《Back At One》


 Devin: Again

    I miss youechoed over and over again in my head. He leftusfor someone else and now he claims that he "Miss me" I wanted to laugh in face but I knew that I would be lying if I did. The truth is thatI miss him too.We was together for four years before the break up and I cried over him every night until just now and when I decided that it''s time to for me to move on here he is at my doorstep telling me this. I stood there looking at him like he is fucking up thing about all of this is shit. I stood there looking at him like he is fucking crazy "Did you hear me?" he asked I nodded "Yeah but I think you''re fucking capping" I said as I started to close the door in his face " D wait" he said "You don''t get to call me that anymore" I yelled then I slammed the door in his face I started to cry and slowing sat on the floor and leaned against the door he called me D that''s my nickname that he gave me it''s short for Devin. I sick of crying, begging, forgiving, andwanting himthe fucked up thing is the nigga was my world for four plus years of my life. I gave to him and he fucks me over for some bitch that he just met. After crying for a hour I got up and looked at my phone he called me fifteenth times while I was crying. I got up and got in the shower . When I tried to fall asleep my phone went off so I rolled over to see what it was it was him again this time it was a text that readI''m not leaving til u talk 2 me"What?"I thought as I jumped out of bed went to my window he was sitting there on my steps smoking like he always did when he waited for me. I looked at my phone it was twelve a.m. I opened my door just enough for him to hear me "You need to go Shawn" I said. I finally build up the courage to say his name "Not until I see him" he said as he turned to look at me "He''s not here he''s at my mom''s" I said coldly "How could you not tell me?" he asked I opened the door more "I was going to the day you left me for her" I said he got up and walked to the door "I''m sorry about that and for not being there for y''all I moved with her and that was the biggest mistake of my life Devin I miss you and I want to meetourson" he said as he reached out for me I stepped back and signed "Go home Shawn" I said before I closed the door then I heard the phone rang it was my mom "Hey mom" I said "Heyyyyy Dev" she said follow by a laugh "Mom are you fucking drunk right now?!?!?!" I yelled as I grabbed my car keys "Noooo baby of course not....... Ok fine your son is tooooooo much like youuuuu he won''t shut up all he does is fucking cry" she said I heard him crying in the background "Fuck mom why now out of all fucking times now you want to pull you''re shit" I said when I rushed out and hung up "Come on your meeting your son" I said as I rushed passed him.If you stumble upon this narrative on Amazon, it''s taken without the author''s consent. Report it.

 Shawn: Holding Him

    My heart was racing when I saw her again she is my whole world and more. She had my first child I wanted to be there but I couldn''t. I didn''t want to but I had to my past was coming back to hunt me I had to leave and if I didn''t she and my son would had been killed. If I told her that she would have came with me "Talk to me please" I said while we was in the car she looked pissed and her eyes was starting to get red she was crying and she hated crying in front of me. All I wanted to is hold her and sing our song her ear until she felt better. She pulled up to her mom''s house it was the still the same all this time "Come on the bitch still get drunk and he has my....our  son" she said as she turned the car off "Wait, why would you leave him with her?" I yelled as I got out of the car she followed "I have nobody eles nigga. You wasn''t around I lost most of my friends and the others are at work" she yelled back "What about daycare?" I asked "Closed it got burned down" she said as she walked up the steps and took out her keys. When she opened the she ran upstairs where the cries was coming from and I followed her. When I got upstairs her mom was passed out on top of my son he was crying out for air Dev pushed her mom off and picked him up calming him down "Shhhhhh my little prince mommy is here" she said as she rocked him he started to calm down "What is his name?" I asked she looked at him "His name is Saa" she said as she walked up to me "Hold him for me will you? I have to handle this bitch for a mintue" she said I nodded and tooked him in my arms "Watch his head" she addded before she went to handle her mom and that monment he opended his eyes he has my light brown eyes and nose. To top everything off he smiled at me like he knew who I was "Mom I don''t want to you around me and Saa EVER AGAIN" I heard Devin say to her mom after fixing herself and walks out door I followed her with our son in arms "He is six months old you didn''t miss much" she said coldy when she took her mom''s house key off her keychain and threw it far away "I can help you with him if you let me" I said as I looked at him I felt her look at me with her dark brown eyes "Yes that would great you are his father" she said I looked at her she still looks sexy with her wild curly hair that she fight with in the moring she had no make-up on she looked like that before she went to bed and when she wake up she had a baggy black shirt with matching shorts and to top it off she had her Gir slippers on "Thank you Devin I will be there no cap" I said she smiled at me and walked to car. When we got to the car she took him from me they felt empty without him in them "I''m showing you how to put him in his car seat so when you you take him you''ll know what you know what you are doing when you pick him up and drop him off" she said as she started to strap him in the car seat I was so fucking lost she was telling where did everything go but all I can do is look at her ass and her body it was a lot for me to handle. When she was done she looked at me she caught me looking at her "You was lost the whole time wasn''t you?" she asked me "Fuck ya how am I supposed to foucs when your dressed like this you know what your body does to me" I said she hit me like she always did "Don''t cuss around my son" she said as she closed the car door when she started to walk away I wanted to grab her and kiss her on her soft lips and tell her that I love her. The author''s narrative has been misappropriated; report any instances of this story on Amazon.

 Devin: His Son

    The ride back was quiet I saw him looking at Saa with sadness in his eyes Saa was sleep he has the cutest smile. "When was you going to tell me?" Shawn asked breaking the slience "Honestly, I wasn''t going to tell you anything about him" I said coldly he looked at me "Why? You was going let him grow up without his father?" he asked I stopped at the light and looked into his eyes "No Saa was going to know about you every night before he goes to sleep I sing him our song and tell him about you. You on the other hand was going to never know about him because I was procecting him from the heart break like you gave to me" I said as I was fighting back tears the light changed so I started drive again "Pull over yo" he said coldly "Why?" I asked "Pull the fuck over Devin NOW!" he yelled "Ok Ok fine don''t wake him up" I said as I pulled over on the side turned the car off and looked at him. Shawn''s eyes looked sad about what I said "Shawn I know what I said was fucked up but do you blame me for acting like this" I said "Get out the car" he said "No my son is in here are you crazy my nigga" I said he turned the car on and out down the windows "Now he has some air and we only in front of the car" he said as he turned the car back off and took the keys out "What the hell Shawn" I said as he got the car he walked around the car and opened my door "Come on" he said as he unclicked my seat belt "Really Shawn" I said he stood there and looked me with his "I''m deadass" look "Fine you win" I said then I got out of the car he closed the door behind me. I sat on the hood of the car and he stood in front of me with his arms crossed "What?"I asked "You hate me or something?" he asked me "No I don''t hate you Shawn trust me I tried"I said It would only love you even more  "When did you found out?" he asked "The day you left I was going to tell you but you told me you was leaving so I didn''t say anything" I said The author''s narrative has been misappropriated; report any instances of this story on Amazon.


    "I would have never left if you told me Dev" he said as he reached for me I moved "So if a child wasn''t involed you have stayed huh?" I said "I didn''t want to leaving in the first place Devin you have to believe me" he said "Bullshit! What she wasn''t better then me" I yelled "I never left you for someone else Devin it was to procect you and I''ll do it again over and over if that means procecting you and Saa" he said and then he give me the keys "I love you Devin and Saa I will procect y''all until the end of time" he said then he walked away and got in the backseat. What did he mean about that?