《Unmaking - POEMS》 hands of the gardener hands of the gardener
You dig into the yellow earth pale, with life caked under your fingernails. Inching between birth, snails Royal Road is the home of this novel. Visit there to read the original and support the author. with rotund homes pricked like sails silt through titanic pebbles, tempestuous pools pouring from metal tin¡ªcool to your godly touch. I kneel beside you, such Cosmos littered with muddy divinity. adam and eves summer home adam and eve¡¯s summer home European architecture teases the falling sun, tattooed with graffiti. A concoction of Spanish and English words, mixed together and sprayed over the fences, doorways. Adam and Eve reach for the elusive apple on the whitewashed wall as the sun sets. Everything is now cast in shadow: crooked tree branches The story has been illicitly taken; should you find it on Amazon, report the infringement. with forgotten leaves, cars settling into the street, the small purple flowers that cast their bodies across the cobblestones. This is the New York City del Sur, filled with color and bodies. Come morning, men and women scrub tile lawns, hosing down the scent of the city as I walk along the sidewalk, dodging water, brooms, stray mutts, thousands of people. Morning here smells like baking bread, facturas¡ªstuffed with dulce de leche, glazed with sugar honey, pale powder. Panaderias are opening, making my mouth water. Just one bite. Sun hits my skin, makes me shiver and glisten in the morning bustle. quotidian odyssey quotidian odyssey
Having always loved to run because it has the quality of an odyssey¡ªsilver spikes in the dirt, bunches of trees shaped like oars or sirens or a cyclops with his wooden eye¡ª I was glad to find Emilie racing and flying through the earthy journey, her appearance changed by the rain. The course was carpeted with the so-called race arrows, in reality Support the author by searching for the original publication of this novel. the Cross Country course. Like the white foam on the ocean, they made a narrow line of bone white through the green of the fields, here and there washing around a cluster of trees. During off-season the Cross Country arrows are gone: washed away and no longer directing. Now, bleaching the grass and defying the rain like small shields, they were clear and instructive. Emilie delighted in the grassy texture, running across on long legs to win, and crying out and shouting at the whipping, battered flags of the finish line with tears of exertion. - inspired by Rachel Carson¡¯s A Sense of Wonder numbers numbers 1. I threw my life out of fragile darkness, peering through holes I cut from bright blackness. 2. I bit the black, which bled into my teeth, white currents bubbled low, both smooth and deep. 3. The cosmos dance inside your speckled palms. I burst into their light¡ªpure, holy alms. 4. Tonight I hacked my lungs out of my chest and choked on the bleak truth of my unrest. 5. She was the bullet hole inside the moon; he narrowed on her tracks, his special boon. 6. Your limbs were bent like subtle shoots of bone and turned to face the frowning crown of stone. 7. A soldier with the build of onyx stone, stands still erected on history¡¯s throne. 8. They spin the spokes, a field of rusted red. twin bikes, twin wheels, twin boys, perhaps now dead. 9. Cutting into the onion of my heart, I lose my way and fountains bubble, dart. 10. I pricked the light, the black, the dawn so still, then changed my mind, imagination killed. 11. Kissing your palms was staring at the moon, mocking your sight and soul with thoughtless swoon. 12. I stared as things of beauty turned to rust, If you spot this narrative on Amazon, know that it has been stolen. Report the violation. as things of temporary grandeur must. 13. Entombed in ordinary dust I wait to leave hands taut and clutching marble gates. 14. Before I let society collapse, I¡¯ll play its games, disjointing all the maps. 15. Your fate like spider webs its way to me, but I am blind like you and will not see. 16. Cutting through stone with hands of molded clay, I found the broken universe displayed. 17. Flirtatious memories covered in white chalk¡ª a woman¡¯s murder not far from the mark. 18. Engraven on his palms and in his face, we reaching for divine fall into grace. 19. I stumbled into smooth forsaken land, so lost, forlorn, perplexed without my band. 20. Creator made from pieces of each man, a frankenstein who stole the times of sand. 21. Oblique and sightless: things we know too much, and yet it grips the world with hungry touch. 22. See such an innocent, pale yellow fruit, hide wild grenades in dark power suits. 23. She slipped on cracks in roads that weren¡¯t there, renamed the town with hands both cold and bare. 24. The monster in the spire came out at night and seemed to love her gently out of spite. 25. Speak, and I will tell you something broken. Listen, and I¡¯ll give you my own tokens. 26. Hidden in sands of emerald, pearl, and gem, the culprits mingled with the dead¡¯s soft hymns. 27. Though derelict and on the edge of town, she crept through like a shade in wintry gown. 28. The hunter crossed and looked and saw quite fast, prey was his, he would not¡ªit didn¡¯t last. 29. The ark we placed under volcanic ash will never be found, despite the mad dash. 30. People little more than cannon fodder, vibrant destruction will be our solder. 31. If he could part the waters of the sea perhaps red-rich blood was truly the key. 32. The mansion could not fill her crinkled heart, corrupting tunes of men her shifting art. 33. He beat his life into those drums, the rim, death pulsed beneath those hands and slowly dimmed. 34. The heart I stole was not my own it seems, while peering through the books I killed a dream. 35. Clinging to a ragged freedom calling, so easy to keep the two still falling. 36. The law was fashioned with a badge of stone that no one could unravel or atone. i was their undoing
i was their undoing
I sway among the many who had died, afraid to break the bones of broken men with danger in my hand. The bones now sigh¡ª this land is now a place of littered kin. Two days before they¡¯d smiled within sun glare, embracing bodies now stallions of dust. The author''s content has been appropriated; report any instances of this story on Amazon.I beat the dust as these same people stare sightlessly at my hot life. They will rust as all things do that are not life¡¯s white slave. They make me wonder if I am truly to blame¡ª how can I blink without them who freely gave me old wounds: used hands and two right feet like mine. I cannot let go of their singed fingers or my singing gun. mother of pearl
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And so scarlet, you are beautiful as black man¡¯s teeth, colors of trumpet, shoe polish, and marble pool. Shh, says the town¡¯s needlework, starting a red thread trail down my chest. This tale has been unlawfully obtained from Royal Road. If you discover it on Amazon, kindly report it. I¡¯m a short drink of water, a gulp, the opposite of runner¡¯s thirst. I slip into your coffee. I want to be the lime cooling your salad, I want to be the spoon and the fork. Oh preacher, just thinking about you splits my lip down the middle. What if, says your high-collared shirt, clinging to the back of your spine. You are beautiful as chocolate kiss foil, colors of altar, stained glass, and lifted eyes frankenstein projections
frankenstein projections Some say they looked on the young man with concern when he began buttering brains, charging limp hands with memories. Say you saw the bodies, pierced through with lightning, all to learn how to mold himself into the dead, little knowing that to disobey the commands of nature and God can only lead to one conclusion. Love this story? Find the genuine version on the author''s preferred platform and support their work!The creature was beauty incarnate, enlarged perfection made false through sparks of soul, burning away life and future prospects. Confusion as Victor looked down at himself on the table at an embodiment, a waltz teetering through the bitter cosmos of a solitary life, so full of someone else¡¯s imagination. Creatures have never looked so human, or so alien. For all of his death work he was met in the corridor by his shadow, his living thoughts and features that could only end in woe. grave poet grave poet These ancient words are all I, aching, say. I steal them from the dead of breaking day. Words that hung on lips¡ªnow battered, old stone. I cannot help remembering them, now my own. Did you know this story is from Royal Road? Read the official version for free and support the author. I used these words one autumn day out loud ¡ªa figure in the streets, broken and bowed¡ª with a voice that wasn¡¯t quite my own; the skeletons joined me with flutes of bone. You met my eyes and spoke in shadowed tones, a melody that matched my own and shone. We mingled with the poets long since gone, the sounds we stole an ancient kind of song. different mold different mold Clay stretches over the styrofoam store model head, like cheap surgical gloves snapped over doctor¡¯s hands, giving birth to thick lips and defiant brows, a proud forehead and two hills below sightless eyes. My thumbs dig ridges into her cheekbones, A case of theft: this story is not rightfully on Amazon; if you spot it, report the violation. extra flesh stripped off, a savage sacrifice to the pugmill gods for future resurrection. She stares out at me until I seal her eyes shut, encasing my fleshy fears as she enters the kiln. Adorned with a mountain range of gears raising from her forehead like a mechanical crown. 1950¡ã F. She is sweating, becoming stone¡ª now a mangled corpse on an altar of clay. Her eyes lying beside her nose, a cheekbone resting in a premature grave. But there she is again, ashy white as though recovering from a sickness but unbroken, a techo queen, crown untouched. i wonder if stonehenge i wonder if stonehenge George Borrow grasping for a past temple or the hands who raised the monoliths of stone. I am looking for a way back, a way to dig deep into the earth and stumble on the Stonehenge of before. Who grappled with gravity to create a roofless sanctuary, a kind of crossroads? Unlike Borrow, I must take in these gray kings from a distance, roped off and monitored. The crows above flirt with the stone, lighting on the rocks with a practiced ease. Sheep nearby graze as they have since the rocks¡¯ birth, remembering a time when they roamed freely within the stone boundary. At first I am underwhelmed, seeing Stonehenge through the blurred window panes of the tourist bus. Small baby teeth in a great maw of grass and sky. But shuffling closer, the stones become the mighty incisors I previously envisioned. Not skyscraper tall, but an ancient equivalent. Maybe it didn¡¯t take as much back then to feel small, to evoke the sublime. Go back in time and see it. As the gray kings tower over me I long for the original, Unauthorized reproduction: this story has been taken without approval. Report sightings. the genesis. Was it a sacred space, a sacrificial altar or bridge of decision? Was it carved, intricate faces and creatures worn away by the rough hand of wind or time? Was it painted, brilliant shades of turquoise and emerald or subdued tones of pearl and coral? Countless miles to get the stones. Now my imagination is populated with mighty ships, rope thicker than my arms constraining the proud stone kings. They would have sat silently, regally, disdaining their capture. Upon reaching land their servants would drag them hundreds of miles to a wild green hill. And although the stone kings would frown, they would stand with their backs to each other in time. Walking on dead bodies. Barrow mounds surround us, housing glittering kings of old with rusting fragments of gold and sword. These weathered stone kings stand vigil over flesh and bone captors. Inspiring awe when earthly kings have sunk into eternal rest below the grinning stone faces. The fleshy kings completely invisible to me, only a story, a slight swelling in the ground. A door to the other side. The layering of boundaries, the threshold to something bigger than me slips under my skin. I want to break through the rope and time to a silent congregation of menhirs, holding private and significant counsel. Archons, gatekeepers to the ark of rock and hidden bone. Look at me. Pictures fill the air with digital electricity, and I feel the aftershock. The masses look through lens, an intentional barrier far thicker than rope. Stonehenge does not speak. No whisper of its ancestors. No special melody or whistle from the rocks when the wind blows. But others speak, whisper. The people are part and parcel of the stones, and they talk. One more, one more, one more. Maybe a reference to just one more photo of squirming children, or maybe through modern mouths an ancient sound of encouragement, Stonehenge pulled from another land and constructed. Irish stones, grouped together in rings and raised into otherworldly doorways, like mighty stone bards or prophets. I don¡¯t know. Without the strict ropes and rules confining stones to a written history and commandment, these gray kings speak. hobby horses hobby horses What do I do with all of these things which were never mine? Your dirty knees, bubblegum smile. I was listening to daddy¡¯s baritone wind pipes when you captured the tattered tabby cat, Unauthorized content usage: if you discover this narrative on Amazon, report the violation. held her pumpkin body under pale bedsheets the color of plastic skeleton bones and daddy¡¯s pillow. Buck tooth smile, ladybug freckles, gecko tails: you thought they wouldn¡¯t run, abandon their ends. Shoe strings, your over read picture book, paint under your arms, caked in your scarecrow hair. Favorite horse, soft like the living room cushions, stiff as daddy¡¯s collared shirts and old kitchen dish cloths. You dragged that pony everywhere, sucking on one glass eye in all these old photographs I tape over the windows. Old hobby horses, muffling dusty light. mental snapshot of a girl late to class mental snapshot of a girl late to class Yours is a million-strand river, a yellow tributary, kinks of broken gold eating the sunlight. Maybe the wind will keep You might be reading a pirated copy. Look for the official release to support the author. those bleached shoe strings out of laser-point blue eyes. Your head jerks back like a horse, paddocked, looking through me into the puddles of concrete. My locks do not rival rapids or waterfalls. Nor do they fall horizontally like your near-white flag of surrender, shoes beating the concrete as discreetly as possible. the stump the stump From my grandfather¡¯s tin lunch pail he fingered the stick of dynamite taken from the mine and now out of sight, ready to be lit and wail. He selected his victim with care, an ancient cathedral-like stump with defaced roots and twisted rotting bumps; he planned violently to tear through the roots and fleshy dry bark The story has been taken without consent; if you see it on Amazon, report the incident. with liquid fire, black bomb powder. He waited impatiently to try his power. The first silence was stark as he struck the fuse, knowing that his wife was at church and would not stop his scheme; he couldn¡¯t be caught. Fire breathed, he drew back, sat waiting for the flight of this tree¡¯s corpse, an explosive funeral, an image both strange and visceral. Powder shattered the breeze when the dynamite blew it up, the proud stump billowing toward the lake where two fishermen, who swore silently, threw enough of themselves out of their old boat to avoid strange death from above as the plundered, airborne stump broke in rough waves around the floaters. They plunged back into their small craft, not bothering to reel in their lines as they paddled off with oars of white pine. My grandfather just laughed. an ode to your umbrella an ode to your umbrella As the wind howls it seems to flit away, a haughty teenage girl afraid of getting her skirt wet. You growl and attempt to shove her back into formation, an army commander or a similitude. I offer to share my purple lady, but your faith is unwavering: this beaten, black, skeletal beauty is yours for the conquering. Ensure your favorite authors get the support they deserve. Read this novel on the original website. Another gust passes by and she¡¯s no longer a parachute jumper, but riding in a sled, her world inside and out. The folds of her skirt, plaited and bowed, unfurl and wring out. Your hair is now wet, rain streaked across your cheeks almost like tears, but all you see are diamonds. I tell you it¡¯s not worth it, that she has seen her last. You look at me as though I¡¯ve lost my mind and clutch her tighter, not necessarily out of love, but because the wind is growing stronger. I wonder just how long the two of you can engage in this violent dance, dysfunctional relationship. And yet your love, as bent and tattered as it is, seems more alive than my own. petrichor darling: five letters to the rain petrichor darling: five letters to the rain I. Yellow blossoms like papier-mach¨¦. You collage all over the sidewalk, sticking to the bottom of old shoes. I walk under the shelter of a purple umbrella imported from El Salvador. I did the importing. Somehow I manage to avoid you in multiple countries, petrichor darling. II. Each breath I take makes you laugh as I swim in your downpour, completing lap after lap in the old city pool they keep threatening to tear down. The swim team and I cross our fingers that lightning and thunder don¡¯t join you. Three¡¯s a crowd anyway. Your You might be reading a pirated copy. Look for the official release to support the author. clear watermelon seeds mix with the buzz of chlorine. Crown me with droplets, love. III. Drowning. My leather shoes are drowning in over six inches of Argentine slosh, your constant contribution to my first foreign country experience. We have met on streets with tipsy concrete stones, waiting for buses and subways and my own worn feet. You curl my hair with fingernail scales, tiptoe across my face and darken my clothing. Sometimes I wish you would hand wash my laundry, sweetheart. IV. Sometimes you can be so vain. Every puddle, crack, and tile cradles you, so many watery mirrors. In Argentina I would run, jumping into you. You would scatter, screaming silent curses in a language I couldn¡¯t hear. Every puddle was mine for the taking, even if you stained shoes and sunbrown legs. Honey, I couldn¡¯t keep myself away from you. V. I walked by a girl today. She sat cross-legged, her eyes closed as you whispered secrets into her hair, across her cheeks and through her clothing. The intimacy made me want to look away, you caressing her bun-wound hair, meeting her freckle for freckle. I walk on, the purple umbrella between us. Petrichor darling, I¡¯m realizing we will never be more than impulsive lovers. ode to your garden ode to your garden Rain is falling on your garden ¡ªor rather has fell. I admire your plot, the pine branches knitting above the quickened dirt. Your garden is full of shades: This narrative has been unlawfully taken from Royal Road. If you see it on Amazon, please report it. blurs of subtle star light, moist farmer¡¯s boots and the worm¡¯s house. Puncturing rich soil are black pots, hoisting up scarecrow leaves, spiny thistles clinging to each other with knobby knuckles. You started your garden, With the best of shortcomings without shovel or reason. Your garden is a plant cemetery, circular black tombstones dry and filled with dirt paler than the ground. teddybear leather shoes teddybear leather shoes I walk to class in sticky rain. College sidewalks littered with color, strawberry-red, limo-black, umbrellas engulfing heads. Blue catches my eye, slick and curved fabric. Umbrella man, you hide under damp umbrella skies. The story has been taken without consent; if you see it on Amazon, report the incident. Your teddybear leather shoes peek out from under rainy-day protection. Where are you headed to? I am slipping through muddy puddles of infatuation when a sleek purple umbrella sails by, owner unknown and moving fast. Purple wears no shoes, embraces the water and wet pant legs. He is joined by peppy lemons-into-lemonade yellow who holds his thumb and jumps through his puddles with more eagerness than a caffeinated sun puppy. I suppose blue will do. Wait for me, teddybear shoes. stars popped in our mouths stars popped in our mouths I raked dust through your darkened hair. Traced your life lines, tracks that derailed Stolen from its rightful author, this tale is not meant to be on Amazon; report any sightings. a couple stops back. I have written all over your life notes, dark signature, palimpsest cross-hatching over those summer mornings where the dew burned bare legs, legs you held as I embraced bird calls from the capitol roof. bleach bautismo bleach bautismo I cut it, the long strips of curl shaped like zigzag scissors, dull blonde streaks like caramel laced through the ends of my almost-but-not-quite-black hair. Surviving months of swim pool chlorine and hundreds of Cross Country ponytails, I have clung to this hair for over four years. I don¡¯t know if it defines me, or if I define it. Curly, definitely curly, although my first year at college has flattened and cooked my This book was originally published on Royal Road. Check it out there for the real experience. oceanic rulos into ripples in a lake. While she cuts she talks, this amiga latina with large hips like a sofa, hair baptized by blonde dye, black wing tips lifting off from the corners of her dark brown latina eyes. Washing over me, caressing me with the gentle shhhhhh of Castellano: I understand and I don¡¯t. Who am I to cut off the past? Who am I not to? She asks what color the new blonde streaks will be: dulce de leche, vanilla, musky smoke or cracked-leather blonde? I find myself pointing to the platinum, shiny-as-a-new-vintage-record, don¡¯t-look-it-might-blind-you blonde. Light as gringa skin dipped in white chocolate, after the summer tan has rubbed off and we all resemble Snow White a little. That is too light she says, but I will take this plunge, this smell of bleach, this baptism of fire in Buenos Aires. sin fish sin fish I thought we weren¡¯t allowed to swim as missionaries. The white bible reminds us weekly to stay dry, avoid fireworks and not ride horses. The cobble streets are submerged, a latino Atlantis under the mud and ash sea. You hold bunches of your skirt in brown hands, the floral fabric thick like curtains. I can¡¯t see my feet. The water has cut them off mid-calf. My socks are drunk, bloated and flabby as they cling Unauthorized duplication: this narrative has been taken without consent. Report sightings. to my bright white feet, shriveled toes and toenail scales. My hair drapes around my face like two latinas gossiping, strands clinging to each other and spider webbing across my rubia eyes. I thought I was used to rain, the torrential tears of Southeast Missouri, where nine inches can fall in an hour. But my companion and I are outside, exposed, waterlogged and half-drowned. We jump from sidewalk tiles to the street, throwing up rainbows of rain water. Broken cigarette butts float by, white rafts in the frothy Argentine sea. Wrappers wrap around my ankles like stubborn kids or homesick dogs. I pull my bag closer to me, rub the white plastic bag encasing my belongings with slick fingers. Praying the storm 35doesn¡¯t enter my bag, my books and scribbled pages. I thought we weren¡¯t allowed to swim as missionaries! I call out, my voice lost in the dripping oxygen of the city. latino butter latino butter Dulce de leche, smooth and textured like grains of sand. The color of rusting pennies or my cousin¡¯s vivacious hair. The tale has been stolen; if detected on Amazon, report the violation. Shiny as lantern light reflections. Coating paper-thin panqueques and off-brand saltines. Nestled inside facturas, fresh pastries on proud display in shops, sin scent and smell jumping through windows propped open and doors that refuse to stop spinning. eighteen chickens in an argentine chapel eighteen chickens in an argentine chapel Crates of decapitated chicken bodies, cocooned in plastic bags. Post-execution victims brought to the church for proper burial. A few haphazard feathers cling to cold, bubbly skin. My knife unzips small spinal bones, cracking this grown egg into two bodies. My thumbs press into cracks, This story has been stolen from Royal Road. If you read it on Amazon, please report it tiny hearts and livers collected in a plastic bag. Blood drips from the counter, another crate is brought in. Sometimes the blade snags, half through half frozen skin, small feathers caught under my fingernails. I have already disturbed the privacy of my current bird, peering between its legs before going for the heart and pruny lungs and liver. My fingers squeeze organ juices, popping them into a plastic bag we soon overfill. Another crate, bodies in the sink: eighteen chickens. We fill a trashcan with poultry as the sink is already past carrying capacity. Feathers plastered to the steel sink belly, a lost heart floundering in mingled blood and yellow chicken blubber. In the church courtyard, men add logs for a religious asado. latino nightlife latino nightlife I jumped the train, a gringa in the south, only to be greeted by music¡¯s mouth. The boy was young, his hands worn down, worn brown. He owned his drum, cacophony of sound. This content has been misappropriated from Royal Road; report any instances of this story if found elsewhere. The song encased the train and beat over my chest, making my thick heart punch slower. Crumbled pesos, bills, and caramelos overflowed his empty mate vasos. He beat his life into the drum¡¯s thin rim, death pulsing beneath hands before it dimmed, incapable of vanquishing such youth that even death¡¯s clutching pale hands could sooth. if they ask you about the comida if they ask you about the comida tell them about the empanadas, filled with crisp beef, jamon y queso, popular chicken slices or infamous melting raisins. The outer shell is baked or bathed in snapping oil, its round ripe body crowned with finger-formed braids. ?Comen hermanitas! Tell them about the twine noodles. Shoe string spaghetti, caterpillar rotini, sombrero ravioli and fish-fin campanelle. Cascades of meat sauce, milky-white sauce, just-oil-and-not-really sauce at all. Mothers of Argentina, let them eat pasta. Tell them about the asado, steaming and whispering on the backyard fire, brought in on cookie sheets, slabs of famous Argentine cow and full-moon slices of squash. La mesa crowded with small herds of bread, Stolen from its rightful place, this narrative is not meant to be on Amazon; report any sightings. baby baguettes scattered with no shepherd as small dogs bite knees under the table. Or tell them about the impromptu ice cream tuppers, topped off with rice, Neapolitan vegetables (orange, green, yellow), overflowing with edge-of-the-city, living-in-a-train-car asado. Argentine BBQ, cooked by Peruvians living on the edge of the city¡¯s mind. Don¡¯t tell them about the fish heads, googly-eyed, rebel sardines in plastic containers. They make a quick trip into the apartment trashcan, rubber mouths still gaping. How could you do this to me? You might mention the mangoes, cut into grid squares, gift from a vegan elder. Juice running like the Euphrates and Pison out of the Garden of Eden, down arms and chins. Suitcase-leather mango skin, bruised green with yellow and purple. Fleshy orange fruit eaten in the capilla Belgrano. It is essential you discuss the green rice, dressed in drizzled Peruvian sauce. A shapely chicken leg perches on the edge of the plate, infused with vegetables or envy or latino love. You won¡¯t need to tell them about the alfajores: all kinds. Three-for-ten pesos. Evening-dress Havanna, black-soul chocolate showing. Sweet-fanged Milka, queen of indulgence and sugary smiles. Jorgelin, the Micky D¡¯s of alfajores, omnipresent. Big-city-gangster Cachafaz, representative-for-the-common-folk Guaymallen, architectural-wonder-three-layers-thick Terrabusi and the soaring eagle Aguila. Fancy ways of saying Argentine love in slick packages, empty shells coating the streets, whispering Te amo. preparing peruvian lomo saltado preparing peruvian lomo saltado Amiga, unfazed, hacks away with her small machete. Her ax peels the slivers of onion bark away from the bulbous tree, where they fall like pine needles, mingling with her pumpkin seed tears. Cutting through this onion is cutting through her, thin lines of mascara streaking down her face, black vine tendrils. Her face a brown canvas, lost in this forest, this arena of food. The slab in front of me is cold, numbing my fingers and Reading on this site? This novel is published elsewhere. Support the author by seeking out the original. rejecting my blade. I am fighting with a jellyfish, jello de carne, pink marble slab. Amiga is offering up her kindling, tossing the small ivory pieces onto the stove, mixing with golden sap: a pond of oil. As the onion slices crackle in liquid fire she turns to face me, me with this sword, hacking away at this faceless opponent, the metal reflecting off his salmon-pink armor. No I do not need help, let me face my demons alone! Fingernails dig into this fleshy hill, steel penetrating the carne: I leave carnage in my wake. Rosy chunks, fallen petals are strewn across the wooden chopping block. I lay down my knife, turn away. Let them bury the dead in round metal caskets, ringed by flame. scrubbed limpio scrubbed limpio Filling the daisy-yellow bucket to the brim, spilling over onto pale cream tiles. But I am not mopping the bathroom floor. Pour the hottest water you can find into my field of daisies. Bubbling. Good, you haven¡¯t forgotten the soap, pink flakes like pencil shavings, melting into my hot, yellow tub. No, we don¡¯t use rocks, metal teeth that look like kitchen appliances. We will not go down to the river, balance jars of water on our heads, wrapped in bolts of bright fabric. This is Argentina, not even la provencia, but the heart of a smoking city. When the suds are hot enough to burn your hands, it¡¯s ready. Are you sure those clothes are dirty? This is not America Norte, they will not be clean and dry in a couple hours. Love this story? Find the genuine version on the author''s preferred platform and support their work! I thought that shirt looked clean¡ªyou made the right choice. Now, fill our flower bucket full of tops, bottoms, skirts and billowing blouses. Wiggle in socks and tank tops. That¡¯s right, watch the floor dance with water droplets. Why did we fill the bucket so full? Tradition mija! Now wait. We have twenty minutes before lights out. No time to think of food, laundry! Yes, go get the bucket. Reach into gray filmy water. Dig for one piece at a time, bobbing for apples. Twist on the faucet. Don¡¯t splash me. Grip the shirt with both hands. Wring. Rinse. Squeeze. Repeat. Work your wrists. I know it hurts. Scrub out the street dust, nightly star fragments that got caught in your clothes. Harder, hermanita. Finger it, any suds left? Bubbles, bad sign. Back under the kitchen waterfall. Drowning, rising. Cling, pull, stretch. Remember, no water. Your laundry should not cry. That looks good enough. Smells like soap. Feels like slick hair after the shower. Take it outside, to the balcony two people cannot comfortably stand in at the same time. The sky is too cloudy to see the darkness. Street lights. Take laundry pins. Two per piece of clothing. Hope it doesn¡¯t rain, or how will they ever dry? Pray for hot wind, strong enough to stiffen clothing without ripping down the pins. One. I have finished one shirt. Wrists red, tender. Hands sore, as though I¡¯ve been plucking, shucking corn all day. The yellow bucket is smiling a gap-toothed smile. the hospital looks like the hospital looks like a hotel one too cheto to actually stay in Who would have known such a thing existed in Argentina Rain hovers outside my umbrella is purple and there is a small green tube in my battered bag Yes I¡¯ve been asked to bring my own tube for this ear surgery should this worry me Brought into a room with a man with sharp glasses who asks me to read papers in Castellano signing away my life will I wake up after the operation I sign my life in dull blue ink with a ballpoint and they take me into a locker room I am handing If you discover this tale on Amazon, be aware that it has been stolen. Please report the violation. the lady my tube If I hadn¡¯t remembered would she have asked What would they have put in my ear instead I am expected to put on a paper sheet dress glasses locked into the green metal box I am now blind and they push me down into a wheelchair I am still conscious but still they drive me as though the end is near Everyone is a blur unfocused syllables and phrases walking all around me For once in Argentina I¡¯m reminded that I¡¯m usually short as doctors and nurses hombres y mujeres strutting above me I¡¯m on wheels plunging neckline barefoot dignity left in that mint-colored locker too The operation table meets at my chest and the doctor is laughing he might be thirty as he asked me to scale the table and extend my wrist for the blessed IV I land on the table pale and distressed as a riverless fish Needle lodged in tough left wrist skin I am pulling down on my paper dress sterile lights like motionless strobe above he is still laughing and wiping his glasses I miss my own lights out bars curl around lit tres bars curl around lit trees frosted with flame light. A dark man, shifting olive eyes simmering on low alcohol. His shadows sit across a wooden bench peering through bottles like cracked lens. The friend at our side Unauthorized use of content: if you find this story on Amazon, report the violation. feels the lining of his pockets. I know you want to leave¡ª my white skin is burning in this latino flicker. We enter the garden, your brown face, his brown face. The dark man is speaking, knitting his mother¡¯s murder feet away, her absent body a heavy quilt tucked around my thighs. My words sharpen knives and load guns, hold candle wicks in holy hands. You look at me as though I¡¯ve wrapped the table in aluminum foil, the glow blinding their green bottle lenses. casa y cuarto casa y cuarto La casa Pucheta. Wooden, cluttered table. White creamy cheese with thick slabs of shaved jelly. Crackers, dulce de leche covering. Small black and white dog at our knees, in our laps. Bookshelves leaning into conversations. Sharp tang This tale has been unlawfully obtained from Royal Road. If you discover it on Amazon, kindly report it. of nail polish, thin layers stacking up like books on the couch-turned bed. Bowl of fruit, bananas and manzanas and mandarinas. Plastic table cloth, rose patterns intertwining. Tuppers in steel belly sink. Pizza slices during noche de hogar, pale crust like white missionary fingers. Pinpoints of green olives in homemade sauce. Cards, balls, rubix cube. Photos and braids. Timbres and viandas, take home dinners. Noodles boiling on low, murmuring like love. Christmas tree candle, knitted slippers, snow globe and delicate animal figurine. Home. kidding me kidding me Not like on google maps from Missouri to Utah, but on a taped-up piece of paper with rippled highlights and a dizzy six-piece grid, Argentina begins all at once, a red list of tangled names from people avoiding or feeding us. Calles and streets. ¡ªCual street, my companion says in her Latina Spanglish. ¡ªZalaya! I say, smoothing our area map. I remember the children, brown and running like wild horses. I forgot the smell, a cacophony of Peruvian cocinas. I forgot the doors, each thin, pocked with holes like cheese swiss. I forgot how small the ¡°houses¡± are. ¡ªCan we share a message? ¡ªNo, gracias. Enjoying this book? Seek out the original to ensure the author gets credit. [Knock, wait, next door.] ¡ªPodemos compartir un mensaje? ¡ªTodav¨ªa no. [Knock, wait, next door.] ¡ªCan we¡­ ¡ªSi Dios quiere! But the young girl. That I don¡¯t remember overlooking until we invite her to listen. We¡¯ve crossed Rivadavia, 25 de Mayo, Mansilla and Sarmiento, belting out the hymns we know. ¡°O Creaciones del Senor,¡± your favorite street song, seconded only by ¡°Tengo Gozo en mi Alma Hoy.¡± We alter the words, singing Tengo hambre en mi alma hoy and remember the large Elder who loved to sing about la semilla que hoy sembramos. But crossing the train tracks, we don¡¯t feel like harmonizing. La gente rough and jagged, smoking drugs and stray dogs curled at their feet, the bottom of our feet sweaty like bars of soap, circles of trash curled into the metal tracks and pebbles; ¡°que bueno¡±¡ªel tren will send them skyward like fall leaves. Even more graffiti-showered walls grappling with pale English words, more fences and more cobblestone streets or tile sidewalks with women mopping the concrete and hosing down the tiles. We¡¯ll visit Hermana Mansilla, eat Papa la Huanca¨ªna, Lomo Saltado, Aj¨ª de Gallina, Ceviche, y m¨¢s. I know when I fly home everything will melt into English. Vamos, says my companion here; at home they¡¯ll say Let¡¯s go. Me esta cargando, the Portenos proclaim. There they¡¯ll say You¡¯ve got to be kidding me. bestie bestie Multiple hours cocooned in third-rate airplane seats, knees knocking into neighbors, arriving while my brother¡¯s luggage was leaving, all I wanted was to sleep until someone old and distinguished handed me a diploma. The next morning sunlight was catching up with my sanity, hair raked back like crumbling leaves, carting bodies to the white home in the green, prepared to excavate for my college dinosaurs. Unauthorized usage: this narrative is on Amazon without the author''s consent. Report any sightings. Breakfast has always seemed like an innocent meal, until the metaphorical bacon was fried and eaten and you arrived, almost by accident, a familiar stranger willing to dig and carry years of accidental accumulation¡ª mostly books, The Republic of Poets and Tracy K. Smith and The Lord of the Rings and All the Light We Cannot See filling your waiting arms as I apologize profusely for the weight of my English degrees. You just smile. And then I¡¯m rising from the basement and being ushered to the light at the end of the tunnel, a car more like a space shuttle or rocket than a traditional mode of transportation. And although it seems at odds with your gentle eyes and runaway black hair, you suddenly become an astronaut, catapulting us into the milky highway at eternal speeds that sear my eyes shut with the rapid contest against light. I always secretly wanted to traverse the solar skies with someone like you. two rings two rings After work, when my limbs hang heavy like pendulums and my feet sink into the earth¡¯s stone foundation, you pick me up, pick me out, pick my brain, earnestly hoping for a hilly, mountainous hike previously planned. And although the sludge of weariness dangles from my wrists like Graff Diamonds Hallucination, you unearth smiles like precious potter¡¯s clay and soon we¡¯re slipping through the rocky trees, The narrative has been illicitly obtained; should you discover it on Amazon, report the violation. my hand hooked to yours¡ªlike two pins hanging from a line, determined to hold the same billowy white sheet upright. The sun is dancing in the crests and platters of the mountains, fracturing in your eyes that seem to be waltzing away with me. I don¡¯t notice the baby blue shirt with that clean laundry smell that reminds me of you or a face cleaner than cut diamonds. Other hill billies trot through the crust of autumn, a drifting crush of people who seem to prance under your skin. If only the woods were as lonely as the forests in fairy tales and picture books. We gossip in lover¡¯s language, steal sips from peak springs, searching purposely for the fall colors as we fall for each other. Arches of shattering, bursting fire color signal our arrival to you. And as I murmur at the marvel, my back to you, you spring, on edge for a turn, hardly capable of waiting for sight to cement into realization as firm as the rock nestled in black velvet. laie chicks laie chicks This humidity looks good on you, crisp and curled like the welcome leaves encircling our necks and hearts. I never knew so many chickens had crossed the sea to lounge and loiter in America¡¯s stolen paradise. If you stumble upon this narrative on Amazon, be aware that it has been stolen from Royal Road. Please report it. The ocean roils and spits liquid flames, rattling tiny ocean crabs like bobbleheads in little grass skirts, eyes poking above the sand. We steal kisses like swimmers steal breaths and surfers steal waves and wind steals whisps of my long hair when we cruise through the island¡¯s night, sweet bug fiddles matching us in pitch. Waves slap me silly, push bursts of silty sand into my skin as I cling to you, a red and white lifesaver six feet tall Let¡¯s not go back. blue eyes blue eyes The universe is surprisingly dark, ringed by gold planets and stray stars that bump in the silly blackness of space. If I look hard enough I see myself staring Reading on Amazon or a pirate site? This novel is from Royal Road. Support the author by reading it there. back, gasping at vibrant shades of ocean, peacock royalty, bursting berries, ebony chunks more valuable than my writer¡¯s wallet. Suddenly, the universe bats curled eyelashes like royal sea waves and lets loose a cry to shake the foundations of this world and it¡¯s many, many neighbors. The universe is waking up, and her eyes are midnight blue.