《RULES OF DARIUS》
winter suicide
"huff"Huff"(heavy breathing) behind a fallen table hides a young man on the verge of death.being shot through the stomach he is losing a lot of blood.He covers his mouth with one of his hand and the other pressing his gun wound.
"WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU DARIUS.....COME OUT NOW WE WONT KILL YOU...NOT TILL WE RAPE YOU HAHAHAH"a man with strong build,black hair and half a nose screams .He has an axe and a pistol on his left and right hand.BOth his hands shaking from the adrenaline of the situation he is in,Aching to kill.Beside him is a very thin man completely covered in blood.By the looks of it he has already claimed a life.He was armed as well,with two kitchen knife in both of his hands.
"but boss i thought you were straight".
"you idiot sometime you got to do with what you have"
The young man desperatly tries to control his breathing.He was shaking and at the verge of death.He knew he was going to die one way or another so he had to do something and it had to be done now
(hfff)(huff)dammit ive got myself in a tough situation now.How the fuck am i gonna escape..think darius THINK.The room is dark so thats to my advan....
*throws a chair at one of the window*
"WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU YOUUUUUU FUCKKKK"
this guy truly is retarded so that too is to my advantage.Now.... i think this is a restaurant and i am somewh..ere.
BINGO i am in the kitchen.By the look of this lay out the cutlery must kept somewhere near .Now if i could just find a knife...well fuck me there one right in front off me.Finally the gods are listening to me.About time you lazy fucks.Now "ah" dammit the wound is pretty bad.it looks like it wasnt that deep but it hurts sooo bad (pant)
Hold it in..... hold it in...reach for the knife...got it
"AND FOUND YOU....YOU SLIPPERY FUCK"
"ahhhhhh"
"you think you''re so smart don''t ya well IMMA A SMARTER MOTHER FUCKER HAHAH"
the young man was grabbed by the neck and choked by the macho man.His grip was rough.The young man started moving around frantically.With every movement grip tightened.
"HAHAHAH HOLD HIM TIGHT BOSS YOU GOT HIMMMM HAHAH"
ohhh fuckkkk i can''t breath...nooo im losing my vision.Calm down darius calm down....HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO CALM DOWN HE''S CHOKING MEEEEE........where is his kneee joint where is itt....
"UGHGHH"saliva started leaking out and his eyes where blood shot.the young man was desperately trying to find the knee joint with one hand while holding to the kitchen knife on the other but he was slowly losing the grip
"OHH WHATS THIS YOU WANNA FEEL MY LEGS DON''T WORRY IM NOT GONNA KILL YOU YET..WE WILL HAVE PLENTY OF TIME FOR THAT LATER"
.......FOUND IT........FEEL ON THIS MOTHER FUCKER *cuts*
"AHHHHHH MY LeGs NOOOOOOO"
as the young man was freed he took the gun from the falling macho mans hand and shot the slender man on the legs and took the the axe from his right hand
"nOOOO plSS SAVE ME SIMON ...SIMON" *crack* his skull cracked open and blood splaterd everywhere the young mans white face was now red
everything happend fast and the young man personality took a 360 within that time.he looks and the splaterd head of macho man for a few mins with a grin and shifts his gaze to the slender man screaming after being shot in the leg
"now now simon you didn''t think i forgot about you did you.Don''t worry ill make it as less painful as possible.when i am done you will be left mind blown by how fast it was i mean look at you''re friend HAHAH AHA GET THE PUN...DID YA GET THE PUNNNNNNNN"
"PLSSSS..PLSSS I HAD NO OTHER CH..." *crack*
"another collection to my kill lisstt HHAHAHAHAH"
FUCK keep calm darius you still have a bloody bullet wound to patch up.My vision..this is bad..how am i going to fix myself if i cant see clearly.
the young man walks restlessly around the restraunt to find the first aid kit with blood dripping down and the pressure by tying his shirt and hand pressing no longer sufficient he was running out of time
"first aid..first aid...found it".Now then do i have all the stuff to patch my self up."I DO HAHAH YESSS".This is very unsual everything is going my way.Its almost as if someone prepared all of this in advance for me to find.Whatever,all it means is i get to live another day. Looks like the bullet didn''t penetrate deep enough"AHHHHHHH".............."damnn this is disgusting ughhhhh"This story has been unlawfully obtained without the author''s consent. Report any appearances on Amazon.
"DONE (Huff)(huff) all fixed,Only one problem this means i can''t eat for 2 days."araaa why is everything blurry ..i need a bit of rest..noo i got to keep moving or ill be cau...caefef..effef........"
"Alan..ALaaaannn what are you spacing out for. Geez if you find my conversations boring just say so.Anyway todays the last day of school before summer vacation.So um... i was wondering if we can you know..go and have a bit of fun today....Soo what do you say"
".....Alright,is it just me and you or can zack and henry come with us"
"NOOOOOO BAKKA...BAKKA"
"stop it...stop hitting me.So its a date.You know zoey i always thought you were the most beautiful women ive ever meT..."
"shut up"
"for real im not joking.Truth is ive loved you from the day i met you...."
"suttt upp"
"now you might think im lying to you so i get some action but this is legit...don''t belive me.look i cross my heart and hope to die"
"SHUT UPPPPPPP"
*gun shots*
"no wait zoeyyy NOOOOO".Fuck a dream again been a while since i had that one, araa am i crying.Grow up you baby zoey hates guys who cry *gun shot* that was louder than before they are getting closer.Fuck ive slept too long.Okay ive found a bag.Damn i am stressing my hands are shaking.They are going to catch up to me.Keep calm darius keep calm .Now what are all the stuff i have hmm lets see.
i have a pistol.i found 20 bullets in his pockets.Not enough but better than nothing.ill keep that behind me
have a lot of pain killers.very goood..good job darius good job,i got bandages,needles,syringes and a lot more.so on the medical side i think i am covered for small wounds.
food..i have a biscuits.Are they expired..maybe but i have to make do with what i have.This is not going to last me very long.
Now i have.. *gun shots*....dammit they are here.I need to leave.Chuck all the remaining items in the bag
Bad idea leaving from the front.I have to go through the backk door.*looks around* Man i really did blow their head too hard.I could keep the axe and knife.They will come in handy at some point.Sorry i know stealing is bad i wll make sure to compensate you.well time to leave this shithole and off to another one.
Darius walks outside and immedietly his legs sunk in the snow.It was very windy and the surroundings were quiet and peaceful exept for the occasional gun shots
"Hooo man it really is cold outside and its getting dark.Thats weird i swear it was morning a couple of minutes ago.How long was i asleep".I was talking out loud.I need to stop doing that.one of these days its going to get me killed.I better start running now....the snoow is really deep.Im not running fast enough....
man this place is too peaceful ive been running for quiet a while and i haven''t seen a single person.Where exactly am i.It seems to be a very backward city but this is the first place i am seeing so many buildings still staying up *gun shots* looks like iam getting furthur away from them.Better keep running.....
"huffff hufff"damn im tired.I cant hear the gun shots as much as i used to.Thats good so they chose to camp and hunt tomorrow.I better start doing the same.Man i ended up in a very creepy street.its so calm the cars are coverd in snow and almost all the houses look run down.This place is more relatable,why is it that only that city wasn''t affected.So many questions..i''ll think about it later.Now what do i do.Bingo This house will do.This seems to be the only building upright.It look fairly steady.Well its missing a front door thats not good.The family must be poor.oops i can''t belive it the welcome mat is tainted with blood.These people have no idea how to take care of themselves
."well...Fuck me"..
walking into the living room was the worst idea.I had an idea of whaat was going to be in there and i should have moved on but...
2 adults and 3 children massacred in their homes there was blood every
*vomit*strange i thought i was used to these sights by now.I mean i did just kill 2 people.my heart.."(hufffff) (Huffff) CHANGE THE SUBJECT THINK OF SOMETHING NICE...COME ONN" my brain it hurts.im feeling dizzy "AHHHHH"
"do you understand kids this is what happens when you have poor sanitation"
"obviously thats the reason they died"
talking to myself again i need to stop that.Strange for a second there i thought i was crying.There is vomitt on the floor and it looks fresh was some one here before me."heheh"i wonder whose it is "right its somebody elses".Moving on,how are you gentlemen
By the looks of it these two are males and ones head is hanging by the neck.Probably a gay couple.oo there is a mirror.I wonder how handsome i might be."mirror mirror on the wall who is the fairest of them all"."HAHAHAHHA OMGGGG WILL YOU LOOK AT THAT HAAAA I LOOK SO DISGUSTING HAA BY FACE IS RED HAHAH RED PAINT ALL OVER MEE I REALLY AM BEAUTIFUL"..*breaks mirror* what the fuck am i doing with my self.ill go and wash myself upstairs.3 rooms
room 1 empty look like the childrens room
room 2 empty looks to classy to be a childs room.Must be the guest room.
room 3 ..........*gasp* a dead body.Seems to be a female.she is naked and bloody looks like she was raped. she might be the mother.On closer look it seems She killed herself by taking these cyanides.She must have been raped continously.Who would want to continue living after that and plus her husband and children are massacred.Well what to do i must give her a propper burial.
darius picks the body up and throws it out the window,
"may god be with you".That should do it.Kingsized bed must be the love den.I wonder if the toilet is clean.The tap seems to have water coming out of it.Thats strange...maybe i hit the jackpot.The shower looked dirty.so i cleaned it.Time for some much needed cool down
i took off my clothes and got into the shower after 5 min i felt tired and sat down,slept.my body was aching and my mind was mentaly scarred from seeing the dead bodies.i tried to hold in all the pain and finally all that anguish came bursting out.Tears flowing out from my eyes i cried to my hearts content.I realised there was something wrong.I know that vomit is mine...
"somebody please help meee plsssss..i dont ..... feel alone anymore plsss"
"hey alan are you alright you seem a bit down"
"mom..."
"what is it lil alan...come here give mommy a hug"
"ahhhhh At school (sob)..AT school i broke tommies pencile and....and he slapped me (sob) Then he called mee...ugly (sob) and broke the box daddy gave me (sob)"
"Its alright alan your mothers here now.me and daddy will always be here with you and...... you are the most handsome boy in the whole world...tickle tickle "
"hahahhahHAH STAHP ITTT"
always be here with you
ALANS DIARY
YEAR 2020,
"Hey alan have you heard about tanabata before its abo-"
"yes i have please stop.. ive watched a ton of anime and its always the same bullshit,Im tired of hearing about it"
"Well let me tell you,its the story of two lovers vega and altair" she continues anyway,what a peculiar girl.
This young beauties name is zoey.Now don''t get me wrong she is definitely not the most attractive person in the world let alone in the area we live in but she is the most beautiful person in my eyes.with her black hair,red lips,white not so smooth skin and those freckles...damn she is a godess.She is 18 same age as me we go to the same college,we''ve been togather since year 3,thats like 9 years now.With all these advantages i thought we will be a couple by now but..
"Heyyyyy baby how was today did ya have fun at the litrature tour.....oh you''re here too alan *click* get lost....
"what"
"HAHAHAH im just messing with you,you should''ve seen you''re face....pricelesssss"
THIS afro,brown,muscuiline,hey look at me girls im so perfect guys name is james.He is zoey''s boyfriend and....my best friend.he''s been with me longer than zoey.If i was to put it better he is more like a brother to me.
"heeeey jamie *smooch* The litrature tour was amazing.Speaking of which have you ever heard of the tanabata festival i was telling alan here but hes too stupid to understand so ill tell you.This is a love stor-"
"i love to hear all about this darling but i got football practice *smooch* catch you later.Bye"
"but-"
She looks sad .what was she expecting.. him to just lay over and listen to her love story,the guy is litrally a walking pile of muscles.james has everything i always wanted so i have a high level of jelousy towards him.I mean the only reason zoey fell for him was because he plays football.She always wanted to date a football player.I tried my best to get into the college football team.Ahhh all that hard work all for naught but there is one thing he lacks and thats a brain.. .
"ZOEY im going home if you want you can tell me the story on the way"
"REALLY ALAN...... REALLLY WOO IM SO HAPPY YOU''RE MYBEST FRIENDALAN MYBEST FRIEND"
a part of me died that day
3rd july,2020
i came home from college today with zoey i was so happy i was able to walk with her alone without jaime like i did in the past.I heard her stupid story about tanabata,don''t get me wrong i liked that story and used to find it enchanting but when you hear or watch something for so long eventually you will get tired.That is what happened between me and tanabata but moving on listening to that story was sickening enough but then she goes onto call me her best friend.I know by this time i should give up and move on,if a girl sees you as a friend she sees you as a friend but i just lover her so much.
7th august,2020
i am struggling with my studies,lately its getting more and more difficult but i know i can pass all my exams if i study.The problem is i find no enjoyment in the subjects i am doing so i procrastinate.Zoey,as the kind girl she is tries to help me as much as possible but i always get distracted when she is teaching me.she always brings her friend too.I think her friend noted that i have a crush on zoey.last day she asked me directly but to save our friendship i said no.she seemed happy when i said no for a second i thought maybe she liked me.That was impossible this girl is the most popular girl in the college so hands down thats a no..no.That way my brain shot that theory down.
20 august,2020
on my way back from school i saw a couple of kids beating a smaller and weaker kid.I am no hero but i hate it when injustice happens before my eyes.They''re not going to backdown easily and might retaliate but i took my chances and approched the bullies.Thankfuly the second they caught a glimpse of me they backdown and walked away as if nothing happened.i lend him a hand to get up and told him about the story of when i was bullied and how i overcame it hoping it will help him.Remember kids even when i knew i might get beaten up i went and faced the bullies.i told myself there is always something i can do to make a difference.I live my life according to those rules then and nowIf you spot this tale on Amazon, know that it has been stolen. Report the violation.
4th september,2020
i failed my exams today,my teachers are asking me to change the subjects i am taking and move on to something more into my field of talent.I know they are not trying to say im not capable out right but if i change my subjects i won''t be able to see zoey as much as i used to.So i am going to try harder this term and beat everyone
5th decembre,2020
This is fucking unbeliveble i failed all my exams again i promised myself i will not procastinate again but that is exactly what i did.I was smart enough to know if i was to continue to do it,i will fail but i did nothing to change myself i am a failure.
8th june,2021
its been a while since i wrote.Nothing has changed from before,i am still a failure but a lot has changed for my friends zoey and jaime got into university.The exciting part is that they both got into the same one.While all this is happening im still stuck in college.sometimes i hear my mother crying at night.i can think of many reasons why she would but the main and only one that matters is probably me and the way i am living my life.I want to change so much but everytime i think about change i counterthink and say i lost my time to change.
5th july,2021
I passed my first exam,this time i was determined and i did it and i will continue to do it....I WILL BECOME SUCCESSFULLL.Zoey and jaime came over to congragulate me.I was happy,for the first time in a while i was happy but what made me happy was not the fact zoey came over but the happiness on my mothers face
4th october,2020-4th february,2021
my mother is hospitalized.it seems she has lung cancer.It spread too much and is non-cuirable.That day i went home and was researching all about lung cancer and cancer in general.I realised something,whenever i used to see people with cancer i would look at them and feel pity and move on like that was it,like cancer has nothing to do with me and the fact that i am not helping is justifyable bacause i do feel sad for them.i don''t have money so people with money should help not me. Thats just not true,there are many other ways you can help a person.I went around putting charity up to help my mother and also spread the harms of lung cancer to inform people about it.The fact is everyone knows but they just don''t care.Some people took their time to help but majority moved on withmtheir lifes with the same ideology as i did 3 months ago and who can blame them.
3rd december,2021
A lot has happened in the past year.I dropped out of college,got a job,helped my mother at the hospital and buried her at the end.She died a couple of weeks ago i stopped visiting her towards the end.Everyone called me selfish and cruel.I can live with that but those so called friends those fuckers who didn''t come and meet me at all during those times when i was struggling but came to the funeral and like everyone they blamed me for not visiting my mother.Of all the people who called me selfish i belived they would understand,they would ask how i was doing but no.Maybe i had expected too much from them maybe thats were it went wrong for me but still ...They don''t know what they are talking about i was trying my best to keep her alive.I was working 3 jobs everyday with barely a shut eye...i was trying why didn''t anybody notice that.Thats right humans are quick to note the flaws in others but not quick enough to note the good qualities.A part of me couldn''t bare too see her like that,struggling to breath,barley moving,half dead.That was also one of the reason i didn''t go visit her so i guess they are right i am selfish and cruel...am i.I don''t know any more all i know is i am tired.....
16th june,2022
i was watching this video on this guy saying we were all living in a simulation and that we are in the computer of some random person.I wished his theory was right because that would make it easier for me to kill my self.Over these past few months i had many attempts but i was too much of a coward to do it,So im still breathing.Thats when i saw the news on the tension between america and russia.It was so high people already started building bunkers expecting a nuclear war.A part of me wished they did nuke the whole world so i can start a new or finally just die i am sick of the way the world is now.
22nd november,2022
ohhh boyy shit is about to get spicy.It is predicted that a nuclear war will happen within the next 2 years.This is good...its great.I have nothing to live for,so i really dont care nukkkeee em alllll mo**** fU****
17th march,2023
today i was walking back from the convinence store accross my appartment,under the bridge i could see a couple of teenagers kicking and punching a kid which is significantly smaller and thinner than them,funny thats bullies for you just a bunch of cowards trying to hide their insecurities.I swear ive seen this before.I stared at them trying to remember where i saw this before during that time i watch some extraordinary moves,I watched the teenager pick the kid up and slam him to the ground.punched one of his teeth out and repeatedly kicking his ribs.I wished they would just kill the kid and save him some amount of pain for whats coming at him when he gets older.After a while they got bored and left,i walked up to the kid and gave him a cold beercan to rub on his pain and left.There was nothing i could do...
21st august,2023
today zoey and jaime came over to see how i was doing.they were scolding me on the way i was living my life.truth is ive messed up my life ever since i took the decision to follow zoey into college.I should have sticked with computer science a subject i was good at but i felt love was the most important thing at the time.A word of advice to all you love maniacs do yourself a favour and look after yourself.
30th february 2026
it is finally here the day of reckoning.I just woke up from sleeping and there are sirens all over town warning about the nuclear misslies.I have been waiting for this day ever sinci i heard of it but now that its here im afraid.I thought i was ready to die but i am not i just want to see my mot-...
"ALAAN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE GET TO THE BUNKERS....GET GOING NOWW GO GO"
"YES GOT IT"
....................................................................................
*gun shots*
huff huff....dammit i overslept again,now they have the advantage again.I can''t believe i slept on the floor.more importantly...
WHY AM I SHAKING.......
A LIFE OF SOLITUDE
Today is a really cold day much more than usual.This is probably the start of the intense stages of winter,i am currently sitting on the steps of a local library building.Its one of the few building i came across that is still standing beside the house i stayed last time and that peculiar town.you can guess how buildings might be in a post apocalyptic world its not far of from the films.Actully its no different from the state of the world during the world wars.The diffrence is after the world wars 1 and 2 one or the other nations won the war and rebuild the world but in this scenario their are no winners only losers.Thats us humans,the species who grew more and more intelligent as the days went by so much so that we became stupid enough for our own good.
Look at me trying to talk all philosophically when im here pretending a piece of paper i found on the floor as a cigar and playing with my breath.If people like me are the only ones remaining then somebody should nuke the world once more.
time to get a move on.Its been a while since i heard them fire,makes me wonder if i lost them or they cleared their path from all the humans who refused to join them.By them i am talking about an army of people who made their own self proclaimed groups to carry the human race forward.After the world went awol and people started emerging people natrully thought it would be a bright idea to stay as groups and think of what to do togather.No offence that is a bright idea,the only problem is the world is not only filled with good,caring,loving people.At first everyone stayed calm and tried to think logically and build new societies,it went smooth for quiet a while but when you''re living in a world where the fundemental rights are shattered and those rules and laws are what you make it out to be,humans release their true self.With no one to enforce these old laws it made it easier for those fuckers to have their way.I''ll tell you one thing if you are lazy,fat,unhelthy,and super stupid no government or police is going to protect you now your FUCKED.Mother natures rule of the strong preying on the weak truly will make sense,trust me the first person i saw dying died simply because he was too fat to run outside from a falling building.I am pretty sure if there was anything he regretted before dying it would be that he didn''t exercise.
So in this new world the mentally retarded fuckers started stealing,raping and killing people.It didn''t just happen out of nowhere,those fuckers took their time.At first they made sure no one knew about the stuff they were doing but after a group of mentally disarranged people came togather they overthrew the old fucks (who were maintaining peace at the time) and no longer hid their immoral activities and did it openly as if it was a ritual for clensing the soul.Many tried to run away and some did but to my astonishment and others who were sane who stayed behind and belived these fuckers were only a minimum of the population in the camp and belived we can fight them off were mistaken.The truth is all of us have a demon inside us.when we had rules and regulations most of as were able to hide it but when all that is shattered and done for all we want is to be the alphas and only the select few can hide them and continue with their lifes without those restrictions and so those weak minded human finished off the strong ones and kept those guinne pigs which they found usefull for their amusment.
All of this was surprising to me at the time but what shocked me most were the characters who did all these unforgivable things.
one such character was mr.stan.Good guy,he treated me with food ,water and shelter when no one else offered to help.He was a typical working dad,with his glasses and high tucked pants we can all agree he was a total geek and a moderately harmless person.He had a wife and child.Mrs.stan was equally kind person.she treated me as her own child even though she is not that old to be my mother but i couldn''t care less she was a beauty.Her blonde hair was her trademark she was the perfect milf.After the rebellion happened i ran straight to their shelter to warn them.What i witnessed that day changed my whole view on humans and destroyed my tendency to trust anyone.Mr.stan laid their headless,Now i know its mr.stan because i found his head near his baby.It was a sickening site,something i wished i would never come across in my life ever again and mrs.stan that bitch she was on top of a man sitting on a chair fucking him.This was not even in a different room all of this was done in front of mr.stans dead body and in front of their child.I thought maybe she was being raped at first but that theory was cleared out the second i noticed how much she was enjoying this.I ran off from that camp that day.becoming one of the few that was able to escape the camp.I do regret on thing and it still haunts be till this day.I should''ve took the baby with me but my cowardice at the time prevented me from doing anything besides run.That was my experience with the first camp.Besides that one i came across many more along the way and finally i reached those that called themselves "the black hawks" not the most original name or the most exciting but as i said the nuclear war left only humans with low iq.This group is the most vicious and ruthless one ive ever seen out of the many.Their leader koro is one to be afraid of.For those who ends up on his bad side it is certain death and i somehow or the other found myself on the worst of the worst piles.Now they are after me.Was it the fact i fucked his wife or his daughter i wouldnt know but i am certainly not waiting to find out.The author''s narrative has been misappropriated; report any instances of this story on Amazon.
" when can we find and kill that fucker im getting tired i need to go home.my dicks getting horny"*people talking afar*
"shit they got this far i need to make a run for it now"
fuck i screwed my self big time if i start running now they will surely notice me but if i dont run ill be caught eventually.So i should run ...no.. why don''t i just hide in the library.it was the most plausible solution.looking back at it it looks steady. its a dark and complex structure,if i find a good hiding place it will be difficult for them to find me. Its decided i''ll hide in the library.i clap my face with both hands.
"get a hold of yourself darius"
i nearly got too tensed and made the wrong choice.I walked upto the library door and opend it very carefully.it made a very disturbing sound.The slower i tried to open the door the longer and squickier the sound went so i just pushed the door open.Inside the library is very dark i can barely see anything.If it were not for the open crack on the left side of the building i won''t be able too see anything.I went to the right side of the building were i came across some stairs and carfully stepped my way up.Now i can''t see anything.I felt a large object which i belive is a fallen shelf.I climbed over it ever so carefully and hid.the floor was a bit wet and the shlef was very dusty.i can hear the door opening.i covered my mouth to control my breathing
"hey terry you go to the right and i''ll go to the left"
"but i can''t see anything on this side,you go to the right"
i looked below me and i can very lightly see two figures.one was holding the other guys shirt vigourously it seems they are fighting..
"if you don''t go to the right i swear when we get back imma shag you''re wife again this time i won''t stop"
"you wouldn''t...."
"HAHAH JUST SOME BANTER KID GET A HOLD OF YOURSELFF....kids these days are spinless"
on of them is comming toward this side.better duck.
"HEY DARRON i see some steps here do i have to go up,i can barely see anything"
"GO UP AND LOOK BEFORE I PLUCK THOSE SMALL BALL OF YOURS OUTTA YOUR BED"
*wispers*"This guy is just dirty i can''t belive this is who i have to work with even though im ten times more litrate than that fisherman"
i can hear him climbing up the stairs.WHAT IF HE HAS A TORCH HE IS SURELY GOING TO GET ME.WHAT DO I DO IF HE DOES FIND ME,DO I KILL HIM AND HIS PARTNER AND MAKE A DASH FOR IT.WHAT IF THERE ARE MORE PEOPLE WAITING OUTSIDE..CAN I TAKE THEM ALL.WHO AM I KIDDING I CAN''T DO IT I WILL DIE.I SHOULD HAVE RAN AND TOOK MY CHANCES."HUFF HUFF" SHIT STOP BREATHING..STOOP STAY CALM..STAY CALM...
"yeah there''s no one here i can''t belive we just wasted our time like this.HEY DARRON THIS PLACE IS CLEAR"
"IS IT THEN GET YOU''RE ASS DOWN HERE YOU PIG YOUR WASTING EVERYONES TIME"
"OH FUCK OFF"
"huuuF" he''s walking down.im sweating from head to toe.I feel so cold...
it''s been 30 minutes now i slowly get up and search the library
i find a window on the right side.I slightly look up and i can see the figures down on the streets.Thank god they didn''t find me,there were more than 6 people.They all look packed with ammo and guns.i definitley do not want to cross paths with them.By what i can make of the figure there seems too be 4 males and 2 females.usually in the black hawk group when they go hunting or food searching or whatever mission where they branch of from the main group they take a female with them for pleasure services but it seems there are two females in this group that is very unusual.They start to move again.I waited for an hour before i got up and started to move again.All measures must be taken,walking outside the snow is deep as usual and the surrounding as distubing as possible.sometimes i get a bit lonely...HuH
"Hey i thought i''ll never see you again.YOU''RE PRETTY SMART PLAYING US LIKE THAT DARIUS"
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Camp "BLACK HAWK"
"I wonder what day today is,do anyone even keep a calender anymore...ahhhhh who the fuck am i talking to"
i''ve been travelling for 2 days after i left the previous camp,normally anyone would think to stick to one camp or other humans in general but not me.After the shit that happened in my hometown ive decided not to associate with people for so long.Nothing good comes from it anyways,in this world no one is to be trusted no one.
*grrr*"AHHH im so fucking hungRY"
i dont know precisely what day or month it is but its starting to get cold so i guess its winter.I dont know how i am going to live through this winter,if you were to think about it there is no other season that is more trecherous than winter.With no food,shelter and warmth you are bound to die.So after having a long coversation with myself i decided to bent my rules a bit and see out the whole winter.Besides,most of the camps ive been to have not been as bad as the first one,sure there are moments of indecision between the folks but they normally sort it out.So i don''t think theres going to be any problem...i hope
im getting a bit tired now,it seems i have no fuel left in my tank.I was hoping by now ill run into someone,usually it only takes 3-4 hours before i run into a human this however has taken a lot longer than i''ve anticipated.Forget the camps there should be atleast one person around this area somewhere.All of the streets look dead empty,i thought maybe the people are hiding from me not knowing who i am so i checked all the buidings worth entering and nobody.Maybe all the people in this area are in a single camp is the conclussion ive come up with but that too is flawed.By my understanding of humans there should be atleast a few unwilling to stay in groups and roaming around causing havoc or surviving ....hmmm.Its also getting dark and by the looks of it i am going to pass out on the streets.Talk about timing Finally, i fell on my knees i look up at the sky for a few seconds then the surroundings there is not a single shelter so if i rest im going to die and if i don''t i am going to die.I started having the dicussion with my brain and have come to a unanimous decision to use all my remaining energy to walk a couple more meters.If i am going to die,i shall take the choice with more probability to survive.
After walking for a furthur 20 min i saw something move.I don''t know what it is that moved but i was a lot more energetic in my walking after i saw that figure.As i got closer my suspicion was right,it was a person.Behind him i could see a big wall or gate but i couldn''t care less about that at the time.This might be the greatest moment in my entire life.i start running to the figure as fast as i can
"heyy heyyyyyy loook here-faea" dammit
I think that indicates my system is shutting down.i fall flat on the ground as usual and slowly lose my vision but before i went to sleep completely i realised the person was walking/running towards me.The persons shouting something i can''t really understand but it seems like the person is a she..please god let me fuck her before i die.
You''re a disgrace alan
*cough**cough* huh....
"your finally up,how are feeling.Do you feel any pain anywhere,any dizziness,sickness anything of that sort"
"erm...no" whats this a doctor,whats a fucking doctor doing here all dressed up in a white coat.He''s not the only one dressed,there are nurses too all dressed in white,thats not all it fell like im legit in a hospital.All the machinary,medicines.chemicals all them medical shit are in this room.
"good,well mr-"
"Darius"he seems to want to know my name,im still a bit dazed and answered automaticallyFind this and other great novels on the author''s preferred platform. Support original creators!
" well mr.Darius,one of our soldiers found you wondering around the camp during night time 3 days ago-"
"3 days-"
"Yes 3 days and as you would know you passed out" he seems to be a little irritated that i stopped him in the middle,what an impatient man
",so our soldiers brought you in.Now originally they were planning to put you in prison and question you when you woke up but i took you in after a fare amount of discussion with the security section convincing them that you will not wake up if left alone.It seems you had malnutrition and passed out.Don''t worry i fixed you,you can thank me later but now my question is what were you doing out there at night"
"erm-"he talks too long i didn''t catch half of that.His face went from a gentle smile to a cold gaze.He is fairly old so that makes the gaze even worse.This is why i can''t trust humans
"well go on mr.Darius"
He seems a bit annoyed,im guessing he got a fair amount of criticism for taking me in.Now im a lot more confused,there is a security section and a medical section this must be the most advanced camp yet.
"i was looking for someone"
"looking for someone"
His cold gaze turned into one which was intrigued.I lied i was looking for someone because normally people would stick to camps and if they are not in camps those people will have been in a group minimum of two.There is no one atleast to my knowledge who would dare travel alone.It would be much easier to tell this lie than explain my behaviour.In conclussion it was logic vs emotion and we all know who wins.
"and where is this someone"
"i wouldn''t know,if i did i would be with them"
"Them"
"yes,there was 4 of us" i am not a great liar and not a intelligent person i don''t know where i am going with this
"and mr.Darius how did you get seperated"
"well hmm thatss a bit-"dammit think of a lie think fast you dumbfuck
"its a bit disturbing.... sorry i m a bit sensitive about this topic"damn did i screw up
"i understand mr.Darius but if you are to get out of this room alive then you must comply"
Get out of this room alive,wtf is happening i look around and all i see is this old man and the nurse and a big black window...oh
"well,the camp we were at before..ran out of food supply and the people that went in search of food didn''t come back.So all the people started fighting over the food and we were caught up in it.Eventually the people....*sob* the people started killing eachother *sob* and we got seperated *sob*..."my god i must be the worst actor but this was the best i could do "And i don''t know where the others are..."
"Yes i did hear the camp next to ours got into a little bit of a dispute...But mr.Darius if you were really trying to find you''re friends why did you move furthur away from the camp and what makes you so sure you''re friends are alive in the first place"
The docs question is spot on.He has a slight shrug on his face.Its like i fell straight into his plan and he caught the criminal but the statement he made before if i heard correct he said there was a dispute in the camp.He must be talking about another one because it seemed perfectly fine when i left.I can worry about that later,right now i need to find a way out of this mess.There is only one way to get out of this now
"AHHHH AHHH I DON''T KNOW HEEELPPP MEE PLEASE HELPPP I WAS SCARED *SOB* IM SO SCARED......" i get up from the bed and fall on the floor crying with hand on my head and occasionaly smashing the floor.
"THEY KILLED AN OLD LADY..THEY CHOPPED HER HEAD OFF....PLEASE DN''T ....PLEASEE HELLP..I CANT*SOB*..." i fell on his feet and started begging
"ahhh dammit its just another coward...one thing the world never runs out of..cowards"
the doctor clearly has a face of dissapointment he gets up from his chair and walks out i stay on the floor and kept my act going.The door opens again and through the small opening i can see the doctor talking to a couple of men.they all seem to be armoured.They must be the security section he was talking about.They might have been watching me through that black glass to determine if i am dangerous.Amoung them i can see a woman.it seems she got some kind of order,she turns around opens the door and walks towards me.She got long smooth blonde hair tied behind,blue eyes which seems a bit tired and a musculine body which looks a bit chubby.she looks straight at me
"are you alright,come one get up"
she reaches her hands to me and i grab it.she pulls me close to her and gives me a hug
"it''s alright everything is going to be alright"
She smelled a bit of sweat but at that momment i didn''t care.I don''t know why but i felt safe,i felt calm,i felt peaceful and a load of other emotions and i started to cry for real this time.This is the first for me in years.i always hid my emotions but for some reason it all came pouring out the second she hugged me and said those cliche words.I felt happy...
TRUST
All my life i have been making the wrong choice and everytime i made those choices i would cancle my ignorance by stating all of it happens for a reason.Everytime i came across a motivational video or thought,i would cringe,they are the stuff i hate most in the world but now i realise that hatred was just a coverup to my recurring jelousy.Jelousy towards those who are succeful,jelousy to those who have it all and jelousy to those who are trying to make something of their life.While i rott and live halfheartedly for what may be a pointless life.
It really is true what they say "you won''t know what you have till you lose it" i pray no one else lives there life like me..
After crying for what may be a few minute but an hour for everyone else i stopped.I regained my conciousness and came back to reality but i kept the act of a coward going.Now and till i leave this place i am nothing more than a coward,which is ironic that i thought of myself that way.Maybe everyone who knows me might have always thought nothing more of me...enough dwelling
i raise my self and sit back on the bed.Around me i can see the nurse,the doctor and the soldier lady.she seems to be around her 30''s,much older than me and much more handsome too.The other men seems to have left and has left me in her hands.
I sat on the bed trying to grasp the situation i am in.I was expecting one of them to talk to me but the doctor seems to have lost intrest in me and was packing the equipments along with the nurse.I looked to my right and i startled "em" she is looking straight at me.I guess she seems to be observing me as i am observing them.Which means i should make the first move
"e..rm whear exactly am i.."
"Camp hawk"
Camp what,she seems to be a lady of few words.Communicating with her is going to be really hard.So far every girl i have come across has a big mouth...
"erm..am i safe here"
"For now"
For now,i see so they still have their suspicion but thats natural.while i was going to ask her my next question the doctor walked towards us and called out to her
"I am afraid ms.lara,mr.darius over here need some more rest.So if i may kindly ask you for your leave"
"very well"
she got up and walked out,it all happened a bit to fast.the doctor then approched me and put his hands on my shoulders i was startled a bit
"Calm down mr.darius we are not going to do anything,if i may could you please lay down i need you to be rested"
i did as he asked
"when will i be able to leave"
i asked him the question,which i should have asked a bit sooner
"ahh so now you ask...hm well mr darius you will be able to leave tomorrow and thats all i can say for now so don''t bother asking anymore.PLease have some rest"
It seems my behaviour is a bit uneven.I am not a natural born liar nor do i have a talent in acting so if i am not careful i might be in big trouble.Already there are a lot of plot holes in my statements.This has become very troublsome indeed.
the doc gave me some sleeping pills.He was checking my blood rate and noting it down the nurse walked towards my left and opened a curtain and there seemed to be another patient in there.How did i not notice that,now that i have a closer look there are two more curtain covers to the front of me.This small information that i did not notice is not a small problem.It means that i am much more of a noob than i thought i was.This small information has had a big blow to my confidence.i was so paralysed with fear i didn''t pay attention to my surroundings,the pills start kicking in and i slowly faded from reality.
"wake up-mr dauis.....wake uo.......WAKE UP MR DARIUS"
Fucking hell i had a panic attack .Dammit old man can''t you bee a bit more discrete.His shouting scared me to almost pissing my slef.I guess its morning and the day of my release.
"Nice to see you''re awake mr.darius.I would continue to let you have you''re beauty sleep but your escorts are here"
Huh..Escorts.. i get up from bed and i notice the lady from yesterday is back and this time there are two more people here with her.2 guys,one is well built and looks like a proper soldier he is fairly handsome as well,the other has a smaller stature and with his black hair covering his right eye we can all agree he is an emo.All three are properly armed.
"hai, nice to meet you all"
i bow and greet them,a habit i picked from watching too many anime
"yea whatever get dressed we need to fucking move i have stuff to do as well"
"Please excuse my suboordinates behaviour he has been a bit cranky these few days for obvious reasons..By the way my name is lara, this cranky guys name is dylan and thats mr.emo jeff" giving the guy a punch for his rude statement she started indroducing everyone
shee seems to be much more talkative than yesterday.Well this makes things easier for me.Taken from Royal Road, this narrative should be reported if found on Amazon.
"ah..Nice to meet you all again i am darius athene"
"Darius athene is it thats an uncommon name..where are you from mr.D.A.R.I.U.S..darius"
This dylan guy seems to be suspicious of me already.He walks close to me and looks straight into my eyes,he has an intemidating gaze which sends shivers down my spine.should i have lied about my second name.well it dosn''t matter now i have to play this off.I back away from him a bit
"erm...i would prefer if i didn''t say" looking down i act scared with tears in my eyes
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU FUCKING CUNT" he smashes his hands on the table next to my bed as he screamed
"THATS ENOUGH DYLAN...." lara pulls dylan away.If i thought dylans gaze was scary this is another level
While all of this is happening i met eyes with emo jeff..his gaze fixed on me.I instinctively look down.
"its alright darius you''re safe with us.he is a bit suspicious of new commers"
lara seems to be the only one nice to me.Strange....But i undersand what is happening here.
"thats enough all of you take mr darius out and show him the place he is going to live in from now on.That is if he wants to"
the doc had his say and he was having none of this in his room.After he finished speaking he gave a slight nod with his glasses.without a moments hesitation dylan replied
"ahh fine lets get this over with im tired i need sleep" with his hand on his head and whistling he walked out and emo jeff followed
"well darius we will wait outside.Get dressed,today marks the first day of your new life"
she walked out with a smile on her face.the nurse came up to me and gave me my cloths which has been washed.I wore it and followed them out.
"you''re faster than i thought"dylan replied
the second i got out of the room i saw that this building is packed with doctors,nurses and patients.Most of the patients are soldiers which is intriguing
"come on darius lets go"
lara called out to me while i was observing them.I realised furthur questioning them on this subject is not ideal.Ths is one of those moments where curiosity kills people.
i got out of the hospital building and i was astonished with what i witnessed..its a whole city full of people for a second i thought i was back to the world i knew.Its unreal,people are walking around naturally with their children,there are others selling food and other commodities and soldiers walking around...this is-
"Amazing right,it took blood sweat and hard work but we got here.Soon we will build the world back to how it was"
"yea so we can blow it up again"
lara seemed optimistic and had a big smile on her face before dylan opened his mouth
"shut up you pessimistic bastard"
i wouldn''t call him that i would call him a realistic bastard,because humanity is too clever for there own good or stupid
walking furthur into the city i become more and more astonished by how free and safe everyone is.Lara explained where everything is but ocassionally ommited some places and i didn''t furthur indulge my curiosity.There was even a library in this place and the best of all electricity.Lara explains that when everyone got out from there bunkers and grouped around this place was fully standing and the dam was perfectly functional as well and thats the source of their energy.They just accepted all of this as gods last effort for mankind.Thats bullshit the more i learn about this the more confusing it gets.This is impossible or is it .......this place makes no sense
After walking around the city we came to the wall.Yes there was a massive fucking wall around the city.I didn''t need to ask why there was a wall so i brushed that topic aside.The wall dosn''t seem that strong so they are building a stronger one around it.So far its far from complition.They told me to wait outside the watch tower which is the main base of the militery services in the city.To get to the watch tower we had to go through 2 gates fully manned,i realised escaping from here is going to be harder than i thought.The three of them went in and came out after half an hour.Whatever they were talking about it was serious and i think i know what it is.
Both dylan and emo jeff parted ways with me from the watch tower.Lara remained with me and showed me to my new home.Which was coincidently close to the base.it was a three story building,a bit worn out but considering how the planet is now i must be one of the richest person in the world.
"well this is it this is your new home " She opens the door to my building which was at the top
it was dark,Lara switched the light on and amost immedietly i wished the light was off.the room was dusty and unclean.there was rubbish all over the place.whoever used this place before me was an unclean person.Ateast there were 3 rooms a living room,a bedroom and heven(bathroom) so all was not bad.After checking all the rooms i turned around and face lara
" thanks,thank you very much"
"it''s alright we are only here to help those in need...well then ...bye"
"bye"
"oh i almost forgot,here its a welcoming gift"
she handed me a bag with 6 cans of beer.Her face looked of one who was waiting to be invited so-,
"lara do you want to come in and drink with me"
"REALLY....YESS i am so bored these day with all the work and stuff i hadn''t got a day to have fun..thank you darius"
"NO..no need to thank me..im more indebted to you"
I did not for get about the role i am playing and so i looked down to the floor and acted embaressed.
I don''t know how long we talked to eacother but it was getting dark.We talked about our previous life and how we ended up here.Lara is actully not from here and was from a neigbouring city.she worked as a assistent in a crappy office and after the war,the community that was built in her city was destroyed and she was saved by the black hawks.She didn''t want to be useless to them so she trained to become a soldier and thats how she got this position.I made up my story as i went along and i had a reason to do that.I told her the same story i told doc but i made it so that she would think i was actually born in liverpool near the camp that was recently destroyed.I told her that before the war i was a university student in liverpool studying computer science.After we had this talk she decided it was time to leave.
"well darius i had fun tonight.its nice taking to eachother at times like these.ill see you tomorrow"
"me too,i hope we can talk again like this"
before she went she turned around and gave me a kiss on the cheek.She had a flirticious face as she smiled.It must have been all the alcohol....hm
"bye lara"
i went straight to bed after that and started thinking.To any normal person today was a fantastic day,it would have been the best day of his/her life in a while and i should be happy.Truth is i would have been happy if i didn''t already know all of this was fake from the good cop/bad cop resemblence by lara and dylan,the observence from emo jeff ,the signals given by the doc and then finally lara''s effort to try and get close to get info on me.It was a beautifully planned play and would have worked perfectly on me if i wasn''t such a person who is overly suspicios when it comes to trusting people.Whats more is nothing about this place scientifically any sense how is it that this place is completely un affected while everything around it is waste.Its like something or some one made this place as a safe zone in a game.What about the soldiers why were ther so many injured..why why why...i have all these questions but i have no reason to find the answer to any.I am only staying here to see out winter,after that i am out....but escaping is going to be hard ..ahhhh...think later sleep now.
"how did everything go lara"
"it went smoothly captain,the guy is just a coward not worth wasting time on"
"GOOD"