《My Love - Will the gods answer my prayer?》


 My Love - The Question

    Just the sight of his face brings me contentment and peace, his smile the beauty of pure sunlight, his eyes a beautiful cloudy sky, his eyebrows simple yet elegant, his nose a perfect shape and cuteness, his hair a soft and calming brown and red.


    His presence gives me a sense of ease I''ve never known before, simply thinking of him brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes from the deep longing in my heart to simply hold him in my arms.


    His imperfections only enhance his beauty, small pockmarks on his face only highlighting his smile and eyes, his snarky and sarcastic nature only enhance how cute he is to me and show a small piece of the inner fire, his glasses enhance his beautiful eyes and adorable ears, there is nothing I can find or imagine to subtract from his beauty.


    Years of sadness and loneliness and longing, wiped away from just one line asking "How have you been?". I told him of a small piece of our 5 years apart and told him of my loves beginning as a crush 8 years ago and asked how his life has gone these years. If only he would reply sooner so this anxiety could be calmed, just one word from his mouth would bring ecstasy, one date with him would be pure bliss, a life with him - heaven.


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    This is a turning point, will he love me as I have him or will he reject me as is my greatest fear. He has held my heart and love with him for so many years, will he keep and accept them or will he return them battered and weakened. He holds my fragile heart in his hands, all he needs do is crush or protect it, the choice is his.


    He will always be my first true love, and will always have a home in my heart, even if I do not have one in his. My heart is wide open and vulnerable, can he be gentle with it? Will he come with open arms? Reluctance? Eagerness? Not at all? What does the future hold? Only Lady Luck, Lady Love and The Sun hold the answers and I pray they read this and see how deep he is in my heart, I hope they show him just how much I care. I hope, I hope, I HOPE, it''s all I can do.


    My love, should you ever read this, know this; you will always hold a piece of my heart, whether you take and accept it or leave it with me, a piece of my heart will always be yours and it will always care and hope the best for you. May whatever powers be simply give this love a chance, let him see my heart fully and truly without falsehood, let him understand that all I want is his love and happiness, show him how I truly feel for him so he may see the intensity of my caring and love, to see the tears of pure happiness simply thinking of him brings to me.


    -The Lover

 My Love - The Birthday

    It is my birthday today, all my family has congratulated me, but the only one who I wish to speak to today is him. No reply for 2 days now, is he busy? Is he ignoring me? What is the reason you only asked how I was and nothing else?


    Does he remember me? My every thought about love in the past 8 years has involved him, but has he thought of me once in these years? Only time will tell, yet it flows so slowly now that I''ve found him again. It''s as if the universe is torturing me with it''s crawling pace, a welcome blessing if I was with him, but a curse without.


    These writings do little to stop my mind from jumping from bad to worse and then back to hope that maybe, just maybe he feels the same. For I was afraid to open that first message if his, what would it contain; love, rejection, sadness, hope? All it held so far is a remembrance of me and a wondering at my well-being.


    These two days have been anxiety stricken, yet remembering his smile brings a smile to my face and peace to my heart. Does he remember? Does his heart speak to him as mine does? Will our paths combine or shall they split as they did 5 years ago?


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    I walk through the wooded path to clear my mind, trying and failing to remove him from my mind for just a bit to ease my anxiety. A fallen tree blocks my way, I simply crush the branches with my feet and walk ahead clearing the spiderwebs with my walking stick as I try to clear my mind from the fog that covers it. Past the obstacles is a tree, shaped by Mother Nature herself into a perfect arch over the path.


    Perhaps this walk is Her speaking to me, past these obstacles is something beautiful. My dog walking with me, making a tumultuous noise and running around as children would in play. The sun shining beautifully through the gorgeous greenery, a hopeful light giving me dreams of the future.


    My walking stick is headed by an eagle, showing the freedom, bravery and support to take any path I choose. I could not find the sassafras tree this day to make tea of it''s roots, but perhaps it is another sign, for it is a sweet but cancerous tea as I''ve heard. Does She speak to me in this way, or does my mind merely cling to hope? It feels as if Mother Nature and Father Sun are blessing me this day, I only hope my love gives me a similar blessing.


    Perhaps this day shall be blessed in the end. I don''t know what the future holds, only the possibilities and where time may lead. I hope to show him the path one day, for I will clear the obstacles for him so that he may see Her beauty.

 My Love - The Past

    We were friends long ago, I was a senior and he was a junior. We met through one of my favorite people at the time - Sid. We met at lunch when I ate with her and another friend Roni, his cuteness and beauty struck me immediately, especially those deep blue eyes I could lose myself in. His snarky jokes and angelic laugh brightened my day.


    It was good timing as it left my best friends at the time the chance to know each other better and become a couple. Friends lost to time and misunderstandings. I told them if my crush and they said to go for it, but I was too afraid. Too many things in my life we''re rushing around in chaos and his rejection may have broken my fragile heart at the time.


    I used any excuse to eat lunch with Sid and Roni because My Love was never far away. His soul sang to me every time I was near him, it gave me the energy and hope for the future. Seeing him smiling and laughing was the best part of my day in those dark times. I only hope he enjoyed my company half as much as I did his.


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    We grew that year, maturing and learning how we wanted our lives to go. Eventually I went to the nearby college, and he followed. He took classes at the college with Sid, her boyfriend at the time, and Roni. It was a surprise and a blessing to see him there, sadly this is where we drifted apart.


    I could no longer afford college due to my family''s situation, I left after a semester and never went back. I hope he doesn''t think I didn''t want to see him or the others, but there was simply too much on my plate. I moved away from home and had a falling out after half a year of living with my ex best friends.


    I returned home to mayhem, my father dying of cancer while two of my brothers became lost in drugs and hatred. We threw the brothers out after my father passed, and not 3 months after my father''s passing my mother took one of my father''s pills she had hidden and drank alcohol. She didn''t pass but she had a stroke, now 3 years later and my brother and I are caring for her.


    It has been a long journey but I am stronger for it. I hope he sees the strength of my heart and soul and appreciates it as I appreciate all of him. My journey is not yet over, I only hope I can walk it with you, My Love.

 My Love - How things go

    My love spoke to me and has another he longs for. I once had a chance in our youth, but fear and family got in the way. I wonder if he knows that I speak truly of my feelings?


    Does my mind merely focus on the doubts, or are these the questions all those who long for another ask. Will my love prevail, or shall it perish with the day to be reborn anew in another? My heart is his, yet he does not want it, at least not yet.


    Does he dislike me for some reason? Is my body displeasing? Is my personality off-putting? What is the truth of the matter? I can only hope that his words are true and he has another he''s interested in.


    Knowing there was a chance in our youth my heart sings, yet knowing his heart does not hold me wounds deeply. Has he thought of me these years? I can only hope his heart holds me somewhere. I know not if I can ever love another, but I will wait to try loving another for when or if my heart is whole and he doesn''t remain.


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    My heart is at peace and content, with only fragments of longing and woe. His mere words gave me peace, I can only imagine what his voice would give with the right words. A great weight was lifted knowing there was a chance for our love in the past, although my past cowardice does bring me pain it also brings me bravery knowing that I am a stronger man than I was after traversing the brambles on my path.


    What does the future hold? Will he accept my love? Will he ignore me in future? Perhaps he may simply reject me, the most peaceful of options. I can only hope and dream that my future has him in it.


    I will always hold you in my heart, no matter how long we are apart. You are so precious to me, yet I know it may not be. Give me peace and let me know, just what way may our future go?