《My own world》


 Awakening to an End

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    A world shrouded in darkness where no sound can be heard and even the tiniest spark of light is engulfed by the darkness itself.


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    In this total darkness, I feel nothing, I see nothing, I hear nothing.


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    But for the last five minutes of my morning practice routine. The silent ticking of the clock was extremely agonizing, which can be heard even in my self-proclaimed unconscious state.


    I am also currently trying to make sense of what the hell am I doing for the last 5 minutes. Wait I actually know exactly what I¡¯m doing but doing it is still lame.


    Constantly justifying my own actions with any means necessary, using scientific theories which have yet to be proven or by using various game theories had already become a part of my daily routine. In any case, I continue to delude myself further and further away from reality.


    So what actually am I doing? Lying on the bed? A good guess, however, to go in more detail, I am sort of meditating, how? By listening to Anime Op songs and by focusing on the sound of my heart beats.


    In a normal point of view, it may seem something gibberish but I am very keen on accomplishing my objective. That is by creating a world of my own. What come again!! Yes, I want to create my own world instead of being invited to one. But that does not mean I''m against getting summoned or reincarnated in one. Instead, I pretty much love the idea of reincarnation. Anyways this sort of ritual is always performed daily prior to going to sleep.


    Now a full-fledged otaku can comprehend the purpose of this ritual. No, perhaps not, to put it simply it is just about getting yourself ready to leave the real world.


    I''m using an old-fashioned approach, where I increase my imagination to its limits to become a God of my own world.


    This maybe a very harmful way of thinking for an individual of religious faith.


    Well to describe my actual real-world situation is that I¡¯m laying on a single bed with my very warm and cozy blanket, wearing headphones.A case of content theft: this narrative is not rightfully on Amazon; if you spot it, report the violation.


    *oshiete oshiete yo sono shikumi wo boku no naka ni dare ga iru no? kowareta kowareta yo kono sekai de kimi ga warau nanimo miezu ni*


    OH YES, this song makes me so relaxed.


    I imagine myself appearing in an enclosed box which is a safe point to protect myself. While I''m busy creating a world. I start by generating identical features of an show called ¡°Akame ga kill¡±.


    In the beginning, I always possess the MC or make my own original character then I interact with other characters and make changes where I felt necessary.


    In a sense, I completely take over his/her life and use it to do whatever I want.


    Now, most people would argue that it''s all in your head so why should we care. It''s like a trashy neet who lived his whole life torturing his parents and has a crush on every beautiful girl he sees and he uses her for his sexual fantasy or imagination whatever you may call it, to fap.


    Now back to the question of why would people care what goes on my mind. The Short answer is that they don¡¯t and the long answer is also they don¡¯t. But the important point is that I should believe that my worlds to be real somewhere.


    However, I don''t care what anybody thinks or feel about my actions and it''s also not like I''m a neet!! I properly go to university, socialize, study etc.


    The point is I consider myself to be above those life sucking slugs who think themselves to be the only ones who can be reincarnated.


    Well according to my research the ratio of people who tend to reincarnate are mostly people who were always at the bottom of the food chain and may deserve a second chance in life while I''m against it.


    Though all I do is create my own fantasy world, the truth is I''m preparing myself If I ever receive the honor of reincarnation. But for that to happen I would need to die first. Hence, I always train myself in every possible situation I can encounter in the other world. The reference materials I use for my investigation are of course light novels, various anime series, and mangas.


    Now back to my fantasy world, I pretty much follow the same pattern in all of my fantasy worlds, live the life of the possessed character my way, fall in love (that''s important), get loved (that''s also important) and in the end ¡°Die¡± like in any other world and universe.


    But, in reality, doing this doesn''t accomplish anything. Or does it? Sometimes, I also tend to forget some of my memories of other world personas.


    As I have gone deeper inside my inner conscious pondering the reason for my existence in this world. I suddenly hear the creaking sound of a door opening and voice of my summoning.


    (IS THIS IT? AM I FINALLY BEING CALLED UPON?)


    Suddenly, I perceive someone''s presence inside my room. It''s like the flow of time has slowed down as I observe her. With the silhouette showing her bountiful curves, definitely confirms that she must be a woman of beautiful appearance.


    With me being hypnotized by her bewitching appearance, I suddenly feel extreme pain with heat pouring inside my abdomen. Terrified, mystified and feeling happy with an orgasmic expression completely defines my current condition.


    I obviously had been stabbed and even an idiot like myself have understood this. Normally a person should feel extreme hatred towards this mysterious intruder who had stabbed him. But what I''m feeling is anything but hate.


    It''s not making any sense, I''m currently dying, my bed has completely dyed red with my own blood and I''m feeling ecstatic and satisfied. It''s like I don''t know myself anymore and it''s the worst feeling when you don''t know yourself and your dying.


    Barely maintaining my consciousness, I hear her speak.


    ¡°Focus, you have to fight it!!¡±


    "I WILL DEFINITELY SAVE YOU"

 In the mind

    ~Ahmad''s point of view~


    "Ahmad¡±


    This name!


    I¡¯m being called!


    But by who?


    ¡°Ahmad¡±


    With my conscious blurred and all my senses numbed. I feel nothing, however, the pain from getting stabbed had etched into my very soul. Wait. How am I still able to process my own thoughts? I should be dead.


    While pondering upon the return of my consciousness, an unknown amount of time must have already passed and I can feel a faint connection with a body. I also feel that slowly but surely, all of my senses were returning. Moreover, I can detect that the creation of this body is reaching its final stage. I also notice that my new body is in humanoid form. But then again a question arises, how was this body being made? Why and how am I reincarnated and it was after being stabbed by the mysterious beauty. I mean who stabs a person they met for the first time. My previous self had parents and two sisters who cared deeply for him. I believe they must have had been devastated with his death.


    Ahhhhhrggggghhhhh


    Ahhhhhhh


    A loud inaudible scream left from the very core of my being. A pain so unbearable that made obvious connection that this body is indeed mine, otherwise why would I be feeling this kind of hell. God just let me die. If I had known beforehand that getting reincarnated will result in this level of pain than I would never have wished for it. Come to think of it this is a lot different from what I had read about reincarnation. This feels like a combination of reincarnation and getting summoned.


    I have two theories regarding the hell I''m experiencing right now, it''s because either I''m receiving a large amount of data from my surrounding environment or from the development of my own body. I have no idea how and why I''m getting this amount of information but I just hope that this moment of hell passes soon.


    This huge amount of information had almost overloaded my mind and senses which made me insane.


    This stinging pain is like when a new skin is exposed to the environment due to a deeply exposed cut or when a body is sunburned, however, the level of pain I''m experiencing is hundreds or thousands times more deadly. Is my new body really human? It doesn''t feel like it. Fuck, I had at least wanted a body that''s more reliable and stronger than my previous one.This book was originally published on Royal Road. Check it out there for the real experience.


    Looks like my body is still not able to withstand this type of immense data at once. Hence, my first and utmost priority is to get used to this body, grow and adapt to this world''s environment and understand my own body.


    Once, I have gotten my priorities straight, I decided to first block the excess and useless information. With that done, I attempt to finally open my eyes to observe my current situation. There are many possibilities for the type of current scenario I''m in like I could be in a womb or an egg taking in consideration my body had been developing.


    Suddenly, I started gasping for oxygen as though I had been drowning in water. Moreover, my breathing also got worse over time and I was heavily panting. If it wasn''t already obvious, until now, I had no need to breathe to survive. Again, I''m left with more painful questions than peaceful answers. After some time, my body slowly stabilized itself.


    ¡°what is up with these past events, first there was darkness, then the creation of my body, then there was a hell of pain and now my body requires oxygen.


    As soon as I opened my eyes, a bunch of fully armored guys stood before me. let''s call them the guardians of my tomb. Hahahaha


    (what the hell)


    It seems like, I have been completely surrounded from all sides. Frankly, this development has completely taken me by surprise plus, I don''t have any information for me to go by and make a sensible decision. Hence, my priority is to gather as much information and knowledge as possible.


    From the looks of it, I had arrived in a very ancient place. The area around me is quite dark and as far as I can see there are a lot of old architectural designs.


    Let''s check my own situation. I look down and assess my own body. (It looks to be human of approximate age 15). The guard''s expression dropped with each passing moment as I inspected the capabilities of my own body. I perform a variety of actions including some simple body movements (arms up, arms down, sit ups, push ups, etc.)


    As I am performing these motions, I feel like I''m mimicking ¡°Perfect Cell¡± from Dragonball z, a scene where he had just achieved his perfect form, then he began testing his body while paying no heeds to his audience.


    Now onto the main question. How can I get out of this situation without harming anyone? At this stage, it''s clearly a difficult task for me to accomplish as I have yet to understand my own powers and its limitations.


    In any case, I have to start moving, my mysterious body has given me great confidence in myself.


    The guardians in the room had been silent for quite some time and from the looks of their expression, I can see that they are terrified from my presence here. They definitely see me as some kind of monster or a demon lord.


    (wait, what should I say? How will they react? Anyways let''s start by asking for their superior.


    ¡°Excuse me, I bear you people no harm. Who among you is the superior? ¡° I talked proudly, like owned the damn place.


    ¡°~~Dear~~*¡± Hearing such sweet, intoxicating voice, immediately sends alarm bells to my mind.


    Well now, this is some nice development. Finally, a plot event which I wholeheartedly look forward to.

 Real Life Yandere? (Version 2) Rewrite

    In extraordinary speed, I swiftly looked around searching for that bewitching voice. Faster than I could sense her presence, I felt a hand on my chest.


    ¡°I have finally found you!!¡± A woman in her twenties says that with tears in her eyes and expression heated up.


    She was top to bottom fully covered in pitch black robes that completely hides her sexy figure and only her hands and face are visible. Her hair is also covered by a gorgeous black scarf with pure white horns extruding from her head and forming a tiara.


    ¡°Found me?¡± I replied, completely baffled by her words.


    ¡°Yes! My dear ~~Hus~~ba~~nD~~¡± she proclaims while having a depraved expression which she immediately hides with an innocent smile upon noticing my bewilderment.


    Judging by her aura alone, she is like the embodiment of darkness itself, creepily invading into my soul with her alluring voice.


    Unaware of my inner turmoil, she starts to entrap me with her body while slowly giving me a warm hug and whispers into my ear. ¡°I had missed you ~~Dear~~¡°Immediately sending electrical jolts in my brain.


    The is beyond the level of being called abnormal and after listening to her words, my body immediately starts to relax. It''s like my body has stopped responding to me because of her charm or aura.


    She also kept holding on to me for a while, which felt like an eternity to me. She must have also noticed my heartbeat. ¡®Gosh, I¡¯m so embarrassed.¡¯


    Letting go of my naked body after a brief body contact. She begins to encircle around my body as if to inspect every part of it. Maybe she appreciates the muscles or the physique.


    Even though I was creeped out by her actions, I wanted nothing else but to be with her. Moreover, my eyes were also unconsciously being drawn towards her body. The right reaction, you would expect from a virgin.


    While intensely staring at her figure, I thought ¡®she must have curves in all the right places. Even though I can¡¯t see them. A man can still dream right and it''s just better to have faith.


    Noticing my wild gaze filled with lust, she licked her lips seductively. This scene makes me want to play the submissive, even though I prefer being the dominant one in a relationship.


    Embarrassed with my lack of self-control, I started to look around and do my best to only focus on the surrounding environment. The darkness of the room was also steadily decreasing, clearly indicating that I¡¯m gradually beginning to see things more clearly in the low light environment. Moreover, with the Improvement of my eyesight, I could also see the horrific scene that I wish had stayed hidden.


    Seeing the walls and the floor covered in so much blood that itmakes me really wonder, how was I able to do ''warm-up exercise'' in front of these guardsin this kind of place? Was I always this insane? Nonono, I think Initially my body''ssense of taste, vision, touch, smell, and hearing had yet to fully developed. So, I couldn¡¯t realize that I have been standingat this bloodbath.


    That''s the only logical explanation of my actions otherwise it''s just absurd.Therefore, I first prioritized in improving my eyesight as an effort to be fully aware of my immediate surroundings and look out for any danger.


    Anyways, the gore and graphic scene had almost made me want to vomit multiple times already. Furthermore, some blood stains were found beneath me on weird symbols drawn in white.


    Figures, if you want to summon a demon than sacrifice is necessary right! I''m surprised, that I can be unusually calm in this kind of messed up situation. Preparing for the worst, I tried to look for the possible body of the victim and soon a terrifying sight was unveiled for me to witness. A corpse of a girl younger than I could say lied silently in the blind spot of my vision, completely dyed in blood. Hence, the blood had essentially camouflaged her entire body with red making her body nearly impossible to find itwithout focusing on this spot.


    Witnessing the aftermath of this tragedy must have triggered an intense unconscious emotional response which has made it tough for me to process my thoughts and start my next course of action. I''m undeniably terrified by this development and want nothing else than to get out of this fucking situation. But, if I am right then that poor girl was sacrificed just to summon me in this world. Now that is fucked up.


    The current situation clearly shows that I did not reincarnate but got summoned by someone or should I say in my case someone forcefully kidnapped me from my previous world.


    So, under all these circumstances, should I just ignore all these apocalyptic level danger signs and just follow this beautiful Onee-chan who claims to be my wife and enjoy my new life in this fantasy world with her. Yes, I had wanted nothing more than to just enjoy this new gift of life. However, now gift feels more like a curse


    Yeah¡­. Who cares that I was murdered in my previous life and that young girl had to be killed so that I could be summoned to this world just because she might have been lonely and wanted to be with her husband. This is the definition of a messed up psychotic demon woman in love.


    And the more obvious question, why does she know me and claim to be my wife.


    Is she an immortal. Or does she have memories of her past life?


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    My mind is constantly being filled with a lot of unanswered questions. Another bad habit of mine that needs to be controlled.


    Frustrated, with my lack of action ¡°TO HELL, with all this SHIT. You! Why the hell? did you had to kill her!¡± I abruptly decide my course of action i.einterrogatethis psychopathic Demon!!


    ¡°fufu, I do also like this version of yours¡­. Yes, I do indeed¡­ Too adorable even when if the present you have no memories of our time together. In our married life, we used to massacre these damn humans whenever we felt like it.¡± She cheerfully explained that I too used to kill people. Should I just believe her words like that?


    ¡°And if you specifically ask me why this human was killed, then it''s simply because it was an Ingredient necessary for the sake of summoning your soul into your previous body.¡±


    ¡°Ingredient for the sake of reviving me???¡± Frustration and anger plainly showed in my tone and obviously, I was completely flabbergasted with hearing her confirm my guess.


    ¡®huh, no wonder, so they don''t value human lives.¡¯


    ¡°It can''t be that you are upset over the life of one human. Well no matter, in time you will learn that not everyone is as innocent as you might think and in the first place you were originally a hero of humanity who had fought us demons for decades until in the end, we demons ended up losing t the war¡±


    ¡°Me the hero of humanity! That sounds kinda cool. So, in my past life, I was in the fantasy world.Waitstop STOP. That''s confusing as fuck. My past life was on Earth, which was abruptly cut short by certain someone¡­¡­..¡±


    Ah, I forgot to ask the most vital question.


    I slowly ask the question ¡°were you the who killed me in my previous life?¡± while adding extra emphasis on each word.


    ¡°Killed you? Previous life? Hmm, so that''s what had happened! No, My Love. I have not harmed you nor will ever allow anyone to harm you¡±


    ¡°Huh, what? Then who? I was pretty sure that it was you who had killed me¡± Again, I¡¯m astounded with this proclamation.


    ¡°Your granddaughter¡±


    ¡®huh¡¯ ¡®Come again¡¯


    ¡®What the fucking fuck, holy fucking crab¡¯


    ¡°Are you kidding me¡± It''s like my brain has just short-circuited.


    ¡°Yeah sorry, just teasing you¡± She shows her tongue out.


    ¡°It may have been your granddaughter ¡®Natael¡¯ the second princess from the human''s side who had killed you. Well, you can ask her about it yourself. She and our daughter ¡®Ceamin¡¯ collaborated with me to revive your soul.¡±


    The more I listen to her side of the story, the more I feel lost in her words as if, I¡¯m being sucked along her pace. Moreover, I just realized that I was supposed to be angry at her for the senseless killing of an innocent young girl.


    [Boom]


    While we were talking, there was a loud sound of a blast which broke of glass with short extreme vibration in the building. According to the intensity of the sound and the incident may have occurred near our location.


    ¡°Any idea of what could have made this loud noise, are we being attacked?¡¯


    ¡°Wow so preceptive of you. Yes, we may have been attacked by a human adventure party, probably because they are here to stop your revival process and rescue their party member. The dead girl which you had already met. Remember¡±


    ¡°But, then why are they so late?! Well anyway, I wanted to ask you about the strength and weakness of this body¡± I am genuinely upset, that she was sacrificed because of me but my initial anger and frustration towards this lady has already faded away.


    ¡°Weakness of Hubby, oh don¡¯t worry. Even in an inexperienced state, you are more than a match for them. Just use the mana stored in your body violently, as there is no need for you to use a strategy to win a fight against them.¡±


    ¡°I forgot to ask for your name and Where are we currently?¡±


    ¡°Oh hubby, your soo ~~~~Sweet~~~ its ¡®Lyiemlia¡¯ and we are currently inside a cave found in the mountains of icy tundra, North of the demon capital¡±


    ¡°Ok¡­.ay, so let''s meet these adventurers¡±


    Under the impression that this world is a typical fantasy world then it must have magical elements to it. Moreover, considering that I''m was summoned into this world than I should have some sort of secret power or a cheat to survive in this world.


    Betting on this assumption, I try to tap into this hidden or untouched potential trapped within my body by focusing in y heart. That''s where most of the mana should be found.


    In no time my body began emitting extreme heat and I could feel great strength rising from within my body.


    After Regaining some control over the body. I immediately attempted to use teleportation. Which spoiler alert, obviously had failed.


    Finally, noticing my failed attempts. The¡®Lyiemlia¡¯ looked amused with my struggle to use mana properly


    ¡°Wow, ~Aron-sama you can do it. Just feel the mana inside and it will guide you. After all, you are the true ruler of Demons ¡­¡­¡­. ~Demon king~"


    I try my best to ignore her bombshell of a statement and stop being upset over my first failed attempt. Once again I attempt to gather mana but this time, around my legs and try to run as fast as I possibly can. This also failed spectacularly as fell on my face.


    However, it feels like my every struggle will be for naught as I can sense her guiding me with her aura. After gathering mana for who knows how I long. I move forward!!


    Like a stretched spring finally being released, incredible pressure erupts from within my legs. Moving past all the guards as they stood frozen still on my path, I blast towards the door which seems to be the exit of this room and I crashed at the door. ¡®Nice as expected of me¡¯


    Looking at her figure from the corner of my eyes, I could see her standing there to appreciate and genuinely happy with my efforts.


    It was hard to believe that she can be this loving and so cruel at the same times.