《Lover Again And Again》 Back To Sleep January 2022 It''s 8 pm. I''ll be 33 years old in 3 hours. I''m cold, heartless and direct. That''s what my husband says. I have overheard him saying that at a party, where all the high class was. I didn''t throw a tantrum. I didn''t said anything. I didn''t make a scene. Instead I started to draft the divorce papers in case I needed them. I''m classy. I''m always prepared but not ready. If you compromise you will get a good marriage,at least that is what my mother told me all my childhood. But marriage for me is like standing on a cliff. You will never know what pushes you to fall. All you need is a push and suddently you are in the water. We live together in a house in Seol that we bought before we got married. But now I''m alone. I miss him even if he didn''t come at home for the last four days. Do-yun:''''I need some time alone'''' And I need some time with you. This is what I forgot to say to him when he started to pack some of his stuff. I miss the taste of his lips, I miss the taste of him, his smell, his arms.I want him, but he doesn''t want me right now. It''s just a temporary thing. He will start missing me anytime soon. I know that. I went to stay in the bathtube to clear my thoughts. I have a fantasy where I go the hotel he is staying all naked having only one coat on me and some high heels. But, I can''t. The warmth of the water that I''ve drained a couple of minues ago, makes all fade away. No fantasies, no problems, no worries, no mistakes, no need to make up things. If you spot this narrative on Amazon, know that it has been stolen. Report the violation. He will come back. I''m starting to say the affirmations that my therapist told me to do. Right now, everything is so quiet Right now I''m loved and safe Right now I''m..... Knock, knock: Iopen my eyes and I take my black silk robe and I head to the door. I put some lipstick before I open it. Is another boquet of flowers from my husband saying that ''''I miss you''''. This is the 3 bouqet that I''ve received today from him. But, he still doesn''t show up. This ''''I need some time alone'''' makes me feel anxious. The other 2 are already in the bin, and I want to smash the 3 to the ground too. But this one seems to be different. There are no roses, just wolfsbanes. This one smells like hope and''''I''m coming home sooner than you think''''. I can''t throw them away if he says he is missing me for the 3 time today. They stay because he wants to stay. I can give him that. I put myself some red wine in a glass and I head it to our bedroom. There it was. A bed, a lamp and me. This is the composure of our room tonight. I look around to find a happy memory to put me back to sleep, and all I do is look at the door. I''ve convinced myself that after 10 minutes I have to turn the lights off and go to sleep. But all that I do is think ...I''m not a bad wife, right? How can he sleep alone in the bed without having me besides? How cruel this is... I want this marriage to work. He is the only one who still knows me. And I am the one that still knows him. I know I''m on the edge of the cliff right now. But, all I have is hope to survive. Happy Birthday To Me 1 9:30 AM A bed, a lamp, me and his t-shirt on the bed. ''''Do-yun??'''' I got up and went straight to search for him in the house. The flowers are still in the kitchen, no notes left, and no bowl needs to be washed. Quiet. There must been here tonight and I missed him. How couldn''t I have heard him? Checked my phone to see if I missed something. And I see 100 messages and 50 missed calls. Something bad must have happened. Clicked on the first link that appeared and it sent me to an article having the headline... I feel how my heart drops in a second. No, this can''t be happening to me. This is not about... Hwa-young''s secret is out. Her Husband Finds A New Mistress This can''t be him, he never told me that he was seeing somebody else. Somebody is playing a joke on me. This is fake. Picked up the phone from the floor and tried to reach him. No answer. Love this story? Find the genuine version on the author''s preferred platform and support their work! ....Starts texting.... ''''What is happening? Why you are photographed with another woman yesterday? What have you done to us? Is she just a co-worker? On my birthday?? NEED TO TALK WITH YOU!!!'''' And now everyone is pointing at me and wants an answer when I didn''t make anything. I just waited for you. I waited to come from your ''''vacation''''. How comes that I''m the one that has to deal with your mess, Do-yun? It seems like it doesn''t matter that you humiliated me as long as you reject my call and ignore my texts. Last night? What happened last night before I went to bed? I took a bath, I received flowers, I went to sleep, and this morning his smelly perfume is all over the place. He was here. I checked all drawers to see what he took away with him. The only thing that is missing is a white T-shirt from his drawer, 2 pairs of socks. I took the T-shirt from the bed to smell it and I heard something dropped on the floor. I''m scared to look down, but I do it anyway. I opened one eye. A shiny light .... What is this? As I get closer I see it more clearly. Is his weeding ring. So, now I don''t even deserve a proper goodbye from him? Is this what I''m receiving after 10 years of marriage? This is my gift for my birthday? If this is how he wants to play this game. So it be. Took my phone from the kitchen counter and I start to make some calls. Hwa-young: ''''Dae-Seong, is Hwa-young, can you talk?'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Hey, you, how have you been, I didn''t know you still had my number after so many years'''' Hwa-young: ''''I don''t have time to chat Dae-Seong. I need you'''' Dae-Seong: ''''.......Sexually?''''. This is the last thing I need to hear today. Hwa-young: ''''As my lawyer!!!!'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Sorry!! I thought it is was a joke. What happened?? Are you ok?'''' Hwa-young: ''''I''m getting a divorce'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Since when?'''' Hwa-young: ''''Since this morning. He has a mistress and he left his ring on our bed. The news are over the news. I want this to be over as soon as possible'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Come to my office at 10, we will meet there '''' Happy Birthday To Me 2 She walked through the door after 10 years and my heart stopped. I know this perfect face, the provocative lips, the virgin long black hair, the enticing eyes, the smirk. But, this time she has something different. She now wears red lipstick, high heels, and diamonds.....making her..unexpectedly attractive for a woman who is getting ready for a divorce. Hwa-young: ''''I was prepared for this...I even have the divorce papers prepared...and I hesitated thinking that he still loves me and...'''' Feels like a dark cloud entered the room and I expect the storm to start a y minute. I know that look on her face. Do-yun:''''Hmmm...'''' Hwa-young: ''''I want to have a trial. I want to take everything from him. I want to leave him with nothing. I WANT HIM TO SUFFER !!! I want him to beg me to have mercy!!!!''''. Dae-Seong: ''''Hwa-young.....I''m glad to see you again''''. I want to touch her hand, to embrace her, to take all her pain and protect her from this disaster. But I can''t. She doesn''t want me to do that. Dae-Seong: ''''I wished we never met under these circumstances but here we are''''. If you come across this story on Amazon, be aware that it has been stolen from Royal Road. Please report it. Hwa-young: ''''I want to get this done as soon as possible. I don''t want him in my life anymore. He sent me all day flowers yesterday saying that he misses me and now there is an article, there is a mistress and there is no phone calls or texts from him'''' ............Silence....... Dae-Seong: ''''Did you know about this? About her? Or another women?There were any signs before? Did you have any doubts before this?'''' More silence. Hwa-young: ''''He left 4 days ago saying that he needs some time alone. I was not worried about it in the beginning thinking that maybe he is overworked and needs some..'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Did you give him any reasons to do this to you?'''' She looked me dead in the eyes and I felt coldness on my back. Dae-Seong: ''''There are many ways to end this. There is no need to go after him like that. This is what the public wants and maybe this is what he wants from you. To be reactive. Hwa-young, you need to calm down. Before taking any legal action we need to know more about this situation. This will not help us in court.'''' Hwa-young: ''''What would you do if you were in my situation? You would wait to see what is going to happen next? Is not my problem that he wants to fuck around and act like a Casanova . My problem right now is that he hurt me and he doesn''t give a fuck about my feelings. He needs to pay, Dae-Seong!'''' Dae-Seong :''''You are right, but you need some clarity from him to know what happened. Maybe the news are fake and the ring on the bed...'''' Hwa-young gets up and walks out. ''''I knew this will be a mistake'''' Happy Birthday To Me 3 10 AM I told my chauffeur to take me to Dae-Seong office and then to go to work. I don''t remember when I dressed all up. Somehow I''ve put even some red lipstick on. Even my subconscious mind doesn''t want me to let that bastard make me look like a fool. I need to survive this. Is just temporary. I entered the building looking straight ahead and got to the 3 third floor in a few minutes. All this time I can''t help but wonder... How he could do that to me? After all that we''ve been through. All these years are completely erased, because of what? Because he needed to blow him some random chick? Interrupting my thoughts, a woman started to talk with me in the elevator complimenting my outfit. ''''Is for my husband''s funeral'''', I say to her. She smiles at me back and run from the elevator as soon as it opens. I should''ve thrown the last bouquet that he gave me into the bin. ''''I miss you'''', my ass. I smiled and I walked out from the elevator and headed to Dae-Seong office. I don''t have time to waste. I avoid the young secretary who is trying to stop me from going straight into his office and open the door. Reading on this site? This novel is published elsewhere. Support the author by seeking out the original. Hwa-young: ''''I even have the divorce papers prepared and I had hesitated thinking that he still loves me and...'''' He starts to speak and I look into his eyes for the first time in 10 years. He stayed the same. His eyes are smiling at me, and it seems like he came into the office just after he took a shower. I can see that his hair is still wet, recently cut, and I can smell the musk perfume all over the place. He has a black suit and he is more fit than ever. He looks more handsome than I remembered him. It feels like time stopped. Why he is looking into my soul? Why does he look and smell the same as I remember? Why did I call him in the first place? Many lawyers in the city would beg me for.... He is talking but I can''t hear him. I can''t stop looking at his delicious lips. There is a little bite on his neck. I didn''t know he had a girlfriend. I always thought that he would never enter another relationship after... Dae-Seong: ''''Did you give him any reasons to do this to you?'''' I thought that he would be different and he would understand me. Maybe he already took sides and could believe me that I''ve been cheated on. No, there is no mistake in this story. The only thing that he needs to know is that I was cheated by my husband and I don''t want to hear him justifying his actions. Dae-Seong: ''''You are right, but you need some clarity from him to know what happened. Maybe the news are fake and the ring on the bed...'''' I have to end this nonsense, before he starts to really change my mind. Hwa-young: ''''I knew this will be a mistake'''' I got up and walked out of his office, I heard him gasp as I am walking out. He wants to stop me but I can''t let him. I need to go before he notices me blush. Seeing him made me feel more... Now, I''m back in my car. I don''t recognize myself. I don''t think about the divorce anymore. To come or not to come? I watch the drops of water trickling down the window and I start to think about how many things I''ve lost because of him. I stood by him for so long and never complained about his imperfections or the problems in our relationship. I always put him first and always wanted him. And he throws our marriage out the window. I arrive at the office and feel all eyes on me. Everyone wants to read something on my face. Pain? Disappointment? Sadness? I pretend to know nothing and walk as usual with a decent smile. "Good morning, Miss Young." "Good morning, Nadia." "You have today''s meeting schedule on your desk. If you need anything, I''m at your disposal." "Thank you, Nadia'''' Meetings are just what I need right now. At least I''ll be doing something productive rather than going home and feeling sorry for myself. Perfect, just what I needed, I have a meeting in 10 minutes. I head to the conference room and see about 10 men who visibly have been waiting for me for some time. "They''re all here for the interview regarding the recent news, Miss Young. They''ve been here since 6 AM." I enter the room and I am overwhelmed by the look of disappointment on their faces. Did they expect me to be crying, in pain, scared? A barrage of flashes begins, and I am instantly blinded. The questions start too. A warm welcome, I would say. "What will happen to the company if you divorce?" "Is it true that you''re divorcing Do-yun?" "How long have you been having problems in your marriage?" "Do you think you''ll be able to move on with your life?" Hwa-young: "Thank you everybody for coming here today. I see your concern for me. I''m fine, for now. I''m trying to focus on what''s most important to me. Besides being a wife, I''m also the CEO of the largest technology company in South Korea. I cannot afford to disappoint my employees or my shareholders. I want to announce that both my husband and I will remain in our positions and will do our jobs as best as we can. With determination and passion, together as a team. Thank you!" I see the surprise on their faces. Sadly for them, I couldn''t deliver any tears. I know that they are disappointed. I couldn''t inject more drama into the story. On this subject, Do-yun is better than me. He knows how to feed the gossip. If you stumble upon this narrative on Amazon, it''s taken without the author''s consent. Report it. I left the conference room, pleased with how well I stood in front of the media. Ring, ring... "Hwa-young...We need to talk, it''s urgent, I''m waiting for you at home." My hand freezes on the phone. I cancel my other meetings and rush home, where I find him sitting on the couch with a glass of whiskey in his hand. My speech from this morning is on the TV. It seems that is on reply. He looks at me with teary eyes. I can''t move from the door. Seeing him in our house again feels so strange. I forgot how much I missed him and I didn''t think I would ever see him again. He gets up from the couch and walks towards me with heavy steps. He abruptly takes me in his arms. His shirt is open, and I can feel his hot chest and his quick breath. He gently strokes my back with his fingertips. I let him take off my blouse and press me against the door. He presses his lips to my breasts, and I already feel the coolness of his lips on my body. I can''t help it and moan loudly, not caring if the neighbors hear me. I take off his shirt. Do-yun: "I want to see how wet you are." My pants are off now, and he gradually inserts his fingers inside me. So, you missed me, didn''t you?" He teases me even more and kneels in front of me."Forgive me for everything, K. I know I made you suffer, I promise it won''t happen again." Hwa-young: "Don''t talk now, keep going." I put my hands in his hair and pull him towards my vagina. His tongue is now inside me, devouring me. Now I dominate him, and I can''t stop. He wraps his cold mouth around my vagina and pulls it towards him like a suction cup. It doesn''t take long, and I cum in his mouth. He wipes his lips and stands up. Do-yun: "Do you think I''m done with you?" He picks me up and throws me on the bed. He takes off his pants and grabs his large, meaty penis in his hand. He starts masturbating in front of me. "Every day, I did this while thinking of you." He rubs his member faster and faster, and I see him approaching and leaving the cum on my stomach. I feel his life on me and look at him amazed. Do-yun: "I know we usually don''t do this, but today is a special day. We''re celebrating my return." Hwa-young: "Oh, so that''s what this is about?." I get up from the bed and go to wash my body. What just happened? I just had sex with my husband who cheated on me. Does he think everything is back to normal now? After I get out of the bathroom, I see him in the bedroom. He''s changing his shirt. Do-yun:"I wanted to talk to you about something. I didn''t call you home just for..." Hwa-young: "I''m listening." Do-yun: "I found out a week ago that I''m sick." Hwa-young: Did you catch a cold while you were cumming in another woman''s vagina?" Do-yun: "No, H." Hwa-young: "Then?" Do-yun: "The doctors gave me only six months to live. They found a tumor in my brain. I didn''t want to tell you because I didn''t know how to handle the situation myself. And, the woman at the hotel, it was nothing, casual.... I did it more unconsciously. But, after seeing your interview this morning I woke up " Hwa-young: "Six months? Unconsciously? Do you hear yourself? I stood like a fool, waiting for you day and night to come home, and now you tell me all this as if it''s no big deal? You waited to see me on TV and then you decided to give me a call?" Do-yun: "I know, I''ve been an asshole. It''s hard to digest, even for me also. You know that I don''t normally do this. But, from the shock I''ve acted like this. I''m sorry, I was a fool to put you in such a difficult position. I know how stupid I am. I could lost you and you are mine. I can''t afford to lose you. But leaving all aside, the most important thing right now is our marriage. We need to stay together in this. Right, Hwa-young?'''' Hit Me Hard Hwa-young: ''''6 months?? To start again? You are kidding, right? You ruined everything, and now out of nowhere, you are coming into our house like nothing had happened. Pack your shit and get out. Get out of my life!! I don''t care if you are going to die or not! You come with this pathetic excuse to continue our marriage. You are doing this every time! Go to your bitches! You''ve abandoned me and my soul! What did you expect? To welcome you with open arms? Do-yun: ''''But we didn''t just make love?'''' Hwa-young: ''''Consider it as a goodbye gift from your ex-wife'''' Do-yun: ''''You still don''t get it, don''t you? You are mine and I am yours. We can''t just end..'''' Hwa-young: ''''You serve me on the plate the divorce. When you left you left me with a bittersweet taste''''. Do-yun: ''''Don''t try to forget us and put us in the past. I feel heavy as a lead right now. Why you are making me feel heavy right now? I''m not the only one who is guilty. You destroy this relationship too with your coldness. I felt all the time like I was living with winter in the house. No love, no affection, no nothing from you!!'' What he doesn''t know is that I''m done with his bullshit. He throws me like a toy on the ground and shams my head, just to go around and play with other toys. He likes to play outside the marriage. He tells me that this is fair play. He has the right to do this and that. In the normal world this is called emotional and physical cheating, he calls this ...the usual. I have to be at his disposal. I have to pretend that nothing is wrong after he comes back from his ''''vacation''''. This is his principle. His needs are more important than our marriage. My soul battery got emptier each time I tried to understand what we are going through. But, all that I''ve found were excuses for him and mistakes for me. I''ve made him the center of my soul, and I''ve forgotten about myself. This story originates from Royal Road. Ensure the author gets the support they deserve by reading it there. Hwa-young: ''''Get the fuck out!'''' Do-you, is smiling sarcastically, looking at me like I am stupid: '''' Hwa-young, are you sure that you want to throw out the window 10 years of marriage? Are you sure???!!!'''' Hwa-young: ''''10 years of lies and betrayals. I didn''t have even the courage to say to my lawyer that this is what you always do. Lie and cheat, and I accept this crap from you. Today this ends. All this game has to stop. 10 years and 4 days of agony, where I''ve waited for you to find yourself. You don''t even feel sorry for breaking us apart! Why did you tell me that you loved me when you knew that we were not going to work? You never know what you want. This pussy or that pussy. This is the real question for you.'''' Do-yun: ''''Enough!!!!''''. He doesn''t know what to say anymore. Goes faster than I thought to our once-bedroom takes his things and packs them all together as I''ve fallen to the floor, crying. Hwa-young: ''''I''ve truly loved you Do-yun'''' Do-you look at me hostile: '''' This is what I deserve after all that I''ve been through? You don''t even want to understand me and my actions. Goodbye soon to be my ex-wife!'''' From husbands, we become suddenly enemies, and everything happened so fast. You Saved Me News...''''Today is a perfect day for a walk, no clouds in the sky, everything seems to get warmer and warmer..'''' I woke up early this morning, thinking I must put my life in order and throw away what doesn''t serve me anymore. Put in plastic bags all his clothes, clones, scripts, books, socks, favorite condiments, Xbox, the diamond bracelet that he gave me at our 2 anniversary, and everything that reminded me of him, and put them all together in 5 bags. I couldn''t breathe in anymore in the apartment. I took them all and I donated them to a charity in my neighborhood. I only had 1 condition to burn the pictures. I dressed again in black, but more relaxed. Nobody recognized me this time.I had one more task. To burn our photos. I needed some courage and since I don''t trust anybody right now not even my family, I decided to do all this by myself. I held my tears as I was watching all the pictures getting burned. I couldn''t ..... Ring ring... I hope that bastard didn''t show up here, or my mother... Is Dae-Seong. Why he is here? I called him and I don''t remember? Who sent him here to check on me? My house is a mess and he is at the door. What he will think of me? That I am a mess? that I''m hurt that my husband cheated on me? He thinks that I''m not emotionally capable of going through this by myself. I receive a text message. Open the door. Please. I wait 1 more minute, and then I open the door.There he was looking at me with his kind eyes. Dae-Seong: ''''Hi. You didn''t reply to any of my messages or calls. I was worried.'''' Hwa-young: ''''You don''t have to. I chose another lawyer to deal with this case. You don''t seem to understand what I''m going through.'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Hwa-young how could you say that? I was trying to help you'''' Hwa-young: ''''If you wanted to help me you could try to see my point of view!'''' Dae-Seong: ''''I wanted you to calm down. We can''t go to trial if you are.... Hwa-young: ''''Hurt?? I bet that you don''t receive the same stigma from society'''' Dae-Seong: ''''....Is not like that. We need to be carefull. I''m sorry for hurting you'''' He is sorry or he is trying to get under my skin after he knew that he lost such a big case? Dae-Seong: ''''I''m sorry that you go through this. I''m sorry that X broke your hurt an cheated on you. I''m sorry that I didn''t know how to listen to you'''' This tale has been unlawfully obtained from Royal Road. If you discover it on Amazon, kindly report it. Maybe I was wrong, he seems sincere. Dae-Seong: ''''All I wanted is to tell you that I will help you. I will represent you in the trial. I am here for you''''. He only came here to talk about trial? Hwa-young: ''''Listen, Dae-Seong , I don''t need your help or your patience. I got this. I can do this by myself. Thank you for your apologies, but right now I need to be alone'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Did you brunt yet all the pictures?''''Hwa-young: ''''What??'''' The fire alarm goes on and I know that I''ve lost control of the situation. He is already in my house, trying to make the alarm go off, trying to ...save me, and I look at him coming to me, looking at me and telling me that I''m safe now and he resolved this situation. Everything is in slow motion. Why he is doing this for me? Why is looking like he never exited my life before? I can''t move and I can''t breathe. I don''t want him to see me like this. This was my last thought. Dae-Seong: ''''Hwa-young are you ok? Hwa-young ?'''' I heard him scream but I couldn''t get up. I can move my lips it feels like I''m stuck.''''Hwa-young can you hear me''''..... I open my eyes and I see a figure. I know this voice. Hwa-young!!!!!!!!! I open my eyes and I see him, looking worried at me. He is scared that something bad could happen to me. He takes me into his arms and I could not help but embrace him back. Hwa-young..She is not waking up. I called 112 and the emergency came.I''m trying to wake her up but nothing is working. What have I done to you? Why do I show up here instead of being at home? Why did I have to come here, to you?I can see that her eyes are opening, and I see that she recognizes me. I lift her and hug her. Dae-Seong: ''''Please, don''t do this to me again! I thought that you were dying''''. We both started to cry. After 2 hours, I managed to clean up the place and make it look like a house again. I took all the pictures that were thrown again, I took the broken glass, and the bottles of wine and made the place feel warm again. He put me in the bed and I slept for a couple of hours. I woke up and went to the kitchen. Everything was so clean like nothing happened before. Was I dreaming? I never faint.Then I see him walking out of the shower. It was not a dream. Dae-Seong: ''''Hwa-young, are you ok, do you need something? Are you hungry?'''' Hwa-young: ''I,I...''''Dae-Seong: ''''I made you some rice and soup come I will feed you''''. What made this man act so adorable to me all of a sudden? He put me at the table and started feeding me like children. I don''t say anything, I don''t want to upset him anymore. Dae-Seong: ''''One more bite and then we are done. Good job!..Do you feel much better now?''''''Hwa-young: ''''Yes, thank you. I go to sleep now, I feel a bit tired'''' I manage to get up and go to bed but he stops me, takes my hand Dae-Seong: ''''Tell what happened'''' He puts my hand over his chest and I can hear his heartbeat''''You can trust me''''. Hwa-young: ''''I know, but I can''t. I feel like nobody will understand me'''' Dae-Seong: ''''I am here. I want to hear you, I want to be here with you''''He looks at me like he is in love with me and I don''t know what to do. His smell, his heartbeat, his lips, all they are saying to me... Before I say anything, he takes me in his arms and he is touching my hair, my face, my lips. I look in her eyes and I see why she ran away the other day from the office. She ran away exactly as she did when we broke up. She couldn''t look into my eyes, because she was scared to find out that..she still loved me no matter what. Dae-Seong: ''''I know you were scared when you saw me. I know that your heart started to beat faster after you entered the room. I know that you came to me because I''m the only one you can trust, I know that''''. Hwa-young: ''''I don''t know what to do T, everything started to fall apart, and I can''t control any of it. Paparazzi are in my office, my mother doesn''t want me to divorce, and my husband cheated on me on my birthday''''.Dae-Seong: ''''I know''''.I hug him and I close my eyes. Hwa-young:''''I''m so unhappy T''''.Dae-Seong: ''''I know''''Hwa-young:''''Please stay with me, don''t leave me alone''''Dae-Seong:''''I will never leave you again''''. Will you have me or not? Hwa-young: ''''I kicked Do-yun, out of the house. I guess when trust is gone, then is no reason to stay anymore. He came home pretending like nothing happened. You know, in the beginning of our marriage I truly felt chosen by him to be his wife. And, now all that I have from our marriage is this pain that kills me'''' Her hair is a tangled mess, and her .... face and her wide brown eyes, all are indicating that this man managed to hide all the happiness from her. Hwa-young: ''''I got blamed for everything. The rice is cold, the soup is too spicy, you look like trash, and you should get a new manicure. All this time I was a culprit in his eyes. And the sad part is that I believed this lie too, Dae-Seong. You may wonder what possessed me to stay. I don''t know either. Maybe lust, maybe codependency, maybe the 10 years of marriage, or maybe I though that I have a chance to be accepted'''' She seized my hand and started to kiss it. Hwa-young: ''''Thank you for being here with me. You are the only friend that I have left in this life..'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Don''t say that. You have your family by your side. I''m sure they are worried for you'''' Hwa-young: ''''I don''t want to talk about them right now. I know that they are expecting some explanation from me. I''m not in the right state of mind where I can respond to Why? How? How. What should I tell them Dae-Seong? That my husband shamelessly cheated and exploited me? That all this time I was the fixer? That I''ve begged for his love? I was always the one who gave everything and eventually got mocked for it''''. As she is staying in my arms I start to walk my fingers through her soft black hair and her back. I try to empathize with her without getting angry. I need to calm her down. She know that I would kill for her. I look at my hand and I see all of the sudden blood all over my hand. Where is this coming from? I look at the back of the shirt and I see... Did he beat her before leaving? Did she got injured after falling? Dae-Seong: ''''Hwa-young, your back...'''' She quickly gets up from my arms and rushes to the bathroom and locks it. She is bleeding....Why she is running from me? Why doesn''t let me help her? Hwa-young: ''''I don''t want you to see me like this. You have seen enough''''. Talking to me from the bathroom. Stolen from its original source, this story is not meant to be on Amazon; report any sightings. Hwa-young: ''''You can go now, I can deal with this myself. No need to worry''''. Dae-Seong: ''''Ok, then I will see you tomorrow morning. Is that alright?'''' Hwa-young, hesitates.. a little before she gives me an answers and tells me that... Hwa-young: ''''AA....yes, all right, tomorrow morning. We will have some coffee and we will catch up. What do you say?'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Ok, I going now. Goodnight, Hwa-young!''''. I hear the front door closing and I can finally stop holding my breath and my tears. If he sees me like this he will go crazy. I need to wash and put some medicine before seeing him again tomorrow. I go in the shower and blood starts to flow freely. The cuts are opened now like my heart. I bleed. Before I apply any medicine I need to call my mother. I unlock the bathroom door. He is standing right in front of me. Crying. Did he stay here all the time? He heard me weeping? Dae-Seong: ''''We need to talk''''. Hwa-young:''''I thought that you left. Why are you still here? I need something?'''' I turn her back to me, to see with my eyes what is happening, and to convince myself that what I''ve seen isn''t in my imagination. He wants to see my back. I let him. There is no turning back from this. As I stay with my back naked he is walking with his fingers on all my wounds, bruises, and cuts. What would my explanation be right now? ''''Dae-Seong, I punished myself for every fight, for every time I felt that I was not doing enough in my relationship, please forgive me?'''' Dae-Seong: ''''That bastard!!!'''' Hwa-young: ''''He didn''t do anything to me. I did it'''' Dae-Seong: ''''You??? But, why?'''' Hwa-young: ''''You want to know why I did, how I managed to do this for so many years, why I didn''t seek help. I know, you want to fix me as I tried to fix my husband. There is no remedy for me or him. We are deeply broken''''. Dae-Seong: ''''I need the emergency kit. Tell me where is it''''. Hwa-young'': ''''Is in the bathroom...'''' Quickly starts to take care of my wounds like they are his. I stay like a child in silence and I wait for him to finish and to start with his questions. But, instead of scolding me, he hugs me again. I can feel the warmth of his embrace. Why he is making this so hard? I''m not the old Hwa-young who can fall for his lips and soft voice. Dae-Seong: ''''Please let me stay with you. Don''t push me away as you did when we were together. I want to be right here''''. Hwa-young: ''''Dae-Seong, you are just my lawyer. You did enough for me today..'''' Dae-Seong: ''''I''m not only your lawyer and you know that. I''m ... still in love with you Hwa-young''''. I don''t think I understand the words that he is saying to me right now. Maybe this is a dream..He is saying this to me to feel better or he wants something from me? I look at him and I see the genuine look on his face. He truly loves me, after all these years. But, why now is he telling me this? This words.....are genuine and he looks so deeply hurt of what happened to me. How can he love me after I left him and married his best friend , Do-yun? Is this my chance to get back with the love of my life? Will you have me after all this time or not? Sooner or later you will come to me I''ve been here for 10 years. Back then she was fooling around with Dae-Seong. I was attracted to her presence from the first glimpse. I knew that I needed to have her. It was a warm day for January when I met her. Little tiny bits of snowflakes were making their presence known. I was waiting for them in the front of the cafe. The one that me and Dae-Seong used to go to after classes. There was, right around the corner, with Dae-Seong, hand in hand. She wears a barrette, a black coat with flowery embroidery, and some army shoes. Before her, only the sky could take my breath. I couldn''t help but wonder, how did they meet? They got closer and closer to me. Both smiling and giggling. I didn''t know what the joke was but I''m sure was not that funny. Both of them say hi to me and then Dae-Seong prepares himself to introduce me to her. But, I have no time to waste. There is a special woman in front of me. Do-Yun: ''''You must be the girlfriend!'''' Hwa-young: ''''Yes, I am'''' Do-yun: ''''I''m Do-yun, the long-time friend. I hope Dae-Seong talked nicely about'''' Hwa-young: ''''He always talks about how great and charming you are!''''. She smiles ironically at me, but I can''t know for sure. Is this a mockery or not? We enter to grab some coffee. Dae-Seong goes to the bathroom and I start to analyze this beautiful creature named, Hwa-young. Doesn''t seem so fascinated about me. I have to change that. This story has been unlawfully obtained without the author''s consent. Report any appearances on Amazon. Do-yun: ''''I''ve heard that you are moving to Seol''''. Hwa-young doesn''t even bother to open her mouth and formulate a simple yes. She nods yes and she looks around for Dae-Seong. I don''t get scared easily. Her slime is white like foam fingers, and her kissable lips are directed to a lost cause. Dae-Seong isn''t made for her. She is made for me. Looks at me in my eyes and I felt that time stopped for a second. Does she know at this moment that I want her with all the passion? Does she know that from now on I will do anything to have her?Do-yun: ''''Do you know when is going to leave you? Can you feel the ending?Hwa-young: ''''Hmm..??'''' Do-Yun: ''''You don''t know, ha?'''' Hwa-young: ''''I don''t understand''''Do-Yun: ''''I told myself when I saw you that you are not like the other girls. You must be special, but I see that you are just like them''''. Now, I get her attention. Now, her eyes are all over me, looking at me with confusion and desperation. Do-Yun: ''''Ok, I will tell you, because I see that you have some feelings for him..''''Hwa-young: ''''I don''t have just some feelings for him, I love him!!'''' Do-yun: ''''Ohh, auch. So you are in the last phase. I have to tell you then. I usually don''t do this but... He is going to leave you. Not, because you are not beautiful, but because there are more interesting girls in the city than you. You see, Do-yun has this, disease. He can''t ever commit to one. To hundreds of them, yes, but not for just one.'''' Hwa-young: ''''AAA...so this is all about. You are jealous that he has a girlfriend and you are still looking around! I knew it!'''' Do-yun: ''''You are sick with love then. Fine, look into his phone, dive deep into emails, texts, etc, and you will see that I''m right, and then come to me. I hope that you will find out sooner what type of man you fall for''''. Hwa-young looks at me. I don''t care if she is angry or not. I''m the real focus. Do-Yun comes from the bathroom. Dae-Seong: ''''Hwa-young, are you ok? Hwa-young: ''''I remembered that I have a class right now. Can we meet after?'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Are you sure? But, I thought that we were hanging with..'''' Hwa-young: ''''Nice to meet you Do-yung. Excuse me, but I have better things to do''''. She is angry, she is confused, and she knows that I''m right. Sooner or later she will come to me. It has to. You Lied I kept thinking about what Do-young said to me. What if this is true? What if I am just a phase and he is using me? No, this can''t be true, I know Dae-Seong. I don''t remember how I arrived home. I go straight to bed and I try to sleep. But, I''m still thinking about what he told me. Is he his friend? Or is he jealous of him? But, why he would say to me? Even though he looked sarcastic he sounded sincere. I take my phone out and I text Dae-Seong. Hwa-young:''''Come to my place in 1 hr?'''' Dae-Seong: ''''I''m studying right now, and I don''t think we can meet up tonight. How about tomorrow?'''' Hwa-young: ''''Where are you right now?'''' Dae-Seong: '''' Something wrong happened?'''' Hwa-young: ''''No, I just miss you ''''. Dae-Seong: ''''I''m at the library''''. Hwa-young: ''''Ok, I will be there in 15 minutes''''. Stolen content warning: this tale belongs on Royal Road. Report any occurrences elsewhere.I took my coat and headed to the library. I''m fuming. I have to know if he is using me or not. I see him at the door greeting me with a smile but I can''t do the same. Hwa-young: ''''Your phone'''' Dae-Seong: :''''My phone...??? Hwa-young:''''Yes, can I have your phone please, I need to check something quick'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Let''s go inside and talk...'''' Hwa-young: ''''I don''t want to talk right now, give me your phone!!'''' Dae-Seong looks confused at me and I''m waiting to hand me the phone already. Dae-Seong: ''''OK, if it is so urgent..take it''''. Hwa-young: ''''Thank you''''. I dive deep in the rabbit hole and I''m going to all the messages, texts, notes, emails, everything. I don''t hear anything else around me. Is like I''m in a trance. No clue. Dae-Seong: '''' Happy? Found what you were looking for?'''' I start blushing. I can''t believe, he is innocent. There is nothing on his phone. I''ve been lied to. What a relief. Hwa-young: '''' Yes, thank you, I was thinking that you had something that I need, but no..'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Let''s go inside, is freezing''''. We enter the library and the warmth of the place is touching my frozen nose. Head to his table. Nobody seems to be around at this hour. Just me and him. He takes my hands and tries to warm them. I can''t believe that I doubted him. Ring, Ring He looks around and picks up the phone from the table. He looks at the number but he hesitates to respond. Dae-Seong: ''''I need to go to the bathroom real quick. My mother is calling me. I will be right back''''. Hwa-young: ''''A,,ok, take your time.'''' As he walks out I see that this is strange. The walk, the smirk, and.. is that another phone that is holding? It is possible that.... Lets keep it simple Cancer, affairs, and my ex-boyfriend stood beside me in the kitchen. What''s next? Apocalypse? Right.... For a moment I thought maybe this was a new opportunity for me to reunite with the love of my life. But, this so-called love of my life, didn''t cheat on me already? I was here before with him. Why I''m so hopeful? Is the same pattern...There was no love from them. Only lies. Hwa-young: ''''I think you should leave. I can take care of all this. Thank you for taking care of me. I will discuss with you in the future regarding my divorce, but for now, I just want a little bit of peace of mind.'''' Dae-Seong: ''''Of course, yes, if you need anything from me please don''t hesitate to call me.'''' Hwa-young: ''''Which phone?'''' Dae-Seong: ''''What?'''' Which phone should I call baby? The one that you communicate with me or the one that you communicate with your hoes? Hwa-young: ''''Oh, nothing, I will text you on the usual number then''''. He smiles at me like he doesn''t know what I''m referring to. Maybe this time the other number will be used to communicate with my ex. Who knows? From these people, I can''t expect everything. Finally .....I''m alone in MY house. No men, no problems. This tale has been unlawfully lifted without the author''s consent. Report any appearances on Amazon. Ring, Ring... Her: ''''Where are you?'''' Me: ''''Mom?'''' Her:''''You are home?'''' Me:''''Yes, mom.'''' She hangs the phone on me. Clasic. Here comes the dragon to save my marriage and to tell me how much I fucked up in my life. Great. A new reminder that everything is messed up. Oh, but what a surprise. She has already the keys to my apartment. Awww. this is so outrages. Me: ''''Oh. Join in mother. Make yourself feel at home. Litteraly.'''' She didn''t even bother to say hi to me. She is more preocupied about the house than me. Sometimes, if not, all the times I feel like an object when she looks at me. It like she doesn''t even sees my soul. Her:''''This place is a mess, how can you live like that?'''' She starts cleaning like a maniac everything. Floors, doors, windows. She is like a butterfly, going around from each side of the apartment, not wasting any minute to sit down and talk with me. After 3 hours she is done and ready to leave. No hugs, no sorry, just cleaning. This is her love language to me. Me: ''''Can you please stay? We don''t have to talk about it...Just stay a little bit with me'''' Her: ''''Oh, but, I have so many things to do. And on top of that is Sunday, people rest today, so should I. And I''ve already cleaned here. My job is done'''' Me: ''''I could''ve hired a maid you know? You didn''t have to do all this. I didn''t ask. But, if this was your day off, and I managed to fuck up your rest schedule... take this'''' Thank you for your service mother. Now you can go and rest''''. She looks at me in surprise. Her: ''''I don''t need money'''' Me: ''''And I didn''t need your cleaning service. But, here we are I guess''''. She takes her coat from the sofa, but I managed to catch her arm and put the money in her hand. Me: ''''I don''t want to owe you anything. Take the money and enjoy the rest of the day, mother''''. She hates me. I know that. But, I don''t. Her red eyes are looking at me with disgust. But, I should be looking at her like this. She is trying to pretend that she cares, but deep down she doesn''t. All that she cares about is to please others. My father, the company, the press. I know that the paparazzi pictured here here. All this is about media and how we are handling the family business. Lovely, right? Some Things Never Change I don''t want him or...him back. This is the best that I can do? But, right now, Hwa-young, this is not important. Let''s focus on things that really matter. Food. ''''Restaurant Daily Choices here! How can I help you today?'''' ''''Hey! I''d like to order beef soup with garlic, mashed potatoes with bacon, and a tuna salad. Oh, wait, and some mango smoothies, please'''' Knock, knock. Who the fuck ....?? I open the front door. My soon-to-be ex-husband is standing in front of me with puppy eyes. If he tries harder maybe he will start crying..who knows? ''''What do you want?'''' ''''We need to talk'''' ---------------------------------- ''''Do-you, is not a good moment, I have other things to do than fighting and arguing'''' ''''Your mother called me'''' ''''Hmmm...Ok...'''' ''''Hmmm...Ok, this is all you got to say?'''' My stomach is hurting and he is here giving me more headaches than before. ''''Ok, I will call her'''' ''''No, no, I don''t think she wants to talk with you'''' ''''Why? She disowned me? Funny, I think that happened years ago Do-yun, when you and I married! Of course, she doesn''t want me to call her. I''m pathetic in her eyes'''' ''''Hwa-young, she wants us to be together, all that she wants is for you to be happy'''' ''''Happy? She doesn''t give a fuck about me or you. Why she would bother to call you? YOU! She hates YOU, Do-yun. You come here with all this crap lying to me for what?? To get back together, to fix a broken marriage that was like crap for years? You don''t understand, don''t you? You think that bringing my mother into this matter will make me softer, will melt my heart? Will make me think that you deserve another chance? We are done and you are out of this house'''' I put my hands on him and push him to the front door. ''''Remember, I am Hwa-young and you are just Do-yun. Don''t try to manipulate me to avoid this divorce, I will do anything in my power to erase you from my life. Don''t make me take extreme decisions'''' ''''Now, what, you throw me out like a piece of garbage? That is what I was for you, huh? All these years don''t matter to you? I stayed by your side every day and every night. You know, you are right, your mother hates me and hated me from the beginning. Why? Because I was in love with you. I fighted for you Hwa-young. I put my skin in this game. My family disowned me too when they heard that I was going to marry their rival''s daughter. But, that didn''t matter to me! Do you know why? Because I was madly in love with you. I admit! I cheated on you and I treated you like shit all over the years. I''m just a broken man who didn''t see a healthy marriage in his family. I don''t know better. I admit! I''ve lied and hurt you, and I don''t deserve any mercy from you. Don''t you know that I know that already? At night I can''t sleep, thinking about how dumb I must be to lose a woman like you. I know that I''m not a good man, but this doesn''t mean that I don''t have good intentions with you. I beg you to forgive me..'''' The narrative has been taken without authorization; if you see it on Amazon, report the incident. ''''Stop..Just stop...Dae-Seong will contact you soon. I chose him to deal with our..'''' ''''Fucking Dae-Seong. What a comeback, huh? That piece of shit is between you and me?'''' ''''You exaggerate again, I asked him if he could'''' ''''And he couldn''t say no, right? Oh, so behind my back you planned all this all along? You want to get back with him don''t you? Throw me out like garbage just to make room for a piece of shit! Wow, Hwa-young, you move fast, the second I gave you a reason you throw yourself into his arms! Bravo! When is the wedding sweetie? Am I invited?'''' ''''Dae-Seong....aaa..'''' ''''WHAT?'''' ''''Babe, do you want to have breakfast with me? Delivery should be here in 5 minutes. What do you say, we didn''t eaten so much lately, didn''t we?'''' ........................................ Me and him. Who would think that we would sit at this table together eating soup, and talking about old memories? It seems like we are best friends who randomly find each other. But, there is nothing random in here. My mother will come here, today, I can feel it. I don''t want her to be happy about my failed marriage, telling me that she was right all along about Do-yun. I won''t let her win, and if I''m being honest after this meal I need to be fucked by him. He is kind of handsome this morning. After all, he is my ally in life and in.... Ring, Ring.. Just on time ''''I will open the door, and can you in the meantime put the dishes in the sink Do-yung'''' I let her sit for 2 minutes at the front door. I''m already enjoying the victory. What is she imagining? That, I''m on the floor, desperate that my husband cheated on me, begging for mercy from the public eye, waiting for her to save me?. She wants to see me suffering, but today Mother, is not the day. ''''Hello Mother! Long time no see!'''' The crooked smile is planted on her face. ''''Hmm...'''' ''''Make yourself feel at home'''' She enters and stops immediately. ''''Do-yun? What are you doing here?'''' ''''AAA...I''m doing the dishes'''' ''''And soon he will be doing me''''. I whisper in her ears. Her face is red. She is shocked, surprised, jealous? No, she is defeated. SHE IS WRONG. A-G-A-I-N. ''''I came here today thinking that you need some help with the house..and you know...having the divorce, it must be hard'''' ''''Mother, the only thing that is hard right now is Do-yung dic...'''' ''''Hwa-young.. baby! Sorry, she is not feeling ok in this morning. I didn''t ask you, do you want some coffee or tea?'''' My mother is ...lost..without words. She now has to stay defeated maybe for 1 hour here with Do-yun and me. Her enemies. ''''She will have some coffee, oh and put some extra sugar in it, ok babe?'''' ''''Of course, sweetie'''' ''''I haven''t seen you in so long ......Mother'''' ''''I was busy'''' ''''Oh, I know, you are always'''' ''''So, Do-yun, you are back together...already?'''' ''''Mother, aren''t you happy for us? Our marriage survived despite the challenges. We are stronger than ever. You told me that when I lost the baby, we would divorce, but look at us, thriving after an affair. We are much stronger now'''' ''''Aha... you..Do-yun'''' ''''Mother, can you excuse me for a second, I need to talk with Do-yun ....'''' I went up to Do-yun and pulled him into our room. I closed the door. ''''I need you to fuck me right here, right now.'''' '''' You are competing again with your mother? Please, let''s go back and spend some time with her, you haven''t seen her in so long'''' I started to kiss him and pulled his pants off. He is erect. Why he would lie to me? He wants to win too. ''''I don''t want to talk, I want to fuck'''' When he is around I don''t wear any underwear because I know that I want to be fucked by him all day long, so is easy for him to slide his dick in my wet pussy. I turn around and he pushes me against the door and makes me want him over and over again. ''''Faster, faster'''' ''''You are so wet baby, and your pussy fits perfectly on my dick'''' He turns me around and licks my nipples like crazy. He wants me to cum and I want this to never end, but the way he fucks me I can''t stop from having an orgasm. This is not about my mother anymore, this is about how madly in love I''m with ...fucking. I scream harder and harder. He knows that he is doing a good job. He always does. I finished and he too. I fucking love him. He smiles and me and kisses me hard. ''''Next time, same place?'''' He laughs. I open the door and my mother is nowhere to be found. I even forgot about her. She left. Finally. I don''t have to stay and have boring conversations with the one who didn''t want me from the beginning. I wonder if she will talk about this with dad, or with her mistress.