《TrustFall》 Hard Impact "TrustFall means trusting someone enough that you can depend on them in any situation. They''ve always got your back, through sunny days and stormy nights. When someone genuinely loves you, they accept you for who you are, with all your flaws and imperfections. They will see past them and cherish the beautiful, priceless, perfect side of you. They will support and catch you if you fall; even if it means they will be hurt in the process." Audrey''s POV You can do it! I inwardly shouted at myself as I strained to lift up the barbell one more time. I searched for the anger and rage that could motivate me. I recalled the day when I came out as a bisexual to my mother, and she threatened to kick me out. How my ex-girlfriend, Julia, moved to Australia and left me behind after we only dated for six months. I thought about how I haven''t been with another woman ever since, because I was afraid to have my heart shattered again into a million pieces. The same heart that is still missing a few pieces, the remaining ones barely held together by its weak bounds. I finally lifted the barbell with a grunt. "Whew," I sighed as I dropped the 250-pound barbell in exhaustion, sweat dripping off my body as I took a big swig of cold water from my Yeti water bottle. The sudden urge to pour the water over my head was overwhelming. After running five miles that morning, fifty-five laps of swimming, and working out at the gym for approximately eighty minutes, I felt energized and proudly satisfied with myself. I knew that feeling would soon transform into exhaustion, so I savored the fleeting moments. Weighing in at 134 pounds of pure muscles at five feet and five inches, I was happy with my body image. Sure, I''m not as skinny as Jessica Alba who is roughly 120 pounds at the same height. But I never wanted to be skinny. My desire and goal is to be strong, athletic, and prepared for any emergency that requires super physical strength. Speaking of which, one of my favorite hypothetical situations is killing my way through hordes of zombies or pulling up a person I love on the edge of a tall structure. I didn''t want the risky possibility of not being able to rescue them just because I lacked the strength to do so. Again, hypothetically speaking. I recalled how I used to carry my ex-girlfriend everywhere for fun. Carrying her on my shoulder to the bedroom while she giggled and playfully told me to put her down until I threw her down on the bed and climbed on top of her was one of my favorite memories. Wait a minute, why am I even reminiscing about her? She abandoned me. She left me for Australia. Australia. The land of fucking giant spiders and boxing kangaroos. Besides, I have a boyfriend now. And speaking of the devil, my phone suddenly rang as his name popped up on the screen. I huffed in annoyance as I picked it up from the bench and pressed the green call button. "Hey," I answered as I wiped the sweat off my neck with my hand towel. "Hey, princess. What are you doing now?" Andrew''s deep voice resounded through the speaker. "I''m at the gym babe. Is this something important or why are you calling me right now?" I asked annoyingly as I pushed the thoughts of my ex-girlfriend to the back of my mind where they belong. "Yeah. I was thinking that we should go out tonight. Just the two of us. You know, a romantic night out. It''s been... awhile since we''ve done that." Yeah, and you know exactly why it''s been "awhile", I thought as I rolled my eyes and quietly sighed. Andrew and I have been dating for several months now, and things have actually been great until ''the incident'' which changed, well, a lot between us. But he was still my boyfriend, and truth be told, he did take care of me very well, so it was very difficult to remain mad at him. Besides, living with him was better than staying at my mother''s house. I don''t know if I could survive an hour, much less a day, around her. "I don''t think I''ll be able to make it," I answered as I began walking towards the locker rooms. "Why not?" Andrew whined as I cringed at the sound. Unauthorized use: this story is on Amazon without permission from the author. Report any sightings. "I''m just... busy, Andrew. You know me and my schedule. But look, I''ll try my best, okay?" A brief pause ensued from the other end before he finally spoke. "Okay. That''s fine." "And hey, if I don''t, I''ll make it up to you tonight. I promise," I added sultrily. I knew he loved it when I used my low, husky voice. "Oh, really?" I could hear him grinning through the phone. "Really," I smiled. "See you later, babe." As I hung up the phone, I suddenly spotted a woman struggling with a barbell. She was doing bench presses alone without any spotter. I''ve had a recent experience from a few days ago when a male trainer abandoned his female client in the middle of a set. She had rejected him when he asked her out, and I had barely managed to rescue her from being crushed under the barbell. So when I noticed the struggling woman, worry immediately crept into my mind. But before I could offer my help, she managed to place the bar back on the rack. With a sigh of relief, as I preferred to not interact with anyone at the moment, I resumed my way towards my much needed post-workout shower. Later Leaving the gym, I decided to make a stop at a caf¨¦ that I have been intending to check out for quite some time. It actually has been the talk of the town for quite a while. Of course, I was intrigued. Give me a cup of good coffee or green matcha latte, and I''ll be the happiest person on Earth for a brief moment. The caf¨¦ was a small, cozy building located right in front of the mall. The name ''Caf¨¦ la Caverne'' was plastered proudly above the double doors at the front. The splashes of bisque, bistre, walnut, and maroon on the walls, along with other colors which I do not know the name of, drew me in. There was a cute pathway from the parking lot which consisted of beautiful river rocks laid out perfectly. Blooming bushes of Red Roses, Nasturtiums, and Marigolds were lined up along the path, the aromatic fragrance pleasantly tickling my senses. When I walked inside the caf¨¦, my nostrils were instantly hit by the aroma of freshly grounded coffee beans. The dim, cave-like atmosphere was inviting and comfy, with most of the tables occupied by other people either chatting or sitting with their laptops and phones open. But the most striking sight in that dim caf¨¦ was the woman standing behind the counter. She had gorgeous, lavish tresses of fiery red hair that accentuated her hazel eyes and high cheekbones. It was as if I was looking at the most beautiful sunset painted by God''s own hands. I nearly stumbled over my own feet as my attention was distracted by the radiance in front of me. As I approached the counter, she smiled at me, and it was as if my heart jumped right out of my chest in a backflip. That smile was so dazzling that I immediately felt a warm and fuzzy feeling creep into my chest. She must have been at least five inches taller than me with the way I had to direct my gaze a little upwards to meet her eyes. "Hi, what can I get for you?" Oh my god, that voice. That beautiful, euphonic, and yet at the same time sultry voice, coaxing my mind into a place where worries didn''t exist. "Hi, I''m... uh... actually new here," I chuckled nervously, "so I''m not sure. Could you, um... maybe suggest something good from your menu?" I asked as I pushed away my panicking thoughts. You have a boyfriend, you fucking idiot. Calm down. "Sure!" She beamed. "We have Lavender Latte, Orange-Infused Cappuccino, Horchata Latte which is made from cinnamon rice milk with a shot of espresso, Pistachio Matcha Latte. We also have Avocado Pizza, Smoked Salmon Plate. I''d highly recommend the Smoky Lamb with Roasted Mediterranean Vegetables to you." "Oh, those are definitely some interesting choices!" I replied indecisively. I could smell the diverse aromas of freshly baked and cooked foods coming from the back that awoke my cravings. I hoped my stomach won''t betray me and send off growling sounds through the entire room full of people. "I''ll have the Pistachio Matcha Latte and Smoky Lamb to go." "That''s a great choice!" She chirped, flashing me another one of her blinding smiles. "Alright! Let''s see... that will be twenty-one dollars and thirty-four cents." I pulled out forty dollars from one of my pockets and gave it to her. "The change is for you. As a tip," I said when she handed me the change. "Oh, no! You don''t have to," she refused, giving me a surprised look as she tried to give me back my change. "I want to," I insisted, "you deserve it." You deserve it more than you know, I found myself saying in my head while panicking on the outside. She gave me another mind-blowing smile that made my heart do somersaults. "Oh! Thank you so much!" "No problem," I smiled warmly. "Your order will be ready soon. What is your name so we can call for you?" "Kate," I blurted out without thinking, as I had developed a habit to give out fake names at cafes. Why, you ask? Because I was raised by a strict mother who converted her paranoia onto me. "Okay, excellent. I hope you''ll come back again, Kate." She flashed me another one of her stupendous smiles. She got to stop doing that, I thought as I returned a smile of my own and sat down on one of the plush, coffee-brown seats. When she called me by my fake name and handed me my order once I approached the counter, her fingers brushed against mine for three seconds. Suddenly, I felt warmth radiate through me, as if I was wrapped in a warm blanket. Everything and everyone around me ceased to exist for me. The bustling people and their chatter faded into a mere blur as my heart pounded in my ears louder than a sledgehammer. My phone dinged, and I knew that it was Andrew asking if I was still able to make it for dinner, but my brain barely registered the sound. I felt... almost hypnotized as my eyes briefly locked on hers. I haven''t felt this way since...two years ago. Once the connection was broken, I was suddenly aware of the blazing heat in my face, and I desperately hoped my facial color didn''t betray the turmoil of feelings inside of me. All of that happened in just three seconds, and when I recovered, she was smiling at me. Oh my god, did she notice? I thought worriedly. Once I walked out the front door, I felt as if I was on Cloud Nine. I shuddered, my breath trembling a little as the image of the redhead barista appeared in my mind. I couldn''t stop thinking about her for the rest of the day, and every time I did, that warm and fuzzy feeling would envelope my body. We''ve only known each other for just under an hour. Scratch that, we''ve only met an hour ago. That rush of emotions from a simple touch created chaos in my mind and body, because I''ve only felt that way with one person: Julia, my fucking ex-girlfriend. How could one woman possibly create such a huge impact on me in a short matter of time? Flashback WARNING: Explicit sexual content. Audrey''s POV Two years, three months, and four days ago. "Audrey! Baby, wake up!" I dimly heard my name being called as a wave of intense fatigue rolled over my body. My head was drowsy, and my vision was a little blurry as I struggled to coax my eyelids open. Oh my god, how long have I been out? Seconds? Minutes? Hours? Days? "Baby, please wake up!" I opened my eyes all the way and Julia''s naked, sweat-covered body greeted me. Her face was consumed with concern as she looked at me with panic-stricken eyes. Ah, it must have been just seconds, or the paramedics would be standing over me and she wouldn''t be naked. "Breathe. Breathe for me, baby," she gently coaxed, stroking my cheek with her finger as she placed a kiss on my forehead. "Take a deep breath. Slowly. Like this." she demonstrated a deep inhale... and then exhale. Suddenly, I came to the realization that I couldn''t breathe. My lungs felt as if they were crushed under a boulder, the pressure on my chest preventing me from drawing in a deep breath. Her symphonic words flowed through into my mind as I gasped for air. "Slowly. Slowly breathe for me," Julia directed me, leaning a little backwards to give me some space. I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes in relief as the sweet air filled my lungs. I drew in one deep breath after another as my heart gradually calmed down and my breathing settled into a steady, rhythmic pace. What the hell happened? The last thing I remembered was Julia kissing me as my back arched, bolts of lightning spreading through my body in electric vibrations, my whimpers and moans becoming faint and my vision fading away. I felt like I was soaring high up in the sky, away in a far, far away land where no worries and no thoughts existed... "Are you okay?" Julia interrupted, her concerned eyes gazing intently into my eyes. "You were passed out for twenty seconds..." she gently brushed away a damp strand of hair from my face. Twenty seconds? "Yeah...I''m fine..." I slowly muttered, my voice slightly trembling. "It was just...twenty...seconds." I could still feel the leftover tingles on my body as I took another deep inhale of fresh air, my breath shuddering a little. "It wasn''t just twenty seconds," Julia pointed out as she placed another kiss on my sweaty forehead. "You sure you''re okay? Maybe you should see the doctor tomorrow..." "Yeah, I''m fine. Don''t worry," I assured her with a light chuckle. "This is the first time I have been fucked until blacking out. You deserve a medal," I gave her a weak smile. She slightly laughed before a serious expression appeared on her face. "It isn''t normal for a person to pass out though, no matter how great the orgasm is. And I should know because I have --" "Because you have experience," I interrupted with an eye roll. "Yeah... I''ve had low blood pressure problems before, but let''s just please not make this all about medical diagnosis and just enjoy the fact that you made me orgasm to the point of blacking out for a few seconds." "Twenty seconds," Julia corrected with a smile. "I was literally going to call 911 if you didn''t wake up, but if you want me to change the subject, then I will." "Imagine if the paramedics arrived to a call of a woman saying that her girlfriend is unconscious from orgasming too hard," I snorted. "That definitely would have been humiliating," Julia chuckled. "But worth it." Twenty Minutes Later We were lying in bed facing each other. I stroked her gorgeous flaming red hair that carried the beauty of a thousand sunsets as I looked into her oceanic blue eyes that were so deep that I could swim in there for eternity and never wear out. "Do you really have to move back to Australia?" I asked her sadly, the knowledge tugging painfully at my heart. "Yes. I miss my home and the opportunities are greater for me there than here." "So... I''m not great enough for you?" I teased. "You''re more than great. I love you more than anybody I''ve ever loved. But I really do need to go back. I mean, we can do long-distance," Julia suggested and raised her eyebrow at me inquisitively. "You know that I don''t believe in long distance relationships, because they usually never work out and someone ends up seeing someone else," I reminded her while I twirled her hair around my finger. "So... you think I''m going to cheat on you?" Julia huffed and playfully nudged my chest. "I never said that," I mischievously smiled as I nudged her back. With one sudden movement, she climbed on top of me and pinned me down with her body. When I tried to place my hands on her waist, she grabbed both my wrists and pulled them over my head. Her lips curled up in a smirk as she gazed at me with those deep blue eyes that had turned into a blue fire engulfing me with a scorching heat. "Sounds like you need to be disciplined for your bad behavior," she sternly told me. "I agree. I''ve been a very bad girl, ma''am," I concurred with a sly smile. She pressed her body roughly against mine before she leaned in and lightly nibbled at my neck as her hot breath tickled my skin. I whimpered at her touch before she pulled back and locked her eyes on me for a few seconds. Her warm gaze held me in a trance as she parted my lips with her mouth, her tongue meeting mine in a gentle frenzy. She released her hold on my wrists and grasped both of them with one hand while her right hand glided up my stomach and cupped my right breast. I moaned against her mouth as I lifted my hips upwards, the heat between my thighs only increasing when she started grinding her hips against mine. My hands were now free as her left hand cupped my face. She lightly grazed my bottom lip with her teeth, sucking it in before letting go. With my freed arms, I wrapped them around her back and dug my nails into her back as she grinded more vigorously against me. Her own moans vibrated through my mind as the desire increased with every movement of our bodies joined so perfectly together, it was as if we were specifically created for each other. Unauthorized duplication: this tale has been taken without consent. Report sightings. She broke off the kiss and traced her lips across my chest, traveling down to my stomach. She kept her eyes locked on me as she gently lifted my leg up by the knee and softly placed kisses along my inner thigh. I wanted her to award me my release so badly as my breath hitched at the touch of her lips. Just as I was on the edge of orgasming for the third time that night, she stopped and booped me on the nose. She grinned at my look of frustration. "No more orgasms for you today, babydoll," she finally said and rolled off me. I huffed and turned on my side to face her. Waves of disappointment flooded over my body, the dissatisfaction greatly annoying me. "You know I will miss you. This is our last night." I pouted my lips so she can see how obviously displeased I am by her refusal to satisfy me once more just because I happened to pass out. Julia chuckled amusingly. "And you know that I will miss you more. But I don''t want to spend my last night in America at the hospital just because you''re as stubborn as a mule and refused to take precautions." she shot me a stern look which quickly transformed into a look of deep love. "Just remember this as one of the greatest experiences in life. When you look back, just try to remember only the best parts. And don''t forget all the knowledge that you gained on how to be able to make a woman climax to the highest levels of orgasmic pleasure." "Yes, you definitely are a great teacher," I chuckled in agreement. She kissed me again and as we drifted off to sleep in each other''s arms for the last time, I whispered in her ear. "If I could, I''d want nothing more than to wake up and see your beautiful face first thing every morning. To hear your beating heart when I lay my head on your chest. All I want is for you to be happy and choose your own path." "That''s the most beautiful thing anyone has ever told me," she whispered softly as she snuggled closer to me. And as I pressed my lips on her hair for a couple of seconds, I added quietly to myself: If I could marry you, I would. The Next Day. I woke up in the morning at 5:00 AM, revived and ready to start the day. Considering that Julia''s flight was at 2:00 PM (in nine hours), I wanted to spend as much time as possible with her. I walked into the kitchen and threw in some fruits, berries, and greens into a blender, added four tablespoons of coconut water, and turned on the machine. The blender sounds were incredibly loud this morning and I was worried that I had woken Julia up. Once it was done, I poured some of the smoothie into one tall glass cup and drank the rest straight from the blender. Once I finished drinking, I wiped off the leftover smoothie from my lips with the back of my hand. Grabbing the cup, I went back inside the bedroom and found Julia, to my surprise, still asleep. It seems that she has not been disturbed by the blender sound at all. She''s probably just exhausted after last night, I thought and chuckled to myself. I softly nudged her awake and she groaned. "Wake up, sleepyhead," I teased with an amused smile. "Ugh, what time is it?" she grumbled as she propped herself up on her elbow and wrapped the bedcovers around her chest. She yawned, her sleep-messy red hair spilling around her shoulders. "Only 5:34 AM," I happily replied, handing her the smoothie that I had made. "God, I hope this has some caffeine in it," she muttered, accepting the smoothie and taking a small sip of it. "Oh, this tastes amazing!" she sleepily smiled at me. "Why thank you," I grinned. "So why did you wake me up so early?" she asked with an inquiring look and continued to drink her smoothie. "Because I have a list of things that we can do today until 11:30 AM, when I have to drive you to the airport. Once you finish the smoothie, we''ll shower together," I smiled mischievously. "After which I promise you''ll feel rejuvenated. Then, we''ll go out for a nice run while the sun rises and afterwards cuddle together on the bed and watch the new Charlie''s Angels movie. Which we had both agreed to refrain from watching separately." "That does sound like a good plan, but I will admit, you''re too much of a morning person," she pointed out with a sigh, already half-finished with her smoothie. "See, I knew you''d be more than happy to go along with my plan," I beamed. She rolled her eyes and continued drinking as I stood up "I''ll be in the shower waiting for you. Join me as soon as you finish that smoothie." I winked at her and wickedly smiled as I walked into the bathroom and left the door open just a crack. I turned on the shower and undressed, then stepped inside and closed the sliding shower door. Approximately two minutes later, I heard the bathroom door close, and I could barely see Julia through the condensation that had already formed on the shower door as she took off her panties. She slid open the shower and stood there for a moment to allow me to gaze at her perfect tanned body. Her toned legs, strong abs, full breasts, and especially her amused face took my breath away. No matter how many times I''ve seen her body, the phenomenal sight of her always blows me away as if it''s my first time. She smirked at my obvious speechlessness and tilted her head slightly to the left. She finally stepped inside and closed the door behind her. I took the bar of goat milk soap which I had bought specially for Julia since she has sensitive skin that easily dries up from other kinds of soaps. I started to lather her body with the soap while she stood there and closed her eyes, letting my hands roam every inch of her body. I ran my hands through her hair, massaging her head as the water ran down our bodies. I spent the next ten minutes gliding my hands along her skin, rubbing her sensitive areas. She would lean into me and shudder with excitement when I traced her erogenous zones with my tongue and fingers. I kissed her spine and planted a kiss on her perfectly shaped ass before coming back up to tug at her ear lobe with my teeth, lightly licking her neck at the same time. I wanted this moment to last as long as it possibly could, to have every centimeter of her body embedded in my mind. Then she did the same to me, and the sensation of being loved this deeply and feeling her soft hands caressing my body with affection was better than sex. That precious feeling of being cared for so gently and precisely by the person you love the most is exponentially beautiful. After our shower session, we dried and brushed each other''s hair. By the time we walked out of the house for our run, it was 6:46 AM and the sun was just peeking out on the horizon. As we started to run down the sidewalk towards the park and watch the sun peek out from beneath the horizon, it felt like one of the happiest moments of my life. Running alongside my beautiful girlfriend whose red hair became even more gorgeous as the sunlight from the rising sun shone upon her and accentuated her blue foxy eyes and rosy cheeks. "Hold on, let me take a quick picture," I said as I took out my phone from my pants and opened the camera app. We stopped at the lake in which a couple of ducks were swimming in, and she posed in front of it with her breathtaking smile, facing the sun as I positioned the phone and quickly took several pictures. My breath caught in my throat when I captured her photo. The sun''s rays danced on her face, illuminating her phenomenal beauty. When she closed her eyes and tilted her head slightly upwards as she ran her hands through her blazing sun-kissed red hair, my insides turned into a quivering mess. The thought of her leaving later that day threatened to force out a cascade of tears, and it required all my power to hold them back. I had absolutely no idea or clue how I was going to survive without her, but what kind of partner would I be if I stood in the way of her career? I shook away the intruding thoughts. We resumed our run and after running for eight miles in the cool, brisk morning air, we arrived back at Julia''s place. We washed and cut up some of the fruits that Julia purchased the day before in a fruit bowl. I had also bought some cherry chocolate and caramel truffles yesterday which I placed on a plate. I absolutely love chocolate and if you try to take it away from me, I''ll literally fight you. Julia shook her head at all the chocolate, muttering about how unhealthy they are but she ended up eating several while we cuddled and watched ''Charlie''s Angels'' with Kristen Stewart and Elizabeth Banks. The remake was really good and enjoyable but definitely not as good as the two original movies with Drew Barrymore, Lucy Liu, and Cameron Diaz. The time flew by and before I knew it, I was already driving Julia to the airport. The drive was pretty silent as we both knew what lay ahead. My heart felt as if it was going to pound its way out of my chest with the amount of trepidation that I felt. I was the one who persuaded Julia to go after her dreams, and now I feel regret for doing so. But I knew that it would be selfish of me to want her to stay here when she had opportunities elsewhere. Even if that elsewhere was crawling with monstrous spiders. We arrived at the airport, and as I set the last of her luggage down on the curb, we hugged each other. I felt a tear roll down my face as I took in her smell of roses and vanilla, and I hugged her even tighter. I felt her do the same, and when we released each other, I grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her in for one last kiss full of passion, giving it my all. I felt her teeth graze over my bottom lip, her tongue exploring my mouth as I pressed my body against hers. The need to tear off her clothes and eat her out right there and then was unbearably overwhelming. I nibbled at her lips as she quietly groaned, and I could feel the love radiating from her mouth. I finally broke off the kiss, but not without bringing my mouth to her ear. I gently tugged her ear lobe with my teeth, receiving a cute giggle from her as a reward. She looked at me with sadness in her eyes and several tears rolled down her beautiful face as she bit her lip. "Maybe I should stay. I don''t know if I can just leave you like this," she admitted as she tucked my hair behind my ear and traced her fingers down my cheek. "No. We already talked about this. I don''t want you to stay because of me. I won''t hold you back," I insisted, barely managing to keep my tears under control. I didn''t want her to leave. I didn''t know how I would be able to wake up to an empty bed and not be greeted with her angelic face and smile in the morning. To not hear her beautiful voice as she tells me "Good morning" in that sexy Australian accent which sounded like heaven to my ears. She pulled me in for another hug, my chin cradling against her shoulder as I breathed in her scent. We both tightened our embrace, and I felt her press her lips on my head before she pulled away and said the words that I had been dreading to hear. "Goodbye, babydoll. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, and I will never forget you." I felt a tear slide down my cheek as I took shuddering breaths and tried to keep my emotions under control. I forced a smile and said, "I''ll always love you no matter what." Even though you broke my heart and chose a fucking country over me, I added quietly as I watched her walk away, tears pooling around my eyes. I knew, deep down, that maybe it was for the best. Perhaps our love was just not strong enough to do anything for each other. I loved her so fucking much, yet not enough to move to a whole other country for her. And I knew she loved me just as much, but her career still came first before me. Maybe, just maybe, one day... I''ll accept that fact. After all, I did want her to pursue her goals and career. But the pain will never go away, because she left with a piece of me. From this day forth, I''ll never give my heart to another person, because they''ll only stomp on it until all that''s left is a pile of bloody leftovers. Fuck love.