《Blood runes》


 prologue

    When did it all come to this?


    this idleness. powerlessness. unquenchable thirst. destructiveidles of a monster.


    I haven¡¯t been able to move my body in quite some time. my eyes are stuck on the ceiling with no notion of what I¡¯m looking at.


    I haven¡¯t been able to sleep. for a moment after i close my eyes it all comes back. I don¡¯t even remember the last time I had a meal. I haven¡¯t taken a step out of this room or put my legs over the door for the same amount of time. I can¡¯t.


    and...


    I¡¯m tired of this. Of everything. But now, I just want to end it all. I¡¯m tired of hearing these voices that I can¡¯t stop. Nor do i have anything to reply.


    I can¡¯t get out of this room, these four walls. this prison. this prison of my body. this prison of my mind. this prison that I can¡¯t escape.


    I¡¯m tired of this lie. I¡¯ve been lying to all. my parents, relatives, friends, everyone and even Gods. I can¡¯t continue this. I don¡¯t want to.


    it gets harder to breathe with every passing moment. Every breath is suffocating.


    I have to end it all.


    But no more. I¡¯m tired of having this hole in my chest. I¡¯m tired of the constant ringing of my ears. I¡¯m tired of leeching off of others, tired of being a burden to everyone around me. Nobody¡¯s adding more creases to their face for me from now.This story originates from a different website. Ensure the author gets the support they deserve by reading it there.


    Ever since that night, everything¡¯s changed. It was a moment that probably happened in a flash, 5-10 minutes maybe. but that was enough to change everything.


    It¡¯s not like I haven¡¯ tried after that. but I know. whatever¡¯s happened is irreversible. And what do I tell others anyway.


    I forcibly puke out everything I eat, nothing stays in or gets digested. I have no stamina, except the sudden power swings I get out of nowhere. and then, being still again. Everything and anything takes just too much effort. I once went outside after the incident, and it just made me more sick of myself. These strange urges of... hunger. lust. violence. destruction. Wherever I looked at anyone my body would shake uncontrollably. It was hell.


    but my life this past few years has also been hell anyway. I was just an aove average guy, with no particular excellence or talent. Then why me? I¡¯d ask myself. whatever I thought of doing before is just a sweet fantasy now.


    I mean, I¡¯m not even human anymore. yeah.


    All this time that I¡¯ve been here was passable due to these books. heh. I would read everything I could. My books from elementary, history and what not. all the reminiscence that would just make me more sad.


    and yesterday I found something from long back. A preparatory elemental & warrior book that father bought me back when I was 14.


    now there are legends that practicing these books can be very dangerous to non-human beings. It might just be legends but what happened with me was something out of fairy tale too.


    Forgive me, father mother and sis. I¡¯ve been unfillial, but I wont burden You any more.


    I¡¯m tired of living this lie, I cant continue. I am sorry. I wont ask for forgiveness. It¡¯s getting unbearable with each day.


    With this basic blood bone transformation method, It¡¯s time I finally free myself. sorry.


    yes-


    I clenched my fists as I finally made up my mind.