《His Soul & His Shame》


 His second choice

    I groaned loudly hearing the sounds of banging from my door. I know who is trying to take down that door so I choose to not answer and let myself take time to sleep. Ugh! Why is life so hard, am I the only one who is suffering in this world? He even won''t let me sleep in peace.


    "Fay! open the door or else I will break it down."


    "What the hell! Ezra. Go to your house and break every damn door in your house."


    "you know iam being serious Fay if you don''t open your Damn fucking door right now, iam gonna break it down and get you."


    "Do whatever you want to Ezra, if my mom finds out who broke down her precious door then your dumb ass will be dead," I yelled knowing this will waver him but Nah, Ezra is Ezra and he never listens and he never backs down from anything. "Do you think using your mom''s name will waver me, baby girl? Hmm?" I can hear his smirk and smug smile from his deep ass voice. Who can resist Ezra''s charms?


    He can easily make me a poodle with this deep sexy voice and totally with himself. I hope God will give me resistance this time.


    I forgot to introduce myself, Hi iam Fay Moore 20 years old Normal girl whose best friend is the big bad boy Ezra Irwin. Who currently is banging on my door in the early morning at 4 am.


    It means I need to save him from someone or something. Why? Just why iam the only one who has this best friend.


    I sighed before getting up from the bed adjusting my long t-shirt and yeah it is his t-shirt which I stole from his wardrobe. The t-shirt drowned me in it and iam wearing panties under it.


    "stop trying to break my door Ezra, iaming have some patience," I yelled before going to the door to open it.


    "That''s what she said, baby girl." Heughed to himself. It took a second to understand what he meant.


    " ughhhh, shut up Ezra. If you don''t then I''ll bang your head on the same door." I threatened knowing he will shut up because he knows I will do whatever if iam angry.


    "Okay, okay iam sorry now open the door."


    ..." I gulped my words before spitting them out because he is going to tease me again for that word.


    I opened the door and stood folding my hands and ring at my tall, olive-skinned, tattoos covering his half of the body with green and gold eyes stumbled through my door andnded on me. "Hmph, move you, dork. You are so heavy." I grumbled before pushing him off of me.


    "you are looking cute." "What?"


    "You are looking cute in my t-shirt like a small chubby baby." He eyed me sitting on my bed, staring at me from my head to toe. It Is making me squirm and ufortable in a good way and tingles ran through my body. Is it okay to feel like this for your best friend?


    I am not going to say that first I wanted him as my friend and as days and years went by I wanted him as more than a friend. No, I always wanted him as more than a friend. He was my first crush and first love. We met when I was 5 years old and he was 7 years old.


    I always saw my parents so in love and always wanted what they had and have. I said my first I love you to a boy when I firstid my eyes on him and that boy was Ezra but my parents and he took it as a joke and I always tried to give a hint to him that I feel more than a friend but he always brushed it aside.


    "Whatever, what are you doing here in the 4 am banging on my door and drunk your head off," I asked throwing daggers at him with my eyes.


    "Nothing, I just wanted to see you. You know I missed you, Fay." He said bncing his body with his two muscr hands and looking at me with vulnerability. And I know that he wants to run away from this reality and his house. "Did they fight?" I asked knowing the answer.


    "yes, they fucking always do. It''s not new." He muttered with a low growl.


    I didn''t say anything anymore because I know he didn''t want to be questioned about it.


    I know what I have to do right now. I am doing this for the past 15 years. I sat beside him and side hugged him and he rolled his head on my shoulder. I am surrounded by his chocte smell. I love it so much that I brought the cologne he


    uses.


    I slowly removed myself from him andid on the bed turned my back on him and I know he will follow me and he did. Heid too on my bed, pulling me towards him spooning me, and burying his face in my neck.


    This is so difficult for me because he may not feel anything but I felt every single thing. We were glued to each other and I can feel every single part of his.


    I know I can''t me him because it is not his fault that he can''t see me more than as a friend.


    I don''t want this to end, I want this forever but some wishes nevere true. His mobile vibrated in his jean pocket. He took it out muttering low profanities and answered his ringing mobile.


    "Hmm?"


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    "Okay, iaming babe."


    My already shattered heart broke some more because I know where he is going and what he is gonna do. I don''t have a right to stop him because iam nothing more than just his friend and a girl who loves him more than her self but he never understands it and iam tired of being the second choice and I choose not to be a second choice this time.


    He peeled himself off of me and Iam already missing his warmth. I hugged my teddy so hard that Iam afraid it is gonna tear.This is from N?velDrama.Org.


    "sorry Fay, I have to go." He said sounding genuinely sorry but I don''t want him to apologize anymore.


    "I don''t want you toe to my room at these hours Ezra. I hope you understand." I croaked out not wanting him to see me all broken for a man who chooses someone above me.


    "we will talk tomorrow baby girl." He said not believing that iam serious.


    " No, just no. I am tired." I said, I want to yell at him for leaving me for her and going to her but I am done with him and everything.


    "Good night baby girl, sleep well. We will talk tomorrow I promise." He said while kissing my forehead and leaving me again broken but this time I don''t feel hurt anymore because I have already given up on him.


    Tomorrow he will see a different Fay, whose world doesn''t revolve around Ezra.


    With those thoughts, I slipped into a dreamless sleep.

 Pushing Him Away

    I woke up feeling so much worse than when I went to sleep. I dreaded today because I know Ezra wille straight from her to me and try to make me understand his reasons.


    Maybe before I would have understood his reasons but now they were just absurd to me.


    I just want to move on from him and his thoughts, it''s time I move on from my crazy one-sided love and make something for myself.


    I brushed my teeth and took a bath, I picked myself skinny jeans and a hoodie because the weather is cold today.


    I am in university and I love to cook and I want to start my restaurant someday. Ezra being the only son of Irwin multinational corporations he inherited his dad''spany and all and he started going to their office. When I went downstairs for breakfast mum and dad left for their works. Mom is a doctor and dad has a constructionpany, he builds houses and offices.


    We were not as rich as Ezra but we pass the rich vibe check. See I am still thinking about Ezra when I wanted to forget about him.


    I have one hour to reach my university and I always took my car. Sometimes Ezra drops or picks me up because she is also going to the same university. I just can''t take her name.This is from N?velDrama.Org.


    He met her at our university when he came to pick me up and after the second time he picks us up. I never questioned him or her but I stopped going with them or him.


    Today, I don''t want to see him or listen to anything. Maybe I am being overly reacting but I can''t help it.


    Besides Ezra, I have another friend whom I trust more than Ezra. She is Joanna and we were literally sisters in the form of friends.


    She knows my deadly one-sided love for Ezra and his indirect rejection of my advances and she hates him for it and as a person too.


    She thinks Ezra is an overly egotistical handsome Jerk, who thinks everything is easy. I don''t mind her words because Sometimes Ezra is like that.


    See my whole world and thoughts revolve around him, I need to stop thinking about him and should create my world.


    I took my car and drove it to the University. Joanna is waiting for me at the parking lot ying with her keys.


    "Hey, Fay! How are you? You seem dull!" She asked looking at my sullen face and puffy eyes.


    "Nothing, I am alright." I lied knowing that she will break Ezra''s bones if I tell her what happenedst night.


    "ughhh! Don''t tell me that jerk hurt you again, if so then I am going to break his neck once and for all." See this is the reason I don''t want to tell her.


    "Stop it, Joanna! Ezra didn''t hurt me in fact I didn''t meet him at all." I lied again so smoothly that I am afraid I am going to live my life telling lies. I shuddered at that thought.


    "you Are so bad at lying Fay so don''t even try lying for that prick." She red at me.


    "I am sorry! I don''t want you to get angry at him and from today I am going to ignore Ezra''s existence in my life. So don''t worry." I assured her this time she can hear my sincerity through my words and eyes.


    "I know Fay it''s just I care for you and I don''t want to see you hurt that''s it." Her tone softened and gave me a small smile.


    I returned her smile before dragging her towards the entrance of the building to start our day.


    Throughout the sses, my thoughts were revolving around Ezra and his reaction when I ignore him and it''s for the best for him and me because he can''t leave her, and I don''t want her in between us. So it''s better that I remove myself from his life.


    Joanna and I have the same sses and now we are in ourst ss of the day and I am dreading the after ss because I know for sure that Ezra will be here to pick us up precisely her.


    Bell rang pushing me out of my thoughts and the dread came back making me all nervous and anxious. I don''t want to see Ezra, why is this so hard.


    "Fay! Are you noting?" Joanna asked getting up from her seat.


    "umm, yes! Sorry." I said getting up from my seat too to go home.


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    "We don''t have any assignments so can we just hang out at the pizzeria for some time before we go to homes?" Joanna asked cheerfully without noticing my nerves which are ready to burst. I am tempted to decline her offer but it''s been so long that I didn''t hang out with her.


    "yeah! Sure, let''s go. We can take some time for ourselves." I said giving her an assuring smile.


    "Yayy, thank you, Fay it''s going to be so much fun and we can eat our favorite pizza too." Joanna is filled up with so much positive energy and enthusiasm.


    We have left our ssroom and already standing at the parking lot ready to take off.


    "what is going to be fun? And where are you going without taking me with you! Hmm?" I heard a voice that I never wanted to hear at all today or tomorrow or even the day after tomorrow but my luck is not on my side.


    I stood there with a straight face not showing any emotions on my face because there are so many things going on in my head and heart.


    Hurt, anger, jealousy were burning inside me seeing her on his arm and them standing together like a perfect couple in love.


    I hope I keep my cool, if not I am going to push someone so hard and break their noses.

 Persistent Jerk

    What is it in her that he can''t just get enough off of her? I can''t question it or doubt her because she never gave me a reason to doubt her. She always smiles at me and has that warmth in her eyes and this makes me not hate her as much as I want to. It is so hard to hate them both when I love one and another. I don''t know what I feel for her. She is not my friend and not an enemy.


    She is just someone who snatched away the guy I loved my entire life. I know Ezra doesn''t do rtionships or Girlfriends and he doesn''t even be with a girl for more than 2 months but she is with him for a whole year and still, they are together. "Stop putting your nose into others'' business Ezra, it''s not good." Joanna red at the handsome beast who I call my best friend who stood tall with his signature smirk on his beautiful face and dangling on his arm is the infamous "Mitchell Shelton" looking gorgeous as usual. She likes when people call her Mitch.


    She has electric blue eyes and blonde hair whereas I have Brown hair and Grey eyes. She has a killer body with abs where I have curves that are too much sometimes as now I am feeling insecure in front of them.


    "Who said this is other''s Business, Joey! This is Fay''s business so I will be the one who will always put his nose in it." He scoffed at the end like it''s absurd that Joanna has said something totally weird.


    Ezra is possessive over me, whether the opposite person is a girl or a guy. He never let people between us if I tried to befriend anyone or like some guy but as usual, he dates every girl on the and has friends in the entire world. This is one of the things I hate about him.


    "Hi, Fay! How are you? It''s like we met a long time ago." Mitch said with her sweet honey voice, see how I am thinking sweet things about her when I have to hate her.


    "Hey, hi Mitch I am doing great! what about you," I asked with a realistic fake smile I could muster up, and automatically my eyes turned towards him who was looking at me like I have done something wrong.


    "Hey, Ezra!" I greeted him too knowing he would say something if I won''t.


    "Hey yourself Faye and what are you guys nning?" He ordered as if he owned me or he was my dad. Yeah, he can be my daddy if he wants. The desperate voice in me voiced her thoughts in my head making me warm with embarrassment because of my thoughts and need for my best friend.


    "We are just nning to hang out, Ezra, it''s not a big deal. Stop being a jerk." I muttered moving towards my car to take off and leave their presence. It is making me nauseous.


    "youing, Joanna! Or do I need to go home?" I yelled out to her to make a decision and I know she will not let me go home now after I said what I said to Ezra. She is probably proud of me and Ezra is pissed.


    "Coming, wait up." She yelled back but I was stopped by a hand clutching my elbow and making me halt in my steps and forced me to face him. I know from the cologne who that will be. He never gives me any space.


    "What is that baby girl! Hmm? I clearly saidst night that we are going to talk today and now you are making ns with her." We were so close up right now that if one of us moved our lips will touch.


    "You are hurting me, Ezra," I said tears pooling in my eyes because of the pain he is crushing my arms and pain in my heart seeing him angry and being with her.


    "I am sorry baby girl, I didn''t mean to hurt you, I am sorry." He started apologizing repeatedly checking my arms and I nodded my head no and backed away from him.


    Did I tell you that Ezra has a short temper? No! Then yeah he is pretty short-tempered and it is his weakness. Anyone can rile him up easily.


    "it''s okay I am fine and there as I saidst night there is nothing to talk about and yeah you were being rude to Joanna earlier that''s why I said what I said," Disbelief can be seen on Ezra''s Face, this is the first time I am talking to him like this and I have to do this to remove myself from his life.


    Joanna and Mitch, we''re standing some feet away from us and I am seeing Mitch being so impatient and worried at the same time for the first time I have known her. She usually looks soposed all the time and this is new for me to see her like this.


    Did I and Ezra''s friendship bother her? Is she just being nice in front of us but is against our Friendship?


    Ughhh! My head is going to burst with all these thoughts.


    "I don''t care what I said or what you said but now we are going to talk and that''s final." He said before holding my hand ready to drag me towards his car.


    "Excuse me! Mr. Rude Ezra Irwin, you just can''t take my best friend away from me and force her to go with you." Joanna stepped in front of us ring at Ezra like she is going to kill him off.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    "I can do whatever I can miss Rude Joanna whatever and Faye is my best friend and she has only one best friend and that is me." Ezra countered Joanna and pulled me towards his car ready to throw me inside it.


    Mitchell is still standing where Joanna and she were standing before seeing Ezra with sad and longing eyes. Why is that look in her eyes! She has him then why is she looking like I was the lucky one but not her.


    "Ezra stop, Ezra! I said stop." He is dragging me to his car and Joanna is following us throwing fancy words towards Ezra but he gave a deaf ear to her words and dragged me.


    "I said to stop the F up Ezra and I am not going with you anywhere so leave." I pulled my hand from his hold and stood beside Joanna. Mitch moved from her spot making her face neutral like always and stood beside Ezra. Ezra looked at her like he is seeing her for the first time today like she is not here the entire drama he created. He had forgotten her because of his temper.


    "Sorry, but you are going with me, that''s final Fay." He opened The passenger''s door and signaled me to get in. He again forgot that Mitch is standing and waiting.


    "I do think you can boss her around Ezra, she is not that teenager or child anymore whom you have bossed all your life," Joanna said, gritting her teeth and standing in front of me and the car.


    "Ezra, please if you want to talk to her then let us all go somewhere." Mitch chipped in and I think it''s a good idea because Ezra is so persistent and stubborn no one can win against him in stubbornness.


    "I think Mitch is right," I looked to Joanna to understand and get in the car.


    "Okay, because you two are asking nicely, not like someone who is being so hard-headed." Ezra red at Joanna.


    "Ugh! Whatever." Joanna groaned and settled into Ezra''s car and Mitch sat beside her and I sat beside Ezra.


    I know where he will take us, we always go to the same hangout ce and I don''t even know what I want to talk to him about. There is nothing to talk about.


    It is so hard to push Ezra away and I hope no one gets hurt in the end.

 Purple Pizzeria

    "Purple Pizzeria" is the ce we alwayse to because it feels like home and they sell the best pizza you can ask for. The theme of the pizzeria is purple and the employee''s uniform is also purple. Purple is thest color in the Rainbow and but it looks so good and some say the color has a special meaning.


    I waited in my seat for Ezra to open my door, I am not particr about that but Ezra always insists that I wait for him to open my door, and now I don''t want to piss him off more.


    We all came out of the car and entered the pizzeria at once. I stood at the entrance looking for seats, trying to get us the best seats to enjoy our pizzas.


    "Come, let''s go, I have found the ce," Ezra said, taking my hand and guiding me to the backside of the ce.


    I am feeling so much awkward because of Ezra''s actions. Why did he hold my hand and not Mitch''s? It''s hard for me to be in this awkward situation.


    "I can walk and I have seen the ce, please leave my hand." I removed my hand from his and kept some distance between us. I can see Ezra''s jaw hardening at this. It doesn''t matter to me now. "Faye!" He threatened but I am not in the mood to listen.


    "Come, Joe! We will sit beside each other before Ezra forces us to not." I whispered in Joanna''s ear and we both giggled at that.


    I and Joanna hurriedly walked to the seats and took our ces beside each other and left two chairs for Ezra and Mitch.


    "What do you think you are doing Fay?" Ezra asked, cocking his eyebrow.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "umm, nothing, I just took a seat. What do you think I am doing?" I counter-attacked him and took the menu to check the pizzas.


    " seriously! Fay? I...." He is cut off by Mitch''s Voice.


    "


    ''I think it''s enough for Today babe, please sit." Mitch red at him while saying this.


    He grumbled something before he took his ce and sat in front of me.


    It''s been 10 mins since we ordered and waiting for it but I can feel Ezra''s res and it''s bothering me. I am feeling annoyed and turned on at the same time.


    I am clenching my thighs under the table because Ezra is looking angry and hot made me all worked up sexually.


    "Umm, I am going to the restroom." I excused myself before getting up from my seat and went to the restroom. I have to get the hell out of there if not there will be a poodle under the table.


    When I excused myself I saw Ezra''s eyes and in them, there was a knowing look that made me confused. What the heck did he know? I ignored that and went to the restroom.


    I calmed myself by sshing water on my face and took deep breaths to slow my heart and nerves. This is not good, so not good. I have to do something before I ruin our friendship and everything.


    Ughh why am I being like this, why did I have to feel something for my best friend and get hurt every time I see him with her or have to control my desires for him. It''s better to focus on one thing than everything at once. Finally, I can calm my nerves and myself. I dried my hands and fixed myself before exiting the restroom.


    "What the hell Ezra! You scared the hell out of me." I yelled, punching his arm trying to calm my racing heart. When I exited the restroom he was waiting for me outside the door leaning on the wall and it scared me. I thought some sick pervert was waiting there.


    "Hahaha baby girl, I am so sorry I scared you." He mocked, rolling his eyes.


    "It''s not funny, hard head, you scared me for real. I thought you were some pervert waiting for girls in front of the restrooms." Iughed at his disgusted expression.


    "Aha! Is that so? Let me show you how perverted I can be." He took his steps towards me slowly with a smirk. shit, why am I excited being in this situation! What is wrong with me? He''s my bestfriend and he has mitch. This is wrong, so wrong. "What happened baby girl? Why are you fidgeting! Is something wrong?" Ezra took some more steps towards me and asked with a smile in his voice. he is enjoying thispletely.


    "Stop Ezra, what do you think you are doing? I think we should head back." I stuttered trying to escape this situation.


    " ''I don''t think so and I want to talk to you and I can''t do that before your annoying friend." he scowled, talking about Joanna. she thinks the same about him I said inside my head.


    "Not again Ezra! there is nothing to talk about, so let''s go before Mitch finds us here."I said and turned to return but stopped by Ezra''s words.


    "So? let her find us, No one is more important than this, and stop running, talk to me," Ezra grumbled, caging me between his arms. I''m surrounded by his chocte fragrance which makes me crave it. please Ezra don''t do this to me, don''te this close to me. I can''t control myself anymore. my head is spinning with thoughts and his smell and warmth.


    "Please talk to me, baby girl. What happened to you? Why are you ignoring me? Did I do something wrong! If so, please punish me by pping me or by buying whatever you want with my card but please dont ignore me." I can hear desperation, longing, and sadness in his voice but I can''t let him do this to me again.


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    "you did nothing Ezra, I.... I just want some space between...between u...us. I mean we should take a break being friends." words ran out from my mouth and my eyes are closed because I can''t bear to see his reaction. "What did you just say? Come again, Fay! I think I heard something so absurd."


    "You heard everything right Ezra, I want a break. it''s so overwhelming." These words were so hard for me to utter to him. but I have to do this now for him, for me, for our friendship. he will never see me more than a friend and I can''t be just friends with him.


    "What is so overwhelming Fay? me or our friendship? just tell me so I can know too." Ezra is so close to me now, in the same position as before in the parking lot but this feels different from before.


    "I just want a break, Ezra, please!" my words are mere whispers now. our noses are touching and just with that my body is on fire and the whole damn zoo is in my stomach dancing.


    "I can''t baby girl, Ezra is nothing without Fay. please don''t do this." he pleaded but I have made up my mind and I''m not going to budge.


    "Sorry Ezra, this is for me. I have to do this. you may not understand now but you will understand this eventually." I whispered, closing my eyes inhaling his breath and he leaned some more into me making me hard to do what I am going to


    do.


    "I''m sorry Ezra." maybe onest time I can feel his lips on mine. I always wanted to taste him and feel his lips on mine but it didn''te to this. We both leaned at the same time. I can smell his chocte breath which I like and now I can taste it too.


    "E...Ezra! F...Fay?" we heard her stuttering voice, Ezra moved aside like I''m burning him. This hurts so much. He said not minutes ago that nothing is more important than this. then why did he move because of her?


    "She will alwayse first and she is more important than anything. I regretted the decision I took but now it is clear that whatever I am going to do is best for me.


    I held my head high and didn''t make my tears fall and get wasted, so I excused myself from there. I am not interested in their drama. I have my life and my problems to think about.


    I will always be his shame, nothing more.

 Into His Arms

    It''s been two weeks since the pizzeria''s incident and I have been ignoring Ezrapletely. I have two reasons to push Ezra away from me, one being him seeing me as an only friend and the second reason! It has some time for it but it was the main reason I am being distant with Ezra.


    He is not good for me, I just can''t be just a friend to him other than being someone''s girlfriend. Ezra is the reason I never dated. When I was in school he threatened every boy in my school and fought with some and from then I decided to never try.


    Some may wonder why my world revolved around Ezra. When I met Ezra he was this lonely silent boy with hard features on his face. I didn''t understand why he is like that but as time went I understood why he has to be mature at an early age. Hees from a toxic family where the parents always fight with each other and don''t care for him. He doesn''t have anyone in his life other than his parents and he doesn''t know what true love is.


    I was always with him, no matter what. Ezra is so goal-oriented, passionate, and hard-working. I love these qualities in him. These things made me fall for him but now I need to get away from him to keep my heart safe.


    "Fay! Ezra is waiting for you downstairs. Come on." My mom knocked on my door. Everyone knows that I am avoiding Ezra and they didn''t ask me the reason why.


    "Ask him to leave mama, I am not feeling well." I copsed my body on the bed and covered it with the duvet.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    I was avoiding him at the University too when he came to pick Mitch up. I don''t want to see him, if I see him then I will melt easily. It''s better to be like this and I feel somewhat rxed because of not feeling anything other than numb. "Baby girl? Are you in?" I heard Ezra''s voice in front of my room and I sat upright in my head hearing him after this long. I have never been away from him ever. Tears pooled in my eyes hearing him, maybe I am being hard on him and myself. Am I too selfish to think only about myself? He doesn''t know how to love, why I am being so heartless now just because I love him more than a friend. I don''t know what to do but now I know what I have to do.


    I slowly took steps towards the door, tears streaming down my eyes and my hair is in disarray but I don''t care about my looks now. I just want to hug the hell out of him and inhale his deep rich chocte scent which I crave.


    I opened the door andunched myself into his arms hugging him so tight like my life depended on him and yeah in a sense it is dependent on him. He is my first andst love and I''ll never love someone as I love him.


    "I... am so... s... orry Ezra, s... sor... ryy." I cried in his arms huping and I don''t care if I am ruining his shirt, what means is me being in his arms surrounded by his scent and warmth. He is my home, this is enough for me for now. I don''t want anything for now but what I am gonna do is hard on me and him. I just hope everything will be fine atst.


    "Shhh..... Baby girl, it''s okay. It''s okay." His arms were around me and he buried his nose in my neck inhaling my scent and I know I am the calming effect for him but I don''t know if I am his home or not.


    "I will never push you away Ezra, I am sorry, and I.... I missed you so much." I cried out some more, uttering those words and meaning them. His arms around me tightened some more making me feel warm and rxed.


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    "I know baby girl and I missed you too and I am sorry for that day. I know you are embarrassed that day because of me but my intention was not that." He released me, looking at my teary-eyed face which is red due to crying finding answers for my actions.


    "It''s okay Ezra and please forget about it. I don''t want to talk about it." I moved towards my room after saying that it''s okay for whatever happened that day.


    "Hmm, okay." He hummed following me inside my room and sitting on my bed. My mind always ys dirty scenarios in my head whenever Ezra sits on my bed. I have to cleanse my head with holy water. I grumbled inwardly at my thoughts before taking the chair to sit in front of him.


    "so, what were you up to?" Ezra asked, looking at me with those Unique green eyes which are so deep and mesmerizing. I cleared my throat before answering.


    "umm, nothing! Just university stuff, what about you?" I asked knowing that he is busy preparing for one of the events held by hispany. His family owns an Ad agency and they manage every brand and the uing fashion event is themunching the winter clothes collection.


    "Same work and nning the event which is going to be on the 14th December." He removed his phone from his pocket which is vibrating non-stop.


    "Oh, yeah I forgot." I lied to show him that I don''t have any n to attend or interest. His face changed seeing the contents of the phone and his head is not here but on the person who sent texts and called him.


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    "uh! What?" See I already guessed it right.


    "Nothing, I said nothing Ezra," I said, giving him a small smile. Covering my hurt behind it. Maybe it is just a worktext or calls and not from the person I am thinking of. Still why I am bothered by it. I already made up my mind that I don''t care anymore. He is just my friend and nothing more. I will stick by it.


    "Okay but you areing to the event and I am not going to listen to any excuses and if you want to bring your annoying friend then bring her too." He grumbled thest part before standing, ready to leave.


    "But Ezra, I have tons of work and I can''te." I pleaded knowing it''s not going to work but still a girl can plead to save her life, haha note my sarcasm.


    "No way baby girl, I have already selected your dress and it will be delivered on that day and we are going to wear the same color." He hugged me before hurriedly running out of my room downstairs, not giving me any chance to say No or give him any excuses.


    Ughh he is so annoying, why do I have to get a best friend like him? It''s so tiring to attend Ezra''s rich events. I can''t even fake a smile at these events but this time I will have Joanna with me. It''s going to be fun with her and I can''t wait for it. I squealed before going into my room andunching myself on the bed and slept the day away.


    I hope everything goes as I think and smoothly without any problems. I am looking forward to this event.

 Ezras Guilt

    EZRA''S POV:


    (##Contains Mature Content##)


    18+


    I feel so guilty right now, I was supposed to be with Fay right now making up for thest two weeks which I lost because of my behavior but still, I am on my way to Mitch''s house.


    What is wrong with me, why I am so addicted to her and can''t get enough of her. If I try I can resist Mitch but I don''t want to. If I start resisting other girls then I will start to crave the only girl I don''t want to hurt or ruin with my stupidity and toxicity.


    Fay is everything for me and it''s my responsibility to keep her from bad people and bad things and I am one of them. I may look like a simple guy who runs a multimillionpany but I am into so many dangerous things and I need to keep her from those things and myself too.


    I was supposed to be with Fay watching a movie and having dinner together but when she ran into my arms and her body perfectly fit with my body, I lost control and buried my face in her neck inhaling her rosy scent which I love. I parked my car in front of mitch''s Apartment, I never take her home with me because I just need her physically not the other way around. I may sound like a jerk but that is who I am, that is who Ezra Irwin is and I am not going to change for anyone.


    I rang the bell and stood patiently for Mitch to open the door and she did open the door in nothing but only in lingerie I like with a seductive smile, hand on the door. She weed me biting her lips which will do so many amazing things to my body with them.


    I am already hard thinking about the pleasure I am going to get. Mitch is so good in bed and she knows what she is doing and how to please a man. Maybe that''s why I am addicted to her and can''t get enough of her.


    "I have been waiting for you babe, what took you so long? Hmm!" She pulled me towards her pulling my t shirt''s cor towards her room, walking with more sway tempting me to smack it.


    "I was stuck in a meeting and I had to finish it today." I lied because Mitch doesn''t like me with Fay. She never disagreed with me about Fay but I can see it in her actions and eyes that she doesn''t like my and Fay''s friendship. I am going to dump her when sheints about our friendship because nothing is more than Fay.


    "Uh! Uh! Come now, I missed you, babe." She pushed me on the bed and climbed onto me not touching me. I like her forey which makes me sigh with contempt without doing the main job.


    "I missed you too babe, nowe and show me how much you missed me," I said before her lips ced on mine, and we moved them together slowly before sucking on them feverishly like can''t get enough off it.


    Her body is moving along with her lip movements making me impatient to be inside her and break her into the half with my roughness. I rolled her onto her back still with our lips connected.


    I tore her bra and palmed her slowly emitting soft moans from her mouth, I untangled my lips with hers and dived for her neck, and left open-mouthed kisses before diving between her soft b**bs valley. I sucked on one of her b**b and palmed another and I gave the same attention to the other. I know how to please her and how to leave her wanting more.


    "Babe! pleaseeeeee." I can hear her desperation in her voice with want and need for a release.


    "what do you want Mitch? Tell me and I will give it to you." I teased some more resulting in her pulling on to my hair.


    "Babe please, you know what I want, please." She begged some more. I slowly make my way to her sweet spot pulling her panties down, kissing her inner thighs.


    "Ahh! Please, Ezra. More, I want more." Mitch pleaded breathlessly pulling me towards her dripping core.


    "I know Babe, patience is the key to heaven." I mocked knowing it will piss her off and blew some air onto her core teasing her.


    "


    if you don''t do it then I will do it myself, Ezra." Mitch threatened to get up from my hold but I tightened my hold and ducked my head and tasted her core with a quick lick of my tongue.


    "Yes, babe like that, please don''t stop." I hear Mitch''s pleading but everything is in dead mode. I sucked on it like I am thirsty and emptied everything from her dripping core like a hungry beast.


    Mitch''s legs be jelly with her climax, I didn''t give her a chance to rx before pushing my hardened member into her core and thirsting deep inside her, and rocking the bed.


    I never do skinship with any girl I sleep with and Mitch is not the exception.


    Her legs tightened around me due to my hard thrusts and I know she is enjoying it as much as I am. This is the time I feel rxed other than being with Fay. Fay! Her thought brought me a thrill to my body and I pick up my pace thrusting deeper thinking about the girl I am not supposed to think at this time when another girl is under me and I am inside her.


    My eyes got closed on their ording and her brown hair, curvaceous body, grey eyes, smile, and her rosy scent rewinded before my closed eyes like a movie and my body moved ording to the visions imagining the girl from it and I came so hard that I never been before and I can hear Mitch''s voice and her satisfactory moans filling the room.


    I removed myself from Mitch and went to the bathroom to clean myself and my head. This is so wrong on many levels. I need to do something before I ruin her.All content is ? N0velDrama.Org.

 Getting Ready With Joanna

    Finally, this is the day I am waiting for so eagerly. Today is the 14th and there is going to be Ezra''s event which he invited me to and we are going to wear the same color. When Ezra left my house that day I called Joanna to inform her about it and invited her on behalf of Ezra.


    First, she is reluctant to ept the invitation because she and Ezra''s enemy bond but I begged her toe with me and finally she epted.


    We decided to get ready at my house because it will be easy and Ezra called me to inform me that he is going to send someone to pick us up.


    Joanna and I are currently sitting in my room doing a skincare routine before the party and I am still waiting for my dress which is to be delivered by Ezra.


    "Fay! Do you think Mitch is going to show up today?" Joanna asked, massaging her face with something I don''t know. This is one of the reasons for making someone''s mood horrible.


    "Don''t you think joey that I don''t want to think about anything right now because I am in a good mood!" I grumbled ring at her.


    "Don''t call me Joey! I hate it." She scowled looking at me.


    "


    Same here, don''t ruin my mood with that. I hate it too." I scoffed before going to the washroom to wash up and start with my hair for the evening.


    When I came out of the washroom I saw Joanna examining something from the bag and it looked like a clothing bag! I went towards her and looked from behind her shoulder to check what she was looking at so interestingly. "Umm, what is that! Which got you stars in your eyes?"


    "Ahh! You scared me!"


    "Ugh! Stop Joanna, you heard meing out from the washroom."


    "No, I didn''t. I was busy checking out our outfits which are so amazing." She squealed out loudly before twirling me around.


    "what? Our outfits! But Ezra said he is going to send only mine." I asked confusingly before opening the bags.


    "yeah! Maybe he sent it by mistake, who knows?" She rolled her eyes going to the washroom to remove her face mask, grumbling something.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    I opened the bags in which the clothes are, and I could see two different colored bags sitting on my bag. One is referred to me as for baby girl and the next doesn''t have a name. I hurriedly removed everything from the bag and my eyes got bigger with surprise and amazement.


    There sits a wine-colored body con dress in my hands with crystals all along the dress looking so gorgeous. Tears gathered in my eyes seeing something so beautiful and rich.


    Truly Ezra has a taste, with a dress there are heels and a clutch of the same color and there is a small box in the bag and it looks like a jewelry box. I have so many things from Ezra, I like jewelry whatever it may be I just kike wearing them. "Oh my goodness! It''s so beautiful Fay, he seriously has a taste for everything." Joannapliments seeing the dress and the chain which has initials E & F in between a heart with diamonds.


    This is the best gift one can ever give to me. I will wear this all the time. Ugh, I am being so emotional right now. I may give a bear hug when I see Ezra tonight, I don''t care if he is the host of the event.


    "I think we should start getting ready, Fay! We just have two hours to go there." I am pulled out from my thoughts hearing Joanna.


    She got a ck color dress which was looking so good, shimmering in the light. She will look so beautiful wearing it. We started with our hair first to get us ready on time.


    I seriously don''t know that much about makeup skills so Joanna is the best in that department. Shepleted my hair in just 15 minutes and started on my face using all sorts of beauty products. "Please Joanna, don''t make me a clown, I don''t want people tough at me." I teased her knowing that she is going to rile up.


    "Seriously Fay! I am better than every makeup artist in the world and tonight you are going to be my star." She seriously needs to tone down her confidence, this girl sometimes thinks too much but she is the best girlfriend one could ever ask for.


    "I know I know, now please be quick we have to be on time." I can''t win over this with her.


    It took 1 and a half hours to finish everything, my hair is down and straight and my makeup is so light. When I came out of the washroom after getting into the dress, Joanna''s mouth was hanging open looking at me. I suddenly feel insecure and my head starts thinking about all possibilities of me looking ugly but seeing my expressions Joanna burst intoughter.


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    "Oh my God, Ha ha ha ha Fay, seriously! Do you think you look ugly?" She didn''t stopughing instead she pulled me to stand in front of the mirror. "You are the most beautiful girl in the world Fay. Don''t ever think you are not beautiful. Okay?" She is totally my best friend.


    "And I hate Ezra but as a matter of fact, he can''t control himself after he sees you like and......" I stopped her before she says something embarrassing. "shut up Joanna! We are just friends." I grumbled making a face.


    "Yeah, I know how you have dreams about him every night." She teased me, making me blush with embarrassment and shyness.


    "Oh my God Joanna, shut up! If not, I will tape your mouth." I threatened to re at her.


    "Okay, don''t ruin my makeup. I will just shut up but I am just stating facts." Ugh! This girl is never going to stop.


    "Thanks, Joe, you are the best. I love you." I said sarcasm dripping through my words.


    "I love you too, now wait for me to fix my makeup." She fixed her makeup and I heard mom calling from downstairs.


    "Yes, mama!"


    "You have a vehicle waiting for you to take you to the party Honey." Mom informed us about the vehicle.


    "Joannae let''s go, Ezra sent a vehicle to pick us up," I yelled from outside my room.


    "Yeah,ing, wait, just 2 seconds." She saiding out of my room running trying to wear her shoes.


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    "Woah! Easy girl, don''t sprain your ankle. We have to attend the party at any cost." Iughed seeing her expression of horror.


    "I can manage Fay, let''s go." She literally dragged me downstairs and out of the door. I yelled my goodbyes to my mom who sat at the kitchen counterughing at us. "Bye mama, love you."


    "Bye Mrs. Moore." We both yelled our goodbyes and we heard, " Bye, take care and enjoy." From mama.


    "Ahh! Stop dragging me Joanna, we are already outside of my house." I pulled my hand from her hand. Searching for the car which came to pick us.


    "Fay! Remind me how rich Ezra is?" Joanna said to my confused brain.


    "What! Why?" I asked.


    "Because he sent a fudging Limousine!" She yelled, twirling me to face it.


    "Oh my goodness," I eximed, exaggerating Ezra''s actions.


    He just exaggerates sometimes in everything. I already miss him a lot, I haven''t seen him since thest time he visited me to apologize other than that we just talked on the phone. The first thing I will do when I see him is to give him a bear hug and a thank you for the dress and chain.


    I will always cherish him and his things.

 His Betrayal

    I and Joanna sat in awe inside thevish limousine with big eyes and mouth agape because of its smell and richness. We took two sses of champagne which tasted sweet and bitter. I hesitantly took the ss when Joanna poured it for me. I don''t know if we are supposed to touch anything.


    "I think one ss is enough Joanna and I don''t think we can finish the entire bottle from someone''s car without their permission," I said, putting my ss aside.


    "Why are you so bored? Fay this is not someone''s car and this is not a car but a freaking limousine so we have to have champagne." she gulped the entire contents of her ss before going for some more.


    "I think that is enough joanna for now and we have to be on our best behavior so we can''t embarrass Ezra in front of everyone." I gave her a look saying it''s final.


    "Okay mom whatever you say." she mocked me before sulking and pouting. She sometimes behaves like a child and she looks so funny. We sat in silence until we reached the ce. The party is at a hall which is so big in our town and the credit goes to Irwins because they built it and gave it away to the charity where fundraising happens.


    We were ushered from the car and it makes me confused because there are no cameras and people outside the venue. It''s not like I want them weing us but naturally, there will be cameras and everything.


    "Umm, are we at the right ce?" Joanna wondered loudly.


    "I think so because I have read that the msg consisted of the party venue received from Ezra," I replied to her wondering.


    "But why is no one weing us?"


    "I am wondering the same thing, Joanna." I scanned my surroundings and looked at the man who is ushering us to move forward and asked him,


    "Excuse me! Is this the ce where Irwin''s event is taking ce?." I questioned.


    "Yes, ma''am you came to the right ce." He answered by gesturing us to enter a door that is dark by the way.


    "Umm, but why are there no cameras and people outside the venue, you know how parties and fashion shows are like." Iughed awkwardly asking him about it.All content is ? N0velDrama.Org.


    "Ma''am Mr. Irwin asked us to escort you from the back door so you can be safe without people crowding you and making you ufortable." He exined the reason why there was no one outside and we were being escorted inside from the back door.


    "Aww, How considerate! I don''t know if Ezra has a caring side." Joanna smirked after making thatment.


    "Shut up! Joey." I smirked back using her nickname which she hates the most and made her shut up.


    We sessfully entered the hall and the hall inside isvish with all the lights and people who wore expensive clothes and the rich smell.


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    My eyes scanned for Ezra and I know he will be wearing the same color as mine my heart raced on the thought of how he would react seeing me in this dress. Will he like it or will he not. Will he still have the friendly look in his eyes that he used to cover the look or the look in his eyes that makes me clench my thighs so hard with need?


    I want to see his reaction tonight. If he has the look which I am waiting for then I will confess my feelings to him and see what his reaction is. I know I will regret it if he rejects me but I need to do this, onest time before taking any type of decision.


    I took a deep breath before scanning the room once again for Ezra but I can''t seem to find him. I am tired of being searching for him and I am he hungry right now.


    "Joanna, there is no Ezra. Can we please go and find some food? I am so hungry." Iughed sheepishly at Joanna''s Expression.


    "We can''t stuff our mouths now Fay, we have to mingle first." Ugh! Food is before everything and I can''t let Joannae between me and my food.


    "You go and mingle with people, I go and mingle with food," I smirked at her ringly and went to find food instead of Ezra.


    I find food stalls at the back of the crowd and oh my God, there is everything from sweets to bread and everything. I took a te and took some sd first then some sandwiches and a ss of juice before looking for a ce to sit and eat peacefully.


    I finally found a ce and sat eating from my te and looking around checking out everything but I still can''t find Ezra. Where is he and why is he taking so long toe?


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    I finished eating half of my te and the fashion show has been running for a long time and Joanna joined me with her te in hand and sat down beside me. We were enjoying ourselves talking about how we will look in those dresses. There was an announcement at the end before the fashion show ended and the party starts.


    "Let''s wee Mr. Irwin and his date of the night." A man announced and I thought why is he saying Mr. Irwin and his date of the night? Instead of Mr & Mrs. Irwin? Maybe Mrs. Irwin didn''t make it today.


    Myughter died in my throat when I saw who Mr. Irwin is and who the date of the night is! How could he do this to me? How? How could he give me hopes to crush them in an instant?


    I never asked him for anything and I never asked him to invite me to this stupid event and never asked him to send me this stupid dress and chain. Then why?


    Why does he always break me? Why am I the only one who suffers in the end?


    Tears pooled in my eyes seeing them on the stage standing so close in matching outfits and with big smiles.


    I never asked for his lies and I never asked for this betrayal. Maybe this is nothing for him but for me this is everything.


    His eyes met mine and I didn''t wipe my tears, I want him to see them and feel the hurt I am feeling and I want him to know this time that he has hurt me and I am not going to forgive him this time. Maybe the decision I took is correct and it''s time to implement that. It''s time to save my heart more than anything.

 First Kiss

    I can''t see them all lovey-dovey with each other on the stage. I ced my te on the table and stood up to run away from there, from them and this damn town. I never knew this hurt this much. I am embarrassed because of his lie. I look like a fool in front of Joanna. She always warned me about him, about him making me a fool every time but I never listened. I am a damn fool.


    "Fay! Are you alright?" Joanna enquired seeing me sitting still.


    "Y... yes... s..." I choked out before running from the hall without looking behind and I can hear Joanna calling me but It feels like I am being choked there and I can''t breathe properly. I have to get away from them.


    I heard footsteps following me but I ignored them and ran faster to get away. I can''t stay there for more than a second. It is choking the life out of me.


    How can I be a fool, how can I be yed by Ezra? It is so embarrassing thinking that I had a chance with him and making my hopes high. I am just his friend nothing more and just a girl whom he pity.


    I shouldn''t have agreed toe here, and the main thing is I shouldn''t have epted his stupid dress and the chain he gave me.


    This time I hear footsteps catching up to me and I know who is it.


    " Joanna please I want to go home and don''t follow me," I yelled before adding pace to my steps. I am so embarrassed to face her. And I can still hear footsteps.


    "Joanna I said don''t follow me, please! You can call a cab and go home or stay and enjoy the party." I hear Only footsteps but no words from her. She is making me lose my temper with her silence.


    "Joanna!...." I turned around to tell her to go back to the party but Ie face to face with none other than the only person I don''t want to see right now.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    "You! Why are you following me?" I spat the words turning around to resume my running.


    "Fay! Where are you running to? Party hasn''t begun yet." Seriously, parties are more important than me! Important than my hurt and pride?


    "Do you think I care about the damn party after what happened?" I scoffed at his words.


    "I am sorry, you misunderstood the situation. I....." He started giving his empty excuses and I am tired of listening to them.


    "Please stop your empty words and excuses. I don''t care about anything. Do whatever you want to do Ezra." I replied scowling before turning around to leave his presence. "please Fay! Don''t do this, please for our friendship." Ezra whispered


    "Huh? Friendship?" I scoffed knowing very well how much value he had for our friendship. He moved his head up hearing me scoff and I can see his jaw hardening.


    "I am saying please if not for our friendship then for us...." He said moving towards me.


    "Stop! Stop right there Ezra Irwin, there is no us, not now nor ever." I said clenching my fists so hard trying to not lose my cool and punch this hard-headed handsome man. "Why? I know you like hearing it, Us." He said stressing Us mocking me.


    "I never said anything to you, Ezra, so stop being rude and go back to your girlfriend," I turned around ready to dash from there but luck was not on my side and I was rudely stopped by this giant man whom I thought of something more than everyone else.


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    He pulled me towards him into his arms holding my elbows and whispered in my ear" She is not my girlfriend baby girl and you know that I don''t do these things." My breath was caught up in my throat making it hard to breathe and making it hard to push him away.


    My heart and body were betraying me and listening to his whispers andmands. I resisted Ezra this long but now my resolve is slipping through my fingers. "Please......." I tried to resist but it''s of no use.


    "Use your words Baby girl, Hmm?" His hand came up from behind and locked around my neck putting me in a chokehold but not pressing it harder and his mouth near my ear.


    It feels so good to feel his warm chocte breath which is giving me tingles all over my body.


    "Ezra.... This is wrong, so wrong. You have a Girl...." I uttered those words with so much difficulty to get stopped abruptly by his finger which he ced on my lips. "Shhhh.... No more thinking about others. It''s just you and me." His words are raising my hopes for something impossible.


    "But...." I started only to be cut off by another voice which is hurt, angry, and sad.


    "Ezra!" The voice called with a shaky voice.


    But Ezra didn''t give me the chance to react before his lips were on mine and I am tasting his tongue and his lips molding with mine so beautifully.


    This is everything I dreamed of, everything I wanted but not now not in this situation when his girlfriend is standing some feet away from us seeing us kissing.


    I removed myself from Ezra and pushed him away and wiped my mouth as it disgusted me but it was the best kiss of my life. I will cherish this moment.


    "Go home baby girl and wait for me," Ezra ordered me. Does he think that I will listen to him after this, if he does then he is going to be surprised when he finds out I am not going to follow his orders anymore?


    "I don''t think so Ezra and go and exin to your girlfriend why your lips are on mine and smooching mine instead of hers." I mocked before turning around for thest time and deciding to numb my head and hurt tonight to not get hurt anymore.


    He is asking me to go home instead of telling her why he kissed me while listening to Mitch''s voice. He is making me his second choice again and her his first choice by going to her to exin.


    This was hisst chance but he chose her instead of me and now it''s my turn to choose what is right for me.


    I don''t think he wille to me tonight because he has so much exining to do to Mitchell and she is his soul and soul is more important than shame.


    I sat in a cab, sending a text to Joanna that I am fine and going home, and asked her to go home safe and let me know once she is at home.


    There is so much hurt, anger, and embarrassment inside me that I am afraid I am going to burst but I locked everything inside my head and heart for now. I can''t have a mental breakdown in a cab. I will learn one day to not get hurt by anything easily and wait patiently for it.

 Waiting For Him

    I know this is stupid but I still waited for him, my doom. Yes, he is my doom because nothing gets to my head when ites to Ezra. I don''t know when he became my life or a reason to breathe but he became everything to me. Some may say it is insanity to think like this or some may think that I am obsessed with Ezra but I don''t heed to those words or thinking.


    I changed my clothes into PJs and hid that dress and chain at thest corner of my wardrobe so I can not see it and get reminded of my humiliation. I am not crying for him, no I am not that weak to very for someone. I am much stronger than that.


    Iy on my bed thinking about today''s event and how they were both looking like a happy couple and how I didn''t see an ounce of guilt on Ezra''s face when he kissed me.


    Ugh, that Damn kiss! I am trying to push that thought from my head but I am unable to do that. Why did God choose every single bad thing and bad luck for me?


    I received a text from Joanna that she has reached home safely and asked how I am doing. What did I tell her? That I am embarrassed by myself because I trusted Ezra like a fool and epted everything? For now, I just pretend nothing happened and everything is fine.


    I am brought back to my thoughts with the sound of window creaking and I know what is that and precisely who is that.


    It''s none other than Ezra Irwin who is trying to break into my room through my room''s window. It is not new for him, he always does this.


    "What do you think you are doing?". I scowled at him.


    "What did it look like? I am trying toe through the window." I said it as an obvious and normal thing to do.


    "I can see Ezra but what are you doing here in my room at this time?" He is testing my patience.


    He scoffed like he had heard an absurd thing, did he think that it was okay to humiliate me and thene back to me? Am I that easy? This is my fault that I have given him that power to walk all over me again and again and again. "you haven''t asked me that in these years, then why now baby girl?" Hmm?" His jaw was clenched so hard that I am afraid he is going to break his jaw.


    "Ugh, why are you so annoying? Can you please leave?" I sighed, getting up from my bed, trying to make him leave me alone.


    "Why?" Did he have a memory loss or what? Why the hell is asking me why? Okay, if he wants to know the reason or reasons then I will give them to him.


    "You are asking me why? Ezra! Seriously? Did you bang your head on something? That you didn''t remember anything?" I stood in front of him folding my hands hiding my anger. I don''t want to explode right now.


    "That was not something you should think about Faye." His nerve, how could he take that so easily.


    "Don''t tell me that you gave me that dress knowing that you are going to give the same to her," I yelled, tears streaming down my face. How could he say that!


    "Fay! Why are you thinking so much about it? It''s just a dress....." I cut him off with a scoff.


    "It''s just a dress, Ezra? I don''t care about the dress, what I care about is that you gave me that dress and that is more important than the dress. You won''t understand." How can he easily break my heart into pieces with his words, didn''t I mean something more to make me feel special?


    "You are misunderstanding everything Fay, let me exin." He started but I don''t want to listen to his bullshit. I am done with everything.


    "No, don''t! I am done with this. So, please leave." I turned around not wanting to see his face anymore. If I am still facing him then it will make me soft and make me forgive him like always but I don''t want to do that so easily from now on. "I am sorry Fay, please!" He is pleading now? For what? If I hear another word from him then I don''t know if I control myself.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "For what Ezra? For the dress? Or?" I stopped midway because it is bing so hard to talk while crying. I am choking on my words. "Shhh, please don''t cry baby girl. I am so sorry, so sorry shhh don''t." He suddenly hugged me from behind, making me cry more.


    "It''s okay, please don''t cry. I am sorry, sorry baby girl." I can hear hurt and sincerity in his voice while he is apologizing.


    "Why Ezra? Why? You always confuse me, why? I didn''t sign up for this."


    "I know, I am sorry baby girl please stop now I can''t see you cry. Please!" He hugged me even tighter, making me forget everything and just stay in his arms.


    He turned me towards him slowly, my head still facing down. I am ashamed of myself for crying in front of him. Showing him my weakness. I should whack myself on my head to behave properly.


    "I didn''t give it to her baby girl, I don''t even know how she wore the same dress as yours. I promise." I can see guilt in his eyes, guilty for making me cry and hurting me. Those eyes are my doom, he can easily turn me towards him with his eyes.


    "It''s okay, I understand," I whispered.


    "If it is still bothering you then I will buy you another dress and I will order them to prepare only a single piece for my baby girl." He titled my head up, urging me to look into his eyes and see his sincerity and I can see it and feel it in his words. "No, I don''t want anything. Let it be. I am not sad anymore." I don''t like it when we fight, it is a very rare thing but still, I don''t like fighting with him.


    "Okay then, I think we have some unfinished business and we should resume it." He started pulling me closer to his body.


    "I don''t think so!" I said, narrowing my eyes and ring at him jokingly.


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    "Can I remind you what we have to resume? Hmm? I whispered huskily in my ear before leaving feather kisses on my ear and slowly moving towards my neck.


    "E... Ez. Ezra!" I suffered breathily, feeling heat pooling below and tingles shot up all over my body.


    "Hmm? What baby girl? Do I remind you?"


    "Umm?" I don''t know what to answer. My brain is just nk and I am only feeling his kisses on my neck and shoulder and his warm body attached to mine without any gap between us.


    "


    Just say yes? Or No? Baby girl." He muttered slowly before kissing my chin and pulling my head towards his face.


    "Y.... ye... yesssss." I breathed out the word which was banging in my head toe out of my mouth so desperately. I am feeling like I was in a desert where there is no water and I am thirsty for it.


    Ezra didn''t need any more answers, he ducked his head low and captured my lips like a hungry man, and started feasting on them.


    I am wet with need and my toes are curling on their ord and I don''t have any control over my body anymore. I am not going to stop Ezra if he wants to do anything with me. We are not just friends at this moment, we are Fay and Ezra who are desperately longing for each other.


    It''s going to be a very long night.

 Making Love With Ezra

    We were still standing kissing the hell out of each other. Ezra''s hands were all over my body squeezing and pulling me closer to his body. I have never felt this good and the main reason behind me feeling more intensity is because of Ezra. I always dreamed of us together, I am his first and he will be mine but he didn''t wait for me as I waited for him. My heart broke when he told me about how he lost his virginity to his then-girlfriend.


    "You feel so good, baby girl," Ezra murmured between kisses and pulled me from the sad thoughts.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    Ezra slowly pulled my t-shirt and tossed it somewhere in the room. I am not wearing a bra but only standing in my panties in front of him. I covered myself with my hands feeling self-conscious and shy standing in front of my best Friend practically naked.


    "Don''t cover yourself, Fay, not in front of me. You are so beautiful and I love to see you like this every day." He huskily whispered before removing my hands which are covering my boobs from his view. "It''s just I have never done this," I murmured silently feeling awkward.


    "it''s okay baby girl, you don''t need to worry. I will take care of everything." He pulled me towards him kissing me with an intensity that is more intense than before.


    He slowly moved his head below kissing my throat and moving down and his lips were slowly inching towards my boobs which are waiting for his attention so desperately.


    He tweaked my nipple which stood at attention and his mouth moved towards another boob and his warm mouth started sucking it and a moan escaped my mouth at the sensation.


    Ezra is ying with my boobs using his hand and mouth, I became a moaning mess withering in his hands and I can''t control my body anymore. He knows what to do and how to do it. He is doing everything so perfectly.


    "Ezra! pleaseeeeee." I moaned loudly when he slowly moved his head below my belly button blowing air on my belly button. He removed the only ornament on my body and slowly pushed me towards the bed and pushed me on the bed. y down baby girl, I am going to take you on a ride." He gave me a sexy smirk which promised that the ride will be going to be one hell of a ride and I am waiting curiously for it. I nodded my head beforeying down on my back. "Spread your legs for me, baby girl." He ordered getting onto the bed while removing his t-shirt showing his toned and which is making me salivate.


    I followed his order and spread my legs wide anticipating his next move anxiously breathing heavily with desire running through my nerves and going to my dripping core.


    "So delicious baby girl." He moaned before diving into my core like a hungry man.


    "Ahhh!!" My mouth was wide open like a fish out of water and moans wereing out of my mouth and I am trying so hard to not make any noise but he is making it hard for me to not make a sound.


    "You.... lick... tastes.... lick.... so.... lick... good.... lick.... baby girl......." Ezra said making digits with his tongue on my core making me a moaning mess with need.


    "E.... E... Ezra, pleaseeee!" I started pleading with him and I don''t know if I want him to stop or keep going.


    "What do you want, baby girl? Tell me and I will give you." Ezra started teasing me and that made me annoyed and I lifted my hips and pressed my core onto his face and started grinding. I don''t even know how I became this desperate for a release.


    "Not so fast, baby girl, I want to take my time with you." He pressed my hips down before sucking my button which threw me into a state where I don''t anything else other than the pleasure he is giving and his mouth on my happy button. "pleaseeee Ezraaaa!.... I.... i.... i." I am panting so hard.


    "I.... .... What baby girl." Ugh, he is taking his revenge on me by not giving me what I want.


    "Ughhh Ezra pleaseeee I need to c.... cu....." He didn''t let me finish before he pressed his mouth so hard which made me buckle hard and my stomach clenched with my climax and my toes were curling and my mouth was so wide, no words wereing out of my mouth. I became so stiff buckling so hard.


    It was so intense, I felt like my soul left my body and went to heaven. I saw stars behind my eyelids so bright, blinding me.


    "I am never going to forget this beautiful sight which I am seeing today," Ezra said in awe with big eyes grinning sheepishly.


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    "Woo, just wo." I can''t even form words properly due to the first orgasm of my life.


    I pulled my body in a sitting position and I can see the desire in Ezra''s eyes and how he is holding himself from devouring me right now. He has given me the best orgasm of life and I want to give him something best too. "Come here," I said, signaling him with my head toe near me.


    He moved towards me and stood in front of me. I moved forward till my head reaches his hips. I have never done anything so bold in my life but now I want to do anything and everything with Ezra and I am not afraid of anything. I slowly sat on my knees pulling Ezra with his jeans and removing his Buttons.


    "You don''t need to if you don''t want to do baby girl," Ezra said clenching his jaw holding himself back but I want to make him feel special like he made me feel.


    "No, I want to do it, Ezra." I slowly bend down, leveling my face with his groin and I can see his member bulge straining in his jeans wanted to get free.


    "Do you want to see heaven? Hmm!" I said pulling his jeans down and now it''s clear that he is so big, my mouth is salivating with your thought of tasting him. I licked my lips before uttering " Get ready for the big ride of your life Ezra." I used his line on him before freeing his member from his boxers.


    My throat is going to be so sore in the end after I am done with him.......

 Heaven on earth

    I am bobbing my head up and down tasting his sweet and salty precum and my saliva. He became a moaning mess too, I am on my knees giving him my all taking him to hell and heaven at the same time. It''s my first time doing this but I have seen many videos so I know one or two things about how to make your man a puddy in your hands.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    Seeing Ezra''s Expressions and his groansing out of his mouth made me throb so painfully for him to fill me up. I clenched my thighs to make some friction between my legs desperate to feel that orgasm which he has given me before. "Yes, baby girl don''t stop." Ezra moaned out while guiding my head deep, making me choke. He didn''t let me finish before pulling me up and made me fall on the bed.


    "No, baby girl, I want to finish inside you." He said making eye contact with me, I can see his desire shining through his eyes. I bit my lip feeling so turned on by his words that my hand moved down on its own wanting to y with my happy button and relieve myself.


    "Uh! huh! Not so fast, let me take you, baby girl." Ezra said, removing my hand from my core, sitting between my legs.


    "Please, Ezra!" I pleaded with him to let me y with it but he just spread my legs and dived between them and kissed my core with a pull making me gasp.


    "I am making you ready to take me all in at once baby girl, I want to feel you."


    "Do you want to continue Fay?" He asked for my consent, did he seriously think that I would stop him? Ugh, dumb man child. How can he think that I don''t want him?


    "Ezraaaaaa! If you don''t take me now then I will kick you." I threatened looking at his member.


    "Ahh! No, sorry! Okay, don''t do that." His eyes became wide and he looked funny. Iugh out loud seeing him get scared.


    "Dumb Ezra, I won''t kick youe here." I signaled him toe near me. Heid on me and we hugged tightly before he slightly moved his body up. We both moved our heads forward at the same time to taste each other.


    Our lips moved in sync, tasting each other. My hand was moving on to his curve and dip, feeling his muscles. Ezra is diverting me with his kiss to not feel any pain when he enters me.


    "If it hurts so much, tell me to stop, baby girl." He said before I could feel his member near my entrance.


    He slowly rubbed his member on my core making some friction which made me crave more of him. My hips started moving upwards on their own wanting to take him in. "Patience baby girl, patience," Ezra smirked, seeing my eagerness. I don''t have any more patience left in me. I have waited for this for so long and I need him inside me. "Please Ezra, I need you inside me now." I pleaded shamelessly. Moving my hips upwards.


    "Okay baby girl, if you feel overwhelmed then please stop me okay?"


    "Yes, please!"


    He slowly pushed his hardened member into my core holding back and taking it slowly. I can feel my walls stretching due to his size but I don''t feel much pain for now.


    I can feel him inside my core walls, stretching me and reaching my point where the barrier will be torn making me lose my virtue to him. It''s not like I saved for certain someone, I don''t believe in sex after marriage or saving it for someone special but other than Ezra I never felt sexually attracted to anyone.


    "Baby girl, I can''t hold it anymore." Ezra croaked out gritting his teeth, controlling himself to not ram into me.


    "It''s okay Ezra, I can handle it please don''t hold back. I need your everything" I whispered, pushing my heels into his butt to tell him to push hard into me and he did the same. I filled me up to the hilt making me gasp with pain, Ezra froze not moving a muscle thinking he had hurt me but in reality, it hurt but it''s not more than what I thought it would hurt so I can handle it.


    "You can move Ezra, it''s not hurting much." I moved my hips signaling him that it''s okay to move.


    "Are you sure? Nothing is hurting, right?" He asked concern covering his face.


    "Yes, I am alright, please move now." I pleaded.


    He started moving his hips slowly thirsting in and out, making me gasp with pain and pleasure.


    "Faster please!" I breathed out digging my nails into his back.


    "Yeah, baby girl."


    I am moaning, feeling pain and pleasure at the same time and his thrusts became fast making me feel all types of emotions.


    His thrusts keep getting fast going deep, the pain was reced with pleasure. Moans and groans filled my room.


    "Shhh, don''t make loud sounds Fay! Someone will hear us." Ezra covered my mouth with his palm making me more turned on.


    "Everyone is deep in sleep and no one can hear us," I said, catching his lips with me wanting to taste him more.


    I met his thrusts with my hips with the same passion, making a rhythm with our bodies.


    Warmth started to spread throughout my body, my toes curl in their ord waiting for the anticipated climax which will rock through my body.


    Ezra''s thrusts became frantic, he is also close to his climax. " Cum with me baby girl." Ezra rasped out, we both reached our limit at the same time thrusting into each other riding our orgasms.


    "That''s it baby girl, cum for me."


    "Yes, yes, it feels so good." No words make senseing out of my mouth. I am seeing stars behind my closed eyes, my core walls are clenching him tight, milking him clean. Ezra copsed on top of me breathlessly and kissed my shoulder. "It was the best baby girl, thank you."


    "Thank you Ezra for making my first this good." I hugged him right yawning.


    "We have all night to make you feel good baby girl," Ezra said, smirking.


    "What? All night! No way Ezra." I whined already out of energy.


    "Yes, way Fay! It''s time to go on a long long long long long ride." He chuckled at my wide eyes and Expression.


    "There is not going to be a long long long long ride Ezra, just sleep." I pushed him from top of me and got up to escape but he caught me within a second and pulled me on top of him. I can feel his member below my core making me gulp with lust.


    "Please Ezra, no more," I whispered but my body was moving on its ord, gaining a moan from Ezra.


    "I think you should take me that long long long long ride, baby girl." I am startled by his member entering me on top of him and it feels much deeper than the previous position.


    Like Ezra said it was a long long long ride throughout the night till dawn. We did it like rabbits, not even leaving the bathroom. We slept when the sun started rising in the sky, I slept peacefully in Ezra''s arms feeling contempt praying to not end this beautiful moment.

 Regretting

    I woke up feeling sore and happy at the same time, a smile on my face and warmth spreading throughout my body. I opened my eyes to blinding sunlight creeping into my room. The curtains were opened, indicating someone opened them. The ce beside mine was cold, making me confused because Ezra will never leave without saying goodbye, especially when we shared a bedst night.


    I checked the clock for time, making my eyes go wide, it was already noon, and no one woke me up! Maybe Ezra is in the kitchen making breakfast for me.


    I got up from the bed butt naked and dashed to the bathroom to take a long warm shower to soothe my muscles. After taking a bath I took out jeans and a hoodie to keep me warm in the chilly weather and applied a thinyer of makeup before going downstairs.


    I didn''t hear anything in the kitchen making me halt in my steps, what if Ezra left me way before I thought! Is he in guilt? Did he regret it? Every kind of thought entered my head making me feel dirty in my skin.


    I moved my stuck feet towards the kitchen to realize no one is present in the kitchen, not even Ezra. I checked my phone to see if he had left a text or called me but there is nothing like that other than Joanna''s text reminding me that we have two sses in the afternoon and she wille and pick me up.


    The doorbell rang pulling me out of my thoughts, tears dried up in my eyes and I am just feeling nothing? Maybe I had predicted this! That''s why I do not react to it.


    "Coming," I yelled, going to check who it was and I met Joanna with a bright smile in front of me.


    "Hi, Fay! How are you?" she asked concern masking her features seeing my nk face?


    "H... Hi, I am alright Joanna. Come in." I stepped aside to let her in.


    "Umm, but you are not looking fine Fay! Did something happen?"


    "No, nothing happened. It''s just that I am not feeling well." I answered by going to the kitchen to avoid her questioning, making myself busy with preparing breakfast.


    "If you are saying that then okay but if you want to talk it out then I will be ready to listen." How am I lucky to have a friend like her? I want to tell her too but how can I tell her that I gave in to Ezra''s charm and lost my virginity to him. What will she think about me?Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    "Yeah! okay. Thanks, Joanna." I said breaking eggs into a pan making scrambled eggs.


    After finishing ourte breakfast we left for University. We have only two sses today so it doesn''t take much time in the university and I can have myself alone in the home and then I can cry and think about the things I did wrongst night. I didn''t even get a single text from Ezra the entire day, making me more anxious and regretting what I have done with him. Maybe he regrets it and doesn''t want to see me.


    I haven''t seen Mitchell the entire day but we don''t have the same sses but I, we would have crossed paths but I didn''t see her anywhere. Maybe Mitchell is with Ezra? That''s why he didn''t text me or call me!


    But Ezra said that she is not his girlfriend and kissed me in front of her. Then why was one missing and another didn''t even reach me?


    Why? Why do I have to be the only one hurting? He always broke my heart, every time but this is too much. How can he just leave me afterst night? Didn''t it mean something to him? Is this normal to him?


    I lost my mindst night giving into him so easily without thinking for a second, I feel so dirty in my skin. I shouldn''t have waited for him, I shouldn''t have let him in my room and I should have stopped him when he kissed me but not like a shameless woman I surrender to him and his charms.


    "Fay? Fay? Are you alright?" Joanna inquired looking at me with concerned eyes.


    "Yes, why?"


    "Why are you crying then?"


    "What are you talking about? Crying? Who? Me? No way!" I said touching my face and to my surprise tears were running down my face without my knowledge.


    "Oh! I just got some dust in my eyes so don''t worry it''s nothing." I lied about it not making eye contact with her, wiping my tears, and giving her a fake smile.


    "Bullshit! Stop lying Fay, I know those are real tears, d don''t tell me that dickhead hurt you again?" She yelled with gritted teeth.


    "Huh! Everything is not about Ezra, Joanna. As I said, it''s nothing." I scoffed before turning around to leave the ssroom.


    "Why don''t you talk it out with me Fay? You know that I don''t judge you." She whispered helplessly.


    "I am sorry Joey but it''s nothing and I am just not ready." I gave her a small smile before leaving the ssroom.


    Tears were streaming down my face thinking about how I can''t even share with my best friend about it and how guilty I feel about everything.


    Maybe not today but I will confess everything to Joanna and let her decide what I should do. The decision I first took was right for me, to push Ezra away from my life but as the time came I surrendered to him and made a fool out of myself. I left the building and entered the parking lot, my car was parked on the left side of the entrance. I made my way to my car slowly feeling still sore fromst night reminding me what I have lost to the jerk.


    I hear moans from one of the cars and I step up my pace so I can leave this ce fast but to my horror, the moans wereing from beside my car. I approached my car slowly without making any noise but when I clicked my key, my car lock made a beep sound startling the couple who was making out beside my car.


    "Umm, I am sorry!" I apologized without looking their way but what I heard next made my head jerk up so fast that I thought I broke my neck.


    "Baby girl?"


    "It''s okay Fay."


    Please tell me I am not seeing them together making out just after he was with me in my bed. If I don''t leave from here then I don''t know what I will do. I unlocked my car and left the goddamn ce without turning back to see if he was calling me or following me.


    I am done with this shit.

 Joanna & I

    I drove my car at a speed I have never driven, my eyes are blurred due to the tears. I can''t see the road properly but I felt choked standing there in the parking lot after seeing Ezra and Mitchell making out. How can he do this to me? Why? He just discarded me after taking my virginity. He didn''t deserve any of my love, my body, and my soul.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    Ezra Irwin sessfully broke mepletely today. I will never forgive him for what he did just after sleeping with me. I was a fool always forgiving him and submitting to him but now it''s time to show him that he can''t control me anymore. He ruined our friendship, I know he is not entirely to me but he nerve told me off when I always showed him that I love him more than a friend, he never epted my feelings nor rejected them.


    I wiped my tears hastily not wanting to cry for the asshole who didn''t deserve my tears. I can see I am approaching my home but I don''t want to be seen by my parents being a mess and I know where I can go.


    I took out my phone from my bag and texted Joanna that I am going straight to her house and asked her to not tell anyone where I am and especially Ezra.


    Joanna''s parents will not be home at this time and I know where they keep their keys as Joanna is still at the uni and it will take some time for her toe home.


    I parked my car in their garage and got the keys from the garage and unlocked their door going straight to Joanna''s room. My room was decorated with fairy lights and stickers whereas Joanna''s room is painted in blue color and is in without any decorative items.


    I plopped my body on her bed and I started sobbing so hard into the mattress that I am shaking, I am shaking with anger, hurt, and jealousy. I shouldn''t have crossed the lines, I should have stopped him when he started kissing me and doing things to my body. I was clouded by lust and my love for him, he took advantage of my love for him.


    I sobbed into the bed till I got tired and slipped into sleep, I woke up to someone shaking me wanting me to get up. I groaned, feeling my head throb and my eyes puffy.


    "Hey! Fay! It''s me, Joanna." She whispered not wanting to scare me to death. I raised my body and moved towards the headboard to support it. I don''t have energy left in my body for anything.


    "I am so sorry, Fay!" Joanna has tears in her eyes seeing me in this disheveled and like a mess.


    "What are you sorry for Joey? I am sorry that I crashed in your ce looking like a mess and crying for an asshole who doesn''t deserve any of my tears." I want to control myself to not waste any more tears but I don''t have any control over them.


    "You are always wee in my home Fay and yes, he doesn''t deserve your tears nor anything from you, so you should stop wasting your emotions and energy on him." Joanna took me in her arms, hugging me tightly and patting my back trying to calm me down. I broke down in her arms sobbing so violently, that it feels like I can''t breathe anymore.


    "Cry over him for thest time Fay and after this, you have to promise me that you are not and will not give him even a second of your time or energy." He lost everything the second he started making out with Mitchell. I am better off with a person who doesn''t care for me at all. He doesn''t even respect me.


    "He broke me, Joey, I don''t know how I can move on from this but I have to because I am not weak and I have to be strong for myself."


    "You are going to be alright babe and I know the best things are waiting for you and you just need to grab them when the timees." We stayed in each other''s arms for a minute. I needed this hug from her so badly. I am going to miss her so badly.


    "Are you up for pizza?" Pizza always brightens my mood, I nodded at her giving her a big smile.


    "You go and freshen up, I will order the pizza and pick up a rom to watch." She is the best friend I never thought I could have but I am lucky to have her in my life.


    "Okay, I''ll be down in a minute," I told her getting up from the bed ready to enter the bathroom.


    "And Fay! I have called your parents and informed them that you are here with me and going to spend the night here." I am thankful that she has informed my parents but at the same time, I am worried that if my parents know that I am here then Ezra will also know that I am here. Joanna can see rm and anxiety in my face.


    "Don''t worry I also told your parents that you fought with Ezra and you don''t want to see him and asked them to stop Ezra froming here." I took a sigh of relief, no one can stop Ezra but at least respect for my parents can stop him from barging in here.


    "Thank you so much, Joanna, you are the best best friend in the whole world." I hugged her and went into the bathroom to wash my face.


    That night Joanna and Iughed, cried, and were together till our hearts and stomach were full. We went to bed in the early morning hours, I was so tired that I passed out the second my body hit the bed. I have so many things to do tomorrow and decisions to take. It''s time to think about myself other than Ezra. I know it''s going to be hard but I have to try till I seed.

 Mitchell

    It''s time for me to go home and I don''t want to do that but I don''t have another choice other than to go home. I have to answer the questions my parents will ask because I have never behaved like this before and most importantly I have never avoided Ezra as I did yesterday. I need toe up with a good excuse and a lie.


    "If you need me just give me a call and I will be there." Joanna hugged me tightly letting me know that she is serious. I know that she is serious about it and I am grateful.


    "I know Joanna and I will give you a call if I need you." I hugged her onest time and stepped inside their garage to get to my car. My phone is still in my car and I don''t even know how many times my parents have called or texted but Joanna has talked to them so I am relieved but I am afraid of turning on the phone because of Ezra and I am sure he will leave voicemails and texts.


    I hopped in my car and reversed it and left the garage waving at Joanna and started driving towards my house. My thoughts are jumbled, not stopping at anything but the only thing nagging me is what if Ezra is at my house and waiting for me? I am not ready to face him and I don''t want to face him, maybe I can hear what he has to say but I can''t bring myself to forgive him after what he did to me. I can give him a chance to exin himself for the sake of our friendship and that''s it.


    I took the phone from the passenger seat and turned it on and I am bombarded with the sounds of notifications. Some are from my parents, Joanna but most of them are from Ezra and he has said only one thing in voicemails and texts is that he is sorry and he can exin.


    I clicked on his name and typed "I am not ready, I will listen when I am ready." And send it to him. I am not yet strong, if I face him now then I will easily forgive him and ept everything he says and does. I want to be just me, Just Fay Moore, not Ezra''s Bestfriend or sidekick.


    When I parked my car in my driveway I saw Mitchell''s Car waiting in the driveway which made me confused because she never came to my house or we never hung out without Ezra. So, her being here is a surprise for me. I opened my car door and stepped down, taking my phone with me.


    She is looking so well kept with perfect makeup and style and here I am looking like a homeless person with puffy eyes and a stuffy nose. Maybe this is the reason why Ezra likes Mitchell because she is so pretty and I am not.


    I pushed all my insecurities back into my mind and stopped staring at her like a creep and approached her. She is standing beside the car with a neutral face not showing any emotions but as approached her, she gave me a small smile that didn''t reach her eyes, not that it looked like a fake one.


    "Hi!" I greeted with a small voice and smile for which I gained a Hi in return. We just stood there awkwardly, not talking about anything.


    "I know you are confused about my visit because we never met without Ezra." She has hesitation in her words and she is not meeting my eyes like she is guilty or something.


    "Yeah!" I don''t know what else to answer her and I am suffocating in her presence. It''s not like she has ill intentions or she ever treated me like the other girls treated me just because I am Ezra''s best friend. She is a good girl and I like her but whenever I saw her with Ezra and yesterday when she was making out with him made me dislike her and I know I am wrong to do that but I can''t help it.


    "I came here to ask you something and I hope you don''t take it the wrong way." I just nodded my head and wore my nk face so she can think whatever she is going to ask me doesn''t affect me and I know what she is going to ask.


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    "Do you like Ezra?" She didn''t beat around the bush, my breath hitched in my throat but I didn''t show her anything because I don''t want anyone to know about my stupid crush on him, and after what we did it is not just crush or like and I always knew I loved Ezra but I never dared to think about it or say it out loud.


    "Of course! He is my best friend." I said it in a duh tone making her rx somewhat.


    "I know but do you feel something for him? Like romantically?" She wanted to be sure that I would nevere between them.


    "Oh my God! What made you think like that?" I asked in a fake surprise tone which I hated the most. Why do I have to pretend that I don''t have feelings for him? Why do I have to suffer this much for him? Am Imitting a big sin by loving my best friend who doesn''t even like me? Why is my life a total mess!


    "It''s just when you saw us yesterday in the parking lot and just rushed off and you never did that and Ezra was also behaving strangely after that so I just wanted to ask you....." She trailed off not wanting to ask me straight up that are we fucking behind her back or not.


    "We just fought with each other on something and I am avoiding him, nothing new. So, don''t worry." I gave her a small smile making sure that she buys that because I don''t have any energy left to entertain her or exin everything. "Thank God! I thought you got upset seeing us making out." She still wants to confirm that I am not going to cause any problems for her. I really can read people very well, especially the girls who were with Ezra because they all asked the same questions as Mitchell is asking.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    "No, as I said we just had a fight and nothing else." I waved my hand like it was not serious and I am telling the truth.


    "You don''t even know how much your words rxed me. I don''t know what I would have done if you had told me that you liked Ezra right after he asked me to be his girlfriend." She is bbering non-stop not thinking about what ising out of her mouth but the only word which came out of her mouth made my heart and body still with shock, surprise, anger, and pain.


    He asked her to be his girlfriend? He never asked anyone to be his girlfriend before. If he likes Mitchell then why did he sleep with me and why did he treat me like I am something more than a friend.


    He is ying a double game with both of us or he is just ying with me. I am an idiot to easily trust him. I have known Ezra since we were kids but I never knew him properly, if I would have then he wouldn''t have done what he did.


    "Fay?" My thoughts were interrupted by the voice I don''t want to listen to ever. Why the hell is he here when I told him that I wanted time to face him. If he thinks he can easily walk over me then he is going to be surprised when I just flip him off. I am done with his shit and games.

 His Shame

    I can''t deal with them right now! Why is this happening to me? I am responsible for everything, I should have avoided everything by staying within my limits and not crossing any lines with him. I am looking like a fool who was yed by her best friend. "Not right now, Ezra! I can''t deal with you right now. I need a break." I said to him looking into his narrowed eyes.


    "You need a break? From what?" He has the nerve to ask me that! Is he empty in his head?


    "I need a break from YOU and from this drama!" I sneered at him, I am so annoyed and pissed off by his attitude and totally by him. How can he just ask me this and how can he show up here when I clearly said to him that I need time from him. He doesn''t give a fuck about me and my wishes. This proves how much of a jerk he is.


    I was so blind running after him that I haven''t seen what he is doing to me and with me. Now I can see through him easily.


    "Did you hit your head somewhere? If so then you need to get checked up by a doctor." He scoffed, not paying any heed to my words or he is not clearly seeing how much I am hurting behind the anger and annoyance.


    "Listen up! I really don''t have time for this and especially for you, just go away. I don''t want to talk to you." I had enough of his ignorance and his ego and confidence that he can walk all over me again and again.


    Ezra''s eyes narrowed and his jaw was ticking with anger and annoyance but I am not intimidated or afraid that I stood up for myself for the first time against him and he is having a hard time epting it.


    "Mitch, Go home! I will talk to youter." He dismissed her without even looking at her. She is watching him with wide eyes like he has said something so absurd. Ugh! Why are they being so dramatic!


    "But Baby!....." He raised his hand to cut her off whatever she was going to say. Like a little submissive she is, closing her mouth with an irritated groan. He is controlling her too. Nothing is new, Ezra loves to control and dominate everything and everyone.


    I scoffed at them before entering my home, I turned around to lock the door not wanting to have another encounter with the jerk but I am not sessful in that as the pompous jerk is already standing inside.


    "I clearly stated in my text to you that I am not ready to talk to you now and I meant it then why are you here! Ezra?" I gritted out in annoyance. I am feeling annoyed, angry, mad, and hurt.


    He closed the door by kicking it with his leg and started striding toward me with his long legs. My heart started beating so erratically and I can feel my face heating up. This is not good for me, I can''t feel anything right now. If I show him how he affects me then he will again take the lead in my life and I don''t want that to happen at any cost.


    I whipped my body around and started running towards my room before he caught up to me. I took two steps at a time to reach my room and I can hear his amused chuckle and footsteps behind me.


    By the time I reached my room, he was already behind me and I felt his breath on my ear. I yanked the door open still trying to escape him. My heart and mind are having a war with each other. My heart wants him and my mind wants to get away from him.


    I stood in my room behind my back and I failed to hide from Ezra. Now he is in my personal space and his front is glued to my back, raising goosebumps all over my body and my breath to skip a beat.


    "What do you think you are doing?" I whispered hating myself right now. How can my body still react to him this way if nothing happened? How can my heart still cry out for him?


    "What do you think?" He countered in my ear nibbling on it and I shuddered at him. A moan trying to escape from his sweet torture.


    "Ezra!" He is leaving a trail of kisses from my jaw to my neck and I tilted my neck to give him more ess. His hands are all over my body dipping and groping each part pulling moans from me. I want more, more of him.


    He turned me around and wasted no time in attacking my lips. Our lips moved in sync, first slowly, and then it started getting heated and the thing between my legs started throbbing so painfully that I needed some fraction to stop it. I closed my thighs tightly to stop the ache but it was still not helpful.


    Our bodies are molded together with no gap and we are attacking each other like wild animals. Ezra moved his hand from my hair and dipped it down my stomach and into my pants, his fingers reached into my panty and parted the lips. He started stroking the bundle of nerves that was throbbing and wanted attention. My hips are moving ording to his finger''s rhythm and I am practically riding his fingers shamelessly trying to reach my climax.


    Ezra pushed his middle finger into my core, making me gasp with slight pain and pleasure. His thumb is rubbing the c**t and his finger is moving in and out of my core. My hips and his fingers moved ording to each other and our mouths hungrily devoured each other, in no time my thighs started shaking and the knots started tightening in my stomach making me moan out loud. Ezra''s fingers are still inside me and he is still moving his fingers helping me chase my climax. My body slumped down on his shoulder and Ezra removed his hand from my pants. My eyes are closed and I am in a daze.


    "You did so good, baby girl!" Like I was stuck by the lightning I removed myself from Ezra and pushed him. Hate, anger, and disgust are what I am feeling right now. How can I shamelessly allow him to touch me? How did I forget what he did the next day after sleeping with me?


    I am so fucked up, I don''t have any self-respect and control over my body.


    "Leave!" I croaked out, I bowed my head down in shame. He is someone''s boyfriend and I am the reason he cheated on her. How can I face myself in the mirror and live with it?


    "Baby girl? I can exin......" I cut him off before he can make any more lies and excuses. I am so tired of him and his lies.


    "There is nothing to exin Ezra and I really don''t want to talk to you so please respect that and leave." I fisted my hands and my nails are digging into my palms and I deserve the pain.


    "This is not over, Fay! And I wille back and we will talk." He ordered like has the right to order me. I don''t think I will be here when hees back and I am not nning to stay anymore and face him.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    I didn''t reply and just stood there with a bowed head taking rapid breaths trying to not break down in front of him. He moved forward but I took a step back not wanting to be near him. He stood there for a second and left the room, closing the door with a bang.


    The second the door closed my body copsed to the ground and I started sobbing with anger, hurt, and shame. How can he treat me like this when he has a girlfriend? What does he think about me? Am I going to be his shame forever? I don''t want to live like this and I definitely don''t want to be a second option.

 His Addiction

    Ezra''s Pov:


    I am driving like a mad man not caring about the red lights or even about getting into an ident. How can she reject me like that? How can she push me away from her? And how can she try to ghost me? I can''t believe she is the same Fay I have known all the years.


    My Fay was so sweet and shy and she will never raise her voice on me and most importantly she will never push me away. Something has changed in her and I am nning to find out what changed or who changed her.


    My eyes narrowed at the thought of someone changing my Fay, Maybe her friend! What was her name? Ah! Joanna, maybe she brainwashed my Fay to behave like this with me but I know Joanna doesn''t have that much cunningness to change someone''s mind and especially Fay''s.


    I know I may sound like a jerk because of what I did to Fay, leaving her alone in the bed after I took her Virginity. That was a jerk move but I had to do that to save her from me. I regretted it the second my eyes opened, I don''t regret making love to her but what I regretted was crossing the line with her because I don''t deserve her and after that what I did with Fay is worse. I shouldn''t have crossed the line with her. I can''t give her what she wants and that is love, she wants love and a happy family but I will never be able to give her those things as I hate the thought of it.


    My phone rang pulling me from my thoughts, my knuckles turned white from clutching the wheel so hard. My jaw is clenched tight with anger. My phone is connected to Bluetooth, Mike, my assistant, and my right-hand man is calling me. I swiped the call to answer it and Mike''s voice filled the car. I didn''t make any noise other than just a groan. He knows me very well and he doesn''t need any words.


    "Mr. Smith Is with us, our boys caught him when he was leaving for the airport to run away from us." My anger spiked at the fact that the traitor was trying to run away from me without clearing the debt he owes me. No, he doesn''t owe me money but loyalty which hecked.


    "You know what to do with him? Right!" I smirked knowing I am going to have fun with him while I y with him for his betrayal.


    "Yes, Boss! Our boys are already on it!" I ended the call feeling somewhat rxed but in seconds my mind was upied by Fay and her words. What made her so mad at me? I know there are a lot of things I did that will make her mad at me but still, I don''t like how she behaved with me.


    I know where to go to clear my head not for a long time but for some hours. My car turned towards the familiar path because I have traveled through this path so many times that it''s carved in my head.


    I parked the car and sat for a second just to clear up everything which was swirling through my head like a tornado ready to burst. I left the car locking it behind and took hurried steps towards the entrance. It feels like this is the only way I can get to feel rxed after the fight with Fay and the make-out with her.


    We were so close to ripping each other''s clothes and I so eagerly wanted to bury myself deep inside her warm walls but she pushed me away. I gritted my teeth in anger for thinking about her when I am standing in front of another woman''s house.


    Mitchell is like a drug to me whereas Fay, she is my home and savior from my demons and myself. I am addicted to Mitchell but at the same time, I want to be with Fay, and every time I Fuck Mitchell I feel guilty for doing it like I was betraying Fay but I can''t stay away from Mitchell.


    I knocked on Mitchell''s door and waited for her to open it so I could punish her for going to Fay''s house and making her upset and at the same time relieving myself from all the stress. "E... Ezra?" She whispered out with wide eyes and parted lips seeing my narrowed eyes. She knows that she is going to get punished and she is excited and afraid at the same time. "Yeah? Are you expecting someone else?" I smirked looking at her gulping and nodding her head frantically to let me know that she is not.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "N.. No, I was waiting for you." Her grip on the door is so tight that her knuckles turned white. She is so aroused just standing in front of me making me groan seeing her squirming. "You know what you did, right?" I gritted out, all the color drained from her face. I pushed her inside and closed the door with a bang. She is backing away like I am a predator and she is my prey.


    A smirk is permanently attached to my lips. She backed away till her back hit the couch. I pressed my body to hers making her moan out loud. My hand found her throat not gripping it tightly but at the same time not loosely.


    "You were being a very bad girl," I whispered in her ear nibbling on it and slowly moving towards her jaw and back to her ear. She gasped and groaned with my slow torture and I am enjoying it. I am a sick b*****d who enjoys seeing people squirm.


    "You know it right, what do I do to bad girls? Hmm!" My other hand trailed from the b**bs hardly pinching her nipple hearing her pained gasp. My hand went into her shorts and to my surprise, she was not wearing her panties over the shorts. "were you waiting for me toe and fuck you? That''s why you didn''t wear anything under this!" I cupped her dripping core and pushed my finger into her. I smashed her lips with mine to cover her loud moan. I started thrusting my finger and My thumb pressing on the clit and by her riding my finger I knew that she was so close to cumming but I stopped abruptly and removed my hands from her shorts.


    "Ezraaaaaaaaa!" Mitch drawled out frustratingly but I turned her towards the couch and bent her body. I pulled her shorts down and made her legs wide with my knee, I unbuttoned my jeans pulling them halfway, and pulled out a condom from my back pocket, rolled it on my hardened d**k, and without a warning thrusted inside Mitch''s wet core. We both groaned at the feel of each other, I stopped for a second, and my traitor body and mind went towards the moments with Fay when I first thrusted into her and the feeling and warmth I got from her are missing now.


    Mitch''s thrusting back broke my thoughts making me feel like the biggest jerk on the earth ever. I closed off my mind and focused on Mitch and started thrusting roughly in and out of her. Her moans and groans filled the living room and I know the neighbors can hear her and the pping sound of our skin.


    I held Mitch''s hands and pulled her and her back was pressing against my chest and my hips were ruthlessly thrusting into her, punishing her, and at the same time giving her pleasure that made her legs and thighs shake.


    My hand moved Mitch''s front and my fingers find her c**t I started ying with it and I know she is so close to her climax but I stopped again making her groan.


    I am punishing her in my way by not giving her a chance to climax and I want her to beg for it.


    "Beg for it, Mitch! Until then I won''t let you finish and if you cum without begging then you will not get this." I thrust hard to tell what she is not going to get if she doesn''t beg.


    "P..... Pleaseeeee Ezra.. aahhh." I smiled smugly knowing that she will do anything to keep this going. I returned my fingers to her c**t and started rubbing it and thrusting into her.


    Her thighs started shaking and her moans grew louder and in no time she was shaking with her climax and chasing it by thrusting back. My thrusts get sloppy and the familiar tightening in the stomach and the tingling of my b***s indicated I am close to my climax with ast hard thrust I emptied into the condom breathing heavily.


    It took 3-5 seconds toe back from it, I removed myself from Mitchell and pulled out the condom carefully to not spill anywhere, and tied it. I know where the washroom is because I was the one who gave this apartment to her.


    I went to the washroom and flushed it, cleaned myself, and left. Mitchell is pulling her shorts up and turning towards me with a big grin and a sated look on her face. I have to talk to her about what she had told Faye but whatever it may be Faye doesn''t have to react like that when she hears something from someone other than me.


    I didn''t utter a word and just walked towards the door. Mitchell and I are just fuck buddies and nothing more and she knows that too but sometimes she forgets that. I got what I came for and I am leaving to what I have to do. I smirked knowing what I am going to do with the traitor who is waiting for me in the basement of my office.


    I closed the door behind me and unlocked my car to leave. Each second is making me feel guilty because after being with Faye I made out with Mitchell in their college''s parking lot and now I fucked her. Mitchell is a sin I want tomit again and again and I don''t care whoever gets hurt in the process. Fay is mine and will always be mine.

 Moving Away

    I am currently sitting in front of my parents who are looking at me expectantly. I have gathered them here by texting them when they are at work and when I need to talk. Both reached home at the same time looking so concerned for me that I cried hugging them. They got more concerned seeing me crying without any reason as I have never cried in front of them other than the times when I was a kid and I am not saying that I have been a responsible mature adult but still I am not a kid anymore so the crying part surprised them.


    After a lot of convincing from my side that I was just on my period and nothing more, they let it go.


    Mum made us coffee and the three of us sat in the living room. Why am I so nervous? It''s not like I am telling them that I am pregnant.


    "Umm, Mum? Dad?" I called out to them to gain their attention. They looked calm from the outside but I know they are feeling everything but calm.


    "Yes, Fay?" Mum asked, sitting beside me and holding my hand. Why is this feeling so emotional? Am I doing the right thing for me or avoiding Ezra? I don''t know what is the reason behind it but I am sure about one thing and that is to move away from here because if I don''t move physically from here then I will be broken to the point where I can''t be repaired.


    "I know that I have been making you two worry because of the fiasco I made when I didn''te home and stayed at Joanna''s and now I called you from the middle of your work." I started bbering like a car with no breaks feeling so guilty about myself and how I am worrying them with my actions.


    "Fay! Don''t be guilty of the things which were not in your control." My mom said sitting beside me and rubbing my back soothingly. Her touch always calms me down and her jasmine scent made me forget every worry and problem in an instant.


    "I... I decided to go to New York and I got an offer from a university where I can learn what I love and which is being a Chef and this opportunity will help me to open my own restaurant, Mom and Dad." When I looked at them, they have tears in their eyes but at the same time, they are smiling so big which made me rx and feel happy that they are not upset or angry.


    "Uh-huh! Don''t make that face, Youngdy. I know that you thought that we would be upset with you when you told us the news but you are wrong. We will always be happy with whatever you do and decide." Hearing those words from my dad made me break down in my mom''s arms.


    Everything which happened between Ezra and me and the decision I made to go away from here came crashing down on me. I started sobbing so hard about Ezra''s betrayal and the pain of leaving my parents behind. I know what I am doing is selfish on my part but I have to move away from Ezra to breathe properly, I just can''t be his puppet forever.


    "Shhh, You did the right thing baby, and don''t regret anything in your life because without mistakes we can''t learn a thing. So, get up with a smile and pack up." Mom ced a kiss on my forehead wiping the tears from my face. I am so lucky to have parents who support me in everything.


    "Thank you so much, I don''t know what I would have done without you guys." I hugged mom and dad too joined in our hug. I am going to miss them a lot and I know that they wille and visit me frequently even if they have busy schedules.


    I just have to tell Joanna that I am moving away from home. I don''t know how she is going to react to the news and I hope she takes it positively. Joanna and my parents are the only people who are important to me. I don''t want to include Ezra in my life anymore.


    He is going to throw a tantrum when he gets to know that I left him without informing him but I don''t care anymore. I just have to be careful not to get caught by him before I leave here.


    "Okay, Mum and Dad! I am going to call Joanna and will go shopping." I got up from the couch and gave them kisses on the cheeks and took the stairs to go to my room.


    I dialed her number and waited for her to answer. Sometimes she won''t pick up because of herziness. If she doesn''t pick it up now then I have to go to her house again to get her. "What is it again! Fay?" She groaned into the phone and I can guarantee that she has a big scowl on her face and is justying on the bed doing nothing.


    "Ugh, you are a bigzy bum! Do you know that?" Iughed, hearing her groan in annoyance.


    "Someone has sucked up all my energy by being a baby." She called out, imitating a baby voice.


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    "I was not being a baby, Joey!" I know that she doesn''t like to be called Joey. I stopped myself fromughing out loud by the silence from her side. She is looking for words to attack me.All content is ? N0velDrama.Org.


    "I don''t have a mood for your childish jokes, so tell me why you called." Iughed out loud now at her annoyance. She doesn''t like to drag anything, whether it be fights or conversations. I am going to miss annoying her.


    "


    Okay, listen! I have to talk to you about something. So, you better get to my house in five minutes." I bbered out in a single breath waiting for her answer. Please don''t say no, please don''t say no. I am praying inside that she doesn''t say no.


    "Okay, I will be there in ten minutes, not five minutes." She ended the call without waiting for my answer and thatdies and gentlemen is my unemotional best friend who doesn''t do well with all the feelings and emotions.


    I hurriedly got up and went into the bathroom to freshen up. She will be here in ten minutes and she won''t wait even for a second more. I washed my face and got a hoodie and skinny jeans. Applied a thinyer of makeup and lip gloss and by the time I was wearing my sneakers, Joanna was ring up the horn in front of the house. If I don''t go out and stop her then she is going to get arrested for noise pollution.


    I said goodbye to my mum who was on the couch and left the house. I am starting this new journey with positivity and I hope nothing will stop me from moving on.

 Victorias Secret

    "Yo! What was so important that you called me and asked me to meet you?" Joanna grumbled out, still annoyed that I disturbed her introverted time with herself.


    "Woah! You don''t have to be so mean to me, you know!" I muttered slowly trying to make her feel guilty and it worked. Her face softened which was gloomy. A big grin spread across my face.


    "Okay, so where are we going?" she asked with a small smile. I know I am going to change her mood again by telling her about the news that I am going away for the internship. There is a lot of time in our university but still, I can''t stay here where I will be getting hurt. I just can''t face him, especially after he brutally broke my heart.


    "You need to stop the car somewhere before I can tell you anything," I said, not meeting her eyes. I heard her gasp.


    "Don''t tell me you are pregnant!" it''s my turn to gasp at her words. My mouth is still wide open with my eyes wide like saucers.


    "How can you think that? Joanna!" I yelled out, striking her arm with my palm.


    "Ouch! Stop! It hurts!" she yelled out rubbing her arm to soothe the pain. I haven''t even struck her that hard. She is so dramatic and I am going to miss her drama in that big city where I will be alone.


    "Stop being a drama queen and listen! I have no choice but to choose this for myself, Joanna!" she looked at me with her rare soft gaze melting me under her gaze. I know she thinks of me as a sister and will do anything for me. "You are scaring me now, Fay!" she turned her body towards me and took my hand in her seeing the tears zing in my eyes.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "I am going to New York!" I whispered out and I knew she heard me from the firm grip on my hand. She hadn''t even weighed this option in her head. Her body is still and her head is still repeating my words, that''s why she hasn''t reacted yet. We had never been apart, like Ezra, Joanna is also my friend from childhood but they never were close to each other.


    "W...What? Why? Are you going on vacation? Then I wille with you too." she started bbering not giving me a chance to correct her. I ced my hands on her shoulder to stop her.


    "No, Joanna! I applied there for the course and I got in. I will be able to learn under a famous chef and I will be able to fulfill my dream of opening a restaurant." I confessed without looking into her eyes. I don''t want to see anger or something else in her eyes, I can''t handle that.


    "Hey! Look at me!" I raised my head and looked at her but there was nothing but concern and worry shining in her eyes.


    "Did you think I am going to get angry? And scold you for thinking about yourself?" She raised her brows in question waiting for me to answer her but I couldn''t because I didn''t know what to answer as I thought about it.


    "Wow! So you really thought like that! But Fay, I am not Ezra and I will never ask you to do something you don''t want to and I will never force anything on you." I know she is not Ezra and she will always support whatever I decide even if I murder someone she will still help me to hide the body.


    "And I am really happy for you, Fay! You will get a breath of fresh air in New York and you get to live your life on your terms." I can clearly hear what she is implying indirectly but I don''t want to dwell on that and just enjoy my time with my best friend.


    "Thanks, Joe! Can we just go to the mall and raid all the shops till our handse off with the shopping bags?" I yelled, making woohoo sounds. She covered her ears to stop my voice from tearing her eardrums. I can be a carefree child sometimes when some handsome asshole is not controlling me. Ugh, I need to wipe him out of my head.


    "Stop yelling unless you want us to be here till evening." She narrowed her eyes at me, challenging me and I know she is the stubborn one between us. I raised my hands in surrender and sat in my seat like a meek mouse. We parked our car in the parking lot of the mall and I exited the car with so much excitement for the first time in weeks. I am really loving this and I want to be like this till I leave this ce. Being happy makes you chirpy and healthy and I was wasting my health and happiness on someone who clearly doesn''t deserve it.


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    "Where do you want to go first?" Joanna asked, both of us entering the mall and I already decided where I wanted to start my shopping from.


    "Why don''t we start our shopping spree with some fancy dresses I need for the parties in New York." I danced my eyebrows suggestively at her to which sheughed and I joined her. I know she is not taking me seriously because I have never attended any parties before but everything is going to change once Ind in the city.


    "I was being serious, Joanna! Let''s go and get them." I started making my way towards the shops where I can find the dresses I would like. It takes us nearly an hour to get all the party dresses and some t-shirts, jeans, and pajamas. My legs are aching and my stomach is growling loudly like a hungry tiger.


    I


    "I am hungry!" I groaned, stopping in my tracks. Joanna stopped too and looked towards her left and a mischievous smile appeared on her face making my eyes narrow in suspicion. Mischievous Joanna is a dangerous one.


    "What is it?" I asked, still looking at her suspiciously. What is it that makes her smile like a clown? I turned my head toward the direction she was looking and my eyes got wide with shock a blush covered my face and I whipped my head so fast that I thought it broke.


    "We are not going in there, Joanna!" I stood my ground not moving even an inch from there.


    "What? It''s just Victoria''s secret where we can find sexy lingerie and nightwear, not an adult toys shop. Rx and follow me, you need these to woo those New York boys." she winked at me making me more shy and embarrassed about the ordeal. I always bought these things online and I know I am a modern girl but these things make me nervous and shy.


    "Please Joanna, I can buy them online. We don''t have to do this now." I pleaded with her but she is so stubborn that sometimes I want to flip her hard on her forehead. She dragged me into the shop, but there was not much rush in there making me rx a bit.


    "Look, you are a big girl and it is not a big deal to buy something sexy for you and it''s not legal nor a crime." I took a deep breath and looked around myself to choose something sexy for myself. Like everything is changing, I need to change myself too. I shoulde out of my shell and be confident and bold in my skin and about the things I like and want to do.


    Joanna and I already picked most of the lingerie pairs and nightwear and I am just scrolling through the racks when I hear a giggle and a voice from the corner. It sounds somewhat familiar. I don''t know why but my stomach dropped and my heart screamed at me to go and check but my head is screaming to stop being stupid and go my way I will always hear my heart so stupidly I took steps towards the direction cursing at my stupidity.


    When I was a few steps away from the changing room I stopped. Why was I being stupid? And why do I have to go and check who is in there and why their voices sound familiar? I am the problem and I will always break my heart with my own stupidity.


    I took another shaky step toward the corner and my legs got rooted to the scene ying in front of me. My eyes got wide with shock and anger seeing Ezra straddled by none other than Mitchelle in only a bikini. This is nothing new to me seeing them together but I saw them like this for the first time kissing and dry humping each other.


    They don''t have any shame that they are in public but who cares when he is a billionaire and can easily buy this entire shop. I gritted my teeth at the unwanted anger and jealousy which is swirling inside me. If I need to move one then I need to keep this picture in my mind that Ezra Miller doesn''t give a fuck about me and my feelings. He just used me and took my virginity like it was not a big deal. I am just another one on his list.


    Before they caught me standing there and watching them like a creep, I turned around and stormed towards the counter to pay for the things I selected. I am not going to spoil my mood and my shopping spree because of them. Joanna rushed towards me with her things and dumped them on the counter. I masked my anger and hurt not to worry her.


    "Are you done?" she asked, looking at the things I selected with appreciative nods. I hummed at her question and anxiously stood there to get it done with because I don''t want Ezra to see me and especially I don''t want to see his face at all. "We will go to McDonald''s which is on the first floor once we pay, okay?" I don''t think I can be here in the same ce as them.


    "Why don''t we go to my house and I will whip something out for us? I am not up for outside food right now." I made up a lie and I hope she buys it and atst she bought it.


    We paid the bill and I ran from the shop like my tail is on fire but in reality, I don''t want to spoil my mood by showing how much they affect me to my best friend and especially him. I am going to wipe out Ezra Miller from my head, heart, and life forever. He is nothing to me.

 Leaving Him Behind

    It''s been a week since my shopping spree and spotting Ezra and Mitchell making out in Victoria''s Secret. I had moved that memory back to my mind not to dwell on it as I don''t care what they do anymore, especially him. This is myst night here and I don''t know if I am relieved that I am going away from the restraints I put on myself and the ones Ezra had on me or sad that I am leaving everything behind, my parents, my life, and my best friend. Everything is packed and kept aside, other than the clothes and my necessities I am not taking anything with me as I am going to start a new life there and I need everything new. I am leaving everything behind which will remind me of my old life, the life I am going to leave behind and in that life, I was a shadow to Ezra Miller, his best friend, and the girl who loved her best friend so much that she forgot about her life and her dreams.


    "Can Ie in?" I heard a knock followed by mom''s voice.


    "Yes, Mom!" I answered and waited for her toe in. She is a cool mom who supports her daughter in everything and I am lucky to have a mother like her.


    "I am going to miss my little girl." she walked towards me with arms wide open and engulfed me in a bear hug making me feel safe and secure in her arms surrounded by her familiar warmth and scent.


    "I am not so little any more mom!" We both chuckled at the attempt at myme joke and we sat infortable silence before she spoke.


    "I know it''s a fresh start for you sweetie and you need it more than anyone and I hope you find the things you are looking for." she ced her hand on mine rubbing soothing circles making me think about my decision of leaving them but as she said I need the change more than anyone.


    "Thanks, mom! I am going to miss you too but I will visit you whenever I get the time and we will face-time each other every day even though we are busy." I gave her a tight hug one more time before she left me with my thoughts alone. "Good night, sweetie!" she kissed me on my head lingering a second longer before leaving the room. It is so hard for my parents as well as for me because I never thought about staying away from home, I was happy being surrounded by my family and friends even if I want to settle for less. Am I being selfish by thinking about myself? I am an only child and they will not see me daily. I don''t know what I''m doing anymore.


    I blocked off all the depressing thoughts and snuggled into my bed and slipped into a dreamless sleep.


    I woke up to my rm ring and the knocks on my door with my dad''s voice waking me up from my deep slumber. It feels like I have only slept for a minute and now I''m waking up already. "Fay! Wake up! You are going to bete to the airport if you don''t start getting ready now." He knocked again, making me jump out of the bed.


    "I am up, Dad! I will be down soon." I called out to him before opening my wardrobe to get the outfit I chose yesterday. I ced the outfit on the bed and ran to the bathroom to take a shower. The first thing I wanted to do today was take a shower even though I took itst night as I don''t want to start the day feeling grumpy and sleepy.


    I broke the record time of someone who has taken a shower in a short time. I dried myself and applied the moisturizer all over my body before getting into my outfit consisting of skinny jeans and a jumper. Applying little makeup so as not to look like a walking corpse, I made my way to the kitchen by the time my mom ced her breakfast dish on the table.


    "Good morning, mom!" I kissed her cheek, gave her a side hug, and got her reply before going to my dad and doing the same with him. We may have spent the most time with each other as we all had busy schedules and sses for me but we always made time for each other and I love that about my parents.


    "Is Joannaing to the airport with us?" Dad asked, sipping his coffee. I finished my pancake and gulped down the orange juice before answering him.


    "Yeah! She will be here any minute now." I called herst night to remind her the timings of my flight and I know she will be on time.


    "Good, I will go and bring your bags down. Do you have to take any other things from your room?" my brows dipped in concentration at his question and I recalled everything that I needed and remembered that I packed everything and there is nothing to take anymore.


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    "No, I got everything with me, and thanks, dad!" I gave him an appreciative smile to which I received a warm smile in return.


    I heard the doorbell ring and got up to open the door for Joanna. I literally ran towards the door expecting my best friend but what I didn''t expect was that the person who is the reason for my pain and who helped me to make this decision is standing outside my door looking like a raging bull.


    My eyes widened seeing Ezra standing in front of me seething and Joanna behind him looking the same as him. I know they are like oil and water, and will never mix with each other and I also know that Joanna has told him that I am leaving for New York depending on his anger which is radiating off of him.


    "What are you doing here, Ezra!" I regained my expression of shock and scowled at him. I clearly told him that I didn''t want to see him but he would never listen. He had ignored me these past days then why did he have toe and visit me today when finally I was leaving?? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "What am I hearing, Fay!" He growled stepping towards me with his muscled body surrounding me with his warmth and his familiar cologne which smells so mouth-watering. I need to stop noticing every single thing about him, I was doing fine before his arrival but now his presence is affecting me like a drug.


    "W... What are you talking about?" wow! I am stuttering now! Great, just a great way to move on and staying strong in front of Ezra Miller. I need someone to kick my ass for getting Ezra to affect me.


    "Don''t act all innocent now, baby girl! You know what I''m asking about!" He scoffed, covering me with his body and making me shudder in his presence. I need to do something before I submit to him and be a puddy in his hands again. I need to be strong for myself and my heart.


    "She doesn''t have to answer you, Mr. Arrogant! Leave her alone!" Joanna pushed past him knocking him to the side in the process of entering inside and stood beside me.


    "Don''t meddle in our business, Joanna!" I held her hand, stopping her from saying anything. This is my battle to fight and I don''t let anyone fight for me from now on.


    ",


    What exactly did you hear, Ezra?" I asked him and I''m proud of myself that I didn''t stutter like an idiot. Our eyes connect and I can see his emotions clearly which made my heart clench painfully. I can see the betrayal, pain, and longing in his stormy eyes making me want to think about everything I decided. He is my weakness and if maybe he asks me to stay here with him maybe I can stay happy with him but no I can''t do that to myself, I can''t betray myself just because he is looking at me like he will lose everything once he loses me.


    This is for me and I have to leave him, this ce for myself. I have to be selfish for once in my life and I know everything is going to change once I leave this ce behind. We will no longer be best friends and I will never be beside him when he needs me.


    "


    ''Don''t do that, baby girl! I know you don''t want to go and I know I''m the reason behind your decision but I promise that I will behave and will never hurt you." His tone turned pleading, making my eyes burn with tears ready to fall down from my eyes. I don''t want to cry in front of him and show him that this is about him. No, this is about me and everything will always be about me.


    "You don''t have any right to tell me what I can do and what I can''t. I am leaving this ce because I want to do something for myself other than being stuck here where I am suffocating. Don''t make this about yourself." I grumbled through clenched teeth, anger taking over my senses. How dare he tell me to stay here and be miserable? Can''t he be happy for me that finally, I''m moving on and leaving him and Mitchell alone.


    "Baby girl!" He took another step toward me but I raised my hand to stop him from crowding me with his presence. I can''t think straight when he is so close to me, where I can smell his familiar scent and feel his body heat.


    I know that I''m never going to love someone like I loved Ezra and I''m okay with it because I don''t want to love again and get hurt again, that shit hurts a lot.


    "If you even cared for me somewhere along our friendship then you will not say anything about my decision and will never stop me from going." I know he cares about me and he will always care for me but he will never give me what I crave from him and we both know it.


    It''s time to end the chapter of Ezra Irwin and Fay Moore. Maybe we will meet in another dimension where he isn''t afraid of falling in love and where he can only love me and stay with me. I hope in that world there will be no one but just us loving each other and getting our happily ever after and I hope my wishes true.

 After two years

    Two Years Later


    I exited the subway with my shoulders slumped and my body aching from all the running I have done in the kitchen today but I love my work and I can handle all the other consequences whiche after it. I love cooking and helping other chefs even though I have my job to do but it helps my head from wandering and the ache in my heart stops when I am in my zone baking and cooking.


    It''s been two years since I left home and not even visited once in these two years for which I am grateful. Mom and dad visited me a handful of times as they are so busy with their work and we always facetime and call each other. I remember the first day in this big city alone without my parents and Joanna and especially him. He may have control of my life but he supported my dream and encouraged me to pursue what I love. I shake my head to get rid of the thoughts of him.


    Other than my parents, Joanna visits me too, as often as she can and I feel guilty every time she visits this far but she always jokes that once I put my leg back home then my bad luck will pull me inpletely and will never let me leave and I know about whom she was talking and I don''t even think about him anymore. I was going so fine and still doing well.


    I am in the final days of the course and I am working part-time in one of the popr restaurants which is my big dream to work in.


    "Emeralds" is the ce I wanted to work in as a head chef but for now I can chill with being a part-time chef in my dreamy restaurant.


    My phone rang bringing me out of my thoughts and I know who is calling me. She very well knows when I will get off work and walk towards my tiny but homey apartment which Ie to love very dearly. "Hello, Joey!" I teased knowing how much she hates the name but I like how she grumbles and curses.


    "Fay! If I heard that name again then I wille to New York and bang your head on the cake which I will bake and you know how good I can bake a cake." I can hear her smirk in her voice and I also know that her threat is not empty and she can''t even bake a muffin to save her life.


    " Okay, Sorry! We don''t want to go there!" she hummed on the other side of the line.


    "So, How is everything going?" I asked, knowing that she has attended an interview today. Joanna loves to decorate houses and she chose to decorate houses as her profession and looking for jobs so she can work for the experience and save up money and make loyal clients and name to start her ownpany.


    "I Passed the interview and I am joining the office next week. I am so excited to take on my first project, Fay! Can you believe that? My first project!" She yelled excitedly through my phone making me smile wide at her happiness and enthusiasm, whatever tiredness I was feeling vanished from her cheerful yelling.


    "I am so happy for you, Joanna! I wish I was there with you right now so we can celebrate with some pizza and ice cream like old times." I miss her and home so much and the ces we used to visit. "You can still visit us, Fay! Your holidays are starting next week and you can spend those holidays back home and prepare for your exams." She suggested softly not wanting to upset me.


    "I don''t know, Joanna! I am scared toe back even for a day and the way I left that day and saw how vulnerable Ezra looked. I just can''t face him when I am sessfully moving on." I have never seen Ezra with that much emotion since we were kids. He is not the one to show his emotions and how he feels to anyone, not even to me but that day when I told him I am leaving and I have nothing to do with him, I saw a vulnerable and scared little boy standing in front of me scared. "I understand, Fay! But it''s been two years and people change as you and I have changed. Think about it, okay?" I hummed to that and changed the topic to her job and shopping she is going to do and her wardrobe change.


    I reached my apartment and unlocked it saying goodbye to Joanna and ending the call. I need to take a hot shower to loosen my tired muscles and calm my nerves. Joanna''s words were still ringing in my head, making me think about visiting home, as she said people change byoverhe time and I have changed a lot. Maybe he changed too. We can still be friends as whatever I had for Ezra withered away?


    Food and a shower will make me think clearly. I hurried into the shower and took a long and slow shower rxing in the steam and the hot water forgetting about my tiring day and the thoughts of Ezra.


    Once I exited the bathroom I raided my kitchen for something to eat and atst, I decided to make some sd and a cheese sandwich for the night. I gulped down the food with some cold coffee. I prefer coffee all the time. It may be cold or hot but I need it.


    I started tidying the apartment once I washed the dishes and cleaned the kitchen. I know what I am trying to do, my heart is urging me to think about going back but my head is making me and stalling me from doing that by distracting me with all the chores which I don''t have to do now.


    I am so scared of getting hurt again that I am going into defense mode, my head is building all the walls up to protect my heart. Maybe I should take the chance and visit my parents, I miss them so much and it''s been so long. It''s only for two weeks and I don''t even have to stay there for a total of two weeks. I cane back to New York whenever I want.


    I miss Ezra too, I know what he did was so cruel and unfair but he is Ezra and I am not the same as before I am sure I will be strong if I face Ezra now and don''t feel any stupid feelings.


    I should give it a try, I can''t hide here forever and I should definitely face whatever is holding me back. I should get closure from Ezra so I can move onpletely and start dating normally. I have tried so hard to even go on a date but


    whenever I ept someone''s invitation I always feel like I am betraying Ezra even now the thought of dating someone makes my insides squishy but for my sanity, I have to get closure.


    I texted Joanna that I aming home next week and I am going to book a ticket for Monday. Today is Friday and I have two days to dwell on everything and to back out if I feel like it''s too much for me to face him.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.

 Izzy

    I tossed and turned all night with the decision I took and I still am in confusion about whether I am doing the right thing or not. Thinking about making my head throb. I was making my coffee when my doorbell rang, no one visits me on weekends as everyone takes time for themselves but I can guess who that is.


    I stomped towards the door and yanked it open, I am having a sour mood and I probably will have God knows till when.


    "Raise and Shine, Sunshine!" Izzy waltzed into my apartment like a crazed woman, she is my only good friend other than other guys who are with me in the course, and these two years she didn''t let me feel the loss of Joanna and she is literally the cheery bird and an extrovert who sees good in everything.


    Joanna and Izzy are so opposite, one is a grumbling mess with a short temper and the other is patient and cheerful but still, they be good friends and I am happy that she is our friend.


    "It didn''t rhyme well, Izzy!" I murmured before going back to my coffee and sipping it as if my life depended on it. I need caffeine to boost me up.


    "I don''t care! So, I have heard from a birdie that someone is going somewhere." She tapped her chin narrowing her eyes waiting to hear from me but I like to push her buttons so much same as Joanna, they both burst like crackers when poked around and I like their reactions I know who that birdie is and they don''t leave any chance to gossip about me and I don''t know how friends with them.


    "Umm, What are you talking about?" I pulled my innocent face and went Into the kitchen to make something for myself to eat as I hadn''t had anythingst night with all the thoughts guing my head.


    "Ugh! Seriously! Miss Fay Moore? If you don''t spill the beans now then I am going to tell the jake guy that you are dying to go on a date with him." My eyes widened at her threat and a smirk covered her face. Jake is the creepy guy in our ss and he looks at me like he literally wants to eat me even thinking about his stare made me shiver so badly with fear and disgust.


    "Izzy! Don''t threaten me like that and when you already know everything then why ask me?" I scowled at her and flipped my omelet in the pan before taking out the toasts from the toaster.


    "


    I love to hear from you, Fay! And I have a surprise for you!" she announced it like she is going to give me million dors because of the way she has this big grin on her face.


    "Okay? Yeah! I am going to visit my parents." I told without meeting her eyes and cing the breakfast on two tes. I am just not sure if I want to go.All content is ? N0velDrama.Org.


    "It''s great news and I am happy that you can finally enjoy your holidays in two years." I pushed her te toward her and sat down on the stool to eat mine.


    "Yeah, I think so too. Now, what''s your surprise?" I raised my eyebrows at her waiting for her to tell me what she has for me knowing she has something crazy nned for us and I wouldn''t have any choice but to follow her to the surprise and join in. If not then she will sit on my chest and choke me till I say yes to her craziness.


    "I aming with you." she blurted out with a big grin on her face and waited for my reaction.


    "Where?" my brows scrunched in confusion, where is sheing with me?


    "With you to your home, Silly! Joanna and I decided that it will be good if Ie with you so you can rx and breathe properly." huh! It''s not like I don''t want to take her with me but it''s just I don''t want to depend on anyone when finally I have be independent.


    "Umm, I don''t know Izzy that it''s a good idea as I don''t want to trouble you and you were waiting to meet your parents and siblings." I seriously don''t like troubling everyone around me just because I am scared to face my problems, I am not that selfish to drag someone with me and I know how much she was missing her family.


    "


    Don''t worry about it, Fay! We have two weeks off. So I will spend a week with you and Joanna and the other week with my family." She said it like its no big deal but I am feeling guilty that she has toe with me for moral support, if it is on a normal asion then I wouldn''t have thought about it so much but she knows how hard it was for me to go back and she is doing this for me. I am really lucky that I have friends who stay with me through thick and thin.


    "You Don''t have to Izzy but I am very happy that you thought about it." I got up from my stool and went to her side and engulfed her in my arms showing her my appreciation. We stayed in the hug for a long minute and I am somewhat relieved that I will have someone with me throughout the journey back. I just have to stay away from Ezra.


    "Okay, great! So we have just a few hours to celebrate." she jumped out of her stool and practically ran towards my room with a happy sprint.


    "What are you talking about? We have one and a half days and what is there to celebrate?" I followed her to my room and she was already rummaging through my closet, pulling out dresses and cing them on the bed making two sections. "I know that and I am not talking about it, what I am talking about is us going to the new club which opened this week to celebrate you going home." she threw the words at me surprising and it was not like we haven''t gone to the clubs before or haven''t had parties. It''s just that I am surprised that she wants to celebrate me going to him. Izzy will be the only one who can think crazy things like this.


    "Okay, if you say so." We bothughed and started rummaging through my closet to get sexy outfits for the night ording to her. It didn''t take much time for that and we have outfits for the night, hers consist of a ck bodycon dress and mine is the same as hers but in red.


    After arranging everything in ce, we went back to the living room to have lunch and ordered some food and rxed the afternoon with a movie and food forgetting about everything for a while.


    Maybe everything will be fine and cool back home and maybe I am overreacting too much. Time will tell what happens there and I should stop worrying and not make a big deal out of it.

 Daniel

    Izzy and I are in the cab going to the ce she said opened this week and I am looking forward to it. Maybe I can indulge myself in alcohol and let myself lose it so I can forget about going back home and running into Ezra. Ugh, I should stop thinking and just enjoy the evening. The cab parked in front of the club and I stepped down from the car and pulled down the dress which was raised. This is the problem with short dresses, I can''t even sit or walk properly in them.


    "Come, let''s go! I know the bouncer so it''s easy for us to get in." Izzy said, dragging me towards the entrance where there is a big line of people waiting to be let in.


    "How do you know the Bouncer, Izzy? You told me that it openedst week!" how would she know the bouncer when this is the first time she ising here?


    "I have my ways, Fay!" she winked at me before guiding me towards the entrance. I know what her ways are, Izzy will flirt her way into anything and I am not judging her or anything but she flirts way too much for her good.


    The second we entered the club I was hit by the scents of sweat, perfumes, alcohol, and sex all mixing making my nose scrunch in disgust. My nose needs time to get used to the scents until then I have to just breathe through my nose even if it feels like I am going to die.


    "Let''s go to the bar first," Izzy shouted through the loud music. I nodded my head and followed her to the bar. I am not a fan of alcohol but tonight I want to let loose in it.


    We sit on the bar stools and a good-looking and cute bartender is serving the people and impressing them with his skills. My eyes are glued to his hands, mesmerized by the way he is shaking the drinks in the shaker and mixing everything, and the way the veins in his hands bulging and his arms flexing made me gulp.


    I don''t want to indulge myself in the attraction and the activities it follows. I am not the type of person who does one-night stands and I want to stay that way.


    "What do you want to drink?" Izzy asked from beside me, she is also eyeing the bartender, and the said bartender is also making his eyes at her. Good, one of us is getting lucky tonight.


    "Umm, I don''t know! Surprise me." I grin at her, making her alreadyrge grin bigger. She is so bubbly that sometimes my eyes hurt seeing her like this.


    "Okay, Get ready to be surprised." she slid down from her stool and went towards the bartender with a sway of her hips and a charming smile on her face. I don''t doubt her flirting skills at all.


    I roamed my eyes around me but I couldn''t see the people clearly due to the dim lights. Some people were grinding on the dance floor and some were sipping their drinks. Everyone is in their own world.


    Someone cleared their throat beside me pulling me out of my head. I turned around slightly to see who is the one invading my personal space. I can smell his cologne which is hurting my nostrils.


    "Umm, Can I help you?" I questioned looking into the stranger''s pale blue eyes. He is not bad to look at but not even a fraction of interest or attraction swirled in me. He ruined me for everyone whose name I can''t take or think. "Actually, Yes!" My eyebrows touched my hairline at his confidence. I like men who show their confidence so freely rather thaning out as arrogant.


    I gave him a small smile and turned my body towards him to give him my attention. He seems harmless and cute, I can at least be civil to him.


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    "I Am dying to buy a drink for a beautifuldy throughout the evening but I never saw one until you so can I buy you a drink?" He has a big grin on his face making mefortable with his personality and I didn''t expect these words toe out of his mouth. Buying a drink for you is themon pickup line but still, heplimented me and I like it.


    An amusedugh escaped, surprising me that I am capable of letting myself enjoy someone''spliment as I always steer clear of guys. Maybe I need this change too.


    "Thanks but my friend already went to get us drinks." I pointed towards the other end of the bar where Izzy is so busy flirting with the bartender. His grin pulled down making me feel bad for it but the next words rolled out of my mouth on their ord surprising me again for the second time this night.


    "You can buy me the next drink? I guess." I smiled up at him and his grin came back and his blue eyes shone brighter. He is kind of cute with his grin.


    "Count on me." He threw a wink at me, making me blush. I need to stop taking things seriously. It''s just a healthy conversation and it''s normal, I reminded myself.


    "I will, so what''s your name!" I asked, wanting to divert him from noticing my red cheeks and it worked as the way he perked up.


    "Daniel, and you?" Iughed at his eagerness in knowing my name.


    "Fay." He repeated my name too, making us bothugh at it. Maybe we can be friends? He is cool and I amfortable with him.


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    " :


    You have a unique and rare name and I like it." Heplimented my name with a warm smile. After a long time, I am like someone''spany other than Joanna and Izzy''s. I know he is a stranger and I need to let my guard up but he is not giving me the creeps and is quite funny and cute.


    "What are you lovebirds talking about?" Izzy''s loud voice reached my ears despite the loud music thumping around us. She has a big curious grin on her face and two sses of our drinks in her hands walking towards us. I groaned at her narrowing my eyes in warning to stop her antics but it made her smirk grow more. She is going to make me and Daniel ufortable with her matchmaking.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "Izzy! He is Daniel and Daniel She is Izzy, My friend." I made the introductions and she took the empty seat beside Daniel handing me my drink which I took great full and took a sip liking the sweet taste and burning. "So, How did you guys meet?" Her attention is on Daniel who has his signature grin ying on his face.


    "My hawk-like eyes found a beautiful woman sitting alone at the bar so I wanted to give her a little bit of my preciouspany." He wiggled his eyebrows at Izzy making her cackle at him. They are both so extra.


    "Izzy You got your twin," I said, pointing toward Daniel who circled his arm on Izzy''s shoulder emphasizing my words.


    "


    I guess so, but I am really lucky to find her then." He winked at her and they both chuckled at my scowl.


    "Whatever, Now I need to forget about everything and enjoy the night." I took a huge gulp of my drink and finished it in one go. My head already started buzzing as I''m a light drinker but today I just need the alcohol and two friends to dance away the night.


    "You don''t need to worry, Fay! I am a very goodpany to let loose." Daniel handed me the drink he brought for Izzy and I. I thanked him before taking another mouthful of the sweet liquid which was making me float in the air and all my worries and fears of going back and meeting him evaporated.

 Surprise!

    "Why didn''t you stopst night!" I snapped at Izzy who was grinning like a maniac from beside me, making me groan in annoyance. My head is throbbing and I feel like I am going to puke my guts out at this rate. We were in a taxi in my hometown going to my home. It was a bad idea to drinkst night and another mistake was flying the next morning with a bitch of a hangover.


    "I warned you, Fay but you were sopetitive with Daniel that you didn''t listen." I know I should have listened to her but the way Daniel was provoking me topete with him with how many shots we can take in a minute and that minutes turn into hours with us downing all types of alcohol.


    "That devil in the form of a human is so evil." I gritted out hearing a chuckle from Izzy.


    "You are the same as him, Fay so don''t curse him." It''s the best hangover as I am not thinking about anything other than the raging headache. There are no nerves or anything about running to the real devil of my life.


    "I am going to crash in my bed as soon as we reach home." I mentally drooled at the image of my room and bed calling for me to embrace it. The hangover is making me a drama queen.


    The taxi stopped in front of my home and I pushed back my sunsses to hide my bloodshot eyes from my parents who were waiting on the porch. It''s been so long since I have seen them in person and I really missed them.


    Izzy and I got out of the car and paid the driver. The driver had already taken our bags from the car. I ran towards my parents and engulfed them in a hug surrounding myself with their familiar warmth and scent. I missed their hugs and love so damn much.


    "I missed you guys so much." they kissed my head murmuring they missed me too.


    "Let''s get inside, you reek of ten different kinds of alcohol." Mom Scrunched her face yfully, making meugh at her.


    "My new friend made me drink so much in the name ofpeting with each other and I have got a brutal hangover." I rubbed my temples suddenly feeling them throb intensely. Seeing my parents eased the pain but now it came back. "Who is that new friend?" mom wiggled her eyebrows in a yful manner showing her big grin.


    "His name is Daniel Mrs. Moore." Izzy chimed in, making me re at her. My mom''s grin turns into a full-blown grin and her eyes are shining with curiosity.


    "How many times did I tell you to call me Helena, Dear!" Mom gave Izzy a hug yfully ring at her. Izzy had met my parents when they came to visit me, and they love her as much as they love Joanna.


    "Sorry, Helena." Izzy gave my mom a shy smile turning towards my dad and greeting him calling him by his name too.


    "Guys, Can I take a small nap?" I asked the three of them, I really need a nap right now otherwise my head is going to burst any second.


    "Sure, darling. I will wake you up for dinner." My dad said taking my bag upstairs to my room and I followed him behind.


    As soon as my dad left the room I pulled the sunsses from my eyes and threw them somewhere not caring to change my clothes and slipped into a slumber in my soft bed and the familiar room and warmth surrounding me and despite the hangover and all but the sleep took me in instant with the familiar surroundings around me.


    When I woke up my head felt light and my mood was pleasant. I turned my head toward my windows and it was ready dark. How much did I sleep? I stretched my body yawning while rising from the bed.


    A low rumble came from my tummy making me halt in my step toward the bathroom. I haven''t eaten anything since morning and only gulped down coffee and now I need food and I am starving.


    I brushed my teeth to remove the remains ofst night from my mouth and took a shower to wash out the alcohol from my pores. I have never drunk that much in my life and I am never going to drink that much again.


    I passed out on the table in the club, and Izzy had to take me to the apartment by literally dragging me.


    I left the room wearing a t-shirt and sweatpants feelingfortable and content with a peaceful nap anding home after a long time.


    I can hear voices from downstairs making me smile, one of the voices is Joanna''s. I hurried down the stairs to engulf her in a big hug but my legs came to a halt hearing a voice I am not ready for.


    I''m on thest stair and if I take one more step then they will see me. Ugh! Why does he have toe and why? What the hell is he doing in my house? Shock turned Into anger and without thinking about anything I entered the living room with a nk face.


    "It''s good to see you all here." I gave a tight smile and turned towards Joanna to re at her and I am yet to make eye contact with the devil in the room but I am buying time till I have to face him.


    I may be looking so calm and collected outside but inside I am feeling all sorts of emotions running through me and the main one is Anger.


    Joanna got up from the couch she is upying and moved toward me with a nk face too. She is not a fan of Ezra but still, she is breathing in the same space as him right now and didn''te to my room to warn me that he is in my house sitting with my parents what made me boil is that Izzy has been ogling over him with big eyes and If I can see properly then I will find drool at the corner of her mouth.


    "I just got here, If he hade after me then I would have warned you." She whispered in my ear, hugging me. I wrapped my arms around her, hugging her back.


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    Now I can see him sitting on the couch beside Izzy and our eyes meet making me suck in a breath with the way he is looking at me.


    Like me, he also has a nk face not letting me see anything right now. In the past, I was able to read his every emotion and what he was thinking but right now I don''t know who he is anymore.All content is ? N0velDrama.Org.


    Ezra stood up from the ce he was upying. He has changed so much but at the same time, he looks the same. His shoulders have be broader since thest time and he was wearing a ck t-shirt and jeans which hugged his thick thighs.


    When he moved toward me my eyes widened looking at the tattoos on his arms and neck making him look so lethal and powerful. He took long strides with powerful steps not breaking our eye contact. He is not this intimidating but right now any grown man can piss his pants seeing this giant man with muscles and tattoos.


    Is he the same sweet Ezra who watched sappy romantic movies with me as he likes to call them? Is he the same boy who painted my toes and had sleepovers and did all the girly stuff with me growing up? Did two years change him so much that I am having a hard time looking for the old Ezra? Now he looks like a man with a mission and he can kill anyone with his re.


    I hugged Joanna tightly not wanting to let her go because I know the moment I let Joanna move away from me is the moment Ezra will upy her ce and upy me with his intoxicative scent and warmth my body, head, and heart is not ready for.


    He cleared his throat standing behind Joanna and our eye contact is still intact making me shudder with delight. It''s not too good to be turned on right now and I don''t want my body to react this way toward Ezra, he doesn''t deserve it. Reluctantly I pulled away from Joanna, Ezra didn''t even give me a second to straighten up. He stepped into my personal space, and his strong arms snaked around me making our bodies pressed up together so tightly.


    Wood and spice invaded my nose, tingling it and I can feel every inch of his hard body against mine. My face is smashed into his wide chest and his heartbeat is erratic. I know my heart is also acting up crazy because I shamelessly pressed myself more into him.


    "I missed you so damn much Baby girl." He rasped out in my ear, his hot breath fanning my ear. Holy shit! How did his voice be this deep and mouth-watering making my toes curl in pleasure? It''s going to be so hard to resist Ezra Irwin now and I am doomed.

 Her Taste

    Ezra''s Pov:


    "Where is your girlfriend?" This is the first sentence I am hearing from Fay after two years. I told her that I missed it but she is asking about my girlfriend! There is no girlfriend and never was.


    "I don''t have a girlfriend, Fay! You know that." I narrowed my eyes at her to not ask that again. She has changed so much in these two years and at the same time so damn much beautiful that I am having a hard time keeping my hands to myself.


    While I was hugging her, the sweet familiar smell of her intoxicated me making me hard in an instant and my lips tingled dying to taste her mouth. I missed her so much and I had done things I hadn''t done for anyone. "She is talking about Mitchell, Ezra!" Joanna said rolling her eyes at me like I am stupid. Sometimes I feel like wringing her neck like a chicken but she is Fay''s friend and I don''t want to hurt my baby girl anymore. "Mitchell and I were over and she was never my girlfriend and I don''t have any girlfriends." I gritted out the words to Joanna looking at her to Fay who has her brows raising in curiosity and indifference too.


    "It''s good to hear." Izzy Fay''s other friend muttered behind me making Fay''s eyes turn towards her sharply. Anger shimmered in her eyes but as instantly as it came she smoother it down too I had caught it making a smirk grow on my lips. "Why don''t we start dinner?" Mrs. Moore said ushering us towards the table I take my regr seat at the table and I know Fay will sit beside me as we always sat at the bit of same ce before she can take her ce, Izzy slumped her body beside me in Fay''s ce.


    I groaned inwardly not getting to feel my baby girl''s scent and warmth beside me.


    Fay and Joanna took their ce on opposite sides of the table and we started eating the food Mrs. Moore prepared she is the best cook in the entire world. My top chefs even didn''tpare to her food. "Your hands have Magic Mrs. Moore. This tastes so good." I groaned out taking a bite of the steak and mashed potatoes.


    "Thanks, Ezra." She gave me her warm smile and I returned one of the smiles I reserved for only Moore women.


    "Umm, What do you do Ezra?" Fay''s nosy friend asked from beside me. She is fluttering her eyes at me making me ufortable. I don''t want to upset Fay more with the attention I am getting from her friend.


    "I run apany," I answered, without looking at her and eating the food. I can feel Fay''s gaze burning into me. I need to show her that I am not interested in her friend but I want her attention. I know I fucked up long ago and hurt but this time I going to do everything right.


    "Whatpany?" She asked again, trying to indulge me in the conversation. I roll my eyes at her obvious interest in me.


    "A fashion industry." One-line answers are to tell the person that I am not interested in the conversation or whatever but she is not taking the hint. I need to get Fay alone even for a minute to tell her what I was waiting to tell. "Oh! Nice, I love experimenting with clothes and makeup." Izzy started bbering about what she likes, etc but my focus is on my baby girl who is sitting silently and ying around with her food and asionally nodding her head at whatever Joanna and her parents are saying.


    Once we were done with the dinner we moved toward the living room and I took my ce on the couch and waited for Fay to sit beside me but Izzy beat her and sat beside me giving me a grin. How can I survive her tonight?


    I hope Fay is not thinking that I am overly interacting with her friend and trying to get into her pants because it''s the other way around.


    "I am going to my room, I am still feeling hungover," Fay murmured and moved towards the stairs. I just need to wait for her to enter her room and I will go to her room.


    "I will say goodbye to Fay and leave." I stood up from the couch not giving anyone a chance to stop me. I am not going to listen to anyone stopping me from talking to her alone.


    I hurried towards the stairs and stood in front of her room''s door. I turned the doorknob and let myself inside, she is in the bathroom with the sound of the water running inside. I lean my body against the wall waiting for her toe out.


    I am surrounded by her familiar scent making me inhale a lungful, rxing me in an instant and I forgot half of my worries only with her scent. Her Scent, Her warmth, and Fay herself are like therapy for my insane self.


    I was a fool to let her go once but now I am going to hold on to her so tightly and if I need to grovel at her feet then I will do that too.


    A notification dinged from beside me pulling my attention and there were a series of notifications buzzing. I squinted my eyes at Fay''s phoneying on the table lighting with texts pouring in from Daniel. Who the fuck is he?


    I took the phone from the table and the words I saw on the screen made me grind my teeth in anger.


    "What the hell are you doing with my phone?" Fay growled at me and snatched her phone from my hands.


    "Who the fuck is Daniel?" I demanded taking steps towards her and she stood her ground ring at me and not answering my question. Seeing her standing up to me and not cowering like she always did make a thrill go up my spine. I am not angry but turned on by her defiance.


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    "It''s none of your business, Ezra. Leave me alone." She growled, narrowing her eyes at me and sneering like a powerful lioness. I have never seen her this side but I am loving her anger and rage.


    "It is my business when that fucker calls you cutie and the sweet shit, baby girl," I growled not giving her a chance to react, and snaked my arms around her and pulled her body towards mine, and moved towards the wall.


    "What are you doing, Ezra!" She demanded weakly. Her breathes out heavily and I know she is affected by my closeness as much as I''m affected by it and she can feel the evidence on her stomach hard and pulsing dying to be inside her.All content is ? N0velDrama.Org.


    I bent my head and buried my face in her neck inhaling her scent and my body shuddered violently with desire and want for her.


    "You are mine, Baby girl and I hate sharing what''s mine so tell me he is nothing." I croaked out, skimming my lips on her throat and hitting her earlobe slightly, making her shiver in my arms.


    "Tell me, Fay! Tell me he is nothing and you are mine." My face moved towards her lips and we were a breath away from each other. If I dip my head slightly then our lips will touch and I am dying to taste her.


    "E...Ezra...." I didn''t let her finish the words and took her lips with mine groaning at the first taste of her after a long time. Her kisses are like a drug to me and I am an addict.


    Fay Moore owns Ezra Irwin and she is owning me from the second she saw the broken kid sitting on a bench crying by himself alone.

 Same Old me

    Oh my God! Is this really happening? I moaned into his mouth pushing Myself closer to his body and feeling every hard muscle of him blending with my soft body. I should have pushed him away and pped him across his face like a good girl for forcing a kiss but I am not a good girl and he is not forcing me to kiss him back. I am seriously going to hell.


    Ezra Irwin is a sweet poison that consumes your body so slowly that even you don''t know and His kiss is hot and cool at the same time making my head spin.


    "Fay! Can Ie in?" Izzy''s voice broke our kiss and the haze we were in.


    Ezra reluctantly pulled his mouth away from mine groaning but didn''t push me away.


    "We need to talk, Fay! I wille in the morning and we are going to get brunch together." He said, kissing my forehead and lingering his lips there. I don''t know what to answer him other than keep silent. I don''t even know if I will go with him to the brunch. I nned to avoid Ezra over the days I stay here but he bulldozed into my life on the first day of my stay here and my head is nk.


    "Fay! I am going to open the door." Izzy''s impatient voice came in again making Ezra growl in annoyance and anger. He never likes it if someone disturbs his time with me and Izzy is doing exactly the same.


    Izzy doesn''t know about Ezra and me, I mean she knows that we are friends from childhood but she doesn''t know the crush I had on him and how I slept with him and all as Joanna knows.


    "You sure know how to choose a friend." I rolled my eyes at his sarcasm and tried to wiggle myself away from him but he didn''t let me.


    "Why are you being so touchy all of a sudden, Ezra!" I scowled at his grin, he looked so cute with his dimples and the boyish grin on his face after a long time.


    "I love my hands on you baby girl." He winked at me making me groan at him in annoyance but inside I am nothing but a mess feeling giddy and warm. Ezra Irwin is a magician and he knows how to make his magic work on his victims and I am one of them.


    I pulled myself out of his greedy hands and walked towards the door to let Izzye in as she is being so impatient and knocking on the door repeatedly.


    Izzy was inside my room the second she entered with her usual cheeriness and a big grin. She is mesmerized by Ezra as she is looking at him like he is some Greek God or something. Adoration mixed with desire and everything is shining in her eyes which is making me ufortable.


    "We were catching up with each other, you disturbed us so rudely." Ezra Scowled at her, making her grin drop slightly. I am shocked at his hostility! Ezra was never this harsh with any pretty girl, I mean he always flirted with them even when he was with me but now he is genuinely annoyed that Izzy has barged in.


    "I.. Umm...Sorry....." Izzy stuttered her words not knowing what to say and at the same time embarrassed.


    "It''s okay, you don''t need to apologize, he is just kidding." I rolled my eyes at Ezra who had his eyes narrowed at me and pulled Izzy inside the room.


    "Oh! Okay then. So what were you guys catching up on?" Izzy''s usual self came out forgetting about Ezra''s hostility and making googly eyes at him once again making me sigh.


    "We picked up where we left," Ezra said with a wicked grin and desire so intensely shining in his eyes making me squirm and the need to press my thighs together is so overwhelming and shameful that I know my face looks red with shame and embarrassment.


    Why Is he doing this? And enjoying himself and making me miserable.


    "


    Okay, so what are your ns for tomorrow? I am thinking that we should all catch up somewhere." Izzy asked, they are talking like I am not present there. It''s not new to me in Ezra''s presence.


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    Ezra suddenly moved towards me and ced his arm around me making my eyes widen. He was never this touchy with me, yeah he was touchy before but this feels so intimate and feels like he is marking me or something, and his touch igniting a fire.


    "I have ns with Fay. Maybe next time." He gave her a small smile and turned his head toward me and bent it and I know he is moving toward my lips. He is going to kiss me in front of Izzy and I don''t know how to exin it to her. "Umm, Ezra?.." I whispered trying to tell him to not kiss me but his lips touched the corner of my mouth but mostly my cheek making me suck in a breath.


    "I will pick you up tomorrow, be ready." He whispered in my ear nting another kiss on my head and left the room without saying anything to Izzy but just nodding his head at her with ast heated lingering gaze on me. "What was that?" I am still in Ezra''s daze that I didn''t hear or see Izzy standing beside me and looking at me oddly.


    "What was what?" I asked, scrunching my brows trying to look innocent but Izzy can smell ones bullshit even from a mile.


    "Don''t act Coy, Fay! He was looking at you like he wanted to eat you." She raised her eyebrows in question waiting for my answer but she is not getting anything from me because it was nothing and it was just Ezra and he was always the


    same.


    "It''s just Ezra being Ezra, Izzy. He is unpredictable and we can''t know what he thinks." I dismissed her by waving at her and walking toward my bed to sleep or at least try to after the kiss.


    "Where is Joanna?" I asked, wanting to divert the topic.


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    "She is helping your mom in the kitchen clean up." She said, still standing.


    "Hey!" Joanna peeked her head inside the room, gaining our attention. Her brows raised in question looking at us sitting and standing feeling awkward.


    "What happened?" She entered the room and sat on the bed beside me looking at me waiting for the answer.


    "She is going out with Ezra tomorrow." Izzy chimed in moving towards the bed. Joanna is going to kill me.


    "He asked me for brunch and most likely demanded but I am not going." The words came out fast surprising me and Joanna who is looking at me like she doesn''t believe me.


    "He missed you more than us, Fay! You should go." This is the first time I am hearing Joanna defending Ezra and her asking to go with him. I don''t know how to react to that as I have never been in this situation where Joanna takes Ezra''s side. "If she doesn''t want to go then it''s up to her. Why don''t we both join her!" Izzy suggested from beside me.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    "No, She should go and I know she wants to." Joanna scowled at Izzy, cutting her off and giving me a look telling me that this conversation is not over and I am going to brunch with Ezra Irwin.

 Izzys Surprise

    I woke up to the sound of banging on my door. I tossed and turned all night thinking about the stupid kiss which ignite the fire in me which had withered when I left home two years ago. It''s dangerous to my soul and heart to be near Ezra. "Fay! Open the door right now or else I will kick it down," Izzy yelled from the outside of the door making me groan. I barely slept and she is disturbing the little sleep I was getting.


    "Go Away Izzy!" I yelled out covering my face with a pillow and trying to block out her noise and knocking but she persistently started knocking again. I am not going to get free of her.


    "This better be something worth losing my sleep over or else pray to God that....." I yanked the door open, my words dying in my throat.


    "Surprise!" They both yell in unison making me look at them like I am dumb. I hate surprises and especially like these.


    "Daniel? What are you doing here?" I asked, making his grin fall a bit but like always Izzy covered everything with her bubblyugh and pushed me into the room Daniel tailing her.


    "Don''t be so surprised! I called him over since he is bored out of his mind during the holidays." Umm! She didn''t even ask me first to invite him over! It''s not like I am mad to see Daniel here but at least she should have informed me. "You are alright with meing here, Right?" Daniel asked, raising her eyebrows in question. Seeing him like this made me put a stop to my inner battle of doubts and a grin starts to appear.


    "Of course it''s alright and I am happy that you joined us." I gave him a side hug and returned to my earlier ce to stand.


    "See! I told you she will be alright with this." Izzy chimed in while going through my phone.


    "What are you doing with my phone miss bubble!" I snatched my phone from her hands and locked it not wanting her to snoop around.


    "I just texted Joanna toe over for brunch." She is faster than me.


    "I will freshen up and meet you guys down." I moved toward the bathroom and closed the door to get ready for the day which had been started with a st and I don''t know what will happen till the evening.


    Once I check myself in the mirror and am satisfied with how I am looking, I went downstairs for the breakfast.


    "Good Morning!" I greeted my parents and sat down in my chair, Daniel and Izzy are sitting opposite me.


    "Good Morning! How did you sleep, Fay!" Mom asked, kissing my head and sitting on my right side. The sound of the doorbell gained our attention and Izzy shot up from her chair and practically ran towards the door like she is knows who is behind the door.


    "I think Joanna came," I inform mom taking a huge gulp of coffee to wash away the remaining sleep lingering.


    "Good Morning, Mr & Mrs. Moore." I choke on my coffee hearing the familiar deep voice behind me and his intense re on my head.


    I forgot about Ezra''s brunch invitation till now. I know he will throw an Ezra tantrum right now in front of everyone but I need to put my foot down steadily to not let him walk all over me.


    My parents greeted him back with big smiles and asked him to take a seat and to my not-so-much surprise he moved towards the chair beside me but at thest moment, Izzy pulled him towards the chair beside her making me raise my eyebrows in surprise.


    Like, what the hell!


    Ezra has a big scowl on his face and his jaw is clenched tight. I know he is annoyed as he hates it if someone touches him without his permission and Izzy is doing the exact thing.


    "I can find myself a chair, you know!" Ezra gave her a tight smile and plopped himself on the chair. I know he is controlling himself fromshing out and I don''t know why the change.


    Izzy didn''t even faze out at his words and just gave him a grin. I don''t know what is with her and yeah I know she is some type of flirt but the way she is eyeing Ezra is making me ufortable. "YOU ARE STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM"


    A loud voice yelled in my head making me cringe in my ce. I was totally avoiding that voice for two years and was totally fine but seeing him in front of me with his beauty and charm, that voice is yelling out loud.


    "It''s good to have you with us, Ezra!" My Dad said filling his mouth with pancakes. A warm smile yed on his lips. My parents always wee Ezra into our home and never restrict us from anything as they know Ezra''s condition and how his parents are separated but still living in the same house and leading different lives as they don''t want people to talk about Irwin''splicated family.


    "Fay invited me toe join for breakfast." Our eyes met making my stomach drop and the way he is looking at me is making me squirm. Why does he have to be so God damn handsome and make me feel alive and so many things I can''t count right now.


    I raised my eyebrows in question asking him when did I text him and why the hell is he lying! His eyes narrowed at my expression making me drop it and I averted my eyes not able to hold his burning gaze.


    "Ezra! You didn''t meet Fay''s friend, right? This is Daniel and Daniel, this is Ezra." Izzy interrupted him when he opened his mouth ready to say something and Daniel is not only my friend, he is her friend too.


    "Hey, Man! How are you doing?" Daniel forwarded his hand for a handshake and Ezra''s eyes didn''t leave mine trying to find something in them and I don''t know what? And he saw the text Daniel sent to mest night and he is cooking his version of the story in his thick head.


    He took Daniel''s hand and shook it with the same tight smile he was holding from the start.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "Hi! I am great!" He is still looking at me and I just nodded my head at him and bowed my head down not having the energy to hold his gaze.


    "Fay! I will take you somewhere. Please get ready after breakfast." I head snapped up but he is not looking at me anymore rather stuffing his face with pancakes with lots of syrup as he loves it.


    "Where?"


    "Can Ie too!" Izzy and I asked at the same time and my eyes turned towards my friend who is behaving like all the girls who always flocked behind Ezra.


    "I rather leave it as a surprise and No Izzy." Demanding Asshole, I threw daggers at him with my eyes throughout the breakfast and with the way he has an annoying smirk on his face I know he thinks he won and yeah! He won as I already made up my mind by going with him.


    Izzy''s smile dropped and her head bowed down in defeat. Seeing her sad made me feel bad for her but at the same time a small part of me is feeling giddy at his refusal and I hate that part.


    I need to draw a thick line between us and I just want us to be friends and nothing more and he can''t demand things from me and order me around. I huffed out loud and went to my room to get ready for the stupid surprise and I know it is nothing. He is just getting me away from everyone for himself.


    He hates sharing me with everyone but he gets himself shared among others, I scoffed at that thought, and raided my wardrobe for an outfit.

 Took My Breath Away

    I get down the stairs wearing skinny jeans and a crop top with a bit of makeup. Daniel, Mom, and dad are sitting in the living room but Ezra is nowhere to be seen.


    "Where is Ezra?" I asked mom, looking for him in the kitchen at the same time Izzy is also not in the living room or the kitchen area.


    "He is waiting for you outside," Mom informed me going back to her phone.


    "I wille soon and then we can go into the town and have fun," I told Daniel who pouted at me yfully.


    "Okay, okay Miss. Moore, I will be waiting for you like a good little boy." Iughed at his teasing and went outside, closing the door behind me.


    Ezra is standing near his car with his thick arms crossed across his broad chest and Izzy is eating his ears off with god knows what she is rambling but Ezra totally zoned her out.


    "I hope I didn''t make you wait for long," I said, walking towards the car and Izzy jumped back like she got caught while doing something she shouldn''t.


    "No, baby girl! Let''s go." He gave me a panty-dropping smile, making my face heat up.


    "See you soon, Izzy!" I waved at her, who had a grim expression on her face but she covered it with her usual cheeriness.


    Am I seeing something wrong? Why is she angry? Or sad? Or frustrated? Izzy is confusing day by day and I need to talk to her and she didn''t even wave back, just smiled at me and turned her head toward Ezra who was already sitting in the


    car.


    Once Ezra Pulled the car from my driveway I took a deep breath calming myself and shaking every thought out of my head. It''s been so long since I spent time with my best friend and I want my best friend back. To make that happen I need to push back the part of myself which loves Ezra like mad.


    "So? You didn''t tell me where we are going!" I probed again trying for an answer but he is a stubborn fucker who doesn''t budge so easily.


    "I am not going to open my mouth till we get there," he answered without looking at me, making me yfully huff at him.


    "But you just opened your mouth Mr. Mysterious!" I sass back knowing how much he gets irritated when I talk back.


    "Yeah! So! I can do whatever I can, Miss. Sassy pants." I narrowed my eyes at his words and punched his arm less strongly to show him how much he gets on my nerves.


    "Shut up! And drive Ezra." I grumbled out and turned my face towards the window hearing his chuckle float my way. We always butted heads, as well as stood beside each other when one needs another and the tiny bit of banter we just had made me realize that we will easily fit back into ourselves in front of each other.


    Ezra slowed down toward an apartment building making me wonder where he brought me.


    "What is this ce? You need to tell me something, Ezra. I won''t get out of the car till you tell me whose building is this." I crossed my arms around myself making a point of not getting out of the car.


    "This is my ce, Fay! Why are you being so suspicious? Do you think I''m kidnapping you?" He wiggled his eyebrows yfully at me making me scrunch my nose.


    "Ha ha...You are so funny." I got out of the car after taunting him. He left the cat too, following me towards the entrance of therge building trying to intimidate me like a big bad wolf.


    We silently stood for the elevator to arrive and once it came we entered and Ezra pressed the P button and we stood silently. I can feel his body heat so close to me making my heart rate increase and at the same time my head is ying all types of scenarios in which Ezra and I are in questionable positions!


    Wow! My imagination didn''t have any limits.


    "Are you alright, Baby girl!" Ezra is looking at me with concern in his eyes as I am squirming in his presence.


    The second I removed Ezra''s curfew from my head I was feeling all sorts of things for him and now I can''t even look him in the eyes without wanting to jump his bones.


    "Y.. Yeah! I am fine." I stuttered like a fool and started counting numbers in my head to clear it off of Ezra.


    " ''I don''t think you are fine, Baby girl." I can hear the smirk in his voice and he clearly knows what effect he has on me.


    One more floor to go and then the doors will be open to his Penthouse. His presence, and his scent is clouding my senses and making me feel like I am in heat.


    The elevator pinged, opening the doors and revealing a beautiful view in front of me.


    "Wow! It''s so beautiful Ezra." There is a big ss wall standing tall ahead of me and I can see everything up from here and the view is just so beautiful. If this is my house then I will be gluing myself to this wall 24/7 reading some books and enjoying the view.


    "I know right!" I can feel his eyes on me and the intense gaze of his setting my body on fire. The nerves and throbbing between my legs were forgotten by the view of this ss but now he is demanding attention with his gaze which is slowly caressing my body like a feather.


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    "Why did you bring me here, Ezra!" I asked, holding my breath to hear his answer. He can see in my eyes that I have thrown away the reluctance towards him and knowing Ezra Irwin he will take advantage of it fully.


    "I wanted you for myself, Baby girl. I just need to be in your presence without anyone disturbing us. I hate it when someonees between us."


    He takes a step toward me, desires pooling in his dark eyes and if I look at myself in the mirror, mine will look the same.


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    I don''t want to fight this between us anymore, the consequences be damned.


    "I am so sorry, Baby girl for hurting you and making you feel you don''t matter to me." in two long strides he is in front of me, in my space filling me with his mouth-watering scent and body heat.


    "Ezra!" I don''t know what else to say other than his name as this is so surprising that I have never thought that he will realize how much he hurt me.


    "I am just not talking about that night and after that, Baby girl. I am sorry for always, for not considering your feelings and emotions." He croaked out cupping my cheeks and nuzzling his nose with mine.


    "Sorry for unting girls in front of you and making you hurt." His soft lips brush against mine, briefly taking away my breath.


    My head is buzzing with his words and presence. I don''t know if it is a dream or a reality. I never thought that he would apologize for hurting me but we both were young for most of the time after that he just side-eyed my feelings toward him, toying with them as he was always possessive over me regarding boys.


    "I know that you are sorry, Ezra, and I want to put everything behind us and move on." This time my voice came out strongly and saying this I am making a deal with him and my heart.


    "I am an Asshole for ever hurting you and I don''t know how much your words soothe my heart and soul." His lips crash against mine in a searing kiss stealing my breath.


    Our bodies were glued together and Ezra''s hands were behind my neck guiding my lips to move against his. My hands were on his broad shoulders trying to pull him more into me.


    A moan left my lips at the first taste of him. This kiss feels so different from others and I am loving every second of it. I can feel Ezra''s hardness pushing into my abdomen and I bet that my panties are ruined by my arousal.


    If we don''t stop this then we will be in his bed naked within seconds.


    We both need time to sort out our feelings for each other and Ezra didn''t confess that he likes me, he just apologized. I don''t want to get my hopes up again to just see them crumble again. I can''t handle it this time.

 Sunset & Her

    Ezra''s Pov:


    Fay pushed me away with her hands on my chest and our lips let loose reluctantly. I have no intention of ever stopping tasting her but sometimes I have to settle for her and not overwhelm her with my dominating self.


    "You taste so fucking sweet, baby girl and I don''t want to leave your mouth even for a second." I groaned those words near her lips wanting to have another taste of them but I need to take it slow.


    "We need to stop, Ezra! I have not forgiven you entirely." She whispered still in a daze and her tongue came out to lick her lips like she has eaten candy.


    "Yet! Baby girl and I will everything and anything to change your mind." I stole another kiss from her and pulled myself back in the fear of not getting enough of her and her taste.


    Why did I push her away all those years ago? She tastes like peace, home, and sin all wrapped up in one. I am an idiot for not realizing that Fay is what I want, not some chicks who make me feel good for those minutes. I never feel like I had enough of Fay, I want more of her.


    "Let''s see." She challenges me with a smirk on her pouty lips making me twitch in my pants. It''s been so long since I had been inside her and it''s another godamn thing that made me realize she is not just another girl in my list but she is everything I ever dreamt of and much more.


    After she left me I realize that what an asshole I was to her and how much I hurt her by unting Mitchell right after she gave up her virginity to me. I will never forgive myself for hurting her and I was punishing myself these two years for the hurt I caused my baby girl.


    "Come, I will show you something." I threaded my fingers with hers and guided her toward the hallway.


    Once I stand in front of the door I opened it and let her see what I wanted to show her. A surprised and excited gasp sounded beside me making my heart warm and feel happy at her reaction to the library I personally prepared for her.


    She loves ready her silly romance books and when I bought this the first person who came to my mind was Fay and I wanted to give this library to her. It will give her a reason toe and spend time here with me till she goes back, even the thought of her leaving again makes my heart beat faster with fear and longing.


    "Oh, My God! Ezra? This is so beautiful." Fay stepped into the room inhaling the smell of books and wood lingering in the air. Seeing her this giddy and happy is making me happy for the first time in a long time and I don''t want this moment to pass.


    I let her have her time with the books and stepped outside to make some calls. I want to make this day special where there is only her and me and no one else.


    By the time I finished the calls and went inside the library, Fay is engrossed in a book looking so cute and peaceful.


    "Are you having fun?" I smirked seeing her startled by my voice. She always forgets about her surroundings when her nose is buried deep in her books.


    I want to be deeply buried inside her warmth too, shaking my head to get rid of the naughty thoughts I took Fay towards the balcony or a sitting area where I had prepared a small surprise for her.


    It was nearing dinner and I asked my parent''s cook to bring us the food I asked him to prepare and which is my baby girl''s favorite.


    "Wow! It''s a beautiful view, Ezra!" the sun is setting and the sky has been covered in a hue of orange color making everything around it picture-perfect. I got the serene view of Fay standing under the evening sky with Awe on her face made me pull out my phone and click a picture of her discreetly.


    I am turning soft like a teenager crushing on her best friend and turning into a mushy bear.


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    "I will kill for this view, baby girl, for every evening of my life." Our eyes meet passing the same electricity between us and she knows about which view I am talking about the way her cheeks turned red.


    "You are turning so cheezy, Ezra." She pretended to cringe at my words but we both know that she is loving this side of me, a more vocal and expressive side of me.


    "Come, let''s sit and tear into the food. I asked for your favorite dishes." I guided her towards the table one of my men arranged like it was adorned on a date with aromatic food on it.


    "Don''t tell me you asked your cook to make Ramen for me." Her eyes lit up like little lights and she hurried towards the table and gaped at the contents of it.


    "Yes, I did and also asked to prepare other Korean dishes too." Fay loves Korean food and she devours it as her life depended on it.


    "It''s been so long since I had Ramen and Korean BBQ and I am starving." She didn''t wait for me and started slurping the noodles into her pretty mouth and watching her eat like that hardened my dick and if people call me a pervert for that, I don''t care. Every single thing Fay does turns me on more than I ever had been turned on in my lifeOriginal from N?velDrama.Org.


    I don''t know what she did to me and is doing to me but I don''t want to undo anything other than the mistakes I made in the past.


    We ate in silence and when thest spoon of dessert was gulped down our throats Fay surprised me by asking about my parents.


    In the past I would have avoided the topic but right now they don''t affect me as much as they did in the past. They were the reason for my actions and cold and dead heart but I don''t want to lose Fay anymore because of their bitter rtionship and the memories which haunt me.


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    "I don''t know about them,st I was in their presence was when they divorced two years back and I cut ties with them." I can see sadness in Fay''s eyes and also concern for me.


    She knows how much I craved for a normal family like her but something are not meant for some people.


    "I am so sorry, Ezra. I didn''t know." she ced her warm hand on mine and rubbed her thumb over my hand making goosebumps arise all over my body. It feels so surreal that someone''s touch causes this much reaction. "Don''t be sorry, Fay! I don''t need their toxicity in my life and I am an independent adult now and I started my own business and I am fine." I gave her a genuine smile which I know will calm her nerves down.


    "Just to let you know that I will always be there for you no matter what the situation and circumstances are." I know every single word thates out of her mouth is true and I know she will always stay beside me. My heart swells at her words and the urge to take her mouth and taste her tormented me but I need to slow down and let her breath around me.


    "I know, baby girl." I kissed her hand, skimming my lips on her soft hands and enjoying the feel of her soft skin on my lips.


    I am seeing everything with new eyes and in a new vision. Life feels beautiful and easy when Fay is beside me and I don''t want to think about thest two years I had to endure without her but she doesn''t know that I stalked her like a creep when she was away and I am not sorry for that.


    "I loved every second of the time I spent with you today, Ezra and it''s been a long time since we hung out together like this." She gave me a hug, surprising me when I dropped her at the house. We surrounded ourselves with our warmth and scent a bit longer and with a kiss on her head I said good night and waited till she was safely locked inside.


    I am afraid of my demons wanting to sling her on my shoulders and take her back to the penthouse and show her how much I missed her but the small and sane part of me hissed at me to keep my ugly parts and demons away from her and the beautiful moments we are breathing in.


    Fay Moore is the only one who encourages that sane part of me to grow big and pushes away the demons lurking in front.

 YOU ARE MINE

    I am happy! This is the first thought I had when I slipped under my sheets that night after Ezra dropped me home. It''s been a very long time since this thought crossed my head and I was genuinely happy.


    The vibration of my phone pulled me from my thoughts. It''s already midnight and who the hell is texting me at this time?


    By the time I came home, Daniel and Izzy went out with Joanna so I didn''t get the chance to see them and I hope they are having a good time.


    I weed the sleep with a content smile on my face with the thoughts of Ezra and his lips.


    I don''t know what woke me up but I sat on my bed like I was jerked by someone and I heard a loud bang on my door. What is with these doors and bangs on them with me? I think I may have been a door in my past life. Grumbling inside and cursing whoever spoiled my sleep I got down from the bed and walked towards the door to punch whoever was on the other side.


    I pulled the door open and a very drunk Izzy and Daniel stumbled into the room giggling like idiots. What am I going to do with these two? Izzy is too much to handle while she is drunk like this and Daniel, I don''t know what type of drunk he is but I am going to find out right now.


    "Is something funny!" I crossed my hands and raised a brow to intimidate them but inside I am bursting with augh. They look like lost puppies, mischievous and innocent.


    "Uh! Nooooooo...." Izzy drew out looking at me like I have something on my face making me touch it and see if I seriously have something.


    "Why are you guys so drunk? I asked to which they giggled like kids swaying back and forth. Ugh! I don''t want to deal with their antics right now.


    I took my phone from the nightstand to record a bit of their idiocy and pull their legs in the morning.


    "Kids! Can you please give me a big smile?" I asked like a kindergarten teacher showing them that I am clicking their picture to which they literally squealed like a bunch of five years and posed drunkenly.


    "Oh, My God! I am going to have so much fun tomorrow morning." I recorded their funny faces instead of taking a picture and recorded their drunk banter about who elbowed who first. I have to stop their fight before they wake my parents. "Guys! Stop." I whisper yelled at them narrowing my eyes but it''s so hard to stop theughter which is threatening toe out with their shocked faces and wide eyes.


    "Daniel, you need to go back to the guest room. Follow me." I don''t want him to pass out in the hallway to the guest room and him opening my parent''s room door in a drunken haze.


    "Okay ma''am" He saluted, Both giggling again making me roll my eyes at them.


    I dropped off Daniel in the room and came back to my room to see Izzy face-nted on the bed and snoring lightly. This girl is a tornado, loud.


    I removed her heels and slightly touched her shoulder to let her move upwards the bed so I could crash too.


    "Izzye one, move up a bit." I grumbled pulling her upward when she didn''t budge.


    "Why doesn''t he like me?" I hear her mumble making my body freeze. What does she mean by that? Is she talking about Daniel? Or someone she met at the club?


    "Who doesn''t like you, Izzy?" I whispered and held my breath to hear her answer but she didn''t reply, making me think she was just talking in her sleep.


    "Ezra." His name from her mouth twisted my stomach uneasily. Why god! Why! Why always me? What I did so wrong in my life I always found myself in these situations. Izzy will never remember this part in the morning as she always forgot the night when she got herself drunk but on the other hand, I will always remember her little confession of her liking my best friend.


    What do I do now? I thought there was no one between us now and there is no guilt this time asst time when he was with Mitchell but now I have to think about Izzy''s confession every time I see Ezra.


    Why don''t I get to have Ezra for myself, not everyone iming him?


    What if Ezra likes Izzy back? Can I see them together? Am I going to suffer like before when he unted Mitchell in front of me, but he didn''t even spare any nce towards Izzy and he didn''t even talk about her in front of me. Iam so fucking confused and enraged right now. Why does Ezra have to be a chick ma? I know Izzy, if she wants something then she will get that by whatever means.


    I slumped down on my side thinking about the kiss in Ezra''s penthouse and the dinner we had and every single second I spent with him slowly bring back the hope that Ezra has changed and he only sees me now but the small part of me was afraid what if the past repeats and make myself a fool!


    I took my phone and opened Ezra''s contact, I don''t know what I want to say to him but I just want to confirm that whatever I am feeling is not one-sided and I am not going to make myself fool a second time.


    Instead of calling him, I texted him with "I Am afraid" and hurriedly put the phone back on the nightstand. My heart is beating so fast with nerves about what he will reply.


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    My phone buzzed, making my heart jump out of my body.


    I opened his text, a smile curved my lips seeing his nickname for me.


    "Why, Baby girl?"


    "I don''t know, I just don''t want to get hurt again, Ezra." I typed back biting my lip to stop them trembling with nerves. I never had this type of conversation with him and now I know I can''t say these things to his face so I opted for texting other than a call. I''m such a coward.


    The buzzing of my phone pulled me from my thoughts. He is definitely not a coward and The text he sent me proves that.


    "Open the window, Baby girl."? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    He always sneaked into my room when we were kids and teenagers and Ezra loves Sneaking into my room.


    I ran towards the window and opened it to see him leaning on to the railing crossing his thick arms making me gulp in pleasure. Desire pooled in my belly seeing him standing in the dark with his signature smirk ying on his kissable lips. He is going to be the death of me.


    "Come here." He rasped out with his half-hooded eyes. He looks like a dark knight in the shadows, the moonlight casting its light on his handsome features making it impossible to resist him.


    "What are you going to do to me, Ezra?" I bit my lip turning his attention to it.


    "I am going to do bad things to you, Baby girl!" He hummed deep within his chest making my core tighten with desire. If he keeps saying things like this then I am going tobust there and then.


    "What type of bad things, Daddy!" a deep low rumble came out of him, making me jump in surprise. I know I am teasing a lion but I can''t pull myself back when he is looking at me like he wants to devour mepletely.


    He is a predator and I am his prey but theplete control is in my hands as the way Ezra is still standing there and not pouncing on me like a hungry animal and that gives me my confidence.


    "You are being a bad girl, Fay, and bad girls get punished." I Am standing in front of him and there is only a breath of distance between us and I can smell his scent clearly which made my head spin and my core to clench.


    "I''d love to be punished by you Daddy." I dipped my head and pulled his bottom lip with my teeth nibbling on it and made him groan.


    His hands went around my head and his fingers threaded into my hair pulling my mouth onto his, this kiss feels so different than the others as I can feel his hunger and desire for me and i''m showing mine to him with the way we practically devouring each other.


    Our bodies are flushed together and I can feel his hardness pressing into my stomach.


    "I want more Ezra." I breathed out in between the kisses. I don''t care even if i am going to regret whatever we do now in the morning but right now I want Ezra.


    "I want more too, Baby girl but I am afraid that you will regret whatever we do more than kissing in the morning and I don''t want you to regret it." He touched my forehead with his breathing heavily with his dark hooded eyes which were shining with lust and desire for me. This is new for me as he never showed these so freely before and with more intensity.


    "Fay" we both freeze at Izzy''s voice calling from the room but the way the voice sounded she is waking up and getting up from the bed. I don''t want her to see us here in this position but a much bigger and meaner part of me wants her to see us and realize that he is never going to want her as long as he is looking at me like this.


    "You need to go, Ezra," I whispered in his ear, ushering him to go. I don''t want to hurt Izzy if she seriously feels something for Ezra. I will talk to her in the morning but until then she shouldn''t see us like this. "No! Let her See. I came here to talk to you baby girl and I won''t move until we talk." There is no time for stubborn Ezra rightnow and I need to do something to make him go.


    "If you don''t go right now then i am not going to let you touch me ever." He freezes like I have put a gun to his head and I know I''m being petty and childish but I don''t know what else to say to him to move.


    He narrowed his eyes and took a step forward making me take a step back.


    Uh-huh! I think I poked a bear.


    "Umm...E.. Ezra I was just joking." he didn''t stop taking steps toward me and in no time he caged me in between his hard body and the wall.


    "Don''t ever make a joke about not letting me touch you, Fay. I will tie you to my bed and touch every single part of your body with you begging under me for more. No one is going to keep me away from you, not even you, so lock this in your pretty head of yours that YOU. ARE. MINE." I gulp knowing very well that his words are true and my body and heart are traitors too.


    "We will talk tomorrow." His kissed my head onest time and slipped into the dark night like a creature of the night without making any sound.


    Some things will never change like Ezra''s hold on me and the way his words make my body react.

 Giving Into Him

    "Finally I get to have you for myself, girlie!" Joanna said, gulping her coffee. We are in a cafe near her house having breakfast together.


    She was already there in my room when I opened my eyes in the morning, waking me up by pulling me out of the bed onto the ground. Izzy was snoring loudly beside me and didn''t even stirred with the way I groaned. "Yeah! I am happy too and there were a lot of surprises since I came here and I didn''t even get a chance to take a breath properly." I grumbled, taking a huge gulp of coffee and stuffing my mouth with pancakes. "I noticed. So what is the reason for your sulking right now!" It''s not a question from her but a statement and I forgot how good she knows me.


    "I''m just thinking about Ezra and Izzy." I whispered, I don''t know why I am feeling so uneasy when Ezra cleared the doubt from me when he kissed me and imed me like an alpha male.


    "What about them?" Joanna narrowed her eyes at me like I was telling an absurd story which didn''t make any sense.


    "I don''t know, Izzy was talking in her drunken hazest night about why he didn''t like her." I tell her feeling guilty like I am doing something wrong with Ezra and I shouldn''t be doing anything with him. Ugh! I should be put in a museum for my stupid emotions and feelings.


    "Stop your thoughts right there Fay! Izzy is nothing to Ezra and Ezra didn''t feel anything about her like he feels about you so don''t you dare doubt anything." She gritted out ring at me like I kicked her puppy and I have never seen her defend Ezra like this which made me gasp in shock and surprise at the way she knows i''m talking about Ezra and the way she is defending him like he is her best friend.


    "Am I missing something!" It''s my turn to re at her and narrow my eyes in suspicion.


    "Yes, you are missing something, Fay. If you still think about others than you then you are going to miss Ezra again." My mouth opened like a fish out of water gasping for air. I don''t know what to answer because she is giving me whishes with her behavior.


    "When did you guys be best friends?" I asked, still stunned.


    "We didn''t even be friends but he changed, Fay." She sighed like preparing herself to tell me something I didn''t know till now.


    "What do you mean changed?" I know what she is talking about but I want to hear from someone else and let my heart and head know that he is really changed and not ying me this time.


    "After you left he just changed himself into a new man and stopped hanging out with Mitchell and even helped your parents when they needed and you don''t even believe when I say that he pulled me out of a situation." I don''t know he did all these things but I never asked my parents and asked them to not mention Ezra in front of me.


    "What is the situation you were in?" She rolled her eyes at me like I heard only one thing from her speech.


    "I was being harrassed by an asshole and that asshole cornered me one night and tried to force himself on me but Ezra was there and kicked that creep so hard that he ran like a dog." And she didn''t even tell me about this. "We were talking at that time, right? Even when that happened?" I asked, ring at her so icily that she could feel my anger in waves.


    "You were not ready to hear about him, Fay! How would I have upsetted you by talking about him when you left the town to avoid him." I know what she is saying is right but still it''s hurt to think I was not there for my best friend when she was with me all the time.


    "I know Joanna but I need to hear when my friend is in trouble and having a bad time. Please don''t do that again." She stood up from her seat and snaked her arms around me in a hug making me sigh in her scent and the way she always made me feel safe and warm.


    "I am sorry and I will never hide anything from now, I promise." I hugged her back.


    My phone started ringing loudly in the silent cafe making us startle.


    "He is not going to leave me alone" I whispered, seeing Ezra''s name shing on my phone''s screen.


    "I know that very well, Fay. So it''s better you answer the call before hees here." Joanna said, chuckling at my squirming.


    "No need to answer the phone Joe, I am already here." I hear a very familiar deep voice which makes my insides turn mushy and my panties soaked sauntering behind me towards our table with an amused smirk seeing at my shocked and unamused expression.


    "I am catching up with my bestie, Ezra. Why don''t we meet in a few years? Or never!" I am just joking but seeing his heated re made me shut my mouth and just roll my eyes at him.


    "It''s never going to happen, baby girl. So better prepare to have me around you all the time." He smirked, taking his seat beside me.


    "Whatever, and how do you know I was here?" Maybe he has some magic or something but he knows every single thing I do and the ce I go.


    "I went to your house and Mrs. Moore told me that you two are here." He sighed like I am getting on his nerves but it''s the other way. He is getting on my nerves and at the same time making me crave him so damn much like a hormonal teenager.


    "Umm, I need to go to the restroom." I stood up from my seat and practically ran away before I made a fool out of myself.


    Ezra''s presence is bothering me so much that I need to take a damn breath without him looking at me like he wants to eat me up.


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    I relieved my dder and came out of the stall to wash my hands. I need to get out of the cafe so I can check myself in and not get seduced by the devil. The door to the restroom opened and I heard a click making me snap my neck towards the door to see who locked the door as no one really locks the door of the restroom.


    Ezra started stuttering my way like a devil ready to sin. There is a predator gleam in his eyes which made me gulp in fear and excitement.


    A shiver ran up my spine seeing him moving towards me like he could smell what I was thinking and how much I''m craving him.


    I didn''t move from my position waiting for his next move and I''m dying to feel his hands all over my body even if I feel guilty afterwards.


    Ezra glued his front to my back making me arch into him and I can feel his excited and hardened member poking me. His hands were beside me on the counter and his hot breath reached my ear.


    "I clearly told Izzy beforeing here that I never looked at her that way and I want someone else like I want the air to breathe." His words made my breath hitch and my body shudder in pleasure.


    Nothing is making sense other than his presence and the need between my legs. He made me like this, and he is going to take care of it.


    "If you are not going to use those hands in five seconds then......" he didn''t let me finish before his lips took my lips and he was ravaging my mouth like a starved man.


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    "These hands are for your service, baby girl." One of his hands moved down my stomach and slowly snaked inside my sweatpant and into my panties finding my wet folds and an aching bud waiting to be yed with.


    He didn''t need anymore words as he knew exactly what to do and he started ying with it.


    "Yes...oh my god! E.. Ezra....." I can''t believe that I am making all sorts of noises and moving my hips ording to his fingers moving inside me, I am practically riding his fingers like I am riding his dick.


    "I don''t think I can wait any longer, baby girl. Please let me in." I don''t think I can too. My hands frantically reached his jeans and started tugging his belt and unbuttoned his jeans in a frenzy to feel him inside me.


    I don''t care about anything right now other than having him and feeling him move inside me.


    He hoisted me up by my hips and pulled my sweatpants and panties down and in one go he was inside me stretching me and making me full with his size like his presence.


    He swallowed my scream with his mouth and his body stayed rooted not moving an inch giving me time to adjust. its been a long time since he was inside me and the pain is not like the first time but still it stung like a bitch and I need time to adjust.


    "I am so sorry baby girl. I just couldn''t control myself." Ezra rasped out holding himself back from moving.


    "Please start moving, Ezra. I need you." I pressed my heels pulling him in and he started thrusting slowly still holding back but I don''t need his slow and steady, I want his fast and rough.


    "I want you to let loose Ezra." I took his mouth in a punishing kiss expressing to him what I need and what he needs to do. He increased his pace, thrusting so deep making me clench around him and I can feel the orgasm building inside me. "I.. I am going to...." I can see stars behind my eyes and my walls clenching his velvety dick and my body is shaking with the effects of the pleasure.


    "I am not going tost longer, baby girl. You feel so fucking good." Ezra followed me with a grunt and a curse copsing on me. We are both breathing so hard and still in the blissfully after affects of our orgasams and he is still inside me pulsing and twitching making my p***y walls tingle.


    "Fay! Are you in there?" We both jumped apart at Joanna''s voice.


    Ezra slowly pulled himself out of me and tucked himself in. I jumped down from the counter and adjusted my clothes not meeting his eyes but I could feel his gaze upon me.


    "You need to hide Ezra." I started ushering him towards one of the stalls but he didn''t budge.


    "Why do I need to hide, Fay? Let her know we are together here." Ugh! His stubborn self will never understand anything and I don''t have patience to fight with him.


    "Fine then!" I stomped towards the door and yanked it open angrily ring at the handsome devil who was chuckling behind me.


    "F.. Fay! E...Ezra!" Izzy''s voice reached my ears, making my head whip towards her. I don''t know why I feel guilty but the guilt mmed into me like I had snatched someone''s boyfriend.


    Oh my god! What is wrong with me? Why am I feeling like this and why is she looking at me like I am cheating on with her boyfriend when he clearly told her that he is not interested.


    Am I the stupid one or these people? Who always made me feel guilty for feeling something for Ezra! Why do I need to feel like I did something wrong every time I did something with him?


    I don''t care if she likes him because he is my best friend and I loved him since I knew what love is and I am not going to dere what we did moments ago a mistake nor feel guilty about anything. "Fancy seeing you here, Izzy!" I Am being a bitch right now but she needs to see what she is doing, directly or indirectly.


    Ezra stood beside me like a proud father making me roll my eyes at him, his male ego is shining around me.

 Charity Gala

    "What are you guys doing in there!" Izzy''s voice drawled out usingly making my blood boil at the way she is trying to picture the situation.


    "What does a girl and a boy do in a public toilet, Izzy?" I throw the words at her with the intention of making it clear that whatever she is nning in her head about Ezra and her are not going to happen. "Ummm...I didn''t think..." I didn''t let her finish and just held Ezra''s hand smiling sweetly at her and left the washroom.


    Joanna''s mouth opened wide at our conjoined hands and her eyes wide with surprise and awe shining.


    "That''s my girlie!" She beamed at me getting up from her chair and engulfing me in a bear hug. I didn''t know she was pining for Ezra and I.


    "It''s time you guys eventually held hands and showed each other off." Joanna beamed with happiness and pride like we are her children.


    "Stop it, Joanna!" I grumbled, taking my ce at the table and Ezra followed behind me and sat down still holding my hand tightly like he doesn''t want to be away from me anymore.


    "It doesn''t mean anything, you know that right?" I bent towards him and whispered into his ear, deliberately lingering for a second more.


    "Where did you get that thought from, baby girl?" Now his time to tease me while whispering and biting my ear slightly.


    "I was just making a point, Ezra and that''s it." I tried to free my hand from his but he didn''t relent and even held it even more tightly making me grumble in annoyance and at the same time my stomach is having a party with butterflies and the whole damn zoo.


    "Whatever baby girl but You are mine and that''s all I know." This time he pulled me towards him and captured my lips with his in a searing and mind blowing way making me dizzy with his taste and onught.


    "There are kids in here, guys. You two should get a room." Joanna''s amused voice reached my ears, making us pull apart from the kiss.


    Izzy is already sitting beside Joanna with a passive face looking at Ezra like he is a possession she lost.


    I need to talk to her and let her know what I and Ezra have. I don''t need to give her any exnation but still she is my friend and I need to stop whatever thoughts she is having about him. "Where is Daniel?" I asked, no one in particr.


    "He is still sleeping." Izzy answered and I just nodded my head. Why did we be like this? Like strangers? We always talked like long lost sisters, always teasing each other andughing like insane people but now everything has changed. She has changed.


    My phone rang pulling me from my thoughts. Dad''s name shing on the screen.


    "Who is it?" Ezra asked from beside me trying to peek into my phone. He is such a controller. I rolled my eyes at him and swiped to answer the call.


    "Hello, Dad!" I hear mom and dad arguing about something and he didn''t realize yet that I answered the call.


    "Fay! Can youe home soon? I need to talk to you about something." He sounds nervous which is making me nervous.


    Did something happen? Are they having any financial crisis and want to inform me about it? Or are they getting divorced?


    My head is racing like a kilometer per second making my head ache suddenly.


    "Okay, I will be there as soon as I can. Is everything alright?" I asked, wanting to make sure that they are not in trouble.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "Yes, everything is alright. Juste home and let''s talk." I ended the call and stood up to leave. My head is on fire wanting to know what my dad wants to talk about.


    "Where are you going, baby girl?" Ezra stood up too and started following me. I didn''t say goodbye to Joanna, I turned around and waved at her and signaled that I will call her to which she waved back and showed me her thumbs up. "Dad called me and he wants to talk but I don''t know what he wants to talk about." I was already out of the cafe and looking for a taxi to get me home.


    "I will drop you,e!" He took my wrist and pulled me towards his car which is parked beside Joanna''s car.


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    "Thanks, Mr. Irwin." I yfully teased him to which a big grin appear on his handsome face.


    "You are always wee, Miss. Moore, into my pants." He will never change, my face got red with the way I am blushing by his crude words. We always teased each other but now it feels different to tease each other like this and I''m loving every second of it.


    "


    ''No, thanks!" We buckled up in his car and he reversed the car from the parking lot and we were racing through thenes towards my house.


    "So, when are we meeting again?" Ezra asked, holding my hand in his and kissing my knuckles. His touches and kisses give me butterflies.


    "I.. I don''t know." I suttured like an Idiot making him chuckle. I Am feeling like a sixteen year old again blushing and stuttering in front of Ezra.


    "I will pick you up at seven in the evening and wear something sexy." He winked at me and parked the car in front of my house.


    "Okay, Mr. Irwin it''s time to go. I will meet you in the evening." I turned to open the door and get down but he didn''t let me and picked me up by my waist and made me sit on hisp.


    I squealed with surprise like a pig and my arms went around his neck and i''m glued to Ezra''s body.


    "What the hell do you think you are doing?" I yelled, smacking his broad shoulder but the jerk wasughing at me.


    "What do you think I am doing, baby girl." He held my neck and pulled my face towards him crashing his lips to mine and started kissing like his life depends on it.


    I groaned at the taste of him and my hips automatically started grinding on him.


    "You have be so naughty, baby girl." Hemented in between the kiss, holding my hips and moving them in a rhythm.


    "You made me like this, I will lose all my senses when ites to you, Ezra. All I can see is you." Groaning, he jerked my head towards him and captured my lips once again kissing so fiercely and I can feel his emotions in this kiss.


    I didn''t know that Ezra was this expressive before but now he is expressing everything freely and I will have to do the same and stop protecting my heart and just jump into the madness of Ezra Irwin.


    "I need to go, Ezra. Dad is waiting for me." I gasped at the way he made me grind on his bulge. If he continues it then i''m going to have an orgasm in the car and in front of my house.


    "Okay, but we are going to finish what we started in the evening." He kissed me once again and helped me to get down from hisp.


    I opened the car door and waved at him onest time before entering the house. I have a big silly grin on my face and I feel relieved that I made the decision to stop putting the walls around Ezra and give him a genuine chance and see where it will take us.


    "Fay! Come sit down." Mom and dad are sitting on the couch with worried expressions and I totally forgot about the phone call and the talk.


    "You guys wanted to talk?" Is everything okay?" I asked, sitting opposite to them. Worry gnawing at me from inside and all the wrong scenarios ying in my head.


    "Darling! Everything is perfect. Your Dad just doesn''t know how to talk." Mom held my hand and started rubbing circles on the back of my hand and I know it''s a trick to calm me down and make me rx.


    "What is it?" I asked again dreading the moment I had to hear something I don''t want to.


    "You know my boss Mr. Huston, right!" Dad asked and I nodded my head at him as I knew him from the parties dad took us to and he introduced us to him and he is such a nice man despite being rich.


    "He has a son and we set up a date for you both and I''m so sorry it was so sudden and I couldn''t say no to him." Dad blurted out, making me frown at the information he was uttering.


    "What! Why!" I don''t know what else to ask other than the basic questions as my mind was blown away by the news. I had imagined every bad thing in the world my dad wanted to talk about but I was not expecting this.


    "I know, I didn''t ask you first before agreeing but he didn''t give me any choice and I am sorry." He has a guilty expression on his face and I don''t want to see him like this.


    "It''s okay, Dad! I understand and you don''t need to say sorry again and again. Where is the date going to be and when?" I asked hoping it''s not today and not alone. Ezra is going to flip the town if he knows I am going on a date with


    someone.


    "There is a charity g this evening and he will pick you up at seven''o'' clock." Iam totally fucked up, what am I going to tell Ezra! He is going to throw a fit and will definitely bash Mr. Huston''s son on the ground like a baby.


    "Okay, Dad! I will be ready on time." I agreed in a small voice and walked towards my room dreading the phone call I''m going to have with Ezra. I hope he doesn''t freak out much and understand that it''s just for a formality and nothing more.

 Some people never change

    It''s already six in the evening and I still haven''t called Ezra and told him about the g I was going to. How can I tell him that it''s just a formality and nothing more for my dad. He is not going to listen. Izzy and Daniel are nowhere to be found and I guess they are with Joanna and it''s best they won''t see me like this.


    I dialed Ezra''s number and sat down on the bed shaking my leg to stop the anxiety over taking my body.


    I just hope he understands and doesn''t make a scene.


    He answered on the third ring and his deep voice reached my ears making goosebumps erupt all over my body. He has the power to make me a puddle in an instant. "Hello, baby girl! Missing me already?" He is in a yful mode and I don''t want to ruin it but if i don''t tell him now then everything is going to be a mess. "Umm, Ezra!" I don''t know how to tell him.


    "What happened, Fay! Is everything alright?" He seems worried at my voice and I know I am going to regret epting my dad''s request but I can''t say no to him.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "Everything is fine, I am going to a charity g this evening." I blurted out and waited for him to react but I didn''t hear anything from his side for a second. "Can''t you cancel it?" He asked in a calm voice not at all like the old Ezra.


    "I can''t, Dad asked me to attend it with his Boss''s son and I can''t say no to him, Ezra." I held my breath for his reaction and in no time I heard a growl from his side making my stomach drop.


    "What the hell are you talking about, Fay?" He is not giving me a chance to exin as he is going on and on about how he is going to break every single thing in the venue if I go with him.


    "I didn''t have a choice, Ezra! And it''s not a big deal as it is just a formality so my dad won''t get embarrassed in front of his boss if I reject the invitation." He is making me angry too, i wanted this conversation to go cool but he won''t make it happen.


    "I don''t care about anything, Fay! I don''t want you to go and that''s it." He ordered like he owns me, every fiber in my body hummed with anger at his voice.


    "I don''t care what you say or think Ezra and I told you it''s just a formality for my father and I am going." I ended the call and threw the phone somewhere on the bed so I couldn''t bash it on the wall.


    I stood up to get ready and went into the washroom to take a quick shower. My mom had already picked out a dress which is a long red gown which hugs my body and ent my curves.


    Doing my makeup and hair, iam set to go but my heart and head is not in it and I feel like throwing up with the way my thoughts are running from one ce to another.


    "Are you ready, darling! Alex is here." I totally forgot that Mr. Huston''s son''s name is Alex and I hope he is decent enough to maintain some distance between us.


    "Yes, mom! Let''s go." We both climbed down the stairs, dad and Alex are sitting in the living room talking andughing with each other.


    I can''t see his face but only his back and he has broad shoulders not like Ezra but still broad nevertheless.


    Don''t be an asshole, Don''t be an asshole, I started repeating the mantra in my head so I don''t need to knee him in the balls if he tried to do something.


    "There she is!" My dad eximed upon my arrival and I gave him an awkward smile as I was feeling anxiety eating me up.


    Alex stood and turned around to face me and I stopped in my tracks seeing him. He is beautiful in his own way with blue eyes and sharp features but Ezra, he is all dark and handsome with his dangerous aura and tattoos. I need to stop thinking about him.


    "Hey! You look beautiful!" I give him a genuine smile not wanting to make him feel like I am dreading every second of it.


    "Thanks, you look good too." I said my goodbyes to my parents and Alex guided me to his car waiting in our parking lot.


    I feel like I am doing something wrong and cheating on Ezra but this is just for my dad and his promise to his boss and I already exined it to him but still I feel so guilty and sad that i canceled our date. "What do you do, Fay! Working or studying!" He helped me sit in the passenger side and started the car.


    "I Am a chef in making. The course will bepleted in a month and I''m an intern in one of the known restaurants." Heughed at my attempt at sarcasm, creating afortable atmosphere. "What about you?" He chuckled before answering.


    "It''s obvious, I am working under my father and in some years I will be the CEO." I know it as my dad has told me about him.


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    We talked till we reached the venue and there were alot of people and media in front of it, making me gasp in surprise.


    "Why is there so much crowd?" I asked Alex to which he just shrugged his shoulders like he doesn''t know too.


    "I don''t know, let''s go out and see." I opened my door this time and stood there dumbfounded with the way the media is clicking pictures and screaming for someone''s name to get their picture. "Does some hotshot gets the invite to the event?" I asked, looking around so I can see what the hype is about.


    "I guess so!" Alex murmured looking to my left and I turned around to see what he was talking about and my stomach dropped and I felt like puking my guts out at the scene unfolding in front of me.


    "Some assholes never change." I gritted out the words, tears threatening to spill but I gulped them back not wanting to show him how he is affecting me and hurting me.


    I was a fool to believe that he has changed for me and he feels the same for me atst but seeing him here today with the girl he said that he doesn''t care is like a p to my face and I have learned my lesson again not to believe Ezra Irwin.


    "Why don''t we go inside!" I held Alex''s arm for the first time that evening and ignored everything around me. If he wants to unt someone in my face then I can do that too.


    I was feeling guilty and angry at myself for agreeing for the date but it''s the best thing I did because Ezra Irwin is showing his true colors and I''m not going to fall in his trap again.

 His Fool

    "Fay! What are you doing here!" Izzy''s voice reached my ears when i''m reaching for the champagne ss. Alex is talking business with some old people and I''m bored out of my mind.


    It''s been half an hour since we entered the hall and iam sessfully avoiding her and him but I guess i don''t have luck.


    "Same reason as yours, Izzy." I snap, hiding my sneer with the ss and taking arge gulp of the bubbly liquid to cool down my anger.


    "Why are you snapping, Fay!" She is trying to be nonchnt and innocent like she doesn''t know that I aming here and she didn''t even already see me outside.


    How much she can fake! I thought she is a genuine and loving person but now she is showing her true colors like a chameleon.


    "I am not snapping at you, Izzy. I''m just already bored and excuse me." I started walking blindly not wanting to wait and listen to her anymore. I Am running out of my patience and I don''t want to create any scene here. Iam not going to cry over him anymore and I don''t care if they sleep together. They can go to hell!


    A hand pulled me into a dark room startling me from my thoughts and my champagne ss fell on the floor and a hand covered my scream.


    Familiar scent surrounded me, making me rx for a second but the anger which I was gulping down came back, making me bite his hand hard.


    "What the fuck, Fay!" His hold on me loosen and get away from him to not punch his nose or give him a ck eye.


    "What the fuck are you doing here, Ezra! Pulling me into a dark room like a creep." I snapped, I could see him in the moonlight shining brightly in the room.


    He is in a ck suit which has fitted him so perfectly and he is looking so ruggedly handsome that I ache all over for his touch and feel.


    I need to stop thinking with my heart and body but start thinking with my head.


    He is a bastard for pping me on the face,ing here with Izzy.


    "I told you not to go, Fay! But you didn''t listen so I need to show you how much it hurts to see you with someone else that is not me." He sneered walking towards me, his hands clenched tight and his jaw locked with anger and frustration. "Stop ying with my head, Ezra! I said it was nothing and just a formality but what you did today is so low and unforgivable." I turned towards the exit to get the hell out of the room but Ezra had other ns which involved hugging me from the back and holding me tight so I couldn''t take another step.


    "Iam sorry foring here with Izzy but you need to realize that seeing you with someone hurts me so much and I just wanted to make you realize that." Wow! He has the audacity to defend himself and make everything about himself. "You are a jerk Ezra, i clearly told you this date mean nothing to me but Izzy, she likes you and she is waiting for you to fuck her brains out." I started squirming trying to get free from him but he is so much stronger than me and i''m not having any luck.


    "leave me before I scream and gather everyone." I threatened ready knowing he doesn''t care about anything as he is the great Ezra Irwin.


    "You know it very well that I don''t care and if you don''t stop squirming then I am going to give you the real reason to squirm." His palmnded on my right boob and he gave a squeeze making me jump in shock and surprise. "What do you think you are doing, Ezra! Coming here with someone and pawing someone else! Have some ss you pig!" I stepped on his foot hardly making his hold loosen and I ran away from the room not waiting for him to catch up with


    me.


    "Fay! Where were you? I was looking for you everywhere." Alex came up behind me, startling me.


    "I just went to the restroom, let''s dance!" I took his arm and guided him towards the dance floor. I just need to breathe freely without Ezra hovering over me like an annoying bee.


    "Umm, can we get a coffee tomorrow?" I raised my eyebrows at his abrupt question. We are five minutes into dancing and he is already asking me out.


    "I.. I don''t know." I seriously don''t know what to say to him. I never went on a date and when I told Ezra that this is nothing but just a formality then it''s the truth and I want it that way because whatever Ezra does it''s his choice but I still very much love him despite him being a jerk.


    My eyes found the couple who was dancing in the middle, making me grit my teeth in anger and jealousy.


    What a liar! How dare he lie to me and dance with her!


    "I need some air and I will text you where to meet for coffee." I excused myself from him to get some much needed air as I was suffocating in their presence.


    I don''t care what he wants to prove and I don''t care what he thinks or does.


    I hear footsteps following me and I know one hundred percent sure who that is.


    "Leave me alone, Ezra!" I sighed out not having any energy left to argue or fight with him.


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    "I''m sorry!" I scoff at his apology because it doesn''t mean anything to me and it doesn''t wash away the hurt he intended on me.


    "Shove it up your Ass, Mr. Irwin. your apologies and words don''t affect me now. I am done with you." I slipped off my heels and held them in my hands to stop them from aching.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "Fay! Please, you hurt me too and I am apologizing so stop and talk to me." He tried to hold my hand but I stepped away from him not wanting to feel his touch when i''m seconds away from punching him and myself for being a fool again. "Don''t." I pped his hand away.


    "I didn''t hurt you, Ezra! You were the one who always hurt me by parading girls in front of me when you clearly knew what I felt for you." I screamed, having enough of his bullshit and attitude.


    "You ignored my feelings, you showed off Michelle and slept with her right after you were with me and now when you clearly know that Izzy has feelings for you and wants you, you are using her to prove a shitty point!" I turned around to walk away from him. I can''t stand in front of him and cry and show him how much he has hurt me throughout the years.


    "I am so sorry, Baby girl! I know it''s shitty of me to do all those things and I''m a fool who hurt you. Please, talk to me." His voice sounds desperate and sad but I''m not falling for his acting and tricks.


    "There is nothing to talk about, Ezra and leave me alone and I mean it. Don''t show your face to me ever." I stopped a cab and sat inside before he could stop me.


    I am so tired and I just want to sleep and forget everything.

 Letting Him Go

    There are no more tears left to spill for Ezra. I am feeling nothing, just empty and void. He has made me an empty shell who feels nothing other than sadness and despair.


    Iam mopping on my bed since I came from the g. Mom and dad are sleeping and iam sure Izzy is with Ezra in his penthouse doing God knows what.


    Ugh! I need to stop thinking about him and her. I don''t care what he does and who he does.


    They both can go to hell!


    My phone rang pulling me from my depressing thoughts. I hope it''s not Ezra or else I will punch his stupid face.


    It''s an unknown number shing on my screen and I reluctantly answered it hoping it''s not him.


    "Hello! Fay!" A familiar voice sounded from the other side making me sigh and feel guilty for abandoning him. I couldn''t face him after the way I fought with Ezra and everything was a mess and I don''t want Alex to know that something happened and go and tell my Dad.


    "Hey! Alex?" I asked, wanting to make sure that he is Alex.


    "Yeah! What are you doing?" Straight to the point!


    "Nothing, just got on the bed to call it a night. What about you? And wait! Where did you get my number from? I didn''t give it to you!" His chuckle reached my ears instead of an answer.


    "You talk so fast and too much, Fay! I got it from your Dad and I am in front of your house making sure that you got home safe." I got up from my bed to check if he was telling the truth or not. To my surprise he is standing in our driveway with the same suit on.


    "Oh My god! What are you doing here?" I whispered, not wanting my parents to wake up and find him outside.


    "Why are you whispering!" Heughed out loud and waved at me.


    "Ugh! You shouldn''t havee here." I ended the call and went out of my room to meet him. It will look so bad if someone sees us.


    "You are looking cute even if you are angry." I narrowed my eyes on him flirting. I didn''t give him any hint that I was interested then why the hell is he flirting with me!


    "Am I sensing flirting there?" I stood in front of him in my pajama shorts and a tank top.


    "Umm, maybe!" I sighed, I don''t know how I can tell him that I will never flirt back or receive his flirting.


    Wait a minute! Why the hell can''t I enjoy harmless flirting!


    *It''s because of your Ezra*My inner bitchy voice mocked me, making me p her internally. I have gone mad totally, fighting and talking with my inner voices?


    "Hmm! So what are you doing here! I said I will text you tomorrow." His features changed from yful to serious.


    "I saw you fighting with someone, I tried toe to you but it seems you both know each other so I stepped back but i couldn''t leave without knowing you are alright." My face burned with shame and embarrassment. He saw me fighting with Ezra! How awful it may have looked to anyone seeing us fighting like that in public.


    "He was my best friend." He doesn''t need to know anything and I''m not going to tell a stranger about my life history.


    There is no life, only history, my inner voice mocked me again making me groan in annoyance. Why the hell did I be so annoying?


    "Was? Is he not your bestfriend now?" Alex has this big question mark on his forehead making me sigh.


    "I will always be her best friend." A familiar deep voice came from behind, making my body locked with shock and surprise.


    What the hell is he doing here? He is like a devil who won''t leave his ve until he gets what he wants.


    "What the fuck is your problem, Ezra! What are you doing here?" I didn''t turn around in the fear of looking into his eyes and making excuses with myself to give him another chance.


    "I should ask you that, Baby girl! What are you doing outside in this flimsy outfit with a stranger!" The audacity of this bastard! I am going to kill him right now.


    "He is not a stranger, Ezra! He is my friend." I gritted out the words, anger bubbling inside me. How dare he talk to me like that! I have given him more leniency and the right to walk all over me whenever he wants but now I am not going to sit silent and let him control me.


    "When did he be your Friend, Fay! Don''t lie to me." I turned around to p some sense into him so he would stop embarrassing me in front of Alex.


    When I turned around Ezra was still in that same suit and Izzy was still with him standing so close to him making my body shake with anger.


    "What the fuck do you want Ezra! unting your flings in front of me again and again, knowing that you were and are hurting me. You are impossible." I started walking away from him but I can hear two sets of footsteps following me. Oh my god! Why the hell are they following me?


    "Leave me alone!" I yelled, without looking back and entered the house.


    I seriously don''t want to talk with anyone right now. My head is gonna burst if I seethe in anger and seeing them together again is like stabbing my heart with a knife.


    "Fay! Wait! I am sorry!" I can still hear Ezra behind me trying to hold my arm but I''m jerking his every touch.


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    "I don''t need your sorry, Ezra! Leave me alone. I still don''t want to see your face nor want to be in your presence." I entered my room and was ready to bang the door on his face but he is already so close to me and I can''t close the door properly.


    "I know, I''m an Asshole and I just wanted to drop her here, Babygirl. I told her very clearly from the start that I feel nothing for her and there is no chance for anything." He get on his knees in front of me and hugged me, making my heart skip a beat.


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    "What are you doing?" I whispered, it''s getting hard to let the words out due to the sob threatening toe out.


    He has hurt me so much that seeing him today like this makes me want to forget every single hurt.


    He and I both hurt myself and still I want to look over everything.


    Infatuation and attraction has turned into love over the years.


    "I gave you a chance, Ezra but you ruined it by bringing her to the g. I don''t think I am able to give you any more chances." His head is on my stomach and his arms tightened around me but I am still not touching him in the fear that I will give in and hurt myself again.


    I may sound like a broken record but I''m having a conflict between my head and heart.


    "I want you, Fay! I want you every second of my life and in everything and I''m so sorry. I will never hurt you. I can''t breathe without you." My arms snaked around him and we both started sobbing like kids as in the past whenever he felt so burdened and sad by his parents'' fights.


    "I need some time for myself, Ezra. I need time to forgive my teenage self who got hurt and need time to forgive you too.


    I don''t know how much time it will be till I feel no guilt for the way I had expected things from Ezra and waited for him to acknowledge my feelings when I should have moved on when he first introduced the girl he slept with back then. I need to let go the doubt, anger and hurt in order to love Ezra as I did when I was twelve years old without any expectations and totally infatuated with him and I hope I still feel the same for him after I heal myself.

 Irresistible

    "Is he still outside?" I asked Joanna who is entering our new apartment. She came with me when I left the next morning after the g. My heart couldn''t bare to be in the same ce as Ezra and not be with him.


    "Yeah! As usual. Why don''t you go and talk to him, Fay!" I know, I should talk to him and tell him to go back home and stop waiting for me as it''s impossible to ignore him and see him waiting for me outside our apartment every single day since four months back.


    I know he is trying and repenting, he never chased me but still waits outside my apartment and walks with me to the subway and back to the apartment.


    My heart aches seeing him trying to get me back but the hurt we both gave to myself stops me from approaching him and forgiving him.


    "It''s not the best idea when I''m not sure if I can forgive him. If I go and talk to him then I will repeat the same toxic cycle." Joanna nodded her head in understanding and went to her room to freshen up.


    Izzy and I broke ties with each other as I never thought she would Betray me like that. I don''t need snakes as my friends.


    Daniel sometimes calls or texts me catching up on our lives and he seriously regrets ever meeting Izzy as he thinks a friend should never betray another Friend.


    And about Alex, he is still waiting upon that coffee date I promised him but my heart isn''t in and I don''t want to choose second options. When I want to date then the man should be my first priority.


    I walked towards the door and got down the building to see if he was still there as I haven''t seen him properly in these months.


    When I exit the gate, he is not in his usual ce making me sad and worried if this is the day he wants to give up on me!


    "You shouldn''te out in the dark, Baby girl!" His deep voice startled me, I turned around to see him standing behind me looking as gorgeous as always and his dark eyes drinking me in and I can see his longing for me as he can see mine. "You scared me!" I don''t know what else to say to him other than being dumb.


    I still feel the pull towards him and the longing I had for was tenfold now.


    "I missed you, Babygirl." My heart started beating faster and my body is literally shaking and aching for his touch and I can see he is holding himself back from reaching out to me and holding me in his arms. "This doesn''t mean anything, Ezra!" Regretes after everything but for now I don''t care.


    "W.. what....." I didn''t let him finish his sentence before I jumped on him and captured his lips, tasting him for the first time in months and he didn''t hesitate before moving his lips with mine and spreading himself all over me. Ezra is like this forbidden fruit I should avoid but I can''t resist him.


    He moved us towards somewhere and I''m sure there were no eyes on us, still his lips moving with mine and his hands all over my body touching and caressing like he can''t believe that I am kissing him and in his arms.


    "We shouldn''t do this." I said in between the kiss and he groaned in my mouth making my thighs clench with need and I''m already gushing.


    "I know but I missed you so damn much that it hurts." We are both literally eating eachother and I still can''t get enough of him.


    "Where is your car?" I asked, leaving his lips to utter the words.


    "Why!" He looks cute when he is confused.


    "Don''t you want to fuck me?" I never used crude words before him but now the need and desire to have him inside me is making me say words I never said before.


    "Fay! That''s not a good idea. We should spend some time before doing anything." When did he be so sensible?


    "we will do everything after we are done fucking. So shut up and take me to your car before I change my mind and go back." His hand circled around my neck and pulled me towards him taking my lips in a brushing kiss which made my toes curl and my stomach drop in pleasure.


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    "You don''t know what you are asking for Babygirl. I haven''t touched you in months and i can''t hold myself back and be gentle with you." I don''t want him gentle, i want him raw and intense.


    "Don''t treat me like ss, Ezra.. I can take whatever you will give." He took my hand in his and guided me towards his car which is parked near a park.


    "I don''t want to fuck you in a car, Fay! I want to show you how much I missed you and how much I missed being inside you." His words are making me more horny and I don''t think I can wait till we reach his hotel.


    " So, take me somewhere where we can ravish eachother for hours." His painful groan reached my ears making me giggle.


    "You are killing me, Babygirl. Where did you sweet and goody two shoes Fay went? Your mouth is making me lose my control and i want to be in control to not give these people a show." He pointed towards the people scattered around us. "I don''t mind that." I bit my lip to hide the smile threating to spread and he squeezed my hand and started walking fast.


    "Slow down! I am literally running where you are just walking." His long legs are making me jog.


    "I can''t, I need to get us to the hotel as soon as I can." He lifted me and slumped me on his shoulder like a sack making meugh like a maniac.


    "What the hell, Ezra! I feel dizzy. Put me down." I banged my fists on his back but he is gaint infront of my small fists.


    "Fay!" A familiar voice called my name, making Ezra to stop walking and he turned around to check whom the voice belong to.


    "What the hell are you doing here!" I can hear anger in Ezra''s voice.


    "


    Put me down, Ezra!" He didn''t move for a minute making me kick him in the stomach and atst he reluctantly put me down but his hand was possessively wrapped around my waist making me roll my eyes at him. "Alex? What are you doing here?" I am surprised to see Alex here as I am not expecting him in front of my apartment.


    "Hi! I came here on business, and wanted to check on you after work, so here I am." Ezra has a deep scowl etched on his face and he is ring at Alex like he will punch his face.


    "Okay, Come let''s get inside." I tried to lose Ezra''s hold from my body but he is the stubborn devil.


    "What about our n, Fay!" He turned towards me with sad eyes making me feel bad but I just can''t abandon Alex when he came here to meet me.


    "We can still go but after having a cup of coffee with Alex." I tried to make him understand and with his sigh I know that he has given up on the topic.


    "Okay, let''s go then!" My eyebrows shot up in surprise and shock at the way Ezra easily epted and didn''t throw any tantrum that Alex hade to meet me.


    "Are you alright?" I asked, wanting to know if he is okay! As he always shooed away every single guy who came towards me.


    "I am okay, Babygirl!" He gave me a panty dropping smile and pulled me towards me to peck me.


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    I resisted so hard to stay away from Ezra but I can''t seem to find a way to make that happen.


    We may be toxic to each other but when I am with him I feel a serene feeling and feel like I am finally home.


    He was my home since I first met him and he will always be my home.

 A New Beginning

    "Is that really Ezra in our apartment?" Joanna still has a shocked face since she opened the door and saw Ezra and Alex with me.


    "Yes, Joanna! He is really our Ezra." I went back to making coffee after answering her.


    "Our Ezra? When did he be our Ezra! You were lecturing me and saying something about toxic cycle and all!" I know, i did say all those things but when ites to Ezra i forget everything but it doesn''t mean i''m going to let him control me again, this time it will be me who leads everything.


    "I want to give him another chance and this time it will be on my terms." I poured coffee in the mugs and turned around to go back to the living room before they punched each other''s faces.


    "I hope you don''t get hurt again, Fay!" I know her concern is probably that I am going to get hurt again but I just don''t want to give up on Ezra this early because we were each others Worlds since we were kids and I don''t want to give up on all those memories, smile and tears.


    "Here you go!" They all took their cups and Ezra pulled me towards him and made me sit beside him with his big palm on my thigh.


    "So, how is everyone back home?" I asked Alex, wanting to shoo away the awkward atmosphere. I Facetime with my parents everyday but I still miss them as I never got the time to spend with them whenst time I was home. "Everyone is good and Ah! I Am hosting a party this Sunday and I would really love it if youe." I looked at Ezra to see his expression but he has a neutral face and Joanna''s expression matches with his. They seriously look like siblings right now with their expressions and stance.


    "I would love toe, what about you guys!" I asked them both who looked at Alex and answers at the same time making me burst outughing.


    "If you are going then i am going."


    "If you are going then i am going."


    "What''s funny?" Joanna asked, her brows pulled down in confusion.


    "Nothing, you guys just look like long lost siblings." They both Rolled their eyes at the same time and this time Alex joined me in theugh.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    Alex hangout with us for sometime and he left telling us the address of the ce he is staying with his friends and where the party is being held.


    I was in the kitchen cleaning up after we had dinner which we ordered. Ezra sat on the stool just watching me clean up.


    "Thanks to Alex for interrupting us." He said randomly, making me stunned there for a second.


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    "What are you talking about?"I asked, turning around to look at him.


    Our eyes met and I can see his sincerity and longing in them for me and the first time my heart felt content and full as he never looked at me like this and he never reciprocated what I felt.


    "I had never been in a rtionship and I never believed in love. Honestly saying I don''t know what exactly love is but with you it feels different and I don''t have to wear my mask in front of you." I know what he is saying, growing up he never felt love and warmth from his parents nor from anyone.


    He hated anything rted to love and Affection.


    It took so much time for me to even touch his hand and hug him. He never told me why he hated skinship and I never saw him letting any girl be overly touchy with him.


    "I know everything Ezra." I moved towards him and he pulled me between his legs and my arms snaked around his thick neck.


    "So, Babygirl, let me take you on a Date first before we do anything. Let me court you." Tears brimmed in my eyes at his words. I never thought I would hear these words from him nor will I ever see this day.


    "I would love that, Ezra! I would love to go on a date with you and I would love to do everything with you." We both moved towards each other, taking each other''s lips and moving them together and this time slowly knowing each other''s tastes.


    I can feel it in my heart that from now everything will be different and positive and I hope it stays that way.


    "So, what about Alex''s party?" I asked, anxiously waiting for his answer. I know he is trying and has changed much from before but still it takes time for everything.


    "As we told Alex that we areing then we are going. This time we will be as transparent as we can get, Babygirl." I nodded my head at him with a big grin and he took my lips once again making us forget everything around us. Ezra left after we made out in the kitchen like teenagers and got caught by Joanna who shrieked like a hen and ran away covering her eyes.


    "Ezra Asked you out?" Joanna is still in disbelief that he had asked me out but at the same time she has this knowing smile that she knew he would eventually ask me out.


    "Yes, Joanna and he didn''t tell me when we are going on a date but I''ll wait for that day." I stood up from the couch and went to my room to get some sleep and I know I am not going to get any sleep with the events of today. The ringing of my phone pulled me out of my thoughts. I retrieved the phone from the nightstand to see Ezra''s number shing on the screen making me blush like a teenager.


    "Don''t tell me you are blushing!" His deep voice reached my ears the second I answered the call. He knows how to tease me.


    "Who told you I''m blushing! I was sleeping and you disturbed me." I won''t believe my words as he knows me so well.


    "


    Okay if you say so Babygirl." We started talking and i don''t know when my eyes got closed on their ord but I slept peacefully hearing his voice and feeling him beside me and i want this feeling for the rest of my life.

 Naughty & Surprise

    "Wake up! You sleepyhead. "Joanna banged on my bedroom''s door making me groan in annoyance. I was up tillte at night talking to Ezra on the phone and dreaming about him and the way his hands and mouth felt on my body. I was shamelessly having erotic dreams about Ezra and I am darn horny right now and also super annoyed at the fact that I can''t do anything about it.


    Why don''t I send Ezra a sexy picture and provoke him toe and have his way with me? It''s a great idea and it will work.


    I mostly sleep naked all the time and right now I am not wearing anything so it will be helpful to tease Ezra. I retrieved my phone from the nightstand and pulled down the duvet slowly showing my b**bs slightly, he can see half of them. With a big grin on my face and biting my lip, I clicked a picture and sent it to him and waited for him eagerly to text me back but my phone rang startling me.


    Ezra is face-timing, I answered the call not showing him my face but a duvet-covered body of mine.


    "You are killing me, Baby girl!" He groaned painfully into the phone, making me chuckle.


    "If I am killing you then you need toe here and handle me, Ezra. "I demanded sassily knowing he knows what handling meant.


    "I can''t, Babygirl! Trust me if I can then you will be withering under me." His words sent a jolt of electricity to my core making me clench my thighs to ease the ache between them.


    "Ezra!" I whispered his name, moving the phone to my face so I can see him and he can see the desire written all over my face for him.


    "What, Babygirl!" He husked out, his eyes moving from my eyes to my lips and I can feel him in front of me in person at the way he is looking at me.


    "I want you." His deep groan made me chuckle and his eyes darkened with lust.


    "Show me how much you want me, Baby girl! Remove the duvet and show me your quickering p***y which is dripping for me." His bold words made my stomach dip in pleasure and my already wet core clenched.


    I removed the duvet from my body slowly giving him a strip tease and finally, I moved the phone toward my core which is weeping for him and his touch.


    "Keep that phone somewhere you don''t need to hold it. "I put the phone in the middle of the pillows and moved back so he can see me fully.


    "Now what?" I asked, waiting for his instructions. Excitement and thrill coursed through me. I have never done this before.


    " Spread your legs wide for me, Fay! I want to see my p***y." He is iming it like he has the damn right on it and hearing him calling it made me more aroused.


    I did as he ordered, all spread wide on the bed and fully naked waiting for his next orders.


    "Wo! I can''t wait to taste those glistening lips, Babygirl." He groaned again.


    "Thene and taste them. "I said, trying to provoke him toe do exactly what we are both dying to do.


    "I am sorry baby girl but I must stand on my promise now and take you on a date first and then I will devour you." He growled at thest sentence, making me shake with need, a need he only can ignite in me and a need he can only ease. "Now show me how much you need a release. " Ezra said with a smirk, making me narrow my eyes at him. He is an asshole for making me crave him.


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    With a devilish smirk, I put my two fingers in my mouth wetting them and pulling them out with a pop knowing it will have an intense effect on Ezra and my prediction was correct as a groan cum moan slipped from his mouth making me giggle.


    I slowly traced the path with my fingers towards my aching core teasing myself and him.


    "If you don''t reach the pussy soon then I wille and teach you a lesson, Fay!" His eyes are darkened with desire and they are dting.


    The first stroke of my fingers made me arch my back and a deep moan slipped through my teeth which I was clenching so hard to not cum yet.


    "Yes! Go harder baby! Show me how much you want my mouth on your p***y." With his encouraging words j worked my fingers rapidly on my clit and I can feel the tell-tale of my orgasm building Inside me and with a wordless gasp I let lose clenching my core walls and my mouth was won''t open in an O and my legs are shaking as the orgasm washes over me.


    "


    Clench your p***y like you are clenching my c**k, Babygirl. " Ezra grunts and curses, making me look at the camera to see his eyes are fixated on my core with so much hunger in them.


    "You didn''t touch yourself! " I asked, dumbfounded that he hasn''t touched himself and just looked at me shamelessly chasing my climax.


    "No, Babygirl! I will onlye in your hot p***y. Until then no touching or jerking off." His deep chuckle reached through the phone, making me shiver.


    No doubt that I have been addicted to Ezra Irwin.


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    "Go and get yourself cleaned. I have a surprise waiting for you outside your room. " He said, making me frown in confusion.


    "What surprise?" He sure is surprising me a lot nowadays and another surprise!


    "Go out and check yourself." With that he ended the call abruptly, making me roll my eyes at the nk screen. Some things never change.


    I washed up and wore sweatpants and a T-shirt, tied my hair into a bun, and went outside my room.


    Joanna is sitting on the sofa watching something on the tv. There is a bag beside her that is unopened.


    "What is that?" I asked, sitting on the opposite side of the couch and looking at the bag like whatever it has Inside wille out and scream surprise! My head sometimes is a very creative and funny ce.


    "I don''t know, it has your name on it so I didn''t open it." Her eyes are still glued to the television.


    I took the bag from the couch and opened it. A surprised gasp left my mouth seeing its contents.


    A ck mini frock in matte is peeking at me which is stunning. A Pair of strappy ck stilettos, and some elegant jewelry, such as silver hoop earrings and a delicate ne are in another small bag.


    "Oh my god! It''s so pretty. "I gushed out showing the dress, heels, and jewelry to Joanna who for the first time since I entered the living room turned her attention to me.


    "Yes, it is!" Ugh! She doesn''t have an interest in all the girly stuff, just wears them and buys them for her needs. I ignored her and opened the envelope which was tucked inside the small bag and opened it to read. "Be ready at 7, I will pick you up! Love, Ezra!" His neat and beautiful handwriting winked at me, making me blush and a shiver ran down my body thinking about what the evening would hold.

 My Addiction

    "Come on, get up!" I put the bag on the couch and turned towards Joanna. She has her head still in the television and did not heard me at all making me sigh in annoyance.


    "Joanna! I am talking to you!" I gritted out the words. Sometimes she behaves like this and sometimes I wanted to kill her for being a psychopath and ignoring me.


    "Don''t you think you are rushing!" Came out of her mouth making me roll my eyes. She is such azy bum.


    "No, if we don''t go now then we won''t get an appointment for my hair and nails. So move your ass." I turned around to go back to my room and get ready for the salon so I can style my hair and get nails done for the evening. "I''m not talking about salon, Fay! I was talking about you and Ezra and your whole thing of giving him another chance and starting a new chapter." She looked me in the eye with a nk face and waited for my answer which I don''t have because I don''t know. I just love him so much that I think too much.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "I am not rushing anything with Ezra, Joanna. We talked and we decided to walk through it together." I said, sitting beside her. I know she is worried about both of us.


    "Maybe but you guys are bad for each other, Fay! I just don''t want any of you to get hurt, especially you." She said with a small smile.


    "I know, whatever you are thinking is right but even if Ezra is bad for me, I still want him, Joanna. I just can''t imagine my life without him and if he didn''t show me he has changed then I will never have given him another chance." She nodded her head in understanding and got up from the couch.


    "Are you not gettingte, now! Let''s go!" I gave her a big grin and went into my room to get changed.


    Joanna and I left our apartment and went to the salon which is a fifteen minute drive from our ce. I am so excited that I am literally beaming with happiness.


    "Stop! You are looking like a creep with that grin which you have been sporting for an hour." Joanna scowled at me but she was hiding her smile behind it.


    "Aww! Don''t be a party pooper, Joe! I''m just excited for my date with Ezra, The same Ezra I was pinning on for years." I yelled, making other customers in the saloon turn towards us.


    " Ugh! I shouldn''t havee with you if I knew you were going to embarrass me." I smile at everyone apologetically before turning towards my friend and punching her arm yfully.


    "Why don''t you let me enjoy this phase, Joanna! You should be happy too, you know, for your best friend finally shifted from single to mingle." I raised my eyebrows yfully teasing her.


    "Yeah! I Am happy for you but don''t turn into a mushy mushy and eat my head." A hairdresser called my name, cutting our conversation in the middle. I scrunch my nose at Joanna and went towards the station she was waiting for.


    The hairdresser gave me a haircut and highlighted some parts of my brown hair into dark golden blonde and for my nails I got them painted in matte ck which will match with my dress and stilettos.


    It took us two hours to go back to our apartment and I instantly ran to the bathroom to take a shower so I can get started as I have only two hours left for seven o''clock.


    Joanna doesn''t wear makeup so she doesn''t know how to do someone else''s too. I did all natural make up and wore the essories Ezra sent and by 6:50 I am all ready to go.


    "Uh-huh! Someone is looking hot!" Joanna''s voice came from behind making me do a twirl to show her the dress and all.


    "Thanks! I can feel the hotness myself." I winked at her andughed when she rolled her eyes at me before moving into the living room.


    "And! Your Romeo is already waiting for you in the living room." That made the smile wipe off my face. He is already here!


    Oh my god! Ezra is here and I can''t breathe!


    Ugh! I am going to ruin my makeup if I sweat, But I don''t know how Ezra will react seeing me in this dress. we are not just friends now! We haven''t given any names yet but still it''s new for both of us and I don''t know how to react. Calming my nerves and taking deep breaths, I checked myself onest time in the mirror and turned around towards the door to go out.


    I will just behave normally like I always behaved.


    I closed the door behind me but didn''t raise my head yet and I can feel the familiar gaze of Ezra trailing along my body making me dizzy with his intense gaze.


    If I look up, I will see desire and adoration in his eyes and I''m dying to see those in his dark eyes but I''m still fighting my nerves.


    Why am I overthinking everything!


    Slowly I raised my head to see Ezra leaning against the kitchen counter casually and his eyes were on me dark and dted.


    He is wearing a button down shirt, his sleeves are folded into half and a ck jeans which are fitted so snuggly to his legs that I can see his muscr thighs from here.


    "Come here, Baby girl!" I checked my surroundings but Joanna was nowhere around so I took slow steps towards him and with each step the desire, love and longing for Ezra increased ten fold.


    I stopped a foot away but Ezra wiped away the distance between us and took me in his arms. I could smell his intoxicating scent and I inhaled greedily. Our foreheads are touching and I''m on the brink of losing my control of not jumping Ezra


    and pulling him into the bedroom to have my way with him and the way his erection is poking my stomach I know he is barely controlling himself.


    "You are looking so damn beautiful, Baby girl! I promised to wait till our date but I just have to taste your lips." With that he took my lips in a toe curling kiss making me lose my control and will to hold back.


    As I always say Ezra is a drug and addiction which will never be cured and I will always happily let him consume me.

 Proposal

    Ezra''s Pov:


    I can''t believe Fay is sitting beside me and i''m taking her on a date. Date! I never in my dreams thought I would be a date kind of guy but with Fay i would do anything even if I have to change into a fucking clown then I will happily do it. Being with Fay makes me a different person and keep my demons at bay. She hasn''t seen the real me and i am not nning on showing it to her because when i''m with her i forgot that side of me who is cold, calcted and ruthless. "Where are we going, Ezra!" Fay bounced on her seat making her dress to slightly ride up her thigh making her milky skin avable for my eyes.


    I was on the brink of losing my control when we were kissing in Fay''s apartment but I need to do everything ording to her and I want to give her a fairy tale she always dreamed about and ate my ears off when we were kids. "Baby girl! Slow down! It won''t be a surprise if I tell you." She pouted her pink lips making me chuckle.


    I never believed in rtionships and love and I don''t know if I still know what love is but I feel with Fay and that''s enough for me and I don''t think I will ever be able to feel like this for anyone and the main thing is I can''t live without her. She is practically the air I breathe.


    I may sound corny but that is the truth.


    I did so many things to hurt her, I tried so hard to push her away from me as well as never let her gopletely selfishly but right now seeing her sit beside me happily I feel happiness seep through the cracks my parents left behind.


    I was the way because of them, they never truly showed what love is, what rtionships are, what human feelings and emotions are as they are too busy to cheat on each other and fight with each other.


    Fay teached me everything, an ounce of the human I am is because of her and her parents.


    "Don''t pout! I will kiss the fuck out of you." That made her send a scowl my way and turned her head towards the window watching the scenery with fascination.


    The road changed outside into sand and a vast area. She doesn''t know what this ce is but she will love it.


    I parked the car and got out before she coulde out. I opened her door and helped her to get out.


    "You need to turn around so I can tie a blind fold." I said, turning her around and pulling out the blind fold from my jean pocket.


    "What! This is so cheesy, Ezra!" Sheughed, somewhat confused and dumbfounded that i am doing this all.


    "I want to make this date beautiful and like you always said you wanted a fairytale so I''m giving you your fairy tale." A soft gasp reached my ears, making me grasp her shoulders and pulling her back to me so I could hug her and tell her without words that I will give everything she wants and deserves.


    "Ready for the surprise!" I asked, tying the blind fold around her eyes and kissing her head.


    "As always!" She answered, i hugged her from behind and started guiding her towards our destination.


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    She didn''t hesitate nor felt afraid while walking blindfolded which showed she trusts me to not let her fall and I will never make her fall ever.


    "Are we near a beach? Or on the beach?" Fay sniffed and took a lungful of breath and a squeal cake out of her mouth. She will always be that fifteen year old girl. "Take off your heels now! Don''t want them to get sand on them." Iughed at her happy jump and helped her to remove the heels and ced them to the side.


    "Take off the blind fold, Ezra! I already knew it was the beach so your surprise is over." She tried to remove the fold but I stopped her from untying it.


    "No, it''s not the only surprise, Babygirl! It''s just part of the surprise. You need to keep the blind fold." I started moving her onto the sand and took her to the ce where I wanted her to stand.


    I slowly untied the blind fold and stood beside her to see her expression when she sees what I have nned for her, for us.


    I rented out this beach and made someone to hang the fairy lights, set up a table, flowers and a bed to chill. I made my chef prepare her favorite food and also bottles of red wine and dessert.


    "Oh my god! It''s...it''s beautiful." Fay turned towards me with a teary smile but her beautiful eyes widened when she saw me on my knees in front of her.


    "W.. what are you doing?" She whispered, her tears flowing freely and my eyes teared seeing her looking so beautiful and gorgeous. She always saw me at my worst and vulnerable and still epted me with her whole heart.


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    I hurt her so damn much but she is still giving me chances upon chances.


    "Iam so fucking sorry for all the times I have hurt you, Fay! Sorry won''t cut the hurt but I''m still sorry and I will always make it up to you for the hurt you felt because of me." She was sobbing silently without caring about her makeup and closed the gap between us and came down to my height on her knees.


    "I forgive you, Ezra! People may call me crazy but we are always meant to be together. I have seen you when you were broken and alone, we were each other''s strength and weaknesses." She said in between her sobs and like always I started sobbing with her holding her tight in the fear of losing her.


    "Asking you out to be my girlfriend will be an insult to our friendship and bond, Babygirl. So I''m asking if you are willing to take me as your life partner and husband?" She literally froze in my arms and we are still on our knees. She didn''t have any expression on her face other than a nk one making my heart race.


    What if she says no!


    I knew the second I realized that Fay is more than a friend that I will make her my wife. I was so sure that she would say yes and I don''t know how to react if she rejects my proposal.


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    If she doesn''t see a happy ending with me and a family with me then it''s okay i will always be her bestfriend.

 She said YES!

    Holy shit! Is this real!


    Is Ezra really on his knees and asking me to marry him? I can''t believe it!


    Hurt and sadness washes over his features when iam still stuck and didnt utter a single fucking thing. My heart and head said "Yes" the second the words tumble out of his mouth but my body is still in shock and not moving.


    "It''s Okay Baby girl! You don''t need to say anything." A small smile apparead on his handsome face and he started to got up pulling me with him but I pulled him down and took his lips with mine showing him that I will marry him every single time if he asks me.


    Our lips moved slowly savoring the taste of each other and I want to savor this moment as much as I can.


    "I will happily make you my husband, Ezra! So, it''s a yes!" I said, our foreheads touching and our breaths mixing with each other.


    "Thank you so much, Baby girl! Thank you for making me the happiest man by saying Yes and epting me after all the things I did to hurt you. You don''t know how much your yes meant to me." He croaked out, cupping my cheeks and looking at me with so much love and adoration that I don''t know how to feel.


    I always craved his love, emotions and everything and now when I am getting everything from him, I am feeling overwhelmed but in a good way.


    He pulled out a small box from his pocket and opened the lid showing me the most beautiful and prettiest ring I have ever seen.


    "When I went on to pick out a ring for you, this is the one which reminded me of you the most." The ring is a stunning gold ring with a beautiful rose design and delicate pink diamonds on the rose.


    "


    ''It''s so beautiful, Ezra! I love it!" I squealed happily, giving him my hand when he showed his palm to take it and put the ring on my ring finger which fit perfectly.


    "I knew that it would look more beautiful on your finger, Fay!" Ezra kissed my ring finger and pulled me up and took me towards the table which is decorated beautifully with flowers and fairy lights.


    "I''m starving, Ezra! What did you get there?" He pulled my chair out and helped me to sit down and took his seat opposite me.


    I never thought I would be engaged and that too with Ezra but here we are on our date and enjoying food in a beautiful beach surrounded by trees and cool air flowing through us making me feel serene and happy.


    "I asked my chef to prepare your favorite food!" He informed me, opening the lid of mouth-watering hotsagna.


    "Oh My god! I am going to stuff my tummy with all the yummy food." I joked, stuffing my mouth with a spoonful of the deliciousness and groaning at the taste of it.


    "Don''t make noises like that, Babygirl. I am on the brink of losing it." Ezra''s husky voice broke my food trance, making me look up at him to see his eyes darkened with desire and want making me clench my thighs.


    "What will you do If I don''t stop!" I challenged him with a smirk and moaned. His jaw ticked and he narrowed his eyes at me with a wicked glint.Content rights belong to N?velDrama.Org.


    "Finish your food first, Babygirl! I will show you what happens when you don''t listen to me when we are done eating." I ate my food hurriedly hungry for him and the things his eyes promised me.


    We finished our food with a cheesecake and chocte cake and I literally got a food orgasam with the delicious food and now it''s time to get real orgasms.


    "Come let''s dance!" I put my wine ss on the table standing up and took his awaiting hand. Ezra took me to the middle and the music changed to a sensual one and the air around us changed ording to the music and the mood. Ezra and I started swaying with the music and breeze, our bodies glued together and my head rested on his shoulder.


    I feel at ease and home for the first time in years. I am unable to put words to the feelings and emotions I am having right now. I just want to cease this moment.


    "I love you, Baby girl!" Those three words froze me for the second time tonight.


    Ezra has said those words so many times throughout the years but this time it''s different and I can feel the love in those words making me shudder in his arms.


    "I.. I love you too, Ezra!" I choked the words out, hugging him close to my body and felt the way his body loosened up.


    He took my lips this time with his and this kiss is different from thest one. This has desire, lust, love, longing and need. Our hands started exploring each other like it was our first time.


    Ezra took me to the bed which is ced on the sand and we took our time to undress each other.


    "Is it okay to be naked here?" I asked, worried that someone maye and see us like this.


    Ezraughed at my frown and flicked my forehead.


    "It''s a private property Fay! No one is going toe here." With that said he tweaked my right nipple and bowed his head to take the left nipple in his mouth making me thrust my boobs in his face.


    I''m already dripping wet and I can''t wait to have him inside me. It''s been a long time since we did this and I can''t wait any longer.


    "I can''t wait any longer Ezra! Please make love to me." My voice came out in a whisper as i am unable to form the words properly due to the need and desire consuming me.


    He made mey on the soft bed and started cing soft kisses all over my face and finally took my awaiting lips with his lips making love to them first and then he entered me making me shudder with each thrust.


    "I missed feeling so warm, Baby girl. You are my home." With that he started making love to me under the stars like In fairy tales and we both shattered at the same time under those same stars feeling happy, content and sated and starting a new life and new beginning.

 Dirty!

    It''s been a blissfully happy month since Ezra and I got engaged and I swear I never felt this happy and content in my life. Ezra was dying to hold a engagement party to celebrate our love and union but i held him back saying we first need to spend some time in the sheets as well as doing the things normal couple does like going on dates, shopping and other stuff and so far we have done pretty much everything and tomorrow is our engagement party. "What are you fussing about now! Fay?" Joanna asked, sitting beside me on the bed while i''m folding my clothes.


    "Nothing! I just feel everything is too good to be true!" I heaved a sigh, knowing my negative mind is going to ruin everything by over-thinking things.


    "Ugh! Why do you overthink too much! Nothing is too good to be true! Stop, Fay!" Joanna rolled her eyes at me and I know she is right and I just have to push that stupid voice out of my head but still I feel like something is not right and my happiness will be snatched away any second and I do not want to feel like that.


    We are back in our town and I have already shopped for the party. I am wearing a red princess gown which will hug my upper body like a skin and the lower will be puffed out and I''m dying to wear it and unt it.


    "Let''s go to the spa and get the much needed self care, you need it more now to kick out all the negative energy from your head and body." Joanna pulled me up from the bed and dragged me towards me downstairs. Ezra has a meeting today so he is busy in his office making me miss him so damn much.


    Joanna and I spent all day in the spa and shopping for her and for my things just walking around the malls and enjoying ourselves after a long time.


    When we were in the cafe, my phone rang.


    "Hello!" I didn''t check who called me but when I checked the caller ID after answering it was a private number and there is no sound from the other side making me think they have ended the call but the call is still going on. "Hello! How may I help you?" I asked into the phone again but there was no response. Joanna whispered whom I am talking to but I silenced her by putting my finger on the lip.


    "Hell..." I was cut off by a feminine voice this time.


    "Watch your back." The call ended with the three words confusing me and at the same time my stomach dropped in worry as to why I need to watch my back and who the hell is she?


    "What the fuck?" I cursed looking at my phone and the number.


    "What happened? Who was on the phone!" Joanna asked, worried about seeing my expression and mood.


    "I don''t know, it was a weird phone call. She just said to watch my back. "I chuckled at the weirdness of it but at the same time something didn''t feel right but I shook that off to not spoil my mood.


    "People nowadays are making prank calls, you are the lucky one to get a call." We bothughed at that and finished off our burgers as we were starving with all the walking through the mall and trying on hundreds of outfits.


    "Yeah! It may be one of the pranks. I Am going to Ezra''s office to surprise him. Are you able to go home on your own?" I asked her, I have something in my mind for Ezra and I want to surprise him and tease him. "Ugh! Am I looking like a nine year old, Fay? I can book a cab and reach my home in one piece." I chuckled at her dark sense of humor and said our goodbyes as I walked towards my car to go to Ezra''s office.


    On the way to Irwin''s building I dialed Ezra''s secretary''s number to know where he is as I don''t want him in his cabin for my surprise.


    "Hello, La! This is Fay!" She answered on the second ring, greeting me in her professional tone.


    "Yes, Miss. Moore! How can I help you?" She asked, her voice sounds so robotic. I sometimes think she really is a robot, not a human.


    "Is Ezra in the office?" I started praying in my head that he is not in the office. I Am dying to do this.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "No, miss. Moore! He has a lunch meeting with some board members and he will be back in his cabin in twenty minutes." She informed me, making me squeal into the phone but I shut my mouth not wanting to make a fool out of myself and ended the call thanking her and driving through thenes as fast as I can to reach the office.


    Most of the employees greeted me as they saw me with Ezra in the events and other functions and I greeted them back and walked towards Ezra''s cabin greeting La and locked the door to the cabin and put my bags on the couch. He has a bathroom in his cabin and I need it for my surprise. I took out the outfit I chose to wear and walked into the bathroom with my heart beating erratically with excitement and arousal at Ezra''s reaction of seeing me in this outfit. I changed into maroon lingerie with a garter belt and stockings feeling the soft fabric against my body. I brought the same coloured heels too, so I traded my shoes with the heels and applied a maroon lipstick and ruffled my hair before twirling around and checking myself in the floor length mirror.


    I don''t have any makeup on my face and Ezra loves my natural face most so I just applied Lipstick to add the sexiness. I haven''t done this for him ever but i want to surprise him and see his eyes darkened with lust and desire for me. I hurried out of the Office and checked through the door if Ezra had arrived or not as it''s already been twenty minutes and Ezra was so punctual about his timing. I closed back the binds and walked towards the swirling chair and sat on it facing the wall.


    The cabin door opened, making my heart skip a beat and I''m already soaking wet with arousal.


    "Yeah! I will send all the details via mail, okay!" He was talking on the phone and it''s my chance to catch him off guard and surprise him. His deep voice vibrated through my body and I slowly swirlied the chair with a smirk biting my lower lip. Exra''s eyes widened and his mouth opened wide and his whole body froze making me chuckle at his reaction.


    "Surprise!" I mouthed the words, his eyes narrowed and darkened, lust and desire swirling in them making me clench my thighs to stop the throb.


    "I...i...i will call you back." He ended the call and locked the door before stalking towards me with his long legs. He is in front of me in two strides and I''m still sitting on the chair. He caged me between him and the chair before pulling me up by my arms and looking at me, assessing my outfit and I can see his chest heaving with breaths and I know he is on the brink of losing his control.


    "Is this for me, Baby girl?" He husked out, cupping my cheeks and I nodded shyly.


    "You want to be a dirty whore for me?" He asked, he never talked to me like that, but oddly the term is so arousing making me practically pant and my pussy clenched at the degradation.


    I never thought I would be turned on by the term but here iam so fucking turned on and on the brink of jumping his bones and riding him like a whore he is calling me.


    "Yes, Daddy!" I don''t know if it sounds cringy or sexy but the need to call him that overpowered any other sense and the way his jaw ticked and the way he pulled me roughly towards him and took my lips in a bruising kiss told me he loved it. "I will show you how much I loved hearing that from your pretty mouth." He guided me on my knees and unbuckled his pants, freeing his very hard dick out, making my mouth water at the thought of his taste and feel inside my mouth. He pped my mouth with his dick softly, we both groaned at that.


    "Open up, Baby girl." He ordered, and I instantly opened my eager mouth and licked his glistening tip moaning at the taste and a hiss left Ezra''s mouth.


    "Now, suck it off like a dirty whore." He pushed his entire length into my mouth, choking me on it. My hands gripped his thighs and I tried to rx my throat and wrapped my lips around the length sucking it off and twirling my tongue in between pulling moans and groans from Ezra.


    This is so much fun and dirty and i''m loving every second of it.

 Fright of the day

    "You were being so naughty,ing in here and surprising me in this, making me so damn hard for you." Ezra pulled me up by my arms and made me sit on the table, clearing it off and tearing the stockings and moving my panties aside before dipping his two fingers inside my wet and dripping core.


    "My, My, look at the juices you are dripping for me and the sounds you and your pussy is making for me." He is fingering me so expertly, making my head dizzy with pleasure and I don''t know if I can hold my orgasm any longer. I came on his fingers with a silent scream, clenching his fingers and riding away the orgasm.


    "I can''t wait anymore, Babygirl. I''m dying to be inside you." He mmed into me in one go making me dizzy and my already sensitive pussy made me clench him tightly and a second orgasam barrelled through me.


    "Oh my god!" I squealed, feeling the bliss of the release and the way Ezra was thrusting inside me like his life depended on it.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    "Say Oh My Ezra, Babygirl! I am the one making you feel good, not him." Ezra said in a cocky tone, making me bite his shoulder.


    His thrusts became frantic and sloppy and I know he is near his release and I excitedly waited to feel him swelling and letting loose and I love that feeling.


    "Ahhh!" He growled in my ear, nibbling it softly before emptying inside me.


    I got cleaned inside the bathroom and came out wearing the same coat I came here in. Ezra was already looking sharp and clean after he cleaned me on the table with a wet cloth and he washed up while I was sprawled on the table like a starfish.


    "I am leaving! Don''t forget toe home for dinner and Don''t stayte in the office." I said, standing in front of him as he was going through hisptop. He pulled me onto hisp taking my lips with his and kissing me taking my breath away. "Okay Mrs. Irwin." My stomach swarmed with butterflies at the way he addressed me. I always dreamed about being his wife someday and it''s going to happen finally and I''m over the moon right now. "See ya, Mr. Irwin." with a wave I left his office with a big grin on my face which I can''t seem to wipe off.


    I went home and binge watched some romantic drama while stuffing my face with pizza and coke. I don''t know but I feel different and for the first time i don''t have a feeling that I am missing something or I need to chase it.


    A shrill ring of something woke me up from my peaceful slumber. My eyes feel heavy and my body feels like someone is pushing me into my bed but the shrill didn''t stop annoying me further and I reluctantly searched for my devil of a phone blindly without opening my eyes to shut it up.


    I found it stuck under me poking my butt, I answered with closed eyes and waited for the person on the other side to speak.


    "Hello!" I drew out.


    "Fay! Are you still sleeping? Did you check the time?" My mom''s sweet voice filled my ears pulling a big smile on my lips. "Yes, Mom! No, Mom!" I answered still in the sleepy haze. Why am I being sozy? My engagement party is literally tomorrow! Tomorrow! Wait a minute!


    "Mom! Is today the day? Don''t tell me I slept through the entire night, day and the night too. Oh My god! Was I on something that I passed out for so long! Mom!" I was babbling like a fool and I literally flew from the couch I was sleeping on! I slept watching the tv on the couch and didn''t make it to my own engagement party. Ugh! Did I lose my brain?


    "Seriously, Fay! You are being a drama queen. The engagement party is today and No, you didn''t miss it. Stop watching those dramas." Mom''s chuckle and words calmed my nerves and I sat back heaving a relieved breath. "Thank god!" I breathed into the phone, shaking my head at my madness and childishness.


    "Sorry, mom! I just dozed off on the couch." I chuckled, looking around me to find if Ezra hade back homest night or not. If he would havee he wouldn''t let me sleep on the couch and that means he is still in the office working himself to death.


    "Silly you! I called you to remind you that Joanna and I areing in an hour to get ready at your ce." My head snapped towards the clock on the wall and it''s close to noon! I slept like a sloth for so long.


    "Okay, mom! I will take a shower and eat something till you guys get here and I need to call Ezra too, he didn''te homest night." I stood up from the couch to get to my room and ended the call saying goodbye to mom and dialing Ezra''s number.


    "Hello! Mrs. Irwin! Mr. Irwin is in a meeting and he asked me to ry his message to you that he will meet you directly at the engagement party." Ezra''s secretary answered the call, making me halt in my steps because he never allows anyone to answer his personal phone AND he never ever gives his secretary his phone to answer my call even if he is in a meeting and her talking to me feels weird and odd?


    I think I am still stuck in the drama I watchedst night. I need to clear my head before I freak out.


    "Okay, Thank you." I ended the call, still feeling weird and my stomach is in knots like my gut knows something I didn''t.


    "Oh My god! Fay! You are literally being a dumb head, thinking about everything so suspiciously and stupidly." I grumbled the words face palming myself and entering the bathroom to wash away the weirdness surrounding me. By the time I bathed, pampered myself and stuffed my face with toast and coffee, Mom and Joanna were barging into my apartment with hands full of bags.


    "Thank god, you are ready and alive. Your mom told me about your little freak out on the phone with her." Joannaughed at my scowl and I threw a harsh re her way knowing she wouldugh out loud more and she lifted my mood up which was dampened for no exact reason.


    "I was just guilty about watching all those sappy dramas, Joey! Today is my half-big day so let''s go and get started." I jumped down from the kitchen stool dragging my mom and Joanna with me towards my room.


    "What! Half-big-day! What does it mean, Sweetie!" Mom asked, a confused frown adorned her pretty face making me chuckle at her.


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    "It means mom, Today''s my official engagement party right! So it means it''s half a big day and the wedding is called aplete big day." I know I am not making any sense in my head too but every moment with Ezra is a big day for me as it was my dream to marry him and have his kids. It may seem toxic and stupid to Dream and love the boy who hurt you so damn much but I can''t help myself from unloving him.


    "You and your weird ideology, Fay!" Mom shook her headughing silently when I gave her a cheeky smile.


    Mom, Joanna and I flipped my room upside down while getting ready for my half big day. Joanna does my makeup, Mom did my hair and they both helped me into my gown.


    When I looked at myself in the mirror after they prepped me, I gasped at what i''m seeing.


    I chose a maroon coloured shimmery gown which hugged my body like a second skin and I''m loving how Joanna and mom did my makeup and hair and I''m sure Ezra is going to go crazy seeing me in this.


    The zoo in my stomach danced a happy dance at the thought of Ezra seeing me in this and me seeing him looking dashing as always.


    "Fay! You look stunning, Sweetie." Mom and Joanna hugged me at once. Joanna nodded her head in approval at my mom''spliment.


    "Thank you guys, All the credit goes to you both." I gave them a big grin hugging them back.


    "Are you ready?" Joanna asked, our eyes met and she can see slight worry and nervousness in me and she knows that I am freaking out inside.


    "You are going to be officially Mrs. Irwin, Fay! Notpletely and legally bound but still it was your dream so take a deep breath and put on an easy grin and let''s go and get your prince charming." Iughed at thest part. It feels like she is preparing me for my wedding and I don''t even want to think about how I would be on that day. I''m sure Mom and Joanna have to sprinkle water on my face to wake me up every five seconds when I pass out from nerves.


    "I''m Ready, Let''s go." I took a deep breath and exhaled everything which was holding me back and I felt rxed and a happy grin took over my nervous face and the giddiness to see Ezra and the whole evening made my legs walk out of my apartment so fast making Joanna and Momugh.


    I am dying to see Ezra in all his handsomeness and have his strong arms around me as his warmth and scent surrounds me.

 His soul & His Shame

    What is it that you have wanted all your life and when you finally get it, How do you feel?


    I felt like I was going to pop out with happiness and my cheeks hurt so much from grinning ear to ear and I couldn''t stop my heart from galloping whenever I thought about the second Ezra would introduce me as his Fiance in front of everyone.


    I will ask again,


    What is it that you have wanted all your life and You stood there watching it ruin your happiness, future and your whole damn life!


    No one prepared me for this and I should have listened to my gut when it told something was going to happen.


    AN HOUR BEFORE:


    "Wow! Look, Our princess is finally here!" Daniel teased me when I entered the hotel which Ezra had booked for the party.


    Daniel is not alone, Alex and my Dad are standing with him with stars in their eyes but eyes searched for him frantically wanting to see him, feel him, touch him and taste him. I don''t know why I am feeling restless to see him but I desperately want to have Ezra near me.


    "Thanks, Daniel! Did you see Ezra?" I asked, Mom and Joanna went to meet somedies they knew leaving me with the boys.


    "You look pretty, Sweetheart." My dad walked towards me with his wide arms engulfing me in his warmth. I rxed my tense body and enjoyed his warmth.


    "Thanks, Dad!" My arms tightened around him and I felt myself choking back the tears. I Am so lucky to have a Dad like him who always supported me and pampered me like a princess.


    "I talked with Ezra and he said he will be here in fifteen minutes." Dad said, erasing my worries but still a voice in my head banging and yelling to call Ezra and talk to him but my attention was snatched away by Joanna who dragged me towards our high school group.


    The entire time I mingled with the guests my concentration and eyes were on the entrance looking for Ezra but he didn''te yet making me worry every second of it and i dialed his number too but he didn''t answer nor his secretary.


    "It''s been an hour, Fay! Where is Ezra? Everyone is asking for him and whispering among themselves." My eyes burned with tears but i didn''t let them water knowing people will see something is up and i don''t want to make a scene. "I think he is stuck in a meeting, I will go and check. tell mom and dad that I wille back with Ezra." I didn''t wait for her to call on my stupidity and stormed off from the hotel gulping down the tears and worry.


    I shook my head to get rid of the thoughts pulling me deep into the dark hole. I don''t want to go there and misunderstand the situation Ezra may be in.


    There was a taxi waiting when I walked down thene. I slipped into it and told the driver the address of Irwin towers. No one in this city didn''t know Irwin towers and who the Irwin''s were.


    He drove to the building in fifteen minutes and i''m standing in front of the elevators thinking, what the fuck am i doing here? How did everything change from the party to this! I should have been in the party with Ezra dancing, eating and kissing him but life and destiny doesn''t want to give me what I want but rather wants to make me work hard for it! Beg for it! Cry for it! I never understood why it was always me!


    Why is my life full of drama and pain!


    Gritting my teeth to stop my thoughts from wandering in unwanted thoughts I entered the elevator which is as empty as most of the building.


    Ezra''s office is on the third floor, the door of the elevator opens and I exit. My hands are shaking, and my legs are wobbly too, making it hard to take steps towards Ezra''s cabin. There is no one in the sight but my same stupid gut is telling me to proceed.


    My Brain already knows something is up but my heart! She just wants to be with the person who is the reason I am going through with all these phases.


    I stood in front of Ezra''s cabin, contemting whether to open or not and most probably Ezra is not in his office but maybe he is in his penthouse he never used after he moved in with me but there are chances he could be still here. I''m having a battle within my head and losing it very badly.


    A feminine voice reached my ears through the door calling Ezra''s name and the voice sounds familiar but unable to name it.


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    I pushed the door open but my legs are rooted to the ground and I am unable to move as the view in front of me robbed my breath and I am gasping for air.


    No! This is not happening again! No human being can have this much bad omen in her life. I Am sure I am just imagining things but I can''t forget her familiar pretty face and I just can''t imagine her wrapped around my Fiance. "M.. Mitchell!" I called her name wanting to know that she is real and my head is not ying games with me and she proved that she is real by turning her head and making eye contact. I stumbled back with shock and horror. My eyes moved towards Ezra who still sits on the couch with Mitchell wrapped around him with no emotion on his face. He wiped everything clean from his face and he is looking at me with indifference like he doesn''t know why I am here and why I am disturbing them.


    He is hurting me again and this hurt and pain is much more than the pain he gave me in the past. I feel like I am going to die with the way my heart is twisting so painfully.


    "Oh! You always butt in between us, Fay! You didn''t learn to never barge in all these years." Mitchell taunted, snaking her arms tightly around Ezra''s neck and gluing her chest to his. My tear filled eyes are in their closeness wanting to wipe the view with my tears but they are still in each other''s arms.


    "H.. Ho.. How Could you do this to me, Ezra?" I choked out the words feeling like a fool for the nth time trusting Ezra Irwin and giving my heart to him again on a silver tter to stomp and throw away.


    He just averted his eyes and his jaw clenched tight but he didn''t answer nor he removed her from him nor he came towards me to tell me that whatever i''m seeing is nothing and Just Mitchell being Mitchell but he sat there with a coldest expression he can muster while i stood here breaking and dying.


    I sucked a deep breath when I didn''t get any answer from him and turned around leaving him and her alone like I always did.


    He broke me again.


    He hurt me again.


    He stabbed me again.


    He embarassed me again.


    Like a fool I trusted him and forgave him. I was never enough for him and today again he proved that. He thinks I''m a heartless and lifeless doll he can use and throw away and I will always go back to him but this time I will just vanish where I will never have to see Ezra Irwin.


    He is dead to me as much as I am dead to him.


    "Fay! Wait!" Mitchell''s voice stopped me in front of the elevator and I wiped my eyes not wanting to give her any more satisfaction of seeing me break. I didn''t turn around to face her, I rather looked at the wall while she spewed nonsense. "I''m sorry that I am the reason for your breakup but I hope you understand that I have toe between you and Ezra for my kid. I hope you forgive us and move on." Her tone didn''t suggest that she is sorry nor she is feeling bad for me but what made my ears ring is the word kid.? 2024 N?v/el/Dram/a.Org.


    What the hell is she talking about?


    "Kid?" I asked, dumbfounded, looking at her for the second time this night.


    "Yes, Ezra and I have a kid together." My already broken heart broke some more hearing her words and the fact that Ezra has a kid with someone else.


    I always dreamed about having his kids and raising them together but someone else is going to do that and I can''t breathe.


    I dashed towards the stairs not listening to her or the words she was still spewing. My head feels like it''s underwater and I''m trying and gasping toe up but it''s of no use, I''m drowning and there is no one to pull me up. "Fay! Oh my god! Are you okay?" I don''t know how I am looking but with the horrid expressions on Alex and Joanna''s I may be looking like a fool and shit.


    "E...E...Ezra, H.. He...Is W...with...M... Mitchell." I don''t know how I uttered these words as my eyes are closing on their ord and all I can see is ckness and their voices are absurd. I weed the darkness which was calling me and I happily weed it and kept falling and falling till I felt peace.


    "Ezra Irwin is not only an addiction but also a parasite who will kill you even after you are dead and I hope I have met my death."


    AUTHOR''S NOTE: GOING TO MAKE A SEQUEL SO IAM ENDING THIS FIRST PART HERE.


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