《Why? Just why?》


 Chapter-1

    What is it that he did wrong? Was he too clingy for you? Was he not someone you expected him to be? Well that¡¯s surprising because of everything he had done for you? He was your most amazing boy, now he''s just a part of your past


    I woke up at 7:04 am today. I know it''s an odd time but it ain''t odd to me. I always wake up between 7-7:10 am without an alarm. This is when I know my day is gonna be normal.


    But waking up a minute before 7 it a minute after 7:10, that''s when I know the day is gonna be unusual. And according to me, unusual isn''t a pretty word.


    I didn''t know a minute would make a difference. It was until that day, the day she left me. I woke up at 7:11, not expecting anything unusual. I did my stuff and went to school but little did I know, one of the most tragic incidents of my life just happened.


    It''s been 6 months since this happened. Ever since then, I kept waking up at my normal time. I keep alarms now, I don''t wanna go through another desolation.


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    I''m getting ready for another NORMAL day of school. I put on my sweatshirt and pant and left.


    30 mins later,


    Oh yeah, I''m not surprised. The first thing I see while coming to school every day, Elanie Mertens making out with Ezro. I''m so used to seeing this, I mean that''s what I always think.


    We still talk but it doesn''t feel the same anymore. Well, it seems like my body clock considers this the new normal. I just need to get through this for 2 more years and I''m good.


    ¡°Yo Ariz you good?¡±, Earl comes to me, patting my back.


    ¡°Oh yeah, you know, the usual¡±.


    ¡°Oh damn, and you said you got over her¡±


    ¡°I did get over it, it''s just......, you will never understand¡±.


    ¡°Yeah, your right, I won''t understand, you''re too hot you can get people easily, why would I bother trying, the way they look at me is more than enough to warn me not to try.¡±


    I don''t know what to say. Earl has a huge mark on his face. A mark caused by a bus crash that took place 4 years ago. The same crash where my mum died. That day I woke up at 6:46 am, knowing something bad was gonna happen.


    When it came to women, I gave priority to my mom and second to Elanie, but after her death, it was all Elanie. But now Elanie left me as well. I don''t think I have any women to support me.


    To be honest I don''t want any woman at this point. I''m scared to go for another one. Scared to talk to another girl. I legit lost all confidence in myself.


    My mindset is like this, I''m fine without anyone but when it comes to Elanie, I''m desperate. I still love her and I would forgive her if she ever comes back to me. I would be there for her if she still needs me.


    All the moments we had for almost 5 years of our lives and she went for someone who she met days before she broke up with me. I was stupid to believe this will all last. I mean why am I surprised, in the end, it¡¯s me who I am talking about.


    I and Earl walked to class together. Today is the last day of school as it''s summer break for the next 3 months. I won''t be seeing Elanie and Ezro for a while and I need this. But this is also my first summer break without her. This is gonna feel different.