''t his true name. It just a mask used during an operation, getting close to your target with fake persona to exploit their weakness.


    I jump out from my chair and attempted to grab his collar


    "Hang on! , where do you think you are going!?."


    He turn his head around and lift a single finger , a red dot flashes on it, a target marker.


    The dot slowly moves away from his finger away from my field of vision, it didn''t take a genius to know that the dot is in the back of my head right now. They want to show that they can kill me anytime they want.


    "Mr.Kalvin, we both have our own job. I just finished mine and naturally I''m going to retreat. While you on the other hand, I believe your job has just truly began.


    Part 3:


    Dashing through the street, I ignore fellow pedestrian angry rant while running as fast as I can to the theme park.


    My brain is still busy processing everything that just happened. Mr.Lee attempted share sell is an important part of our plan.


    The money we suppose to gain will be used to fund our escape, while the new owner will force other Lotovia group board member to rethink their dirty business method in order to escape suspicion.


    Who knows they will caught our tails before the plan even began.


    Then there''s the gunshot. I only heard it once, so it must be either Alis or Mr.Lee they shot.


    Fat chance it''s Mr.Lee, he didn''t have direct connection with Lotovia group after his wife death, they always consider him as an outsider thorn. If something where to happen to him the share transfer will have to be cancelled.


    Other board member will have additional time to create a plan to turn the situation for their advantages.


    The worst thing that could happen is for Mr.Lee to be incapacitated or die. Cancelling the share transfer and possible inherits by Alis, further delaying the sell until she come of age to control it by herself.


    While the guardianship and board position will fall to other Lotovia family member, allowing them to run rampage without control.


    Theme park gate is in my view now. I can only pray that my worst fear didn''t come true.


    "Ah Sir!, please swipe your bracelet before entering the theme park!."


    Yell the locket clerk as she saw me jumping over the machine.


    As if I have time for that, just call your security if you want. It will save time trying to convince them of shooting within the theme park.


    Running while looking at GPS marker in my handphone, it seems Alis hasn''t move from her position a few minutes ago. Could it meant something has happen to her as well?


    As I got even closer to her position, I can see a group of people encircling in the park. There''s no mistaking it , that must be where Mr.Lee and Alis are.


    "Move! move! , get out the way!."


    The crowd gave way for me with scorning eye, I think they expect someone with police uniform instead of butler.


    Not that I care anyway, my full attention are focused on two figures currently sat at the bench.


    There''s Alisia, and Mr.Lee who''s currently sleeping at her lap. She didn''t raise her head upon hearing my voice, keeping her sight only at her father.


    I quickly put my hand on Mr.Lee neck and nose, there is neither pulse nor breath. The shooting happen more than 15 minutes ago, even if somehow I can revive him his brain would be long dead.


    Mr.Lee is dead, there''s no mistaking it, and it is my fault. If only I didn''t follow that guy to the cafe, I could reach them much faster.


    My gullibility have brought the worst disaster possible.


    I look at my employer face for one last time, the one who I''ve spent countless day scheming and simulating everything for the sake of justice. And of all that conversation, there''s one which have emerge from the depth of my mind.


    ["Kalvin, if you have to choose between saving me or Alisia. Don''t even second guess it, your only job is to keep Alisia safe. As long as she alive I can die without regret, and you still have a way to execute our revenge. Isn''t that killing two bird with one stone?."]


    Of course the reality isn''t that nice.


    With Mr.Lee now dead, our plan will be hold indefinitely, and who knows how well Alis can take this ordeal.


    A sixteen years old girl who''ve lost both of her parents within four years span.


    If simply losing her mother in an accident manage to make her become a shut-in for two years, what will happen after watching her own father murdered in front of her eyes?.


    Lifting my head to see her face, I can see tears trail from her red eyes. She still haven''t said a single word  to me, simply keeping vigilance on his father face, never to see him smiling again.


    But there''s no time for grievance, we have to leave this place as soon as possible


    "...Alis, listen to me. They might be attempting your life next, your father have given me orders to prioritize your safety.


    If you spot this tale on Amazon, know that it has been stolen. Report the violation.We shall leave the theme park and head into a safe house, I will order my friend to take your father body away from here, but first I want you to stay calm and don''t ever strand away for me."


    Alis show no signs of listening to me, her eyes have become cold and staring at nothingness.


    It is understandable that she''s currently in a state of shock, but there''s no time to waste in this situation. I have to get her away from this place immediately.


    I forcefully pull her away from her father corpse.


    She began to scream after her father''s head is no longer at her laps.


    Kicking and screaming is all she can do to express her disapproval of leaving his body alone.


    I had no choice but to lift her on my shoulder and ran at full speed, knocking down encircling bystander who''ve began to block my path after watching Alis resistance.


    "Hey!, Where do you think you are taking her!?."


    "Get back here and wait for park''s security!."


    "Is he a kidnapper?."


    What a bunch of fools, none of them dare to examine Mr.Lee condition and possibly saving him.


    Yet now they want to play heroes by blocking our escape?, it''s truly easier to speak rather than taking action.


    Grazing through the park visitor, we finally reach its gate. It won''t be as easy as before to pass this time however, there''s at least 5 security guards already forming a wall in front of exit gate.


    Thankfully Alis is no longer attempting to break free from me, perhaps because her father''s body is no longer in her field of vision.


    "Halt!, put the girl down and lift your hands in the air!."


    "Open the path!, this girl have to be evacuated from here immediately, she''s an assassination target!. Just ask one of your friends to check the park, her father''s body should be there!."


    Those guards began to mumble to each other, probably they have already been informed of a body in the park.


    They still haven''t shown any signs of breaking the defense wall, instead becoming even more suspicious of me, a kidnapper who will go to such length as killing his target father.


    I don''t think I can took my ID Card out in this situation before being swarmed by bullets either.


    Just then a woman come out from staff building across the ticket locket, it was the same woman me and Alis met an hour ago when we bought our ticket.


    There''s a surprise expression on her face when she recognize me and Alis.


    "Ah, I knew it was you!. It''s not often we had a visitor wearing butler outfit, so your face stuck on my mind. Although the security footage are not good enough to clearly see your face. Mr.Kalvin Wreist from MTB, correct?.


    The security guards are taken aback after hearing I''m from MTB -/Military Trained Bodyguards/-.


    A special branch from military to specifically bodyguard important person such as the government top brass or state-owned corporation''s CEO, albeit occasionally we also provide service for anyone interested or is in great danger.


    I took this slight chance to quickly draw my ID Card, tossing it to the guards feet before they can yell at me to stop moving.


    "That''s my ID Card, either you check my authenticity on your computer as that lady do a few hours ago and waste precious time, or you can let me go now and evade the possibility of second assassination in your theme park and official complaint for disturbing evacuation."


    The guards pick the card up and start ogling all over it, then asking the clerk lady once again about my story.


    The lady yelled back at them and said that she didn''t want to take any responsibility in case of complaints.


    It seems the threat is pretty effective, as they start to loose their formation. I took that as permission to pass through the gates, dashing once more while snatching my ID Card from the guards as I passed them.


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    Part 4:


    A few hours have pass since we left the theme park.


    We circled around the town a few times to avoid any possibility of another assassin tailing us,


    It''s not safe to return to our mansion for now, there''s a chance they have prepared an ambush there.


    We''ve spend time while waiting for my colleagues to prepare a safe house for us.


    I''ve also entrusted Mr.Lee to them, his body should already be escorted to a hospital by now.


    I shift my eyes towards driver mirror to observe my passenger status, a red haired girl who''s currently laid down on the back seats.


    Alis still haven''t said a word at all, although I can hear a few sobs every now and then.


    I don''t know what to say to her, would she even listen to the words of a failure bodyguard?.


    Doesn''t matter.


    For now her safety should be my utmost priority.


    Only after that can I wander my thought to other things.


    The mastermind of Mr.Lee assassination for example, It''s clear Lotovia family member have a hands in this.


    Still, I don''t know other participants except George Lotovia.


    Just how many people behind this?, how far will they chase us?.


    .........


    It is nightfall when we leave the downtown, my reduced field of vision is not helped by falling snow either.


    The safe house they prepared is located in the old town, not many people lived there anymore, a good place for hiding.


    It is somewhat quite far away from our previous location, I could have used the highway to arrive there as fast as possible.


    But it is best not leave any trace which could expose our destination.


    Hence I decided to use the mountain road instead.


    Although I call it mountain road, this used to be the main road before the highway construction.


    The road are wide enough for four cars to pass with excellent illumination from recently repaired road lamp.


    Internal city transport also use this route to move between downtown and old town.


    Or I should say, only the city transportations are still using this route.


    It seems the city council prefer an extra half hour of travel rather than creating a new route over the privately-owned highway and paying the enormous fee.


    Unnecessary to say, the highway is owned by Lotovia group.


    We are halfway through the mountain road now. closing in to the mountain tunnel separating downtown and oldtown.


    A five hundred meters tunnel inside the mountain, relic of city expansion a few decades ago.


    The tunnel itself is properly maintained, there''s emergency sprinklers newly installed together with road lamps repair.


    We are the only one using the tunnel at the moment.


    At least that''s what I think until I notice a light at the other end of the tunnel.


    My body become tense all of a sudden, probably because I haven''t seen other cars in a while.


    To meet each other in a tunnel without any other witnesses, a perfect place for stealth.


    But my suspicion turn out to be baseless worry after all.


    After further examination, the source of the light turn out to be a city transport.


    In other words, a minibus.


    It would be even stranger if I don''t met one of these on this mountain road.


    Once again I glance behind me towards the back seat, where my passenger seems to be asleep.


    It is okay, I won''t let anything happen to her anymore.


    Soon we will reach our safe house and staying there until everything cooled down.


    Then I will head towards the police station and file an official report about Patrick and Lotovia Group underhanded activity.


    This may not be the best course of action, but there''s no time to think it over anymore.


    They will cover everything and hide this under the rug before anyone even notice what have happened.


    Returning my sight to the front, the distance between us and the bus is only a few meters now.


    The bus seems to be nearly empty. Only a driver and front seat passenger is inside it.


    Suddenly, and out of sheer luck.


    Only because I was looking at the bus that I notice it.


    The driver suddenly make a sharp turn towards us, breaking the barrier between the lane road.


    I step on the brake pedal as hard as I can while attempting to evade the clash.


    Yet that is futile, the bus make an even sharper turn with greater speed. Clearly the driver doesn''t even tried to evade us.


    The bus crashed on the car right side, barely miss the backseat door.


    But it didn''t stop there, the bus still dragging us and slam into the tunnel wall.


    The recoil is so great, I can feel the bones in my hands before losing my grip on the steering wheel.


    Thankfully my body was stopped by airbag, else there could be additional injury as well.


    From the corner of my eyes I can see the bus driver running away from the scene.


    What, he will just left us here to die?.


    You don''t have the guts to see the result of your own actions?.


    "Hah..., what a joke..."


    Damn, what a nice mess I gotten myself into.


    It felts like I''m playing around their hands all along.


    Is there nowhere to run?.


    "~Ah.., This is not good."


    Then I hear the sound of glass breaking.


    I turn my head to see a silhouette I recognize, it''s the front seat passenger.


    He unlock the backside door and extract Alis from the backseat.


    "Unconscious hm?, do you hit your head during the crash?. That''s not good you know, I want you to see the face of your savior."


    Ignoring the pain all over my body, I hurriedly flatten the airbag and removing my seatbelt.


    My hand is on the door handle when that man face show up at the window, grinning from ear to ear.


    Water slowly fall from the ceiling, probably the reason why this man wet hair is blocking his face.


    It seems the bus engine produce smoke after the crash and ignite sprinkler emergency system.


    Holding Alis on the shoulder with his left hand while the right hand pointing a gun towards me.


    He gestures his hand as to tell me not to touch the door handle or the dashboard.


    "Sorry, but I''m not allowed to let you get out from the car. It will be suspicious you know, after all most people who died in a traffic incident normally didn''t make it out from their vehicle.


    "...Who are you?."


    "A hero I guess, at least that''s what they will call me on tomorrow morning newspaper. Saving Lotovia Group princess from traffic accident which took his bodyguard life."


    ...Traffic accident is it?.


    What a meticulous way to kill someone, although I should''ve known they have a preference for this method.


    They''ve done the same thing four years ago after all.


    "..You said you are the hero who saves Alis, does that mean you have no intention to kill her?."


    "Yeah?, at least I''m not instructed to kill her right now. Not that I can say the same about you, my employer can''t let you off the hook this time."


    This time.


    So they purposely let me live at the cafe.


    For what reason?, so that I can take Alis and run into a traffic accident here?.


    None of this makes any sense, I''m playing right into their hands all along.


    And now I finally run towards my own end, I am indeed a failure.


    "Hm?, giving up are you?, I guess that works as well. A bullet hole will be out of place in a traffic accident after all."


    Shut up, what else you want me to do.


    Hurry up and take Alis away from here.


    I don''t want her to see my death as well, at least that''s the last thing I could do for her.


    "Let''s see, It seems your wounds is quite heavy. But that''s not good, this is not nearly enough for sure death. How if I added a few more extra?, you can never be too sure in this line of work."


    Do whatever you want, just make sure you finish it before Alis woke up.


    "You don''t mind if I''m using a bit of explosives right?. Don''t worry, it just a tiny bit to trigger car''s engine to explode. Your body might get burn to charcoal though."


    He put Alis down and start to open my car hood, probably putting an explosive there.


    But that''s not where I put my attention.


    I could see her making an eye contact with me just after that guy put her down.


    She''s awake.


    "Put this over here, this one over there..-"


    That guy seems to be occupied with his work, I make another eye contact with Alis while glancing to the other ends of the tunnel.


    She understand the meaning of my action and start running as fast as she can towards the tunnel end.


    Hearing the sound of splashing water, that guy simply close the hood and look at fleeing Alis.


    "Oh?,  the princess already awake?. It''s not good to do heavy activities just after you wake up you know."


    He slowly walk to chase her, there''s no way he can chase her like this. Alis might be able to escape.


    But just after I think of that, Alis speed start to slow down and slowly fall to the asphalt.


    "I told you not to force your body, the drug will circulate much faster that way."


    Drug?, so he have made proper preparations in case Alis attempted to escape.


    But it''s good enough, now that his attention is on Alis, I manage to take my gun out of the dashboard.


    I quickly turn the door handle and rushed outside.


    I only managed to walk a few steps before falling as well.


    That''s when I noticed that my leg is twisted a bit weird, probably because I step on the brake pedal as hard as I can during the impact.


    The gun also slip away from my hand, I no longer have any strength to hold the pain.


    That guy pick Alis on his shoulder once again and return towards me, a displeasure expression is on his face.


    His feet landed in my bowels in full force after picking up my gun.


    "~My.., both of you really know how to betray other people expectations. Cant both of you just stay still?."


    My head''s all fuzzy.


    The last thing I could hear are Alis scream, followed by a roaring thunder.


    With the thunder come a swarm of fireflies.


    I felt as if my brain attempting to pull a trickery on me.


    Then everything become bright.

 Chapter 1 : A Confused Otherworlder

    Note: Prologue 2 Part 3 and 4 have also been updated.


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    Part 1


    I once read that everyone have something unique which differentiate them from other people.


    Yet here I am, can''t memorize fast enough , sucks at drawing , got bored at programming.


    The only thing I''m good at is mashing my F5 button on internet board forum.


    My diploma was left to rot inside my drawer, together with CV I kept for the last 5 years.


    I wonder where did I go wrong? , it felt like my past 29 years is nothing but air.


    Everyday I wish this is but a dream, that my future self is not like this, scraping life from one part-time job to the other, passing each day only to sleep at night.


    Sadly, even my dream deny me from comfort.


    My dream is always the same, a girl standing in front of a gate, asking me to follow her.


    Nevertheless of my choice, I always wake up before answering her, but today I notice something different.


    While I still can''t recognize her silhouette , somehow the background is clearer this time, I can read the word on the gate


    "Trikora..."


    She turn her head to the gate and then back to me.


    "You can read it now ?."


    As soon as she finished her words, heavy headache hit my head, the world spinning around me, I almost yell out scream of pain before noticing that I''ve returned to my bedroom.


    What a crazy dream, certainly not something I need before going to my university reunion.


    Normally I wont care about event like this, but it''s hard to refuse invitation from your only friend in university.


    My phone is flashing, it seems he really want to make sure I will come to the reunion, I refuse the call and message him instead.


    [Just woke up, dont worry I''ll come.]


    Since I was invited I should make best use of it, at the very worst I can trade a few hour of embarrassment for dinner, not that I''m that desperate for dinner though.


    I''m searching for a clean cloth in my cabinet, at least something that didnt make me look more like a bum than I already am.


    I already choose my best 3 out of all garbage in the cabinet when I notice snow falling outside my window, better grab a jacket while at it.


    Heading out from my apartment, I walk a few meters east heading to my commute. Route 14 bus stop, one of few bus stop that still works late night, it seems there''s a few minute until next bus arrival.


    I took out my cigarette to smoke my cold away. Snow fall heavily today, wonder if there will be a storm...


    I''ve only managed to take a few breath when the buss front light flash at me after passing intersection.


    "Oh well, better early than late."


    ............


    It seems there''s no one else on the bus, not that anyone ever took my usual place on the very back seat.


    City lights seems very beautiful tonight, attracting people like sugar to ant. Too bad I''m one of those nestless ants, there''s nowhere to take the sugar back.


    The bus pass through several of my former workplace. Convenience store, Fast food station , Local park I''m hired during autumn to sweep all fallen leaves.


    Certainly not a worthy occupation history to write on your CV.


    Somehow I always bored at my workplace after a few weeks. My job tend to be sloppy after 2nd month , and at 3rd month I barely come to work anymore.


    Another reason not to write my previous work while job hunting , I don''t have happy ending with them.


    My mind return to previous dream.


    Trikora, what kind of place is that?, there''s no relevant data on google about that place, at least now I know my dream is not a result of my voyage into internet deepest rift.


    Now that I think about it, I only slept for a hour back then, no wonder my eyes still trying to drag me back to that realm.


    Perhaps I can sneak a few minutes sleep, my destination is still quite far away, I may find new clues about the dream as well.


    The bus pass through a tunnel, now it''s dark enough for me to sleep, I took this as approval from God to let me sleep, I hope I can wake up before the bus stop.


    Part 2


    The dream was strangely a deep long one, I only notice I''ve fallen asleep when my eyes almost blinded by light.


    "Which part of city is this bright at night?"


    Then I notice there''s heat as well, just how long I''ve fell asleep?.


    I open my eyes to welcome the most drastic changes in my life, it was already noon, and there''s no snow in sight, in fact it''s hot as hell.


    It seems I''m currently at the middle of a meadow without any building in horizon.


    "Summer?, did someone drop nuclear bomb while I''m asleep?"


    I don''t know if radiation could alter your senses, but I''m feeling really good right now.


    The air is clear and taste like mint, I haven''t experience this since leaving my hometown 7 years ago.


    But I doubt even my hometown still have this aura by now. Anyway, where is this place?.


    "Welcome back!"


    "Whoa!!."


    Suddenly I notice a girl standing infront of me. Weird, I''m certain I didn''t see her while looking around before.


    Now that I look at her closely, she almost like your typical high-schooler apart from her hairstyle with 4 different colored tails.


    What, did they really drop nuclear bomb here?, how could it be she already mutated?.


    "You know, I was really worried when you say goodbye earlier. I thought you will leave me again, it''s good that you are well."


    "Earlier?, wait a second, do you perhaps mistaken me for someone else?"


    "What are you talking about? ,could it be they''ve done something bad to you?. I already told you to be careful. Well, since you''re able to come back here I guess there''s nothing to worry about."


    This girl must be crazy , it seems radiation affect her brain as well.


    What does she mean I come back to this place?,  I''m sure no one can get forget waking up in place as strange as this.


    Then again, what''s this place?. The horizon are surrounded by hills, it''s as if I''m currently inside a bowl.


    Just when I''m going to open my mouth to ask her another question , which is stupid since she hasn''t answer my previous question yet.


    She rise up and point her index finger on me.


    "Anyway, we got a new neighbor now. Go and say your welcome to her!."


    Right after she finish her sentence , I felt the world around me become much colder. As if the world have changed itself for something.


    In a split second the grass where I sit spin around for a second before twisting right back.


    The earth was forced open by the grass.


    Now there''s a gaping hole where I sit a second before, naturally I fall towards it while barely hearing that strange girl yelling something


    "Good luck!."


    ...........


    ...................


    .............................


    I don''t know how long I''ve been free-falling , not that I have anything to mark the time anyway.


    The hole above me have been closed right after that strange girl finish yelling , leaving a single illuminate source on my fall trajectory.


    "Damn , earth core already?. It seems the nuclear blast also lower the elevation."


    While I wash my anxiousness with another nuclear joke, I make a note to myself, don''t speak while free-falling.


    Almost choke myself due to sudden air pressure from opening my mouth facing down.


    At least now I have time to think about all this shit that''s been going on.


    I know for sure this is not bus final stop.


    There''s no way the driver dump me here after returning the bus to its garage, I doubt bus driver nowadays is in possession of mini black hole used to dump sleepover passenger to this place.


    This is also too fluid to be a dream, so I can officially scratch controlling this place with my imagination.


    The problem now is to figured out where the hell this place is , and how to reach the ground without breaking every bone in my body.


    Not that I don''t want to think about that strange girl earlier , but it felt like I will be hearing police sirens if I start to imagine her.


    The way she command grass to open the ground, ..is it magic?.


    She''s certainly not normal.


    Not that freefalling to the center of earth like this could be considered normal either.


    .........


    There''s more light in the hole now , it seems I''m getting closer to its end.


    I start to chant all religious prayer my mom teach me before the inevitable *SPLAT!* to the ground.


    Several flashbacks start to play inside my mind, of course it''s mainly about my PC and its content.


    ........................................................................*POOF!* ... ....... .................. .


    .....What?.


    I''m certain my body already hit the floor right now.


    Why is it I didn''t feel any pain?.


    Actually I did feel pain, but it''s as light as mosquito bite and only last for a split second.


    Then I felt the answer in my hand, the ground might be shaped like stone, but it''s as soft as sponge.


    "What kind of stone is this? , could it be a stage prop? , am I being tricked right now?"


    "!!??"


    Out of nowhere there''s a respond from across the cave.


    I had to pinch my eye hard to see tall slender woman beside a forge staring at me.


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    For a moment I want to get closer to see her clearly. But soon after I know that''s a big mistake.


    She''s naked as newborn, showing everything for my eye to feast.


    Long gold hair to waist , breast size of almost D cup. Totally my image of ideal woman apart from two things.


    Her beast-like eyes and forge hammer in her right hand, correction, she already swap the hammer with the sword she currently forging.


    Another correction, make that three things, I don''t like woman pointing sharp weapon at me


    "Wh..Who are you!?, How you get in here!?"


    "Hold on! , it''s not what you think!. I can''t swear that I didn''t see anything, but I really didn''t mean it!."


    "Intruder!!."


    This mark the second time someone tried to kill me , If you also count that girl throwing my down here.


    But it seems this one is deadlier, in a split second I blinked somehow she already equipped full body armor and charged towards me with amazing speed.


    There''s nothing I can do but stare at the first claymore I ever saw in real life, which could also be my last.


    There''s flash of light from the claymore as she swing it to me. and then there''s nothing.


    Part 3


    I really miss my room. First it was that strange girl throwing me down the hole, then that crazy naked blacksmith/swords-woman murder attempt.


    When will someone shows up and say that this is the worst surprise party ever?.


    Thankfully somehow my head is still at its place, I didn''t feel any other injury either.


    I say feel because for some reason I get heavy headache every time I try to open my eyes.


    Because of that I don''t know where I am right now.


    I can feel soft fabric beneath me, but it doesn''t end at my arm reach, perhaps I can reach the end if I move my body a little bit.


    But I think it''s not a good idea to move recklessly right now, what if there''s hot lava around me?, robbed from vision can do wonders for your imagination.


    I lift my hand towards empty space above me, fingers  all wet from wiping cold sweat off my forehead.


    I felt nothing, there''s no wind in here.


    "TOT!"


    Lack of wind means I''m currently inside an enclosed room, so I test the room size using my voice.


    Based on previous scanning attempt I can conclude that this room is larger than my old room, which is 7x5 meter size.


    Hell, it must be way larger, just where could I possibly be?.


    "TOOOT!!!


    "...Uhm, excuse me?."


    Eh?, there''s someone else in here?. There''s no way I can evade this as sleep talking!.


    "....."


    "Are you okay?, the guard notifies me of strange sound inside the room, is there something wrong?.


    What I''m supposed to do?, Should I reply?. It seems the cat is out of the bag already.


    "...I..I''m sorry, it''s nothing to worry about."


    "That so?, please let me know if there''s anything wrong. It is my responsibilities after all.


    "Ng?, What do you mean by..."


    Urgh, I was trying to open my eyes a little bit to see my conversation partner.


    Yet just as before, my eyes were soon to be blinded by ray of light, it leaves a bright blight even after I close my eyes.


    Combine that with heavy headache which last for a few minutes and you get yourselves an embarrassment in front of someone you just told not to worry about.


    "Are you really okay?, Is it your eyes?"


    "..Sorry for hiding it, for some reason my eyes seem to be sensitive to light at the moment."


    "That so?, but you are fine earlier when I check your left eye.., now that I think about it I didn''t get to examine your right eye."


    "My left eye..?"


    I tried to only open my left eye, surprisingly there''s no blinding light this time, although my head is still hurt a little bit.


    But what is more surprising is that there''s someone face right in front of me, I do want to see her face, but not this close.


    "Uhm.., what are you doing?."


    "Ng?, waiting for you to open your right eye?, I believe I already told you I want to examine it."


    "..I''m fine now, please don''t worry about it"


    "That so?, well if the person himself saying he''s alright then I guess there''s really nothing to worry about."


    She took her face away from me and head towards the room light source, it is some form of crystal within layered glass box.


    She''s pulling the glass separating the layer within the glass box, causing the crystal to fall into the lower layer full with bluish water, the part of crystal in touch with the water immediately stop radiating light, as if extinguished fire.


    The room become significantly darker now, it seems she''s also unsatisfied with it and decide to open the window curtain.


    Ray of light once again radiating the room, yet just as the light from the crystal, this one has no warmth unlike the sun.


    My view is still a bit distorted after all the light show, but even so I can see her beauty quite clearly.


    Her fair skin looks as if it could melt when touched, although for some reason her eyes is totally jet black, it is unusual for normal human to have eyes as black as that, even my eyes is only black brownish.


    "There''s suitable apparel inside the wardrobe for your meeting, I''m sure you will find something to your liking."


    "What?, oh, yeah, clothes.."


    Damn, I think she caught me glaring at her.


    But is it just me or she look sad?, is there something I done wrong?, apart from the glaring of course.


    "I will station a maid outside your room, you can call her if you need anything else."


    "Ah, about that meeting, who am I supposed to meet actually?."


    As soon as I finished talking, her face expression become even sadder than before, it''s as if she just lost something forever.


    "..Why, the King of course."


    Part 4


    The crystal is really interesting.


    I tinker with the glass box a little bit and put it out, despite radiating light it have almost no warmth.


    The bluish water is somewhat lackluster though, it felt a bit cold when touched but there''s nothing else, of course I didn''t dare to try drinking it.


    My movement is still a bit sluggish, only using one eye didn''t help either.


    Could it be I was hungry?, the maid stationed outside brought some refreshments for me a while ago.


    I was still in daze after that woman told me to meet the king, and was unable to ask her name before she leave.


    The maid also hurriedly went outside after placing the food plate on nearby table, not giving me any chance to ask her who is the one visiting me earlier.


    The refreshment is composed by several cookies and piping hot tea, perfect for dipping it in.


    Although I wish there''s also some water to clean my palate afterwards.


    After enjoying several cookies softened by the hot tea, I put the crystal back into its box and walk towards the wardrobe.


    For some reason my current clothing is nothing but a robe, which provide no protection against chilling wind coming from the window.


    ...And then it hit me, there''s an unknown silhouette in the mirror beside the wardrobe.


    Black hair with strips of white, with cookie in his mouth, stopped in its tracks due to something otherworldly.


    "..The fuck?"


    The last cookie I was enjoying slowly fall from my mouth. I walk towards the mirror against the silhouette confused face.


    "What.., how could this be!?."


    Face that''s not mine, a body younger than I was used to. My left eye twitched in unbelief, just what''s going on?.


    A dream it could be, but it simply too real to be called such. Just after I found some peace from all those confusing events, I was hit with another one out of nowhere. Whose body am I currently in?.


    After dismissing the maid who come rushing to my aid, I try to collect myself and think logically.


    Once again I face the mirror to examine the body, just as what you would expect from a body of high-schooler, there''s a feeling of vigor underneath it, although lacking the necessary muscle.


    "This body.., I say it''s about 16 year old?. There''s lack of early mustache and beard."


    I don''t remember how my body used to be at 16 year old, but I''m certain this is not it.


    This world isn''t mine, this body isn''t mine.


    Have I being transferred to another world?, at least there''s no pop-up windows in front of my face.


    Then I start to examine my body, my old face could be considered mediocre compared to my friends. But this one is certainly nowhere close to mediocre, it looks like a child actor or something.


    The height, about 175cm I think?. There''s nothing nearby to compared it so I just make a wild guess.


    The hair is a little bit fluffy and hard to change the style.


    Certainly not a bad body to live in, although it will took quite some time to get used to.


    Of course I was shocked with this new body, but after everything that happen recently somehow this doesn''t feel that impressive anymore.


    Right now I''m just waiting for a doctor to proclaim me as mentally unstable.


    After accepting what''s done is done, once again I walk to the wardrobe, resisting temptation to look inside my pants.