《Fortunately, I Met You》 Chapter 1: Dr. Cheng Any patient suffering from mental trauma is someone worth listening to. The primary goal of psychiatric care is not to provide patients with an unachievable state of happiness, but rather to help them build up their own patience and resolve to confront their own struggles. Professor, does that mean that you believe that mental illnesses cant be treated? No, quite the opposite in fact. Mental illnesses can be treated, as long as we provide these patients with sufficient patience and resolve. Then, professor, what if your patient ends up falling in love with you because of that? Cheng Xi raised her head and smiled at the student who had asked the question, a young, pretty girl who immediately hid behind her neighbor upon noticing Cheng Xis gaze. Cheng Xi was a psychiatrist and, at the same time, a lecturer at a medical university. Because of her age, wit, and looks, she was very popular among all the students, and her lectures every Thursday were almost always filled to maximum capacity. Of course, this meant that she also received all sorts of strange questions at the end of every lecture. This wasnt the first time she had been asked such a question, and so she was able to answer it handily. Smiling, she said, I think Id be very happy, because that would mean that the patients mind is under a wonderful misconception. Someone else followed up and asked, Professor, do you think that love is a misconception? Rather than that, Id call it more of a temporary illusion. Have you had such an illusion, professor? No, because Im already old. Boo---- The whole crowd of students playfully booed her comment. Pretending to be old is shameful! A bold student even jokingly asked, Professor, I dont mind that youre old, so can I date you? Cheng Xi smiled as she nimbly shot back, A date in the lab as my test subject? The student who had just asked her about dating quickly recanted with a serious expression on his face. Love between students and faculty isnt permitted. Professor, Ill do my best to work on my self-restraint. Everyone laughed, including Cheng Xi. How regretful. The classroom once again filled with laughter. The bell rang not too long later, signaling that it was time for the students to file out of class. While saying goodbye to her students, Cheng Xi packed up her books and teaching materials. But just as she was about to leave, she noticed a male student that was resting his head on his desk, sound asleep. She walked over to him, and quickly prodded him awake. The male student rubbed the sleep from his eyes and looked at her. Do you want some candy? asked Cheng Xi as she extended her hand, a colorfully wrapped sweet resting on her palm. Im sorry that my class made you feel so bored. The student looked at her in a daze, as if she were a monster. Cheng Xi smiled, left the sweet on his desk, and stepped out of the classroom. While walking, she received a call. Cheng Xi, where are you? The phone call was from Cheng Xis own professor, Madam Cai Yi. She was both Cheng Xis doctoral advisor and a national authority on psychiatry. After retiring, she felt restless about doing nothing, and subsequently opened up her own office and lab. I just finished teaching. Good. Come to my office. Cheng Xi left her things in her office and immediately headed over. Madam Cais office was right next to her home, and its surroundings were the definition of natural beauty. By her office was a lake, and by the lakeside was a flock of pigeons. The surroundings were filled with vibrant shrubs and blossoms, and, even more unusually, the water itself was clear and limpid. It was truly a relaxing place to be. The only problem was that it was a bit far from the school, and the evening rush hour only exacerbated the long drive. By the time Cheng Xi arrived, it was already late enough that the early winters dusk was only being held at bay by the surrounding lights. She pushed the door open and entered, bringing wisps of the winter cold in with her. Madam Cais hair was streaked with gray, and her gold-rimmed glasses giving her a classic scholarly air. She was sitting on the sofa in front of her desk, talking with the young man sitting beside her. Upon hearing Cheng Xi enter, both people looked over at Cheng Xi. Madam Cai smiled at her. Youre here already? Its cold outside, isnt it? Cheng Xi cheerily replied, Its fine, just a little windy. The two made small talk as Madam Cai motioned for Cheng Xi to sit by her side. She pointed at the young man and introduced the two, saying, This is the CEO of Donglai, Lu Chenzhou, or Director Lu. And to Lu Chenzhou, she said, This is the young, pretty, and creative Dr. Cheng that Ive been telling you so much about. Cheng Xi knew of Donglai, a large drug manufacturer; many of Madam Cais projects were supported by the company. She just hadnt expected their CEO to be so young. He was a relatively handsome man, and probably not even thirty yet. However, Cheng Xis first impression of Lu Chenzhou was not only that he was young and handsome, but also cold and aloof. When their gazes met, it was as if she were but a speck of dust in his eyes. Next Chapte Chapter 2: Mr. Lu Having seen all sorts of patients, Cheng Xiwas very tolerant towards people with slightly unusual behavior, and didnt mind his demeanor that much. Since her teacher had introduced her, she smiled and greeted, Nice to meet you. But Lu Chenzhou kept staring at her, his forehead slowly creasing. You only have one dimple? Cheng Xi, slightly baffled, automatically replied, Yes. How ugly! This unexpected evaluation left Cheng Xi speechless. Cai Yi also looked on blankly for a moment before laughing heartily. Your students would probably cry if they ever heard that someone evaluated a professor renowned for her beauty as ugly, haha. She laughed so happily that Cheng Xi felt a bit exasperated, and she said to Lu Chenzhou, Im sorry for disgusting you with my ugliness. Do you want me to cover up that side of my face? This sparked another bout of laughter from Cai Yi, but it was as if Lu Chenzhou couldnt sense the humor in her tone. He expressionlessly looked down at his watch. Lets go. Cai Yi wiped the tears of laughter off of her face. Your grandparents arent here yet. Theyre late. Do we need to wait for them? Lu Chenzhou responded indifferently, his voice detached. Cheng Xi had some more time to look at him now. Lu Chenzhou was indeed expressionless, his handsome face as apathetic as still water. She raised her eyebrows slightly upon seeing that Cai Yi was blinking rapidly at her. Lets go. Hm? To get food with us. Oh. Cheng Xi helped her teacher up, and then followed along somewhat confusedly. Lu Chenzhous grandparents never showed up, so it was only the three of them at the dining table. Lu Chenzhou was reticent, and it was mainly Cheng Xi and Cai Yi doing the talking during the meal. But just as the waiter served the last fruit platter, he did say something. Remove it. The waiter hesitated, and Cheng Xi and Cai Yi stopped talking. Lu Chenzhou pointed at the platter a little impatiently. What are you thinking, plating the fruit in such an ugly fashion? The waiter, Cai Yi, and Cheng Xi all looked at the platter. Quite honestly, the fruit platter was plated beautifully, with care and precision. The platter consisted of half a honeydew carved into the shape of a flower, which was then filled with a variety of vibrant fruits; it was a natural piece of art. But Cheng Xi quickly noticed that on that platter was a lopsided cherry tomato, the likely reason for Lu Chenzhous distaste. As expected, this person has a very serious form of OCD. Cai Yi did not seem to find his behavior unusual, and waved at the waiter with a smile. Take it away, will you? And, as if nothing had happened, she turned to Cheng Xi. Keep talking about that patient from just now. Cheng Xi continued explaining, Her family invited a spirit medium to purge all the ghosts from their house, claiming that she must have been possessed. During the ritual, the girl was badly scared, and in her panic, accidentally killed her grandmother. When I saw her during my daily rotations, her condition had already reached a very severe state; she firmly believed that someone had cut her head off, and that she was a headless corpse. Lu Chenzhou looked at Cheng Xi after she finished talking. It was perhaps the first time he had directly looked at her after having commented on her lone dimple. Cheng Xi was talking about one of the patients currently in her care, one with a serious case of Cotards syndrome, colloquially known as the walking corpse syndrome. Cai Yi responded, This is truly a classic case of Cotards syndrome. Its a very rare illness in this country. How do you plan on tackling it? But before Cheng Xi could respond, Cai Yis phone rang. Cheng Xi heard her say a few words into the phone, before saying to the group, Something urgent came up at the office, I have to go. Cai Yi stood up. Let me walk you outside. As a doctor, there were always sudden, unexpected situations, especially in the psychiatry departmentwhen patients illnesses flared up, most people wouldnt be able to handle them. Cheng Xi wasnt bothered by Cai Yis sudden departure, only thinking about how she might be able to help out. But Cai Yi stopped her. Its fine, my assistant is coming to fetch me, and there are enough people on the scene already. You should stay here and enjoy a nice meal with Director Lu. She then looked over at Lu Chenzhou. Youll help me take care of Cheng Xi, wont you? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 3: Oh, it鈥檚 a Date? Lu Chenzhou, indifferent as usual, replied, Thats fine. Cai Yi smiled and patted Cheng Xis hand. Before long, Cai Yis assistant had arrived, and Cheng Xi was walking Cai Yi to the door. By the time she returned, Lu Chenzhou had already put down his chopsticks. Are you full? Lu Chenzhou nodded. Cheng Xi retrieved her jacket that was draped on a nearby chair. Then, lets go as well. She kept thinking about what Cai Yi had mentioned. In general, patients that could alarm even her teacher were quite remarkable, and she very much wanted to observe her teacher in action. However, Lu Chenzhou didnt move. His distant gaze, as if covered in a thin layer of frost, landed on her face. It seems that youre really quite unaware, he sneered. Did you think that your teacher really had an emergency? Or why my grandparents said that they would come, but never showed up? What do you mean? Their actions were all premeditated. Premeditated? Lu Chenzhou looked at her and couldnt help but ask, How on earth did you become a psychiatrist? This is a blind date in disguise. Could you really not tell? Cheng Xi was at a loss for words. She coughed violently to break the awkwardness. Hem hem, I didnt know. She had thought that the reason behind her teacher introducing Lu Chenzhou to her was for something important, like helping her raise funds for a grant she was writing. Lu Chenzhous face remained expressionless, and Cheng Xi felt a bit embarrassed. Sorry, I really didnt notice Professor Cais plan. Cai Yi had been single her entire life, so Cheng Xi had never imagined that she would try to be a matchmaker for her. Lu Chenzhou snorted lightly. Its fine. His knuckles rapped on the table as he continued, You still havent mentioned how you planned to deal with that patient of yours. It seemed like he had really taken an interest in the subject. Cheng Xi thought for a bit, sat down again, and started outlining her rough plan. Patients suffering from Cotards syndrome generally find social interaction difficult, but can often be savants in their personal areas of interest. Id like to have her start doing personally interesting activities. That way, she can immerse herself in her fantasies and I can slowly help her accept reality using her fantasies as a medium. Id have imagined that you would start by restraining her or locking her up. Unless its absolutely necessary, I dont support severely restricting patients in general. How confident are you of curing her? Doctors can only be fully confident in patients who firmly aim to get better. Lu Chenzhou remained silent for a while, before finally asking her, Would you sleep with one of your patients? Hmm? Cheng Xi didnt understand. Lu Chenzhous tone was as tepid as if he were discussing the weather. What if you accidentally got into bed with your patients? Cheng Xi laughed. Thats impossible. But what if it happened? Lu Chenzhou was unexpectedly insistent on this point, and looked at her intently. Would you continue treating him? Cheng Xi was unable to follow his logic, and was still confused at how the subject had suddenly changed from a patient suffering from Cotards syndrome to a patient getting into bed with their doctor. But she could see what kind of answer Lu Chenzhou wanted, so she responded, No. Lu Chenzhou laughed lightly. This was the first time Cheng Xi had ever seen him laugh. His lips curved slightly up and his eyes were without any sense of warmth, but his mien had an unexpectedly handsome coolness. After that, Cheng Xi ate dinner patiently. Lu Chenzhous behavior seemed similar to that of a robot with a pre-programmed routine: he wouldnt do anything else before finishing a given task. For example, with regards to this blind date that seemed unfathomable to Cheng Xi, Lu Chenzhou instead seemed determined to check all the boxes. Once the duo left the restaurant, Lu Chenzhou said, Next in the schedule is watching a movie, taking a walk, or drinking at a bar. Which do you want to do? His businesslike tone left Cheng Xis lips twitching. ...can I skip all of those activities? Then lets go drinking. His matter-of-fact tone had already made the decision for her. Snapping his fingers, Lu Chenzhou signalled an approaching taxi to stop. He pulled the door open, waiting for Cheng Xi to get in. This series of actions was really quite smooth, Cheng Xi noted silently. She hesitated for only a few seconds before getting into the car. Reflecting upon it later, Cheng Xi dismissed her actions as the occupational habit of a doctor: Lu Chenzhous actions dripped with oddities, and such oddities boasted a near-instinctual attraction for psychiatrists. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 4: My Partner Despite saying that they were going to a bar to drink, Lu Chenzhou instead brought Cheng Xi to Phoenix Stage, a famous local nightclub. He was on his phone inviting people all throughout the drive, so by the time they arrived, the private room was already filled to the brim. Upon seeing their arrival, those people all stood up and greeted Lu Chenzhou. Some called him Director Lu, some as Chief, and some, like Cai Yi, simply as Zhou. But without exception, everyone noticed Cheng Xi, who was standing behind Lu Chenzhou. Someone who seemed to be on very good terms with Lu Chenzhou even directly asked, Whos this young lass? My partner. The room fell quiet, and Cheng Xi almost tripped over her own feet. She stumbled, only regaining her balance after grabbing Lu Chenzhous sleeves. Her fingers even accidentally brushed over his hand, and the warmth of his skin caused her heart to skip a beat. As she lifted her head, she saw that everyones gaze was focused on her hand, which was still holding on to Lu Chenzhous sleeve. Her fingers were fair and delicate, but who knew whether the germophobic Mr. Lu would suddenly become infuriated and cut her hand off. Somewhat discomfited by all the attention, Cheng Xi silently withdrew her hand, patted Lu Chenzhous sleeves down, and pretended that nothing had happened. Mr. Lus just joking. My names Cheng Xi, and Im a doctor. Lu Chenzhou didnt refute her, merely looking at her once before taking his jacket off. The room was a little warm. Meanwhile, Cheng Xi tried to convince herself that Lu Chenzhous behavior wasnt because he resented her for wrinkling his sleeve. But the truth was that he did, because he immediately threw the jacket at her. Return it to me after youve washed it. Cheng Xi was left speechless once again. Was this a form of selective germophobia? Where he can have lunch outside, but not bear someone elses touch? Lu Chenzhou turned and walked away as Cheng Xi was busy diagnosing Lu Chenzhou in her mind. The man who had just asked her who she was smiled at her. Hi, Doctor, Im Xu Po, one of Zhous friends. Cheng Xi nodded at him. Nice to meet you. Sit here. The man called Xu Po led Cheng Xi over to a seat, directly next to Lu Chenzhou. Cheng Xi made sure to stay as far away from him as possible this time. The atmosphere in the private room quickly grew rowdy again, the young men and women clumping together as they sang karaoke. Next to Cheng Xi, Xu Po asked Lu Chenzhou, Zhou, what do you want to play tonight? Lu Chenzhou lounged on the sofa as he looked at the singing people with a supercilious look on his face. He pointed at Cheng Xi and said, Whatever, as long as you take care of her. Xu Po smiled. Are you trying to let your partner see what your worlds like? Lu Chenzhou reiterated, Anythings fine. Xu Po, still smiling, turned to look at Cheng Xi. What do you want to play, Doctor? Cheng Xi actually didnt want to play anything. She didnt enjoy partying, and almost never thought of drinking, going to bars, or singing karaoke. But since she was already here, when Xu Po asked her, she also replied, Anythings fine. Her answer was really quite careless, and was something she would regret countless times in the future. But she had no choice: that was the unfortunate answer she had given. And so Xu Po called a bunch of people over to play a simple game of guessing dice with her. To Cheng Xi, this wasnt anything challenging, but the key point was that she hadnt played before. This meant that before she could fully grasp the trick behind the game, she had lost, and was subsequently forced to drink some alcohol. The alcohol consisted of a vibrant liquid in a beautiful glass cup, on top of which faint flames were dancing. Before this, Cheng Xi had never drunk any liquor but beer, being both a studious and obedient girl. She didnt know how strong this alcoholic drink was, and she didnt think much of it upon seeing its beautiful appearance, and so she downed it in one gulp. Then, she collapsed. An almost instantaneous collapse, right as she finished the alcohol. The last thing she remembered was the man called Xu Po exclaiming beside her, Damn, is her tolerance that low? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 5: One-night Stand When she awoke, Cheng Xi found herself lying in a strange place, with a strange man sleeping by her side. The mans back was facing her. From her angle, all she could see was his smoothly cut short hair and his slender back. Yes, the man was nakedat least, his upper body was. Cheng Xi looked down at herself. Very good, she was almost naked too. A thin undershirt on her upper body, and underwear covering her lower body. She could see the rest of her clothes flung recklessly about the room. The jeans she had worn yesterday were lying haphazardly on the tatami mat by the window, as if publicizing the roughness, or rather, the raw desire of the person who had taken them off. The curtains werent completely shut; a ray of light was shining through a small crack. She sat up, rubbing her swollen forehead. The man woke up almost as she moved. As he turned around, he revealed a youthful face, quite handsome, with robust facial features, a piercing gaze, and a cool, indifferent mien. It wasnt quite appropriate to call him a stranger. At the very least, they had met yesterday. To sleep together right after meeting Cheng Xi rubbed her forehead. Youre awake? Lu Chenzhous expression remained as insouciant as ever, his gaze roaming over her body that was currently covered by a blanket. You climbed into my bed yourself last night. Cheng Xis lips twitched as she replied, I climbed into your bed? Mm. The man did not seem able to bear her asymmetrically dimpled face. After resting his head on his hands and making that one sound, he offered no further explanation. She looked at him, somewhat expressionlessly, but her inner self was close to falling apart after all, she couldnt remember last night, and had absolutely no impression of climbing into his bed like he said! Of course, this wasnt strictly trueat the very least, she remembered that her curiosity had caused her to follow Lu Chenzhou into Phoenix Stage, play a game with the crowd there, and then be forced to drink a colorful glass of alcohol as a penalty. And after that? No clue. But even while knowing nothing, she strongly suspected the veracity of Lu Chenzhous words. Now, however, wasnt the time to probe for the truth; as they were half-naked and lying in bed, anything they said would feel somewhat strange. She averted her gaze, bent over to pick up her coat lying beneath the bed, covered herself up with a blanket, quickly put the coat on, and then got out of bed. Wrapping her coat tightly about herself, Cheng Xi industriously pretended that nothing unusual had happened. She picked up the rest of her clothes and entered the bathroom. During this whole ordeal, Lu Chenzhou had just lain in bed quietly, eyes closed. Only when she was about to enter the bathroom did the man behind her speak. Do you want to go again after youve cleaned yourself? His tone wasnt inviting, and was still that same casual tone that one would use to discuss the weather. Ive got great technique. Perhaps you didnt feel it last night, as drunk as you were. Cheng Xi almost tripped over her feet again, and her response was a quick Bang! from slamming the bathroom door shut. When Cheng Xi got out, Lu Chenzhou had shifted to a different pose. He was now lying on his side and facing the bathroom directly. Already dressed? he asked indifferently. Arent you going to consider my earlier proposition? This was perhaps the strangest invitation that Cheng Xi had ever heard, because his tone was so indifferent that it made her want to smack him. After a moments pause, Cheng Xi turned sharply on her heels, walked to the side of the bed, and leaned over slightly to look at him. He impassively looked back at her, his gaze dark like the ocean waves in the eye of the storm, deep and profound, cool and resolute. Lu Chenzhous appearance was really quite compelling; at the very least, Cheng Xi had never seen anyone who looked better than he did. Of course, perhaps it was his aloof nature that made Cheng Xi feel that way. She extended her hand, her fingertip lightly touching his lips. Are you serious? The alcohol had left her voice with a note of hoarseness, unexpectedly adding a dash of sexuality. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 6: It鈥檚 Your Trea Lu Chenzhous face remained expressionless, but Cheng Xi saw goosebumps rapidly climb up his neck. Cheng Xi laughed. In the bathroom, she had seen the many bruises on her body, including an especially large one on her thigh. For a couple minutes, she had really thought that she had experienced a wild night with Lu Chenzhou. But seeing his reaction now, she could silently breathe a sigh of relief. Given his germophobic nature that wouldnt allow anyone to even touch him, how could he let a stranger like her climb into his bed? She didnt want to expose him. Although she didnt know what his intentions were, it was clear that he didnt want to have a regular doctor-patient relationship with her and needed such a veneer to cover up their relationship. Cheng Xi would reluctantly accommodate his whims, as long as she didnt suffer any losses from doing so. But some retaliation was surely necessary. Just as Lu Chenzhou was reaching the limits of his endurance, Cheng Xi let him off the hook. She turned around to pick up her handbag from the floor, took out her wallet, and asked, without raising her head, How much money do I owe you? What? Cheng Xi turned around and laughed. With her one-sided dimple half-showing, her visage was unexpectedly beautiful. Thanks for your patronage last night. What I mean is, including the taxi fee and lodgings, how much do I owe you? Lu Chenzhou finally understood. Youre treating me like a prostitute? I didnt say that. Of course, whatever he thought was up to him. Cheng Xi took out all the cash from her wallet that she had just withdrawn yesterday and left it on the table, 2,000 yuan in total. If this isnt enough, you can call me. She lowered her head, wrote her phone number down on the message pad on the table, and summarily turned around to leave. Hey! the man called after her. He kicked off the blankets, revealing a fair and slender chest, coupled with faintly showing abs. Cheng Xi stopped, her gaze landing by the bedsheets next to his feet. Dont you think that this is rather cold of you? he spoke in a robotic tone. Even as he looked at her, it was as if he were reciting lines from a script. At the very least, we were a couple for a single night. Cheng Xi almost wanted to laugh, as a way of letting him know that he shouldnt try to pick up girls if he didnt have the skill for it, as doing so made his actions seemed ludicrous. Sighing, she said, Mr. Lu, perhaps youve forgotten that Im a doctor. He paused. What do you mean? Meaning, I can examine my body to understand what Ive experienced. This was nonsense; if she were to base her judgment solely on how her body felt and the state of her bruises, she was hardly able to make such an analysis. However, she didnt want to reveal that her judgment was solely based on her psychiatrists instinct. Lu Chenzhou, however, didnt seem to have thought of this, and was now glaring at her somewhat unrepentantly. Cheng Xi was worried that he would rashly grab her and actually force her into bed with him, but luckily he made no further abnormal movements. After leaving the room, Cheng Xi let out a deep breath that she had been holding onto for a while. She walked calmly out of the hotel, and after she exited, she found an isolated corner where she could bang her head against the wall in private. Why on earth was her alcohol tolerance so poor?! And what in the world was that fellow trying to do, pretending that they had had a one-night stand after she got drunk? She couldnt accept such a clichd plotline that sounded like it came straight out of some vulgar novel! After spending a significant amount of time shoring up her mental state, she finally calmed down enough to take her phone out of her handbag. She had a few missed calls, some from her parents, some from her elder brother, and some from her teacher, Cai Yi. Cheng Xi called each of them in turn to assure her family members that she was alright before finally calling Cai Yi, who asked, Didnt you go home last night? No, something came up, so I didnt go back home. Were you looking for me for some reason last night, Professor? Its nothing. Its just that your parents called me after they couldnt reach you. Right, what did you think of Lu Chenzhou? Was she actually trying to play matchmaker? Cheng Xi couldnt believe that Cai Yi would have time for such an inane thing. Emotional detachmentthat Mr. Lu has a physiological inability to feel emotions, right? Yes, an accurate diagnosis. Cai Yi smiled with praise. Cheng Xi was momentarily stunned. Hes really suffering from that? She had made that diagnosis up. Recently, she had looked at some medical case studies of patients who had an inability to feel emotions; during her interactions with Lu Chenzhou, she had noticed that he seemed to exhibit some of those symptoms and had proposed it on a whim as an outlandish hypothesis. Yes, really. But his situation is a bit special. With regards to how, youll just have to find out after you interact more with him. I wont tell you now so as not to impair your professional judgment. Cheng Xi remained silent, and her teacher continued, His entire family didnt realize that this was an illness until now, mainly because Lu Chenzhou still doesnt have a partner even though hes already thirty. His grandparents found me, and hoped that I could find a solution to their problems. Cheng Xi, Donglai is a major partner and sponsor of my laboratory, and Lu Chenzhou is like a dear child to me. Since were so familiar with each other, Im unable to have a proper doctor-patient relationship with him. Thus, Im hoping that you can help me in this regard. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 7: Would You Get in Bed with Your Patient? Since it was November, the weather was very cold. Even though Cheng Xi had a thick layer of clothing on, she was still sneezing fiercely. Even though she was clutching her arms and shivering, goosebumps were all over her body as she called a taxi and got into it. The driver noticed her plight from his rearview mirror and asked if he should turn the heater on for her. Cheng Xi nodded. Thank you. She couldnt help but glance back. The words Donglai Grand Hotel shone clearly in the morning light. She finally recognized where she wasin Nanan, far from Phoenix Stage, the nightclub where she had been partying last night, and farther still from her home. She rarely ever came to this area, so despite being a local, she found the surroundings unfamiliar. Please make the next left turn and go to Phoenix Stage. After finally seeing a familiar landmark, Cheng Xi gave some instructions to the taxi driver. At this time? Yes. The driver looked at her with a funny expression, then smiled and asked, Do you work there? Cheng Xi, stone-faced, replied, No. The driver chuckled, decided not to say anything else, and turned left ahead. Cheng Xi took out her phone and googled Donglai. Only one piece of news mentioned Lu Chenzhou, and even that was a year old. All it said was that Donglai was to be passed down from father to son, with Lu Chenzhou taking over and becoming its new CEO. The rest of the many news articles dealt almost exclusively with Donglais corporate expansion plan. Cheng Xi didnt read these articles, as she was not interested in such matters. It was indeed quite early. They reached Phoenix Stage right around 9 AM, but the doors were already open, and a worker was cleaning the floors. Cheng Xi walked in and found the manager. I left my handbag here last night. Could you let me check the security cameras? The manager was on guard towards her request and perfunctorily replied, Which room were you in? I apologize, but under normal circumstances, were not allowed to let customers look through the security footage. Cheng Xi reported the room number. Im not interested in anything else except for the footage near the exit. My handbag has some very important information that I need to reclaim, so could you please help me out? The manager thought for a while before replying, Would it be fine if you stated the approximate time at which you lost your bag? That way, we can review the security footage for you. No matter what Cheng Xi said, the manager seemed reluctant to agree, and he was even starting to suspect her true motives. Exasperated and helpless, she suddenly thought of name-dropping Lu Chenzhou. Do I need to have Mr. Lu talk to you, then? Mr. Lu? Yes, Lu Chenzhou. My missing handbag has his documents inside. The manager looked at her suspiciously before finally giving in. Please wait here. He turned and went into the office, most likely to talk to his boss. After a while, he returned and brought Cheng Xi in to look at the security footage. The footage had no audio. At 11:18 PM, she saw Lu Chenzhous driver lift her out of the private room. Lu Chenzhou walked by his drivers side, and the three of them left directly by car. Throughout the whole process, no other people entered or exited the room. 11:18 PM---it shouldnt have been more than half an hour since Cheng Xi had first entered the room. Additionally, the time she had been drunk was far shorter. Within that period of time, then, nothing much could have happened. So, Cheng Xi was quite certain that, last night, not long after she had gotten drunk, Lu Chenzhou had brought her away to Donglai Hotel. As for his motives.... she suddenly remembered a question that Lu Chenzhou had asked her. Would you get in bed with your patients? Then, she had replied no. As she remembered this, Cheng Xi laughed softly. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 8: Reunion After leaving Phoenix Stage, Cheng Xi returned home, took a bath, and changed her clothes. After refreshing herself, she arrived at the hospital at 11 AM sharp. She had a lunch meeting, and then, for the rest of the afternoon, was on duty at the psychiatry division. Cai Yi had sent her a few documents related to Lu Chenzhou. Cheng Xi flipped through them briefly and found that the recorded information was quite straightforward: the Lu household was a family of merchants and businessmen, rich and affluent. Their family tree was simple: Lu Chenzhous father was an only son, and Lu Chenzhous mother had died in his youth due to an accident. Thus, the Lu household, beyond Lu Chenzhou himself and his grandparents, consisted solely of his father and his younger brother Lu Chenming. Lu Chenzhous life was no different from that of an ordinary nouveau riche, whether in terms of his birth, education, and grades, nothing was particularly prominent, good or bad. He had left the country at eighteen before returning to Donglai at twenty-four to take charge of a project to build the countrys first aquatic sci-fi themed hotel, the Donglai Hotel. And finally, he formally took over at Donglai at thirty years old. The Lu family did not have a history of mental illness, and the reason for and when Lu Chenzhou had been stricken by illness were both unclear. According to his family, Lu Chenzhou had been introverted from youth, but had displayed no unusual symptoms beyond being somewhat indifferent to others. Even when Cai Yi had met him for the first time, she didnt think that he was suffering from emotional detachment, only that his disposition was unusually calm. Cheng Xi could empathize with her teachers misdiagnosis. Many people in the modern world suffered from emotional detachment, only to varying degrees. From Lu Chenzhous behavior, Cheng Xi guessed that he already knew that he was suffering from such an illness, and that it was also the real reason why Cai Yi had introduced her to him. Had he been pretending to treat their introduction as a blind date and then brought her to Phoenix Stage to embarrass her and force her retreat voluntarily? Mm, he was a surprisingly logical patient, but his methods were overly simple and rough. Given his upbringing and decisiveness as a businessman, such a series of actions didnt seem to suit his personality or habits. So, there must have been another reason why he would deliberately stage a one-night stand besides not wanting treatment from her. Cheng Xi was unable to even guess at what Lu Chenzhous other goals might be. She knew far too little about him, even after she had carefully perused the patient file that Cai Yi had sent her again. She decided to let it be for now, disregarding the issue of whether Lu Chenzhous actions were premeditated or a result of his illness. She had no way of knowing that her next meeting with him would come so quickly. On Saturday, Cheng Xis high school classmate Shen Wei got married. Cheng Xi had studied medicine all the way up from the postgraduate level. Most of her classmates had long since gotten married and had children, and even delaying marriage till Shen Weis age was already considered late. As for Cheng Xi herself... according to a classmate of hers, she was destined to be a model example of someone who married late and had children even later. This was because she had never expressed any interest in falling in love or finding a man. Shen Weis wedding was at the citys most luxurious double five-star hotel, Yunding Hotel. By the time Cheng Xi arrived, the wedding was just about to begin, with Shen Wei and her bridegroom standing at the door to welcome guests. Cheng Xi smiled and walked forward, hugging her. Congratulations on your marriage, and may it last for a hundred years. Thank you. Shen Wei smiled, gaze sweeping over her face as she tersely commented, Youre late. A few things delayed me, but Im not too late, right? Cheng Xi said that as she turned toward the bridegroom. Congratulations. Shen Weis bridegrooms surname was Fu, reportedly also the son of some companys CEO, and naturally a member of an affluent household. But Shen Wei herself was also outstanding, with a good pedigree, good looks, and good personal ability; the two were well-matched in all respects. The bridegroom, Fu Mingyi, was very polite. He smiled and thanked her. Thank you for keeping Weiwei company. Its really helped abate her recent anxiety. Shen Wei had a slight phobia against marriage, and Cheng Xi and a few other classmates had kept her company during a few rough times. Cheng Xi smiled, but Shen Wei clearly didnt like his mentioning this matter, and she poutingly complained, Why would I worry? Should I be afraid that you wont treat me well? Hearing this, the bridegroom responded somewhat begrudgingly, Who else would I treat well except for you? Shen Wei poked him bashfully as her face radiated happiness, and then grabbed Cheng Xis hand. Lets go. Sign in at the guestbook, and then go upstairs. Rou and the others are all waiting for you. Rous full name was Tian Rou. She was another one of Cheng Xis high school classmates, and she was the one whod said that Cheng Xi would be a model example of marrying late and having children even later. Cheng Xi signed in and went upstairs, expecting to receive a warm hug from Rou. But when she found her classmates table, no one, Tian Rou included, paid any attention to her. Even Cheng Xi herself, when she saw the man sitting at the other end of the table, was slightly taken aback. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 9: The Peerless Duo A male classmate noticed her first, and subsequently waved at her. Ah, Cheng Xis here. He motioned toward a seat by his side. Sit here with us. We left a seat open just for you. The others at the table turned around, looking at her. Normally, they acted like lascivious wolves, but on this occasion, they were reserved and smiling. Youre here, Cheng Xi? Rou hissed at her, Come join us instead. Thats a den of wolves, dont go there. She hollered to the people at her table and finally cleared out a seat next to her for Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi had just sat down when she heard a mellow, gentle voice call out, Long time no see, Cheng Xi. Cheng Xis heart thumped. She sucked in a slight breath, and looked directly at him. Long time no see. Do you still remember me? Of course. Lin Fan makes it sound as if Cheng Xis memory is quite poor, despite her being one of the top students in our class. She scored full marks on history and geography just by studying casually! Lin Fans a top student himself. Remember when they were hailed as the peerless duo? Cheng Xi was struck speechless upon hearing these comments. Was there anyone in our class who wasnt good at studying? Not half as good as you! Everyone began reminiscing about old times. Cheng Xi didnt join in, and instead pulled at Rous hand to get her attention. Why are you all acting like this today? She was quite unsettled by how well-behaved everyone was acting. Tian Rou looked at Cheng Xi, her face clearly indicating that shed remain single for the rest of her life if she remained this clueless. My male idol is here; how long has it been since I last saw him? I have to leave him with a good expression. Soon, Cheng Xi received a text. She looked at her phone and found that it was from Rou, who was... sitting next to her. This is something that only happens in dramas, right? Having a reunion with my crush after a long period of separation, followed by us discovering a blazing passion for each other, and ultimately reconciling, right? Cheng Xi ducked her head. Tian Rou covered her face with a teacup, smiling at her devilishly. Cheng Xi coughed lightly when she heard someone ask, Lin Fan, were you abroad all these years? Yes. All this time? Were you studying over there? No, I studied for a few years and then worked for a few years after that. Oh, work, huh? What business? Given your capabilities, definitely a Fortune 500 company. Lin Fan, smiling, replied, Unfortunately not. But before I returned, I quit my job. Quityoure not planning on returning? No. My moms health is deteriorating, and I need to stay here to take good care of her. Upon hearing this exchange, Cheng Xi smiled. At this point, Lin Fan suddenly looked toward her, asking, I heard that youre now Dr. Cheng? Cheng Xi nodded. Wonderful, you really did manage to fulfill your dreams. Cheng Xis eyelashes trembled as she recalled the past. He had once asked her, Cheng Xi, what are your dreams? To become a doctor. Why? Because of my grandma. Cheng Xis parents operated a diner and worked late hours, so Cheng Xi and her elder brother had been brought up by their grandmother. Cheng Xis grandmother was a classic housewife: kind, gentle, and maidenly. However, she had led an unlucky life by marrying a man as cantankerous and bad-tempered as her grandfather. While she was in middle school, her grandmother had gone mad from the oppressive, long-term mental strain. From then on, Cheng Xis dreams were to become a doctor, and, in particular, a psychiatrist. Lin Fan was very envious of her clear answer. His high school life had been very difficult, their third year in particular. During that period of time, he would constantly ask her, Whats the purpose of studying so hard? What can we do even if we get into a good university? He used to be clad in gloom and despair. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 10: Male Idol Now, he probably wouldnt ask the same type of question. Cheng Xi didnt know how to answer his question either; luckily, there were other classmates around ready to interject themselves into the conversation. Right, Lin Fan, if your mothers not doing too well, you should talk to Cheng Xi! She works at Renyi Hospital, and helping you expedite her treatment shouldnt be too inconvenient for her. Renyi was one of the best hospitals in the south, and it was famed for how difficult it was to have an appointment there. Lin Fan asked, Would you be willing to do that? Given her classmates reassurances, Cheng Xi could only reply, Ah, its not a problem, but I work in the psychiatry department and dont really know any other people from the other departments. So, Im not sure how much help I can be. Her classmates, again reiterated, It cant be worse than we outsiders trying to help, right? Cheng Xi remained silent. The topic quickly fizzled out, because the wedding had begun in earnest. The marriage officiant stood on stage, dressed entirely in white. As the wedding march started to play, Shen Weis father slowly walked her down the aisle. Everyone took out their phones to take pictures, even Cheng Xi. When she later looked over the photos she had taken, she couldnt help but notice that Lin Fan was in all of them. At that point, he had been looking at the stage, so only half his face appeared in the photos. Her photography skills were terrible, but in one photo she had managed to capture his aesthetic. His face was particularly clear, slender and neat, with an arched nose and a head tilted slightly upwards; his aura was not one of breathtaking beauty, but rather of his own refined charm. She had always thought that Lin Fan had a scholarly air about him, just like Dai Wangshus poem, Rain in the Alley: in the drizzling rain, from afar he came, drenched in melancholic motes. Tian Rou turned around, having shot enough pictures, and Cheng Xi quickly turned her phone off. Tian Rou held up hers and smiled at Cheng Xi. Look, I secretly took so many photos of my male idol. Handsome, isnt he? Cheng Xi smiled. Quite handsome indeed. A nearby female classmate overheard their conversation and also turned around. Where, where? The two females gathered together to look at their crushes, chatting the whole time, right until the bride was about to toss her bouquet into the air. Before Shen Wei threw her bouquet, she called her single classmates to the front, her crisp and melodious voice emitting from a microphone, Good luck, sisters. Snatch my bouquet and quickly get married yourselves; itll be hard to find bridesmaids if you keep holding out. Everyone laughed, including Cheng Xi. Shen Wei stood on her tiptoes and suddenly threw her bouquet into the air. The girls squeezed together to try to catch the bouquet, pushing Cheng Xi aside. In the mayhem, she stepped on something, her body off balance. Be careful. A pair of steady, strong arms caught her. Cheng Xi turned around, and saw that Lin Fan was standing only a few steps behind her, the backs of his hands supporting her back. She suddenly recalled the fitness checkups from her school days. Her health hadnt been so good then, and she would get dizzy whenever she had to have her blood drawn, so he had always stood at her back. Whenever she turned around, she would see him. Till now, Cheng Xi still kept the note he had given her in her bookshelf. Dont be afraid. Ill always be with you. But, in truth, he wasnt. After graduating, he had gone abroad without even leaving her a single message. Cheng Xi took a few steps back, and was about to thank him when a girl caught the brides bouquet. None of her single classmates had been able to snatch it, and funnily enough, the bouquet had landed in the lap of a girl who hadnt wanted to catch it at all. Everyone sat back down. Tian Rou sighed dejectedly and said, It looks like we wont be able to get married. What should we do? She leaned against Cheng Xis shoulders, pretending to cry, but her gaze was always directed at Lin Fan. My male idol, do you have a girlfriend yet? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 11: Your Condoms Cheng Xi couldnt help but be impressed by how persistent Tian Rou was in her efforts to snatch him up. However, she too pricked her ears up at her question. And then she heard Lin Fan reply, No. Tian Rou rubbed her palms together as she exclaimed, Oh, wonderful. Her antics made the others laugh. Are you actually that happy to find out that Lin Fans single? Tian Rou half-seriously replied, Of course! This is my chance to get together with my male idol, no? Her statements made Lin Fans face go , but he was no longer the youth of before, who would blush bright red whenever someone flirted with him. Instead, he smiled politely and said, Rou, you really havent changed at all. Youre still so amusing. Tian Rou was elated at his praise. She grabbed Cheng Xis hands from under the table and shook them wildly, her emotions clearly visible. Because it was someone elses wedding, everyones behavior was more or less restrained. And after dinner, there was another class reunion. For this one, Shen Wei had booked several rooms in the hotel, and they also had access to a spa with a mineral spring and a game room. With these accommodations, everyone would definitely have a good time and relax. Tian Rou and the others whooped as they heard the news, and then headed back to their rooms. Cheng Xi was near the tail end of the crowd, having hung back to help Shen Wei with a small problem. As she turned the corner, however, she found Lin Fan waiting for her. Startled, she asked, Why havent you gone up yet? I had a call, and then waited for you. Cheng Xi smiled. Thanks. Well then, lets go. The two walked towards the elevators together. While waiting for it to arrive, Lin Fan asked, Have you been well all these years? Yes. And you? Lifes been a little hard. Cheng Xi looked at him strangely. Its trueduring my toughest period, I couldnt call anyone even if I wanted to. Cheng Xis head drooped as she looked at the ground. She understood that he was trying to explain that long period when hed fallen out of contact with her. Lin Fan stopped walking, and then suddenly called out to her. Cheng Xi She stopped. However, at almost the exact same time, another voice called out to her as well. Hey! Lin Fan stopped talking, and along with Cheng Xi, turned toward the voice. They saw a young man walking toward them from the shadows. When the light illuminated his face, Cheng Xi couldnt help but gasp for a moment. He walked closer, step by step, his gait somehow reminding Cheng Xi of a prowling beast that was unhurried and confident in its abilities. He said, You left something behind at the hotel. After saying this, he handed her a wad of money and a pack of condoms. You bought the condoms, so you should be the one to take them away. As he spoke, his expression remained calm, his tone placid, and his actions coldbut it was because of this demeanor of his that Cheng Xi almost believed that the condoms and money he was handing her was indeed hers. And the implication of him handing her condoms made even Cheng Xi, a doctor, feel lightheaded from the blood rushing to her head. But at the very least, she could still throw up a superficially calm mienalthough she was afraid of looking at Lin Fan, she didnt want to indulge Lu Chenzhou in his unusual malice either. She silently took the proffered items. Is anything else the matter? Lu Chenzhou didnt seem to expect that response from her. His gaze shifted to Lin Fan for a brief moment before he calmly said, You forgot to wash my clothes. Having said that, he turned around and left. For quite a while after Lu Chenzhous departure, the atmosphere between Lin Fan and Cheng Xi was awkward and tense. It was only until they entered the elevators that Lin Fan forced a smile onto his face and asked, Was that your boyfriend just now? No. Upon hearing her answer, Lin Fans eyes shone and then dimmed again quickly, because Cheng Xi had no intention of explaining herself. If he had asked, Cheng Xi certainly would have told him. However, during the time they spent catching up to the larger crowd of people, Lin Fan did not ask. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 12: He鈥檚 My Idol Too Cheng Xi and Lin Fans late entrance attracted considerable attention. Tian Rou came up to her from behind, smirking. What were the two of you doing all the way back there? Cheng Xi calmly replied, He said that he had to take a call. As for me, Shen Weis husband drank too much, and she wanted to ask me if I had any kidney medicine. Youre familiar with that stuff too? Not really. Tian Rou looked at her, and then at Lin Fan. She suddenly asked, Cheng Xi, do you like Lin Fan as well? Cheng Xi was somewhat startled by the abrupt question, as she didnt quite understand how the topic had suddenly jumped there. However, she still answered truthfully. Yes, he used to be my idol in the past too. Tian Rou, her face shell-shocked, exclaimed, Oh no! How am I possibly going to defeat you? Cheng Xi only laughed in response. Tian Rou deflated for some time, only recovering when Shen Wei called them over to go to the spa together. I thought that I was the female lead, but it turns out that Im just a supporting character! If you think about it carefully, you two are the true ideal couple: male and female protagonists blessed by Heaven. After saying that, she grasped Cheng Xis hands, and with seemingly painstaking care, said, Ill leave Lin Fan to you. If he chooses you, please treat my male idol with care. Cheng Xi was speechless. Shen Wei walked over, only having heard the last snatches of conversation between them. Treat whom well? Whats the matter, Rou? Tian Rou sighed. Im distraught from loneliness. Cheng Xi split her sides from laughing. When the boisterous crowd headed toward the spa, Cheng Xi, however, refused to go as she was saddled with her thoughts about the earlier encounters. Additionally, she generally did not enjoy such activities. After a big argument, Shen Wei finally relented, and brought the rest of the crowd there. But before long, she returned. Cheng Xi was astonished. Why on earth are you back already? Oh, my husband was there, and I dont like those activities either. So, I might as well come back and keep you company. Cheng Xi laughed. Should I be scared? The bride left her groom behind just to keep me some company. Shen Wei ignored her comments. Itd be more accurate to say that he left me behind first. His friends spirited him away right after he took some medicine and recovered slightly. There wasnt much choice, with Lu Chenzhou being such a big figure. Honestly, Im quite surprised that he even bothered to show up. Cheng Xi, surprised, asked, Why? Because Lu Chenzhous very hard to invite to events. Hes known to be cold, and he has never attended any private gatherings in the past. Really? Cheng Xi laughed in a noncommittal manner even as she silently thought to herself, Why would someone who didnt attend any sort of social gatherings in the past suddenly accept Shen Weis wedding invitation? She wanted to ask Shen Wei how much she knew about Lu Chenzhou, but since it was her wedding, she dropped that idea. Instead, she changed the topic to something more relevant. What does it feel like to be married? Shen Wei rolled her eyes. Just one word: tiring! Im never doing anything like this again. Its a torment! Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh. Were you planning on doing this multiple times? Whos to say. Who knows what will happen in the future? Cheng Xi shoved her lightlyit was her wedding night, and she was still saying things like this? Im telling the truth. In this day and age, even staying married for life is a miracle. It might just come true if you keep thinking like that, Cheng Xi rebuked. I didnt know that you were so superstitious, Dr. Cheng. Shen Wei pinched her cheeks as she rested her arms on Cheng Xis shoulders. Was Tian Rou telling the truth? The subject had changed so quickly that Cheng Xi didnt fully follow. What? That Lin Fans also your crush. ...how did you find out about that? Rou mentioned it, of course. Shen Wei smiled deviously as she teased, Prepare yourself. To liven up the festivities, the rooms tonight are male and female suites. The males rooms are right next door, so you know. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 13: I鈥檓 Not Scared of Death Cheng Xi got up. Why dont I leave first? But she was quickly dragged to a halt by Shen Wei, who had chased after her while asking, Is it true? Were you really in love with Lin Fan? ......How had the rumor transformed into her being in love with Lin Fan? Gossip truly grew wilder as it spread. She had said that he used to be her crush, alright? Used to be! Used to be!! Shen Wei couldnt hold her laughter back anymore. You shouldnt have told Rou this, then! Cheng Xi didnt want to talk about this subject anymore. Shouldnt you be heading over? Given these co-gendered suites and all these beautiful women, you should be careful lest someone steal your newlywed groom away. Shen Wei stated domineeringly, Just let them try! If he can be stolen away, he wouldnt be worthy of me in the first place. As she said this, her phone rang; not long after, Fu Mingyi found his way here. Cheng Xi opened the door, and Fu Mingyi poked his head in. A few other people came right behind him. Next to the door were two attendants supporting a female in a pink suit. Cheng Xi recalled that she was the girl who had caught the wedding bouquet earlier, as well as one of Shen Weis bridesmaids. Fu Mingyi was swaying as he walked, and an alcoholic blush was still present on his face. Despite his intoxication, he was still clear headed enough to have the attendants to carry the girl in. Astonished, Shen Wei asked, Whos this? Fu Mingyi rubbed his forehead as he explained, She went to take a bath after drinking too much, and almost drowned in the bathtub This is a break room for the females, isnt it? Can you let her stay here tonight? The hotels full, and theres no space for an extra person. Cheng Xi didnt mind. But instead of focusing on the girl, her gaze was directed outside, to a man leaning on a lamppost with only half his face showing. Lu Chenzhou. Because of the lighting, his expression seemed somewhat sullen. For some reason, he looked unhappy, and his negative emotions seemed to emanate outward. Upon noticing her gaze, he glanced back at her indifferently. Cheng Xi broke eye contact when Lu Chenzhou headed inside. Shen Wei was helping the attendants take care of the drunk girl, all the while asking, Why didnt you just let someone send her back? Why are all of you here? Didnt you say that you wanted to enjoy the hot springs? Cheng Xi raised her eyebrows. In the first place, would a germaphobe like Lu Chenzhou ever take a bath in this sort of place? Indeed, Fu Mingyi replied, Dont mention it. Just as we were about to take off our clothes, Director Lu had something come up. So, it was convenient for me to take Hengjin back at the same time. Hengjin was the drunken bridesmaid, supposedly a distant relative of Shen Wei. As Fu Mingyi said this, he looked at Cheng Xi, somewhat embarrassed. Cheng Xi, you didnt drink tonight, did you? My friend has to leave urgently, but hes too drunk to drive, and we cant find a chauffeur at this hour either. Could I trouble you to give him a ride? It isnt farjust a half hours drive there and back. Cheng Xi didnt respond, only looking at Lu Chenzhou again. He was standing to the side of the room, and he seemed quite sober and completely capable of driving himself. This time, he acted quite politely, turning toward Cheng Xi and clasping his hands together as soon as Fu Mingyi finished talking. Im sorry to trouble you. Nothing like the man who had purposefully given her condoms just earlier. Cheng Xi couldnt understand what he was thinking, and was reluctant to agree. It was only Fu Mingyi and Shen Weis earnest gaze, as well as Shen Weis whispered wordsSend him away quickly. Hes going to ruin my wedding night if he stays here much longerthat finally got her to agree. Cheng Xi wanted to sigh. Tactfully, she replied, I dont drive frequently, and might not be a very good driver in an attempt to decline. This time, Lu Chenzhou spoke to her directly. Dont worry. Im not scared of death. His words left Cheng Xi speechless, and it was Shen Wei who started worrying this time. Actually, why dont I just find one of my male classmates? Honestly, Im somewhat worried at having Cheng Xi drive as well. Fu Mingyi shook his head. Forget it, theyre currently all bathing. Itd be too inconvenient to drag someone else out. Dont worry, Cheng Xis a doctor with a dependable personality. As long as she drives slowly, there wont be a problem. Right, Director Lu? Lu Chenzhou nodded. Meanwhile, Shen Wei looked at Fu Mingyi wordlessly. The couple exchanged a gaze, and Shen Wei finally stopped speaking up. The two of them sent Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou to the garage. As Shen Wei watched the car roll away, she couldnt help but frown. What are you and Lu Chenzhou planning? Fu Mingyi laughed and hugged her. What could we be planning? Im just having your classmate give him a ride. Shen Wei turned to stare at him. Really? The two of you are acting so strangely, especially that Lu Chenzhou. Its even weirder that he came at all today. Fu Mingyi kissed her. Whats so strange? Isnt your husband worth him coming? And I want him to leave right away because if he stays, tonight well The rest of his words were drowned out in their quiet laughter. Shen Wei pushed him lightly. Act properly. With my wife, whats the point of being proper? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 14: I Want to Woo You Cheng Xi had had her drivers license for a long time, but she rarely drove. And considering how fancy Fu Mingyis car was, it was only normal that she was on tenterhooks the entire drive. Even so, she couldnt ignore the serious glances that Lu Chenzhou was shooting at her from the passengers seat. He sat there on his side with his hand resting on the armrest between them and his eyes staring at her with rapt attention. After finishing his inspection, he detachedly stated, You look very ordinary. Why do they all call you beautiful? Having been at the spa just earlier, he had heard all of Cheng Xis classmates conversations. This earnest commentary was just a continuation of those conversations. Especially given that you only have one dimple. How disgusting. Cheng Xi tried her hardest to pretend he was just air. He even seemed confused as to why Cheng Xi was ignoring him. Why arent you speaking today? Honestly, Cheng Xi was even more mystified by his attitude. After thinking about her teachers request, she drove even more slowly and asked, Why are you speaking so much today? During their first meeting, he had barely spoken at all. Lu Chenzhou remained quiet. Just as Cheng Xi was about to reflect on whether she had phrased her question too directly, he suddenly spoke up again. I want to woo you. He looked at her directly as he asked, May I? Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh upon hearing his words. Dont tease me. I really cant drive all that well. Why are you laughing? Am I not being serious enough? No, Cheng Xi thought. Who would care if a calculator were serious? Lu Chenzhous tone didnt contain any of the bashfulness of a youthful man yearning for love. Rather than being nervous, he sounded more like an office worker merely trying to accomplish a task. She decided to have a good chat with him, from the stance that he was one of her patients. Mr. Lu, have you ever been in a relationship before? Is this related to my chasing you? Cheng Xi smiled. If youve ever been in a relationship, then you should know that your actions are different from those of someone whos truly smitten and wholeheartedly trying to woo someone else. Oh. His tone was as apathetic as ever. Then what should my actions be like? What should it be like? There was a red light ahead, and Cheng Xi decelerated the car slowly, her white fingers slowly rapping on the steering wheel in thought. To truly woo someone earnestly involves treating a lover with a reserved, modest, and even somewhat shy attitude. It definitely does not involve sudden passion or premature affection. Says who? The great pioneer of the proletariat, Karl Marx. Marx really said something like that? Lu Chenzhou clearly didnt believe her words. On the other hand, the great French novelist Balzac stated that love is the indulgence of rationality. A positive, grave enjoyment. After hearing Lu Chenzhous words, Cheng Xi started smiling. He was a more interesting man than she had previously given credit for; at the very least, he had been thinking about love, or he wouldnt have remembered this quote of Balzacs. Or, perhaps, these words only served to support his detached emotions. An indulgence of rationality, a grave enjoyment his attention was solely focused on the words rationality and grave, wasnt it? She stopped debating with him. After the red light turned green, she started driving again. Lu Chenzhou received a call, probably the one that was rushing him. She heard him say, Im almost thereturn right. Turn right was directed at Cheng Xi. He had said it promptly, and Cheng Xi was able to follow his directions. Not far ahead, she saw a big metal gate. After they finally arrived, Lu Chenzhou hung up. Drive inside. Cheng Xi glanced at him, and he also turned his head to look at her. She somewhat awkwardly asked, Can you walk inside by yourself? She remembered that there used to be a mountain here, but the mountain had clearly been levelled and replaced with bungalows some time ago. This now unfamiliar place, walled up behind a big metal gate, looked like a dark castle in the deep night, and it was a castle that Cheng Xi didnt want to enter. Lu Chenzhou seemed to see through her pretense. Are you scared? He seemed a bit amazed and tried to reassure her, though his tone wasnt very reassuring. Weve already slept together, so what else could you be scared of? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 15: The Rumored Partner Cheng Xi ended up driving Lu Chenzhou inside, for no other reason than his ultimatum. Its quite a long walk from here. Either you get out of the car and Ill drive myself in, or you can do so. Cheng Xis only reasonable choice was to drive him in. Of course, Lu Chenzhou hadnt lied to her. The front entrance was indeed quite a long distance away from the front door. The path was tortuous, so much so that when Lu Chenzhou finally said, Okay, this is the place, Cheng Xi was almost about to faint from dizziness. At almost the exact same time that they arrived, the main entrance of the mansion opened, and a young man of about thirty years old walked out. He had a light woolen shirt on, which, coupled with his pleasing appearance, gave him a refined air. He walked briskly, and arrived at the door of the car almost as soon as Cheng Xi stopped it. Cheng Xi had met him once before; he was the person who had given her the glass of alcohol that had led to her overdrinking. He was a friend of Lu Chenzhous, whose name seemed to be Xu Po. Lu Chenzhou rolled down the window, and Xu Po tilted downwards to look inside the car. He also recognized Cheng Xi, and greeted her first. Hi, doctor! And then he grumbled to Lu Chenzhou, Why did you only get here now? Xie Ziming couldnt wait any longer and already left. How are we going to deal with a missing player? Lu Chenzhou turned around and asked Cheng Xi, Do you know how to play mahjong? Cheng Xi: ......No. Then get off. "" Fine, shed say Yes. Was that good enough? But it was too late already. When Lu Chenzhou got out of the car, he had also taken the keys with him. If she didnt want to walk all the way back to the hotel, she would have to go inside and play a few games with them. Xu Po was worthy of being called Lu Chenzhous friend, given how well he understood Lu Chenzhous behavior. As Lu Chenzhou walked away, he stayed behind to explain the situation to her. Were missing a player, but conveniently enough, youre right here. So please, come join us. Cheng Xi asked him, Can I refuse? Probably not. Xu Pos tone was tinged with sarcastic humor as he explained, Generally speaking, anything that Zhou wants to be done, has to be done. Otherwise, everyone will suffer. Arent you his partner? Dont you know at least this much? In the end, Cheng Xi got out of the car, because she would rather play mahjong with unfamiliar men than walk home alone. Xu Po consoled her by saying, Dont worry. Oh, dont be afraid of losing money. If you win, its yours; if you lose, Zhous the one wholl pay. Think of it as going through a program with him. A program? Yeah, like a computer program. Once you hit the go button, you cant stop it. Isnt he just like one? Cheng Xi laughed at this comparison; it really was accurate. By this time, they had reached the doorsteps. As the doors opened and Cheng Xi entered, she finally realized that this wasnt a private manor, but rather a rebuilt clubhouse where the ground-floor living room had been transformed into a large lounge. Beautiful women in cheongsams elegantly walked forward to greet them. Director Xu Xu Po waved them off lazily before they could say anything else. The women retreated quickly, and Cheng Xi followed him into a room upstairs. When they walked inside, they heard the sound of running water coming from the restroom to the side. Lu Chenzhou was washing his hands. Inside the room sat a bald man, seemingly overcome with boredom as he listlessly scrolled through TV channels. Upon seeing the two of them enter, he threw the remote to the side, and his gaze landed on Cheng Xi. Ey, Po, where did you find such a beautiful girl, and when did they start having such innocent girls here? Cheng Xi had dressed up for the wedding, but it still seemed rather simple and unadorned to these people. She was dressed in a white sweater and black pants, with a brand new orange jacket draped around her shoulders, culminating in an elegant and refined look. Her face didnt have a single dab of makeup on, contrasting sharply against the rest of the women in the club; it wasnt strange that he would make such a comment. Cheng Xi remained silent. Xu Po said, Dont speak such nonsense. This is Zhous partner. This time, the baldy started choking in shock. Damn, Zhous partner? His tone was exaggerated. Youre Boss Lus rumored partner who got drunk after a single shot? ...It seemed like she had already made a name for herself in a single night. For lack of a better option, Cheng Xi explained herself once more. Mr. Lus just joking. Im not his partner. But the people who hung out around Lu Chenzhou were probably unlikely to listen to others; or at least, the person in front of her seemed that way. He stood up, circled around Cheng Xi with a look full of interest, and then shouted into the bathroom, Boss Lu, did you guys just come from Yun Ding Hotel? Amidst the running water came an indifferent grunt of confirmation. Then you guys are moving rather quickly, Baldy said with a devious smile. Youve remained a virgin all these years, so are you finally unable to control your urges now that youve found someone? How did a fifteen-minute drive turn into a forty-five minute one? You guys couldnt possibly have gone at it on the road, right? Success in love leads to losses everywhere else, you know. Be careful not to lose your pants while gambling today. Cheng Xi decided to make Baldy eat his words, specifically, to make him lose his pants while gambling. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 16: Acting Dumb Lu Chenzhou walked out of the bathroom, ignored Baldy, and directly say down in front of the mahjong table. He then rearranged the stools that had been somewhat out of place, chose one, and sat down. Baldy couldnt help but comment on his antics. Why do you insist on arranging them so nicely if were just going to sit on them anyway? But he too went over and sat down on a stool. Cheng Xi noticed that, despite his sloppiness, he didnt dare to touch Lu Chenzhou directly. Instead, Baldy took a mahjong tile and lightly tapped it on the table in front of him. Arent you going to introduce your partner? Her name is Cheng Xi. He rang the bell on the table and lifted his eyes up to look at Cheng Xi. Do you need someone to carry you to a seat? Baldy jeered, She probably wants you to carry her. Xu Po also sat down. Zhou, the doctor says that she doesnt have any money on her. With a leer, Baldy said, Then why dont you use your body as collateral? As a rational man, Zhou would definitely be in high spirits then. This man in front of her really couldnt seem to keep his mouth shut, and Cheng Xi had already formed a distinctly bad impression of him. At this point, an attendant came into the room, bringing a whole tray of poker chips with him that he neatly placed in front of the three people. Without looking, Lu Chenzhou took half of his stack and pushed it to the empty seat next to him. Come here. His tone wasnt particularly commanding, but it brooked no refusal. Patients suffering from emotional detachment generally didnt have much patienceCheng Xi thought for a moment before obediently sitting down without further ado. Baldy rubbed his fingers together, clearly eager to get started. Two on two. Po, do you think we can win? Xu Po, smiling, replied, Take it easy. Our good doctors unfamiliar with this game. Heh, really? Baldy glanced at Cheng Xi disbelievingly. Cheng Xi smiled and didnt reply, but her awkward tile-handling spoke volumes by itself. Just as Baldy was about to say something to Lu Chenzhou, her phone rang. It turned out to be from Lin Fan. You drove off? His voice was concerned. Yes After saying just this one word, Cheng Xi was interrupted as Tian Rous voice suddenly rang out from the other end. Why are you being so gentle with her? She shouted toward the phone, Hey, Dr. Cheng, why are you taking so long? Are you sending him to outer space? Cheng Xi didnt want them to overthink anything, so she said, Something urgent came up, so I wont be able to make it back. Please let Weiwei know that I left the car with Fu Mingyis friend. Tian Rou immediately started jumping up and down. Damn, youre really leaving me halfway? What happened to staying up the entire night? Cheng Xi, youre really disloyal! I dont care, if you arent coming back, your crush is mine! A hand crept over, picked up Cheng Xis phone that was resting against her neck, and forcefully terminated the call. A finger brushed against Cheng Xis ear, a cold sensation, cool but itchy. She resisted the temptation to rub it with her hand, and accidentally knocked over some of her mahjong tiles instead, and ended up hastily trying to reorganize them. Baldy, seeing the situation, couldnt help but ask, Are you alright? Why dont you just admit defeat and surrender your body? Cheng Xi ignored him, meticulously arranging her tiles and starting to focus on the game. However, her tiles were too crooked, her playstyle too untrained, and her hand movement unbearable to look at. Even Xu Po started worrying for her. Do you need someone to teach you? No. And then she threw out a pair of tiles, one of the pairs that she had picked up from the table previously. Xu Po and the others were speechless. Chief Lu, youve really managed to find a woman wholl lose your entire fortune, said Baldy. But before he could finish, Cheng Xi asked, Seven pairs form a set, right? Yes, Xu Po answered, preparing to explain the rules and the combos to her in a detailed manner. A set of seven pairs Cheng Xi displayed her tiles one set at a time and flatly declared, Then Ive won. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 17: You鈥檝e Been Paid a Prostitution Fee Lu Chenzhou smiled upon seeing the situation, a slight curve on his lips. His eyes were unexpectedly clear, good-looking, and even showed a glimpse of mirth. That, combined with a sense of kindliness, actually dispelled some of his bodys natural frigidity. Cheng Xi looked at him out of the corner of her eyes and unconsciously held her breath. Xu Po and Baldy, on the other hand, seemed used to this behavior. The latter even unhappily grumbled, Does winning once make you this happy? Your winning streak wont last long. Well slowly whittle you guys down until you lose your pants. Lu Chenzhou, indifferent as always, merely replied, Speak for yourself when you win. Xu Po looked at Cheng Xis tiles. If you were going for seven pairs, then why did you throw out so many pairs earlier? Cheng Xi innocently said, I didnt know what I was going for back then. Baldy thumped the table as he heard their conversation. Just beginners luck afterall! Cheng Xi smiled as each of the two gave her a small stack of chips from the piles in front of them. She had already received plenty of chips from winning this round. She returned the chips that Lu Chenzhou had given her initially. Baldy snickered as he saw this. Hey, you dont think that everythings going to go well just because you won this round, do you? Cheng Xi shook her head. I just dont want you guys to label me as someone who squanders money. Good, you should be ambitious! Xu Po praised her as he laughed. Even as the game continued, Cheng Xis technique remained poor. One round after Xu Po had won, he leaned over to look at her tiles and couldnt help but laugh. You even threw out your reclaimed tiles? She was still at a loss for how to play. But regardless of how poor her technique was, it couldnt mitigate her good luck. She didnt seem to win with low-scoring tiles at all, but when she did win, it was always with a high-scoring hand. Her combinations like the previous seven pairs easily trounced everyone else at the table. It was because of this that Xu Po said, somewhat humorously, Are the tiles themselves favoring the pretty lady? Lu Chenzhou also won a few small hands, but Baldy remained the only one who hadnt won since the start of the game. He had to call another attendant over to get some more chips, grinning at Cheng Xi as he did so. Keep winning while you still can. And Cheng Xi did keep winning. At the start, Lu Chenzhou and Xu Po had won a few rounds intermittently, but after midnight, Cheng Xi had finally solidly grasped the rules of the game. At that point, even they couldnt win anymore. The three of them looked on balefully as Cheng Xi made move after move for another two hours. No matter how little they cared, even they were growing exasperated; who didnt want to win? Baldy knocked his tiles over as his frustration overflowed. He directly asked Cheng Xi, Did you really not know how to play, or were you just acting dumb? Ive never gambled before in my life, Cheng Xi said dispassionately as she threw out a few more tiles and picked new ones up, before pushing her whole set down once again. Set of flowers, same suit. The other three people in the room couldnt even find words to respond. Baldy couldnt help it, and he also threw his tiles down. Forget it, Im not playing anymore! The other two shared his sentiment. Over the course of the entire game, everyone elses tokens had migrated in front of Cheng Xi. The club attendants came over to help her convert her tokens into earnings, and she tallied it up silently: a few million dollars. Given the current housing prices in the city, just these few hours of gambling was enough for her to buy a house near the hospital she worked at. As she walked out of the room, she found that Lu Chenzhou and the others had already left. Luckily, the club had the contact information of all their club members, and Cheng Xi managed to get ahold of Lu Chenzhous number and call him. You forgot to return the car keys to me. Oh. Then what am I going to do? Find a solution yourself. Given his cold tone, was he throwing a fit after losing money to her? It couldnt beLu Chenzhou had always been calm and indifferent from the beginning. Luckily, one of the attendants at the club saved her. If you register for a membership, we can send you out for free. Cheng Xi was relieved. How do I get a membership? The attendant helped her set one up and then asked her, Would you prefer to keep your earnings here or have them transferred to your bank account? It was only then that Cheng Xi remembered that she had earned a large sum of money. Is Mr. Lu a member here? Yes. Then put it all into his account. All of it? Yes. She loved money, but was even more conscientious about her moneys provenance. The money she had received today was nothing more than ill-gotten gains; to avoid any future problems, it was better to return it all. The attendant was sure that there was some gossip hidden in there somewhere, but he didnt pry and efficiently handled all the requested transaction. Do you want to leave a message to go with the transaction? Cheng Xi smiled lightly. Prostitution fees. Given how considerate he was to send her condoms, then shouldnt it be normal for her to be polite and settle the score? Still holding a grudge from being abandoned, Cheng Xi had thus done a very irrational thing. She regretted her words almost as soon as she said them, but it was already too late. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 18: Why Don鈥檛 You Be My Girlfriend? Knowing that the message had already been sent out, Cheng Xi bashed her head against the table. The attendant carefully asked, Are you alright, Miss? Yes, she replied haltingly. Hoping against all hope, she asked, Is there any way Mr. Lu would be unable to receive the message? Thats impossible. The attendant stuck out his chest, his posture proud. Our fund transfer system is fully modernized and secure. Weve never had a problem before. Indeed, the fund transfer was surprisingly rapid, and Lu Chenzhou received a notification almost immediately after it was sent through. At that point, the three men were discussing whether or not Cheng Xi had swindled them, and the other two had only mildly criticized Lu Chenzhou for leaving her stranded in the club. The fund transfer message was voice-recorded, so all three men heard the notification as he tapped on it. Mr. Lu, at 1:48 AM, you were paid prostitution fees. Please check your account balance. The interior of the car fell silent. Xu Po was driving at the front seat, but as soon as he heard the notification, he quickly dialled down the volume. Baldy, meanwhile, was dumbstruck. What, what, did I hear wrong just now? What kind of fee did you receive, Boss? Lu Chenzhou also didnt hear the message clearlymore precisely, he didnt dare believe what he had heard, so he tapped the notification again. This time, the interior of the car was silent enough to be alarming; they all heard the phrase prostitution fee loud and clear. Lu Chenzhou didnt react, but the other two started laughing their lungs out. Baldy in particular, grabbed his phone and started asking, Whos this, how much money? When he saw the amount, he gasped. Damn, this is a large sum. Youre doing pretty well for yourself, arent you, Boss! Is this just for one night? Xu Po started laughing even harder, so much so that he had to pull over and stop by the side of the road. He turned to the backseat and asked, Whos the brave soul that treated our Master Lu as a prostitute? Lets see who it is and pay our respects to them! Baldy risked batting Lu Chenzhous hands away so that he could see his screen, and finally succeeding after a few failed attempts. Miss Cheng, which Miss Cheng? Even after playing a whole night of mahjong with Cheng Xi, he still didnt know her surname. Xu Po, on the other hand, praised her. Damn, shes quite the character! Do you like her? Lu Chenzhou raised his head, his expression and tone seemingly indifferent, but his tone notably sinister. Shall I introduce her to you then? All night long, Xu Po had seen him protect Cheng Xi and help resolve her issues. Xu Pos smile froze on his face. If Lu Chenzhou was going for someone, then how could he possibly win against him? Thanks for the offer, he said seriously. But Im going to quit cold turkey this moment! Cheng Xi let one of the club chauffeurs send her home. Because it was the weekend, she was supposed to be visiting her parents. However, it was so late and they lived so far away that, by the time she got there, it would probably be early morning, and her parents would be preparing to open their diner. They would surely nag at her if they saw her arrive so late. So instead, she went back to her house. The apartment that Cheng Xi was staying in was very close to the hospital. Her parents had bought it for her while she was in graduate school. And by the time she graduated with her PhD, her twin brother Cheng Yang had earned enough money to help her renovate it. So even though the decor of the apartment was a bit strange as it was a potpourri of Eastern and Western styles, the workmanship was meticulous and it was a very comfortable place to live in. She was so tired from the days events that she immediately fell asleep right after showering haphazardly. The next day, when she woke up, she saw Lu Chenzhous text. Ive received the prostitution payment. For some reason, Cheng Xi felt like she had been marked by a wolf. She decided to bluntly call him back. With a sincere tone, she said, Im sorry. I shouldnt have pulled such a base joke. If it made you uncomfortable, then I apologize. Honestly, she herself didnt know why those words had sprouted from her mouth last night; it was simply too uncouth for her. Lu Chenzhou was silent for a moment, and then he asked, How did you win so much last night? Cheng Xi was very open about the truth. My uncle used to cheat in mahjong. When I had nothing to do as a child, I learned some of his tricks. Lu Chenzhou laughed without much emotion. After a while, he suddenly said, Why dont you become my girlfriend? What? Cheng Xi stared blankly at the wall in front of her. That is, if you feel sorry for me. Cheng Xi understood the logic in his words right away. If you feel sorry for me, then you can be my girlfriend. Was he asking her to give herself up for a joke? Cheng Xi didnt know whether to laugh or to cry. She responded, On the other hand, I think we can be friends. That is, if youre willing. Regarding her response, Lu Chenzhou didnt reply. Instead, he hung up. Cheng Xi fell into a daze, clutching at her phone. She had a premonition that Lu Chenzhou wouldnt be an easy patient to treat. Shed very likely end up with nothing to show for her labor, and even possibly a heap of trouble for herself. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 19: Are You Surprised? Of course, Cheng Xi wasnt afraid of trouble. There were many patients even more troublesome than Lu Chenzhou. For example, Chen Jiaman, the patient that she had been discussing with Cai Yi during that first dinner with Lu Chenzhou, was first and foremost. Walking corpse syndrome was so rare that, even throughout the entire world, only a few paltry cases had been reported. Many of the doctors around her were interested in that patient, but those who were confident or even willing to treat her were few and far between. But Cheng Xi was willing to take her on as a patient. She was prepared to use all her patience and skill to treat Chen Jiaman because she knew how much her patient needed it, regardless of how little time she would have left for herself. And as for Lu Chenzhou, he clearly didnt want a doctor. His actions of trying to trip her up and intentionally stating that he wanted to woo her were simply attempts to change the potential doctor-patient relationship into a more familiar romantic relationship. This was, clearly and unambiguously, a refusal on his partif you want to get close to me, then you cant do it as a doctor. You have to be my girlfriend. She was very curious about what would have happened if her professor had instead found him a male doctor. After sighing about her conundrum, Cheng Xi tidied herself up, ate what she could find at home, and went to the hospital to care for Chen Jiaman. This was Chen Jiamans seventh day at the hospital. Her symptoms hadnt improved at all; she still slept in the morning and was only active at night. Cheng Xi had just arrived when the nurse responsible for her started complaining. She caused trouble overnight again! She almost managed to get into the mortuary, and was constantly muttering about the king of hell, little ghosts, cutting off tongues, and other things like that. In fact, she scared the new nurse so much that she started crying. Cheng Xi closed the folder of medical records that she held in her hands, and patted her shoulder. Thank you for all your hard work. She went to Chen Jiamans ward. The girl was only fourteen, and her figure was naturally thin and small. She was currently sleeping quietly, her posture perfector, more precisely, stiff and rigid. Her hands were clasped tightly in front of her stomach, her legs spread straight and angled slightly apart, her eyes shut tightly, and her face covered with a white cloth that she had torn off of her pillow cover. Cheng Xi had personally dressed her grandmothers corpse, so she clearly knew what Chen Jiamans posture represented. She observed her silently for quite a while before turning to the nurse again. Have you been able to contact her family members? Chen Jiaman had previously lived with just her old grandmother. When the grandmother had died, only her father was left. But since he was a fisherman, he spent more than half his life at sea. The incident with the Chen family had taken place not long after he left. Yes. Weve just gotten information that Chen Jiamans father has returned from his trip, and that he will be here within a week. Cheng Xi released a breath that she had been holding in. There would finally be somebody who could help her understand a bit about Chen Jiamans past. Having made headway into Chen Jiamans case, Cheng Xi found new troubles awaiting her. She was supposed to be providing outpatient service this month. However, since Tuesday, none of her patients had shown up for their appointments. This kind of situation was very rare, because Renyis psychiatry department was renowned nationwide. Given the high stress endemic to modern life, it was almost impossible for a doctor to have no patients during their outpatient service hours. Beyond that, it was definitely impossible that people would schedule their appointments and not show up. The nurse on duty with her was very shocked by these circumstances. On the other hand, Cheng Xi felt an uncomfortable premonition creep over her. She turned on her computer and looked at her list of appointments again, but found nothing unusual. The patients had all registered with their real names, so she could see that her patients came from all over the country. Could it be that people had scalped her appointment slots? No, that was impossibleCheng Xi wasnt her professor Cai Yi; she wouldnt be worth the effort. Cheng Xi was thus left to ruminate in her own thoughts. At 10:30 AM, a somewhat familiar person finally showed up at her office. It was one of the people she had played mahjong with that nightLu Chenzhous friend, Baldy. Hi Doctor, its good to see you again. He stood at the door and waved at her as a whole group of lackeys showed up behind him. After throwing his leather coat to them, he sat down imposingly in front of her. Are you here for a diagnosis? Cheng Xi asked. No. Baldy cracked a smile as he replied, Im here to convey Boss Lus message. Lu Chenzhou? Yes. Boss Lu wants me to tell you that he empathizes with your workload and is worried that youll be too tired. Thus, he had someone preemptively book all of your appointment slots for today, tomorrow, and the day after. Heh heh, Dr. Cheng, are you surprised? Arent you thrilled? "" Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 20: Is This for Real? At this point, perhaps only Cheng Yangs catchphrase could truly express her feelings: Ive had it with this asshole! Her premonitions from a few days ago had finally manifested into reality. Had she known earlier that giving her winnings to Lu Chenzhou would have spawned such inspired actions, she she would have taken all the money and left. And she definitely would not have let the club attendant send such a message. As expected, not thinking carefully was her ultimate downfall. There was a sudden commotion by the clinic door. It was the nurse who was on duty along with Cheng Xi. When she had seen the doorway filled with people, she had assumed that the patients had finally come. So, she had quickly returned, but right after entering, she had heard Baldys eye-boggling announcement and almost tripped over her own feet. She knew that Cheng Yis beauty would definitely lead besotted men to chase after her. However, even she didnt expect that these men would be so intrepid as to book all her appointment slots like this Was this for real? This gossip was so juicy that she had to share it right away! But after Cheng Xi noticed her, the nurse tried to dampen her excited expression. She hiccupped once before resetting her mentality into something more earnest. Dr. Cheng, are the patients here? Yes. No. Two voices spoke out at once, giving contradictory responses. Baldy peered at Cheng Xi as he smiled, and then gave the nurse a flirtatious glance. Dr. Chengs partner is worried about her workload and has booked all her appointment slots for the next couple of days. Congratulations on your luckenjoy your few days off. Upon hearing this, Cheng Xis forehead veins started throbbing angrily. The nurse, meanwhile, stared at Baldy with an open mouth. Dr. Chengs partner But, but Dr. Chengs a doctor She looked over at Cheng Xi. Is this really compliant with hospital policy? Cheng Xi remained silent for a brief moment, and then looked at the nurse who had clearly been shocked dizzy by the caliber of this gossip. She calmly said, Why dont you go out first? But before the nurse could fully exit the room, she loudly asked, Wheres Mr. Lu? Playing such an obnoxious prank really makes things difficult for me. So, can you let him know that Id like to have a word with him. But her statement was useless; after just a single hour, the whole department had heard that she had found a very rich boyfriend who had booked up all her appointment slots. And by the afternoon, even Cai Yi had found out, and had called her for this very reason. Whats going on? Whos causing this kind of trouble? Cheng Xi, this is a hospital, not some place where you can fool around. Evidently, she didnt know that the perpetrator of this event was the very man she had introduced to her, Lu Chenzhou. Cheng Xi massaged her forehead as she replied, Professor, the man responsible for this is Lu Chenzhou. What? Cheng Xi sighed. After Baldy left, she had tried to contact Lu Chenzhou. But unfortunately, he didnt want to see her, and he wouldnt even pick up his phone. She didnt try to hide this from Cai Yi. After hearing this, even Cai Yi didnt know whether to cry or laugh. This man Fine, I admit that this is my fault. Ill let him know for you. As for the hospital After such a big fuss, has the administration made any trouble for you? Well, the silver lining is that the director of the hospital isnt around. But unfortunately, the department head told me to meet him after work. Cai Yi couldnt help but laugh. You must be the first doctor thats been forced into such a situation by a patient. Alright, dont worry too much about it. Ill help you deal with your department head. Cheng Xi instantly found the cause of her headache dissipate and she clasped her hands together in gratitude. Thank you, professor. Cai Yi tended to work quickly; before Cheng Xis shift was even over, she had been notified that the department head wouldnt be inviting her over for tea. And then, after work, she even saw Lu Chenzhou. It was drizzling lightly outside then, and he had sent a chauffeur over specifically to pick her up. After driving around for awhile, the car pulled up at an indoor tennis court. As she pushed the car door open, his ball swerved toward her face; if Cheng Xis reflexes had been even a step slower, the ball could have blinded her in one eye. But instead, the yellow-green ball brushed against Cheng Xis temples, hit the doorframe, and bounced back onto the court like a bullet. Cheng Xi couldnt help sweating. As she looked at Lu Chenzhou again, he didnt seem flustered at all. Instead of greeting her, he merely lifted his racket and continued to practice his brutal, fast serves. Cheng Xi breathed out, trying not to disturb him. Only when he was tired did she finally walk over. Mr. Lu, can we talk? He wiped the sweat off of his head with a towel, and peered down at her from above. Are you willing to accept my proposal? Truly a machine that wont stop before reaching his goal. Cheng Xi stopped going around in circles with him, and directly addressed the issue. Mr. Lu, I think that you clearly understand that my professor introduced you to me not for us to go on a blind date, but rather for me to assist you as a doctor. Lu Chenzhous hands stopped moving. He threw down his towel, wiped his smile off of his face, and walked toward her. As he approached, his imposing manner pressured Cheng Xi so much so that she felt like she couldnt breathe. He pushed her against the wall, maintaining just a slight bit of distance between them, and placed his hand against the wall. As a doctor? He sneered. Dont think youre special just because youre a doctor. Heres a question. Do you believe me when I say that I can make your title of doctor disappear? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 21: I Have More Money Than You All of a sudden, Cheng Xis phone rang. But instead of alleviating the tension between the two, her crisp ringtone only made the atmosphere even more oppressive. Cheng Xi didnt pick up the call. She tried her hardest to ignore the tension emanating off of Lu Chenzhou by looking at him straightforwardly without any intent of deflection. Do you have any particular misgivings against doctors? Misgivings? Is it a misgiving to rightfully deny that I am ill? Lu Chenzhous voice was steeped in disdain and an indistinct anger when he replied. If being aloof is truly an illness, then how many people in the world are currently suffering from this incurable disease? Clearly, he was quite self-aware and even unexpectedly logical about his own situation. Cheng Xi was even starting to doubt her own diagnosis. She didnt intend to argue with him, though. For a psychiatrist, listening to ones patients was a necessary skill to have. When she did reply, she deliberately spoke very softly and warmly. Her voice, already pleasing, became as soothing as the March wind, comfortably caressing ones ears. Are you disgusted when they act like that towards you? Would you like to be treated differently, like a monster? Cheng Xi shook her head. No ones saying that patients who have unusual mental diseases are different or are monsters. Mental diseases are just that: diseases. Just like how we can catch the cold and become feverish and cough, mental diseases are just the result of a key part of our body malfunctioning. It is wholly unrelated to age, unrelated to level of education, and certainly unrelated to monsters or things of the sort. Such an explanation was feeble at best, and Lu Chenzhous face returned to his normal frosty expression, aloof and grim. If thats the case, then why are you unwilling to be my girlfriend? No, its not that Im unwilling. Rather Then lets go. He interrupted her halfway, and immediately turned around and left shortly after, leaving Cheng Xi with no time to react. She decided to follow him. Where to? He didnt answer. The driver drove towards them, and then he opened the door to let her in. Cheng Xi stood still, not moving. Are you scared? He cocked his head back slightly as he looked at her. No. But I feel like you should inform me of our destination, as a basic courtesy. Lu Chenzhou simply replied, My office. Are you coming? Even though she didnt understand why Lu Chenzhou wanted them two to go to his office, Cheng Xi nonetheless still got into the car. At this point, she couldnt shirk back from her duty as a psychiatrist. During the drive, Lu Chenzhou didnt speak a single word. Cheng Xi, on the other hand, finally answered the call from before; it was from her colleague. Once the call connected, she immediately heard her colleagues exaggerated tone say, Oh, Dr. Cheng, youre famous! Go on WeChat, quickly! She refused to explain to Cheng Xi exactly what was going on, so Cheng Xi had no choice but to hang up and open WeChat, just as she had been instructed to. The first thing she saw was an image that had been posted on the psychiatry departments group chat. It was from an unknown persons friend groups chat. She opened it and read the caption: This actually happened in our hospital! In order to lighten his girlfriends workload, some rich guy booked all of her appointment slots for the next few days. The colleague who had sent out this image then said, Someone posted this image onto Weibo, and then it started trending from there. The others laughed. Hahaha, will there be reporters here to interview us tomorrow? Heh, dont talk about tomorrow. Just this afternoon, the media has already been calling us to confirm the story. Then has our Dr. Cheng really become famous this time? Call her out; weve got to get her to treat us to a meal. The group chat kept getting peppered with new messages. Cheng Xi looked at the shrinking scroll bar, sighing in dismay. Mr. Cheng, she said as she showed him the chat messages. Thanks to you, Im famous now. Lu Chenzhou glanced at her phone, and then coolly said, Youre welcome. ...... Cheng Xis tone was sincere as she said, Actually, being famous is burdensome to me. But Lu Chenzhou only replied with one word. Oh. Cheng Xi looked at him, took her phone back, and then purposefully kept her mouth shut for the rest of the drive. She hadnt known him for very long, but she understood one point clearly: as soon as his responses devolved to be monosyllabic, it meant that he had lost all interest in that subject, and that any further conversation on that matter would be useless. Lu Chenzhou actually did bring her to his office. His office was located at the Donglai Hotelthe hotel where Cheng Xi had spent a night earlier. The morning after that night, Cheng Xi had finally clearly seen the face of the flourishing Donglai it took was a whole block wide, and the lamps along its walls lit up half the sky. With the scenic river behind it, the hotel was as beautiful as a castle out of a fairytale. Unlike the hotels outer opulence, Lu Chenzhous office was decorated quite simply in black and white colors, its furnishings practical and without any unnecessary flourish. Upon entering, Cheng Xis first impression was that everything was precisely placed. All the items seemed like orderly troops, arranged by height and charmingly positioned. The ambience of the office was so neat and tidy enough that it didnt feel like anyone had ever worked here. After sitting down at his desk, Lu Chenzhou immediately picked up the desk phone. Call Lawyer Du over. Before Cheng Xi could even guess why he had called a lawyer here for, the lawyer arrived. Lu Chenzhou gestured toward Cheng Xi with his chin as he said, Produce a contract for us two, and it should state that Ms. Cheng Xi will be my girlfriend. We will remain financially independent from each other. If this relationship persists for a year, Ill give her As he said this, he turned around and asked Cheng Xi, How much would be a reasonable amount to give you? Cheng Xi blinked, and then jokingly replied, A hundred million yuan? Lu Chenzhou thought about it, and then seriously said, Youre not worth that much. Her professionalism told her that, at this point, the only proper reply was, Whatever makes you happy. Lu Chenzhou nodded, and then gave the lawyer a value multiple times higher than Cheng Xis current salary. Actually, it wasnt too far off from her mahjong earnings from that one night. The lawyer seemed somewhat nonplussed by his strange request, clenching his pen tightly before finally reacting after seeing that Lu Chenzhou was getting impatient. After calming down, he recorded down the conditions that Lu Chenzhou had proposed and asked, Are there any corresponding privileges or responsibilities? Lu Chenzhou dictated, One party has the right to ask for marriage, and the other party must be loyal. He turned to Cheng Xi again. Does that seem problematic to you? ......Can I even make any changes to the contract? Lu Chenzhou had already turned back around to the lawyer before she had finished speaking. Then, just this. The lawyer looked at her somewhat sympathetically. Is this all? Lu Chenzhou replied with a nod, Yes. The lawyer nodded, leaving to formally draft the contract. Lu Chenzhou then explained the structure of the payment to Cheng Xi, but the information went into one ear and came out the other. Despite the unusual situations she had been seen and maneuvered through as a part of her job, this was the first time that she had ever encountered what Lu Chenzhou was doing. In fact, she was somewhat curious as to his motives. Why do you want such a contract? Lu Chenzhou looked at her, his gaze serene. Because I like making things simple. This way, there are clear gains and losses: if we mesh well with each other, great. If not, well split up. Isnt that nice? Systemizing and relegating emotions to contracts is a self-defense mechanism that people often use to deal with emotional trauma. Cheng Xi noted this peculiarity down in her heart, and then asked, Then why isnt it me who gives you money? Lu Chenzhous tone was as if he were declaring that there were stars in the sky and the moon at night. Because I have more money than you. That...was a completely irrefutable fact. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 22: Generations of Frauds The lawyer worked quickly. Before Cheng Xi could even finish thinking about what she should do next, the contract had already been written up. After the lawyer brought the contract back into Lu Chenzhous office, Lu Chenzhou motioned for him to show her the document first. Cheng Xis original impression that this was nothing important had changed to something resembling anxiety. Lu Chenzhous words were simple, but the contract that his lawyer produced was surprisingly formal. It followed the standard contract format: it laid out the terms and conditions, rights and responsibilities, as well as a hefty fee for violating anything very clearly. Upon seeing that sum, she couldnt help but become more serious. Jut moving her eyes across all the numerous zeros was enough to make her dizzy. She then said, somewhat agonizingly, Mr. Lu, even if we cant be a couple, we can still be regular friends. Lu Chenzhou was sitting on the other side of the table, playing with a jade-colored teacup in his hands. After hearing Cheng Xis words, his posture didnt change, and neither did his expression. However, Cheng Xi suddenly felt a chill creep into her heart. Then he said, Send Ms. Cheng out! Mr. Lu Cheng Xi attempted to speak up, but as she opened her mouth, Lu Chenzhou had already turned to look at his lawyer. Originally somewhat hesitant, the lawyer now quickly approached Cheng Xi, insistent but polite. Ms. Cheng, please. Cheng Xi didnt move. She looked at Lu Chenzhou, but he didnt look back at her, only coolly playing with the jade teacup in his hands. He constantly exuded a cold, chilly air that prevented others from getting close. She had a feeling that this was her one and only chance to get close to him, a chance that wouldnt ever happen again. Seeing her lack of motion, the lawyer stretched out his hand out to grab her, but Cheng Xi avoided his grasp. I can sign the contract, but can I consult my own lawyer first? Seeing the two both turn towards her, she weakly explained, The fee for breaking the contract is simply too high Silence. After a while, Lu Chenzhou finally waved his hand at her. The lawyer sat back down, and Cheng Xi let out a sigh of relief before quickly moving outside to speak on her phone. In truth, she didnt have a lawyer at all; her actions were simply to delay signing the contract. Although she had many people in her contact list, most of whom were doctors, patients, relatives, and friends, and some of them were lawyers, Cheng Xi had no actual plans of contacting any of them. Instead, her fingers moved unconsciously on her phones keyboard and punched in on Lin Fans name. Somehow, she ended up calling his number. As she listened to her phone ring while the call was connecting, her anxiety almost consumed her. What would she say if he did pick up? But as the ringing repeated, she became calm again. But Lin Fan didnt pick up. Cheng Xi put her phone away, smiled, and then walked back into Lu Chenzhous office. Give me the pen. The lawyer handed her a pen, and Cheng Xi signed her own name on the somewhat ludicrous contract. Lu Chenzhou looked at her lazily. Your lawyer didnt give you any advice? As she signed her name, Cheng Xi said, His only advice was to not break the contract once Ive signed it. But She put down her pen, smiled at him, and then finished her sentence. If you end up finding someone else that you truly love and want to break the contract because of that, then I wont force you to pay any reparations. He didnt respond, merely looking at her with a penetrating gaze while smiling coolly. And it was that smile that finally erased any doubt left in Cheng Xis heart. It made her feel like, even if she really did pay that astronomical fee, as long as she could reduce the despair in his smile by even a fraction, then, as a doctor, it would be worth it. Having signed the contract as well, Lu Chenzhou brought Cheng Xi out again. This time, she was too lazy to even ask where they were going, and the result of her laziness was that they ended up going to Lu Chenzhous house. Cheng Xi only realized this as she stepped inside. In her nervous haste, she stammered out some nonsense. Were going to your house? Lu Chenzhou nodded. For what? After entering a relationship, we naturally have to meet each others parents, dont we? Lu Chenzhous long legs propelled him forward with just a few strides. Cheng Xi lagged behind, alone and assaulted by her thoughts. Just a few days ago, Tian Rou and the others had joked that they were going to give her an award for being a model late-blooming wife and parent. But now, she was already at the stage where she was meeting her significant others parents. But since she had already signed that ludicrous contract of her own will, the restdidnt seem to matter so much, Cheng Xi despondently rationalized. The next time she met her classmates, she was certain that she would receive a caring doctor award instead. The Lu family lived close to the southern shore, not far from the Donglai Hotel, and was situated in a very prosperous neighborhood. Their courtyard was exquisite and refined: there were two gigantic cherry apple trees in the courtyard, but despite the leaves turning yellow in the autumn air, not a single fallen leaf could be seen on the ground. The entire yard was clean and tidy. The stark contrast to the bustle and noise of the city led to an unusual feeling of peace and serenity. Since it was still quite early, and Lu Chenzhou had shown up unannounced, only his grandparents were home. The two were both wearing glasses and playing poker. Strangely enough, both of their faces had been drawn on with colored markers. Upon seeing Lu Chenzhou suddenly bring a girl home, they quickly started cleaning up. But the sofa and the tables mess was too big to be cleaned away that quickly. Lu Chenzhou glanced at his surroundings idly as he said, Dont bother. Im just here to tell you that I have a girlfriend now. Theres no more need to set me up on anymore blind dates. Having spoken his piece, he quickly turned around to leave, but his grandmother ran behind him, calling out, Aiya, aiya! Whats the hurry, were almost done packing! His grandfather, on the other hand, simply rushed forward and grabbed Lu Chenzhous clothes. Lu Chenzhou stopped walking and lowered his head to look at his grandfathers hand. His grandfather let go of his clothes, which now had a big black spot on them; it was a memento from the poker game the grandfather had been playing with his wife, which involved the winner drawing on the losers face. Lu Chenzhous grandfather laughed and patted at the spot on Lu Chenzhous clothes. Its dirty, go get it washed. Cheng Xi saw green veins bulge out on Lu Chenzhous forehead. However, he managed to restrain himself, not saying anything and instead turning around and briskly walking up the stairs. Cheng Xi stopped herself from laughing. Turning around, she saw Lu Chenzhous grandfather smiling at her. Come here and sit with us! That boys a clean freak, so he probably wont be down until hes washed it for at least one or two minutes. Lu Chenzhous grandmother obligingly pushed everything off of the table and the sofa before the housekeeper could get to it, kicked it all underneath the sofa, and then waved her hands at Cheng Xi. Come, come. Sit here. As they said, there was usually a reason behind people becoming clean freaks. Cheng Xi suddenly felt a bit of compassion towards Lu Chenzhou. She sat next to Lu Chenzhous grandparents, who were adorned with benevolent faces still marked from their poker game, which stressed her out an unusual amount. Dont you want to wash your faces? Ah? Oh! The two finally realized the state their faces were still in, and rushed to the washroom to wash their faces. When they returned, they had become two hale and hearty grandparents, meticulous in their appearance: Lu Chenzhous grandfather had brushed his hair and combed it back, and his grandmother had changed into new clothes and styled her hair into a tidy bun. The three people looked at each other, six eyes between them. Before Lu Chenzhous grandparents could react, Cheng Xi finally recognized them. Its you two, she said, somewhat surprised. You recognize us? Cheng Xi smiled. Not too long ago, we met at my teachers place. Then, she reminded, My teacher is Cai Xi. Oh, I remember! Lu Chenzhous grandmother stroked her palm as she complimented, You were that eloquent, kind, caring, pretty doctor! Cheng Xi blushed at her direct praise, smiling bashfully. Yes, Im a doctor. Lu Chenzhous grandfather also seemed to remember her now. Oh yes, youre Professor Cais student; you treated my wife for her insomnia before. Let me tell you, my wife thinks very highly of you! She even wanted Professor Cai to introduce you to our grandson, but Professor Cai refused to do it, saying something about curing illnesses Was she unable to cure his illness and so introduced him to you for you to try? "" His wife patted him on the back, expression serious. What are you talking about? Our grandsons totally normal! She turned toward Cheng Xi with a smiling expression as she said, Our little Zhous such a good man, handsome and capable and wealthy. Dont listen to what his grandfathers saying! Cheng Xi also smiled at this scene. Because they had met before, she wasnt too surprised at their anticsone had to remember that, during their first meeting, they had already said that they wanted her to be their grandchilds wife. So, their current behavior could already be considered quite reserved. But despite her being willing to accede to Lu Chenzhous request, she had never intended to mislead others. Once the two calmed down, Cheng Xi explained the situation to them. Actually, Im not Mr. Lus girlfriend, but rather his doctor. And this was done on my teachers request. His doctor? Impossible! He clearly said you were his girlfriend! Both of Lu Chenzhous grandparents refused to accept this reality. Cheng Xi was very patient in her explanation. Thats false. The reason he did that was in hopes that you two stop pressuring him on that front. Actually, thats the reason why I came here with him todayto ask you to, as his family, be more patient with him and reduce his stress. Theres no stress of any sort, Lu Chenzhous grandfather said innocently. We havent given him any stress either. As long as you become his girlfriend, he gets married, and then you both have a little baby, we wont give him any stress at all. Hearing this, Cheng Xi couldnt help but want to caress her forehead. Goodness, did this whole family consist of generations of frauds? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 23: Chen Jiaman Lu Chenzhou didnt come back down the rest of that day. Instead, he called a driver to send Cheng Xi back home. Originally, Cheng Xi had wanted to chat some more with Lu Chenzhous grandparents to understand Lu Chenzhous background and his home environment while growing up. However, they were too agitated. Regardless of what topic she brought up, they were always able to maneuver the conversation back to questions like: When do you and Zhou plan on getting your marriage certificate? Do you want a grand wedding feast? Or, they would say something like, The two of you arent young anymore. Why dont you prepare to have a baby? His father doesnt care, but were still young and can help you raise the kids. In front of two grandparents excitedly hoping for great-grandchildren, even the psychiatrist Dr. Cheng was completely and utterly defeated. When Cheng Xi returned home that day, she almost felt like there would be more surprises lying in wait for her. The entire day had seemed like a dreamfrom Lu Chenzhou forcefully booking all of her appointment slots, to Baldys appearance, to signing that contract with Lu Chenzhou everything seemed so unrealistic. She fell into her bed, exhausted. But then she saw that Chen Jiamans nurse had sent her a video of Chen Jiaman; it was getting close to nighttime and she had started becoming active again, this time by repeatedly hitting the doorframe in an attempt to get out. Cheng Xi packed up some supplies and rushed to the hospital. On the way there, she received a call from Lin Fan, his tone apologetic from the very beginning. Sorry, I was busy and havent been looking at my phone. Did you call? Cheng Xi rapidly walked past a traffic light. Yes. Is something the matter? ...Nothing. I just wanted to see how you were doing. Oh. The two didnt know what to say to each other. Time had caused them to drift apart. In the past, even when passing notes, they had an unlimited amount of subjects to talk about. But now, with cell phones to their respective ears, a slight awkwardness permeated even the sound of their breathing. Cheng Xi had already reached the hospital. If theres nothing else, then Im going to hang up. Im busy right now. Okay. Cheng Xi didnt have any time to reminisce about the past; she went straight to Chen Jiamans ward. When she arrived, she encountered a crowd of doctors and nurses on duty coming out from the room. Dr. Cheng, youre here? One of her colleagues greeted her. Weve taken care of it. Cheng Xi responded without much thought, and instead turned her gaze into the ward. She saw Chen Jiaman tightly bound to the bed; her four limbs were spasming, her gaze expressionlessly staring at the ceiling, and her mouth emitting low moaning noises like a wounded beast. Werent you guys going to wait for me? Cheng Xi asked as she headed inside, her voice taking on a rare edge of censure. Behind her, the doctor that had just greeted her replied dismissively, What would have changed? Wouldnt we still have used a tranquilizer needle in the end? Rather, if you run around on such a cold night, wouldnt your rich boyfriend be worried? Cheng Xi stopped and turned to look at him, finally recognizing him. When she recalled more, he was even her seniorboth of them had been Cai Yis students When Cheng Xi had started her doctoral program, he had been on the cusp of graduating; but when Cheng Xi had graduated, he was still at that cusp. Cai Yi had frequently said that he had a good family, a good background, but not good brains. She didnt understand why he wanted to be a doctor when he could simply lie back and relax. Cheng Xi huffed in exasperation even as she smiled at him. Before he could reciprocate, however, she steeled her expression and said seriously, Chen Jiaman is my patient. Thank you for your help tonight, but I hope that youll ask me before administering any other kind of treatment to her in the future. Having said this, she turned and went into the ward, closing the door with a bang. As the door shut, she heard him outside, shouting, Eh, is she blaming me? Several of the nurses holding Chen Jiaman down released their hands. At this point, Chen Jiaman was slowly calming down. Dr. Cheng. Cheng Xi waved her hands in dismissal. I know how hard you all have been working these past few days, but you should all be familiar with the reason why I dont want to use tranquilizers. They can certainly make her calm down faster, but what about afterwards? Have you realized yet that every time you forcibly inject drugs into her body, she resists it more and more the next? Whether this is making her better or making her worse, others might not know, but shouldnt you all? But we dont have a choice either. She isnt the only patient thats staying here; once she starts making a disturbance, all the other patients will, too. Upon seeing Cheng Xis expression relaxing, the speaking nurse used her eyes to direct the others to leave, before she lowered her voice and said to Cheng Xi, Dr. Cheng, the other doctors said that your accepting of this patient would be a lot of work for no reward because even if you cure her, even if she becomes rational again, she would realize that she was the one who killed her grandmother, with whom she was living with Do you think that, with her mental condition, she could ever recover? Then what should we do? Cheng Xi looked at her. Should we let her live in her delusions, going about life like this? Smiling, she continued. Ms. Zhang, Im a doctor. The first day I put on this white coat, my professor told me that this attire represents eight words: a worker for health, a caretaker of life. Before I met her, perhaps I could have pretended to not know. But after having met her, having her becoming my patient, I must do my very best to help her. At the very least, I want to wake her up, so that she can make that decision for herself. After everyone left, Cheng Xi stood alone in front of Chen Jiamans bed for a long time. Such a small, frail child, lying there without sound or breath, pitiful and lonely. She bend down in front of Chen Jiaman, waving her hand lightly. Chen Jiaman, do you want to get better? Chen Jiaman didnt reply. She had fallen asleep, but wasnt sleeping well. Cheng Xi didnt know what Chen Jiaman was experiencing in her dreams, but tears were streaming down her face. She wiped the tears from Chen Jiamans face time and time again, sitting in front of her bed for half the night. When it was close to midnight, Chen Jiaman woke up briefly. At that time, the room was dim, and the only light source was the soft starlight shining in from a window. Chen Jiaman touched Cheng Xis hand. Are you a ghost? This was perhaps the time of day at which she was most normal. Without hysteria infecting it, her tender voice carried with it a confused innocence, characteristic of girls her age. Yes. How did you die? Someone chopped off my head. Chen Jiaman then brightened up, clambered to her side, and whispered into her ear, Someone also chopped off my head. Its not so bad. She started giggling, and then suddenly stared at Cheng Xis back, somewhat frightened. There are so many ghosts, so many Shh, dont startle them. She pulled her blankets back and lay back down, covering herself tightly. It was the same position that Cheng Xi had seen her in earlier that morning, when she had been sleeping like a corpse. When Cheng Xi walked out of Chen Jiamans ward, it was already bright outside, and the comforting sunlight of deep autumn was shining in from the depths of the corridors. But it only illuminated a white wall. Instead of heading home, she went straight to the classroom. Originally, she had decided to work for awhile, but she had been told that the head of her department had sent word that she was to rest for a while. Cheng Xi immediately felt like she had taken two arrows to the knee, her face so hot that one could fry eggs on it. All these years, shed been a diligent worker. Perhaps she wasnt the best performer in the department, but she had certainly never encountered as unusual a request for leave as this. The person who informed her looked at her expression, and comforted her. Dont worry about it; a breaks a break. If I were you, Id take a long vacation and just forget about work. Cheng Xi tried to stem the rumors. I really dont have a filthy rich boyfriend. Booking my appointment slots was all someone elses nasty prank. Her colleague merely dismissively replied. Yes, yes, I know. A prank. She raised her head toward the ceiling and sighed. I also want a prank like this. Please, give me one! "" With nothing to do, Cheng Xi could only return home. She slept the whole morning, and then called Cheng Yang in the afternoon. Do you have time? If you do, drive me somewhere. Since she was free, she had decided to explore Chen Jiamans neighborhood before her father returned. But Cheng Yang rejected her. Im busy! Find a boyfriend to play with---only a boyfriend will be at your beck and call. And then Cheng Xi suddenly thought of her brand new boyfriend Lu Chenzhou. She cradled her phone and considered her options for a moment before she took the contract out of her bag and called him. Mr. Lu, can I ask you a question? She didnt know if Lu Chenzhou was busy, but it took him a while before he coolly responded, What is it? As my boyfriend, will you perform some tasks for me? What? For example, driving me around and all that. Lu Chenzhou thought for a moment before replying, Where are you? Cheng Xi reported her address. Okay, Ill send a chauffeur to fetch you. A chauffeur? You arent coming yourself? Why should I go? Lu Chenzhous voice was filled with confusion. I have money, enough to hire a dedicated chauffeur. Why should I go through the bother of driving myself? Cheng Xi laughed. Then, can I travel via plane? Yes, Lu Chenzhou replied without hesitation. Just let me know where the nearest airport landing bay is. "" After taking an arrow to the knee, she then hit her foot with a stone she had picked up herself; this time, she even had to patiently persuade Lu Chenzhou to dismiss the idea of picking her up in a helicopter! Only now did Cheng Xi finally realize that Lu Chenzhou was really that rich, and that he couldnt take a joke! Cheng Xi almost wanted to cry. No, no, Im really kidding. Dont take it seriously. Really, I dont need a helicopter, I promise! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 24: Can鈥檛 Bear to Look her in the Eye Cheng Xi seriously felt that her understanding of patients suffering from emotional detachment was really too limited! She resolved herself to focus on Lu Chenzhou after Chen Jiamans illness improved. It wasnt just because of that astronomical contract-breaking fee, but also so that she could happily be friends with a rich guy. r(s_t)q Speaking of Chen Jiaman, Cheng Xi suddenly remembered that Lu Chenzhou seemed to have displayed some interest in her condition, so she mentioned it just as Lu Chenzhou was about to hang up. What Im planning to do involves that patient with Cotards syndrome. Her family lives somewhat far away, so I might be borrowing your chauffeur for quite a while. Is that fine? Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything, but when his chauffeur arrived and Cheng Xi got in the car, she found that Lu Chenzhou was sitting in the backseat. She couldnt help but smile. Under the sunlight, her eyes seemed to reflect the morning clouds in the sky. Hi. Im very happy to see you, Mr. Lu. The chauffeur couldnt help but glance at her a few more times. However, Lu Chenzhou merely looked at her coolly, and then lowered his head and refocused his attention on the laptop in his hands. He still had unfinished work; the time he was spending with her had been squeezed out from an extremely tight schedule. Cheng Xi didnt bother him any further, and sat at the front to help the chauffeur navigate. Chen Jiamans family lived in a small town by the next county. Even when driving at high speeds, it took them almost two hours to get there. The small town wasnt too prosperous, but it wasnt poor, either. On the streets were mostly newly built apartments. The Chen family lived at the end of the street, where a number of other families were clustered. Because the accidental murder incident had happened not too long ago, it was essentially still fresh in all the townspeoples minds. So, after asking around briefly, Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou quickly found the house they were looking for. The house seemed to also have been rebuilt recently and looked quite new. It was a three-story building with a medium-sized backyard, a tall wall, and a big metal door. Its features made it stand out even amongst a crowd of newly refurbished buildings. It looked as though her family was quite well-to-do. The metal gate was closed but not locked. Cheng Xi asked the woman who had led them there. Can we go inside and look around? Go ahead, she replied casually. But the door to their house is locked, and you cant enter. Cheng Xi nodded, pushed open the metal gate, and entered the backyard. This was a classic suburban courtyard, quite tidy,except for the junk and charcoal briquettes haphazardly scattered about a corner of the wall. Two small loquat trees had been planted near the wall, spreading a weak greenness in the rustling autumn wind. There were few traces remaining of that hair-raising scene of more than a month ago. If not for the seal on the door and a small, dark red bloodstain by the corner of the porch, perhaps nobody would notice that something like that had ever happened here. The woman that had led them here was quite cordial. After noticing that Cheng Xi had taken interest in the two loquat trees, she said, These trees came from my own backyard and were planted the year they renovated their house because the elderly lady said that her granddaughter enjoyed eating loquats. Did the elderly lady get along well with her granddaughter? Oh yes, of course. She would skimp on eating and buying new clothes for herself to support her, but that lass was no good. She didnt attend school or do anything productive; she fought the old lady all the way. From my perspective, Miss LawyerCheng Xi had introduced herself as Chen Jiamans defense lawyer upon asking for directionsthat lass wouldnt have had a good time here even if she were released from the hospital as she wouldnt be cared for by her father or wanted by her mother, especially not after going crazy. Why not leave her in prison. What if she kills someone again when she gets out? Insane murderers arent responsible for their actions under the law, are they? Cheng Xi didnt answer her questions, and instead asked, Has Chen Jiaman always lived with her grandmother? Wheres her mother? Do they have any other relatives? Oh, no. Their grandfather even moved in to live with his wifes family; what other relatives could they have? They just one aunt, who stopped coming after Chen Jiamans father gambled her money away. As for her mother, shes bad too. Since she despises her familys lack of wealth, she ran away after giving birth to Chen Jiaman, and even took their eldest son with her. They say that she didnt have enough money and even had to sell her son to get by. ...But their house isnt too shabby. They cant be considered poor, can they? The woman leading them fumbled for a moment, before finally responding, That only happened in the last two years, when Chen Jiamans father broke his gambling habit and went out to sea. There, he managed to get a bit of money to fix the house; they used to be really poor before. And her mother never returned? Never, why would she? After selling her son off and meeting the boss of a big corporation, why would she come back now that shes living a well-off life? Dont joke around. Saying that, she turned and looked around tentatively, before coming closer and softly whispering, Given that womans promiscuous behavior, we all suspect that Chen Jiaman isnt truly a member of the Chen family. However, her grandmother would have none of it, treating her like a little princess. But then She shrugged her hands. An accident happened. Cheng Xi was silent. Regardless of how much she had just heard was truthful, she could imagine what sort of personality Chen Jiaman would develop in this environment: introverted and self-abasing; and if not undisciplined and out of control, then timid and strange. Sighing, she then asked, When did Chen Jiaman start skipping school? About two years ago. Why was she unwilling to attend? She just didnt want to go. After saying this, the madam patted the nonexistent dust on her clothes. Cheng Xi noticed that her gaze had started avoiding hers, and her expression had become somewhat artificial. So, she quickly changed the subject. I say, Miss Lawyer, the police have already asked about all these things, so why are you still asking about them? We were all here when she killed her grandmother. She looked just like a little wolf child, frightening beyond belief. Even after that, even after shes gone crazy, are you still going to defend her? Cheng Xi duly replied, Thats the due process of the law. She wanted to keep talking about Chen Jiamans school life, but the madam clearly didnt want to stay on this topic. Even when Cheng Xi asked her about where Chen Jiamans school was, she replied disdainfully, seemingly not wanting to answer. Why would you go to her school? Since she quit going to school, do you think that her teacher would have been able to stop her? Her tone was caustic. Cheng Xi frowned, clearly realizing that she wouldnt be able to get anything else out of her. She walked around the Chen estate again, thanked her, and then got back into the car. The madam came out with her, but didnt leave. Instead, she walked to another house and stood under its roof. Out of that house came a lady about the same age as her; the two of them started talking and occasionally glanced at Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou. Cheng Xi drew her gaze back. Where to next? the chauffeur asked. Cheng Xi opened an app on her phone, looking for nearby schools. Luckily, it wasnt too hard to figure out where Chen Jiaman had gone; the town only had one kindergarten, one elementary school, and the only middle school was over in the next town. Two years ago, Chen Jiaman had been twelve, and thus she should have been enrolled in middle school. She turned around and talked to Lu Chenzhou about what she had heard, and then asked, At twelve years old, she should have been in sixth grade, just entering middle school. If I want to understand what her school life was like, do you think that I should go to her elementary or her middle school? As she said this, Lu Chenzhous gaze was fixed to his screen, completely unresponsive. She didnt think he would respond, but unexpectedly, he replied, To the middle school. Cheng Xi was slightly shocked. Why? Lu Chenzhous face looked like he was unable to bear it any further. He raised his head and asked, Were you really top of your class in school? His tone was mocking. With this sort of intellect, are you sure that the teacher wasnt just going easy on you? Cheng Xi remembered that he had heard this on the night of Shen Weis wedding, so she seriously responded, I think that its more likely that my classmates went easy on me. They saw how pretty I am, so they let me pick up the first place position. Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything, merely focusing his attention on her one half-dimple, his thoughts self-evident. Cheng Xi guessed that discussing whether or not her half-dimple was beautiful or not with an obsessive-compulsive maniac would be a pointless endeavor, so she hurriedly covered up that half of her face, and then continued asking. You havent explained why we should go to her middle school over her elementary school. What was her elementary school performance like? I saw that her living room had many certificates and prizes, so Im sure that she did fine there. Then thats it, Lu Chenzhou said coolly. As someone who got through elementary school just fine, why would she quit just as soon as she entered middle school? After hearing this, Cheng Xi clapped her hands together. Ah, thats true. Smiling, she praised him, Youre awesome, I never thought about that. Lu Chenzhou turned around, unable to bear looking her in the eye. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 25: Don鈥檛 Smile at Me Regardless of other things, flattering Lu Chenzhou appeared to be effective; at the very least, he paid attention to her more now. Also, after arriving at the school, Lu Chenzhou shut his laptop and got out of the car with Cheng Xi. But he didnt go far. As Cheng Xi went to speak with the guard, he leaned against the side of the car, took out a cigarette, and started smoking. The guard at the school gate was a middle-aged man in his forties. Cheng Xi revealed her identity and mentioned that she wanted to meet Chen Jiamans former homeroom teacher. She was sent away, sent away a long time ago. Sent away? Cheng Xi was shocked. But what about her other teachers? She was only here for a semester, so the other teachers dont know her. Thats alright, Id like to ask them a few questions anyway. The guard was somewhat unwilling, but nonetheless, still made a call for her. Before long, a young teacher, who introduced himself as Mr. Liu, hurriedly walked outside. Nice to meet you. Im Chen Jiamans defense lawyer, Ms. Cheng. Nice to meet you. As Mr. Liu said this, he looked at her somewhat strangely. Isnt Chen Jiaman suffering from mental illness? Why does she have a defense lawyer? "" She had forgotten that teachers knew more than the average old lady from a small town, and couldnt help but smile awkwardly. She hasnt been fully diagnosed yet, so we still have to confirm her situation. Luckily, the teacher didnt request to see her lawyer license or anything. He was very cooperative when Cheng Xi asked him her questions, but he didnt know very much. I only taught her a semester of math. That child didnt like speaking very much, so it was easy for the teachers to forget about her. How were her grades? Alright. Not too good but not too bad either. How were her relationships with her classmates? The teacher looked apologetic. Im not sure, sorry. I wasnt her homeroom teacher, so I really knew very little about her. Then, do you remember any important incidents that involved Chen Jiaman? I only remember one thing, which I also told the police officers. There was one day where she wasnt paying attention in class and was instead drawing in her notebook. I confiscated it, and her reaction was extreme: she screamed loudly, yelled, and even bit me. As he spoke, he pointed at a section of his wrist. Right here. The swelling only dissipated after several days. She likes drawing? Probably. At any rate, if she had nothing to do, she would just draw. However, she never let others see what she was drawing. Then, do you know why she quit school? Im not too sure about this. At any rate, after a school break, she never came back to school again. Her former homeroom teacher even went to speak with her, but she seemed to have made her mind up to not come back. Cheng Xi frowned. A child whose grades werent too bad surely wouldnt start hating school for no reason. Her final request was to meet with Chen Jiamans classmates, but the students who had been in Chen Jiamans year had already graduated and had gone to high school elsewhere, with only a scant few remaining in this region. And not only that, but neither they nor their parents were willing to talk about this classmate who had killed her own grandmother. So, meeting them wouldnt have been very beneficial. The math teacher was trying to decline Cheng Xis request politely. Cheng Xi didnt push further either; it would have been useless. Once she left the school, she used purchasing things as an excuse to interview more people around the neighborhood, and even returned to Chen Jiamans elementary school. The information she received there was essentially the same as what Mr. Liu had told her. Normally, Chen Jiaman seemed to be a quiet, introverted, untalkative, beautiful, but particularly gloomy girl. Those who lived a stifling life were very likely to develop some sort of extreme mental condition. This was the conclusion that Cheng Xi arrived at after spending the entire afternoon collect information. Seeing that it was past noon, Cheng Xi started to feel hungry. She asked Lu Chenzhou, Do you want to eat anything? Ill pay. Lu Chenzhou gazed at his surroundings and said nothing. This meant that he was disdainful, so Cheng Xi turned around and asked the chauffeur, Mr. Lu doesnt seem to be hungry yet, but do you want to get lunch with me? The chauffeur looked at Lu Chenzhou, and, after seeing that he didnt object, got out of the car and walked to a little restaurant that looked somewhat clean. This place was quite far from the Chen family house, close to the middle of the town. From this restaurant, one could barely see the front gate of the middle school that Chen Jiaman had attended. The owners of the restaurant were a middle-aged couple. Because it was already past lunchtime, there were only two people eating noodles in the restaurant. The wife was sitting at the door of the kitchen plucking vegetables, and the husband looking over bills from the counter. Seeing the two come in, he enthusiastically asked, Would you like something to eat? Cheng Xi and the chauffeur looked at the menu and ordered three dishes and soup. The chauffeur was worried that his boss would be hungry, and so, he considerately asked for a new bowl from the owner, washed it, and then brought it over to Lu Chenzhou. However, it was returned in the exact same condition. Cheng Xi, upon seeing his dejected expression, smiled. Was he unwilling to have it? Yeah. The driver wanted to sigh. He said that he wasnt hungry. Then lets eat by ourselves. Cheng Xi was indifferent towards Lu Chenzhous predilections. By this point, their food had arrived. Cheng Xi tried a bite: the taste wasnt too good. It was too oily. But the portions were big, and they didnt care too much because they were hungry. After the owners wife brought the food out, she even took the initiative to ask, Are you two here to hear about Chen Jiamans story? Given how many people there were in the little town, there were essentially no secrets in this place, and Cheng Xi was eye-catching in terms of both her attire and her looks. So no matter what she asked, people would learn about it in no time. Cheng Xi nodded. Yes. She smiled at the owners wife. Do you know her? Of course, who wouldnt know her in this town? Then are you familiar with her? Somewhat, My restaurant is right here, so I essentially know all the students who study here. Then what was your impression of Chen Jiaman? Nothing much. She didnt like to talk and was always alone. Ah, whats she to you? Why are you here asking about her? Isnt she crazy now? Cheng Xi only answered her first question. Im the defense lawyer that the court appointed to her. Do you know whether she had good friends or classmates with whom she was close? Im not sure about that. At any rate, I always saw her alone. According to me, if shes crazy, then she should be locked up in a mental institution; if shes not crazy, and actually was willing to kill her own grandmother, then she should be locked up all the more. How frightening. Upon hearing this, Cheng Xi could only laugh bitterly. This was the stance of almost the entire towneveryone hoped that Chen Jiaman would vanish from the world, or, at the very least, never come back. Cheng Xi kept feeling that these townsfolks enmity and rejection were somewhat strange because, throughout her entire time here, she heard almost no one express sympathy for the girl. It was mostly deep hatred and fear. Cheng Xi felt very perplexed. Despite the fact that Chen Jiaman killed someone, given her state of mind, it wouldnt be out of place to say that it was accidental. So why are you all so afraid of her? The owners wife wanted to say more, but the owner loudly slapped the table by the counter. Stop chatting. Cant you smell the dishes burning in the kitchen? The owners wife quickly retreated back into the kitchen. Cheng Xi turned around, and saw the owner smile at her. The women here are generally quite timid; please dont pay them any attention, Ms. Lawyer. Such an explanation was pushing it a little bit, but Cheng Xi didnt comment on it any further. She could see that the owner didnt want her to continue pursuing this thread of conversation, even to the point of forbidding his wife from speaking any further. After eating, Cheng Xi didnt leave immediately. Instead, she decided to wait until school was over. Perhaps, if she was lucky, she would be able to meet one or two students who knew, or rather, were familiar with Chen Jiaman. But Lu Chenzhous hunger was also problematic. Luckily, just as she was leaving the restaurant, she saw an old lady pushing a small pushcart and selling roasted sweet potatoes. The small charcoal-cooked sweet potatoes gave off an enticing aroma from far away. She ran over to buy a few, but when she returned, she found that Lu Chenzhou had gotten out of the car at some point, and was smoking not far away from the car. His posture was very handsome; one hand was grasping the cigarette, the other in his shirt pocket, a small indent between his eyes, and his expression ultimately cool. From afar, he seemed just like a mountain stream in a distant forest, shrouded in an aura of mystery. Cheng Xi waved the roasted sweet potatoes in front of his nose. Do you want some? Lu Chenzhou didnt even glance at it. Are you worried about it being dirty? Cheng Xi smiled, took one out of the bag, and slowly peeled it. The nature of clean freaks is to like dirty things. This potato looks gray and patchy, black and dirty, but once you peel off the outer layer of skin, the inside is sweet and tastywont you try it? Saying this, she held out the now peeled sweet potato to him, smiling. Lu Chenzhou didnt take it, instead looking critically at her. Dont smile at me, he said calmly, When you smile, you look repulsively ugly! "" Just as she was about to take her hand back, Lu Chenzhou lowered his body and bit the proffered sweet potato that she had peeled. He swallowed one bite and then commented somewhat distastefully, It isnt sweet enough. After saying this, he took another bite. The small sweet potato that Cheng Xi had peeled was finished off in just two bites. And he even ate it very elegantly; after he was done, his mouth was clean and stainless. Cheng Xi thought to herself, This is a patient, dont bother bickering with him. Just as she was about to ask if he wanted more, her gaze suddenly turned sharp, and she pulled him aside. A big splash could be heard, and then Cheng Xi suddenly found that her back was damp, and her body chilled to the core. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 26: An Ache in the Hear A slop bucket that had been left out for who knew how long, dirty and smelly, had just been thrown at Cheng Xi. Almost immediately, a thick, sour odor assaulted Cheng Xis nose. She was petrified with shock, standing there frozen and wet. The one who had thrown the dirty water all over her was an old grandmother with a slightly bent back. When she had approached them with a dirty bucket, Cheng Xi thought that she was planning to dump out her trash somewhere. But only a moment later, she had seen her hoist the bucket up high, and aimed its contents at Lu Chenzhou. Cheng Xis taking the shot for Lu Chenzhou was a subconscious act; she had originally planned to merely pull him out of the way. However, because he was tall and heavy, even though she managed to pull him away, she had also thrown herself into the line of fire. The old grandmother didnt leave even after pouring the filthy water all over her, staring at her with a fierce expression as her mouth mumbled foul words in a dialect Cheng Xi couldnt understand. Lu Chenzhous chauffeur had been listening to music on his phone in the car, but upon hearing the commotion, his heart almost stopped beating. He immediately ran over and grabbed the old grandmother, but just as he was about to shove her, Cheng Xi quickly stopped him. Dont touch her! The old grandmother looked frail and elderly. If anything were to happen, they would be in big trouble. The chauffeur looked at Lu Chenzhou. He coldly nodded, so the chauffeur slowly let go of the old lady. But he didnt leave, and stood in front of Lu Chenzhou and Cheng Xi alertly. Im telling you, dont think that you can get away with things just because youre old! You cant suddenly pour water on people. Are you crazy? It wasnt totally clear if the old grandmother had understood him, but she spat at the chauffeur and loudly scolded him. The surroundings were quickly filled with people gawking at the scene. Even the restaurant owners wife came running out. When she saw Cheng Xi and the two men being scolded out of the blue, she hurriedly tried to dissuade the old grandmother from provoking them further. Old grandmother, please dont scold them anymore. Theyre here because they were appointed by the court. They dont want to be part of it either. The old lady didnt care, and kept on scolding them even after throwing the bucket at them. Cheng Xi didnt say a single word. The restaurant owners wife got some people to restrain the old lady and pulled Cheng Xi aside. Youre young, so please dont get too worked up by what old people say. Despite the calamity that had befallen Cheng Xi, she really didnt want to pursue the matter with the old lady any further. However, she had to understand what was going on. Who is this old lady, and whats she so angry about? The restaurants owner wife knew her. Shes just an old woman who lives alone right around here. She used to have a son, but he was spirited away by Chen Jiamans mother when they were young. Then, Chen Jiamans mother found another man to live a good life with, whereas her son ended up dying in an accident. Thus, she hates the guts of the Chen family. I dont know who told her that you were serving as Chen Jiamans defense attorney, but she was so angry that she came right over to cause trouble. After hearing the background, Cheng Xi was rendered speechless. The restaurant owners wife then tried to persuade her, saying, If youve already cleared things up, then leave quickly. That old ladys really stubborn, and she might come back again later. Given how old she is, regardless of whether you win or lose against her, it wont end up well for you. This was true. Cheng Xis scalp felt numb when she glanced back at that old lady whose frail body belied her surprising attack power. She thanked the woman, and then told Lu Chenzhou, You guys can leave first. She was still drenched in the disgusting slop, so she couldnt get in the car with them. Lu Chenzhou didnt say a word. He seemed to be in a daze, thinking about something. And it was then that he looked different from regular people. Cheng Xi didnt want to disturb him, and only wanted the chauffeur to take him away quickly. She didnt know if the chauffeur knew about Lu Chenzhous unique disposition, as he was a bit anxious, even asking her, What about you? Before Cheng Xi could respond, Lu Chenzhou said, Go on ahead and find a hotel, get a room, and buy a set of new clothes. Once he finished speaking, Cheng Xi and the chauffeur looked at each other, exhaling simultaneously. His plans were thoughtful and Cheng Xi had no problems with them. The chauffeur followed his orders and drove off. Only then did Lu Chenzhou look in the direction of the old lady again before directly leaving. He walked quickly. Because Cheng Xi was scared of bothering him with her smell, she didnt rush to catch up with him, and instead walked slowly behind him. As they walked, even though Cheng Xi had discarded totally ruined jacket long ago, she still attracted all sorts of attention. As she shivered in the cold, she had to continuously tell herself, Dont worry. Only random strangers who dont know you are looking at you. It was just that there were a few bystanders who were also taking pictures of her with their phone, so she had to lower her head and hope that her face hadnt been exposed. Luckily, the hotel that the chauffeur made a reservation at wasnt too far away, and he was back in ten or so minutes. The hotel wasnt large, but the lobby was very new; the hotel had probably opened quite recently. Lu Chenzhou waited at the front of the hotel, watching her walk over while covering her head and face. Here? Seeing him standing still, she asked. Lu Chenzhou nodded. The chauffeur had just finished checking in and was about to buy a new set of clothes for her. Seeing her, he quickly said, The room card is at the front office. Please go up first, and Ill have someone bring the clothes over when theyre ready. Right, what sizes do you wear? Letting a random man buy her clothes made her somewhat want to go . Thanks, just a small jacket will do, please. The chauffeur nodded. After Cheng Xi entered the room, she heard him ask, Director Lu, will you be finding a place to stay too? She didnt pay too much attention to Lu Chenzhous reply. The only thought in her mind now was to take a shower and change her clothes. Her body was simply too smelly! Cheng Xi took the longest and most careful bath she had ever had in her entire life, even washing her hair thrice. When she finally came out, she was unable to smell even a trace of sourness. After picking up her phone, she saw an unread message from Lu Chenzhou. Your clothes are at the door. When she opened the door, she indeed found a large paper bag outside. She took it inside, opened it, and noticed that the inside contained not only a jacket, but also a pair of jeans, a warm undershirt, and a box of disposable underwear. When she remembered that a man had bought all of this, Cheng Xi felt uncomfortable from head to toe. But since it had already been bought, no matter how she felt, she had to change. Her original set of clothes was too smelly and oily, completely unwearable. Besides her new jeans being slightly too large, the rest of the clothes fit her well. After Cheng Xi finished changing into her new set of clothes, she went around in a circle downstairs, and then finally found Lu Chenzhous car parked outside. The windows were down; Lu Chenzhou sat inside on the phone, his laptop on his knees as normal. His chauffeur, on the other hand, seemed to be gone. Cheng Xi waited for Lu Chenzhou to hang up before approaching him. As she came closer, Lu Chenzhou unconsciously moved away from her. She felt slightly embarrassed. She stood still, smelling herself delicately. Do I still smell bad? Lu Chenzhou looked at her. Perhaps it was because she had just taken a bath, but Cheng Xis whole body exuded a warm and inviting feeling. It was as clear as a polished crystal, and so clean that it made others want to take a bite out of her. It was a pity that she didnt realize that herself, instead turning around to gaze at her surroundings. Is it just you? Lu Chenzhou ignored her. Cheng Xi continued, saying, The chauffeur, Mr. Chen, bought the clothes, didnt he? Where is he? Ill pay him back. Thats not necessary. Lu Chenzhou said coolly. He looked at her. This is your payment for helping me avoid a calamity. Er, Cheng Xi stuttered. Shouldnt it be me reaping what Ive sown? Lu Chenzhou shut his laptop, casting sidelong glances at her. But you seem to be happy about reaping what youve sown? Cheng Xi shrugged her shoulders. Then what should I do? Cry? Unfortunately, crying cant solve my problems. Furthermore, after cleaning myself, Im as good as new again. So whats there to be mad about? Her words were humorous, and Lu Chenzhou couldnt help but curl up his lips slightly upon hearing them. Its getting quite late. When are the two of you planning to return? Lu Chenzhous hand, which was resting on his laptop, shook. He raised his head. You two? Yes, I plan on staying here for a night because I keep feeling like there are still some questions that I havent investigated fully. Of course there are problems, Lu Chenzhou said with a laugh. At the very least, that old widowed grandmother who tossed a bucket at you has problems. If she were really living by herself, then her bucket wouldnt have been filled with so much stuff. Cheng Xi blinked. What stuff? She really hadnt noticed this, mainly because she had been so shocked at the time that she hadnt been able to think about anything else. Lu Chenzhous voice was ice cold as he replied, The most identifiable objects that she flung out at you were potatoes, mushrooms, tomatoes, and noodles. Perhaps if there were only one type of food it would be a coincidence, but what about multiple types? Cheng xi understood immediately. The items that Lu Chenzhou had mentioned were exactly what they had ordered for lunch. The leftover vegetables and rice in a restaurant were usually poured into a bucket to be dealt with later. Something like that could be sold for money; for example, some people would buy it specifically to feed their pigs, and people wouldnt generally throw it away carelessly. If the old grandmothers bucket of foul water had really come from the restaurant, then the behavior of the restaurant owners wife afterwards was worth considering carefully. She truly seemed to be trying to help us, but it felt more like she wanted to quickly scare us away Does this mean she doesnt want us to keep investigating? Although Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything, his face revealed an expression of disdain at how long it had taken her to figure it out. Ignoring his facial expression, Cheng Xi merely sighed again as she said, So the crux of the matter lies with the restaurant owners wife? Not only does she know Chen Jiaman, but she also probably has some deeper connection with her. Upon realizing this, she became agitated. In her excitement, her two hands extended into the car and grabbed hold of Lu Chenzhous wrist. Ah, what are you looking at? Lu Chenzhou slightly tilted his head, his gaze landing on her hand, her fingertips just like spring onions, as white as jade. Unexpectedly, he didnt find it dirty. Instead, an ache in his heart sprang out of nowhere. Her fingertips reminded him of the jade tea pet that he often played with in his office, which was the same shade of translucent, warm white. But the teacup was cold and hard. He idly wondered what her fingertips would feel like. And, as he thought of this, Lu Chenzhou raised his left hand and lightly caressed Cheng Xis hand. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 27: The Emperor鈥檚 New Clothes Cheng Xis hand was very warm. Warm and soft, a completely different feeling from his tea pet. Lu Chenzhou grabbed his own hand and put it down. Throughout the whole process, Cheng Xi didnt even realize that Lu Chenzhou had gently caressed her. She even felt somewhat bad that she had touched her patient like that, laughing awkwardly and saying, Sorry to offend you. I didnt mean anything by it. Lu Chenzhou answered suavely with a nonverbal grunt. Cheng Xi asked Lu Chenzhou about his sincere thoughts. I think that the townsfolk are acting very strangely. Chen Jiaman hasnt done anything particularly vicious or evil besides the incident with her grandmother, but from start to finish, I havent heard a single word of pity or regret for her. Lu Chenzhou wasnt paying much attention to her question. He lowered his head to look at his fingertips, which seemed to possess remnants of the softness and fineness that he had felt earlier. Lightly stroking them, he put his hand to his nose and sniffed. Upon raising his head, he found that Cheng Xi was staring at him, eyes wide. Lu Chenzhou sat up straight, put down his hand, and with his face unflinching, said, How smelly! "" She instantly understood the phrase she had heard on the Internet, smiling on the outside and looking down disdainfully on the inside. Even though she knew that Lu Chenzhou couldnt be understood through normal means and that he couldnt be simply asked to behave like a regular person, but after she had washed her hair and bathed three times, almost rubbing an entire layer of skin off of her body, for her to still hear such an evaluation, it really...made her heart clench! She struggled to maintain her disposition, only able to awkwardly apologize again. Sorry for disgusting you with my smell. Lu Chenzhou grunted once again. "" His responses really made her want to hit him. She took a deep breath, firmly deciding not to make life difficult for herself. Hm, I think that this will only be harder with three people. Given how busy you are, why dont you go back first? I can take the car here myself tomorrow. Unfortunately, her suggestions to him were always viewed as useless words. Lu Chenzhou got out of the car and nonchalantly said, Lets go. Go go where? He turned his head around, expression grave and stern. Didnt you want to investigate some more? ...Im scared of disgusting you with my smell again. No problem, Lu Chenzhou said lightly. Since you said that the nature of clean freaks is to like dirty things, Ive decided to give it a try. "" It was often said that, when doctors had to treat intelligent patients, or when police encountered intelligent criminals, they often ended up scratching their heads. This was because, from just a moment of inattention, these intelligent people would entrap you in their routine. But Lu Chenzhous words were much more problematic than that. Put in a different way, it sounded as if he were confessing to her that he would try to like her out. Unintentional words often held a grain of truth in them, but at this moment, neither Cheng Xi nor Lu Chenzhou had realized it yet. Cheng Xi was more or less an easygoing person, so despite her sugggestion being rejected by Lu Chenzhou, she wouldnt stop him from coming along if he insisted. Thus, the two of them left the hotel and returned to the school. This time, Cheng Xi had prepared herself adequately; in order to avoid being drenched with foul water again, she was wearing a hat and a scarf now, covering herself up from head to toe. The little towns resources were limited and her clothes were of average quality, so she seemed quite inconspicuous. As for Lu Chenzhou, well, he simply decided to not walk with her. By the time they got there, the restaurant had already closed, and it was about when school was out. The traffic on the road and streets had increased suddenly, and little stalls had also popped up by the roadside near the school. At once, the smell of food and the dust brought about by the traffic mingled through the air. Lu Chenzhou had stopped far from the scene and was frowning at the sight, almost as if he were watching a horror flick set in another dimension. Cheng Xi didnt force him and walked slowly forward alone. From Lu Chenzhous viewpoint, she seemed like a strange auntie. She was waving around a piece of ham sausage and twisting and turning around, sometimes drawing close to one or two lone children. She knew to pick out the older children, but she still had little luck in her endeavors. When most of the crowd had dispersed, she walked back toward him, expression dejected. Lu Chenzhou raised his eyebrows. Cheng Xi said, No luck. Most of the children dont remember her, or even if they have heard of her name, they only have a superficial impression of her. Either shes a murderer or a crazy person. As expected. Are you going to keep trying? Yes, we have to at least try. She didnt have much vacation time accrued, so given that the hospital had given her a small vacation, she had to make the most of it before going back and facing Chen Jiaman. Staying here for a night is just like a vacation, even if were not able to find anything out. At least shes very mentally healthy. Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything, his gaze stopping on the remaining ham sausage in her hand. The ham sausage looked somewhat evil, but it also smelled surprisingly good. Cheng Xi immediately realized what was on his mind. Are you hungry? Her palm lightly touched the ham sausage. It isnt tasty if its cold. Since everyones about to have dinner, we cant investigate right now either. Why dont we find a place to eat too? As she said this, she threw the ham sausage away and took out her phone. She asked some friends, Im at Does anyone know if theres a clean, sanitary, decent place to eat around here? It turned out that one of her classmates did know a good place nearby; he had been a safety engineer who had worked in the region for a decent amount of time, and was relatively familiar with the place. He sent over the name of a restaurant, which Cheng Xi searched up on her phone. It was a small agricultural restaurant, not too far from Chen Jiamans home. What do you think? she asked as she held out her phone to Lu Chenzhous face. Lu Chenzhou glanced at it for a moment, seemingly uncaring. Do as you like. That was the most annoying answer to give when two people were trying to decide where to eat, because those who said they were fine with anything were usually the hardest to satisfy. Cheng Xi sighed, deciding that she needed another person to deal with Lu Chenzhou. She then said, Lets call Mr. Chen over as well. Mr. Chen was Lu Chenzhous chauffeur. And Lu Chenzhou said, No, he already has plans. So itll only be the two of them, and she would have to pamper him? Cheng Xi very much wanted to refuse, but after thinking about how he had come so far accompanying her, she relented. Fine, she would pamper him in order to understand him better as a patient. Cheng Xi quickly dispelled her mental block, and the two drove over to that restaurant. Honestly, the scale of the place was larger than Cheng Xi expected, and the service they received was surprisingly good. Lu Chenzhou requested a new, never-before-used plate, which they procured rapidly. It was just that the dishes themselves werent great. Lu Chenzhou clearly didnt enjoy the food very much, and only ate a small portion of each dish. Cheng Xi was quite embarrassed, resolving once again to finish her investigations early so that they could return by nightfall. After having dinner, they went back to the newly renovated plaza. Apparently, it was very crowded at night: parents brought their children out here to have fun, some people danced, and others played ball. Cheng Xi didnt know whether to call her luck good or bad, because even though the plaza wasnt particularly big nor particularly small, she still managed to run into someone she recognizedChen Jiamans middle school math teacher. And the math teacher even recognized her first, running over to greet her. Ah, Lawyer Cheng? Youre still here? Cheng Xi hesitated for a moment before recovering with a smile, and then pointed at Lu Chenzhou, who was by her side. Yes, I saw that the environment here seemed pretty nice, so Ive been staying in the area with my boyfriend. Lu Chenzhou looked at them coolly, without any intention of playing along. Cheng Xi started sweating. Luckily, the math teacher seemed to believe her, and even started pointing out the scenic areas around to her. As they were talking, a four or five year old girl ran over and hugged his leg. Daddy! I want to play with that. As she spoke, she pointed at a thing that was jumping into the sky like a falling star. There were also toy stalls at the plaza, and Cheng Xi guessed that the little girl wanted to play with some kind of toy. Following behind the little girl was a woman about the same age as Mr. Liu. Seeing the child behave the way she did, she stated somewhat angrily, Ignore her. She wants everything that she sees. It wont do for us to indulge her too much. Upon hearing this, the little girl began to cry and make a fuss, kicking and tearing at Mr. Lius feet. Mr. Liu and his wife were unable to deal with their childs fuss. Neither harsh words nor scolding seemed to be effective. Cheng Xi couldnt stand to watch any further, and helped them coax the little girl into calming down. If you stop crying, this auntie will give you some candy, alright? She retrieved a handful of sweets from her bag, holding it up in front of her. The candies were wrapped beautifully in vibrant colors, and were quite eye-catching when she held them in her hand. The girl didnt seem all that pacified, but she still quickly grabbed them from Cheng Xis palm. Her small hands couldnt grab all of them, and a few dropped onto the ground. Cheng Xi helped the girl pick them up and put them in her clothes pockets, and even placed one into her mouth. This sort of candy was cloyingly sweet, but the child seemed to like it, finally quieting down as she patted her pocket. Mr. and Mrs. Liu were grateful for her assistance, and Cheng Xi waved her hands in embarrassment. It was nothing. The little girls mother saw that she was pretty young, and asked, Is your child in middle school? She thought that Cheng Xi was the parent of some kid from her husbands class. Cheng Xi shook her head. No. She then repeated what she had said in the morning. Im the court-appointed lawyer for Chen Jiamans case. Originally, I came here to investigate a few matters pertaining to the case, but after seeing that this place was pretty nice, I stayed for a few extra days to look around. Oh, Chen Jiamans lawyer The little girls mother glanced at her husband before asking, Isnt she crazy? Does a crazy murderer need a lawyer too? Yes. The main purpose is to verify whether or not Chen Jiamans mental illness is real. It should be real. She was always running up that hill for some unknown reason, hiding in the graveyard at night. If she were normal, why would she do something like that? Really? Did you know her? Cheng Xi felt invigorated by the promising information. Then do you know when Chen Jiaman started exhibiting such behavior? Probably a year or two ago. And in these last two years, did she encounter anything unusual? Something unusual Im not sure I know. Before she could finish, the little girl eating candy by the side crisply replied, She was bullied by her classmates, and then she went crazy. What are you saying! Both the Lius reprimanded her at the same time. Mr. Liu even forsook his kind demeanor, pulling at the little girls arm harshly. The little girl, shocked and frightened, dropped all of her candy onto the ground and started to cry again. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 28: Can You Kiss Me? Cheng Xi wanted to go over and pacify the little girl, but Mr. Liu blocked her. He quickly pushed the child behind him and said, Sorry for the bother, our child was speaking nonsense. If there isnt anything else, then well be leaving. Mr. Liu, Cheng Xi said in an attempt to stop him. Your behavior makes me suspect that youre related to Chen Jiamans bullying incident. Upon hearing this, Mr. Liu, who had wanted to walk around Cheng Xi, stopped short, glanced at his wife to instruct her to leave with their child first, and stayed behind to look at Cheng Xi. What do you mean, related? As a lawyer, arent you aware that libel is a crime? Pardon me, but Im not accusing you. Im just saying that your actions could potentially spur misunderstandings. Misunderstandings? What misunderstandings? Mr. Liu completely dropped his warm and caring demeanor, and spoke fiercely. Just based on what a little child said? Childrens words can indeed serve as evidence in court, as long as their words are logical. Then why dont you have her go to court? If we hide her away, what can you do? And with those words, Mr. Liu turned around and left in a hurry. Cheng Xi chased after him for a few steps, but given that the light sources in the plaza were rather weak and how many people there were, she lost sight of him quickly. Turning back, she found that Lu Chenzhou was still standing at their original location, completely nonchalant as usual. Ah, you should have helped me stop him from leaving. She wasnt grumbling, just saying whatever popped into her mind. But who would have expected Lu Chenzhou to reply, Hows it my problem? Given that he had been so helpful this entire trip, his sudden question left Cheng Xi lurching in surprise. After she recovered, she joked, Arent we friends? As friends, dont you have a moral obligation to help me? Lu Chenzhou glanced at her deeply, until even Cheng Xi felt embarrassed. She touched her nose, and changed the topic. Eh, shall we go then? Its fine even if we didnt stop him. He has a name and a position, and I can always find him later whenever I want. Cheng Xi had conscientiously found a way out of her embarrassing situation. Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything, but after the two got back into the car and had driven far away, he suddenly said, Ill try my best! At that point, Cheng Xi had been looking at Cheng Yangs WeChat. After he had finished his duties, he had seen her post, remembered her request, and asked, Youre not on break today, so why are you travelling so far? Cheng Xi was just thinking about how to respond when she heard Lu Chenzhous statement. Her face clueless, she asked, What? I will do my best to treat you as my girlfriend. Cheng Xi blinked for a moment, before finally understanding that this was his response to her joke from earlier. She couldnt help but go from the shock. Its alright, you dont have to force yourself Lu Chenzhou was even quite proud of his answer. Its no problem. Cheng Xi was speechless. Communicating with him was really unexpectedly difficult. She had planned to smooth things over with him and to understand him better, but was diverted from her plans by a call from Cheng Yang. After the call ended, she noticed a problem. Why arent we here yet? Looking outside, the surroundings were pitch black, and the city lights were very far away. Where are we going? Arent we returning to the hotel? Lu Chenzhou responded, No. Why? I still have the room card, and what about Mr. Chen? Are we just leaving him on his own? She asked a whole slew of questions, but Lu Chenzhou answered them all with a single short sentence. Mr. Chen will handle it on his own. "" She had thought that, having finally received a breakthrough, that she could just go find the math teacher tomorrow and dig out the truth through an emotional appeal. Alright. Given how things had played out, she could only relent, jokingly shed a few tears, and understandingly say, Going back is fine too. You havent eaten much today, though. Lu Chenzhou looked at her through the rearview mirror. Your words dont match your feelings. Cheng Xis face fell. Even if youve realized that, you dont have to say it out loud. Lu Chenzhou smiled, his usual, very light smile, but Cheng Xi could see that he wasnt feeling bad today. And so the happy Lu Chenzhou decided to try a bit harder. Given the way those people were all hiding the truth from the outside world, you wont be able to dig out more information without resorting to tricks. Dont worry about these kinds of things. Ill have Mr. Chen handle it for you. Is that fine? Cheng Xi was worried. Money solves all problems. Cheng Xi was once again struck speechless by the behavior of the rich. When they finally got back to the city, it was almost 11 PM. The two lived quite far apart, and Cheng Xi didnt want to bother him too much, so she planned on having Lu Chenzhou to drop her off somewhere and taking a taxi back home. But before she could get off, she received another call from the hospital. There had been another incident related to Chen Jiaman. The residual effects of her repeated tranquilizer shots were finally manifesting, and she was even more rambunctious than usual tonight, going as far as to harm herself. The nurse keeping watch didnt dare to restrain her again and had to call Cheng Xi. And now, even if she didnt want to trouble Lu Chenzhou, she had to do so regardless. At the very least, Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything upon hearing her story. He wordlessly directly drove her to the hospital. Cheng Xi thanked him in a hurry before getting out of the car and running into the hospital. Chen Jiamans ward was a mess. A group of nurses had surrounded her on all sides. Meanwhile, she was hiding by the foot of the bed, spasming as she continually knocked her head against the wall. No, no, I didnt see anything. I saw nothing. Scram! Scram! She grasped the foot of the bed with both hands, and was using all her strength to try to flip it over, almost as if she were trying to shield herself against something. Cheng Xi switched off the light. Whats going on?! The nurses in the room were momentarily shocked, but Cheng Xi quickly shushed them. Nobody talk. No one in the room moved. Cheng Xi motioned for everyone to get out under the dim moonlight. Perhaps the darkness gave Chen Jiaman an additional sense of safety because after the light was shut off her moaning noises slowly weakened until she simply curled up in her corner, trembling. Cheng Xi stood there for quite a while before realizing that she was scared. As she prepared herself to help Chen Jiaman, she suddenly noticed that someone else was standing by her side. She couldnt help but frown, and was about to remind them once again, but then she turned her head and realized that that person by her side was Lu Chenzhou. She didnt know when he had followed her into the hospital, but he was standing by the doorside and looking deeply at Chen Jiaman, who curled up in her corner. His tall, wide shadow was blocking the light rays from the outside. Cheng Xi didnt push him out; instead, she dragged him into the room and then closed the door. The blinds on the window had been closed and the lamplight from outside couldnt get in. The room became even darker. Chen Jiaman began sobbing, the fear in her voice evident. Cheng Xi remembered that Lu Chenzhou smoked, so she got on her tiptoes and lightly whispered into his ear, Do you have a lighter? She used her palms to cover up her mouth, trying to be as inconspicuous as possible, but a wisp of breath still escaped and lightly dissolved on Lu Chenzhous ear. There was a slight itch, as if a soft wind had just blown by his ear, bringing with it a nice-smelling scent. Lu Chenzhou swallowed his saliva, silently pulled out a lighter from his pocket, and put it in her hand. Cheng Xi took the lighter. In the deep autumn air which was cold as ice, she took off her shoes, walked over to Chen Jiaman, and stopped about three paces away. Hi, she whispered softly as she leaned down. Do you still remember me? I visited you yesterday. Chen Jiaman didnt make any noises, and even her sobs lowered in volume. However, Cheng Xi could still feel the fear and anxiety coursing through her body. Dont worry, Ill keep you company. She tried her best to keep her tone level, caring, and without a single hint of any negative emotion. Its so dark in here. Shall we light something? Chen Jiaman didnt responded. Cheng Xi hesitated for a moment, and then flicked the lighter on. The stubby fire silently lit up a small area with its blue flame. Cheng Xi didnt look at Chen Jiaman, and instead used her other hand to shield the light. Then, with a dreamy voice, she whispered, Look, its the light. Can you see it? Inside the light is a little rabbit. It was snowing, and so the little rabbit stayed at home alone. She had on a very warm coat, a very pretty scarf, and in her hands was a cup of hot water. However, she still felt cold, as if something were missing. What was she missing? She kept on thinking, until she finally understood. Perhaps what she was missing was a warm hug. After saying this, Cheng Xi knelt on the floor, leaned forward, and stretched her arms out to Chen Jiaman. She moved slowly, probingly, trying to hug her. Chen Jiaman pushed her hands away, quickly scrambled up the bed, and covered herself up securely in her blankets. It was already very late when Chen Jiaman finally fell asleep. Cheng Xi told the nurse to give her some medicine, put on her shoes again, and finally stepped out of the ward. Throughout this entire process, Lu Chenzhou had stood there at the doorway without moving or speaking. As she left, he too, left. After the door closed, she asked, Are you tired? He didnt answer. The nurse on duty peeked her head out, and greeted Dr. Cheng. She looked curiously at the man by her side. Cheng Xi turned around, smiling. The patients calm now. Nothing much should happen for the rest of the night. Ill get here early tomorrow and devise a new plan of treatment for the patient. The nurse made an OK symbol with her hands, and then pointed at Lu Chenzhou and mouthed, Boyfriend? Cheng Xi shook her head, not answering as she pulled on Lu Chenzhous sleeve and quickly left the hospital. Only when they got to the carpark did she finally let go of him. But upon seeing his dazed expression, she couldnt help but wave a hand in front of him and ask, Hi, are you scared? Lu Chenzhou looked at her. What is it? She asked lightly. Can you tell me a story? Now? Yes. Cheng Xi didnt know why Lu Chenzhou wanted to hear a story right now, but she didnt refuse or find it strange. After thinking for a moment, she told Lu Chenzhou a story that was related to his illness: One day, a little rabbit secretly fell in love with a fox. Every day, it would run into an unoccupied valley and yell, Little fox, I like you! And from the valley would come an echo, I like you. The little rabbit yelled like that for many days, and, just as it was about to give up, it heard the valleys echo for the last time. At this point, from it came back a light reply. I also like you. As he listened, Lu Chenzhou shook a bit. Actually, Cheng Xis story was somewhat boring, uneventful, and without any creativity. Perhaps it was because of the dark night and the silent surroundings, but her voice felt unusually warm in the chilly cold, making him unconsciously want to lean in and listen in closer. His eyes drooped and he laughed. In the dim yellow lamplight, his smile looked a bit cold. I like you too. He mumbled this sentence repeatedly, until he finally lifted his eyes up again. Can you kiss me? Cheng Xi, who was analyzing his response seriously, was at a loss for words. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 29: Torrential Gossip Once she understood what he was saying, metaphorical black lines streaked across Cheng Xis face. Why? Had her story made him misunderstand something? Lu Chenzhous expression was innocent. Arent we a couple? ...Cheng Xis only response was to be more innocent than him. But a couple doesnt need to ask each other beforehand when doing something like that. Asking implies that the feelings between us arent deep enough, and suggests that we should return to being regular friends. After hearing Cheng Xis explanation, Lu Chenzhou looked at her, deep in thought, not saying anything. Cheng Xi thought that this episode was over with that, and didnt pay it any mind. The next day, she went to the hospital immediately. Surprisingly, Chen Jiaman wasnt buried under her blanket, and was actually sitting straight up in bed, her gaze dully inspecting the sunlight that was filtering in through the window blinds. Cheng Xi tried to get close to her. When she was about five steps away from the bed, Chen Jiaman turned around. Her expression was frightened, her spine taut, her eyes wide, and her mouth was grinding her teeth hard, almost as if she were about to turn violent at a moments notice. Cheng Xi didnt approach any further. She passed the sketchbook that she had bought on the way to the hospital to Chen Jiaman and said, Can I give this to you? She opened the sketchbook, and drew as she explained, It can produce many things that you want, just like that little bunny who just wants a hug. Her drawing skills left much to be desired, but while critically inspecting the four unseemly bunnies that she had drawn, Cheng Xi blinked, hoping that Chen Jiaman had a vivid enough imagination to look past her drawing skills. Look, the little bunny is waiting for you to hug it. Chen Jiaman was expressionless, and seemed completely wooden. However, her body hadnt loosened up at all, remaining anxious and fearful. Cheng Xis trip to her hometown made Cheng Xi somewhat able to understand her gut reaction, and so she left the sketchbook and pencil on the far side of the bed before slowly leaving. When Cheng Xi returned to the nurses office, she looked at Chen Jiaman via the security camera. In the camera feed, Chen Jiaman didnt move. She completely ignored the sketchbook and instead turned her head to look outside the window, her mouth mumbling something that Cheng Xi couldnt quite make out. After realizing that they werent going to make much progress today, Cheng Xi decided to head over to the clinic area. However, before she could open the door, someone stopped her. That persons hand held a recording pen, and she asked, Excuse me, are you Dr. Cheng Xi from the psychiatry department? Cheng Xi looked at her warily. Sorry, who are you? Im a reporter from XX website for the XX department. May I interview you for a moment with regards to the incident in which your wealthy boyfriend booked all of your appointment slots? Fuck! As soon as she heard the reporter introduce herself, Cheng Xi, who never cursed, couldnt help but do so in her mind. How long were they going to harass her for this incident? Cheng Xi rejected her brusquely. Sorry, I cant. Turning around, she quickly walked towards the exit. The reporter followed behind her. Youre the female lead implicated in the incident, arent you? No. But, it has to be a young, pretty doctor in the psychiatry department of Renyi Hospital. I checked, and the only person who matches that description is you Seriously, its you, isnt it? I dont have any bad intentions. Its just that the netizens are quite curious and want to understand more details. If youre willing to be interviewed, then I can also conduct the interview anonymously Sorry, you cant enter this place. Shocked, Cheng Xi quickly walked into a restricted area that the public couldnt enter, leaving the reporter behind. Finally she had some peace and quiet. Cheng Xi released a breath that she had been holding for a long time. She thought that these people were making a mountain out of a molehill, as reporters were even beginning to crowd around her When she turned her head around, she suddenly found herself facing a slightly pale face. She was startled and stepped back unconsciously. Standing in front of her was a female doctor in her forties. She was tall and skinny, and her face was stark white. He- hello! The female doctor frowned. Which department are you from? The psychiatry department. The psychiatry department Cheng Xi? Yes. Cheng Xi didnt expect to actually be recognized, and smiled respectfully back. Good morning, doctor. But that doctor ended up saying, Youre that doctor whose appointments got booked, arent you? She looked her up and down. Since someone wants to pamper you, why are you out here being a doctor? After saying that, she left swiftly, leaving Cheng Xi standing there alone, stunned speechless. At this time, a few more doctors and nurses walked out. Cheng Xi quickly turned around and followed that female doctor out of the room. After exiting, she couldnt help but turn back around, and look at the department sign clearlyit turned out that she had wandered into the gynecology offices. Cheng Xi was somewhat dispirited, and didnt hurry back to her office. She got on the phone and checked in with her colleague. Am I still on vacation? Her colleague laughed. You can still come to work. The head of the department, who was just swarmed by a horde of reporters, probably wants to have tea with you and talk about your life. "" She firmly decided to continue her break. Besides visiting Chen Jiaman, she barely stepped foot into any other work location. Even so, Cheng Xi couldnt escape the fate of constantly being teased and mocked by her colleagues in the department. The teasing really started to make her hate Lu Chenzhou, the instigator of this whole fiasco. The key was, even though he knew that he had caused trouble for her, he was still unwilling to cancel the appointments. When she asked him why, he responded, Its too troublesome! Cheng Xi really wanted to ask why he didnt find it too troublesome to make the appointments in the first place. This series of gossip lasted for a few days. When Cheng Xi went to go teach, even her students asked her about it. Like the majority of people on the Internet, these excitable kids were poor and bored. Because the matter involved doctors and rich people, they passionately wanted to learn more about the male and female leads implicated in the whole scenario. This led to news articles popping up about many of the rich people in town; the buzz had ended up causing many of them to release statements clarifying their lack of participation in this affair. Whenever something like this popped up, Cheng Xi would end up going . Even her parents had heard about the news, and her mother had even specifically called her to ask, Who was it that got all her appointments booked in your department? Cheng Xi bluntly replied, I dont know. Her mother was disdainful. Then what are you doing at work? Everyones saying that that woman is from your department, but you dont even know who she is? Cheng Xi was so that she couldnt any further. At least those reporters had some semblance of decency and hadnt reported her name. Her mother implored her to find out more about this gossip, and her brother made even more excessive demands. He asked, See who was it that managed to tame such a generous man, and find a way to introduce me to her; Im doing business and really need to be familiar with such people! Cheng Xi couldnt respond. While she was glumly waiting for this fiasco to blow over, Lu Chenzhou suddenly called her. That man named Liu is here. Do you want to meet him? Chen Jiamans math teacher? Yes. Cheng Xi was quite shocked. These past two days, she had actually been following up with the police about Chen Jiamans affairs. At the beginning, they had investigated for quite a significant period of time, but their conclusion had solely been that Chen Jiamans mental condition was caused by her loneliness and sensitivity. In other words, they hadnt heard about any bullying at all. Cheng Xi believed the police, and slightly suspected that what the little girl had said was untrue. She was still debating on whether or not she should return to the town to speak with Mr. Liu. But unexpectedly, he had shown up here. Sure, where is he? Ill go and meet him. Lu Chenzhou told her to meet him at the caf on the third level of Donglai Hotel, in a private room. When Cheng Xi arrived, she saw Lu Chenzhou and Mr. Liu already sitting face to face; the former wore a cool, bored expression while the latter was antsy, fidgeting, and constantly looking around. Seeing Cheng Xis presence, he even seemed to relax. This time, he put on the face of the kind and caring teacher she had seen first. Lawyer Cheng. Cheng Xi nodded. Hello. She looked at Lu Chenzhou, and he coolly looked back at her before saying, He has something that he wants to tell you. Cheng Xi then turned to Mr. Liu. Please, do tell me. Mr. Liu rubbed his hands together. Didnt you ask me about why Chen Jiaman quit school? Actually, I know the reason why, but I hope that youll keep it amongst the three of us, and that you wont request me to be a witness on any occasion. Cheng Xis heart started pounding. From this first statement, she could already imagine that the truth behind Chen Jiamans illness was not simple indeed. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 30: One Bite After thinking it over for a moment, Cheng Xi replied, Okay. Mr. Liu then looked towards Lu Chenzhou, who nodded his head nonchalantly. What you promised me earlier, I expect it in full. Lu Chenzhou merely replied coolly, Yes. Cheng Xi looked him over once. What did you promise him? Lu Chenzhou didnt deign to reply. You can start talking now. Both men fluidly ignored Cheng Xis question. After hesitating for a long moment, Mr. Liu started talking. The reason why Chen Jiaman decided to quit school was, as my daughter said, because she was bullied. More specifically, she was a victim of schoolyard violence. Chen Jiamans personality was reclusive and eccentric. Not only that, but her parents were frequently gone, so she only had her old grandmother by her side. For most of her school life, she was crowded out by her peers. When she was small, the kids couldnt do all that much to her, but in middle school, as they grew older, the students developed more ways of bullying her. Not long after she entered middle school, she became very popular with the boys due to her looks. You know how jealous and rebellious teenage kids can be, more so than at any other age. Some of the other girls didnt like the fact that she was so popular, so they gathered a crowd of people to surround her after school. Perhaps at that time, with so many people there, the bullying got out of control, and what they did...... was particularly vicious. And from that time on, Chen Jiaman never came to school again. This sort of thing seems to be happening everywhere lately. Cheng Xi sighed. Despite her already being able to largely guess what had transpired, in order to understand Chen Jiamans condition more thoroughly, she could only say, May I ask, how bad? Mr. Liu silently retrieved a phone from a bag. After pressing a couple of buttons, he held it out in front of Cheng Xi. I have a video here that you can watch. Cheng Xi took the phone and opened the video. It was very short, fewer than twenty seconds long, but its contents were a ghastly sight. Despite her being prepared for a brutal scene, she was still flabbergasted, and a righteous fury consumed her. She hadnt imagined that kids could be this vicious. This is illegal! She looked at Mr. Liu, stood up, and slapped her stack of documents on the table. As a teacher, while knowing the truth, how could you not call the police, but instead actually try to cover it up? Mr. Lius head drooped slightly. ....I also didnt have a choice. As a paltry math teacher, I could only meekly follow what my superiors told me to do. As youve seen, the children who took part in the violence werent just one or two kids; it was a whole crowd of them. Two of the childrens families have deep connections, so that entire crowd was essentially able to do whatever they wanted. Furthermore, they are all underaged children. Even if we had called the police, what could they have done? Chen Jiamans grandmother thought that this was a very embarrassing thing and also decided to keep quiet about it, not pursuing the matter any further. She was especially quiet after she received a bit of money as reparation fees. If the victim doesnt call for an investigation, then the school will always the matter drop, regardless of the severity. Mr. Lius words werent very logical; clearly, this matter was a large burden on his chest, so even just mentioning it again made him anxious and defensive. Cheng Xi shut her eyes, thinking of the newly restored three-story house that Chen Jiaman had lived in. She remembered that the woman who had brought her to the house said that it was only in the last two years that they had been able to refinish it After letting out a deep breath, she tried to calm down. Was Chen Jiamans house built with those reparation fees? Yes. Chen Jiamans grandmothers thought process was that, if she had a big house, then despite her granddaughter being bullied, they would have enough money to not need to worry about her not being able to get married. Cheng Xis heart almost stopped. Did Chen Jiamans father know about this? Probably not. He was out fishing and rarely returned home. Even when he did come back, it would only be for two or three days at a time. I heard that, because Chen Jiaman looked very much like her mother, he didnt want to see her all that much. Thus, the two didnt like each other very much. ...Did Chen Jiamans mental illness develop after that incident? More or less. But after that, she rarely left the house, so I also dont really know when it became a big issue. And then you also said that when she was in school, when you confiscated her artbook, she made a big fuss about it with you and even bit you. Was that true? Yes, it was. And how was her mental condition at that time? Alright, I think she just didnt talk very much, and I wouldnt have remembered her if not for that incident. Cheng Xi was quiet. Mr. Liu, upon seeing her ugly expression, couldnt help but add, Actually I did report the incident to the police, but it wasnt of much help. My phone had only these scant few seconds of video, and none of the kids are identifiable. Besides Chen Jiaman, no one elses face is in it, so even the police couldnt find out anything. Cheng Xi mockingly replied, Its not that they couldnt find out anything, but rather that all the people who knew about it decided to keep mum, right? She then recalled her own investigation. If not for Mr. Lius four-year-old daughter, I probably wouldnt have been able to find anything either. Mr. Liu rubbed his face. Cheng Xi asked him a few more questions, but upon seeing that he wasnt very clear about the details either, she let him off the hook, as he wanted. After Mr. Liu left, the atmosphere became somewhat depressing. Of course, that was only Cheng Xis mood, because her attitude after this whole debacle was terrible. Lu Chenzhou still looked calm and collected, and even somewhat excited at seeing her angry. It was only after a while that Cheng Xi noticed that he was looking at her. She took a moment to collect herself and then asked, What are you looking at? At you. What have you noticed? Youre very angry, he said,with a trace of confusion in his voice. Why are you so angry? Youre just a doctor. Cheng Xi let out a deep breath. Its a righteous fury, wholly unrelated to my person and my occupation. Its a natural emotion that people who have to deal with unfair and dishonest situations feel. Perhaps it was because she was still feeling upset, but Cheng Xis words were quite harsh. Lu Chenzhou understood her words, but he merely smiled in response. The strong mans anger is directed towards those even stronger than he, while the weak mans anger is to those even weaker than he. Thats the way of the world; whats there to be furious about? Cheng Xi was surprised. She didnt expect that Lu Chenzhou would use Lu Xuns words to respond to her. She reorganized her thoughts and then responded, The most important part of life is to develop and grow in response to ones own fury. So, if the road is unequal, then someone has to flatten it. If he was going to use Lu Xuns words, then she would use Balzacs in response. Lu Chenzhou was clearly familiar with Balzac too; his expression didnt change, but his eyes did become warmer. Its all useless, he lamented. If it were all useless, then why did you help me by bringing Mr. Liu here? After saying this, she suddenly remembered. Right, what did you promise him that would get him to say all this? Lu Chenzhou didnt immediately answer, and instead pointed at the seat next to him. Sit down here. Cheng Xi thought that what he was about to tell her was a secret and very important, so she sat down without hesitation. Then, she lifted her head towards his, waiting for him to explain. The overhead light shone on her white skin, as translucent as a well-cut piece of jade. Lu Chenzhou again had that aching feeling in his heart, just like back in the small town. It was as if there was a feather lightly scratching the tip of his heart. Very lightly, but enough for him to feel a difference. He leaned down slightly, intending to kiss that rosy-hued jade. But despite being nonplussed, Cheng Xi was able to dodge it, and his lips landed on her half-dimple instead. He opened his mouth, biting down without hesitation. "" 1. Lu Xun is one of the most well-known Chinese writers of the 20th century Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 31: I鈥檒l Kiss Her Whenever I Want To Cheng Xi instinctively clutched her face. At the very least, there wasnt any saliva or anything of the sort on her cheek, and the kiss didnt hurt either. However, this sort of behavior was Lu Chenzhous face was emotionless and it didnt feel like he was trying to take advantage of her, so she didnt want to make things too complicated. All she did was jokingly say, It seems like you really dislike my half-dimple, so much that you even want to bite it off. Should I wear a mask next time then? Lu Chenzhou was still in his half-crouched posture, looking at her blankly. Did he dislike it? Actually, no. Perhaps he had gotten used to it now, but her half-dimple no longer seemed so displeasing to his eyes. Theres no need for that. Cheng Xi made an Oh sound. Then Im sorry to have made you feel wronged. Just as she was planning to return to her seat, Lu Chenzhou suddenly said, I originally intended to kiss you. He sat upright again, and crossed his hands in front of his chest as he seriously explained, Didnt you say that I shouldnt need to ask to kiss my girlfriend, and that I could kiss her whenever I wanted to? "" So, he still hadnt forgotten about that? That wasnt what I meant, though, was it Actually, you cant just kiss whenever. You also have to consider the surroundings and general atmosphere. Having been reminded of Lu Chenzhous astonishing ability to misinterpret words and actions, she felt that she needed to explain things even more explicitly, and then she decisively changed the topic. You still havent answered me. What did you have to give that Mr. Liu to coerce him into telling the truth? Lu Chenzhou responded lazily, his answer simple and rough. Money. How much? Lu Chenzhou looked at her intently. Are you planning on reimbursing me? He pulled out a receipt from his bag heartily, put it in front of her, and then told her, rather kindly, Old Chens not too bad. He didnt end up giving away too much money. Cheng Xi silently counted the zeroes in that receipt, quickly calculated the overall sum, and then felt a complicated mix of emotions. She really shouldnt have agreed to let him help. Really. Mr. Liu at least had some sense of moral decency; if she had stuck to him stubbornly, she definitely would have eventually gotten him to open his mouth. But now, she could only try to reimburse Lu Chenzhou for the money. Cheng Xi sighed and then asked, Can I return it in installments? Up to you. After a while, he asked, How many installments are you thinking of? Two twenty years? She was quite afraid of saying one or two years, because the amount that Lu Chenzhou had paid was really quite significant. At her current income level, she would have to keep a tight budget and completely refrain from eating or drinking out if she wanted to pay it all off in two years. There werent many rich people out there, and there was a big gap between them and regular people. Lu Chenzhou laughed. He refrained from saying anything, but he didnt take the receipt back either. Cheng Xis face blushed red, but she didnt have the courage to simply brush this bill off. She silently put the receipt away, and then automatically started calculating in her head how much she would have to pay him monthly ...honestly, a doctor living the way she was planning on living was probably unprecedented throughout history. Regardless of her disapproval for Lu Chenzhous problem-solving strategy, Cheng Xi was still very grateful for his help. Because of this, she decided to invite him to lunch. But just halfway through the meal, the hospital called her again, saying that Chen Jiamans guardian had arrived and was requesting that she return. Chen Jiamans guardian was evidently her father, who had finally come back. After Cheng Xi received the news, she put down her chopsticks. Im sorry. Somethings come up at the hospital, so I have to leave now. Before she could get up, however, Lu Chenzhou grabbed her hand. Finish eating first. His expression was very serious. But I have to go Lu Chenzhou had already put her chopsticks back into her hand. After that, he continued holding her down with one hand while using the other to slowly continue eating. After looking at his expression, Cheng Xi realized that he probably wouldnt let her go until she finished eating. I hate seeing things left unfinished halfway. Cheng Xi disdainfully replied in her head, Actually, this is just your obsessive-compulsive disorder speaking, isnt it! But she didnt insist on leaving. Instead, she picked up her chopsticks, matched his rhythm, and finished the meal. After finishing the meal, Cheng Xi returned to the hospital. Lu Chenzhou didnt intend on sending her over, and Cheng Xi had no intention of letting him do so either, but when she saw him leave so bluntly, she couldnt help but call him back. Mr. Lu, she said, Im in a bit of a hurry. If you dont mind, could you send me over to the hospital? When Lu Chenzhou heard her words, he looked at his watch and nodded. Cheng Xi looked at him unflinchingly. Despite his lack of facial expressions, a wisp of annoyance flashed through his eyes. He didnt want to speak on the way to the hospital, so she didnt open her mouth either. Instead, she ran through her head about what she would do upon meeting Chen Jiamans father. If she could, she very much wanted to help Chen Jiaman get justice for what was done to her, and the best person to help her do this was undoubtedly her father. Lu Chenzhou sent Cheng Xi to the hospital personally and even went upstairs with her. Cheng Xi didnt refuse. Of course, he wouldnt have let her refuse. Upon seeing Chen Jiamans father, Cheng Xi felt a sense of dissociation. In her mind, Chen Jiamans father had been someone poor and dejected, and because he liked to gamble, perhaps even somewhat sloppy or wretched. While the man standing in front of Cheng Xi might have been a bit poor, he didnt look sloppy at all, and certainly not wretched. He was dressed in a light blue windbreaker and dark blue jeans. Despite his age showing through his clothes, they were clean and not the least bit unkempt. If she hadnt known better, she would have said that he looked more like a scholar than a fisherman who sailed far out into the ocean. Cheng Xi was so shocked that she was momentarily at a loss for words. Chen Jiamans father spoke up first, asking, Are you Dr. Cheng? Even his voice was quite warm, which helped Cheng Xi recover quickly. Are you Chen Jiamans father? Yes. He nodded, looking somewhat nervous. I heard the police say that you wanted to see me. The way he spoke made it seem like he hadnt been planning on meeting her if the police hadnt mentioned it. Cheng Xi frowned. Have you seen your daughter yet? He nodded, but then shortly started shaking his head. Seeing this, Cheng Xi quickly called a nurse over to bring him to Chen Jiamans ward. She herself returned to her office, both to change into her white coat and to observe the camera footage for the ward. Inside the ward, Chen Jiaman had already fallen asleep. Her orderly but unusual posture clearly sparked some amount of sadness within her father; hed turned away almost as soon as he saw her. On the screen, Chen Jiamans father cut a sorry figure. Regret, sadness, self-incrimination, and vexation could all be seen flickering through his face. Cheng Xis heart dropped as she saw him. Lu Chenzhou had been standing by her side ever since he had entered, and at this moment he retracted his gaze. He knew about it. Chen Jiamans fathers behavior clearly indicated that he must have known about everything that his daughter had been going through. Cheng Xi nodded as she finished with the last button on her coat. Before leaving, she asked Lu Chenzhou, Id like to speak with him. Do you want to come? Actually, this was a hidden reminder that he shouldnt go over with her. She didnt know if Lu Chenzhou understood her intentions, but he glanced at her and didnt move. Cheng Xi pushed the door open and went out. By the time she had retrieved Chen Jiamans medical records, her father had already returned. She noticed that his expression had returned to its usual calm, and only his slightly trembling fingers revealed his unease. She poured him a glass of water. He didnt drink it, merely holding it in his hands, his gaze vacant. Cheng Xi asked, Do you want to go inside and speak with her? It seemed to take him a long moment to understand what she was saying, and he seemingly became shocked in slow motion. She can recognize me? You seem to know that she doesnt recognize anyone. Cheng Xi looked at him again. I heard that you left home three months ago. Doesnt that mean that the patient was exhibiting similar symptoms at least before then, or even earlier? Yes. About how long ago? Chen Jiamans father somewhat arduously forced out his words. About a year ago, but at that time, she only had occasional moment where she couldnt recognize people and mumbled nonsense. Did she have any other symptoms? He shook his head. Then when did it start becoming more serious? About half a year ago. When I returned home, I realized that things couldnt go on the way they were with her, and wanted her to go learn more. Cheng Xi stopped taking notes and raised her head. You forced her back to school? ......Yes. As Chen Jiamans father spoke, he started shaking and brought out a pack of cigarettes, but he couldnt seem to light one with his trembling hands and finally gave up, clutching his head. At that time, none of us knew how sick she really was. We once dragged her out of her room, kicking and screaming, making a huge fuss. Then I got angry and hit her. She ran out, and it took us a whole day before we found her in a half-forgotten graveyard. As he recounted this event, he shivered. Clearly, that experience had left him semi-traumatized. Cheng Xi asked, What happened afterwards? After that, she would head there daily, right after dark, and she was always saying things that scared others. Slowly, she started being unable to recognize people as well. You never took her to see a doctor? No. Why not? My mother said that she wasnt ill, only possessed, and that it would be fine once we burned some incense and prayed to the gods. And since she was still young, we were afraid that any news of her mental illness would be bad for her Cheng Xi couldnt keep listening to this. Afraid that it would be bad for her, or afraid that it would look bad on you? When Chen Jiamans father lowered his head without answering, she changed the topic, tired of this conversation. I want to investigate the reasons behind her illness so that I can come up with a treatment plan for her. As far as I know, she only started exhibiting those symptoms after she quit school. Do you know why she quit school? Her elementary school grades werent bad, so why would she quit right after entering middle school? Chen Jiamans father spoke softly. She. she didnt listen Only that? He lowered his head. Cheng Xi brought out her phone. I have a short video here Chen Jiamans father was so shocked he stood up, his chair screeching as he got up. Wh-what video? Cheng Xi tried to remain calm as she replied, A video that explains why she quit school. Do you want to see it? No! Chen Jiamans father refused her suggestion right away. He was extremely surprised, and even the expression on his face seemed to distort slightly. Why do you have that? Didnt they say that all of it had been deleted? So you know what happened, Cheng Xi stated slowly. Despite her growing anger, she didnt want to provoke him. Havent you ever thought of getting justice for her? No, more accurately, didnt Chen Jiaman ever want you to get justice for her, to punish those bullies? Chen Jiamans father didnt respond. He glanced at her and said that he needed to look at her phone. Then, almost as if he had seen a monster, he ran off, stumbling. Cheng Xi quickly stood up and chased after him. Mr. Chen! But he ran even more quickly, entered the stairs not long after, and disappeared from her sight after that. By the time Cheng Xi reached the stairway, she couldnt even see his shadow. At the bottom of the stairs, there were only some bystanders who didnt know what had happened. She stood there without speaking. The nurses who had heard the commotion and chased after her had finally caught up. Dr. Cheng, whats wrong? Cheng Xi didnt even know what to say, and could only ask, Did the patient in ward no. 24s guardian leave his contact information behind? No. When he got here, he asked about the patients situation, and then just sat there in a daze, not responding to any questions. The nurse seemed quite displeased, but Cheng Xi only frowned at the situation. Chen Jiamans fathers behavior was really unexpected; it seemed like his mental condition wasnt the best, either. Cheng Xi! Just as Cheng Xi was thinking about what she should do next, the elevator doors opened, and a male and two females walked out. Leading them was Shen Wei, the new bride fresh from her honeymoon. She was dressed brightly and fashionably, and her face was filled with the happiness and joy of being a newlywed. Holding her hand was the girl who had been her bridesmaid. Cheng Xi was overjoyed. Whyre you guys here? And when her gaze passed over both of them and landed on the man behind them, she was barely able to suppress her smile. Lin Fan also smiled back at her. Hey, were still here. Seeing the two start to communicate with their eyes, Shen Wei tried to get their attention. Cheng Xi looked at her. Who are you? I dont recognize you. What difference does your being here make? After everyone laughed at the light joke, Cheng Xi brought them all back into her office. As they walked over, she asked, Where did all of you find the time to come here? Shen Wei replied, Oh my fair doctor, as busy as you are, if you dont have any time to meet us, then we can only come and bother you. I also brought along some gifts from my honeymoon especially for you. Arent I nice? As Shen Wei said this, she retrieved an intricate box from her bag and handed it to her. Just as Cheng Xi was about to express her gratitude, Lin Fan clarified what had actually happened. Shen Weis friends uncle also works in this hospital, and my mother made an appointment with him because she wasnt feeling well. I invited them to accompany my mom over, and, since we had extra time, we decided to drop by and see you too. Cheng Xi smiled, glanced at Shen Wei, and then kindly asked, Is Mrs. Lin alright? Lin Fan shook his head. The checkup isnt finished yet. Shen Wei hissed, Lin Fan, why do you have to be so honest? While shes feeling emotional, you should take the opportunity to get together with her By this time they had reached her office, but Shen Weis words dropped off upon noticing who was sitting inside. Direc- Director Lu? Er, why are you here? Lu Chenzhou had walked out of the office at some point, and was now sitting on a chair while on his phone. Upon hearing the commotion, he lifted his head, looked at them, and then coolly said, Im accompanying my girlfriend to work. Shen Wei jumped up in fright. G-g-girlfriend? Who? Cheng Xi stroked her forehead as she felt a headache coming on. Lu Chenzhou suddenly stood up. This time, it was Cheng Xi who was scared, watching him warily. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 32: You鈥檙e Mine Lu Chenzhous expression was calm as he ignored the others and walked over to Cheng Xi. When he was within arms-length, he said, Something came up at work, so Ill be leaving now. Cheng Xi exhaled. Okay. But she had let her guard down too quickly, because Lu Chenzhou suddenly turned around, kissed her on the cheek, and, before she could react, nodded to the petrified Shen Wei and abruptly left. No one spoke. Cheng Xi laughed dryly. Thats just a standard goodbye routine, nothing more. But before she could finish making an excuse, the door opened and Lu Chenzhou walked in once more, caressed her face, and kissed her firmly on her lips. Of course, the kiss didnt linger for long; his lips merely brushed against hers. From Cheng Xis perspective, his actions felt more like he was just going through the motions, without any sense of desire or love. But in others eyes, Lu Chenzhous behavior could already be considered arrogant, high-profile, and intimate! This was partly because after they separated from their kiss, Lu Chenzhou then even used his hand to slowly rub Cheng Xis face as he said, Dont forget, youre mine. After Lu Chenzhou finished saying those words, he finally left. Cheng Xi wasnt too annoyed by his kisses, but his parting remarks had left her shaking from head to toe. This time, however, she didnt dare say anything afterwards; who knew if he would come back yet again! Fortunately, he seemed to be gone for good. The room was silent for a good long while afterwards. It was Cheng Xi who finally spoke up. As she brought each of them a stool, she said, Sit down, please. Sorry, I dont have any chairs that are more comfortable. Then, she poured each of them a glass of water. When Lin Fan took the offered glass of water, he couldnt even bear to look at her, and his lips were silently quivering from the shock. Shen Wei finally recovered when she was handed a glass of water. So, Cheng Xi, youre Lu Chenzhous girlfriend? Cheng Xi straightforwardly replied, No. Youre still denying it even after that kiss? Youre not being honest, Cheng Xi. Shen Wei looked at Lin Fan, and then clicked her tongue in annoyance. Why are you hiding your romance? Are you trying to date two men at once? "" She realized only now that her predicament was actually quite difficult to explain. After all, she couldnt outright tell them that Lu Chenzhou had some abnormal tendencies and that he was just her patient, could she? After a long time, she finally thought of a passable explanation. Theres really nothing going on between Lu Chenzhou and me If anything, its that my professor once introduced the two of us and set us up on a date. A date? This question was from Lin Fan. A date between you two? Was this before or after I got married? This was from Shen Wei. Cheng Xi answered both questions with just one word. Before. No wonder! Shen Wei looked as though she had suddenly understood something. I knew that Fu Mingyi was behaving oddly that day, especially when he intentionally requested for you to send Lu Chenzhou out. Additionally, you never came back after you left! Adultery, I say, adultery! She was so excited that she didnt even notice Lin Fans expression, but Cheng Xi did. At this point, she just felt exasperatedthis matter really couldnt be explained cleanly, as doing so would infringe on a patients privacy. And given how reluctant Lu Chenzhou was to discuss his illness even with her, she didnt want to hurt him unintentionally. So, she could only look at Lin Fan apologetically. But to Lin Fan, it seemed like she was tacitly agreeing to Shen Weis accusations. Lin Fan instantly lost all interest in speaking about the subject, but Shen Wei was still chattering away. Then what did the two of you do the day after? Did you go on a date? Did you? Cheng Xi shook her head. No. I just played a few rounds of mahjong with him and his friends. This was the actual truth, but, clearly, no one believed her. Shen Wei even said, I dont believe you. When did you know how to play mahjong? Yes, and Im quite good. I dont believe you at all! Such a peerless beauty like you, how could you be playing ah, I remember now! That incident where a rich man booked all of a doctors appointment slots, that has to be you and Lu Chenzhou! A doctor from the psychiatry department and her extremely wealthy, mysterious boyfriend! As she spoke, Shen Wei couldnt help but grab hold of Cheng Xi and start tickling her. You brat, you even said that you didnt know when I asked you last time. Cheng Xi was deathly afraid of being tickled, and quickly fell prey to Shen Weis antics. The attack reached such a frenzy that Cheng Xi couldnt even make any noise. All she could do was try to dodge and bite her lips as she intermittently pleaded, Ah Im still at work Shen Wei, unresigned, continued tickling her for quite a bit after that, and only stopped when Lin Fans phone rang. When Lin Fan took the call, she still hadnt let go of Cheng Xi, the duo in a koala-like hugging posture as they listened in on Lin Fans call. Lin Fan turned around to look at them. My mother said that her checkup is complete, so I have to head downstairs. As he said this, he glanced at Cheng Xi again, but refrained from saying anything. Everyone was looking at him, but he only said one last word. Goodbye. And then he left. Cheng Xi and Shen Wei were somewhat at a loss for words for his attitude. The two of them looked at each other, and then Shen Wei turned her head to call her friend over. Would you mind accompanying Lin Fan for a bit? Ill catch up with the two of you later. Shen Weis friend graciously responded, Sure. As she left, she even waved goodbye familiarly to Cheng Xi, and Cheng Xi responded in kind. When everyone else had all left, Shen Wei finally let Cheng Xi go, looked at her, and then laughed. Youre quite something, breaking your idols heart into little pieces like that. Werent you the one who was messing around? Instead of helping her resolve her dilemma, Shen Weis words had only misled Lin Fan further. Im not messing around. Im trying to help! Lu Chenzhou is a wonderful man; hes rich, influential, capable, and lacks neither family nor background. Of course, Im not saying Lin Fans bad either. But, regardless of how you compare them, Lu Chenzhous clearly the superior one. Shen Wei didnt hide her favorable impression of Lu Chenzhou at all, and her tone was seemingly somewhat agitated as she enumerated his good features. Im telling you. He has a wonderful reputation in his line of work, and his dating life is almost completely rumorless. In fact, hes so clean that hes barely like a regular mortal. As Shen Wei spoke, she laughed and then whispered in Cheng Xis ear, I dont mind telling you this secret. Before I met my husband, I also liked Lu Chenzhou. "" Shen Wei scrunched up her nose. What kind of expression is that? Oh, Cheng Xi exclaimed with a laugh. Im just thinking about how I should tell Fu Mingyi that. Pah! Shen Wei pushed her. He loves me too much. No matter what you say, it wont matter. Cheng Xi laughed before glancing at her contemplatively. Did Lu Chenzhou really not have a single girlfriend before this? As far as I know, no. And not just no girlfriend, either. I heard that once, someone tried to dump a naked girl on his bed when he was drunk, but he didnt even respond! Upon hearing this story, Cheng Xi was quite impressed with how daring that mans actions were. Curiously, she asked, Lu Chenzhou didnt get mad at that man? Of course he did! Fu Mingyi told me that Lu Chenzhou then fed a sexual stimulant to that man and sent him into a room with four women, almost permanently disabling him! Ah- Her eyes gleamed, and Shen Weis fingers landed lightly on Cheng Xis shoulder. And here you were saying how the two of you barely knew each other. But look at how familiar you are with him; how else would you know that he would get mad in that situation? Wouldnt the normal thing to ask be whether or not he enjoyed it? Heh, when you consider Lu Chenzhous personality and his mental condition, it would be a miracle if he could enjoy a situation like that. Of course, she couldnt voice this thought, so Cheng Xi instead calmly responded, Have you forgotten about my profession? A psychiatrist can even sense something like that? Shen Wei wasnt easy to fool, and she narrowed her eyes at Cheng Xi in suspicion. Then why dont you tell me what Im thinking about right now? Youre thinking, Hmm, Cheng Xi has really gotten lucky! She actually managed to get into a relationship with Lu Chenzhou! I have to tell Tian Rou right away that someone actually got into a relationship, and that her partner is even tall, rich, and handsome! Shell get engaged today, married tomorrow, and maybe therell even be a baby coming out shortly. Shen Wei stared at her, mouth wide-open. Half a second later, she angrily prepared to tickle Cheng Xi again. What kind of a gossiper do you take me to be! Cheng Xi laughed, and the two of them playfully tussled for a fair bit after that. Shen Wei only left when Cheng Xi mentioned that something had come up. But before she left, she asked, Ah, now that youve landed a rich boyfriend, does that mean that you wont be getting into a relationship with Lin Fan? Sensing that her words held more than met the eye, Cheng Xi raised her eyebrows to show how perplexed she was. What do you mean? That friend of mines also interested in him. Shen Wei blinked as she explained, You know, my friends not young either, and she has high expectations. Since shes finally found someone who she likes, Im doing my best to pair the two compatible people together. Arent I doing a remarkable task? That girl who was with you just now? Yeah, isnt she pretty? She was indeed pretty, but was she really interested in Lin Fan? Cheng Xi thought back to the girls overly calm and collected expression when Shen Wei had tried to get Lin Fan and her to walk downstairs together. Cheng Xi almost wanted to say that Shen Wei must have misunderstood something, but she decided not to worry too much about this. I dont mind. But have you considered Rous feelings? You know how she always says things without ever acting on them. If we really let her chase after Lin Fan, I bet that she wont even do it. Alright, its fine as long as you dont mind! As Shen Wei finished talking, she patted Cheng Xis face. Im leaving. Dont worry, and enjoy your days. Ill make sure that your idols happy too. Maybe it was because Cheng Xi had confessed that Lin Fan was her idol too quickly, but every time Shen Wei brought up that subject, it was through some kind of banter. And now, she was even publicly helping her friend steal Cheng Xis idol away. Cheng Xi couldnt help but rub her forehead at Shen Weis antics. After being misunderstood by Lin Fan, Cheng Xi originally thought that she would feel quite uneasy, that shed be falling all over herself trying to prove her innocence. In reality, she was more concerned about Chen Jiamans fathers sudden departure. After Shen Wei and the others left, she talked to the police herself and finally obtained his contact information. But when she called his number, no one picked up. For lack of a better option, Cheng Xi temporarily gave up on pursuing Chen Jiamans father and went to deal with other matters. As she walked off, she coincidentally passed by Chen Jiamans ward, and noticed that Chen Jiaman had woken up. The room was still dark, its only light source being the moonlight shining through the half-drawn windows. Cheng Jiaman sat at the foot of the bed, and was clutching a pen in her hand as she drew something that Cheng Xi couldnt see. After thinking about it for a moment, Cheng Xi went to her office to retrieve the other sketchbook and a set of crayons. Once she got within five paces of the bed, Chen Jiaman stopped drawing and her whole body grew taut just like last time, even though she wasnt looking at Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi didnt go any closer. She directly sat down on the floor, and started seriously sketching in the sketchbook. This time, she colored her drawings in. The drawing was once again of a somewhat deformed little bunny, but Cheng Xi tried her best to use the colors to make her bunny warmer to the eye. After finishing, she left the sketchbook and the crayons in their original position, and then silently walked out. Throughout the whole process, Chen Jiaman had never once looked her in the eye. But Cheng Xi didnt mind; when approaching someone who had been hurt and hurt again, patience was the only path. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 33: I Want to Kiss You Again After returning to her office, Cheng Xi took out her phone and found that Lin Fan had sent her a single message. Congratulations. From the timestamp, it didnt seem like it had been sent that long ago. During that time, she should have been accompanying Chen Jiaman. After thinking for a moment, Cheng Xi replied back, Congratulations for what? This time, she waited a long while, but didnt receive a response. As she was waiting, the police officer in charge of Chen Jiamans case coincidentally called her. Cheng Xi told him about the results of her own investigation through the phone, and the officer appeared to be quite shocked at her findings, saying, We didnt know about this. Please give me a moment, and Ill go to you right away. When Cheng Xi saw the importance that the police placed on this information, she felt like she could finally breathe. Perhaps the final outcome still wouldnt be what she desired, but she fervently hoped that the people responsible for this would have to at least pay a portion of the deserved price. As such, once the policeman arrived, Cheng Xi told him about her own experiences in the little town in detail, and also gave him the video footage that Mr. Liu had given her. Despite disagreeing with Mr. Lius attitude of protecting himself first, she had nonetheless promised to keep him anonymous. So, she could only say that the footage had come from a strangers number. As to whom that number belonged to, honestly, Cheng Xi wasnt sure if the police could track it. As soon as the police took the footage away, this matter was out of her hands. After the police left, Cheng Xi felt a strange unease creep over her. Lowering her head, she found that there was a string of missed calls from Shen Wei, as well as Lin Fans unread reply. Congratulations on finding your true love. Cheng Xi abruptly changed the topic, and immediately replied back, Are you still at the hospital? This time, Lin Fan responded quickly. Yes. Has Mrs. Lin finished her checkup? Yup. Cheng Xi looked at the clock; it was already time to leave work. Let me treat the two of you to a meal. Lin Fan asked, Are you still at the hospital? Yes. Give me ten minutes, then? Cheng Xi agreed, and then decided on a place to meet. She packed up and started walking down the buildings stairs. At this time of the day, there were quite a large number of patients taking the elevator, so Cheng Xi instead took the stairs down. As she walked, she tried to call Shen Wei, but her phone was busy the entire time. In front of the psychiatry building was an expansive carpark. As Cheng Xi walked to the entrance, she raised her head and found a black car parked on the opposite side. The car pulled up by her, and Lin Fan walked out. Shen Weis call finally connected at this time, and the first thing Cheng Xi heard was her grumbling, I kept calling you but you didnt respond. Are you off work yet? Come over and eat That heartless Lin Fan said that he would treat us, but just as we finished ordering, he ran off again Hey, hey! Before Lin Fan could spot her, Cheng Xi retreated into the building once again, and then hid in an alcove as she sighed, I got it. Shen Wei seemed displeased. What did you get? Nothing. Cheng Xi smiled. I dont have time to go over, so enjoy your meal. Shen Wei got even more upset at those words. Gosh, you too? Even after I visited you at the hospital today? Ill treat you next time. She saw Lin Fan briskly walk into the building, stop by the side of the elevator, and then quietly wait in a noticeable spot. Cheng Xi also stood where she was, watching him silently. Time passed by quickly; after their most recent reunion, she constantly felt like he had changed greatly. But after she looked at him more carefully, he actually hadnt changed all that much; he was still that youth with a slight tinge of silliness, someone who would drop everything and rush over in a heartbeat. Almost as if he could sense her gaze, Lin Fan suddenly turned his head around and noticed her standing behind him. After the glimmer of recognition passed, his face slowly morphed into a smile. Even though he wasnt as handsome as Lu Chenzhou, when he smiled, anyone who looked at him would feel his golden sunshine-like smile wash over them, making them feel warm and happy. He walked over, a few minor hints of anxiety on his face. Did you wait long? No, I just got down. About that, Shen Wei and the others left early, and so did my mom. Although she wont be able to have dinner with you tonight, she said that next time, she will definitely catch up with you. Perhaps Lin Fan himself didnt notice this habit of hiswhenever he was nervous or trying to lie, he talked an abnormal amount. Cheng Xi smiled. Okay. Lin Fan became even more flustered from her simple response. His current behavior no longer reflected his calm demeanor that day at Shen Weis wedding. Right now, he actually gave Cheng Xi feel a sense of comfortable familiarity. As a youth, Lin Fan and his family hadnt been too well off. He had no father and lived alone with his mother. The mother and son pair lived quite a frugal life. The food at the schools cafeteria wasnt great, so all of the students there had brought their own lunches to school, and ate bits and pieces of everyone elses food. Lin Fan was the only student that never brought food from home; during lunch, he would always stand silently to one side. Cheng Xi brought her own food several times, but she stopped once she noticed his situation. After all, it was more fun to be thick-skinned and steal food from Rou and share it with Lin Fan. In the end, Lin Fan was able to gather lots of food even without Cheng Xis help, because he had a habit of speaking whenever he received food, which would make Tian Rou laugh. She had once said to Cheng Xi that if giving Lin Fan food could make him, her idol, speak a few more words to him, then she would gladly do it. Because of this, when Lin Fan started bringing his own food, his lunch box disappeared after just a few days. Now, many years later, while he was sitting down with Cheng Xi and recounting the old times while having a meal together, Lin Fan asked her, Back then, were you the one who incited Tian Rou to take my lunchbox away? Cheng Xi innocently replied, No. He didnt believe her, and looked at her suspiciously with squinting eyes. Cheng Xi laughed at the image, and then honestly said, Its true. Tian Rou really likes you. Lin Fans face blushed slightly. Barely glancing at her now, he shyly asked, Then what about you? What? Do you really like your boyfriend? Could she really say that he had improved compared to before? He hadnt been able to bear his curiosity any longer and had ended up asking her after all. Back then, a similar situation had occurred; while they were studying, a male classmate had, of his own accord, announced that Cheng Xi was his girlfriend. Lin Fan didnt even check with her regarding the truth of his words; when he saw the two of them walking together, hed automatically assumed that they were indeed in a relationship. From that point onwards, he had started slowly drifting away from her. If I said that he wasnt my boyfriend, would you believe me? Lin Fan hesitated for a moment before replying, Yes. But Cheng Xi knew that he didnt actually believe her, and she could understand that; after all, even an ordinary couple wouldnt just kiss left and right so cavalierlybut she also couldnt explain this situation because of doctor-patient confidentiality. She looked him right in the eye. You dont have to force yourself to believe me. Honestly, if I were you, I probably wouldnt believe myself either. Lin Fans expression became agonizing. Ah, youve seen through me But the thought that someone loves and is protecting you isnt bad, either. Cheng Xi smiled lightly, an unfathomable emotion wrapping around her heart. It tasted of some disappointment, probably, and a dusting of sadness. Whether in the past or in the present, it seemed like he still couldnt take that final step. This was why she thought that love was actually like being trapped in an illusion; crazy people would go even crazier, but it could also make logical people even more logical. After thinking about it, she didnt want his misunderstanding to grow any deeper. Unfortunately, Ill be disappointing everyone because Lu Chenzhou and I really arent a couple. At the very least, our feelings havent reached that level. From my perspective, hes just using me as a shield; one day, sooner or later, Ill become useless to him and be set free. These were Cheng Xis actual thoughts. She didnt expect that Lu Chenzhou had started to fall for her. To her, something like love at first sight couldnt possibly exist for a man like him. So, she believed that just like how she was treating him as a patient to be observed, the converse, him treating her as an object of observation, was also very likely to be true. Naturally, he was observing if she could, if she would help him. Lin Fan got to the heart of what she was saying. Freedom, you said? Did he do something that made you feel like you were not free? Cheng Xi couldnt help but admire his sharpness. Of all that I said, that word is the one that you paid the most attention to? Lin Fan laughed. Clearly, this time, his smile was tinged with genuine mirth. I- He could only get one word out before Cheng Xis phone suddenly rang. Her phone was placed on the table, so when Lu Chenzhous name appeared on the screen, both of them could see it. Lin Fans remaining words were like a burr in his throat. Cheng Xi caressed her forehead in annoyance. Im sorry. Let me take this call. She quickly picked up the phone, as calm as ever. Lu Chenzhou was as direct as ever. Where are you? Cheng Xi lifted up her cup and was about to drink some water. Is something up? I need to see you. His inflection was surprisingly severe. Cheng Xi instantly became more serious, thoughts flitting across her mind. Did something worse happen to Chen Jiaman, or did her father get into some sort of accident after rushing out like that today? Or, did Lu Chenzhous condition worsen? Hed even ignored his germophobia to kiss her today, after all. She sat straight up and gave him her location. Are you coming over now? What happened? And then Lu Chenzhous words made her realize that she shouldve stopped over-complicating things. Yes, I want to kiss you again. "" Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 34: I Don鈥檛 Need Love Cheng Xi started coughing violently and hung up reflexively. Whats wrong? Lin Fan asked, worried. Cheng Xi shook her hands, covered her mouth, and coughed for quite a while. It wasnt until she nearly reached the point of crying that the alarm and shock from Lu Chenzhous words finally settled down. Despite her being a psychiatrist, she wasnt too familiar with Lu Chenzhous way of thinking, and was still occasionally caught off-guard by his actions and words. Nothings wrong, is there? Lin Fan asked again. No, everythings fine, Cheng Xi replied. Lu Chenzhou said that he needed to see me for something. Then should I leave? Probably. Cheng Xi couldnt keep him here, because she really wasnt sure what would happen after Lu Chenzhou arrived. From her limited knowledge of him, if he really wanted to kiss her, then he would completely disregard whether or not other people were present. Pretending not to notice the disappointment in Lin Fans eyes, Cheng Xi stood up and walked him outside the restaurant. Ill wait here for him here. You can leave first. Lin Fan nodded and got into his own car, sitting there for quite a while before finally starting the engine and leaving. It was already winter; at night, it was as cold as ice. The car window wasnt closed, and blustering gusts of wind blew in from the night air, cold and chilling. Lin Fan didnt feel much of anything even while half-frozen. He looked at the rearview mirror and saw Cheng Xi hugging her shoulders, standing there without moving. The wind lightly lifted one corner of her scarf into the air, as if it were a butterfly tied to her back. That delicate butterfly scintillated with a colorful light. When he was overseas, that hue had been the shore where his dreams would have taken off; however, when he returned, he belatedly found that it had long since merged with the city, becoming a rainbow arc that he might never be able to touch. Lu Chenzhou arrived quite a while after Lin Fan left. He had driven the car himself, refused Cheng Xis offer to find a place to talk, and directly asked her to get into the car. After she got into the car, he turned around to look at her. His gaze was fixed upon her lips, as if he were considering how best to kiss her. Cheng Xi found the scene strangely funny. Before he could do anything, she said, Can I ask, why do you want to kiss me? She didnt feel all too awkward or taken advantage of. After all, he was a patient, and you couldnt use standard logic to evaluate their actions. Having drawn a line in the sand, Cheng Xi was very calm even in this situation. Lu Chenzhou behaved very coolly, as always. Ill kiss you if I want to; wasnt that what you said? Impatiently, he then commanded her, Come over here. But of course, Cheng Xi wasnt just going to go over. She treated him as if he were a familiar friend that she had conversations with, and, as if giving advice, said, Mr. Lu, I truly think that you should go read some romance novels. A kiss doesnt take place just because you want it to. If a man and woman truly love each other, then they dont have to kiss to demonstrate it; if they dont love each other, then even kissing wont make a difference. She had always thought that love was a basic act that everyone instinctively understood, but after seeing Lu Chenzhou, she finally understood that some people naturally lacked love. And as a result, naturally could not love. So, with regards to kissing, the psychiatrist part of her felt that it was her responsibility to correct him. Any intimate action that doesnt have love as its foundation is immoral. So, please dont do this in the future anymore, okay? Love? His forehead slowly scrunched up, even as his expression remained calm. Why do we have to make it so complicated? Dont we already have a contract? Cheng Xi had no words to respond to him, and could only trying to persuade him further. Your thoughts are wrong. Love is one of the most beautiful emotions that mankind has; you should try it out. I dont need love. Lu Chenzhou snorted at her words disdainfully, and then looked straight at her. Dont expect to receive any love from me. The only reason I want to kiss you is because I want to. In this world, there really wasnt much that Lu Chenzhou desired, and it wasnt clear whether the fact that Cheng Xi had sparked this desire in him was a blessing or a curse. But right now, Cheng Xi hadnt realized that she had gotten lucky, and she was trying her hardest to find the right words to convince him otherwise. But disregarding her feelings, Lu Chenzhou was growing impatient, and while she was still unprepared, he suddenly leaned over, turned her face towards his, and lightly kissed her. More accurately, he lightly stuck his lips, onto hers. After a brief moment of panic, Cheng Xi quickly relaxed. Without making a fuss or unnecessary motions, she just stood there, silently waiting. Before too long, Lu Chenzhou let go of her. He sat down two palms-lengths from her, and looked at her, his eyes clear and bright. Cheng Xi didnt move at all. She even smiled as she asked, How does it feel? Like nothing. Thats normal, and its because you dont love me. Only when we love each other will we feel our hearts race and our blood warm when we kiss. Ive never loved anyone. Lu Chenzhous voice was collected as he continued, But I like kissing you. Cheng Xi didnt have a sufficient enough understanding of his illness to realize what liking meant to the present him. But she instinctively turned serious as she explained, Im very honored, but I would still like to interact more in different ways before we kiss again. As you know, we havent known each other for very long, and even if we have a contract, were still essentially strangers. Lu Chenzhou didnt deny her words. Cheng Xi felt somewhat relieved, and smiled as she asked, Alright. Now, can you tell me why you want to kiss me? Lu Chenzhou turned his head around and looked her in the eye. Why? It was because he couldnt sleep, because life was boring, because he wanted to find something to do, and kissing her was about the only thing that he could think of. So he had come to find her. But Lu Chenzhou didnt want to reveal these thoughts to anyone. He opened the window, lit a cigarette, inhaled, and only then, with some amount of distaste, said, You have too many whys. Cheng Xi made a brief choking sound. As she observed the cold expression on the side of his face, she felt that she couldnt break so easily under his lack of emotion. Thus, she pretended to not understand his words, and continued to harangue him. Am I too curious? Can you tell me why you think so? You need a reason to think so, surely. For example, back in the hospital, you were jealous that Heh. Lu Chenzhou started laughing, turning his head, and blew a layer of smoke into her face, his behavior so cool that it made people want to scream. However, the words that he said next instantly cleared her mind. Jealous? No. Our contract has a section about loyalty. I think that, before you can pay the fee for breaking it, you wont be doing anything. ...... Cheng Xi opened her mouth slightly, but it took her a moment to find her words. Then why would you kiss me out of the blue? Actually, he also couldnt explain why he had done that. Perhaps, it was just the nature of men? Lu Chenzhou wanted to ignore her, but she wouldnt stop talking. He got annoyed, and said, Because doing is easier than speaking. Is that enough reason for you? The face that he made when he frowned and became completely cold without a single hint of warmth in his gaze was somewhat frightening. Cheng Xi weakly replied, Yes, I just want to know why you would randomly kiss me. She tried to suppress the fact that she was the one who had been kissed. Was it because you suddenly realized that you were starting to like me, or because of your own desire, because youre curious? Or did you realize that kissing was a beautiful thing that you wanted someone to experiment with? If the actual reason was the last option she presented, then that was a big step forward. It would mean that Lu Chenzhous illness wasnt that serious; was his aloofness just because he hadnt realized the charm of intimacy? Lu Chenzhou looked at her, smiling, but also at the same time not. Under his gaze, Cheng Xi found it very difficult to keep speaking, and slowly stopped talking. But her gaze was obstinate, and her expression showed her determined resolve to get an answer. Lu Chenzhou found this behavior of hers surprisingly cute, and he asked, Is the reason that important to you? It wasnt important to her personally, but it was very important to her understanding of his illness. Cheng Xi nodded her head fervently as she loudly replied, Yes! Lu Chenzhou then gave her a perfunctory reason. Because of my desire. She would be crazy to believe him! But Cheng Xi didnt expose his lie. She followed his lead and asked, Then, before this, did you have similar notions with any other women? No. His tone was blunt and crisp; evidently, he really hadnt. Cheng Xi was flummoxed. Then, to you, am I anything special? Lu Chenzhou gazed at her. Especially ugly. Does that count? ...Yes. Seeing her speechless expression, the smile at the corner of his lips became much fuller. This time, his smile was relaxed and mirthful, and his whole body seemed softer. Cheng Xi liked his current smile, and intentionally teased him. Mr. Lu. He turned around. She made a mockingly-serious expression. Let me tell you thiseven though the truth is a form of beauty, but, sometimes, lies make people happier. So, in the future, will you not speak as bluntly anymore? Lu Chenzhou thought about it for a moment before responding in an even more serious tone, Sorry, no. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 35: Partner Lu Chenzhous tone was relaxed, even jokingly so as he refused her. Cheng Xi couldnt help but be startled, and then started laughing. She thought that she had more or less learned how to get along with him as a friend, and that she was approaching their relationship less from a doctor-patient one. But she had suddenly thought of Chen Jiaman. When she was living with that kind of family life, had anyone ever joked with her, or laughed with her without caring for decorum? Perhaps the reason why she liked the graveyard was because only there could she say what she truly wanted to say. She suddenly wanted to go to the hospital to look at Chen Jiaman again, so she said to Lu Chenzhou, Sorry, are you still busy? If not, Id like to go back to the hospital. Lu Chenzhou looked at her questioningly. Cheng Xi explained, I want to go look at Chen Jiaman. He didnt say anything, and started the car to drive her back. He accompanied her even up the stairs and followed her into the office. The doctor on the night shift wasnt there, and the room was completely quiet. Cheng Xi changed into her work clothes and came out. When she saw that Lu Chenzhou was still there, she said, I might be a bit late, so you should head back first. Thank you for bringing me over. Because she wanted to verify her thoughts as quickly as possible, Cheng Xi left immediately after saying that. Chen Jiaman was currently entering the stage when she was the most active. But unlike before, after she had been given the sketchbook, she had clearly become much quieter. She sat there in the darkness, holding her pen, and drawing something that no one else had seen. Cheng Xi pushed the door open. After her eyes acclimatized to the darkness, she slowly walked over, still sitting five paces away from Chen Jiaman. The sketchbook that she had left behind in the morning was still there. She picked it back up, and muttered to herself, What should I draw? Her voice was very light. In this dark room, it was as light as a gentle wind, not frightening at all. Chen Jiaman didnt hear it, or if she did, she didnt respond. Cheng Xi didnt mind, and continued to speak softly. Ill draw a little bunny, then, a little bunny afraid of the dark. It yelled out in a dark house, Is there anyone there? Please speak to me. Im scared, and its too dark in here. There was another bunny locked inside with it, a bunny who was very old. When he heard the other bunnys behavior, he said, What use are your actions? Its so dark in here that you cant even see me. The little bunny replied, Thats quite alright. As long as theres someone speaking, theres light. That whole night, Cheng Xi repeated this story over and over again. The sketchbook that she had drawn in was a mess, and because she couldnt see, she didnt even know what she had drawn. Chen Jiaman never responded to her. After tiring herself out from drawing so much, Cheng Xi fell asleep by the corner of the table. In the morning, when she woke up, the sky was already bright. The nurse on duty had walked in and woken her up. By then, Chen Jiaman had also fallen asleep. Cheng Xi slowly walked over, and noticed that a corner of the sketchbook in her lap consisted of a large pile of messy lines. Walking out, Cheng Xi could only feel her four limbs aching. The nurse asked her, Dr. Cheng, how did you end up sleeping in there? Cheng Xi rubbed her eyes without speaking, and the nurse continued to say, Youre really close with your boyfriend, arent you? You fell asleep in the patients ward, but your boyfriend kept watch over you the entire night in the control room Dr. Cheng, youre really lucky. Cheng Xi froze for a moment, then quickly ran into the offices inner room, leaving the nurse behind. Lu Chenzhou was truly still there, sitting in front of the monitors. Upon seeing her enter, he raised his head and glanced at her coolly. You She could only say one word before the door behind her opened again. The morning shift doctors had come in; at the very front was the doctor who had had a run-in with her, her senior Ceng Xing. Hey, everyone, come look. Our great Dr. Cheng is really diligent. Didnt the head put you on leave? What are you doing back here? Cheng Xi gulped down the words she was about to say, and beckoned to Lu Chenzhou. Lets go. As Lu Chenzhou stood up to follow her out, the people outside naturally all saw him. Ceng Xing yelled out, Hey, whos this? How could you let a stranger into that area? Cheng Xi ignored him, pulling Lu Chenzhou out at a brisk pace. Even from far away, she could still hear Ceng Xing. How arrogant, completely lacking all respect for law and order. Wasnt she put on leave? Whats the point of running to the hospital daily? Whos she trying to impress? After entering the elevator, Cheng Xi was finally able to take a deep breath. It was only then that she realized that Lu Chenzhous hand was still clasped in hers. She quickly released her hand, carefully glancing at him. Lu Chenzhou was looking at her with a thoughtful expression. Whats the matter? Cheng Xi rubbed her face as she asked, Are you alright? You sat there the entire night? It was partly her fault. Last night, her attention had been entirely focused on Chen Jiaman, and she had totally forgotten that this Mr. Lu was somewhat abnormal too. Lu Chenzhou just continued looking at her. Only after quite a while did he say, Im tired. Cheng Xi, slightly relieved, replied, Oh then go back quickly and get some rest. So tired, Lu Chenzhou emphasized again. Only then did Cheng Xi inspect him closely. He was clearly barely awake, and his eyes were even somewhat red. Then But before she could finish speaking, Lu Chenzhous head drooped onto her shoulders, and his expression seemed like he was about to fall asleep right then and there. Cheng Xi couldnt speak. In the end, she could only bring him into her own bedroom. Cheng Xi was a very detail-oriented person. Her room was neat and tidy, and even the corners of her room were free of dirt and grime. Lu Chenzhou would be very happy with its condition. Cheng Xi left him on the guest rooms bed. The sheets were clean and well-folded; when she was preparing the bed, she could even smell the sunlight that had seeped into them. Lu Chenzhou was probably extremely tired, as he fell asleep almost immediately after getting into bed. Cheng Xi had originally wanted to cook him something to eat, but by the time she was done, he had already fallen into a deep sleep. Cheng Xi bathed herself and ate a light, unseasoned breakfast. Because she still had class in the afternoon, she then made some preparations for it and then rested awhile. Lu Chenzhou didnt wake up even after she made lunch. She didnt wake him up either, only leaving him a note, and leaving for the university right after she ate. That day, Cai Yi was also at the office dealing with her affairs, and Cheng Xi set aside some time to go discuss Chen Jiamans illness with her. Cai Yi agreed with her plan of treatment. If the reason for her illness is indeed as you said, then she clearly lacks trust. To make her accept treatment, obtaining her trust is the first step. Cheng Xi said, I intend on drawing with her daily. Hopefully, thatll be effective. Cai Xi laughed. They say that doctors have to be humane; so you really made the right decision to become a doctor. But for something like this, isnt it better for her family members to do that? Didnt you say that she has a father? Isnt he back yet? Hes back. While remembering Chen Jiamans fathers behavior, Cheng Xi frowned. I just received a call from the police, and they say that he refused to reopen the incident. Given that the matters already done and past, he doesnt want anything come up again. It happened too long ago, and given Chen Jiamans current condition, if her guardian decides to not take the initiative, then itd probably be very difficult to regain justice for her. Cai Xi looked at her. Youre disappointed by this turn of events? Cheng Xi let out a deep breath. Yes. Youre still too young. Cai Xi shook her head. This was such a vicious incident, so why did nothing come of the investigation two years ago? Do you think that after two years, some video footage without a clear start or end can change anything? If the Chens wanted to, or rather, if they were able to reopen the investigation, then they would have done so a long time ago. Their unwillingness to do so now is only human nature. Theres nothing to be disappointed about. There are too many unfair things in the world. As a doctor, you cant impose your own judgment into yours patients affairs. Just focus on what you can do. Chen Jiamans illness is very special, and being able to treat her will also be good for you. Cheng Xi knew that Cai Yis words were right, but they still left her with a heavy feeling in her heart. This is different, its illegal You have to learn something: there is always a darkness that the law cannot penetrate. If you try to dredge up everything, then Im scared that one day Before Cai Yi could finish, someone came inside and said, Professor Cai, the principal is here for you. She clearly couldnt continue the conversation. Cai Yi stood up. Just as Cheng Xi was about to send her off, she stopped her and said, Go back to teaching. I can go over by myself just fine. After saying that, she patted Cheng Xis shoulders. Everything will be fine given time. As she was preparing to leave, she suddenly turned her head around again. Oh, right, I heard that you and Lu Chenzhou ended up visiting his parentswhats going on? "" His grandparents are already preparing to build a new house for you, and they asked me about what sort of bridal room youd prefer ! ! ! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 36: Living Together? Cheng Xi was dazed by Cai Yis sudden news. Really? She was somewhat frantic. I thought Id explained things very clearly to his family that time. Because the principal was waiting for Cai Yi, Cheng Xi couldnt explain to her what had transpired in detail. Professor, please help me and clearly tell them whats going on. This is all a misunderstanding. Cai Yk tutted, pointing her finger at her forehead. Silly girl, you must be stuck in Lu Chenzhous trap. Upon seeing Cheng Xis dazed expression, she even smiled innocently. But if you really dont feel particularly strongly about love, then marrying him isnt a bad idea. What do you mean, Professor? Cheng Xi couldnt understand her professors words one bit! Unfortunately, Cai Yi didnt explain. Cheng Xi tried to chase her down and ask her a few more questions, but all she got in response was, Actually, Im just guessing. Dont ask me now, as that might affect your diagnosis of his condition. But you dont need to worry. If you really want to break off the contract, then Ill make him give you a discount. Should I thank you for that, professor? Cai Yi laughed heartily, and then headed into the principals office. Cheng Xi went to teach even as her face was . As class was being let out, she received a call from Cheng Yang. She didnt answer it then,so he texted her instead. Im here with Mom to see you, so come home quickly after work. Seeing this, Cheng Xi jumped up in fright. Lu Chenzhou was still sleeping over at her place; who knew if he had left yet? If he hadnt, then with the circumstances combined with his direct style of communication, Cheng Xi could only feel her head go numb. She quickly called Cheng Yang. You guys are here? Yep. Just you and mom? Who else would be here? Its nothing. Cheng Xi rubbed her forehead as she replied, A friends resting over at my place, and Im not sure if my friend left yet or not. A friend? Who? Male or female? Female. Cheng Yang chuckled. Then no. Cheng Xi let out a breath of relief. She had originally wanted to go back to the hospital, but since her mother and brother were here, then she could only go back home first. When she got back, the first thing she saw was her mother, her brother, and Lu Chenzhou sitting in a triangle in the living room, the atmosphere awkward beyond description. More importantly, Lu Chenzhou was naked! He was solely draped in a blanket, coolly looking back at Cheng Xis mothers and brothers glares. Cheng Xi entered, and the trios gazes landed on her immediately. Her mother was very polite as she asked, Youre back? Her voice was warm enough to make Cheng Xi tremble. And then Lu Chenzhou also said, Youre back? But then he quickly followed it up with, I dont have any clothes to wear anymore. Cheng Xi and her family were momentarily stunned and couldnt even think of a response. Her mother was the first to become furious, and threw a fierce Get over here! at her, before entering her room. Lu Chenzhou looked at Cheng Xi with a dignified and noble air, his expression seemingly stating, Your mothers mad, but its got nothing to do with me. It made Cheng Xi desperately want to hit him. Cheng Xi shifted her gaze to Cheng Yang, who shrugged her shoulders at her, as if he had no part in all this. As Cheng Xi walked over into her room, she leaned down and whispered to him, Didnt you say there wasnt anyone else home? Cheng Yang innocently replied, Yes, but you only asked about females. She wanted to keep arguing, but her mother was already shouting for her. Youre still not coming? Cheng Xi could only reply, Im coming. As she entered the room, she saw her mother with hands on her hips, rotating on the spot. Cheng Xi closed the door gently, and obediently called out, Ma Not even calling out for your ancestors will save you now! Her mother looked at her with a fierce expression. That man outside, is he really your boyfriend? Aaa~~ Stop aaa-ing at me! Cheng Xis mother was furious. What sort of eyes do you have? How could you find such a Glancing outside, she lowered her voice even more as she angrily whispered, Do you know what he was doing when we entered? He was eating while naked! He frightened me so much, but he didnt even care, and continued to slowly eat his fill before draping himself in a blanket. When I asked who he was, he said that he was your boyfriend Oh my goodness, my heart! Cheng Xi quickly rubbed her mothers chest, and help her sit down on the bed. Dont be too agitated. Speak slowly! How can I not be agitated? That behavior of his, I feel upset just looking at him! Daughter, are you looking for a boyfriend or a master? And even if its the latter, can you at least find someone more respectable? Not even putting on clothes when his elders are here, could he act any more disrespectfully? Just like a hoodlum Stop smiling! Cheng Xi really couldnt help herself from smiling, because her mothers choice of words were just too incompatible with Lu Chenzhou. Seeing her heartless behavior, Cheng Xis mother became even more agitated. Can you take this a bit more seriously?! Cheng Xi nodded. Why are the two of you here today? Her parents were usually taking care of the shop and were generally very busy. Under normal conditions, they wouldnt go anywhere else. Its all your brothers fault. He said he heard from your classmates that you had a boyfriend? Naturally, I came over to ask about your situation When we ask you about such things, you always say youre not in a rush. But who knew that you could act so quickly when you wanted toyoure already living together with him! "" Cheng Xi really felt maligned! She already told her friends not to spread the word, but theyd still done so. Rven worse, news had even somehow gotten into her mothers ears. Cheng Xi could only imagine her life getting even more complicated from here on out, so she decisively chose not to explain the situation. Instead, she waited patiently as her mother nagged at her, and at the end, she promised once again, Ill break up with him for sure, Mom. Dont worry. Seeing her compliant behavior, Cheng Xis mother was finally satisfied. However, she couldnt help but warn her one last time. Remember to be kind, and dont hurt his feelings he seems a bit dazed in the head, so dont offend him. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh again. What she had taken to be a blunt personality was, in her mothers eyes, a person dazed in the head. Even though Cheng Xis mother disparaged Lu Chenzhou, she still made a sumptuous dinner for everyoneshe was primarily trying to take care of her daughter, who seemed to have gotten even skinnier since the last time they had met. Being a doctor was tiring. While making dinner, Cheng Xis mother didnt let Cheng Xi help. Instead, she got Cheng Yang to buy Lu Chenzhou a new set of clothes. While Cheng Xi was pouring water to drink, she heard her mother instruct Cheng Yang, Buy something nicer and treat it as your sisters fee for breaking up with him. Upon hearing this, Cheng Xi was rendered speechless. She returned to the sofa in the living room, sat down, and then noticed that Lu Chenzhous whole body was curled up under the blanket as he calmly looked at his phone. She glanced over at it, seeing that he was sending an e-mail in English. When he finished, Cheng Xi asked, If you didnt have any clothes to wear, why didnt you just stay in the room? With a very righteous tone, Lu Chenzhou instead asked her, If my wifes mother is here, shouldnt I go and meet her? "" She had thought that she was very well-mannered and had gone through considerable ethical training, but Lu Chenzhou was somehow always able to get her riled up and furious. She really wanted to knock her head hard on this sofa and end it all. Shes not your wifes mother! Alright, this isnt even the key point. Rather, my mom said that when they entered, you werent wearing anything. How can you do that? No, I didnt. As Lu Chenzhou said this, he lifted up the blanket, showing the underwear within. I was wearing this. Oh! My goodness! Two exclamations at the same time. Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou turned their heads around, and saw her mother and Cheng Yang at the door of the kitchen. The pot in her hand clattered onto the floor, and Cheng Yang knocked his head against the doorframe. I didnt see anything. He had clearly hit his head, but he said this while covering his eyes. Then he gingerly stepped past the living room and out the door, running outside to get some new clothes. Slowly and carefully, Lu Chenzhou arranged the blanket about himself again, whereas Cheng Xis mother balefully stared at her son and her daughter. During dinner that night, besides Cheng Yang, everyone else was in low spirits. Cheng Xi didnt rest properly, so her appetite was poor. As for Lu Chenzhou His dining etiquette was perfect, slow and elegant, but anyone watching him eat would have their appetite drained away: eating was nothing more than a task to him, and it didnt matter if he were hungry or the food were tasty. As the cook, Cheng Xis mother was somewhat displeased with his behavior, and even more displeased when she saw her daughters gaze land on his body. She planned to give her daughter a stern talking-to at night, but Cheng Xi told her that she had to work the night shift. Additionally, her mother had to wake up early in the morning to open her diner, and it was unrealistic for her to stay overnight and dump everything on her husband. Thus, Cheng XIs mother could only go home with a head full of worries. Even so, before she left, she made sure to see Lu Chenzhou out first. With regards to all of this, Cheng Xi just did as she was told. At any rate, time would be able to resolve everything; she wasnt in a hurry. After sending her mother and brother away, Cheng Xi returned to the hospital. Once it was time, she went to Chen Jiamans ward and accompanied her in drawing. She persisted in doing this for quite some timethe hospital had finally let her return to work and had asked her to return to the clinicbut the results were still insignificant. Chen Jiaman still did not permit anyone to come closer than five paces to her. During this period of time, Chen Jiamans father had come to visit her just once, to pay her hospital bills and an additional hundred thousand yuan. At that time, Cheng Xi didnt know that he had paid so much money. She met him in her office. Compared to that day, Chen Jiamans father looked much paler, and he was wearing an attire similar to what he had worn that day, a black armband on his arm. Seeing Cheng Xis gaze land on his armband, he covered it with his hand. Im sorry for coming here like this, but today was my mothers funeral, so Please excuse me. From just his appearances, he certainly seemed like a dignified man. My condolences. Chen Jiamans fathers lips curved up imperceptibly as he said, I apologize for my actions that day; it was all my fault. In the past few days, the police came to talk to me. I know that youre a good doctor, and Jiamans very fortunate to have met you. But those things are long past, and I dont want to pursue them any further. Id also like to ask you to not meddle in this affair any longer If Jiaman can get better, thats great; if not, Im willing to keep paying for her stay here. Upon hearing this, Cheng Xi didnt know what sort of expression to make. She looked at him, not saying anything for a long while, before finally taking out a sketchbook from a drawer and placing it in front of Chen Jiamans father. This is a book of sketches drawings that your daughter has drawn while here. Take a look at it. If you still think that that matters unimportant afterwards, then I will respect your choice. But I have to say that, as a parent, if you cannot love your children, then at the very least, do not become an accomplice to her problems. Just as Cai Yi had said, she was only a doctor. The only thing she could do was to cure illnesses and treat patients. She couldnt become a savior for the masses, and neither did she want to. After leaving Chen Jiamans father alone, Cheng Xi walked out. Chen Jiamans nurse walked over, curiously looked inside the room, and then whispered in her ear, Dr. Cheng, Chen Jiamans fees are paid in full now, and her father even paid an extra hundred thousand yuan. Her father spent so much money at once; is he trying to keep her here for her entire life? Cheng Xi could only smile coolly. Who knows? She looked through the security camera as Chen Jiamans father slowly flipped through Chen Jiamans sketchbook. The nurse lamented, Chen Jiaman really has a talent for drawing. What a pity. Cheng Xi didnt respond. She looked at Chen Jiamans father as he flipped through the book, page by page, clutching his chest as tears started slowly dripping from his face. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 37: Breaking the Ice If Cheng Xi could have predicted what would happen later, she probably wouldnt have used those drawings to force Chen Jiamans father into action. Or, at the very least, she would have tried a gentler approach, so as to slowly uncover the past with him. Just as the nurse had noted, Chen Jiaman was very gifted at drawing. Her drawings were filled with emotion. Cheng Xi had seen one, and just that single picture had made her feel as if her own heart had been dipped in a bitter brine. The drawings that she had made in the darkness were filled with dark emotion. The main body of the drawing was composed of uneven, messy lines. But in the messiness, you could always see a hint of something else: anger, despair, and a sense of helplessness. The nurses said that her drawings were likely of ghosts and malicious spirits, but Cheng Xi knew that that interpretation was false. Chen Jiaman was drawing the world as she saw it: ugly, dismal, and corrupt. Compared to a flower by the roadside, even a maggot in a coffin would be cuter. And just as Cheng Xi knew this, so too did Chen Jiamans father. After seeing those drawings, he left without saying a single word. Cheng Xi didnt question him. She continued to stay by Chen Jiamans side in the evenings and through the night, the period when she was most active. For this reason, after Cheng Xi finished her work in the clinic, she had applied for a months worth of night shifts that the other doctors were all too happy to hand over. Her personality was serious, and once a patient was handed over to her, she felt that she should do as much as she could to cure them. And she hadnt wasted her efforts in vain, because, after almost a month since Cheng Xi had started accompanying her every night, Chen Jiaman finally responded to her. There were no signs that it would happen that day. As Cheng Xi entered, Chen Jiaman had ignored her as usual. As Cheng Xi drew and talked to her, she didnt respond either. Honestly, Cheng Xi had become somewhat disappointed at that point, and was planning to adjust her strategy for the longer term. However, she was so tired that day that she fell asleep by a corner of the wall again. In the middle of the night, she suddenly woke up, roused by movement to her side. When she opened her eyes, she saw Chen Jiaman half-kneeling beside her. Under the dim light, her eyes gleamed bright, just like the eyes of a little animal. And then she felt something on her neck, something very sharp. She realized that it was most likely the drawing pen that she had given to Chen Jiaman, whose nib was sharp enough to be used as a weapon. Behind her, the door opened. The doctors and nurses on duty had realized that something was wrong and rushed in. As the door opened, light leaked into the room. However, the ones who entered were still careful enough to not rush in like a crowd of bees. The nurse on duty was the first to poke her head in, and she slowly called out, Dr. Cheng. Cheng Xi wasnt going to die from being struck by a pen; she was more scared of startling Chen Jiaman. Seeing this, the nurse didnt come in, but she didnt leave either. Everyone just stood at the door and watched them alertly. Chen Jiaman didnt seem to notice any of the commotion at the door. She just continued to watch Cheng Xi with all her attention, the tip of her pen slowly sliding across Cheng Xis neck as it traced her artery up and down. Cheng Xi was afraid even of swallowing her saliva. She looked up at her, and then softly called out her name. Chen Jiaman. Softly, again. Chen Jiaman. The pen on Chen Jiamans hand finally stopped moving. She listened for a while, and then looked at her. Cheng Xi tried very hard to relax, and made her voice as soft and warm as she possibly could. Do you want to listen to a story? Shall I tell you a story? There was once a girl named Chen Jiaman. She was very scared of the darkness. In a pitch-black house, she yelled out, Is anyone there? Please speak to me. Im scared, and its too dark in here. Thats not right. Chen Jiaman suddenly spoke up. Cheng Xi stopped breathing. She almost thought that she had misheard, but just a moment later, she heard her say, Thats not right, its a little rabbit. Cheng Xi smiled, and lightly replied, Yes, Im sorry. Its a little rabbit. A little rabbit was scared of the dark, who yelled out in a pitch-black room She retold the entire story from the very beginning. Chen Jiaman listened very attentively. The pen nib next to her throat made Cheng Xi very uncomfortable, but she didnt move, almost as if she wasnt cognizant of it. After finishing the story, she asked Chen Jiaman, This place is so dark. Are you scared? No, she said, then quietly shushed Cheng Xi. Be softer. Dont wake them. Who? Ghosts, evil. Very evil ghosts. Who are they? Ghosts, there. So many of them. Chen Jiaman knelt by her ear, started muttering so many multiple times in quick succession, and then finally let go of Cheng Xi while shivering. She climbed back into the bed, sat down, and started ceaselessly drawing again. This seemed to be the start of the barrier between them breaking down. When Cheng Xi entered her ward again the next night, Chen Jiaman let her stand even closer to her. Occasionally Chen Jiaman would even talk to her. When she finished drawing and Cheng Xi asked if she could see it, she would even show her the drawings. Her antics, very reminiscent of a little girl sharing her secrets, made Cheng Xis heart ache and her mouth sigh with sorrow. After that day, Chen Jiamans father never visited again. Despite the arduous task ahead of them, the police were also making progress little by little. They had found some new information and were following up on it now. Everything seemed to be progressing in the right direction, but her perilous situation that day eventually made its way to the head of the department. First, her head came to talk with her, and then the director. In the end, Cheng Xi wasnt able to avoid her fate of being brought into their office for tea. Her head called her reckless. Dont you know that shes considered a dangerous patient? And you dared to stay in the same ward as her without taking any precautions? The director, meanwhile, even brought her professor into the mix. She was already off the beaten path, but you, youre even further off than she was. What can I say!? Cheng Xi simply sat and nodded at the appropriate moments. Using one of her colleagues favorite catchphrases, she said, Ill admit it when Im wrong, but Ill never regret it. Because she had broken standard protocol, Cheng Xi was criticized by the whole department, and even had to reflect on her actions during a department meeting. But to her, if this was the price to have a breakthrough in Chen Jiamans illness, then it was a paltry price to pay. After Cai Yi found out, she called her, and, after hearing her thoughts, could only smile and say, Not bad, youre growing quickly. As a psychiatrist, you certainly cant use the same treatment for everyone. If mental illnesses could all be solved by tying the patients up, giving them shots, and feeding them drugs, then what would be the use of us psychiatrists? All you would need would be some strong guards at that point. Ignore those people. Theyre just scared of having to deal with responsibility. But- As Cai Yi said this, her tone grew more serious. Your behavior is still too dangerous. You cant just put yourself in dangerous situations like this either. Cheng Xi nodded. Yes, I understand. I wont do it next time. You sound very insincere. Cai Yi shook her head. Cheng Xi didnt dare say anything more. Cai Yi relented and said, Fine, Im not trying to criticize you. I just want to tell you that being a doctor isnt like being an academic. In your eyes, your behavior might just be you trying your best to treat an illness. But in other peoples eyes, its easily seen as a shortsighted action of someone pushing ahead while disregarding danger. Youre still young and have a bright future aheadthe road of a doctor is very long, so walk steadily and dont let unnecessary things trip you up. Cheng Xi noted Cai Yis advice down seriously. Cai Yi smiled. Its just a little piece of advice from my end. Ill be happy as long as you keep it in mind. Actually, the reason I called you in today was to tell you this: Lu Chenzhous grandfathers birthday is tomorrow, and theyre quite serious about inviting you. Do you have any spare time to attend? After thinking a bit, Cheng Xi said, This is a bit improper, isnt it? She had earlier asked Cai Yi to clarify to them her situation with Lu Chenzhou, and it seemed that his grandparents had accepted the truth and understood Cheng Xis worries. Thus, they had indeed stopped applying stress on Lu Chenzhou by bringing up marriage in front of him. As a result, she felt somewhat inappropriate by accepting this invite from them at this time. Cai Yi replied, Then its up to you. The two of them havent given up yet, but its also fine if you dont go. Cheng Xi wasnt planning on going, but the next day, Lu Chenzhou came over himself to fetch her. Recently, he had been travelling abroad for work, whereas Cheng Xi worked at night and slept during the day. This all meant that she hadnt seen him for quite a few days. When she saw him for the first time in a while, she even felt slightly uncomfortablethe key issue being that he seemed to have gotten even more handsome. Or perhaps, the sun wasnt so bright in the winter, so he was turning even more paler. He was originally quite handsome; his lips were thin like an elegant wood carving, his nose high and prominent, and his eyes like jet-black ink. When his skin paled even more, it accentuated his refined features to the point that he looked almost like a work of art. But, as usual, he was still cool and composed, and his tone was hard enough to pound someone into paste. Lets go. Cheng Xi asked, Where to? My house. When she repeated her question, he said, Youre my girlfriend. How can you not attend my grandfathers birthday celebration? "" Despite the fact that she had cleared things up with Lu Chenzhous family, she clearly would never be able to clarify the situation with Lu Chenzhou himself. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 38: Acciden Cheng Xi had no choice but to get dressed and follow Lu Chenzhou to his grandfathers birthday banquet. Anyway, his family all knew what was going on and about his mental illness, so Cheng Xi didnt mind being dragged every which way by him. The banquet wasnt a big affairafter all, his grandfathers wasnt reaching a nice round agebut it couldnt be considered small either. There were still at least a few tables full of people, and Cheng Xi had even run into someone she knew. Cheng Xi. It was Lin Fan who saw her first, and he immediately came over and greeted her when he saw that she was alone. He wasnt all that surprised, but his mother behind him was. Cheng Xi? She actually still remembered her! Cheng Xi smiled and responded, Thats me. Its good to see you again, Mrs. Lin. Its good to see you too. Lin Fans mother looked her up and down, a few notes of regret in her familiar tone. How long has it been? Youve grown more and more pretty over the years. Realizing where they were, she asked, Youre quite familiar with the Lu family? Somewhat. My professor is very familiar with Mr. Lus grandfather. Professoryoure still in school? No, its been two years since I graduated. I meant to say that its my professor back when I was in medical school. Medical school, oh. You must be a doctor, then or a nurse? A nurse is quite a respectable profession for females. Cheng Xi smiled without saying anything, but Lin Fan was so embarrassed that he couldnt help but interject, Mom, Cheng Xis a doctor at Renyi Hospital. Oh, at Renyi, huh. Thats a good place. I was even there to get my illness treated a while ago. Lin Fans mothers response was very natural, and she even rebuked Lin Fan a little. This child didnt even tell me that you were there. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say. She could only note that Lin Fans mother had changed greatly since the last time she saw her. From her memory, she seemed to be a pretty but somewhat anxious woman, always wore cheap clothes, and, in order to let her and her son live a somewhat better life, worked multiple jobs a day. But now, his mother was now wearing a white fur coat over a black silk dress. After ten years, she looked younger than ever, but the anxiety in her eyes had been replaced by an arrogance and snobbishness that left others slightly uncomfortable. They didnt talk for long before Lin Fans mother dragged him away. Cheng Xi saw that Lin Fan was being helplessly pushed toward a well-dressed man by his mother, and, not knowing why, she sighed lightly. Besides Lin Fan and his mother, Cheng Xi didnt know anyone else in the houseCai Xi hadnt come, and Lu Chenzhou was busy. Although his grandparents were somewhat close to her, their intimate way of interacting with her made Cheng Xi quite uncomfortable. With nothing else to do, she hid in a corner and started playing games on her phone. She hadnt played this game in a long time; it was a webgame called Escape from the Apocalypse. The year that she graduated, she had given her account to Cheng Yang and never logged in again. As she tried to start playing again, she found that Cheng Yang had even changed her password. Cheng Xi stared at her phone, dumbfounded. Just as she was about to call Cheng Yang to ask for the new password was, Lin Fan suddenly walked in from behind the curtain. How did you end up sitting here? Cheng Xi put her phone away again, and smiled. Its quiet. Seeing him, she asked, Did you escape? Lin Fan could only laugh bitterly. It seems like you always end up seeing my familys unruliness and my difficult situations. Cheng Xi shook her head. Thats not a big deal. She changed the topic quickly as she said. Your mother is looking younger and younger with each passing year. When you stand by her, you look more like her brother than her son. Lin Fan smiled, but his jovial mask betrayed the underlying bitterness. Thank you. She remarried, and her new husbands background is pretty good, so these past years.. He lowered his head, held his face with his hands, and pulled on it with both hands in anguish. Im sorry. My mother behaved quite rudely just now. Its alright. I didnt feel like she was rude. After thinking for a moment, she pulled two sweets out of her bag. I only have these two left, but do you want them? You Lin Fan raised his head, and looked dazedly at the sweets in her hand. The colorful wrapping and the little squirrel with a smile so wide that one could see its teeth but not its eyes brought a comforting sense of familiarity to him. In the past, he had owed her many a favor that he couldnt return. All he could give back to her were sweets: ten little squirrels for a single yuan, cloyingly sweet. He had found an excuse and said that, Sweets are sweet. If you eat more sugar, youll find that life isnt as hard anymore. From then on, she gladly took some of his sweets, and, slowly, developed her own habit of buying some wherever she went. Cheng Xi said, Yes, Im still eating them. The more I eat, the more that I feel that your words back then held some truth to them. She unwrapped the sweet and gave it to him. What do you think? Lin Fan looked at the sweet, and felt his heart surge with emotion. Cheng Xi, I Faner! Why are you here? Lin Fans mother found him at that moment. Originally her face had been full of reproach, but she started smiling a bit when she noticed Cheng Xis presence. Ah, Cheng Xis here too? She looked at the two of them somewhat sternly. The two of you are already old classmates, so what are you doing here hiding from the gathering? Go outside, its so lively! Young people should interact with others more. As she said this, she pulled Lin Fan up, and also was about to pull Cheng Xi up too if Cheng Xi hadnt avoided her hand. Cheng Xi then took out her phone again, and waved it as an excuse. Mrs. Lin, please dont wait for me. Ill head over once I make a call. Lin Fans mother said, Alright, then well be going first. She turned around to look at Lin Fan, her gaze somewhat severe. Despite his unwillingness, Lin Fan could only begrudgingly follow her out. Before he left, he looked at Cheng Xi again and said, Ill come find you again later. Will you wait for me? Cheng Xi smiled, but didnt answer. She thought that perhaps Lin Fans mother didnt want her to say yes. Evidently, as soon as she went out to catch a breath, she heard his mother lecturing him. Why are you so impatient? What am I doing all this for? I only obtained this chance for you to be here after bothering your uncle for so long; why cant you cherish it more? If you dont want me to plan out a path for you, then at least do more for yourself, like Shen Wei from last time. Her background and her grooms background were both pretty good. Since youre all old classmates, you definitely could have taken the chance to borrow some of her influence. But what did you do? You said that you were going to invite them out to eat, but you left the lunch halfway throughyou, what do you want me to say! Mom, I dont like this sort of behavior. Then what do you like? That doctor Cheng Xi? Son, you can reminisce about the past with her at any time, but why must you do it now? I heard that she was only a doctor, and even one from the psychiatry department at that. She wont be able to help you one bitwhats the point of sticking with her? After saying this, she suddenly remembered something, and then looked critically at her son. Dont tell me that you like her. Lin Fan remained silent. His mother could only sigh. Regarding matters of love, I really shouldnt be meddling with your life, but, Lin Fan, you have to remember that love isnt all there is to life, and it isnt a necessity either. Youre still young. This is the best time to start and develop a foundation for your career, so I hope youll place more focus on that. As you know, your uncle has his own children, so the resources that he can provide you with are limited. I also dont want him to think that the two of us need his support to do well, so please make something out of yourself and live well for others to see. If you dont want to use marriage as a tool for advancement, then at least find someone with the same mindset as you, who can help you out in your career. Lin Fan, I dont want your life to be as tough as mine.. Cheng Xi didnt keep listening. She put on a smile and turned around to enter the house once more. Once she entered, she found that Cai Yi had arrived and was chatting happily with Lu Chenzhous family. As she came in, she heard her ask, Ah, wheres your second grandson. Is he not here on this occasion? Oh, dont mention that little brat. Being the introverted that he is, he said that there were too many people, and I really As Lu Chenzhous grandmother was talking, she spotted Cheng Xi and quickly smiled and waved at her. Ah, Dr. Chengs here! Quickly, come over. She went forward and grabbed her hand, smiling amiably. Zhous father is here too. let me introduce the two of you. "" Could she refuse? Honestly, no. She couldnt, because Lu Chenzhous grandmother had already called Lu Chenzhous father over. Come, this is your sons...um, friend, Cheng Xi. Isnt she pretty? Cheng Xi was quite certain that the old lady had skipped over the word girl, but she couldnt argue. Instead, she made her best attempt to smile at his father and greeted, Nice to meet you, Mr. Lu. Lu Chenzhous father was about fifty years of age, large and tall. Lu Chenzhou looked somewhat similar to him, but younger and with more refined features. Regardless, his father was certainly a charming silver fox. His voice was especially nice, as it held the special charm of a man of his age. His gaze landed on Cheng Xis face as he smiling greeted back, Ive heard of you. Nice to meet you. Cheng Xi smiled. Trying to act like a virtuous and dignified woman was tiring on her heart and soul, and she wished fervently that an angel would come and rescue her. As if answering her plea, just as Cheng Xi was starting to feel out of it, her phone rang. It was the hospital. Just like a pardoned convict, Cheng Xi felt like she had been freed as she excused herself from the crowd. At that point, she had already made her mind up to find an excuse to leave after taking the call. But once the call connected, the first thing she heard was Chen Jiamans piercing screech. Aaaaaahhh!! Aaaaaahh!! Upon hearing her sudden scream that carried with it an uncontrollable fear, Cheng Xi jumped up in fright and quickly asked, Whats wrong? The nurse anxiously replied, Come quickly, Dr. Cheng! Something happened, something happened to Chen Jiaman! Come quickly! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 39: Kiss Cheng Xi quickly hung up and was about to leave immediately when Cai Yi noticed that something was wrong. She quickly stopping her and asked, Whats wrong? Professor, theres somethings wrong with a patient, and I have to leave for the hospital immediately. Alright, go ahead, Cai Yi replied as soon as she heard Cheng Xis answer. As she watched her leave hurriedly, she called her back again a moment later. Wait a moment. Ill call Wu to drive you there. No need, let Zhou send her. He drives quickly. Lu Chenzhous grandfather had intercepted her as well, and he quickly called for Lu Chenzhou, who had been talking to someone by his side. Quick, quickly send Dr. Cheng back to the hospital. The whole room was in somewhat of an uproar at Lu Chenzhous grandfathers words, but during this time, Cheng Xi had already raced outside. Lu Chenzhou raised his eyebrows, not saying anything, and stepped out quickly. As Cheng Xi walked outside, she ran into Lin Fan and his mother. Lin Fan called out, Cheng Xi Cheng Xi reluctantly stopped, and apologetically said, Sorry, but I have something urgent to attend to. Ill be leaving now. Goodbye, Mrs. Lin. After blurting out a quick couple of sentences, she left immediately. Not long after, Lu Chenzhou came, following her footsteps. Just as Lin Fans mother was about to greet him, even calling out Zhou, Lu Chenzhou had already walked across the corner of the garden, and not even his shadow could be seen a second later. Lin Fans mother was somewhat upset, her face sinking. Before she could say anything, she heard her own son say, Mom, something seems to have happened to Cheng Xi. Ill go find out whats wrong. What are you going for? Lin Fans mother quickly tried to restrain him. But she wasnt fast enough to do so this time. Lin Fan pulled away and chased after the two, leaving his mother standing in her original spot, so angry that her lungs were beginning to hurt. Cheng Xi evidently didnt know who was following her. She had originally intended to take a taxi, but before one could arrive, Lu Chenzhou had driven in front of her with his car. He didnt say anything, merely stopping the car by the roadside, rolling down the windows, and looking at her beckoningly. Cheng Xi glanced at him and then got in the car. It wasnt rush hour yet, so there weren''t that many cars on the road. With some good luck, they quickly arrived at the hospital. When she got there, she saw Chen Jiaman once again strapped onto her bed. She was struggling and screeching like a wounded beast. In fact, she was making so much noise that the other patients in the ward had also started yelling, keeping the whole floor in a constant state of uproar. The doctor on duty was once again Cheng Xis senior, Ceng Xing. Just as he was about to perform electroconvulsive therapy on her, the instruments in his hand millimeters from touching her skin, Cheng Xi arrived. Dr. Ceng, Cheng Xi said as she grabbed his hand. Thank you for your work, but can you leave my patients to me? Ceng Xing turned around, smiling. Sure. Ive heard that youre quite unconventional in your methods and particularly dislike using ECT. Show us what youve got, then. Cheng Xi ignored his strange behavior. She walked in front of him, pushed him out of the way, and then looked at the medical personnel holding Chen Jiaman down. She took a deep breath and ordered, Let go of her. You guys can leave now. She started removing the constraints keeping Chen Jiaman tied to the bed, but a concerned nurse stopped her. Dr. Cheng, shes in terrible condition right now. I know. Cheng Xi really wanted to sigh. A whole months of hard work, but had it all gone down the drain? She put her gloves on. You guys can all go out first. There are too many people, and shes too scared right now. Not only were there too many people, but the light in the room was also too bright. Someone had opened all of the blinds that had been kept closed ever since Chen Jiaman entered the ward, causing the sunlight to land squarely on Chen Jiamans ghastly pale face. Get out! Cheng Xi emphasized again, and then she went forward, grasped Chen Jiamans hand tightly, and started calling her name lightly as she loosened her constraints. Chen Jiaman, Chen Jiaman Can we quiet down a little? Just as Chen Jiamans hand constraints were released, her upper body suddenly sprang up. She wanted to run out, but her feet were still tied down, and she continued screeching and struggling uncontrollably, closing her eyes and flailing her fists around. Cheng Xi got hit quite a few times, and she had to hug her tightly in an attempt to pacify her. Chen Jiamans energy was actually almost completely used up. When she realized that she couldnt push Cheng Xi away, she lowered her head and fiercely bit down on Cheng Xis arm. It had been pretty cool the last couple of days, so Cheng Xi wasnt wearing very thick clothing. Chen Jiamans bite penetrated quite deeply, and a throbbing pain immediately shot through her bones, making her feel as if her hand had been half-bitten off. But she didnt do anything, only hugging Chen Jiaman even more firmly with one hand and unceasingly patting her back with the other. Its okay, were fine. Chen Jiaman, everythings okay. She lightly whispered into her ear. Its bright, and were not scared anymore. She didnt know if her month of accompanying Chen Jiaman through the night had been effective, but Chen Jiaman gradually calmed down, and then released Cheng Xis arm from her mouth. Cheng Xi released the breath that she had been holding in. If Chen Jiaman hadnt let go, her hand might have been crippled. She supported her, her hands lightly running over her eyes. Its bright. Arent you going to open your eyes and see the light? But Chen Jiaman didnt open her eyes. She lay in her lap, her whole body trembling and shaking. Without any other recourse, Cheng Xi eventually had to give her a shot so she could fall asleep slowly. After shutting the blinds and restoring the room to its usual state, Cheng Xi walked out of the ward. Her entire body was damp, as if she had just been pulled out of a pool of water. There were quite a number of people standing outside Chen Jiamans ward, including doctors, nurses, and even colleagues from other departments who had heard the news and had come to help. Among these people, Cheng Xi even saw Lu Chenzhou and Lin Fan. Nothings wrong, is it? Cheng Xi shook her head, smiling at them tiredly. Her gaze turned toward the nurse on duty, and she asked, What exactly happened? How did she suddenly end up like this? It was Chen Jiamans aunt. She came to visit her, and something she did seemed to trigger Chen Jiaman. Aunt? Cheng Xi frowned. If she remembered correctly, then Chen Jiaman shouldnt have an aunt, only a great-aunt. However, that great-aunt had a terrible relationship with her family. She took a deep breath, and then asked, Where is she now? The nurse ran out to look for her, but returned not long later. Shes gone. Cheng Xi couldnt help but ground her teeth in frustration. Go look around and try your best to find her. She really wanted to yell at someone, but given the situation, who could she yell at? Chen Jiamans situation was stabilizing, and it was natural for her family to be allowed to visit her. Who could she yell at? The doctors and nurses left quickly as Cheng Xis mood became obvious. But she remained standing there, taking her time to recover and wrestle her emotions back under control. Lin Fan asked, concerned, Are you alright? He sighed as he lamented, I havent seen a doctor who cares as much about her patients as you. Cheng Xi could only laugh bitterly. As she was about to reply, her gaze inadvertently landed on Lu Chenzhou. He looked very normal, his body straight, as quiet as a pine tree. But if one looked closely, it was evident that something was wrong. His gaze was dim and the atmosphere around him frigid, just like a bowstring pulled too tight, one that could snap at anytime. Cheng Xis heart contracted. Just as she was about to approach him, Lin Fan stretched out his hand and touched her. Your hand You should take care of it first. Only now did Cheng Xi realize how much it hurt! She yelped lightly, shook her head, took two steps forward, and then grabbed onto Lu Chenzhous sleeve. Lu Chenzhou. Her voice was caring and warm, calling for him gently. My hand hurts. Can you help me? He looked as if he didnt hear her. Instead, his gaze seemed to be focused on the emptiness beyond as he stood there, stock still. She repeated herself, and only then did he seem to come alive again, turning his eyes to look at her. Cheng Xi also looked at him, seemingly ignoring his unusual behavior, and instead smiling charmingly. Are you not going to help me? Then are you really my boyfriend? When Lin Fan heard this, his face darkened. Lu Chenzhou looked at her in a daze for quite a while before he stretched out his hand, and pulling her along steady. Cheng Xi relaxed and started thinking about what else she could say to make him feel more comfortable. But then his hand pulled tightly, and she fell into his bosom. She had originally wanted to push him away, but his body was trembling. And in this moment of hesitation, Lu Chenzhou leaned down and kissed her. "" Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 40: Crime and Evil When Cheng Xi regained her wits, she found that she and Lu Chenzhou were the only two people on the street, and that Lin Fan had left some time ago. She was still a bit dazed and somewhat scared because Lu Chenzhous kiss this time was quite different from the previous two times. He had learned to stick his tongue out somewhere, and despite not having any finesse, had licked her lips and face like a little dog. This kiss had shocked Cheng Xi more than any other. When he tightly embraced her, she could also feel that he had gotten an erection. This was She clutched her face. At the very least, he hadnt done anything about it, but she guessed that it wasnt that he didnt want to, but rather that hedidnt know how to? This guess came from the fact that he was currently looking strangely at the lower half of his body, and even reaching his hand out as if to touch it. When Cheng Xi saw his movements, she felt black lines streaking across her forehead, and she quickly grabbed his hand. Lets go. My hands really about to break off. She pulled him back to the office with her, only relaxing once she saw that he had calmed downgiven his earlier behavior, she was worried that if her colleagues saw him, they would beat and throw him out as if he were a hoodlum. Cheng Xi had Lu Chenzhou sit down. He did so obediently, like a deep thinker sitting with his back straight and head held high and coolly. His indescribable antics made Cheng Xi want to laugh at the absurdity. She pursed her lips, not thinking about him, but not leaving the room either. She took her jacket off and prepared to look at the arm that Chen Jiaman had bitten. When she rolled up her sleeves, even Cheng Xi herself was a bit shocked by the sight. Chen Jiamans bite had been very fierce indeed, and there was a clear set of large and round tooth marks embedded into her skin. Luckily, since it was winter, she had been wearing a jacket. If it were summer, she probably would have had a large chunk of flesh ripped out of her arm. She was also trying to be brave. Cheng Xi didnt want to cause any more trouble, so she scavenged some iodine and cotton swabs, intending to privately disinfect her wound. But she was quite sensitive to pain. As she poured iodine onto her wound, she immediately felt pain course through it again. It was as if there were thousands of mouths gnawing on her flesh, and she was almost unable to continue. Do you regret it? Lu Chenzhou had finished thinking some time ago, and had come over to watch her treat herself. Cheng Xis forehead was covered in a thin sheen of sweat. She forced herself to raise her head to look at him. Regret what? Lu Chenzhou took a cotton swab and poked at her wound. Ouch! Cheng Xi couldnt handle it anymore, and her head hit the tabletop out of exhaustion as she powerlessly said, Dont make a fuss, Lu Chenzhou. When he noticed that she hadnt called him Mr. Lu, he felt rather happy. He decided to let her off the hook, and even kindly offered, Let me help. And then he took another cotton swab, poured alcohol on it, and helped her clean her wound. A rich young master like him had never done such a thing. As the cotton swab penetrated deep into Cheng Xis wound, so much pain wracked her body that she started quivering. After stubbornly bearing it for a while, she gave up, and exerted just enough strength to stop the cotton swab in his hand. Alright, you can stop now. If he were to continue, her arm might really break off! This time, she didnt even dare let him help wrap her wound. She did it herself casually, rolled her sleeve back down, and then put her jacket on. Just that? He raised his eyebrows questioningly. No. Ill go get some medicine from the surgery area later, and I might also have to get a shot. Lu Chenzhou looked at her. What is it? she asked as she tidied up the table. Why? Hmm? Why help her like that? Im the doctor whose responsible for her. Upon hearing this, Lu Chenzhou smiled coolly, but didnt say anything more. His grandfathers banquet was still going on, and Lu Chenzhou naturally couldnt stay out for too long. Once they called him and asked about his situation, he left quickly. Cheng Xi never returned. She didnt know what Chen Jiaman would be like when she woke up, and she didnt feel comfortable leaving before finding out. But she also was somewhat worried about Lu Chenzhou, and she forcibly found him a substitute driver, even calling Cai Yi to warn her. His condition doesnt seem too stable, as if he was scared by Chen Jiamans incident. Once he returns, please help take care of him, professor. Cai Yi replied, Okay. Perhaps it was because she could hear the note of remorse in Cheng Xis voice, but she also reassuringly added on, Itll be fine, dont worry. Hes not a novice, and wont truly be scared from something like this. Cheng Xi smiled. Thats good. Not long after Lu Chenzhou left, her colleague came back and said that she couldnt find Chen Jiamans aunt, who had presumably left during the disturbance. Even the phone number that she had left was fake. When Cheng Xi went to go review the security footage, she realized that this so-called aunt looked quite familiar. Her memory was quite good, and after thinking for a moment, she quickly realized that this mystery person was actually the restaurant owners wife that worked near Chen Jiamans school. Call the police, Cheng Xi said. Ah? Her colleague jumped up in fright. Th-theres no need to, is there? Cheng Xi didnt say anything else, and instead immediately sought out the head of the department directly. After hearing about the situation, he stared at her and finally squeezed out some words. Dr. Cheng, do you think that our reputation is too good? Cheng Xi understood what the head was saying. If word of this incident got out, their hospital would have to take responsibility for negligent personnel. If they really called the police, then it wouldnt reflect well on them either. Cheng Xi comforted the head by saying, Self-reflection is also a form of improvement. The head only gave her one word in response: Scram! And Cheng Xi did so, heartily. Of course, she still ended up calling the police, and the police responded quickly. That restaurant owners wife has a daughter a year older than Chen Jiaman. After our investigation, weve proven that her daughter was the instigator behind the bullying from two years ago, and have currently taken preventative measures against her child. Because were still in the process of investigation, we didnt tell you about this. Presumably, this is why she went to seek out Chen Jiaman. And finally, the police even told her some additional news. Theres something you should be aware of, Dr. Cheng. Regarding Chen Jiaman, even if we fully investigate the children who bullied her, they wont receive too severe of a punishment. At the time of the incident, most of them were younger than fourteen years of age. Given that its already been two years since then, that the Chens have already received financial reparation, that theyve decided not to pursue the matter further, and that weve even received a joint petition from the childrens classmates and neighbors pleading for leniency and saying that theyre all intelligent, kind children So theyre all intelligent and kind, whereas Chen Jiaman is terrifying and evil. Thus, she deserved to be driven mad? But no one answered this question of hers. Cheng Xi was sitting in her office, and despite the heater running strongly, she felt an unexpectedly chill. Dr. Cheng, a family member for the patient in bed 24 is here. Cheng Xi broke out of her daze, frowning. Who is it? The nurse didnt answer, but she didnt need an answer anymore. Cheng Xi could already see the man who had come, Chen Jiamans father. He was still dressed very neatly, in a black down shirt and long black pants. Perhaps it was his clothes, but he looked even older than last time; his spine was even starting to look crooked. Is Jiaman alright? Cheng Xi looked at him. The anxiety on his face seemed like he was truly worried about his daughter. Dr. Cheng, the police said that someone intentionally came over here to provoke her. Is is she alright? I dont know. Cheng Xi tried very hard to calm herself down, but couldnt help herself from shooting out some prickly words. I thought that you wouldnt care about her anymore after leaving some money. But it seems like you actually still worry about her? Her father mumbled, Sorry. What use is saying sorry to me? She shut her eyes and took a deep breath. Im sorry. Im not feeling very well. If youre truly concerned about her illness, then Ill find a doctor to speak with you. She stood up and prepared to leave. At this time, she was unable to face this manin Chen Jiamans miserable life, he too had been an instigator of her suffering. Dr. Cheng Cheng Xi did not stop walking. Chen Jiamans father pleaded from behind, I know why she came. She managed to get a petition, a petition to absolve her daughter of her crimes. She believes that only if Chen Jiaman truly becomes crazy will she be able to offset the grievance that her daughter has faced in the meantime Dr. Cheng, I hope she can get better, please! With a loud Peng, Cheng Xi turned around and found that Chen Jiamans father was actually kowtowing on the floor. She almost jumped with fright and dodged instinctively. You dont have to act like this. She scrunched up her forehead in stress. If you truly feel this way, then you should treat your daughter better. You should know that giving birth to her and not raising her is a sin. After saying this, she stopped paying attention to him, not caring whether he left afterwards. She went to get some medicine for herself and gave herself a tetanus shot. When she returned, she found out that Chen Jiaman had woken up. She seemed to have reverted to the original condition that she had come in as. She was scared of light and of people, her mouth was constantly mumbling something no one could make out, and she stayed curled up in a corner with her torn up sketchbook. She had scattered the pieces all over her body, almost as if by doing so she could bury herself once more. Cheng Xi stood by the door, quietly watching her. When night came and Chen Jiaman started frantically looking for her head, Cheng Xi recalled all those people in the little town who had helped the bullies go unpunished and Chen Jiamans father whose repentance had come far too late. This entire situation reminded her of a poem: Demons hide in the masses. Hiding from notice, They share our beds, They share our food. At the same time, another common aphorism came to mind: This is the way that evil follows us through our lives, as nondescript as crimes are eye-catching. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 41: Spreading Poison When Cheng Xi walked out of the main lobby of the hospital, it was already very late. She was unbelievably tired, both physically and mentally, and the hand that had been bitten by Chen Jiaman had been throbbing this whole time. It probably wouldnt recover anytime soon. She clutched her arm, and just as she was about to start squeezing it to try to relieve the pain, a person suddenly appeared in front of her. She stopped. Lin Fan? You never left? Nope. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say; perhaps it was because of her grief and indignation, but she had completely forgotten about him. But Lin Fan couldnt help a smile from creeping onto his face. Im kidding. His voice was warm, almost tender. The banquet at the Lu household just ended. I was a bit worried about you, so I came to see how you were doing. Cheng Xi paused, a slight desire to cry suddenly welling up in her heart. It was at this moment that she realized that she, too, felt wronged and unwell. Lin Fan Im here. I want to drink. Will you accompany me? Okay. And so, the two went to go drink at an alley near the hospital. There was a famous night market in that area. At this time of the night, the yellow streetlights illuminated a simple and quaint street market suffused with a wonderful smell. In the cold night, Cheng Xis white breaths marked the air. As the warmth from her breath dissipated, a slender, long arm reached out towards her. In its palm was a few offered sweets, a bunch of laughing squirrels wrapped in colorful wrappers. For you. Cheng Xi took one of the squirrels. This sort of candy is so hard to find nowadays. You Lin Fan smiled. As long as you keep an eye out, youll always be able to find some. In fact, it had really been quite difficult for Lin Fan to find the candies. After leaving the hospital, hed driven aimlessly through the streets, trying to satisfy his sudden craving for candy. And perhaps only the cloying sweetness of that childhood candy could make him temporarily forget about the bitterness that had tainted his heart and mouth. He spent the whole night searching, but when he finally found them for sale, he suddenly lost the desire to eat them. It was possible that the only reason he couldnt forget about them was solely because she had always liked them. Without her, even the sweetest thing in the world would taste bitter. Cheng Xi understood the meaning of his words. She looked at him, her expression somewhat conflicted. What is it? The way you say it makes me feel like Im misunderstanding something. Misunderstanding what? Misunderstanding that you like me. She laughed with a relaxed tone, but her actions belay her palpitating heart. She didnt want to play guessing games with him anymore; some things were better said early and outright. Luckily, Lin Fan didnt disappoint her this time. He poured himself a glass of wine and drank it all in one gulp before saying, Yes, I do like you, and I have for quite a while. Ever since high school, Ive always thought that it would be wonderful if you were to be my wife. He looked at her, his voice calm, his expression tinged with relief. Cheng Xi gaped. Lin Fan chuckled bitterly at her response. Do you think that Im overestimating my own capabilities, that Im a toad trying to get together with a swan? Youre pretty, outstanding, kind, generous, and considerateeveryone likes you, but what about me? He clasped his hands together and buried his face in his hands out of grief. I dont have a good background or a complete family, and mine even has an odd and reclusive temperament. But even despite all this, Cheng Xi, I still want to love you. I worked hard and studied even harder, leaving everything to go abroad in order to make myself a better person, a person more compatible with you. But I always seem to be late, always unable to catch up to you Cheng Xi grasped his hand lightly. He didnt continue, and instead raised his head. Her expression was serious. Did you hear what Tian Rou said at the spa after Shen Weis wedding? He suddenly became anxious. ......Yes. I know that she was joking. Shes not joking. Cheng Xi laughed as she explained, You were truly my idol. Of course, that was back when she was a young girl. During her adolescence, when she was melancholy and moody, it was particularly easy to become infatuated with a youth like Lin Fan, whose pride and aloofness, though self-abasing, made him stand out from the crowd. So, please dont think of yourself like that, okay? Youre wonderful. Lin Fans face reddened quickly, and his still gaze quickly turned bright. Cheng Xi, he murmured. Yes. Did you know? Ive waited for ten years for you to tell me you like me. Lin Fan gazed at her, and after processing her words, his heart swelled up and he grasped her hand out of disbelief. Really? Yes, its true. Even though it might be useless to say this now, but you really dont have to disparage yourself. Youve always been great. He looked at her carefully. Whenever she spoke, her face carried a light smile, making him recall the year hed failed an exam. His teachers were shocked and his mother scolded him, but only Cheng Xi smiled and told him, You look particularly handsome when you pay attention in class. Even after so many years had passed, she hadnt changed at all, and was still as pretty and kind as ever. As long as he stayed by her side, he would always feel a warmth permeate his body. He wanted to hug her tightly in his arms. This sort of feeling seemed to grow more intense the closer he got to her. A despicable thought enticed him to snatch her away. He grasped her hand tightly and said, How could your words mean nothing to me? Wont you let me love you? He looked at her breathlessly, his gaze fiery, his passion almost enough to melt her. Cheng Xi stalled again for a moment. At this moment, she really wanted to drop everything and say yes, but she couldnt. At least, not until she had treated Lu Chenzhou. She took her hand back. As you know, I cant promise this to you right now. Because of him? Cheng Xi nodded. Do you love him? Cheng Xi couldnt nod. Lin Fans eyes sparkled again. Then Ill wait for you. His gaze and tone were resolute. Cheng Xi couldnt express the emotion rampaging through her heart at that moment. Perhaps happiness was the closest, but a bit of incomprehensible anxiety was also mixed into it. Dont feel pressured. Liking you is my own matter. Even if you never come back to me, I wont blame you. His tone was already relaxed again. Cheng Xi knew that some of her emotions had to have leaked out for him to behave like this, and she couldnt help but sigh. I dont want to string you along. Its just.. I know, you want me to be happy. He smiled and comfortingly said, Dont worry. Ill certainly get better. Actually, even before I came back, I thought that you might have already fallen in love with someone else, become married, or even have had children. The current situation now couldnt be better, so I dont care what the matter is between you and him. As long as you havent fallen in love with him, and as long as youre willing to give me a chance, then Ill keep waiting for you. Cheng Xi stared at him. He smiled, poured both of them a new glass of wine, and changed the topic. Is your hand alright? Youre injured, so you should stop drinking after this glass. If you still want to drink more, then Ill drink it all for you. Cheng Xi didnt actually want to drink anymore. She couldnt tolerate alcohol well; one or two cans of beer was alright, but any more and she was afraid that she would get drunk. Given what had happened last time when she got drunk with Lu Chenzhou, she had since become very sensitive about drinking too much. She raised her glass. This glass is to welcome you back, as well as to thank you. Thank me for what? For drinking with me. Actually, it was also to thank him for his sudden confession, and it served to give her a sense of closure as well. Lin Fan clinked glasses with her. No need to thank me. Whenever you need me, Ill be there for you. Cheng Xi finished her glass in a single gulp. Drinking cold beer next to a warm stove in the brisk chill of the night gave her an ineffable pleasure. As the cold liquid slipped down her throat, her whole body felt alive. She stopped drinking, and he didnt coax her to continue to do so. The two sat amiably, and as they chatted about their youth, their hearts became bright and spacious once more. Perhaps it was because of her drinking, but that night, Cheng Xi slept warmly and had sweet dreams even without the heater. In the morning, she woke up to the sound of her phone ringing. She was still muddleheaded, and it took her quite a while before she became clear-headed to pick it up. She lazily answered her phone. On the other end, a foreign, severe voice asked, Are you Dr. Cheng Xi from Renyi Hospital? I am. Nice to meet you. Im a police officer from XX Town, Officer Zhang. Last night, we had a nasty poisoning incident. The suspect has since been resuscitated and woken up, but he requested to see you before he would cooperate. Are you free? XX Town was where Chen Jiamans house was. Cheng Xi asked doubtfully, Whos the suspect? Chen Fuguo. He said that you were the doctor responsible for his daughter, Chen Jiaman. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 42: Remorse When Cheng Xi arrived at Chen Jiamans hometown, it was almost noon. The towns scenery remained the same; only the number of travellers on the road had increased. When she arrived at the hospital, she saw a few familiar faces. There was the auntie who had led her through the town, the restaurant owners wife, and some of the town citizens who she had met and asked for directions from. Without any exception, their eyes were all red, anger spilling into their faces. Luckily, the police were at the hospital to maintain order, along with some strangers who were simply taking pictures and videos without stopping. Once Cheng Xi arrived, a number of supercilious looks were immediately aimed at her. The auntie who had led her through the town even spat a glob of saliva at her from afar as she angrily scolded, An entire cabal of villains! Only helping each other spread evil; what a waste of your beauty! Cheng Xi shifted her gaze, expressionless. The police officer who had called her ignored the heckling words and quietly explained the situation to Cheng Xi. ...He prepared some blowfish meat, said that he was treating the other parents to a meal as an apology, bowed down to everyone to invite them over, and in the end, all of them ended up being poisoned. Some of the older folks werent able to handle it and passed away last night, and there are still a few people in the intensive care unit. Cheng Xi was shocked after hearing that piece of news, and only after recovering a while later did she ask, Chen Hows Chen Fuguo? He was also poisoned, though he recovered right before dawn today. The first thing he wanted to do when he woke up was see you. You said earlier that the poisoning incident was deliberate? Yes. According to our preliminary investigation, this was a premeditated poisoning. In his backyard, we dug out a large number of dried blowfish organs. Chemical tests revealed that the blowfish meat that they consumed last night had a high degree of toxins within it, much more than would ordinarily be present. But the suspect refuses to confess to his crime or answer any of our questions, and says that hell only reveal the truth after seeing you. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say. She didnt expect that Chen Jiamans father would want to see her, and definitely didnt expect him to use it as a bargaining chip. The police brought her to the door of Chen Jiamans fathers ward. When Cheng Xi pushed the door open and entered, she saw Chen Fuguo alone in the two-patient room. At present, he was half-sitting up on the bed, his face was deathly pale, and his right hand was clutching at the side of the bed. On his wrist was a bright handcuff. When he saw Cheng Xi enter, he turned his head to her and smiled. Cheng Xi felt very uncomfortable as she walked to the side of his bed. The police said that you wanted to see me. Is that right? Yes. Despite having just been at deaths door, the man in front of her seemed the same as before, save his wan and sallow expression. As always, he was dressed very neatly with his hair combed and tidily swept behind his head. He looked at her with a very sincere expression. I know that youre a good doctor. Im very happy that you care this much for Chen Jiaman, and that she was able to meet you even after suffering through so much sadness and tragedy in her life. Cheng Xi looked at him quietly, not saying anything. Chen Jiamans father didnt want her to say anything either. He turned around again to gaze outside the window, slowly reminiscing about the past as a calm expression surfaced on his face. I let her down by ignoring her all these years. But shes very determined, even getting the top score of the town upon graduating from elementary school. At that time, I thought, I cant keep living life like this. It wasnt for myself, but for her, for my mother. I knew that I should also settle down, so I started fishing in the open ocean with some companions. But life just seemed to bear a grudge against me. As soon as I finished my preparations, that happened to Jiaman. Jiaman was originally introverted but obedient, never bringing either of us any trouble. Even if there was trouble, all she would do was hide at home, not saying anything, unwilling to go to school or even to leave the house. If I hadnt seen that video, even I wouldnt have known what had happened. Does that make me a failure of a father in your eyes? He paused for a moment to murmur, To give birth to a child without raising her is not kindness but sin... Ive let her down miserably. Even after this happened to her, I couldnt reclaim justice for her. And I even listened to the others, and thought that it would be better for her to quash everything down. To that end, I even forced her to go to school by beating her. If those people were the culprits, then I, Im the executioner who drove her crazy. Cheng Xi didnt want to hear these remorseful words which had come far too late. If he hadnt taken the opportunity to help her when it was there, then any feeling of remorse on his part was by definition insincerethe most important condition to repentance was how one recovered and made amends for the mistakes they committed. Shes only fourteen. If you truly want to save her, theres still time. Chen Fuguo shook his head. Theres no time left. He laughed bitterly as he lamented, I dont know how to face her. Maybe, in this lifetime, I wont ever know how to face her. He turned back around to face Cheng Xi. Jiaman...... will she be able to recover? I dont know. Cheng Xis tone was unusually calm. Originally, this sort of condition is best treated by the company and love of her family members. But after she accidentally hurt her own grandmother, and especially since youve given up on her now, I dont know if she can still recover, or if she even wants to recover anymore. Actually, she felt that Chen Jiaman understood everything in the inner depths of her heart. However, what she had experienced far exceeded what she could bear, so she could only bury that clear-headed version of her deep within herself and close her eyes, plug her ears, and pretend that she didnt know anything, just like a corpse. Her illness was her subconscious response to her trauma. If she didnt want to get better, then no one would ever be able to wake her up. Upon hearing this, Chen Fuguo shut his eyes and remained silent for a long, long time. Afterwards, he took out a piece of paper from his pocket. This is Chen Jiamans mothers phone number. I might not be able to get out of here; Dr. Cheng, please help me find her and tell her what happened to Jiaman. The day that you handed over that much moneydid you already have this in mind? Chen Fuguo didnt answer, only pushing the slip of paper toward her. After thinking it over for a moment, Cheng Xi took it. The slip of paper wasnt large. The only writing on it was a series of numbers. She held that piece of paper tightly. Chen Fuguos silence spoke volumes. When you did those things, did you ever consider what would happen if her mother turns out to be unwilling to take responsibility? A hundred thousand yuan doesnt last that long. If she runs out of money, then your daughter will be kicked out of the hospital because she cant afford the bills. Given the state that shes in, if she doesnt receive treatment, then even the government wont be able to place her anywhere. Without any family, she could very well end up roaming the streets homeless. She cant register cold or heat, hunger or fullness. She might after just a few days. If youre truly remorseful, if you think that youve let her down, then have you never considered these things? Chen Jiamans father clutched his face out of anguish, unable to say a single word in response. Their time was up, and Cheng Xi was sent outside by the police. After she came out, she found out that another victim had died, and the victims in intensive care werent doing too well either. The family members of the poisoned townsfolk were agitatedly shouting outside the ward, He did it intentionally! Give him the death penalty! Kill him! Because Cheng Xi had introduced herself as Chen Jiamans lawyer back then, she was also attacked by the people who recognized her. Those people pointed at her nose and scolded, Dont they say that lawyers have a duty to uphold law and order? Dont they say that lawyers have to help speak out for victims? On the other hand, youre helping defend a murderer. What kind of lawyer are you? The police officers who had escorted Cheng Xi out looked at her skeptically upon hearing these accusations. Cheng Xis face fell, and she didnt declined to provide any further explanation. She was only able to escape the crowd after being escorted out with the police on all sides. After they finally got through the crowd, the police said, In order to avoid any conflicts, you should leave right away, Dr. Cheng. And so Dr. Cheng got on a car and rode back to the city, leaving as quickly as she could. That was the worst situation that Cheng Xi could ever remember encountering; she felt like she was just running away out of fear. Not long after she left, Chen Fuguo confessed: he did plan it. Ever since Chen Jiaman started showing signs of mental instability, he would bring some blowfish organs home every time he went out to sea. Originally, he hadnt planned on doing anything with the organs, but then Chen Jiaman accidentally killed her grandmother and was sent to a mental ward. After Chen Jiamans grandmothers funeral, he had gone out to sea again, catching and buying blowfish in bulk. Despite being poisonous, blowfish flesh was fresh and tasty, and cooking a good meal out of it wasnt hard. He had then invited a chef that he knew well, used the pretense of apologizing for the mess he had caused to gather the family members of the kids who had bullied Chen Jiaman all together, and then fed them all poisoned blowfish. Twelve people were poisoned, of whom three had died. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 43: Admitting One鈥檚 Mistake When Cheng Xi saw the news on her phone, she sighed deeply. That news article described Chen Fuguo as a suspect in poisoning his neighbors. The article wasnt long; it coldly introduced his motives, actions, and then concluded the story. Because Chen Jiamans case was still under investigation, the article had only mentioned that Chen Fuguos possible motivation for killing was due to an old feud, and that those neighbors had fallen for his trap because of their unsuspecting natures and the temptation of delicious blowfish. And three lives were lost, just like that. Whats the matter? A colleague by her side had come to get a glass of water, but asked Cheng Xi this question upon seeing her face. Cheng Xi forced herself to laugh in response. Nothing. I might not have slept well last night, so Im not feeling too well. Oh, were you keeping guard over the patient in bed 24 the whole night again? Although Renyi Hospitals psychiatry department was quite famous for its novel treatment methods, her colleague rarely saw people like Cheng Xi, who would tire themselves half to death trying out a new treatment plan. Are you sure that you can keep going like this? Her colleague was skeptical, trying to convince her to take it slower. Her illness was already rare to begin with, and even then, people with similar symptoms can be suffering from entirely different illnesses. Youve been pushing for your so-called humane treatment methods, but they dont seem to be particularly effective on her. Im telling yousometimes, patients suffering from mental illnesses are just like badly behaved children. Trying to persuade them gently wont always be effective, but a simple, crude strategy might work wonders. Do you want to try that? Cheng Xi laughed upon hearing her colleagues vivid analogy. Alright, Ill consider it. After chatting with her colleagues a little more, Cheng Xi got up to patrol the wards again. When she got to Chen Jiamans ward, she stopped at the door for quite a while, eventually deciding to not enter. After the incident with the restaurant owners wife, Chen Jiaman seemed to have reverted to her old ways. Although she wouldnt make a big fuss, she had completely given up on drawing and refused to listen to anyone. The door in Chen Jiamans heart that seemed to have been half-opened to Cheng Xi had been completely shut now. Cheng Xi had classes in the afternoon. Because she wasnt in her best condition, she made a few mistakes in a row. And after being corrected again, she couldnt help but caress her forehead out of exasperation. The students attending the lecture were all laughing, and a male student by the front row even jokingly asked, Dr. Cheng, you arent this distracted because you just broke up with someone, right? And then he even consoled her. Even if you really just broke up with someone, then its fine if you dont want to teach. Just sit down and watch us self-study. When Cheng Xi was feeling well, she would laugh along with them. But today, she really wasnt feeling up to it, so she really did just pull a stool over and sat there until the end of class. Her students were all relatively obedient: no one came up to tease her; instead, everyone sat patiently at their desks and studied for the remaining half of the session. Even after class, they each sincerely said goodbye to her, and some even secretly handed her notes. Cheng Xi looked at them, and every one of them had something along the following lines: Keep it up, Dr. Cheng!, Dr. Cheng, there are so many men in the world, why waste your time pining over one?, or Dr. Cheng, turn around, turn around and look. I, your student, will always be here for you. Cheng Xi could only laugh at their innocent humor, but her heart warmed at the messages. Despite how much these kids teased her, she could feel how much they cared for her. That male student who was always sleeping in her class was once again the last one out. Surprisingly, he hadnt slept today. Somewhat embarrassed, he walked up to her and stood there for quite a while before extending his hand toward her. In his palm were two plain but elegantly wrapped sweets. Are these for me? The boy nodded. Cheng Xi took one piece of candy from his hand and said, Lets eat them together. She unwrapped the candy and stuffed it into her mouth. It was chocolate-flavored, not as sweet as the version with the little squirrels, and even had a hint of bitterness that contrasted well with its refreshing aftertastean unusual combination. The boy smiled quite happily as he saw her eat the sweet. His ears blushed red and he ran out of the classroom, still holding the other sweet in his hand. Cheng Xi thought him too introverted to be a university student, but given that he was only auditing the class, she didnt bother putting too much thought into it. She smiled at his back, picked up her things, and went to Cai Yis office. Cai Yi was somewhat surprised to see Cheng Xi coming over, but her sharp eyes saw through her emotions in one glance. She pushed everyone else out of the office, leaving the two of them alone, and then asked, Whats wrong? You dont look well today. Rather than merely unwell, Cheng Xi actually looked like she was about to burst out into tears at any moment now. In fact, she actually did: right after Cai Yi asked that question, tears started streaming down her face. Cai Yi wasnt too shocked. After all, psychiatrists were people themselves, with feelings that were difficult for them to process. Instead of anxiously asking her questions, she motioned for her to sit down by her side, to cry in as comfortable a position as possible. After Cheng Xi finished, Cai Yi gave her a glass of water. Are you thirsty? Yes. She nodded, blew her nose, took the cup of water, and downed it in one go. Her unusually childish actions made Cai Yi smile as she looked at her. Alright, whats the matter? Cheng Xi was still a bit upset, and she played with her glass of water for quite a while before explaining. That patient I took on with Cotards syndrome relapsed because she was provoked by external stimuli. After that, her father gathered all the kids and family members who bullied her in the past together, and treated them to poisoned blowfish meat, killing three of them. I asked a lawyer what would happen to him; given the situation, even if he were spared the death penalty, it would be at most be a deferred death sentence. I dont know when he started planning that event in his mind, but Im very upset by it. I must have pushed him to it. I knew that helping reopen Chen Jiamans case would be difficult, but I still forced him to do it Cai Yi looked at her. So you think that youre in the wrong? Yes. Cheng Xi covered her face, and with great effort, answered her question. I was wrong. I shouldnt have ignored your advice, and I forgot about my own duties and tried to act as a messenger of justice. She had only wanted to get justice for Chen Jiaman, to right the wrong that had been done to her by making those who had bullied her suffer the punishment that they ought to suffer. However, she never sought to have Chen Fuguo do so in such a terrible manner. And now, she only felt a terrible guilt eat at her, the guilt that she had single-handedly orchestrated the poisoning incident between Chen Fuguo and the bullies parents and family members. Cai Yi simply sat by her side and listened. Cheng Xi was the most gifted and empathetic of all the students that she had ever advised, and that latter point was both her greatest strength and weakness. For psychiatrists, being empathetic was a particular compliment, because it meant that they wouldnt blindly follow the rules and would instead genuinely try their best to help their patients through more humane means. But such actions had to be taken in moderation. Cai Yi believed that what had transpired this time would help Cheng Xi realize this, and this failure would help her become an even better doctor than the one she was today. All good doctors needed to grow, so Cai Yi didnt do anything to hinder that growth, only saying, Dont think of yourself as the most important actor in this play. Perhaps the role you had in this wasnt so important after all. Cai Yis words were simple, but they immediately woke Cheng Xi up. In truth, after she had cried and revealed all her worries to Cai Yi, her reasoning had finally returned to her. She knew that she was shouldering far more responsibility than she should. Chen Fuguo had been planning this for quite a while; after his initial return, he had only visited Chen Jiaman once, dealt with his mothers funeral, and then immediately went back out to sea to purchase fresh blowfish. From his actions, Cheng Xi could see that he had already been planning this for a long time. Perhaps he had wanted to get justice for Chen Jiaman a long time ago, but just in his own way. And perhaps some of his motives were selfish: some of the people that he had invited that day were not the parents of those that had bullied Chen Jiaman. Even so, Cheng Xi still felt that she had made a mistake. She had gone too deep, to the point that even she had lost her balance. She was this way with Chen Jiamans illness, as well as with Chen Fuguo. When Cai Yi saw Cheng Xi realize the truth, she finally let out the breath she had been holding. Alright. Now that youve thought everything over, why dont you treat me to a meal as the fee for seeing you. Cheng Xi knew that Cai Yi didnt want her to keep thinking about these matters so she responded, Then Ill have to make it a big affair; your fees arent cheap, professor. Its good that you know that. Cai Yi stared at her seriously. Dont just come crying to me aimlessly next time. Cheng Xi was very embarrassed, but did sincerely treat Cai Yi to a meal in the end. Of course, she invited not only her but also her assistant, the other seniors and juniors in Cai Yis office, and everyone else she saw in the lab. Since they knew that Cheng Xi was paying, they all smiled and responded, Well treat it as a free get-together, then. The whole crowd split up into several different cars, all driving to the restaurant excitedly. The place that theyd decided on was close to the foot of the river, very famous for its fish-head dishes. Even better, it was just the right kind of weather to get together for a spicy fish-head hotpot. Cheng Xi wasnt particularly hungry, but since everyone else was eating, shed naturally do her best to keep up with the crowd. But the meal didnt end up costing Cheng Xi anything after all as they coincidentally encountered Lin Fan there having dinner with a few friends of his. The two were each with their own separate parties, and so could only greet each other briefly. The two tables were even next to each other, and from that distance, Lin Fan had probably overheard that Cheng Xi was paying for her partys meal. Thus, when she flagged a waiter over to pay the bill, she was told that it had already been paid. Cheng Xi didnt understand what had happened at that point, so she could only smile and ask around sheepishly. Alright, which of you guys were so noble as to save me some money? Im so embarrassed. No one claimed the honor, and it was finally the waiter who said, It was Mr. Lin from table 9. He said that hed treat everyone to this meal for you. Cheng Xi had no response to the waiters words. The people beside her all went crazy, excitedly yelling out a long Ooooo from their mouths in unison. Is that rich boyfriend of yours finally showing up? They all knew that Cheng Xi had had all of her appointment slots booked by a rich man, but they didnt know who he was. But now, when they saw that someone had paid the bill for her of his own accord, they remembered this incident again, and quickly stuck their heads out to try and catch a glimpse of that mysterious Mr. Lin. Luckily for Lin Fan and his friends, they had finished their meal first, and he had sent his friends out right after paying to save Cheng Xi from her partys interrogation. Cheng Xi covertly wiped the sweat from her forehead. But when she raised her head, she saw Cai Yi smiling at her, a mote of caution in her gaze. Cheng Xi sighed. Actually, even without Cai Yi saying so, she already knew that her actions with Lu Chenzhou were very ill-advised. Chen Jiamans matters had also shown her that she couldnt interfere with patients too much, even if she had good intentions. This was especially true given that she now had a Mr. Lin by her side. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 44: Settlement Fee Cheng Xi and Cai Yi left in different directions after dinner, and because everyone else also had to work tomorrow, they all left on their own as well. Once everyone had left, Cheng Xi waited by the roadside for a taxi. But before long, someone tapped her right shoulder, causing Cheng Xi to look towards her left. As expected, Lin Fan was standing slightly behind and to the left of her. When he saw Cheng Xi turn around, his face lit up into a slight smile. Ah, I couldnt fool you after all. This was a little game that the two of them had played when they were small. For a decent period of time, Lin Fan had sat behind Cheng Xi in class. Because they were seated next to a window, Cheng Xi would always gaze into the distance to relax after class. Whenever he saw her like this, Lin Fan would tap her on her left shoulder but lean to her right, or tap her right shoulder and lean to her left. But Cheng Xi never fell for his track, not even once; she was always able to turn around and spot him every single time. Cheng Xi laughed at his antics. Do you want to try again? And so Lin Fan went back into his original position and tapped her shoulder again. Cheng Xi turned around, saw no one, and then turned to the other side as she amazedly said, Ah, its you! Her acting skills were so exaggerated that Lin Fan couldnt help but laugh, as did Cheng Xi. It was a very boring game, but it was one that let the two of them laugh at each other for quite a while. After they finally calmed down, Cheng Xi said, Thank you. I wont try to return the money. He looked at her, half-smiling. You can try to bring it up. But every time you do so, Ill kiss you once, alright? Upon hearing this, Cheng Xi looked at him with an expression like she was looking at a stranger. Whats the matter? I just discovered that you can also pick up girls now. Lin Fan lowered his head and looked at her from underneath his bangs, his gaze smoldering. If I couldnt, then Im afraid that I wont ever find a wife in this life. When Cheng Xi heard him say the word wife so warmly and bluntly, her smile actually deflated slightly. She looked at him with a strained expression. Lin Fan I know, you cant reciprocate my feelings right now Sorry, I only wanted to make you happy. However, you dont look too well right now. Cheng Xi was very shocked. Really? Had she really exposed herself to such a degree that anyone could read her emotions? Lin Fan nodded as he gently caressed the corner of her lips with a finger. Perhaps you never even noticed it yourself, but when youre truly happy, you dont smile like that. Cheng Xi couldnt help but become dejected. She had thought that she was hiding her emotions very well. Lin Fan looked at her gently. Do you want to tell me about it? Cheng Xi sighed. Actually, it isnt much. Something just happened with a patient of mine. Alright. A wisp of disappointment leaked into Lin Fans expression, but he didnt continue pressing Cheng Xi about it. Then I wont ask. But if you ever need my help, just let me know. Cheng Xi was about to nod when a flashy race car drove by them. Not long after, that car reversed directions until it was in front of them. The window rolled down, revealing Baldys arrogant face. Hi, doctor. Is that really you? Then he turned to the passenger side, smiled, and said, Look, I told you I was right, its really your partner. Race cars were usually a bit shorter than other cars, and since this section of road wasnt particularly well-lit, only now did she realize that Lu Chenzhou was actually sitting next to Baldy. She couldnt see his full face as the car door obscured most of it. The only thing that was revealed was a chiseled, cold, and hard jaw. This was the first time meeting after Lu Chenzhous grandfathers birthday. After Chen Fuguos incident, she hadnt had time to look for him, and he hadnt gone searching for her either. I wonder if the events of that day left a shadow in his mind? After mulling the situation over for a moment, Cheng Xi bent her head, and then greeted him. Mr. Lu. Baldy sneered. Heh, this polite? You might as well remove the Lu too and just call him mister. No one paid any attention to him, and Lu Chenzhou coolly asked in response, Do you need a ride? Cheng Xi looked at Lin Fan; he was silently standing there silently with half-lidded eyes and an unclear expression. She shook her head. No, its fine. I can get back on my own. Lu Chenzhou then turned his head slightly. Get her in the car. The back door of the car opened, and a young man all dressed in black walked out. He bowed courteously towards Cheng Xi before gesturing toward the car. Dr. Cheng, please. Once again, she had forgotten about Lu Chenzhous personality. When he asked you a question, it was never an actual question. Rather, it was just a veil of politeness that was better treated as nonexistent. If it had been the past her, then she would have accepted his intentions blandly. However, today, she resolved herself to draw a line between them. Im sorry, but Im still busy and dont need a ride from you. After speaking, she immediately pulled Lin Fan away and prepared to leave. But just when she had taken a few steps, the man clad in black stretched out his hand to stop her. Cheng Xi frowned. What are you doing? Director Lu is cordially inviting you into the car. Cheng Xi usually had a pretty good temper, but she couldnt help but grow angry now. And if I dont? That man smiled lightly, unyieldingly polite. Cheng Xis frown grew tighter, and even Lin Fan couldnt help but move in front of her. Hey, doctor, Baldy sniggered from his corner. Boss Lu asked if he needs to carry you into the car? Cheng Xis heart dropped. Given Lu Chenzhous personality, he really might do something like that. Lin Fan could also see that Cheng Xi probably wouldnt be able to leave with him tonight without considerable friction. He didnt want to distress her, so he unwillingly forced himself to say, Why dont you let him send you back? Something also came up for me, so I wont be able to do so. Id be worried if you went home alone this late. Saying this was a huge insult towards himself, but he had understood very early on in his life the importance of being flexible. Sometimes, being soft and taking a step back was not due to cowardice, but rather a move made after weighing the benefits and losses. He actually wanted to reach out and irresistibly caress Cheng Xis hair, but in the end, all he did was clench his fist behind him tightly and push her away. Baldy leaned against the car window as he looked at them lazily, his expression seemingly both a smile and not one at all. Cheng Xi and Lin Fan were both smart people, so they were well aware that Baldy and Lu Chenzhou didnt like Lin Fan and had no intention of talking to him at all. She walked over as Lin Fan waved before turning and leaving. He left very quickly, not turning back. Upon seeing this, Baldy deliberately asked Cheng Xi, Whos that fellow? Why didnt you introduce us to him? He looks somewhat handsome. My, youre not trying to make our Zhou a cuckold, are you? After spouting these inflammatory words, he glanced at Lu Chenzhou, but the latter didnt even bother looking at him. Cheng Xi ignored him as well, climbing into the car expressionlessly. Arent you going to leave? This is a restricted parking zone. At worst, Ill get fined, Baldy responded blithely. Cheng Xi was caught speechless by his response. Baldy did drive off after saying that, but he didnt stop yammering, and even brought up the appointment-booking incident again. That incident really ended up hurting a lot of rich folks, and even my mom started asking my dad if he was raising a vixen. Haha, theyre fighting at home every day now. How funny. .....Is it really alright for you to talk about your parents like this? Whats wrong with it? Baldy stared at her superciliously, as if she were a novice to the ways of the world. He drove slowly and started gossiping about his fathers Casanova-like escapades. As Cheng Xi listened, black lines began streaking over her face, but he only seemed to get more and more invested as he spoke. When she took another look at Lu Chenzhou, he had evidently heard enough, as he was not responding to Baldy at all. Since he was looking out the window, she could only see the back of his head from her angle. Somehow, along the way, Baldy had shifted topics from his fathers romantic dealings to that day they had spent gambling. ...Weve never lost that badly before, Dr. Cheng. So you want to play another round? If youre that lucky again, then Ill give you a chance and let our Zhou be your escort again. When he mentioned the word escort, he even slapped his thighs and started cackling maniacally, as tears of laughter leaked out. Honestly, making the situation that awkward was a talent at that point. Cheng Xi really couldnt stand it anymore, so she sat up and poked Lu Chenzhous shoulder. He responded surprisingly quickly, catching her offending finger at once. Cheng Xi wanted to pull it out of his grasp but wasnt able to; thus, she could only pretend that she didnt mind it much. I want to discuss something with you. Can we talk in private? Since theyd met by coincidence, she might as well have a conversation with him. As usual, Lu Chenzhou didnt reject her request. He let go of her, and, ignoring Baldys protests, apathetically said, Go to Donglai Hotel. The emotions vanished from Baldys face. It was fine if the two of them ignored him, but he was very displeased that they were even going to ditch him and go off gallivanting somewhere else. You helped me deal with that old Deng, but what happened to giving me a chance to thank you? Po and the rest are already waiting there. Lu Chenzhou chuckled as he dryly said, Do you all want to be third wheels? ...These words were really too provoking, so much so that even Cheng Xi couldnt help but cough out of shock. Baldy, on the other hand, silently spat out a mouthful of blood, parked the car by the roadside, and started pounding on the steering wheel, making the car horn blare so loudly that even the cars driving by started to protest before finally yelling, Scram! You talk as if no one else has ever had a romantic encounter before. Just watch me bring seventeen girlfriends over tomorrow and make you drown in jealousy! Lu Chenzhou wasnt fazed at all, and calmly stepped out of the car. As soon as the two of them were out, Baldy immediately drove off loudly. Despite Cheng Xi quickly following behind Lu Chenzhou, she was still just slightly too slow and was inundated with the cars exhaust fumes. Lu Chenzhou saw her lean back and choke a little, and was unable to stop himself from smiling at the sight. It was a pity that Cheng Xi had been covering her face just then and hadnt seen it. Baldys parking skills were surprisingly skillful, as he had stopped right across the front door of Donglai Hotel, just past the street. Lu Chenzhou brought Cheng Xi into the building. She originally thought that he would lead her towards the caf, or even to his office. But instead, they ended up going directly into a suite. From the decoration, it looked exactly like the suite they had ended up in after she had gotten drunk that one night. In fact, given Lu Chenzhous fervent desire for cleanliness, it was probably the exact same room. At the very least, Cheng Xi hadnt been traumatized from that event, and he didnt have anything that would cause her to be defensive, so she walked in briskly and confidently. The room was surprisingly cozy, as the normal sense of pervasive stuffiness endemic to a regular hotel room was absent here. The first thing Lu Chenzhou did when he entered was take off his jacket and wash his hands and face. Cheng Xi, on the other hand, did nothing. She merely picked up a chair, sat down to the side, and as she waited for Lu Chenzhou to finish up, thought about what the best way to explain her thoughts regarding that contract was. In the beginning, she hadnt treated that contract too seriously because she had thought that, after he recovered slightly, he would automatically void the contract of his own accord. However, Chen Fuguos incident had made her suddenly realize that she wouldnt ever be able to deal with everything on her own. Her unintentional gestures could very well end up hurting others. As she sat there, she thought about many things: how to begin, how to end, how to comfort him. But all these thoughts were thrown into disarray after just one sentence from him. After Lu Chenzhou finished washing up, he sat down on the sofa opposite her, folded up his sleeves, and watched her carefully. After he finished observing her, he opened his mouth and coolly said, How does it feel to like someone enough to make you not care about the settlement fee? And then he took out his phone and messed around with it for a while. Not long after, Cheng Xis phone rang. Lu Chenzhou raised his chin to face her. This is the settlement fee that you have to pay. According to Cai Yis request, Ive already given you a twenty percent discount. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 45: Do You Want to Make a Bet? From Lu Chenzhous behavior, it didnt seem like Chen Jiamans relapse that day had affected him at all. And could his observation skills be any stronger? Clearly, she hadnt been doing anything with Lin Fan, and even tonight, they had only been standing there chatting ordinarilyat least in the eyes of any normal passersby, they had been very normal. Had he not noticed that even Baldy had only teased them for a sentence or two before dropping it? Cheng Xi wasnt in any rush to look at her phone. Why do you think that this is what I came here to speak with you about? What else could there be? Would you be speaking to me about anything else? Cheng Xi was speechless, because this really was what she wanted to talk with him about. But she first had to explain why she wanted to talk about it. I did want to talk with you about this, but not because Ive started liking someone. Rather, its because I feel like I need to clarify in detail that I promised to be your girlfriend not because I love you, but because I wanted to have you trust me in a way that is more acceptable to you. Trust. He smiled coolly as he raised his head to look at her. Are the rest of the doctors like you? Able to give up anything to gain their patients trust. Yes. Lu Chenzhou was too intelligent and logical, so Cheng Xi didnt plan on hiding anything from him. From a psychiatrists viewpoint, being empathetic towards your patients is a necessary part of treatment. So, sometimes, in order to help our patients, we doctors will even temporarily abandon our viewpoints, ethics, and justice, all so that our patients can trust us. Then why are you telling me all this now? His question was framed from the perspective of a patient, indirectly signaling that Lu Chenzhou was very aware of his own situation. And it also meant that he was starting to trust her a little. Cheng Xi didnt want to destroy this rare connection that she had established through this conversation, and so she chose her next words slowly, trying her best to be as warm and truthful as she could. Im doing so because Chen Jiamans fathers incident made me realize that, sometimes, even despite my best intentions, I might end up significantly harming others. I dont want to become an instrument that hurts others. Lu Chenzhou actually knew what had happened. But he didnt even frown after hearing Cheng Xi mentioning it, only continuing to coolly question her. What do you have to do with all that? Dont tell me that you think his actions were your fault. Thats exactly right. I do think that its my fault. If I hadnt forced him to get justice for Chen Jiaman, then he wouldn But before she could finish speaking, Lu Chenzhou interrupted her as he looked her up and down. You are so stupid that I dont even want to look at you directly anymore. This man really did have a vicious mouth, but Cheng Xi was actually not at all deterred by his words. Why do you say that? Because youre dumb, he replied without hesitation. She looked at him, speechless. At that point, Lu Chenzhou started laughing in a particularly vile fashion. Do you think that he poisoned all those people in order to get revenge for his daughter? Ha-ha, stop joking. The truth is that when he went out fishing in the ocean, he gambled with the other fishermen and lost a significant amount of money. Originally, he could have used Chen Jiamans bullying incident to extort reparation fees from those families. However, after his mother died and his daughter went crazy, and especially after you exposed the whole incident, he certainly wouldnt have been able to get any money back. Thus, saddled with debt, he was forced to do something big. Cheng Xi looked at him in a stupor. Lu Chenzhous revelations shook her to the core; when she thought about Chen Fuguo kneeling down to her in her office and his remorseful and conflicted face in Chen Jiamans ward, a cold surge of realization hit her as she realized how especially foolish she had been. She believed that Lu Chenzhou wouldnt lie to her; he simply had no reason to. But she still couldnt help but ask, Is this true? ...How do you know all this? Lu Chenzhou didnt answer her. He tilted his face so that he didnt have to face her, his expression as cold and obstinate as ever. Perhaps even he didnt realize it, but his expression was exactly that of a lonely and aloof child. In other words, it was a way for him to protect himself from others by distancing himself. Cheng Xi knew that she had also ended up hurting him. His investigating all this was most likely because he wanted to help her. No matter the reason, she seemed to always fail to live up to his expectations. She wanted to save the conversation, and did her utmost to sincerely say, Thank you for telling me all of this. Really. Im very, very grateful. You dont know how ashamed I felt before you told me, as I was constantly feeling like it was my fault that Chen Jiamans father had gone to such extreme lengths to take revenge on those families. All I ever wanted to do was get justice for Chen Jiaman, but I never intended to implicate so many innocent people. Heh, innocent? In order to help their children get off scot-free, they helped destroy evidence after the crime, bought off witnesses, and drove the victim crazy. How could they be innocent? ...At most, their actions constitute covering up a crime. They dont deserve to die. Thats only your opinion. Lu Chenzhous voice was unusually cold, even for him. As for me, I dont think their deaths are worth shedding a tear over. Even the corners of his eyes betrayed his sudden coldness. Cheng Xi had the odd feeling that he wasnt talking about the victims of the poisoning, or at the least, not about just them. A blurry conjecture slowly took shape in her mind, but before she could develop it any further, she was distracted by his next few words. Leave. Ill have my lawyer contact you later. She could tell that his feelings were in a mess right now. Mr. Lu Get out! Cheng Xi clammed up. It was the first time that she had ever felt that words had power: a cold, icy power that could stop someone from breathing. Im sorry. If my carelessness has caused you distress or even hurt you, then Im really very sorry. Im very serious about wanting to help you. He didnt respond. He just sat there, completely still like a statue carved out of ice that radiated a frigid chilling aura that drove others far away. After an unknown amount of time that felt like an eternity to Cheng Xi, he finally asked, What do you plan on helping me with? To build trust with others, to help you believe that there is love in this world. Lu Chenzhou raised his head slowly and looked at her. Today, she was wearing a stone-green jacket. The color was too dark on her, and gave her an old and weary look. It was completely lacking the customary freshness of her normal attire. But her eyes were as bright as ever. Her pupils were distinct, like a pool of water that reflected a persons innermost desire. His face started forming a smile, but that smile never reached his eyes. Love just like what you have with that man? Then he called out to her. Cheng Xi. For as far as she could remember, he seldom ever referred to her by her full name. And every time he did, her heart would shudder. Do you want to make a bet with me? ...A bet about what? Whether or not you and him will get married. If so, I wont take even a cent of the settlement fee and will instead donate it all to the two of you as my blessings for your marriage. How about that? ...And if we dont? Lu Chenzhous voice turned taunting. Do you lack that much confidence in your mutual love? Hes your idol, isnt he? How can you not get married after thinking about each other for so many years? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 46: Heartstopping After Cheng Xi left Donglai, her feelings suddenly felt lighter than before. She didnt expect that the heavy stone in her heart that was Chen Fuguo would be so easily removed by Lu Chenzhou. She still felt somewhat guilty, but that guilt was no longer directed towards Chen Fuguo. As for the bet that Lu Chenzhou had proposed, she understood what Lu Chenzhou was aiming at. He didnt believe in love, so as a consequence, he also didnt believe that something good could come out of Lin Fan and her. He wanted her to realize that their love was worthless and meaningless. But did that mean that she now had to enter a romance with Lin Fan, and then act in such a way that Lu Chenzhou would believe it? This was too laughable; she felt that Lu Chenzhou couldnt possibly be such a shallow man. What did the emotions of others have to do with him? But if that were the case, then why did he say what he did? Was it truly because he... liked her? Did he like her so much that he couldnt bear to make things difficult for her? And had he then found this ludicrous reason as an excuse to give up on that contract? As she thought about this, Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh. Rather than saying that Lu Chenzhou couldnt bear to upset her because he liked her, it was perhaps more accurate to say that hed gotten tired of her. In other words, after he realized that he wouldnt be able to experience the feelings he wanted from her, he had found a reason to get rid of her. And his kiss was just an experiment. His helping her was him simply performing the tasks expected of a boyfriend, just like how he said he would fulfill all of her requests for the duration of the contract. In this doctor-patient relationship, she seemed to be the one who was being led around by the nose. This realization left her incredibly frustrated and defeated, and it even haunted her dreams that night. In her dreams, shed suddenly become a super-rich person, and when Lu Chenzhou scolded her with his poisonous mouth and she couldnt defend herself anymore, she used her endless wealth to win the argument by instigating Baldy and the others. Scold him for me; Ill give you ten thousand dollars for every word you throw at him! When she woke up in the middle of a particularly vigorous scolding from Baldy, she even wanted to say to her dream self, Scram, I want to take part in this scolding match myself! As she slowly roused herself from sleep, she couldnt help but laugh when she thought back to the contents of her dream. She picked up her phone out of habit and saw that her mother had sent her a text. Todays the weekend, are you coming home? And there was also one from Lin Fan. Have you woken up? Cheng Xi was feeling lazy and didnt want to move, so she replied to Lin Fan first. Im awake. And almost right after replying, Lin Fan called her. Lets get lunch together at noon. Ill be at your hospital doing something in the morning. His tone was very natural, as if it was just a meeting between regular friends as he asked, When did you return last night? Yes, even his conversational skills had gotten far better since then. Despite Chen Fuguos likely deception, Cheng Xi didnt plan on giving up on Chen Jiaman. She preferred to deal with things as they came and still wanted to first meet with Chen Jiamans mother, who had allegedly left the family. As a result, she said, I might not be able to do noon. I want to meet a patients family, and Ill probably be doing so at noon. Lin Fan sighed. You really do work hard. Sometimes I even wish that I were your patient. Dont. Cheng Xi shook her head as she replied, You should do your best to live your life under the bright sun. She clambered out of bed and pulled the blinds open. It was bright outside, and the shining rays made her involuntarily squint. Cheng Xi Lin Fan was still coming from her phone. Yes? I didnt cause you any trouble last night, did I? He couldnt help but ask about it again. Cheng Xi looked at the bright sunlight outside, unsure whether or not to respond. In truth, she could have been frank and told him that she had simply had a conversation with Lu Chenzhou and that they had settled everything. They were no longer together, and she could calmly accept being in a relationship with him now but in her head, Lu Chenzhous aloof and obstinate face suddenly appeared. And, when she thought about the bet that hed made with her, her finger lightly slid over the windowtop, and she replied, Nothing much. How about you. Did your things go alright? Im still on my way. Oh. Another lapse of silence. Both parties felt somewhat embarrassed and awkward. Cheng Xi thought that Lin Fan had to have noticed her change, because his feelings had clearly turned downcast. When he said goodbye to her, his earlier high spirits were gone. Cheng Xi reflected on her utter lack of skill at love and romance. She understood it all in theory, of course; but in reality, it was a big mess. That night being truthful with Lin Fan had been her biggest mistake. It seemed like all she had done recently were stupid things. Knocking her head against the wall, Cheng Xi vigorously spurned herself to action. She knew that this was all because she had been putting too much pressure on herself to obtain results, which was why she had originally taken the risk of accepting Chen Jiaman as a patient. She also strongly desired the recognition of her professor, so she had chosen to ignore everything besides her to get close to Lu Chenzhou. Her professor was right. She really was too young and too rash, and her work had become too entangled with her personal life. And now, she was starting to pay the price. Cheng Xi took a deep breath, forcing herself to calm down. After eating a hodgepodge of fridge leftovers, she practiced yoga while she waited for her mind and body to relax. When she was ready, she sat down on the yoga mat and pulled out the phone number that Chen Fuguo had given her. As she entered the unfamiliar digits into her phone and listened to the ringing tone, it felt like an eternity before the person on the other end finally picked up. A tender female voice came through from the phone, very politely greeting her. Hello, who is this? Cheng Xi indistinctly felt that this voice was somewhat familiar, but she didnt think too much of it. She stated her identity and then said, Im a doctor from Renyi Hospital, Dr. Cheng. A man named Chen Fuguo asked me to contact you. Do you have some time to talk with me? If possible, Id like to meet in person. The other party didnt respond for quite a while. Cheng Xi even thought that she had hung up and was just about to check her phone to confirm, but then she finally heard a response. Youre a doctor. This time, her voice was no longer kind and soft, but cold and frosty instead. Did he ask you to contact me because hes ill and about to die? This time, the other party spoke for quite a while, and without the politeness masking her voice, Cheng Xi immediately realized why she found it so familiar. Because this was actually someone that she knew, it was Lin Fans mothers!!! Cheng Xi hung up, somewhat dazed. And then she immediately picked up her phone and called Lin Fan again. Are your matters dealt with? If so, Id like to invite you to um, breakfast? At this time? Lin Fans voice carried a hint of laughter with it as he responded, Alright, Im almost done. Where should we eat? My place? Actually, it would be better to meet at her office in the hospital because they would have more privacy there. However, there was no way she could meet him at the hospital, so her only alternative was to invite him to her house. Alright, give me ten minutes. He said ten minutes, and indeed, ten minutes later, Cheng Xi met him at the ground floor of her building. She didnt know where he had run from, as despite the bright sunlight outside, the wind was strong, so strong that it made ones ears hurt. She was already feeling chilly from head to toe just from standing outside for a moment, but he was sweating from his whole body. He stood in front of her, smiling brightly and looking handsome as normal. Am I late? No. Cheng Xi looked at his refined face, her heart skipping a beat. What do you want to eat? Are you going to make it yourself? Thats fine too. But I have to say, Im not great at cooking, and there isnt much at home. So as long as you dont hate it Dont worry. Even if you made poison, it would still be delicious. Because Cheng Xis heart was troubled, she didnt even hear what he said clearly, and she only glanced at him briefly before leading him up the elevator. Lin Fan was a very sensitive person. When he noticed her absentmindedness, his heart spontaneously began beating faster. He reflexively took out his phone and pretended to look at it, even calling Cheng Xis number. Cheng Xi, upon seeing that Lin Fan had called her, waved her phone and asked, Whats the matter? You dont seem too happy, so Im just confirming that its actually you and not someone impersonating you to meet up with me. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh at his lame joke, finally realizing that she had indeed been absent-minded. When she had recollected herself, she apologetically replied, Sorry, Im thinking of something else. Then let me guide you so that you dont accidentally fall. After saying this, he stretched out his hand and wrapped it around hers. Unlike Lu Chenzhou, Lin Fans hand was warm and dry, and she could feel a thick layer of calluses over his palm. Cheng Xi wanted to break free, but he said, Please dont move. I wont cross the line again. He wouldnt cross the line, but he would slowly push it, and then eventually move it. This was how many an illicit romance started, but Cheng Xi and Lin Fan were just an ordinary couple. She even knew that she shouldnt refuse him, especially since shed liked him for so long and since her heart had even fluttered during their reunion. But strangely, she didnt feel all that strongly about him at this moment. She vaguely remembered what she had once jokingly said to a student, that love was just another illusion. Beautiful, but just a fleeting illusion. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 47: What a Coincidence Lin Fan didnt feel the same ruefulness that Cheng Xi was savoring. Although he noticed that Cheng Xi was still distracted, he couldnt have imagined that she was already reevaluating their relationship in her mind. He was still very happy because this was his first time coming to Cheng Xis house, the house that belonged solely to her. He felt that this was an intimate gesture in and of itself. Cheng Xi refused his offer to help cook, entering the kitchen alone and busying herself. Lin Fan held the glass of water she had poured for him and slowly took in this house that had been filled to the brim with Cheng Xis presence. Her house was very clean and tidy. Despite her interior decoration being somewhat at odds with itself, with maple-colored furniture and European-style marbling, the house was filled with a faint fruity smell that naturally made him relax. Because Lin Fan liked her so much, he couldnt seem to find a flaw with any part of her home; everywhere he looked, it felt pleasing and intimate. After looking around in a circle, he sat down on the sofa that she liked to lounge on and picked up the books that she looked at, all related to medicine, complicated and arcane. But the sight of her notes penciled in that oh-so-familiar script, slim and graceful, threw him back to those childhood years. He was engrossed in his reminiscing as he leafed through her books. By the time Cheng Xi finished making breakfast, she had decided how she would break the news to him. But when she saw looking through her books, she couldnt help but smile. Do you like them? Yes. He nodded seriously. Cheng Xis smile grew even wider. Not bad. As someone who studied abroad, reading books like these must be a piece of cake for you. If theres something that I dont understand, Im sure youll be able to help explain it to me. Lin Fan playfully bowed in the manner of a scholar. It would be my pleasure. This was a conversation that they had often had while studying. Although it sounded like it would be an awkward conversation, when Lin Fan said it, it was surprisingly intimateperhaps because his posture was so refined and natural. The two of them laughed together. Lin Fan put down the books and walked over happily. Cheng Xis breakfast was very simple: a simple bowl of noodles with a poached egg that was topped with a few stalks of green onion and flavored with a dash of red oil. The golden yolk and pale white noodles contrasted with a few splashes of onion-green; while it looked quite ordinary, it tasted remarkably good. When Cheng Xi heard Lin Fans praise, she laughed. Its the seasoning that my mother made for me thats truly tasty, this red chili oil. As she talked, she picked up a small bottle of chili oil from the table. Its a true miracle seasoning that can turn even the most unpalatable meal into something indescribably tasty. Without it, I really wouldnt have had the courage to invite you to eat my food. Her exaggeration made Lin Fan laugh. Your parents really do make delicious food. When I was overseas, I would long for their noodles and dishes every now and then But since Ive been gone for so long, I do feel somewhat afraid of going to see them again now. Because Lin Fan had been poor in the past and his mother always busy, he often either ate cup noodles or whatever he could scrounge up. Luckily for him, Cheng Yangs grades were poor, and, as his younger sister, Cheng Xi found it embarrassing to help tutor him. So, she had gotten Lin Fan to do it for her instead. For this reason, Lin Fan was quite familiar with the Chens, and had frequently had meals with them. After Lin Fan went abroad, they hadnt heard from him again. Cheng Xis mother had even asked about him a few times, and still brought him up occasionally, always starting off with the words, That refined and particularly responsible classmate of yours After Cheng Xi swallowed the food in her mouth, she said, Im not free this weekend, but next weekend when Im free, Ill invite you to have my mothers food again. She paused, and then added, Call Shen Wei and Tian Rou and the rest of them over too. My mom will be delighted. Lin Fan stared blankly before accepting happily, his eyes curving upwards like small crescent moons. Alright. Ill be free in the afternoon, so Ill go pick out some gifts for them right after. I still have some things from overseas. Oh, you should help me pick some things out when youre free, something that theyd like He said a whole lot all at once, and Cheng Xi could immediately tell that he was nervous. She smiled comfortingly. Dont worry about all that. Whats most important is that you go. Lin Fan shook his head. How can that do? I used to freeload from your place so much. If I still did that now, then Im afraid theyd chase me out. How was that considered freeloading? You helped too. If Cheng Yang hadnt had you around, then he probably couldnt have gotten into even the most ordinary of universities. Upon Cheng Yang being mentioned, Lin Fan asked, Hows he doing now? Oh, he dropped out of university and got a job doing construction, which made my mom really angry. But he has a small business now, so I guess hes doing alright. Lin Fan smiled. I guess he did get what he wanted in the end. Even when he was studying, he always said that he wanted to be a boss in the future. As they ate, they talked about some other funny childhood stories related to Cheng Yang. When they had almost finished the noodles, Cheng Xi asked, Lin Fan, do you remember that patient that you met last time at the hospital? The one that bit you? Yes. Is your hand better now? He immediately looked at her with a gaze full of concern, and then urged once again, Dont be so foolish next time. It must have hurt! I think it wouldnt be so bad if you just behaved like the other doctors, locking them up or strapping them down if they misbehave. When Cheng Xi heard this, she looked at him with a complex expression. What is it? He asked. Cheng Xi could only sigh and tiredly explained, My patients situation is a bit complicated. Before she became ill, she received some very severe mental trauma. If we restrain her, then it would only make her resist more. So, I dont want to do that. But you cant just let her bite you. What if something happens? Yes, youre right. Cheng Xi stopped arguing with him at this point. Its just that shes a very pitiful child. She suffers from Cotards syndromeoh, thats walking corpse syndrome. The patients with this disease often experience very severe hallucinations, and sometimes they even believe that they themselves are dead, and that the only thing still existing in this world is their corpse. As a result of this illness, she accidentally killed her grandmother, the sole relative she was living with. The police sent her over to me. Earlier, she was showing signs of recovery, but she was suddenly provoked that day, which caused her to relapse once again. Im trying my best to help cure her. But even if I do cure her, shell still have a hard time living in the future because she has no family anymore. Her father was imprisoned a few days ago for a crime that he committed, and patients suffering from mental illness usually require the love of their family members even more so than usual patients. Before her father was imprisoned, he told me that she had a mother who left with her older brother not long after she was born. Because she no longer has anyone to take care of her, I could only try to find her mother and brother on her fathers behalf. Its been ten years or so since their separation, and I dont know whether they would be willing to take her in and take care of her. Cheng Xi talked as she ate, her voice steady and slightly indifferent, as if she were just chatting about a random patient with him. In the beginning, Lin Fan didnt pay much attention, and he only revealed a hint of surprise when she said a mother who left with her older brother. When she finished telling Chen Jiamans story, he raised his bowl and swallowed a couple mouthfuls of soup before asking, Wheres she from? XX Town. Lin Fans hands trembled slightly. He put down the bowl, his fingers still tightly clutching at its rim. Shes still pretty young, isnt she? Fourteen, almost fifteen. Is that so? Lin Fan responded, seemingly thinking hard. He lowered his head and gulped down another mouthful of soup, not saying anything. Cheng Xi didnt say anything more either. The two of them, in a somewhat somber mood now, finished the remaining food on the table.. When she was getting ready to clear the table, Lin Fans phone rang. She went inside the kitchen, and by the time she came out, Lin Fan was clutching his phone and sitting there silently at the dining table, his face pale. Hearing her come out, he stood up. Something came up, and I have to go. His smile was very obviously forced. Cheng Xi Yes. Thank you for breakfast. She smiled, knowing that what he wanted to say right now was not this. However, she didnt press the matter. Are you being this polite just so that you can get me to treat you to another two meals? When he heard this, he actually didnt respond, instead turning around and leaving as his state of mind was slightly disturbed. Cheng Xi wanted to send him out, but he refused. Its cold outside, so dont bother. I can find my way. He pressed the button for the elevator and stood with his back facing her for quite a while before turning around at the last second as if he had just thought of something. Did you end up setting up a meeting between you and the patients family member whom you contacted? Yes. She calmly looked at him. You He looked at her, wanted to say something but hesitated. Only after quite a while did he ask, Is she easy to get along with? Im not sure. Ill only know once I meet her. He forced a smile onto his face again. Actually, I think that you dont need to do something like this at all. Perhaps, there might be a reason why her mother walked out? Reaching out from the blue Im afraid that youll feel wronged. Cheng Xi smiled. Thats fine. Ill try my best regardless. He nodded and entered the elevator while Cheng Xi stood outside. As she looked at the elevator doors closing slowly, looked as he slowly disappeared from her sight, she couldnt help but sigh deeply. The world was truly so small. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 48: Unbearable Cheng Xi picked up her phone and called the hospital, instructing them to inform her first if anyone tried to inquire about Chen Jiamans condition, even if they were a member of her family. She actually didnt know if Lin Fan would go there straight away, but she knew that he would definitely go at some point. Indeed, right when she was about to leave her house, she received a call from the head nurse, informing her that a man had come to visit Chen Jiaman. Because it wasnt visiting hours, she hadnt let him in, but she did explain the patients condition to him in detail. Cheng Xi asked, Did he mention his name? He said that his surname was Wang. He seemed like a somewhat young and tall lad, quite handsome. The hospital also had security footage so that Cheng Xi could take a look for herself. Because of the disaster last time a family member had visited Chen Jiman, the head nurse had been especially careful this time, and was able to send Cheng Xi a picture taken by the security camera. The image wasnt very clear, but it was good enough that Cheng Xi could easily recognize just who had visited Chen Jiaman. Even though the man in the image had covered his face the entire time, the body very clearly belonged to Lin Fan. A refined and handsome look, but somewhat thin. Cheng Xi waited for a long while at the place where Lin Fans mother had agreed to meet her. It was almost past lunchtime when Lin Fans mother finally appeared. She came alone and was dressed plainly today, wearing a long shirt, pants made of white down, and a green facemask. If not for the fact that her eyes were exposed as she entered the room, Cheng Xi would not have been able to recognize her. Cheng Xi stood up, and Lin Fans mother walked straight up to her. She stood there for a while, looking at her, before taking off her face mask and sighing, I didnt think that it would really be you. Lin Fans mother clearly hadnt managed to identify Cheng Xis voice over the phone, so when she said, It would really be you, it was clear that Lin Fan had informed her about it beforehand. Cheng Xi smiled and invited her to sit. Would you like to eat something? No. She looked at Cheng Xi directly. Did you already know that it was me? No, but I identified your voice in the middle of our phone call. Really? Lin Fans mother was somewhat surprised, and she laughed at herself. I, on the other hand, couldnt identify you at all. Her eyes drooped as she played with her facemask. I only realized it was you after Lin Fan told me that it was you who wanted to see me. Sorry. I didnt intentionally try to hide my identity it from you, I was also very surprised by this coincidence. Right, surprised. Who knows, Lin Fans mother mumbled, only breaking out of her stupor after a while. Alright. What happened to that family? Her voice wasnt as cold as when she had answered the phone, but it was clear that she didnt like them either. Cheng Xi explained what she knew, but when Lin Fans mother heard that Chen Jiamans grandmother had died at Chen Jiamans hands, Lin Fans mother only laughed coldly, as she said, Truly, a just retribution! And when she heard Cheng Xi recount what Chen Fuguo had said in the hospital, she laughed even more coldly. Hes really gotten better at acting, hasnt he? Being better to his daughter? If he had really wanted to do that, he would have done it before she became a victim. Its more that he was desperate and just wanted to drag at least a few others down with him, right? Cheng Xi had to admit, as someone who had once shared a bed with Chen Jiamans father, Lin Fans mother knew him very well. Cheng Xi also didnt know what to say because she could hear that Lin Fans mother didnt need her acknowledgment. After getting up to speed on the situation, Lin Fans mother finally asked about Chen Jiaman. Can her illness be treated? That will depend on what happens in the future. Even if a patient suffering from mental illness is able to leave the hospital, therell be a long period during which shell need her family members support and accompaniment. This is necessary for her to slowly reintegrate into society and get back on track again. And if not? Will she just stay crazy, as she is now? Cheng Xi remained silent, agreeing tacitly. When Lin Fans mother saw Cheng Xis reaction, she took a cigarette out of her bag and lit it. Only after taking a few deep breaths did she say, Actually, its fine even if shes crazy. This way, at least she wont know everything, so she wont have to be pained by her father and her own actions. Mrs. Lin! Cheng Xi frowned. Can you not bear to listen to my words? Lin Fans mother glanced at her and smiled, beautiful in its own grimness. Im just telling the truth. How hard it is to live! Youre only free after you go crazy or die, just like that man. Ha, if he wanted to toss that girl to me and have me raise her, then why didnt he do it fourteen years ago? At that time, I would have taken her away with me even if I had to suffer a bit---but he waited until she was crazy and silly before throwing her to me. What kind of person does he think I am?! She was obviously emotionally agitated, and nothing Cheng Xi could say now would help. Instead, she chose to say nothing and listen passively. Lin Fans mother, as expected, complained a great deal. The general gist of her words matched what Cheng Xi had gleaned from other sources. Chen Jiamans father loved to gamble, and he did it so often that he even developed good acting skills from it. Thus, those who didnt know the truth all thought that he was a good, honest, responsible man. In truth, however, his actions were so vile that all his relatives kept him at arms length and all his friends had severed their relationships. Lin Fans mothers leaving him was not without cause; it hadnt even been a month since Chen Jimans birth when debtors came to collect his debts. However, what could he do with the little money she made? So, he had decided to prey upon Lin Fan. He didnt try to sell off his entire body, but he somehow found a connection to an organ buyer and wanted to sell off his organs, Cheng Xi. As Lin Fans mother explained their history, tears started streaking down her face. Youve seen him, that despicable man. Do you believe that he could have done this? Cheng Xi shook her head. She couldnt believe it, but she believed that Lin Fans mother had spoken the truth. Honestly, once she had found out that Lin Fans mother was also Chen Jiamans mother, she had also realized that much of what she had heard in the town wasnt necessarily true. At the least, she had some prior knowledge about what kind of person Lin Fans mother had been during those few years of her high school. If she were truly as promiscuous as the townsfolk suggested, then she wouldnt have struggled so hard by taking on multiple jobs at once just so that Lin Fan could receive a proper education. Only, Cheng Xi never imagined that the truth would be far more horrifying and extreme than she could have ever anticipated. Lin Fans mother gently wiped her tears, but she continued sobbing intermittently as she spoke to Cheng Xi. Given how kind-hearted society is these days, even if Chen Jiaman had a mother who ran away and a useless father As long as she could stand on her own two feet, then why would she be ostracized? Rather than being bullied, she must have been implicated, implicated by those actions of his, causing the other parents to sic their kids on her! Cheng Xi suddenly felt a chill creep down on her back upon realizing the implication behind Lin Fans mothers words. She somewhat arduously asked, That couldnt be, right? Perhaps he became better later on? Better? Lin Fans mother could only laugh at Cheng Xis response, her beautiful face turning somewhat sinister. Then do you know why I had to remarry? Why, even though Lin Fan did so well on the gaokao, I still sent him overseas? Because he found me! He asked me for money, and if I didnt give him any, then he said that he would harm my precious child. Hes crazy, hes capable of doing anything! So why is the world so unfair? Why wasnt he the one sent to a mental hospital? Why is he still alive, even after hurting so many people?! But wasnt Lin Fan his son? Would that man would really ruin his own son just for money? Cheng Xi had seen her fair share of ugliness, but even she couldnt guarantee that there werent such parents in the world. She didnt want to discuss Chen Jiamans father with Lin Fans mother any further. The past was clearly too hard for her to bear, and her old wounds had never healed properly either. But this discussion had shed a light on why Lin Fans personality back in high school had been so awkward, introverted, and reticent. It explained why he wished so hard to be invisible despite his good grades. She grabbed Lin Fans mothers hand with her own. She was trembling; what had happened in the past had left an indelible trauma on her body. Hes been punished now, so let bygones be bygones. And, Mrs. Lin, youre really an amazing parent for having raised Lin Fan so well. Cheng Xi consoled her gently. Even for Chen Jiaman, leaving such a family behind would only be a fortunate thing for her. Shes a very well-behaved child, talented at both school and drawing. When she recovers, with your love, not only will she be able to lead a regular persons life, but she will also be able to love and show filial respect to you. Respect? Love? I dont hope for those things anymore. Though Lin Fans mother said this, she did calm down slowly. She snuffed out her cigarette and rubbed her face out of exhaustion. Dont worry. I gave birth to her, and Ill take care of her. Chen Fuguo knew this, which is why he foisted her onto me. Im not like him, but I wont be able to spend that much effort on her. Cheng Xi, as my sons childhood classmate, I dont fear your laughter. The family I remarried into is too rich, so much so that they think everyones just out for their fortune. They dont even want Lin Fan to join the family, let alone someone like Jiaman. After saying this, she opened her bag and gave a card to Cheng Xi. Theres a bit of money in here. Lin Fan knows the pin number. Take it. If she doesnt recover, then let her stay in the hospital; if she does then please give her this money and help her rent a house and enjoy life on her own in the future. After saying all this, she prepared to leave. Cheng Xi was shocked. Arent you arent you going to see her? Visiting hours for the day are just about to end. Im not going. Lin Fans mother turned away from Cheng Xi as she coldly said, Ever since she was born, I havent raised her for a single moment. She probably doesnt want to see me in the future either. Before Cheng Xi could say anything else, Lin Fans mother had opened the door and quickly left. Cheng Xi rushed out and saw Lin Fan standing there in the middle of the outside corridor, staring at her with a vacant gaze. Lin Fans mother walked past his side, pulled at his hand, and dragged him away. Cheng Xi didnt try to chase after them. Afterwards, she received a call from Lin Fan. He didnt speak for a long time. Through the static of the radio waves, she could only hear his repressed and labored breathing. It was just like that year, when he had called her from a faraway country, when it was snowing heavily at the end of December. And just like then, Cheng Xi sat by the window, looking out into the white world. Who are you? He didnt respond. The only sound that came from the phone was a light breathing noise. She asked for his identity a few more times without response, and was just about to hang up when she suddenly thought of him. Lin Fan. And finally, he answered, lightly whispering back, Yes. She fell silent, not knowing what to say next. The two of them remained in that silent vigil until he finally hung up. This time, it was he who called her first. Cheng Xi. Yes. Im sorry. I was shocked numb by that piece of news. Cheng Xis voice was gentle. Its understandable. I was very shocked too. Lin Fan laughed bitterly. Sometimes, he felt that fate was really always against him; every time, whenever he arduously mustered up enough courage to start a new life, something like this would always happen. Ten years ago, he had done his best to enter the same university as her. But then his mother had remarried and he had been sent abroad. Ten years later, he had mustered up his courage to confess to her, but just when he thought that they had a chance of working out, his past had been dredged up and somehow made even worse than before. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 49: Adultery! Cheng Xi could only say that one sentence before Lin Fan hung up. Afterwards, no matter how much she called, she couldnt get through to him. He had turned his phone off. Evidently, he was still that sensitive youth of the past, embarrassed of his own background and reflexively isolating himself from everyone else. But the fact that he had taken the initiative to call her made it clear that he had matured quite a bit compared to that time. At the very least, he had the courage to face her now. As Cheng Xi mulled over the situation, she sent him a text. Im at my home. If you need someone to talk to, Ill be here waiting for you. After that, she did obediently go home and wait there. Even when Cheng Xis mother had finished work and was packing up, she was still there, waiting. Cheng Xis mother couldnt help but call her. How long has it been since youve come back? Are you lost? Should I send out a palanquin for you? Sweat dripped down from Cheng Xis forehead. She quickly responded in an ingratiating tone. Im a bit busy right now. Ill be sure to come home next week. Busy? Busy with what? Cheng Xis mother didnt listen to her words at all, and instead started thinking about that dolt who had randomly showed up at her daughters house. The thoughts incensed her, and her voice immediately deepened. It cant be that you still havent broken up with that man, can it? Cheng Xi didnt know whether to laugh or cry. No, something really did come up. Why is it that I cant seem to bring myself to believe you? Cheng Xi spread her hands in the air as she responded, I dont know what to say. Her mother refused to believe her, and demanded a video call. Cheng Xi could only accept, turn on the camera on her phone, and swivel it around to reveal the entire house. But her mother was still somewhat dissatisfied. What if you hid him somewhere? Cheng Xi had no response to this, and simply pointed the phone at herself while she sat on the sofa and read. After looking at her for a while, Cheng Xis mothers anger dissipated as she continued to watch her merely sit there quietly. Her next words were spoken caringly. Why do I feel like youve gotten even thinner? Have you been eating properly? I put so much food in the fridge for you. Did you remember to eat? ......Yes. But in her head, she mentally slapped herself in. My goodness, she had totally forgotten that there was food in the fridge. She had actually served Lin Fan a bowl of simple noodles that morning! Every time her mother came, she would stuff her daughters fridge full. It was mostly prepared meals that only required simple cooking processes, like rice balls, dumplings, and beef jerky. Cheng Xi especially loved the beef jerky made of meat that her mother had specially procured from the countryside; it was tasty and hunger-relieving but she had forgotten to eat any of it! When Cheng Xis mother saw her behavior, she began to doubt her daughters words. You finished it all? Cheng Xi was very worried that her mother would want her to open the freezer to verify it, but luckily, she didnt because she quickly thought of something even more concerning. All youre doing is staying at home, reading? You call this busy? Cheng Xi had to choose her next few words carefully. Theres an examination next month thatll heavily impact my career and future. Ive been really busy recently and havent had much time to study up on it. Also, I have to meet a patients family later, and at night, theres a meeting at the hospital. To sum it up in one short sentence, she was extremely busy. After hearing her excuses, her mother turned to her father. In the past, I thought that being a doctor was a good professionat the very least, you didnt have to worry about losing your job. While its true that we dont have to worry about that happening to Cheng Xi now, with her life being like this, Im worried she wont even have time to get married and have children. And what if she ends up living at home alone, even in old age? Of course, what she had said at the very end was aimed directly at Cheng Xi. But she merely continued to flip through her books dispassionately, ignoring what her mother had said. Her mother could only tug at Cheng XIs father and say, Your daughter isnt listening to me. You talk to her. Her father felt somewhat embarrassed because even though Cheng XI was all grown up now, he hadnt ever given her much advice, or even much scolding. Furthermore, given how sensible she was, he wasnt too worried about her. Despite all that, he still had to carry out his wifes order. In the end, he ambled to the screen, and softly urged Cheng Xi. Darling, please listen to your mothers words. Cheng Xi crisply replied, Okay. And with that, her father felt like he had finished his task, so he turned around and said to his wife, Look, I talked to her and she listened. Her mother stared at him, open-mouthed, and couldnt decide as she vacillated between haranguing her daughter and criticizing her husbands shortcomings. With her mothers harsh scolding as background noise, Cheng Xi continued to calmly read her books. Because her parents didnt drag her into their conversation, she quickly forgot about them. She became quite engrossed in her books, enjoying even the densest and most monotonous of medical tomes; luckily, this book wasnt uninteresting at all. It had been a gift from one of her classmates that had been specially bought overseas, an original English copy. The case studies within were very enriching, and one of them even mentioned Cotards syndrome. In this book, the patient was a middle-aged woman. After going through a divorce, being fired from her job, and losing her child all in a row, she had developed that illness. Her doctor had attempted to use some antidepressants to treat her. Initially, the treatment had seemed to be working well, and the patient was able to leave the hospital. But not long after she went home, she committed suicide. The conclusion of the case study was that the patient did not receive sufficient care and love from her family members and had consequently lost her motivation to live. The takeaway message was that patients suffering from mental illnesses require more care and depend on their family members more than patients with conventional illnesses. After reading this passage, Cheng Xis heart fell. She held her book, dazed, for quite a while, and was so entranced that she even forgot that she was still in a video call with her mother. When the doorbell rang, she finally put down the book and realized that it had gotten quite late; the living room was draped in the setting dusk sun with only a sliver of light. She rubbed her eyes, casually flicked the light on, and opened the door. It was Lin Fan, but his whole body was steeped in the sour smell of alcohol, and he was haphazardly leaning back against her door frame. When he heard the door open, he turned around somewhat slowly. Cheng Xi, he called out, his voice low and unfocused. Are you alright? He didnt respond, only smiling at her briefly before his body stumbed and he landed in her lap. Ah- Cheng Xi was flustered by his actions, and had to put in some serious effort to support and slowly drag him into the living room, eventually letting him fall asleep on her sofa. When she noticed his red face and high body temperature, Cheng Xi got up to pour a cup of water for him. However, he unexpectedly reached out with his hand and abruptly caused her to slip on top of his body. You- But before she could finish speaking, she heard her mothers voice from behind her. You! Cheng! Xi! She turned around fearing the worst, realizing too late that the phone she had placed on the coffee table earlier was still recording. The screen showed her mothers dumbstruck face. But soon after, her face disappeared from the screen, and Cheng Xis fathers big hand appeared again, this time ending the video call. On their side was undoubtedly another big argument, but Cheng Xi couldnt worry about it right now. She turned around, and saw that Lin Fan was watching her. He had a very nice pair of eyes; they were large and slightly bent at the sides, and they always held a somewhat hazy look when he looked at people, along with an unfathomable drop of melancholy. That melancholy was particularly eye-catching, like the stained-glass lamp her grandmother made for her when she was small. In deep winter nights, it always made her want to remove the lampshade to see the colored light more clearly. This time, his attractive eyes were accompanied by a half-smile dancing about his lips. The rims of his eyes were red, but his pupils were bright and alluring, more than enough to make ones heart drunk. She asked him, Are you alright? He only looked at her. Lin Fan? She carefully said, Let me go. Youre drunk. Ill get you a glass of water. These words finally shook him awake. No! As he said this, he pulled harder with his hand, tightly grasping her arm. Cheng Xi He mumbled her name as he incoherently said, Did you know? Im so happy that hes finally in, finally in! Cheng Xi stared at him blankly for a moment before asking, He? As in, your father? Father? Ha, father! Lin Fan laughed as if he had heard a funny joke, and looked at her with smiling eyes. I dont have a father. Hes not my father! He grabbed her even harder; Cheng Xi had originally been using her hands to keep herself steady on the sofa, but this time, she was completely pulled forward by his strength, and helplessly fell onto his chest. He slowly raised himself toward her head, and then lightly whispered into her ear, Ill tell you a secret. Im not his son! Cheng Xi gave him a look of surprise. His face still carried a smile, almost as if he had said something amazing. You dont believe me? he asked. Cheng Xi shook her head. No. Actually, she just didnt want to keep listening to him in this kind of situation, but this wasnt a decision she could make. Lin Fan was still smiling, but that smile made her feel even worse than if he was crying. Im a bastard. My mom was already carrying me when she married him. At that time, he said that he wouldnt mind and would take care of both her and me. However, when I was born, he and his mother almost drowned me. My mom said that they tried twice, but I didnt die either time. In the end, they only let me live because they couldnt keep trying. When Lin Fan saw the shock on Cheng Xis face, he looked even happier. You dont believe me, do you? Actually, I dont either. That man, with his refined and polite look, doesnt look at all like someone who would do something like that. But in truth, hes a parasite, a leech, a gambler, and a fraud. My mom didnt dare have another child for a long period of time, so he beat her and he beat me. When she finally gave birth to a daughter, he ignored her. And when my mom was unable to get out of bed, he So, to sum it up, Cheng Xi, Im actually very happy that hes finally gotten what he deserves. His mother is dead, his daughter is crazy, and he himself is in prison. In the end, with nothing to his name, he even has to rely on us to take care of his daughter. Hahaha, karma actually exists, doesnt it? After he poured his heart out, Lin Fan started laughing loudly, so much so that he started choking and curled up into a ball in response, so much so that he even started tearing up. But he was still holding onto to her desperately, his hand gripping her exactly where Chen Jiaman had bitten her, where her wound was wide and deep, and where the swelling had just died down. This hold was so painful that Cheng Xi involuntarily sucked in a deep breath and could only lay there, paralyzed, by his side. The two of them had been positioned in quite the suggestive position earlier, and now it was even more so after he had clambered forward. As she fell down, her head had landed on his abdomen. She didnt feel like it was a big deal, but the person who just burst in was so surprised that he almost jumped up in shock. F*ck! Am I blind? Are you really hiding a man behind Lu Chenzhous back, Dr. Cheng? Are you crazy?! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 50: Are You Trying to Seduce Me? A familiar voice and an equally familiar style of speech. Lu Chenzhous friend, Baldy, loved to appear in extremely unconventional means. When Cheng Xi suddenly saw him appear in her house unannounced, she was naturally very surprised. As she struggled to climb up, she turned around to look at him before dealing with her current situation. How did you get in? After Baldy had finished jumping and yelling in shock, he immediately took out his phone to take some pictures as evidence. Kacha kacha, photo after photo was saved. When he was satisfied, he angrily shouted, Your front door was open wide; I just walked in, of course! He narrowed his eyes and looked at the two of them. I really didnt expect you to be like this, Dr. Cheng. Youve got some guts! Youre quite arrogant, arent you? Engaging in intimate acts without even closing your door! The words that he used were really disgusting. Cheng Xi frowned, and ignored him to focus on Lin Fan. He seemed a bit more clear-headed now, as he was no longer messing around now that he realized that someone else had entered; he just lay there on the sofa, silent. Feeling his grip loosening, Cheng Xi quickly moved away from him. Baldy said, Its useless even if you get away from him. Ive already collected all the evidence I need. Cheng Xi continued ignoring him, and walked over to her kitchen to get Lin Fan a glass of water. Do you want any? He curled up and shook his head, then covered his face with his hands, as if he were an ostrich. Cheng Xi sighed lightly, putting the glass of water to the side. Then rest a bit first. Then she took out a blanket from the side cupboard and covered him up. Rest well, and youll be fine once you wake up. After saying this, she gently caressed his hand. His finger moved slightly and returned the motion. When her fingers touched his face, he couldnt help but tighten his fingers into a grip, and Cheng Xi silently endured him rubbing his face against her fingers. Her fingers suddenly encountered a warm dampness. Cheng Xi was a bit surprised, but he didnt try to struggle this time. Instead, she patted Lin Fans back with her free hand. These intimate actions between the two people, carried out as if nobody else present, annoyed Baldy very much. Hey, do you two have any sense of decency? Im right here! Originally, I thought that it might have just been a misunderstanding, and I wanted to give you a chance to explain yourself. However, now, it looks like you dont have to explain anything. He picked up his phone and called Lu Chenzhou, his voice unusually serious. Come quickly. Yes. You have to come over right away.. Yes, something came up. Its big. On the sofa, Lin Fans body suddenly stilled. Cheng Xi rubbed her forehead out of annoyance, let go of Lin Fan, and then dragged Baldy to one side. Can you be quiet for a minute? And stop looking at me like that, First of all, I already broke up with Mr. Lu. Secondly, I certainly havent been doing anything as intimate as you think. And finally, Id like to ask why youre here to see me. She said a whole bunch all at once, but Baldy only focused on one sentence. What? You broke up with Zhou? Heh, then were those ghosts that I saw last night? Were the people who mocked me for being a third wheel ghosts, too? Cheng Xi looked at him exasperatedly, not knowing where to begin her explanation. In the end, she could only push it onto someone else. At any rate, Mr. Lu understands what our relationship is now. If you want to know why, then go ask him. After hearing her words, Baldy actually believed her, and he scratched his head as he muttered, How quickly the world changes! You two already broke up? You were even getting intimate all last night. After glancing briefly at Lin Fan, who was lying on the sofa, he became bold and confident again. Then it has to have been your fault. At the very least, I thought that you and that guy were quite intimate last night. He turned and pointed at Lin Fan as he said, Hes the man who was with you last night, wasnt he? With a man like Zhou, you cant just judge him by his cold outer exterior. Im telling you, he has a raging fire inside, and hes a clean freak through and through. Theres no chance hed want you if you were messing around with another man late in the night! He was certainly very skilled at endlessly pestering someone. Cheng Xi looked at him and couldnt decide whether to smile or to cry, but her impression of Baldy had actually improved slightly. At least, given Lu Chenzhous terrible personality, it couldnt have been easy for Baldy to defend him like this. So despite his guesses being far from the truth, and despite his flinty gaze that left Cheng Xi speechless, she didnt get mad. Instead, she calmly asked, Did you find me for a reason? Originally, yes. But now, no, Baldy said with a supercilious look. No wonder he wouldnt come even after I shouted at him for half a day. But actually He couldnt help but click his tongue as he looked Cheng Xi over again. Youre quite something, able to act normally even after dumping him a day ago. But your eyesight must be terrible, since it looks like you picked up a sesame seed by dropping a watermelon in the process. He laughed coldly. Ill see how you fare in the future! Cheng Xi looked at him, her interest somewhat piqued. Baldy fiercely replied, What are you looking at? Are you trying to seduce me, too? He was actually very mad, really, very mad. He had been friends with Lu Chenzhou for many years, and naturally understood how difficult it was for someone like him to like someone. Originally he had even been quite happy for him, but this this had been the result. Thinking of this made Baldy feel as if someone had lit a fire in his soul. Besides his stuffy personality, what aspect of Lu Chenzhou wasnt ideal? And she had even dared to dump him! Was she blind? As Cheng Xi looked at his changing expression, she became very worried that he would go on a rampage to vent his frustrations, given how much like a gangster he talked and acted. However, he only paced back and forth in a few circles before he stopped and pointed his finger at her before saying, You, you better not appear in front of us ever again! And then he flicked his sleeves dramatically and prepared to leave. But, just when he turned to face the door, he stopped once again. At some point, Lu Chenzhou had arrived, and he was now standing at the door with a cool expression on his face. In the soft lamplight, he cut a fine figure with his straight body emanating elegance from every inch of it. When he saw the two people look at him, he finally knocked on the door, and even amiably asked Baldy, Why did you get so angry? Youre being somewhat unreasonable. Cheng Xi was still fine, because the only impression she had of him was that he was a bit too cold. However, Baldy looked like he had seen a ghost, and his mouth was opened so wide that he could have swallowed an egg whole. It took quite a while, but after Lu Chenzhou took off his shoes and entered the house, Baldy finally recovered. He walked in front of Lu Chenzhou and closely examined him over and over again. Is this really the Lu Chenzhou that I know? Usually, when faced with a joke like this, Lu Chenzhou would have ignored him. But today, he was surprisingly tolerant, and answered with a grunt. It made Baldy feel like he should leave and go clear his mind. For him to be this calm, this easy-going, even after being dumped Perhaps he should consider letting this guy get dumped several more times. But all of this was nothing compared to his attitude towards Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi asked, Did something come up? Why are you guys here? Im hungry. Cheng Xi froze for a moment and then turned around to look at the time. Oh, its already 5:30. I guess we can eat now. If I have to make food, itd take too long, but I do have some beef jerky, meatballs, and dumplings that my mom made What do you want to eat? Its up to you. And so Cheng Xi rolled up her sleeves and said, Then Ill get you a bit of everything. After saying this, she headed to the kitchen. Lu Chenzhou was very pleased. He followed behind her and sat down at the dining table, waiting for the meal, almost as if he hadnt seen the man lying on the sofa in the living room. Baldy merely watched him, open-mouthed. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 51: A Warm Scen Baldy also followed behind Lu Chenzhou as they sat down, asking, So, whats the situation between the two of you? Was he too old to know the newest trends anymore? He always felt that the world was moving too quickly! Even after they had allegedly separated, the two of them still acted so naturally towards each other; one had said that he was hungry, and the other, just like a dutiful wife, had immediately run off to cook something. But on the other hand, if they werent separated, then it was way too unusual for Lu Chenzhou to not react even after seeing a strange man sleeping at his partners house! Lu Chenzhous patience with Baldy was clearly limited to before he entered the doorway, because he didnt deign to respond to him now. Instead, Lu Chenzhou lowered his head and started to play Extreme Racingan app that hed become obsessed with recently, a particularly childish and boring kids game about little flying cars. Whats more, Lu Chenzhous skills were particularly horrid. Ten times out of ten, hed crash his car against a cliff. Despite his having played it for over half a month, Lu Chenzhou still hadnt gotten past a single checkpoint. This time was no different. Baldy had just sat down and was about to say something when he saw Lu Chenzhous car smash down with a big Bang! sign filling the screenhe had crashed into a roadblock. The crash destroyed the car entirely and instantly killed the driver, only leaving a bunch of glass shards and blood spurting out from within the car. Baldys eyes twitched, and he pretended that he hadnt seen anything. He earnestly urged Lu Chenzhou, saying, Dont play this game, alright? Even if it doesnt lower your intelligence, its very damaging to your image Anyway, tell me what you plan on doing about that man. Do you want to chop him up or smash him to pieces with a hammer? Id be very happy to lend you a hand. Thats the guy we met that day near the river, isnt it? F*ck, then he must have gotten together with her before the two of you broke up! Are you really going to let him off just like that? I dont think that you should eat anything that she cooks. With her skills as a doctor, who knows if shell add something else inside? He spoke until his mouth became parched and his tongue dry, but Lu Chenzhou impassively continued to play his game. Baldy couldnt help but grumble, Say something, wont you? Lu Chenzhou didnt even raise his head as he replied, Oh. What a particularly gloomy man. Baldy was unable to incite a response from him, so he decided to switch to a different tactic. Do you know what I saw when I first came in? They were He extended his hand to within Lu Chenzhous range of vision, and made a particularly vulgar hand gesture as he noisily sucked in air with his mouth. It was nearly too unbearable to look at! I even took a picture. Do you want to see? He assumed that Lu Chenzhou would ignore him just like before, but right as he finished speaking, Lu Chenzhous car once again crashed viciously into an obstacle. The charred metal of the wreckage rolled off into the horizon, somersaulting through the air until it finally landed heavily on the ground. Lu Chenzhou mashed furiously at a button, turning the car to scrap instantly. Only after this did Baldy realize that all of Lu Chenzhous actions in the game were violent. His back covered in a layer of cold sweat, Baldy quickly became submissive, saying, ...dont accelerate when youre turning a curve; dont rush it; do it slowly. Actually, there must be something wrong in the settings of this broken game. Wouldnt it be better if the roads were straight? How stupid must the creator be to make so many curved paths, cliffs, and obstacles When Lu Chenzhou looked over at him, he immediately flashed a gentle smile at him. Let me ask you something, why are you eating here? Lu Chenzhou lowered his head again and coolly replied, Im hungry. His reason was just this simple. ......Oh. He was somewhat dazed, because he could smell a wonderful scent, and then he realized very lamentably that he too was hungry. Very, very hungry! Last night, Lu Chenzhou had abruptly left him in the restaurant halfway through, and then he had to leave because he had something to do. He had even slept late last night and was busy the whole day today, accidentally skipping lunch on top of that. In the afternoon, Xu Po and the rest had booked a place and insisted that he and Lu Chenzhou make up for their missed gathering. To meet up with everyone, he had gone to find Lu Chenzhou right after work, so he hadnt eaten anything decent for the whole day. As he kept thinking about food, he got hungrier; as he kept sniffing at the air, he got even hungrier. By this point, his stomach was almost inflamed with desire. Baldy pounded the table. Im hungry too! The two of them cried out pitifully for food, and Cheng Xi didnt disappoint them, preparing a sumptuous dinner: a big plate of dumplings, a dish full of beef jerky, a bowl of meatballs, and a pan of fried eggs. Baldy was salivating just from looking at it, but he still disdainfully said, There arent any vegetables here. Cheng Xi turned around and unceremoniously took out two big leeks from the kitchen. This is green. Do you want it? Baldy had no response to Cheng Xis quip. A hint of a smile flashed across Lu Chenzhous eyes. He put down his phone, picked up the chopsticks and bowl that Cheng Xi had set out for him, and began to eat slowly. Baldy tried his best not to stare at those leeks. He was very suspicious that Lu Chenzhou had said something to Cheng Xihow else could she have known that that very thing she had taken out was what hed most hated and despised? Take it, take it away. He really couldnt stand it anymore. You wont eat it? Cheng Xi put on an innocent look, and then continued selling it enthusiastically. It helps prevent cancer. Baldy turned his face around, vowing not to give in. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh upon seeing his antics. After shed teased him sufficiently, she finally put the leeks away, took out another dish of steamed dumplings with one hand and a bowl of soup with the other, a very simple dish made with ham and tofu, random leftovers from the fridge. The smell was quite mixed, but as soon as Cheng Xi put in a bit of the red chili oil that her mother had made, it instantly smelled appetizing. When Baldy confirmed that she hadnt put any leeks inside, he finally approved of the meal. Its good now. Cheng Xi laughed. Seeing that the two of them were having a good time, she went to the living room to check up on Lin Fan. He was sleeping soundly, his breathing calm and his posture relaxed. She didnt wake him up. Instead, she returned to the dining room, poured herself a bowl of soup, and started eating together with them. Baldy ate until he was perspiring all over his bodya thin sheen of sweat adorned his shiny head. Cheng Xi found his appearance surprisingly funny. She asked casually, Is it tasty? Perfectly satisfied with the meal, Baldy forgot all about his annoyance towards her and praised her generously. Its great! Especially this beef jerky, ah, its super tasty! The meatballs arent too bad either. Its only the dumplings that dont have a great consistencyyou probably left it in the fridge for too long. Cheng Xi smiled mysteriously. No, I just added a little something to them. While the two were talking earlier, Baldy hadnt spoken softly, so shed overheard the sentence where Baldy was talking about how he was afraid that she would add something to their food. Baldy didnt feel a single hint of embarrassment at getting caught saying something behind her back. Instead, his only response was to laugh slyly, pick up a dumpling, and stuff it into his mouth. Then he turned around to look at Lu Chenzhou and blamed him shamelessly, Who said that? Was it you, Zhou? How could you doubt Dr. Cheng like that? She helps the dying and heals the injured. Shes a veritable angel in white, a miraculous healer! How could she do something as despicable as messing with our food? Even suspecting her is profane, alright? Lu Chenzhou finished the last drop of soup in his bowl and wiped his mouth, completely ignoring Baldy. Cheng Xi, on the other hand, was quite impressed. Youre very difficult to deal with. Baldy clasped his hands together modestly. Im just a normal person. Cheng Xi was amused enough by his expression to start laughing. She dropped the topic, turned to Lu Chenzhou, and asked, Did you really come find me for no reason? Lu Chenzhou was already starting to stack up his dirty plates; he couldnt bear even a bit of messiness on the table. When he heard her question, he coolly replied, He wanted to call you over and play mahjong with us. His slender fingers pointed at Baldy. Cheng Xi made an Oh sound, and then said, Sorry, I cant go. I have a meeting at the hospital at 7:30. Lu Chenzhou grunted, not saying anything else. Baldy speared a steamed dumpling with his chopsticks, and then looked askance at Lu Chenzhou. No? Just like that? Tonight, Xu Po and the others had raised the stakes; if they managed to bring Cheng Xi over, then just based on her luck alone, theyd probably win a full caskets worth of money, right? But Lu Chenzhou was going to leave her here just because of some meeting? Lu Chenzhou thought for a moment before saying, Lets have some tea. Baldy couldnt even think of a response. Lu Chenzhou had already moved on. Do you have any? His tone didnt seem to have changed, but Cheng Xi could hear a bit of impatience in its undertones. He was really saying, Dont you know how to do anything? I even had to speak up and ask. She found it somewhat funny, so she really did get up to brew tea for the two of them. Fortunately, she had a couple satchels of high-quality tea leaves that some friends and patients had gifted her, as well as a very nice tea set. It was another patients gift, the glaze the color of the sky after a heavy rain. Because she rarely drank tea, she had always treated it as a piece of art to be displayed on her cabinet. She hadnt planned on using it for this occasion, but Baldy spotted it instantly, knocking his chopsticks together and pointing at that tea set as he said, Use that tea set, its good! He had surprisingly good eyes, but Cheng Xi didnt mind. She put the set in her hands down and went for the one Baldy pointed out. Lu Chenzhou glanced at it, but when his eyes landed on it, his body immediately stilled. Touching the exquisite tea set, Cheng Xis slender and white fingers looked staggeringly beautiful, like a ray of light shining through the grey fog and haze against the blue backdrop of a saturated sky after a spring rain. Lu Chenzhou immediately recalled the visceral feel of that hand; it was warm, exquisite, and just like a piece of top-quality jade, it even left a calming scent afterwards. Without any warning, he got an erection. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 52: No Such Thing as an Inseparable Relationship Lu Chenzhou got up almost immediately, and then walked out of the room without turning back. Baldy and Cheng Xi were both somewhat startled. The two looked at each other, and then the former quickly ran out after him. Cheng Xi was slower than both of them, and by the time she put the tea set down and rushed out, they had already gotten into the elevator. As the doors closed, the only thing she glimpsed was Lu Chenzhous expression, calm as water, his eyes like two cold stars. He was exuding an unusually cold atmosphere. Ever since Baldy had met him, hed only been like this once before, when someone had thrown a woman onto his bed. It was so ominous that it felt as if misfortune was about to strike. Baldy felt a sudden exhilaration. He believed, with unusual self-confidence, that the unfortunate person wasnt himself. But when Lu Chenzhous feelings became particularly intense, anyone nearby could be implicated. Baldy didnt want to be that person, so he hugged his chest with both hands and made a pitiful trembling motion. So cold, so cold! He curled up into a corner of the elevator, looked at Lu Chenzhou, and with a cautious tone, asked, What made you so angry all of a sudden? It wasnt me, was it? Lu Chenzhou glanced at him indifferently. Baldy patted his chest in relief. Thank goodness its not me. He guessed again. Then was it Dr. Cheng who made you mad? Gosh, Im not happy either. My stomach started hurting right after I ate her food. Ouch, it really hurts He wasnt exaggerating when he said this, because his stomach really was hurtingthe food was simply so tasty that he had overeaten! Baldy moaned as he clutched at the elevator wall. But this time, Lu Chenzhou didnt even spare him a glance. Once the elevator stopped and opened its doors, he took the lead and walked out without a look behind him. Baldy followed him out in a rush, and successfully climbed into the drivers seat before Lu Chenzhouwhen he was unhappy, you definitely couldnt let him drive. This was a lesson that Baldy had learned after an uncountable number of bloody tears. Luckily, Lu Chenzhou didnt fight for it, and casually sat down in the backseat. After he entered the car, his head drooped down, and he looked at the two hands on his knees. Baldy asked, Where to? The Mei manor. Okay. Ah, the Mei manor? The manor was where they had agreed to meet Xu Po. Lu Chenzhou had been disinterested in the whole affair, and it was only Baldy had pleaded with him relentlessly that he had finally exited his house. This time, when Baldy heard Lu Chenzhou directly ask to go of his own accord, Baldy was really very surprised. But Lu Chenzhou didnt seem to want to give him an explanation. He kept staring at his hands, his expression a profound mystery. Baldy was afraid that Lu Chenzhou might suddenly have an outburst during the drive, so he didnt dare to provoke him any further, and drove around honestly. In his heart he was thinking, What on Earth happened to this guy? He got mad at the drop of a needle. He was clearly fine before, even when he saw that man lying on Cheng Xis couch, and he was even acting coyly with Dr. Cheng right before that. Thats right, the tone that Lu Chenzhou had used to tell Cheng Xi he was hungry, was totally just him acting coyly. And even after they had finished eating, the man on the sofa was still just lying there motionless. Since Lu Chenzhou hadnt paid any special attention to him even when he was hungry, he surely wouldnt after he was full and satiated. And, as for Baldy himself, he had just been sitting there, waiting for tea, so it couldnt have been him either. Out of the three of them, after eliminating two parties from the list of possible offenders, it could therefore only have been Dr. Cheng. What was she doing then? Taking out the tea set. After she touched the tea set, Lu Chenzhou had suddenly left without saying a word. Could it be that the tea set had been given to her by that guy? Baldy immediately thought that he had stumbled upon the truth, and his pity for Boss Lu deepened infinitely. His reactions seemed to be a bit strange; he didnt care at all upon seeing a stranger sleep there, but when he saw a gift that he had given Cheng Xi, his reaction had been so extreme! Baldy was still wallowing in his self-delusions when he suddenly heard someone ask from behind, Baldy, was your love with Xiao Qianyu one-sided? Baldy was so surprised by the question that the car swerved in a huge S-shape. Luckily for them, there werent any cars on the road just then, or hed have caused a big accident. Baldy quickly pulled over by the roadside, turned around, and fiercely yelled, F*ck, who would love that wench one-sidedly! Can you not speak of trash like that? Lu Chenzhou stared back at him calmly, asking, What does it feel like to have that kind of relationship with someone? Baldy stared at him, his face looking like it was about to burst like a balloon, but then his anger deflated in a quick puff. He took out a cigarette, gave one to Lu Chenzhou as well, lit both of them, took a few deep puffs, leaned against the car seat, and finally said with a somewhat sore tone, Its a terrible feeling, and you want to just forget about it. However, you wont ever be able to let it go, because aside from her, youll never find another woman who can enter your gaze. After hearing his words, Lu Chenzhou fell silent again, as if he were thinking hard about something. Baldy glanced at him superciliously, and then maliciously said, What, have you finally felt the taste of unrequited love after being dumped? Im not at that point yet. Lu Chenzhou thought about it for a moment, and then replied, particularly truthful, But I do very much want to have sex with her. Baldy choked on his own cigarette, to the point that tears were streaming down his face. He pointed at him in disbelief. You Lu Chenzhou looked at him curiously. Baldy finally stopped coughing and wiped the tears from his eyes. You walked away so suddenly. Could it be that He clambered onto the back of the seat, paying special attention to a part of Lu Chenzhous body, and then was speechless for a period of time. F*ck, do you have to be so exaggerated? Baldy could understand his physical reaction when someone was wearing something sexy or making overly flirtatious moves, but Cheng Xi had been dressed very conservatively. Her clothes were both plain and thick, and her actions were plain and modest. What on Earth was Lu Chenzhou reacting to? Youre not built like other people, are you? Baldy couldnt help but roast him a little. Lu Chenzhou ignored his jab, looking through the car window with dull eyes. He was indeed different from others. If he wanted something and didnt get it, he would easily become irritable. As a result, he had never repressed himself, and this was the first time that he had done so. It was a very unfamiliar sensation, so unfamiliar that he almost didnt know what to do. Sensing his unusual loss for what to do, Baldy chuckled, motioned with his jaw towards Lu Chenzhous bulge, and then asked, Do you need me to find someone for you? Lu Chenzhou turned his head around and looked him in the eye, giving Baldy a warning glance to stop saying any more nonsense. But after they had gotten back on the road for a while, Baldy couldnt help but ask out of curiosity, So, Zhou did you really break up with Dr. Cheng? The headlights of a car gleamed from afar, flickering in Lu Chenzhous gaze. The light was so white it was blinding, making him think of Cheng Xis fingers again. They were so white and slender, like a flame burning in the depths of his heart. He calmly corrected Baldy. Not a breakup, but the end of our relationship. How is that any different? Baldy didnt understand Lu Chenzhous words at all. Given that youre acting like this, how can you be willing to let her be together with that man? Thats righthe was certain that Cheng Xi and Lin Fan had gotten together. Even though he did eat her food, it was only because Lu Chenzhou didnt mind; if Lu Chenzhou had minded, then he would have immediately vomited all of it back out even after eating it all. Thats rightBaldy was this shameless of a man! Upon hearing this, Lu Chenzhou smiled coolly. There was no such thing as an inseparable relationship. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 53: I Love You As Baldy and Lu Chenzhou were discussing Cheng Xi, Cheng Xi was also thinking about them. The expression that Lu Chenzhou had made when he left made her feel a certain sense of unease, so she had tried calling him, but it went unanswered. So she had sent a text message, but that too was unread. Despite being a good psychiatrist, Cheng Xi didnt know why Lu Chenzhou had suddenly up and left like that. As she pondered the situation more, but still failed to understand why, Cheng Xi eventually gave up, turning around to clear the table. By the time she was done, it was almost time for her meeting at the hospital. Lin Fan was still not awake, so she left him a note and left her apartment. By the time the meeting was over, it was nearly ten, and a few unread text messages had built up in her phone. Most of them were from her parents, who probably hadnt yet gotten over what they had seen earlier. Her mother had warned her that she had to make a clean break with that dolt from before, that their family wouldnt allow such a man as their son-in-law. Meanwhile, her father gently tried to persuade her, saying that shed always been obedient and that he hoped she would think this matter through carefully without making her parents worry. Essentially, their meaning was: be dignified, have some self-respect, and, most importantly, choose your boyfriend carefully! Every time Cheng Xi heard her mom say that Lu Chenzhou was a dolt, she wanted to laugh. She believed that, if he had a choice, Lu Chenzhou definitely wouldnt have met her parents without dressing properly; however, it was also true that hed rather dress improperly than be dirty. And now that theyd already seen his entire body, then...... they wouldnt bother her about it in the future, right? But even if she explained all this to her mother, she wouldnt have listened. So, Cheng Xi decided not to say anything at all, only replying sincerely, Alright, I know. But her parents seemed to be worried that they hadnt pressured her enough, so they even called Cheng Yang, and she had a whole bunch of missed calls on her phone from him. Cheng Xi called him back and he immediately asked, Just how did you provoke Mom last night? Why did she insist that I call you and persuade you right away? While growing up, wasnt I the only one treated like this? When did you steal that away from me? He teased her ruthlessly. Its a misunderstanding. Nothing happened. Really? Yes. Then you and that, that Lu Chenzhou are you two broken up now? He actually knew Lu Chenzhous name, which surprised Cheng Xi immensely. You know him? Eh he said it himself last time. Cheng Yang then said fiercely, Dont change the topic. I still have to teach you the importance of choosing a proper boyfriend. But then he chuckled, and said in a relaxed tone, But if you really did marry him, it wouldnt be that bad either. Youd be a rich young lady from a wealthy family, and then Id get to use your connections. Their conversation had devolved into meaningless drivel, and, with Cheng Xi just having received another call, she hung up. When the call was over, Cheng Xi saw another message on her phone. Surprisingly, it was from Lu Chenzhou. She thought that he was going to explain to her why he had left hurriedly, but when she opened it, it turned out to merely be, I want to hear you tell me a story. This wasnt a difficult request, but what surprised her was his tone, very calm and without the sudden coldness that had accompanied his departure in the afternoon. Of course, he wasnt dispirited or sad either; this request felt like he purely wanted to listen to a story from her. So Cheng Xi told him a story on the spot via voice message. It was a little story about a lamb and its friends. After the lamb encountered some danger, its usual friends ran away, and only a little dog had come to help it. Afterwards, those friends who had fled blamed the lamb for not telling them that she had been in danger, and only then did the small dog silently leave. Once upon a time, this story had been an exam question for Cheng Xi, and even now, she had a strong impression of it. She also felt that it was an appropriate story for Lu Chenzhouits motto was that friends didnt need to stay together all the time; it was sufficient for them to stand up when you were in times of need. Just like her. She didnt need to be his partner, but she was willing to be someone who would sincerely help him. After she sent the story over, Lu Chenzhou didnt reply, and she didnt ask him to. Having visited Chen Jiamans ward again out of habit, she returned home. By then, Lin Fan had woken up. He didnt leave, only tidying himself up and sitting back down on the sofa. When Cheng Xi entered, his expression was dark and gloomy, his gaze deep. Cheng Xi didnt seem to have noticed his unusual behavior, normally walking over and putting her bag down. Youre finally awake! Do you feel alright? I left you some porridge in the kitchen. Did you eat it? Her tone was warm and calm. It reflected the perfect amount of concern, and would make anyone relax and feel very comfortable. Lin Fan eased up and replied, Yes, I ate it. It was very tasty. His complexion wasnt too good, his voice was hoarse and rough, and his gaze probed her carefully. Im sorry, I seem to have troubled you. No. Cheng Xi smiled, poured him a glass of warm water, and then sat down opposite him. Ive always thought that being able to vent your feelings when youre bothered is a very healthy means of coping Have a glass of water, your voice is really hoarse. Lin Fan thanked her again, took the glass, and drained it all in one gulp before drooping his head back down. Im sorry. I should have come here earlier, but at that time, I didnt have the courage to face you, so I turned to alcohol to give me more courage. But, unfortunately, I drank too much. After having tempered himself alone overseas for so many years, his attitude was much more frank than before. On the other hand, Cheng Xi felt that this Lin Fan had lost some of the cuteness he had had in his youth. She explained her thoughts frankly. Lin Fan was somewhat at a loss for words, and his first reaction was to laugh bitterly. If hiding would have prevented all that from happening, then I wish I had hid. He rubbed his face. My mom. She didnt say anything overbearing, did she? No. Thats good. He lowered his head, his thumb anxiously pressing down on his palm. One could see that he still hadnt calmed down inside, but he still said, Thanks for telling me this beforehand. I was too shocked back then and didnt dare believe it. But if theres anything that you need me to do, Ill do my best to help. Okay. I wont be modest then. Cheng Xi smiled slightly. She actually could understand Lin Fans indecision, anger, and loathing. If Lin Fans mother and the drunken Lin Fans words were both true, then the traumatic experience that they had suffered at Chen Fuguos hands was more than sufficient to traumatize them for their entire lives. Just like his mother, perhaps what was most triggering to him was not Chen Jiaman or this incident itself, but rather that nightmarish period in the past. Those who hadnt experienced something similar for themselves could never understand how painful it had been. She tried to change the topic to something more relaxing. Would you like me to tell you about her? After receiving his assent, she proceeded. She draws very well. Do you want to see? Lin Fan actually didnt have much interest in it, but after seeing her hopeful expression, he nodded. Cheng Xi opened her phone and showed him the many drawings of Chen Jiaman that she had taken pictures of. Lin Fan originally just glanced at them, but as he looked, he couldnt help but become entranced and take the phone. ...She drew all this? Yes. She doesnt talk to anyone, but she really likes to draw. I heard that she never took any lessons, but look at this piece, and that one. Doesnt she have tremendous talent? Lin Fan nodded. Even though he had studied the sciences, he still appreciated art and had even been a model at an art gallery when he was overseas, so he understood a bit of art. Even though Chen Jiamans drawings were dark and gloomy, and her skills were quite inexperienced, her lines all flowed naturally to one another, and the feeling at the tip of her instruments seemed to explode from those lines, leading to a particularly eye-catching result. This was no longer just mere talent; she could almost be considered a genius. Cheng Xi finished looking at all of Chen Jiamans artwork with him. These pieces of art, which seemed like the horrifying truth in Chen Fuguos eyes, had instead led to a heartfelt resonance in Lin Fan. It was because he had experienced these dark and terrifying experiences himself as well. After he finished looking at all the drawings in Cheng Xis phone, Lin Fans feelings had returned to normal. This time, he said very seriously, Thank you. Ill take good care of her. As for my mother Ill persuade her somehow. No matter what, shes still my sister. This time, he spoke much more firmly. Cheng Xi gazed at him. I know that this must be somewhat surprising for you, and Im very happy that youre responding in this manner. Ill try my best to help her improve, at least to the point where she can live on her own, so that she wont be a burden to anyone. In the early stages, however, you guys might have to invest more effort on her, because mental illnesses are unlike regular bodily ones. For this sort of illness, besides medication, whats most important is familiar company and familial love. Curing such illnesses is a long and arduous process; I might be able to get her well enough to be released from the hospital, but I cant promise that she wont relapse in the future. At this time, she needs friends, and particularly family. I know. Its just that I was unable to accept it at the beginning. Dont worry, I know what to do. Shes only fourteen, and her life is full of untapped potential. I will also do my best to help her. Cheng Xi smiled upon hearing Lin Fans declaration, her gaze as bright and clear as the pear blossoms blooming in April; her expression was pure white and radiant. She stood very close to him, no longer like the person of his dreams who stood far away. Even though she knew of his private matters, no disdainfulness or hint of teasing showed on her face, and no pity either. She simply looked at him, with just her honest feelings, with a warm and gentle smile. Here sole presence made others feel content for no other reason at all. He wanted to stay by her side, for the rest of time. He remembered vaguely hearing in his alcohol-fuelled haze that she had said that she had broken up with Lu Chenzhou Now sober, he was afraid that he had possibly misheard, so he wanted to verify it, and spoke up. Hey. Yes? She replied with a lilt in her wonderfully pleasant voice as she looked at him seriously. But before he could ask, her phone suddenly rang. She turned around to look for her phone, saying, It could be from the hospital. In reality, it wasnt from the hospital, but instead a call to find him. Lin Fan could tell because he heard her answer, Yes, hes with me Alright, Ill tell him to return immediately. It seemed that the person on the phone with her said something else, because she began looking a little exasperated. After hanging up, she told him, It was from Shen Wei. She said that your phone was off and that your mother was very worried about you. As she said this, she stood up. Come on, you need to go back home. Ill walk down with you. She walked him down outside the residential area. Once they reached the lobby, Lin Fan began regretting it. Given how cold it was outside, he shouldnt have let her come out with him. But he didnt want to part with her, and hed take advantage of anything just to stay with her a moment longer. As the wind blew wildly, her cute little nose reddened immediately and her face turned as white as snow. Lin Fan felt his heart blaze with an uncontrollable heat of passion. It should be that car. She stood by the side of the road, looking into the distance. His gaze, on the other hand, was focused solely on her. When the headlights got closer, he suddenly spread out both hands and hugged her tightly. She was somewhat surprised and turned her head to look at him. He ignored her reluctance, moved his face closer to her, and lightly kissed her cheek as he softly whispered, I love you, Cheng Xi into her ear. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 54: Wash Cleanly This was the first time that Lin Fan had ever done something as bold as this, so he was understandably nervous. In his nervousness, he quickly let go of her and ran into his car after the single kiss. He was so fast that Cheng Xi couldnt even react before the car had already left, far away. She was speechless. She hadnt seen Lin Fan that embarrassed for many years. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh at the situation before putting both of her hands in her pockets and preparing to walk back inside. As she was turning around, she found herself looking at a car parked by the side of the building. It was black and hidden in the dark, just like a monstrous shadow. When she looked at it a bit more closely, the headlights of the car suddenly turned on, and the strong, bright light shining directly into her face almost blinded her. Even without seeing who was driving the car, she could feel the drivers malicious intent. She quickly covered up her eyes, frowned, and prepared to leave. At this time, there werent many cars and pedestrians on the road, and Cheng Xi didnt want an accident to occur either. But just as she started to step away, a piercing honking sound shattered the quiet night air right next to her earpaa, paa, paa, paa, paa, paaa conspicuous disturbance in the dark and silent night. When she turned and looked back more closely, she saw the cars interior light up and then blink. Cheng Xi found that a familiar face was actually sitting in the drivers seat. Lu Chenzhou. Why was he here this late? After mulling over it for a moment, Cheng Xi slowly walked up to him. The car window slowly rolled down. Lu Chenzhou was alone in the car, sitting in the drivers seat, with both hands clasped on the steering wheel. As his fingers tapped on it rhythmically, his gaze noncommittally looked at her. Eh, why are you here? Did something come up? Get on. Where to? He tilted his head, his gaze still on her face. He said nothing and merely pressed the middle of the steering wheel again, causing the deafening noise to blare out again. It sounded as impatient as his mood. Cheng Xi quickly got into the car. She wasnt worried that Lu Chenzhou would do something to her. Even though his personality was cold, she felt inexplicably like she could trust him with her safety. Lu Chenzhou ended up bringing her to Donglai, immediately throwing her inside a beauty parlor. The female proprietor had already closed up shop for the day, but he called someone to get her over, pointed at Cheng Xi, and then said, Clean her face. Both Cheng Xi and the salon owner, who had rushed over hurriedly, were somewhat speechless, looking at each other out of shared confusion. Cheng Xi was the first to say, Sorry to bother you. The salon owner coughed and replied, Its not a problem. Then she took out some appliances and creams and indeed began washing her face as Lu Chenzhou waited in the lobby. Cheng Xi lay on the bed, feeling the owners soft fingers comfortably pinching and kneading her face. Not long later, the salon owner took out a large set of tools. Are the two of you having a big event tomorrow, to clean your face this late? Cheng Xis face was dripping as she pondered Lu Chenzhous intentions. When she heard the salon owners question, she casually asked back, What big event? The lady owner smiled. Getting married, of course. She put a facial mask on Cheng Xi, and her voice now sounded somewhat indistinct. When I went out just now, Mr. Lu even told me specifically to do the deepest cleansing possible I said that our deepest cleaning is generally for new brides right before they put their bridal makeup on, and he said to do that onethe two of you are getting married, arent you? She immediately remembered Lin Fan kissing her. Lu Chenzhou.. couldnt possibly be doing this because of that, could he? She very much wanted to rub her forehead, a sense of terror overwhelming her. But she controlled herself, smiled vaguely, and said, Dont joke around. How could that be possible? The lady owner likely also thought that the probability of them getting married was very low, and when she saw that Cheng Xi didnt want to keep talking about it any further, she immediately dropped the topic and concentrated on washing Cheng Xis face. The facial wash was very intricate but unexpectedly comfortable. Cheng Xi didnt feel particularly tired before the wash, but afterwards, she couldnt help but yawn complacently. The lady owner supported her face as she said, This is going to take some time. Why dont you sleep first? Ill wake you up when were done. Cheng Xi didnt want to sleep, but she still ended up dozing off during the comfortable massage. When Cheng Xi woke up, she was still in the beauty salon, on the bed where she had had her face washed last night. The salon owner was sleeping next to her, and her clothes were to the side. What had woken Cheng Xi up was her phone, vibrating right next to her ear. She sat up straight and took her phone out from her pocket. After looking at the soundly sleeping owner, Cheng Xi put on her shoes and walked out quietly. There was no one outside, not even Lu Chenzhou. She answered the call. Hello, Shen Wei? Youre awake? Yep. What happened to you last night? I sent you so many text messages but you never responded. Really? Let me see. Cheng Xi inspected her phone for a moment and indeed found a large number of messages from Shen Wei. After casually glancing at them, she found that they were essentially variations of two questions: Did you dump Lu Chenzhou? and Are you together with Lin Fan now? Clearly, Shen Wei was desperate for an answer. Cheng Xi sighed. I didnt realize that you liked gossip this much in the past. Im bored because I had to wake up early to catch a flight. Where are you going this early? The capital Dont try to change the topic. Answer me honestlyare you together with Lin Fan now? No. I dont believe you! Youre saying that even though you were with him that late at night yesterday? If I said that I had a reason, would you even believe me? I wouldnt believe others, but if its you, then probably, yeah. But really, I have to remind you. If you dont plan on entering into a romantic relationship with Lin Fan, then you shouldnt act so intimately with him. Hm? Cheng Xi was somewhat surprised by Shen Weis comment. Why not? Because he clearly likes you. Didnt I mention that I was going to introduce my friend to him last time? However, his reaction was to tell me that he first developed feelings for you in high school, and that hed continue to wait for you. Ah, his feelings for you are really deep. If not for the fact that you already have Lu Chenzhou, even I would say that the two of you are really compatible. ......Just when did I get Lu Chenzhou? Hm? Isnt it true? Everyones saying that the two of you have met each others parents and are even living together now. Are they wrong? Ev- everyone? Cheng Xi was dumbstruck, so much so that she started to stutter. Yes. My Fu Mingyi saw it back in Donglai too. Heehee, dont try to hide it from me. You know how fussy Lu Chenzhou is; everyone who has met him knows it. My Fu Mingyi told me that he has a room at the Donglai hotel that even Baldy and his other longtime friends cant enter. However, that day, he saw Lu Chenzhou bring you inside. Oh, Cheng Xi, youre really lucky to receive the love of two male idols. Oh, my youthful heart I shouldnt have married this early; otherwise, I could have lived a life like yours! Cheng Xi was speechless. Shed only been to Donglai two or three times, and only inside Lu Chenzhous room twice. But Fu Mingyi had somehow seen her during one of these times; just how lucky was she? And as she thought about this, she suddenly became mystified. She used to believe that Lu Chenzhou didnt feel that way towards her. To her, his actions of resisting her but getting close to her were a sign of the inherent contradiction in his heart: he wanted to be treated, but didnt want to acknowledge that he was ill. Forcing her to sign a contract and become his girlfriend was, in Cheng Xis eyes, just a pretense for his mental dilemma. The reason why she had been so honest with him was because she was trying to break down his mental wall, and it wasnt in any way to give Lu Chenzhou the impression that she was truly his girlfriend. Was she too late? It was the first time that she had felt uncertain about her judgment. She hesitated for a moment and then asked Shen Wei, If a man saw someone else kiss your face and then brought you to have your face washed, then What does that mean? It took Shen Wei only a little while to understand. Hahaha, is that man Lu Chenzhou? He saw Lin Fan kiss you and then he took you to get your face washed? Hahahahaha, how cute! A hand suddenly leaned over and took her phone away. Cheng Xi turned around, greatly shocked, only to see that Lu Chenzhou was standing right behind her. Looking down, he hung up on Shen Wei and, as he returned the phone to her, said, You could always just ask me. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 55: More Lovely Than a Summer Day After saying his words, Lu Chenzhou looked at her expectantly, his expression as if he was waiting for her to ask a question. Cheng Xi also felt that it would be better to clarify things; asking a clear question and receiving a clear question couldnt possibly lead to a misunderstanding. But as she prepared to ask her question, he shifted his gaze to the rest of her body. You should clean yourself first. He then frowned, looked behind her, and said, Dont you females usually clean yourselves up first thing in the morning? Cheng Xi turned around and saw the beauty salons owner rub her eyes as she woke up. Upon hearing Lu Chenzhous pointed remark, the bleary sleepiness instantly disappeared from her face, and the two of them both looked at the only male in the room, only to see that that man was wearing a simple white shirt and black pants. His shirt was perfectly uncreased, neat and tidy. Lu Chenzhou was originally quite handsome, and his attire only served to accentuate his features furtherthe white-clad youth was so handsome that he seemed like a juicy fruit, emanating a tempting aura. Cheng Xi and the salon owner then looked at each other, and noticed their own state of disarray in the others eyes. After sleeping for the entire night, their clothes were now wrinkled, their hair messy, and, compared to this Mr. Lu, they looked just like dried prunestheir clothes so shriveled that they made one feel sad just from looking at them. Neither of the two spoke; after silently looking at each other one last time, they quickly went inside the washroom specially prepared for customers. The washroom was large and spacious. As they stared at their current somewhat disastrous state through the mirror, the two started laughing. This laugh closed the previous distance between the two. The salon owner was somewhat distressed, and said, Director Lu is quite particular, isnt he. Yes. The lady boss sighed regretfully. I still remember the first time I met him, in his office. I told him that I wanted to open a beauty salon in Donglai, and he looked at me out of the corner of his eye with a particularly disdainful look. Then he said, Isnt the role of a beauty salon to make people beautiful? You clearly havent been able to apply that to yourself, but youre going to try to do it to others? My goodness. Even after all this time, I still dont dare to walk in front of him after that comment from him. Her humorous storytelling made Cheng Xi laugh. Actually, Im in the same boat as you. The first time I met him, he asked me, Do you only have one dimple? Unbelievably ugly. The two finished roasting him and then laughed together again. The salon owner then said, So even you receive such treatment? I thought that he would treat at least you differently. Cheng Xis smile shrunk slightly. How different can it be? Were all the same. No, definitely not. At least in all my time in Donglai, Ive never seen any other woman appear by Director Lus side, and thats not even mentioning him bringing someone for me to wash her face. Though... As the salon owner started her next sentence, she peeked outside cautiously, lowered her voice, and then continued in a whisper. Did you do something to make him angry? After you fell asleep last night, he stood to one side and observed you for such a long time that, honestly, judging from his expression, I thought that he was going to pinch you awake. But then She originally wanted to say throw you out, but after considering that Cheng Xi might be upset with her words, she pivoted and instead said, and then he told me to let you sleep and to not disturb you. As he said this, he was even gnashing his teeth, clearly upset that you had left him to sleep alone. It was the first time Ive ever seen that expression on his faceactually, he was both awkward and cute at the same time! Haha, remember to pamper him a little when you see him. He doesnt have a good temper, but I feel like he really does treat you well. Cheng Xi had heard two people call Lu Chenzhou cute in the morning, and suddenly felt slightly dissociated, almost as if she were living in some strange fantasy. From the salon owners word choice of gnashing his teeth and concerned, it seemed that she must have been projecting her own impressions onto Lu Chenzhou. Given that mans cold and nearly stone face, how could she have seen him gnash his teeth or be concerned? And she had also clearly misunderstood the relationship between them, making Cheng Xi somewhat embarrassed. Im not in that relationship with Mr. Lu. Were just regular friends. I get it, I get it. The lady boss smiled as she replied half-heartedly. In the end, Cheng Xi was unable to clearly explain the relationship between her and Lu Chenzhou. In truth, she herself had realized that since she wasnt able to explicitly state their doctor-patient relationship, some of their actions were truly inexplicable. For example, the interest she showed towards Lu Chenzhou, the attention she paid him, her unbelievable forbearance, and so on and so forth. As Cheng Xi reflected on her and Lu Chenzhous relationship, she felt more and more certain that she should explain things to Lu Chenzhou again. However, when the two of them returned to his room, and when Cheng Xi asked him why he had brought her here to have her face washed, he looked at her, and replied in a shocked tone. Dont you feel dirty? His saliva was all over your face! Cheng Xi was once again rendered speechless by his logic. She looked at him with a somewhat weak expression, feeling that it was necessary to explain these basic things to him. Hugging and kissing are both actions used to express intimacy- But before she could finish, he cut her off coldly. But I find it dirty, very dirty. Having said that, he looked at her provocatively. Cheng Xi caressed her forehead. But youve kissed me too I washed myself afterwards, about seventeen or eighteen times each time. Cheng Xi glared at him, and then after taking a while to gather her thoughts, squeezed out, Then you must have felt quite wronged. And Lu Chenzhou even responded affirmatively, seriously nodding as he said, Yup! Cheng Xi clutched her chest. She had truly been overthinking it when she was worried that he would misunderstand, hadnt she? She decided to ignore this topic, and instead ask, You came back last night to find me, didnt you? Whats the matter? He didnt speak, and instead gave her a recording device. This is? Tell me a story. Cheng Xi looked at him strangely. Since this man wasnt interested in her body, could it be possible that he was infatuated with her voice? She really should have stopped overthinking it because, as if he had read her thoughts, Lu Chenzhou raised his eyebrows and said, Your stories are boring enough that theyre the best lullaby. Curses immediately sprung up in Cheng Xis mind. While she still had a smile on externally, her internal emotions were raging tumultuously. Did he have to attack her so savagely? Shed always thought that her own stories were rather good! That weekend, Cheng Xi took a break. The first day, she spent waiting for Lin Fan and his mother, and the second, she dedicated to Lu Chenzhou. In his hotel, she recorded a full days worth of stories for him. Cheng Xi put all of the stories she knew into the recording device, but when Lu Chenzhou saw that it still wasnt full, he wanted her to add more. In the end, Cheng Xi had to take out a collection of Shakespearean plays from his bookshelf. It was even in the original Elizabethan English, so most of the words were antiquated and unfamiliar to her. But since it was just to help Lu Chenzhou sleep, it didnt really matter. Lu Chenzhou didnt do anything else that whole day. He just sat by her side and listened to her record the stories. Occasionally, he would get on his phone to handle some business, but he spent most of the time asleep. By the time he woke up, Cheng Xi had already gotten to Shakespeares Sonnet XVIII. Shall I compare thee to a summers day? Thee art more lovely and more temperate: He suddenly woke up and said, Thou. She was surprised, and raised her head to look at him. After her facial wash from last night, her skin was more radiant than ever. A slight flush of red peeked out from her porcelain-white skin, only serving to further emphasize her beauty. Her clear eyes were reminiscent of the sky after a heavy rain, pure enough to drown ones heart in longing. As his heart began to itch again, Lu Chenzhou closed his eyes. What did you say just now? He didnt want to answer, but his brain unconsciously repeated the words she had been reciting. Shall I compare thee to a summers day? Thou art more lovely and more temperate: She had mispronounced a word, reading thou as thee. He was very picky by nature, not being able to tolerate even the slightest mistake or error. But while she had been reciting Shakespeare, despite her countless mistakes, he didnt find them unbearable at all. Perhaps it was because her voice was too moving, so moving that he could neglect her mistakes. Its fine, he heard himself say. You just disturbed my sleep, thats all. She didnt continue speaking. Even though he didnt open his eyes, he could still imagine her speechless expression. When he felt Cheng Xis footsteps quietly creep away, his lips curled up into a cold smile. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 56: Helping Him As the door closed, Lu Chenzhou opened his eyes and stared at the recording device she had left on the table for a long while before calling Baldy. You said that the Wang siblings wanted to chase their stepmother out of their house, right? Yes. Their fathers quite old now, and his minds a little muddled. Theyre trying to prevent him from giving all his assets to their stepmother in his will Honestly, their stepmother isnt innocent either. She pretended to be ill to summon her biological son back from overseas. Apparently, he graduated from a famous school, worked at a renowned company, and is much smarter than the Wang siblings; therell be exciting drama ahead, Im sure. Baldys voice was filled with schadenfreude as he gossiped about the other familys affairs. Only when he finished did he realize that this wasnt something that Boss Lu usually deigned to partake in. He even thought that it might have been because he was planning to profit from the fight. What, youre interested in their companies? Not at all. Lu Chenzhou lowered his gaze, looking at his hands. They were currently clutching his jade teacup, which was allegedly made from a warm piece of jade. However, stone was just stone, and it emanated a coldness that annoyed him. He used an even colder tone to tell Baldy, You have lots of women, so go find a girlfriend for the Wangs stepmothers son. What do you mean I have lots of women?! Baldy started jumping around again, and, when he realized what he had said, he started shouting again. When did you become a matchmaker for other people? Did the Wang siblings ask you for help? To use a woman to ruin their half-brother? Lu Chenzhou ignored him and simply said, Find a woman who has a strong background and valuable skills, someone who cant be rejected. Baldy kept yelling his grievances. Youre trying to help his stepmother? Will the Wang siblings cry themselves to death if they knew your stance? Even though the youngest ones a bit unreliable, and did throw a woman at you He continued speaking long-windedly nonsense, but Lu Chenzhou didnt want to listen to him and irresponsibly threw four words at him. Thatll be all. And then he hung up. Baldy was furious. On the other hand, Lu Chenzhou held his phone and laughed coolly. Did Baldy say that he wanted to help the Wangs stepmother? No, he was solely helping himself. He was helping Lin Fan recognize his own reality by finding him a suitable woman. As for him being Cheng Xis idol? Hah! Cheng Xi didnt know what sort of thoughts were going through Lu Chenzhous mind. Even though she was a psychiatrist, if patients werent willing to share any information, it wasnt as if she could forcefully read their thoughts. Right now, she only felt that her stomach was somewhat uncomfortable she had drunk too much water and eaten too much fruit earlier. She hadnt been ill-treated while doing tasks for Lu Chenzhou; the tea was exquisite, the fruits were plentiful, but the result was unsatisfying. Even after how hard shed worked, he had still complained that she was bothering him and preventing him from sleeping. She tried hard to get close to him, but it seemed like her efforts had all been made in vain. Could it be that all her compliance and forbearance was futile? As Cheng Xi sat in the car, she reflected on her actions. Though she was being honest with him, it might be time to adjust her strategy. But he was too indifferent towards everything, even Chen Jiamans case. After what had happened last time, Lu Chenzhous interest in her seemed to have dipped. Cheng Xi tried to think of something that she could have done differently. Of course, at this time, she was completely unaware that she didnt even need to do anything moreshe had already stirred up plenty of interest from him. The first thing Cheng Xi did when she got home was take a nice, long bath, and then immediately afterwards, she went to bed and had a comfortable sleep. The next day, she went to work as usual. But because her throat was slightly sore, she decided to cook some porridge for lunch. As she was staring at it, waiting for it to finish cooking, she suddenly thought, If Lu Chenzhou could be lulled to sleep with my stories, then couldnt I do the same with Chen Jiaman? If she recorded some stories and played them by Chen Jiamans ears, then even if Chen Jiaman didnt listen to them, would she become more familiar with her voice? Familiarity could reduce the distance between them, and similarly, reduce the wariness in her heart. Inspired, she put her thoughts to action. Lowering the fire, Cheng Xi started rummaging through the house for a recording device. She remembered that she used to have one that she had used while studying; was it still functional even after so long? When Lin Fan called her, Cheng Xi had just found her old recording device. As she continued digging around for a charger, she picked up. Hello. Lin Fan noticed the change in her voice, and was silent for a few seconds. You is something up? No. Im just looking for something. She finally found it. All of her chargers had been tidied up by her mother when she had moved places. They were all tied up with a thick piece of string, and then everything had been knotted together tightly. It was very difficult for Cheng Xi to untie everything, so she had to exert some strength, causing her voice to become slightly strained. Whats up? Lin Fan relaxed. Im just about to get food with some friends, near where you live. Do you want to join us? She could hear him anxiously trying to maintain a calm tone, which reminded her of the sneaky kiss that he had given her before running away. She laughed at the memory and said, Alright, I havent eaten yet. Lin Fan was very happy, and he sent the address over immediately after hanging up. It really wasnt far from her house, just a few minutes by taxi. Cheng Xi set the porridge on the stove to simmer, changed her clothes, and went to where Lin Fan had directed her. When she got out of the car, she saw Lin Fan standing on the second floor of the restaurant, waving at her from afar. She arrived at the entrance at about the same time as he did. He asked, Are you cold? Cheng Xi was wrapped up tightly with a red woolen scarf that covered up half her face and made her look even smaller and more exquisite than usual. Im alright. The two of them went into the building, and Lin Fan introduced her to his friends, all colleagues from his new company. Only now did Cheng Xi realize that he had found a job and had started working. Not far from the hospital, he explained to her secretly, the slight smile of his mouth particularly attractive. Cheng Xi couldnt help but smile back. All of Lin Fans colleagues seemed relatively carefree and young. When they heard that she was a psychiatrist, a girl by her side even looked at her carefully before asking in a small voice, Can I add you on WeChat? Of course! Later, she found out that that girl was the niece of the Lin Fans companys CEO, and she had an especially pretty name, Meng Qingyang. As Cheng Xi was enjoying lunch, Baldy was sitting in Lu Chenzhous office with his legs crossed jovially while acting very proud with himself. Ive found someone for you, with an absolutely perfect background and skills; shes someone whom a regular person definitely cant reject. Lu Chenzhou continued to look at his laptop, indifferently asking, Who is it? The niece of Longjings CEO, the daughter of his dead brother. His brother died saving his life, so hes given her whatever she wanted, even handing over half of the companys shares, so she definitely has a good background. Coincidentally, the Wang siblings stepmothers son was just hired at Longjing, so theyre in quite close proximity to each other. Perhaps it''s because the CEO is so protective of her that her tempers particularly soft, like a pure little bunny. If the Wang siblings stepmother is really that ambitious, then shell definitely like her. As a wealthy and powerful girl with an easily manipulable personality, shes the perfect match for her son. Only then did Lu Chenzhou become a bit interested, raising his head. Whats her name? Meng Qingyang. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 57: Untitled Lin Fans party with his new colleagues was quite lively; everyone was around the same age, so they all got along pretty well. For most of the lunch, Cheng Xi made herself inconspicuous and acted as a quiet listener. Lin Fan himself also didnt have much to say, but she could tell that his social skills were leaps and bounds better than before. Occasionally, he would even tell some interesting stories about what he had done abroad, but his storytelling ability was really quite poor, and his colleagues all ridiculed him playfully for it. Lin Fan, even when you talk about this, its not as interesting as when you talk about computer programming. How did you ever manage to land such a beautiful doctor girlfriend with the way you are? They all thought that Cheng Xi was his girlfriend. Cheng Xi didnt bother explaining, and Lin Fan was also silent on the matter. When he heard their joke, he looked at her, smiled very sweetly, and cheesily replied, Because I have a good eye. Peh! Everyone began to heckle him and they started pushing alcohol at them. Cheng Xi was unable to decline and drank a little, but Lin Fan ended up drinking most of it. His alcohol tolerance wasnt bad, but his face would become red with even once drink, and his eyes would glass over, as if they had been dipped in the dew of the April peach blossoms, glossy and alluring. Cheng Xi didnt dare look at him. At the same time as this commotion was going on, one of Lin Fans colleagues tenderly pushed some food toward a girl by Cheng Xis side. You didnt eat anything last night, so why dont you have some of this? I remember that you liked it a lot last time we came here. The girl pushed the bowl aside. I dont want any. The male colleague didnt become deflated even after the rejection, and he picked up something else with his chopsticks before asking, How about this? You have to eat something... But before he could finish speaking, the girl shoved her bowl away forcefully. I told you, I dont want it. Cant you understand what Im saying?! Her loud voice and furious tone made the entire party suddenly quiet down, as everyone awkwardly looked at the two of them. At this point, the male colleague was so embarrassed that his face had turned bright red, and the female looked somewhat vexed. She pursed her lips, didnt say anything more, got up from her seat, and then left. As she left, she also took the convivial atmosphere of the gathering away with her. A colleague quickly addressed the situation. Hey, hey you. Quickly leave with her so that she doesnt have to go alone. And someone else suggested, Shouldnt we all just leave? Were mostly finished anyways. And so, everyone left. Cheng Xi and Lin Fan followed them down, some chasing after the enraged female coworker, and the others paying the bill. When they got to the door, they found the male colleague who had enraged her defending himself, innocently saying, I just saw that she hadnt eaten and wanted to persuade her to eat something. After all, as the boss niece, she might as well be our manager. If she comes out with us, then we cant let her leave hungry, can we? Someone else laughed. Youre into her, arent you? The male colleague tried desperately to defend himself. Seeing that Cheng Xi seemed interested in the drama, Lin Fan gave his own take on the situation. This guys pretty enthusiastic and considerate of others. Hes probably trying to take care of her, but also likes her at least a little. Cheng Xi smiled, neither nodding nor shaking her head. What, am I wrong? No. Cheng Xi smiled again. A colleague came over just then, and the two dropped the topic. While Cheng Xi said goodbye to the others, she suddenly remembered that she hadnt gone out with any friends to eat for quite a while now. Even though the atmosphere at the end had been somewhat disagreeable, Cheng Xis mood on the whole did seem to improve. When she mentioned this to Lin Fan, he smiled. Then it sounds like I should call you out more often in the future so that you dont end up becoming detached from society. So he had finally admitted that this was just a disguised date on his part. She glanced at him. Alright. Lin Fan laughed again, his bright eyes looking straight at her. He tended to express his emotions subtly, but after living in a capitalist country for so long, he seemed to have greatly improved his ability to express his emotions with his face---like what he was doing now, even putting his natural charm to use, staring at her with eyes that felt like they were sparking with electricity. Cheng Xi felt that returning his stare would be too dangerous, so she instead changed the topic. Are you liking your new job? Its not bad. At least so far, everyone has been pretty friendly, but Im still somewhat inexperienced with my duties. In an eight-hour day, it seems like people are only really working seriously for around half that time. I was probably working too hard when I first got here, and even annoyed some people with my attitude. Because of that, I decided to treat everyone to a meal today to develop rapport with them. Cheng Xi smiled, and was reminded of that girl who had disturbed the gathering. Is she from your department too? Yes. Shes even a major shareholder of the company. Even though her skills are somewhat mediocre, her position is undeniably important, so everyone was somewhat worried when she left in a huff. This at least explained why such a lively gathering had dispersed so casually. Arent you anxious? No, Im a newbie, he responded seriously. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh at his answer. Does she usually act like this? Im not sure. But I heard that her personality used to be pretty good in the past, but for some reason, she suddenly became somewhat irritable recently. Besides losing her temper easily, shes also become particularly sensitive too. Only recently? Yes. Hmm As he looked at her thoughtful face, Lin Fan smiled. Youre not trying to diagnose her right now, are you? Actually, I am. Cheng Xi laughed as well. She added me on WeChat today. If its possible, I might chat with her a bit. Lin Fan looked at her strangely. What is it? She blinked innocently. You really think somethings up? Cheng Xi comforted him. Its not serious. A lot of people nowadays have some form of mental issue. Its not a problem as long as they resolve it before it becomes too serious. Then do I have anything like that? he asked as he stood in front of her. You? She looked him up and down, patted him lightly on the shoulder, and then smiled. Youre such a handsome and sunny youth. Theres absolutely nothing wrong with you. As she was about to take back her hand, he suddenly grasped it with his own. Cheng Xi didnt struggle, just looking back at him with a smile. Cheng Xi. Yes. I was very happy tonight. Cheng Xi thought back to their night together. Actually, she was very happy too. After encountering all sorts of patients in the hospital, she had come to miss the lively days when she would get together with her friends and go home together, talking about their lives as they walked back. She had thought that interacting this way with Lin Fan was normal behavior, and that their social interactions and friendships, that their conversations and communications had all been normal. It was not at all like her interactions with Lu Chenzhou, where she had to constantly scrutinize his expression, consider the deeper meaning behind his words, and ponder whether or not each and every one of her words would impact him negatively. Doctors were people too, and they also had times when they wanted to relax, so she nodded and returned the smile. I was happy too. Then the words that I said to you that nightcan I say them to you again, formally this time? What? Ұ㡣 I dont understand. Ich liebe dich. Je taime. ݧҧݧ ֧ҧ. He restated it in a few different languages in a row. In the cold night, every sentence he said came out with its own puff of mist. His face seemed to be hidden in light clouds that his smiling eyes pierced through like stars in the night sky. Finally, he said it in English: three simple words, I love you. She smiled, and asked, Why did you say it over and over again? A noisy car drove past and gossiping pedestrians walked by them. However, at that moment, Cheng Xi seemed only to be able to hear his voice. Because I want to tell the whole world that I love you. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 58: What About Him? When Cheng Xi arrived at work the next day, she entered with an unintentional smile on her face. The head nurse was surprised upon seeing her expression. You seem very happy today. Did something good happen? Yes! As Cheng Xi took out a recording device, her voice was light and lively as she replied, I found this. The head nurse inspected it curiously. What is it? Something that will tell stories. For Chen Jiaman? The head nurse understood Cheng Xis thought process quite well by now, and she had realized its purpose almost as soon as she saw it. You really care about her. Cheng Xi chuckled before entering her office to put her white coat on. How has she been these last two days? She hasnt been making a fuss, but she hasnt been particularly cooperative either. Dr. Cheng, are you sure that you want to keep treating her like this? Cheng Xis footsteps, which had been steadily heading out, faltered. Whats wrong? The department head was inquiring about Chen Jiamans situation earlier today. The head nurse leaned in closer, and then softly whispered, It seemed like Dr. Ceng has been talking to him, so if you have the time, then you should probably go talk with the head. Cheng Xi thought for a moment and then nodded. Alright, thanks for letting me know. No problem. Next time, tell Mrs. Cheng to teach me how to make that beef jerky of hers. Thats easy! Just let me ask my mom, and we can head over to her place next week. The two chatted for a couple more minutes, and then Cheng Xi went over to the doctors office to prepare for her ward inspections. The doctors did the rounds every Tuesday, and this included all of the experts and even the head. When they reached Chen Jiamans ward, Ceng Xing smiled maliciously at Cheng Xi, and, as if on queue, Cheng Xi ended up being called out by the head. This patient has been here for more than a month by now, hasnt she? Ceng Xing gave out a clarification. A month and twenty days, chief. The department head gave him a severe look from the side. You know quite a lot about someone elses patient, dont you! Ceng Xing blushed scarlet red, and the other doctors had to restrain themselves from laughing, either by turning away or by pretending to look down at their medical reports. Cheng Xi, on the other hand, lowered her head and stood to the side, waiting for the chief to continue. As expected, the chief criticized her on the spot. As Cheng Xi listened, she sighed. If this had happened to her a few days earlier, she probably would have been so embarrassed that she wouldnt have come back to work for several days. But ever since she was punished with a public self-reflection, she had found herself much more thick-skinned. After the round of ward inspections, Cheng Xi was called into the chiefs office alone. Why has that patient of yours not shown any improvement even after having undergone treatment for so long? Some doctors have even reported that youre treating your patients like test subjects. Cheng Xi had originally held an indifferent attitude towards this talking-to, but when she heard these accusations, her expression quickly became serious. Thats not true at all. Im simply trying to determine the best and most well-suited treatment plan. Chen Jiaman isnt a typical patient. Her illness, the rare Cotards syndrome, has few precedents for treatment, and shes very much unstable herself. If we force her to take drugs, I fear that her illness will only be temporarily suppressed at best. So you want to reject the methods that weve developed in modern medicine? No, chief. I only think that we psychiatric doctors cant rely too much on external symptoms and medicine. If these two things are sufficient to treat all illnesses, then there wouldnt be so many people with mental illnesses in this world. When Cheng Xi spoke about her specialty, she was able to do so frankly and with solid confidence, so much so that even the chief wasnt able to persuade her. Failing to convince her to change anything, the head once again chased her out of his office. Not long afterwards, everyone in the department learned of what had happened. After Cheng Xi finished her clinical duties in the afternoon, a great many doctors sent congratulatory messages. I heard that you made the chief so angry that he fell ill again, right? Congratulations, you must be the first one to do so in our hospitals history. And then, Eat and drink as much as you can. It seems like you wont have any chance of being promoted in the future. Cheng Xi didnt know whether to laugh or to cry. When Lin Fan came over with lunch, he too noticed the other doctors strange and ambiguous attitude towards her, asking, Whats wrong? Have you done something particularly impressive? Cheng Xi smiled. Ive accomplished something never before seen in the hospitals history. Does that count? Lin Fan was shocked and surprised. Really? And then, after thinking about it, he felt like it was something inevitable. Youve always been smart, so its only normal that you wouldve done accomplished something like that. Cheng Xi laughed boisterously until she couldnt anymore, and then she opened the lunchbox that Lin Fan brought for her and prepared to eat. Just then, the head nurse popped her head into the office. Are you having lunch? When she noticed Lin Fan, her tone became somewhat apologetic. Dr. Cheng, Dr. Su from the gynecology department just called and is looking for you. She was asking if youre free. Cheng Xi blinked. Dr. Su? Yes. Right now? Where is she? The gynecology building. According to her, they have a pregnant woman who seems to be suffering from postpartum depression, and they want you to take a look. Ill head over right away then. Cheng Xi stood up and said to Lin Fan, Im sorry. Something just came up, so Ill have to eat this later. Lin Fan was very understanding as he considerately replied, Dont worry, and go do what you have to. But make sure that you eat once youre done. After the head nurse left, he took out a small piece of braised rib and offered it to her. Why dont you first eat a few pieces as a stopgap? Looking at it, Cheng Xi opened her mouth, bit the meat off the bone, and then somewhat unclearly mumbled, Thanks. After putting on her white coat, she was about to go when Lin Fan suddenly pulled her to a stop. When she turned around, Lin Fan leaned in close and pecked her lips with his own. Go, Ill see you later tonight. Seeing his happy face, Cheng Xi suddenly felt a very special feeling well up, as if something had hit the innermost part of her heart very, very softly. And then she said something that spoiled the intimate atmosphere. Since youre here, you should go and see Chen Jiaman. Ill have someone set it up for you; if shes willing, you can even try to approach her. Lin Fan looked at her somewhat speechlessly. Only then did Cheng Xi realize that she hadnt read the mood very well. Sorry, Im a bit lacking in social intelligence these days, so dont mind me. Lin Fan chuckled. Slightly, yes, so you should be punished. He leaned in again, pecking her lips once more. This time, they werent so lucky. The head nurse, after noticing that they still hadnt come out, popped her head inside again right as the two were kissing. Cheng Xis face immediately blushed a deep red that spread all the way to the tips of her ears. The head nurse and Cheng Xi went to the gynecology building together, and Lin Fan walked them to the elevator. As the elevator doors closed, the head nurse didnt say anything yet because other people were in it, and Cheng Xi similarly tried her best to behave seriously. But once they were alone, the head nurse lightly rapped Cheng Xi with her wrist. You got a new boyfriend? After a moment of speechlessness, she gravely said, No. The nurse clicked her tongue for a long while. I might be old, but my eyes are still working properly. The two of them are totally different men, alright? That one from back then was more handsome. Then the nurse turned her head around and looked Cheng Xi in the eye before saying, in a tone that displayed her worry for Cheng Xi, Settle down. If you really like one of them, then you should settle down quickly so that you dont end up being blinded by beauty. Otherwise she would be as miserable as if she kept going as she was now. The head nurse didnt say these words, but Cheng Xi understood her warning clearly. What could she do? Cheng Xis only option was to say, Alright, I understand. Lunch break had just ended when Lin Fan returned to his office. At the door of the elevator, he saw Meng Qingyang in a furious mood. Her steps were wide and quick, so much that the two of them almost collided. Lin Fan quickly supported her and stopped her from falling. Are you alright? She glanced at him, said nothing, and then turned around to enter the elevator. As she left, a colleague rushed out of their department, clearly chasing after her. Upon seeing Lin Fan, he looked as if he had just seen his savior, and asked, Did Manager Meng just leave? Yes. Are you free this afternoon? Whats the matter? Would you mind helping me accompany Manager Meng in sending this document to general headquarters? I offended her just now, and Im really scared that she might kill me if she gets annoyed on the way there. Really, shes been so frightening lately. Please, Im begging you. He clasped his hands tightly, truly hoping that Lin Fan would help him out. When Lin Fan recalled that he didnt have anything else urgent to do in the afternoon, and that he also had to stop by headquarters soon, he agreed. His colleague couldnt stop thanking him, but Lin Fan only smiled in response before getting on the other elevator and chasing her down the building. When he reached the lobby, Meng Qingyang had just exited the main door. Lin Fan ran up to her and called out, Manager Meng. Meng Qingyang turned around, looking him in the eye. Why are you here? I also have something to do at headquarters, so it was more convenient for me to accompany you. Meng Qingyang didnt say anything more. It was evident that she was still somewhat unhappy. Lin Fan was also a quiet person, so they didnt exchange any words the whole way to headquarters. Once there, they turned in the document together, and then the CEO even chatted with him and asked if he was doing well in the branch company. Lin Fan responded perfunctorily and left. Meng Qingyang didnt leave, instead lounging around in the CEOs office lazily. When the CEO saw her behaving that way, he felt somewhat sorry. Who made you mad? I can tell as soon as you entered with your mouth pursed like that. No one. Im just vexed and exhausted. Why? Meng Qingyang didnt have a reason. And so he said, You must feel too restrained. If youre tired of work, then you should go out and play around, or if not that, then go find a boyfriend. Glancing outside, he then said, Someone like the guy who came in with you. What do you think of him? Meng Qingyang turned toward the CEO. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 59: If You Like Him, Then Snatch Him Away Youre overthinking it. He already has a girlfriend. Even though Meng Qingyangs tone was calm, the CEO could tell that she was at least a little interested. He chuckled in response as he personally poured her a glass of water. Just a girlfriend, not a wife. Honestly, even if he did have a wife, Meng Qingyang would still be able to easily snatch him away. Just look at how many similar cases there were in the news recently! As long as you want to, then its no big deal. Whats more, I specifically hired this lad as I originally wanted him to oversee a part of the company. However, he thought that it would be better for him to start from the bottom because he just returned from overseas and is still unfamiliar with the inner workings over here. Thus, I put him over where you are. Uncle seems to like him quite a bit? Of course. I met him while working abroad. I can tell that hes a very steadfast man. In our house, neither your brother nor sister are interested in my business, and youre the only one whos willing to help me at all. So, if you can make him our son-in-law and by doing so add a reliable helper to the business, then, as your uncle, Im all for it. Meng Qingyang was resentful after hearing the explanation. So youre just looking for someone to help you manage your business! Ah, thats not what I said. Thats only if you like him. Meng Qingyang ignored him, angrily standing up to leave. She left in a huff. For lack of a better option, her uncle could only call Lin Fan back in. I dont know whats been going on with Qingyang lately, but shes been very irritable. As young people, you two should have some things in common. If youre free, please help me out and talk to her. Lin Fan smiled. Alright. Honestly, he wasnt sure what they would even talk about, but after he remembered what Cheng Xi had said, he took the initiative to start a conversation with Meng Qingyang on the way back. He started off by asking, Have you not been resting well recently? Meng Qingyangs reply was cold. What of it? Lin Fan smiled as he gestured to his eyelids. You have big eyebags over here. My girlfriend is a psychiatrist, and shes very good at treating insomnia and other similar illnesses. Do you want to talk with her? Meng Qingyang didnt reply. After a while, she asked, Do you like her very much? Hmm? At this point, Lin Fan had started driving and since her voice was so quiet, he didnt clearly hear what she said. Naturally, his response was to turn his head around and look at her. Even though Lin Fans facial features werent as well defined as Lu Chenzhous, he had his own delicate charm. His demeanor was gentle and kind, like a medieval scholar from a book. Meng Qingyang felt her dormant heart stir. She clutched her chest and asked, Do you love her very much? Lin Fan nodded as he affirmed, Yes, I do. Meng Qingyang unconsciously smiled before turning her gaze towards the hustle and bustle of the outside world. She let her mind wander among the people and cars outside, no longer continuing the conversation. As Lin Fan and Meng Qingyang were driving back, Cheng Xi had just pacified a patient and was just about to leave when Dr. Su called her again. Dr. Su was the doctor who Cheng Xi had met when she had accidentally walked into the gynecology department while hiding from reporters. They hadnt seen each other for a month, and Dr, Su looked even thinner than before, almost as if she would be blown away by any stray wind. Cheng Xi looked at her carefully, and then seriously said, Dr. Su, I think that you need to make sure to get some more rest. Dr. Su laughed. As a psychiatrist, you really do have sharp eyes. She rubbed her temples before saying, Do you have some free time after work? Id like to spend some time talking with you. As she looked at Cheng Xi, she added. I can pay. Id be honored. If you need to, feel free to find me at any time. Cheng Xi gave Dr. Su her address. I can treat you to dinner this time. Dr. Su laughed as she accepted, Alright. As Cheng Xi left the gynecology building, she remembered that she had actually already scheduled to have dinner with Lin Fan, and so she sent him a message. Something came up this evening. Can we reschedule dinner for another time? Lin Fan sent her a crying emoji, and then a simple reply: Okay. Cheng Xi laughed and went to buy some groceries after getting off work. But she still didnt have enough time to finish cooking before her doorbell rang. Cheng Xi opened her door and let Dr. Su in. She was wearing casual clothes, and after taking her white coat off and replacing it with a pale blue coat, she no longer seemed as thin or frail. I still havent introduced myself properly. Im Su Feng, she said. Come in, Su Feng! And then Cheng Xi handed her a pair of slippers. There was music floating through the house, a soft and relaxing blues tune with a thick and deep bass male voice singing soulful melodies. The living room was lit solely by a small lamp, from which a pale yellow light set the warm tone. The sofa was very clean and tidy, and a cup of hot tea and a vase of fresh flowers were placed on the coffee table. There werent that many flowers in the caseonly two or three stalks, but they were arranged beautifully in a white vase patterned with blue flowers. The gentle aesthetic added a delicate and independent beauty to the center of the living room. All this gave off such a comfortable atmosphere, that anyone who saw it would feel a nearly irresistible urge to curl up on the sofa and fall into a comfortable and restful sleep. Su Feng smiled happily before turning to look at Cheng Xi. Thank you for all your effort. Its no problem. Please, sit first. Im almost done with the meal, so let me prepare a bit longer. Su Feng nodded, and Cheng Xi returned to the kitchen. By the time she was done, Su Feng was already asleep, half-laying down on the sofa. Cheng Xi smiled, lowered the volume of the music, and brought out a blanket to cover her body. She ate alone in the kitchen, a modest meal of a bowl of rice and a small dish of soup. After she finished dinner, she read a book on her carpet. Su Feng slept by her side, not for too long though. After about an hour or so passed, she awoke once more. Are you hungry? asked Cheng Xi. When she heard the rustling sounds of movement next to her, she knew that Su Feng had woken up. Perhaps Cheng Xis tone was too familiar and too natural, but Su Feng had a somewhat perplexed look on her face when she looked at Cheng Xi. After a while, when her mind had cleared up, she said, I cant believe I actually fell asleep. And what a sound sleep it was! She had fallen into such a deep sleep that all her stress seemed to have vanished, and she was able to ignore all the issues normally plaguing her. That one hour nap had felt like a long, fulfilling sleep. Su Feng looked deeply at Cheng Xi as she said, Youre really quite different from the other psychiatrists I know. No wonder so many people in the hospital say that youre strange. Of course, I now know that its praise for you. Cheng Xi laughed. The foods still warm. Do you want some? I think you should eat. Alright. Cheng Xi served her some food. She could only make simple dishes, so dinner was quite modest, just a soup, some meat, and a dish of sauted green vegetables. She was somewhat embarrassed. These are my best dishes, so please help yourself. Su Feng smiled. At least you have a few dishes that youre comfortable making, while I have none. She picked up her bowl and chopsticks, and started eating slowly. Cheng Xi drank a bit of soup while she accompanied her. Su Feng didnt eat much. When she was done, she looked at Cheng Xi. Arent you going to ask me something? Yes. I was waiting for you to finish eating first. Su Feng looked at her, smiling after a moments pause. Youre really overturning my understanding of psychiatrists. I thought that, in order to cure an illness, you would first start with a heart-to-heart talk, follow that up with an inspection, and end by prescribing some medicine. Cheng Xi asked, Do you need any of that? No. I just need to sleep and eat more. After saying that, she stared at the empty bowl in front of her for quite a while. Then she stood up. Im going to go. Thank you. Before I leave, Id like to retract what I said that time. You should be a doctor, and youre honestly a very good doctor. Cheng Xi smiled. Thank you. Thats the best praise Ive ever heard. And to think that I even got scolded by our chief today. Your chief doesnt know whats what. Yes, I think so too. The two shared another laugh as Cheng Xi accompanied Su Feng to the door. From start to finish, Cheng Xi had never asked a single question, but she believed that, no matter what, Su Feng already knew what she needed to do. Sometimes, the main reason people felt frustrated was because they had forced themselves into a dead end. When someone gave that person a cup of tea, sat her down, and let her have the rest she needed, she would realize that her path forward was blocked off, and that she should turn around. After all, Su Feng was a smart person. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 60: A Young Hussy Only later did Cheng Xi hear about what sort of problem Su Feng was dealing with. It was Saturday, and Cheng Xi, as planned, had met up with the head nurse and some of her colleagues to all go over to her mothers house together. Because her parents house was in the country, the head nurse and Cheng Xis other coworkers had searched around beforehand and found that there was a reservoir nearby. Thus, they had animatedly decided to go fishing and brought their gear with them. The weather that day wasnt bad; after a long streak of cold days, they had been rewarded with a rare, sunny one. As her other colleagues went to climb the small hill by the reservoir, the head nurse walked up to Cheng Xi and began to gossip. Dr. Su got a divorce. Hmm? Cheng Xi didnt react in time. Dr. Su from the gynecology department. You havent forgotten her, have you? Oh, I remember. As Cheng Xi said this, she assembled her fishing rod and then asked, What happened to her? She got divorced, the head nurse repeated with a bemoaning tone as she looked at the lure in the water with her hands in her pockets. Apparently, she found out that her husband was having an affair. Originally, she wanted to forgive him, and the man was also willing to work on their relationship again. However, two months after that, Dr. Su ultimately decided to get a divorce. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say, so she nodded and merely said, I understand. The head nurse was very dissatisfied with her reaction. Thats it? Yes. What else can I say? Youre really boring. The head nurse pouted. Wary of spoiling the trip, Cheng Xi followed along with the head nurses wishes and asked, Is she alright? Perhaps. Its just that shes gotten really thin. Im telling you. When you saw her that day, thats not at all what she used to look like. I started working at the hospital at around the same time that she did, and she used to be so pretty: tall and well developed. However, the present her is, gosh, barely recognizable. Apparently, her husband started his affair because she was too busy at work, and became entangled with a young girl from his office Aish! After the head nurse finished summarizing the gossip, she let out a loud sigh. Thats why, nowadays, even being a doctor is a high-risk profession as you have to worry about both your patients and their family prodding you whenever they think that youre not doing a good job, and also about whats going on with your own family. Cheng Xi smiled. When the head nurse noticed this, she glanced at her. You should pay more attention! Im telling you, the three major problems of modern doctors are dying, getting injured, and having an unfaithful partner! While youre young, you have to learn to train your man to be faithful. Dont think that hes treating you well just because he brings you a healthy lunch every day. While your emotions are strong, hell be willing to submit to you at every turn, but you have to keep in mind what might happen later! Arent you a psychiatrist? You have to keep him continually entranced. He needs to believe that he wont be able to live if he leaves you, that youre the only fairy in this world, and that everyone else is a worthless hussy. Cheng Xi couldnt help laughing loudly at the head nurses last remark. But the head nurse was still talking. Dont laugh. Im really being serious here. You dont know how devious those little hussies aremany doctors at our hospital are actually suffering from this. At this time, a young, warm, and male voice spoke up from beside them. Um, this miss? Actually, even if Cheng Xi doesnt hypnotize me, I would still think that shes the only fairy in this desolate world. Upon hearing this, the head nurses expression looked as though she had swallowed a whole ducks egg. It was only quite a while later that she recovered and started laughing dryly. Clearly, the man who had recently been bringing Cheng Xi lunches was standing right behind them. She secretly pinched Cheng Xi and greeted him. Hello, its nice to meet you. Nice to meet you too. Lin Fan was also a bit embarrassed, as he wasnt here alone. Standing beside him was one of the young hussies the head nurse had mentioned. Cheng Xi felt the urge to laugh well up within herself again. Instead of giving in, she stood up and nodded politely to the girl. Hello. Meng Qingyang was expressionless. After everyone had greeted each other, the head nurse snuck off to find her colleagues, extremely embarrassed. Lin Fan went to get something from the car, and Cheng Xi took out a fishpole to teach Meng Qingyang how to fish. She was actually the one who invited Meng Qingyang. Just a day ago, Cheng Xi had suddenly received a message from Meng Qingyang on WeChat. Are you going somewhere this weekend? Although Cheng Xi was surprised, she still answered, replying back, Yes. And then Meng Qingyang asked very straightforwardly, Can I come too? What else could Cheng Xi say? Nothing but Alright. Anyways, the head nurse and her colleagues would be there too, so Meng Qingyangs presence or absence wouldnt be a problem. Additionally, Lin Fan had mentioned that Meng Qingyang seemed to be under mental duress, which was another reason why Cheng Xi had asked him to bring her along. Because Meng Qingyang lived quite a distance away, Lin Fan had been a bit late since he had to pick her up. Cheng Xi didnt think that, just as they arrived, they would hear the head nurse lecture her about taming potential husbands. Meng Qingyang didnt care too much about what the head nurse had said, and Cheng Xi didnt bother spending time explaining it eitherbecause there was no need. Instead, Cheng Xi focused on carrying out a very simple test with Meng Qingyang: asking her to put the fish bait on the hook. Actually, this should have been a very simple task, as one merely had to roll the fish food into small balls and then string the hook through it until the sharp end pierced through slightly. This way, the food wouldnt float unnaturally in the water, and it would also be easier for the fishs mouth to catch on the hook. Because she knew that Meng Qingyang would be coming, Cheng Xi had specially chosen fish food that wasnt very sticky and thus would require some patience to knead and rub into the right shape. Meng Qingyang tried it twice and failed. On the third time, as Cheng Xi was about to explain it again, she threw the fishpole down out of frustration. I quit! And then she got up and left. Coincidentally, Lin Fan returned just then, as he had gathered the supplies they needed. When he saw Meng Qingyang rush off angrily, he asked Cheng Xi, Did she get angry again? Cheng Xi smiled and affixed the properly baited pole by the water. After she was finished, she said, Look after my pole, and Ill go bring her back. Cheng Xi, Lin Fan said as he pulled her aside. Just give her a simple diagnosis. If she really needs treatment, then Ill talk with Director Meng on Monday and have him send her to the hospital to receive regular treatment. But its the weekend right now. I brought her here because you wanted me to, but I dont want you to spend too much time on her. Furthermore He looked at her, and softly whispered into her ear, Youre the only one in my eyes. After saying those sweet words, he double-checked that no one was paying attention to them before quickly pecking her on her face and letting her go. Cheng Xi went over to find Meng Qingyang. She hadnt gone farjust next to a willow tree near the reservoir. She was squatting down and digging near the ground with a random wooden stick she had picked up. Do you find this boring? Cheng Xi asked as she stooped down next to her. Yes. I also find it quite boring, fishing and all that. its the most boring thing in the world. Id rather stay at home and read my books than come and fish. Then why are you here? Because there are other things that I like here. Cheng Xi smiled, as she breathed in deeply and looked around, appreciating the brilliant sunlight and verdant scenery. Things like interacting with my friends, this lovely sunlight, and the fresh country air. Theyre all very nice. Meng Qingyang remained unmoved. I dont find these things interesting at all. Before this, I also had the thought that I should come out and walk around, and my uncle also persuaded me to not just stay at home. However, after coming out here, I realized that everything is boring here. She looked at her intently. Do you understand how I feel? I do. Meng Qingyang laughed, a sharp, sneering laugh. Clearly, she didnt believe her. Cheng Xi ignored her scorn and went on to say, When my grandmother died, I also felt the same way you do now, thinking that nothing I did was meaningful. If I picked up a book, the only thought Id have is that Id forget the knowledge after reading itwhats the point? If I played a game that I liked, I would get tired of it minutes after starting. It was annoying to talk to everyone because they were never on the same page as me Cheng Xi went on for a while, and Meng Qingyang finally quieted down. When Cheng Xi finished, Meng Qingyang asked her, Then, how did you escape? Cheng Xi smiled. I was lucky. When I was at my lowest, my teacher forced me to enter a math competition. In that competition, I met a boy. He was very handsome, and his tone very gentle. During the exam, my nose started bleeding, and he gave me a napkin. The proctor accused us of cheating, so I crumpled up my test and said that I wasnt going to take it anymore, and he followed suit. We escaped the testing area together and played games outside for a whole afternoon. Afterwards, I told myself, I should really live well. If I dont, then such a handsome boy would belong to someone else. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 61: Invitation Cheng Xi, her colleagues, Lin Fan, and Meng Qingyang all stayed at the reservoir until the late afternoon. Afterwards, they went over to Cheng Xis parents home. Lin Fan was within a crowd of Cheng Xis colleagues, so Cheng Xis mother actually didnt recognize him at first. Only after Cheng Xi introduced him did her mother say, amazed, Ah, are you really Lin Fan? Youve changed so much! She looked him up and down. Youre even more handsome than you were before! The head nurse made beef jerky with Cheng Xis mother, and even helped prepare a sumptuous dinner for everyone. Everyone kept eating and eating, only going home late into the night. Cheng Xi didnt leave. It was rare for her to be able to return home, so she had to stay with her parents for at least another day. When she sent them off, Lin Fan was one of the last to leave. He was aggrieved that the first weekend of his official relationship with Cheng Xi had been filled with so many third wheels. Cheng Xi consoled him, Its alright, there are so many days ahead of us. Glancing at Meng Qingyang sitting quietly in the car, she then said softly, Its probably depression. Itd be somewhat hard to treat all on my own, so its best if she goes to the hospital to get official mental help. Alright. He looked at her deeply as he continued, Ill come back to see you tomorrow. His meaning was clear: only he would be back here tomorrow. Cheng Xi smiled, pushed him into the car, and waved goodbye to Meng Qingyang. Meng Qingyang also waved back at her. Cheng Xi turned around to go inside, only to see her parents sitting upright on the sofa. As she entered, her mother waved at her amiably. Come, come. Sit here. Cheng Xi was wary of their ostensibly congenial attitude. What are the two of you up to? Her mother, now impatient, hit the sofa fiercely. Sit down! Why do you keep asking questions? Cowed, Cheng Xi obediently sat down next to her. Her father felt sorry for her, and tried to mollify her mother by saying, Be more gentle. She only stared back at him in response. Cheng Xis father didnt say anything else, feeling somewhat sorry for his daughter. Cheng Xi didnt mind much as she prepared herself for a lecture. She was sure that the contents would include the classics: even if youre busy, remember to come home, eat regularly, youre even thinner now, dont go on a diet arbitrarily, and other similar refrains. She listened intently, satisfying her mothers desire of thoroughly instructing her daughter. She and her mother used to be somewhat estranged, and her mothers mode of getting close to her seemed to involve lecturing her. At least it didnt last too long. Once her mother had said everything that she wanted to say, she coughed lightly and changed her tone as she asked, That Lin Fan, when did he get back? About two months ago. Oh, have the two of you been in touch? Yes, but only quite recently. Did he look for you as soon as he came home? Cheng Xis mother was trying to be subtle, but she soon dropped the pretense and shot out a round of questions. Is he married? No? Does he have a girlfriend? Where is he staying? Wheres he working? Hows his salary and his prospects at the company? Is his mom doing alright? Have you met her? Every mother was a detective. During the day, Cheng Xi hadnt interacted much with Lin Fan, but her mother had still somehow caught onto the fact that something seemed to be going on between them. Now, she was indirectly probing the situation by asking questions nonstop. Honestly, Cheng Xi was very impressed by her antics. She hadnt intended on telling her family the truth so early because of Lin Fans mothers attitude. She wasnt particularly pessimistic about the future, but neither was she optimistic. The next day, Lin Fan didnt end up seeing her. He called her early and said that something urgent had come up, and that he had to immediately depart for a business trip. And so, Cheng Xi stayed at her parents home and accompanied her parents for the day. In the morning, after she woke up at five in the morning, she helped them out with the business. In the bitter winter wind, Cheng Xi cozied up in the small kitchen with her family as they steamed buns, made beancurd, simmered porridge, and wrapped dumplings and potstickers. Cheng Xi wasnt used to so much kitchenwork, and she even cut herself by accident. Her father felt very apologetic and even said, Ah, stop working. Go to the side and rest. You can just talk with us. Cheng Xi didnt listen to him. Instead, she took out a bandage, wrapped it around her wound, and continued to work. Because she had some extra time, she even carved some carrots into flowers, steamed them inside a pot, and then used them to garnish some dishes when they were ready. Later in the morning, when customers started coming in, they saw the decorations and said, Ah, is your little Dr. Cheng back now? Cheng Xis parents were particularly proud as they replied, Yes, shes here. And then when the sun reached its zenith, their neighbors started waking up as well. An old lady who had trouble walking even came over to find Cheng Xi. Dr. Cheng, can you help me out? I feel uncomfortable in this region. And then, Dr. Cheng, I cant sleep well. Can you take a look and tell me why? For the rest of the morning, Cheng Xi served dishes for her parents, helped her neighbors with their minor illnesses, and exchanged pleasantries with the other customers. At the same time, as Lin Fan and Meng Qingyang were getting ready to board a plane to a distant part of the country, Lu Chenzhou exited the airport. Baldy and Xu Po personally went to fetch him. When they met up, Xu Po exclaimed, Youre finally back! My old man told me that Id better bring you to this event, or else. The event they were talking about was no more than a boring business event. Lu Chenzhou wasnt interested in it at all, and hadnt planned on attending. However, he didn''t expect that they still hadnt given up on the matter. His expression turned cold. Although he got in the car, he didnt say a single word. The atmosphere in the car froze up, and Xu Po kept glancing at Baldy. Seeing how pitiful he was, Baldy relented. He turned to Lu Chenzhou with a smile and said, Po also invited Dr. Cheng. Are you sure you dont want to go, Zhou? Lu Chenzhou raised his head and directly looked at him. Although he still didnt say a word, Baldy and Xu Po both felt the tension in the air dissipate, allowing them to breathe a lot more easily. The two of them looked at each other without saying anything more. Meanwhile, the car drove straight to the Donglai Hotel. Lu Chenzhou didnt go home frequently; ever since the hotel opened for business, he had permanently reserved a suite in it for himself. And from then on, hed called Donglai his home. After they arrived, the first thing Lu Chenzhou did was wash his face and change his clothes, as was habitual. While he washed up, Baldy and Xu Po waited for him in another room. As they walked in, Xu Po surreptitiously asked, When did you invite Dr. Cheng? I didnt know about that. I didnt! Baldy groaned and yelled at him. Call her now! Boss Lu clearly doesnt want to go, and the only reason hes willing to go now is because of Dr. Cheng. If he doesnt see her there, then youre screwed. Xu Po was speechless. He picked up his phone and was about to call Cheng Xi when he realized something. I dont have her phone number. He looked hopefully at Baldy and tentatively asked, Do you have it? Damn, I dont have it either! The two of them were flustered, and used every trick they could think of to get her number. Eventually, they managed to do so from a friends friends friends brothers sister-in-law. Once they got her number, Xu Po asked, What should we say? As a doctor, she probably wouldnt want to attend a business event like that, would she? And they werent even Lu Chenzhou, so they didnt have any reason to randomly invite her. Of course we cant say it directly. Baldy gave Xu Po a supercilious look. We have to invite her in a roundabout fashion so that shell come. Xu Po unashamedly asked, How? For example, if we said that you were crazy. But after thinking about it for a moment, he realized that Baldy wasnt cursing him, and he didnt think it too difficult to pretend to be crazy. So, he planned out a little skit with Baldy and let Baldy make the call. Baldy was a decent actor, starting to scream and yell as if hed been possessed as soon as the call connected. Dr. Cheng, Im Baldy, Zhous friend. I need help! Please come quickly! Come quickly! It was very loud on Cheng Xis end. Through the noise, they seemed to hear her ask, Whats the matter? Someone suddenly went crazy over here, and hes going around hitting and smashing things. Its truly frightening! As Baldy said this, he made a hand signal and Xu Po began making a ruckus in the room. However, the carpet was so thick that smashing furniture against the floor seemed to have no effect. Xu Po had no choice but to strangle himself as he shouted, Aaaaaaah! Very satisfied with Xu Pos performance, Baldy put the phone closer to Xu Pos mouth in an attempt to make the choking sound clearer. They heard nothing from Cheng Xi for a while, as if she were trying to carefully listen and figure out just what was going on. Just as Baldy and Xu Po were winking at each other in celebration of their impending success, they heard Cheng Xis gentle and pleasant voice once again. What kind of livestock are you slaughtering over there, a chicken or a duck? How festive. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 62: I Want To Baldy clutched his phone, and hurriedly asked Xu Po, I didnt hear wrong, did I? Was Dr. Cheng mocking us? At this time, even Xu Po couldnt help but want to laugh. You didnt hear wrong. She was indeed mocking us. Damn. Ive never been mocked like this my entire life. As Baldy said this, he picked up the phone again, and fiercely said, Just now, you mocked me and damaged my reputation. I demand that you pay me for Only then did he realize that she had already hung up. Baldy cautiously asked, ...Is this really something that Dr. Cheng would do? Unsure, Xu Po replied, Probably. After all, she is quite smart. Baldy called her again, and thankfully for him, Cheng Xi picked up again. However, this time, she only said a single sentence. Im a bit busy today, so if you have a friend who needs a diagnosis, please make an appointment. If its something else, then sorry, but I dont have time. And then she hung up again before Baldy could even get a single word in. Baldy put his hands on his hips and spun around twice as he exasperatedly loosened his collar. Xu Po thought that he was about to get furious, but all Baldy did afterwards was drink a full glass of water. After he finished it in a single gulp, he said in an unnervingly calm tone, Lets forget about it and think of another strategy. What if we let Boss Lu mess with us after he finds out? He then turned to look at Xu Po. Who said that Dr. Cheng was going to go just now? Was it you? Xu Po was silent for a moment before he staunchly replied, It was you. Baldy cursed, particularly indignant. Why the hell did I ever stand up for you for something like this? But it was already too late, as hed already done it. Baldy was panic-stricken the entire way to the event, whereas Lu Chenzhou seemed to be rather calm. Even after the event was over, besides the discussion and the final wine reception that he hadnt attended, Lu Chenzhou was perfectly cooperative throughout. Xu Pos father even asked his son, That Lu fellow seems particularly easygoing today. Did something happen? Xu Po laughed dryly, and when he met up with Baldy again back at the hotel, the two of them curled up in a corner, both of them shivering in fear. I feel like something bigs about to happen. Their premonition was very accurate; before they could finish commiserating, an attendant clad in white came over and said, Mr. Xu, Mr. Gao, Director Lu would like to invite you both over for a moment. This time, they didnt go back to the venue. The attendant instead took them to the tennis court right behind the hotel. Lu Chenzhou was standing in the innermost court, and was just wearing a white-sleeved shirt and black pants after having taken off his jacket. His right hand held a tennis racket, and his left hand was slowly and carefully rolling up his sleeves. At his foot was a large basket, about half-full with tennis balls. When he saw the two arrive, he didnt even raise his eyelids, only saying, Lets get started. The attendant threw Baldy and Xu Po a racket each, and before the two could even react, Lu Chenzhou had already raised his racket and sent a tennis ball smashing from the other end of the court towards them as fast as the wind. F*ck! Baldys face turned pale with fright, but hed at least gotten some practice with this over the years. He waved his racket and barely blocked the ball. But by the time hed done so, the next one had already arrived. The balls were like guided missiles, all heading towards Baldy. Xu Po tactfully stood to the side and passively watched their matchthough it would be more accurate to call it a one-sided slaughter by Lu Chenzhou, Baldy barely able to hold his own. If he missed a return, then the balls would hit his body, all of them slamming at high speed into a particularly sensitive region. Tennis balls werent that heavy, and they usually wouldnt hurt all too much, but when they all struck the same area at high speed, the resulting sensation was hard to describe. At any rate, Xu Po didnt want to ever experience it. At the start, Baldy was still able to return some of the balls. However, he gradually lost his strength as the beating continued. In the end, he felt like his hand was about to break just from trying to block Lu Chenzhous serves. In the end, he flopped down lifelessly onto the court with his four limbs akimbo. Im not playing anymore! Just kill me now. As he finished speaking, a ball brushed by the corner of his eye. He was so scared that he screamed sharply as he rolled over to one side. Lu Chenzhou ignored him, picked up his racket, and pointed at Xu Po, coldly declaring, Its your turn. Xu Po desperately asked, Can I surrender? The answer was no, and he ended up in an even worse condition than Baldy. At least Baldy exercised regularly; Xu Po, on the other hand, never did anything of the sort! Lu Chenzhou launched ball after ball at him. Xu Po was never good with sports to begin with, and as he frantically tried to parry these attacks, besides getting hit passively, he could only be hit passively. But he also couldnt give up right away because Lu Chenzhou would not stop until he was fully satisfied. Unfortunately, Xu Pos skills were just too lousy; Baldy had lasted for over half an hour, but he couldnt even last twenty minutes. His shoulders had been hit seventeen or eighteen times, and his face had also suffered a few blows; once, a ball hit his left cheek so hard that he thought his teeth were going to break. Finally unable to go any further, Xu Po swiftly collapsed onto the floor. Of course, he received the same splendid treatment of having one last ball brush past his eye. He didnt avoid it, and this time, the ball brushed by the corner of his eye, scraping his face. He reached out and even thought that he saw a few flecks of blood. Lu Chenzhou slowly walked over. After their strenuous exercise, Baldy and Xu Pos clothes were a mess, and sweat covered their bodies. However, Lu Chenzhou didnt seem to be sweating at all; his body was clean and his clothes still tidy. He didnt stop walking when he reached the two of them, dispassionately continuing onwards. Baldy knew that Lu Chenzhou was mad. Whenever Lu Chenzhou was mad, he became even more reticent; if you let him go at you until he was satisfied, it would be fine. However, otherwise he would simply ignore you. Boss Lu! Baldy called out as he chased after him. Lu Chenzhou put the racket back, picked up his jacket, and prepared to leave, as if he hadnt heard Baldys pleas at all. Zhou, Lu Chenzhou! Baldy didnt give up. He was still ignored. Baldy chased after him, enduring the pain resounding throughout his whole body. Boss Lu, listen to me. We really invited Dr. Cheng, but she didnt show up Before he could finish, Lu Chenzhou had grabbed him by the collar and pushed him against the wall. My tempers a bit better now, Lu Chenzhou coldly said as he stared right at Baldy, But dont provoke me. He turned to look at Xu Po and ordered, The car keys. Xu Po didnt want to give them to him and cautiously said, ...Ill give you a ride. Lu Chenzhous lips curled up derisively. As you want. He let go of Baldy, coldly walking out. Lu Chenzhou sat in the back, took out a recording device and put on some earphones, listening to something that Xu Po couldnt make out. He seemed calm, his eyes drooping, but Xu Po felt even more fearful than before. In truth, Lu Chenzhou also felt like he was about to lose control. His heart felt like a blazing furnace that was about to overheat and burn his body to a crisp. In the recording device, Cheng Xis voice was unusually soothing. The stories she was telling were silly and dumb, but he still listened to her recite them over and over again, just as he did during those long sleepless nights, playing them on repeat until he fell asleep. But today, it was abnormally hard to calm himself down. He knew what he wanted, as he had been suppressing this particular desire for a few days now. Today, after Baldy had brought it up, it became even more difficult to control. He didnt go back to the hotel. He gave Xu Po his address and returned to his home. He hadnt been back here in quite a whilehis own house, which hed bought after returning to the country and moving out. The reason he had bought this place was because it had its own swimming pool. Right then, in the winter, the pool water was bone-freezingly cold. But despite the frigid temperature, Lu Chenzhou entered almost without hesitating, even neglecting to remove any of his clothes. It was that same feeling, that craziness like he wanted to destroy the whole world, only seeking destruction, wanting everything to die! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 63: Not Intimate Enough Yet? Peng! Peng! Peng! Cheng Xi was abruptly woken up by someone knocking on her door, causing her to quickly spring up from her bed. She rubbed her hair to rouse herself and confusedly walked towards the door. Your phones about to die from ringing too much. Her mother handed her phone over, her own face also still hazy with sleep. Oh. Cheng Xi yawned, but quickly covered her mouth and frowned when she saw who was calling. Since Cheng Xi had woken up earlier than usual this morning and ended up working for the entire day, she was exhausted by the time the restaurant closed. She obligingly ate a few bites of dinner before going to sleep; in that interval, she had somehow left her phone in the living room. Her mother looked at her unhappily. Whos this Lu Chenzhou? Hes calling you so late and incessantlyyoud think his house is on fire or something. A patient, Cheng Xi dryly remarked with a laugh. Then she hugged her mother, and went back inside her room with her phone. Before she picked up the call, she quickly glanced at the time; it was 11:25 PM. For people like her mother who had to wake up early in the morning, it was essentially the middle of the night. Who knew what Lu Chenzhou was calling her about. Cheng Xi didnt want to answer the phone all that much, but after thinking about it some more, she finally picked up. Where are you? Even through the phone, Lu Chenzhous voice was conspicuously devoid of warmth. I want to see you. His attitude was as direct as ever: simple and rough. Cheng Xi, with her sensitive perception, immediately noticed that something was amiss with him. Lu Chenzhou was naturally aloof, but his normal coldness still carried with it at least a little refinement and courteousness. This wasnt at all like his current tone, which was unapologetically frigid. She recalled the earlier phone call from Baldy and asked, Whats wrong with you? Where are you? He kept pressing for an answer. Cheng Xi could only tell him the truth. Im with my mom. Its a bit far from the city. Doodoo! The call suddenly dropped. Cheng Xi clutched the phone in her hand, only remembering to call Baldy after a while. She didnt save his number, so she could only scroll through her caller history. It took her two tries before she found the right number, and Baldy exploded once he realized it was her. And to think youre a doctor! You didnt even come help me when I was almost dead. F*ck, I almost died after the beating Boss Lu gave me. My hands half-crippled! You better compensate me! After he finished ranting, Cheng Xi asked, Whats wrong with Lu Chenzhou? Hm? What do you mean whats wrong? He called me just now, but he sounded off, so Id like to know if something happened to him. If something happened to him Does wanting to see you but not being able to do so count? Cheng Xi frowned. Im not joking. Im not either. He really does just want to see you. Baldy was serious, but it also felt like a joke to him. Really, that guy I think he really is crazy about you. He wants to see you beyond a shadow of a doubt, but because you cuckolded him, he refuses to do so. Dr. Cheng, our Boss Lus such a great guy, but why would you be so blind as to fall for that pretty guy instead? Cheng Xi took a deep breath, barely restraining herself from cursing, and hung up silently. Ordinarily, it would take about one and a half hours to drive from the city to her mothers place. But about thirty minutes after Lu Chenzhou had hung up, Cheng Xi got another call from him. Shed guessed that he was going to drive to her, so not only did she give him her mothers address, but she also changed her clothes in advance and crept to the front door as soon as his call arrived. Suburban buildings werent as strictly guarded as those in the cities, and Lu Chenzhou had parked his car right underneath the building. As soon as Cheng Xi went outside, she saw the bright car headlights illuminating the nearby area. Lu Chenzhou was sitting at the head of the car, the headlights like beacons against the backdrop of the night sky. Under the harsh light, Cheng Xi could barely make out his outline. His familiar figure was tall and handsome, but with an edge of coldness tonight. Only when she walked a bit closer did she notice his unusual behavior. Despite the cold weather, Lu Chenzhou only had a thin shirt on. His gaze was firmly locked onto her, and he had a cigarette in his mouth. When he saw her walk over, he flicked his cigarette to the ground. His heel crushed it a second later, and the star-like glow vanished into the night. Are you alright? Although Cheng Xi was worried about his mental condition, she didnt dare approach him, and maintained a distance of a few paces from him. Lu Chenzhou didnt speak, only looking at her silently for quite a while. Then, he got up and slowly approached her, his figure leaving the lamplight. Cheng Xi couldnt help but feel like her head was about to explode. She was getting a dangerous vibe from him, and had to force herself to remain still and look back at him. Her voice was gentle as she asked, How are you? Why are you wearing so little? Its so cold outside, so why dont you get into the car first? As she said this, she stretched out her hand to pull him into the car, but when she touched him, she was shocked. His clothes were wet, and his whole body was as cold as a block of ice! You She stared at him in disbelief. didnt fall into a river, did you? Cheng Xi disregarded everything else and tried to push him into the car, but Lu Chenzhou twisted his arm and firmly clutched her wrist instead. His hand was cold and hard. Before Cheng Xi could even react, she had been pulled into his embrace, sticking tightly to his body. She felt like she had been wrapped up by a block of ice. Her nose was touching his chest, and she was being hugged so tightly that the pain made tears well up in her eyes. She thought that he was trying to hug her to warm himself up, but that wasnt the case. Lu Chenzhous next moves were completely out of Cheng Xis expectations. After he hugged her, he backed up a few steps, turned around, and pinned her against the car. Then, with his free hand, he pinched her jaw, forced her to raise her head, and without another word, kissed her. His lips were as cold as his personality, but very soft. Because he liked cleanliness, he was always clean-shaven and had no stubble. Despite his present condition, he still smelled good, his scent carrying a hint of smoky tobacco. Cheng Xi was very impressed with her ability to process so much information despite her circumstances. But she was very quickly left incapable of thought, because Lu Chenzhous next move was to kiss her enthusiastically. He showered her with kisses, from her tightly closed lips to the bridge of her nose, her eyes, and finally her forehead. Unlike his lips, his tongue was warm and soft, raising layers of goosebumps as he licked her skin. Cheng Xi tried to avoid his kisses, but he pinned her down tightly. As one hand pressed her down, the other even pulled open her jackets zipper, snaking into her clothes and down her collar. Only then did Cheng Xi start to panic. She struggled forcefully, and yelled desperately at him as she wriggled in fear. Lu Chenzhou, whats gotten into you? Wake up! But he ignored her. As she spoke, he kissed her lips again. This time, he started sucking on her tongue without any sort of technique. It was instinctive, like the desperate struggle of someone who had been poisoned. Cheng Xi knew that she couldnt let the situation continue any longer. Her head was spinning as she tried to think of a way to extricate herself from this. As her logic slowly came back to her, she tried to relax her body. Once she stopped struggling, Lu Chenzhous actions also became more gentle. He wasnt as forceful anymore, but he was still as rough as before As he was tearing her underclothes apart without any care for the consequences, Cheng Xi finally decided on her plan of attack. She leaned as far back as she could, and then punched him squarely in the nose. Lu Chenzhou, who had been acting crazily for a while now, slowly fell down at her feet. At this moment, someone in the house upon which the strong headlights were aimed poked his head out the window. When he saw the two of them hugging, he couldnt help but yell out, Were almost blind from this light. Havent the two of you gotten intimate enough yet? Cheng Xi couldnt even think of a response. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 64: Is He a Beast, Or Is He a Beast? The Chengs had lived in this apartment for many years; in other words, their neighbors had essentially seen Cheng Xi grow up. Cheng Xi knew the man who had opened the windows and yelled at them. He wasnt too much older than Cheng Xis father, but he was technically from her grandfathers generation. His favorite food from her parents store was their alkaline noodles. His voice was very loud, shattering the silence of the night. It woke almost everyone in the apartment complex. Soon after the yell, Cheng Xi could see vague movement in the windows on the floors above and below his, and also from the rooms to his left and right. Creaking sounds echoed in the night as Cheng Xi clutched at Lu Chenzhou. Alright, I probably wont be able to hide the fact that I found a dolt as a boyfriend and was kissing him in public. It was cold, and she couldnt just stay curled up there without moving. Even if she didnt freeze to death, something would happen to Lu Chenzhou. But since she was unable to push or lift him off of herself, she could only ask someone for help. In the end, she decided to ask the person nearest to her: the old man whod shouted at her. Im sorry, hes drunk. Could you help me carry him into the car? Hearing her voice, the old man belatedly realized who it was. Oh, so its Dr. Cheng! Sure, give me a moment. Cheng Xi started sweating. Someone from the apartment above them quickly shouted, Its Dr. Cheng? Dr. Cheng, your boyfriend came looking for you this late? Cheng Xi felt that, despite her recent thick-skinned behavior, she still wasnt accustomed to this level of scrutiny. She buried her head in Lu Chenzhous shoulder; at that moment, she really wanted to fiercely gouge a hole in it. Why did he have to harm her like that? She pretended not to hear any of the heckling, intending to run away as soon as Lu Chenzhou was dragged into the car. Then, whether or not she destroyed or abandoned his corpse would be up to her. But the old man who came up to help her was surprisingly enthusiastic. When he noticed that his clothes were wet, he exclaimed, Did he fall into a river? Its so cold out that he might catch a cold. What are you thinking, dragging him into a car while hes in that state? Go home! Go home and change his clothes for him. When he saw that Cheng Xi was unwilling to do so, he frowned. Dont get mad just because hes drunk. The fact that he came to find you despite how drunk he is implies that youre the only person in his heart. Its just that this situation is quite dangerous. If he gets caught by the police, hell have to go to prison, and it wouldnt be good if an accident happened either. He kept talking, his voice as loud as ever. Cheng Xi didnt want to explain anything at all, because things would only become more muddled the more she tried. Ultimately, she clenched her teeth and smiled. Im very thankful for your help. The old man was surprisingly strong for his age, and was able to carry half of Lu Chenzhous body weight on his own. He even had enough extra energy to move around and feel Lu Chenzhous body. Even though he looks skinny, hes quite heavy and pretty solid! Your boyfriends physique isnt bad. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say in response. She found the car keys still stuck in the car, and pocketed them as she turned the headlights off and closed the car door. With that taken care of, she silently helped carry Lu Chenzhou into her parents house. Her parents had originally been sleeping soundly, but they were promptly awakened by the noise of three people entering the house. The couple climbed out of bed, and upon seeing the man that their daughter had picked up in the middle of the night, made identical faces that clearly said, My goodness, am I blind? But the man helping them didnt notice, and he started off by saying, Old Cheng, Im helping you bring your daughters boyfriend home. Hes drunk and his clothes are wet. You should quickly help him get changed. He actually very much wanted to study Cheng Xis boyfriend some more, but was quickly yet politely sent away by Cheng Xis father. Once they closed the front door, Cheng Xi and her parents looked at each other, both sides unsure of what to say. After a while, her mother finally pointed a trembling finger at Lu Chenzhou, who was lying on the sofa. Whats this? Didnt you say that the two of you broke up? Cheng Xi coughed awkwardly. This is a misunderstanding Her mother exploded. Misunderstanding?! If it were a misunderstanding, then why would he keep looking for you? It was him last time too, wasnt it? Hes so drunk that he pounced on you as soon as he got in the door. Is he a beast, or is he a beast? At this point, she even started scolding her husband. Its all your fault! Last time when I wanted to go see her, you wouldnt allow me to, saying something about how shes grown up and knows what shes doing Is this what knowing what shes doing looks like? Sneaking someone into the house in the middle of the night Cheng Xi and her father both ended up getting berated by her mother. After she calmed down a bit, they went to tidy up the place and sort out the aftermath. Her father first softly told her mother, Now that its come to this, we might as well get him settled down. Hes as cold as ice. If he gets sick, hed really blame our daughter then. Upon hearing this, her mother fell deep into thought. She fiercely glared at Cheng Xi one more time, and then went into Cheng Yangs room to look for some clothes that she could let Lu Chenzhou change into. Cheng Xi just stood there obediently, her head bowed as she emanated remorse. But internally, she was thinking that it was good that Lu Chenzhou really wasnt her boyfriend as his image had already been ruined in her parents eyes. As for dolt becoming useless dolt, well While her father was helping Lu Chenzhou change, Cheng Xi hid in her room, but that only caused her mother to show up, grab her by the ear, and scold her once more. What happened? I dont know. Her mother glared at her. You dont know why he came looking for you in the middle of the night? Maybe hes ill. Cheng Xi was telling the truth, but her mother didnt believe her and even continued to scold her. Youd even get together with someone whos mentally unsound? Is the stress of being a doctor getting to you?! Cheng Xi couldnt refute her mother, because she felt that her mother did have a point. In some sense, from a doctors perspective, she was unduly attracted to Lu Chenzhou. She also felt somewhat guilty; her parents normally got up very early and barely had any time to rest during the day, which made their sleep all the more important. Tonight, however, their rest had been disrupted over and over again. She pulled on her mothers hand anxiously and pleaded, Mom, please go back to sleep with dad for now. Dont worry, Ill be sure to handle this properly. Her mother looked at her suspiciously. Its true. Cheng Xi smiled and decided to try to clear up Lu Chenzhous name a little. Hes not going to blame me. Dont worry. Oh, if you dont trust me, you can even ask Cheng Yang. He knows too. Cheng Xis mother raised her eyebrows. He knows too? Er Cheng Xi evaluated her position and decided that since they were siblings who had stayed in the same womb for ten months, it would be fine for him to take the fall every once in a while, right? So she nodded without any further deliberation. Yes, he knew it all. Cheng Xi didnt know what was going through her mothers mind, but she was so angry that her teeth couldnt stop grinding. Cheng Xi felt that, if Cheng Yang were in front of their mother right now, he would immediately receive a big beating. Her father knocked on the door. His clothes have been changed. Cheng Xi and her mother walked out. Out of habit, Cheng Xi inspected Lu Chenzhous condition. She first checked his skin temperature, then peeled his eyelids back to examine his pupils, and finally checked his heart rate through his wrist. Once she was finished, she nodded. Thank goodness Raising her head, she saw her parents looking at her strangely. Only then did Cheng Xi explain. With a soft cough, she said, Thank goodness hes not displaying any symptoms of a cold. Looking at her father, she continued, Dad, when he wakes up tomorrow, let him thank you. The only thing on her fathers mind was that his own daughter was too simple-minded and somewhat silly. He couldnt bear to look at her anymore, so he merely waved his hand before retreating to his room. Her mother pointed a trembling finger at her again. You, you, you, you All my lectures have been for naught! Make him scram once he wakes up tomorrow. At any rate, Ill never accept someone like him. After taking two steps back, she yelled at her again. Go sleep! Stop worrying about him! Unfortunately, the misunderstanding between her and her parents seemed to have grown even deeper. They wouldnt believe that Lu Chenzhou was ill; naturally, her actions after they called her out would be misinterpreted as her caring for him. Cheng Xi couldnt stop herself from rubbing her temples. Once her parents had both left the room, she stood to the side and looked at Lu Chenzhou for a long while. She thought about what his cold face had looked like the first time she had ever seen him. It was hard for her to believe that one day, he would end up where he was now: wearing clothes one size too small for him and sleeping half-curled up on a sofa in her parents house, looking pitiful and harmless. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 65: Would You Resist? Cheng Xi didnt know if something had happened to him since she had last seen him, but his condition really wasnt that good. He had large eyebags, and when Cheng Xi pulled back his eyelids, she could clearly see red striations on his eyeballs, which was a common symptom of long-term sleep deprivation. Patients suffering from emotional detachment shared several symptoms with depression, and insomnia wasnt unusual. However, the fact that he could sleep even in this situation was somewhat strange. Cheng Xi was certain that her punch hadnt knocked him out, and he didnt look like he was in a coma either. The fact that he hadnt woken up yet meant that he was really asleep. Anyways, regardless of why, if he could sleep, then she hoped that he would have a good nights sleep tonight. Cheng Xi turned off the overhead lights, only leaving a small wall lamp as a source of light. As she prepared to return to her room, her father brought out a large quilt. Get that blanket off of him and replace it with this one. Cheng Xi looked at the quilt in her fathers hands briefly before silently removing the blanket currently on Lu Chenzhous body. Then, she watched her father push the heavy quilt onto his body. Instantly, the tall and long-limbed Mr. Lu had been submerged in endless piles of cotton. Once her father was finished, he even caringly dug out Lu Chenzhous head as he said to Cheng Xi, The living rooms cold, and this blanket is warm. Since he was worried that the quilt would fall down, he even pushed all of the chairs in the room in front of the sofa so that he could drape the edges of the quilt on the chairs. Cheng Xi started sweating internally. The quilt that was currently covering Lu Chenzhou was, in Cheng Yangs words, a family treasure; Cheng Xis mother had bought cotton and specially commissioned someone to stitch it. It weighed fifteen pounds, and Cheng Xi had once had the dubious fortune of being covered by it. Ever since then, she had been unwilling to use it again. Nothing was wrong with it; it was simply too heavy. If Lu Chenzhou woke up in the middle of the night with the blanket draped over him, he would feel paralyzed. Under her fathers burning gaze, Cheng Xi returned to her own room with a thin blanket in her hands. She was usually able to fall asleep quickly easilyeven after this whole mess, she had started feeling sleepy once she lay in bed and read a few pages from a random book. When she woke up, it was already morning, and there was a decent amount of light peeking through the window. She had even momentarily forgotten that Lu Chenzhou was here. When she got out of bed to use the restroom, she saw him covered in a thick, thick quilt. His posture reminded her of a large silkworm in its cocoon, half-sitting dazedly on the sofa. The sight caused her to freeze in her tracks, somewhat stupefied. After quite a while, she finally reacted. Oh yeah, that happened last night. She walked over and asked, Are you alright? Lu Chenzhou looked at her without speaking. Cheng Xi noticed that Lu Chenzhous face was actually bright red. In fact, it looked like he had caught a cold. To properly diagnose him, she removed all of the chairs by the sofa, pushed aside the quilt, and put her hand to his forehead. His temperature was indeed quite high. She then compared it to her own forehead before firmly asking, Are you awake? Do you feel uncomfortable anywhere? Lu Chenzhou just looked at her for some time before finally slowly utterly two sentences: Where am I? and Did you lie on me the entire night last night? Cheng Xi was struck speechless. Although she knew that her parents wouldnt be home at this time of day, she still turned around to confirm that their door was closed, before turning back and saying, What nonsense are you spouting? The quilt was just probably too heavy for you. And then she answered his first question. This is my moms place. I dont know what happened to you last night, but you ran over here completely drenched. Then, you even fainted so I had no choice but to let you sleep here for the night. She asked again, Do you feel unwell anywhere? As she said this, she noticed that Lu Chenzhous eyes slowly sobered up until they finally returned to their usual coldness. There was a moment of silence before he replied, My throat hurts. Cheng Xi was somewhat surprised because she didnt expect that he would actually answer. Regardless, she quickly recovered and nodded in response. Then youve probably caught a cold. Wait here a moment. She went to go find a thermometer so that she could check his temperature. Lu Chenzhou actually took it from her obediently, putting it in his mouth without complaint. When Cheng Xi had finished washing up in the bathroom, he was still biting down on it. Cheng Xi smiled. Alright, give it to me now. Lu Chenzhou gave her the thermometer and Cheng Xi looked at it: 38 degrees Celsius. You have a fever. Do you want to go to the hospital? He looked at her. Arent you a doctor? She laughed at his simplistic response. I dont know how to treat a cold. His eyes drooped, and he didnt say anything. His body language obviously showed that he didnt want to go to the hospital. As a doctor, Cheng Xi naturally had a medicine kit at home, with pills for common colds and headaches. Without any other option, she said, Then Ill try to help. However, if you dont get better, then you cant blame me. When she came closer, she could clearly see his face and the eyelashes curling up from his eyes. At this moment. they were drooping, just like a quiet butterflys folded wings. What was the point of a man having such long eyelashes? Cheng Xi sighed before saying, Lift your head up. He lifted his head, still looking at her coolly with his chillingly frosty pupils. She was actually somewhat at a loss for words. A moment later, she coughed dryly and said, Open your mouth. He opened his mouth. Cheng Xi hesitated for a moment before she grasped his jaw, tilted his face back, and looked at his throat under the lamplight. Make an Aaah sound. He did, a rare moment of cooperation. Yes, it seems that your throats slightly swollen. When Cheng Xi finished examining his throat, she looked at his tongue, and then took his wrist and measured his pulse. He looked at her, his eyes constantly following her hands. You know how to do this too? As Cheng Xi carefully measured his pulse, she said, I took a few classes while in university because I was curious. She let go of him before giving her diagnosis. From your symptoms, it seems like its a common cold. I have some medicine at home that you can try first. But if the symptoms persist, then I recommend that you go to the hospital. She got up, preparing to get him some medicine. However, Lu Chenzhou suddenly stretched out his hand and clutched her wrist tightly. His hands were normally cold, but his palm was warm right now, which made her feel like if her skin had caught on fire. She didnt make a fuss or show any repulsion on her face, only turning back and looking at him with a neutral expression. What is it? Arent you going to ask why I came here looking for you? Cheng Xi actually didnt want to ask, and she barely wanted to remember what had happened last night at all. Her current calm was entirely predicated on her pretending to not be aware of the rumors that were definitely spreading by now and her mental stance of viewing him as a patient. From his expression, his answer definitely would not bring her any comfort. When Lu Chenzhou saw that she wasnt going to answer, he smiled and said, Its because I cant control myself. I really want to have sex with you. These few days, its been a constant urge, during the whole day. Why am I like this? He tugged at her wrist, his pupils dilated. She heard him ask, If I do something right now, would you resist? in a refined and courteous manner completely unbefitting those words. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 66: Cheng Xi, Do You Want to Die? Cheng Xi felt like her hair was standing on end. She looked at Lu Chenzhou, tightened her hand into a fist, and prepared to punch him again as she calmly asked, Have you ever had this sort of feeling in the past? What? Sexual desire. Lu Chenzhou shook his head. No. Never? Or yes, but never as uncontrollable as this? Or has it been so long since youve had any sexual activity that these urges have become uncontrollable? Youve probably had some experience with sexual activities in the past, right? She immediately reverted to a doctors perspective and handled his response in a practiced and proficient manner. Originally, her plan had been to delay until she could formulate a more comprehensive strategy to deal with him. However, Lu Chenzhous response to her prepared questions was entirely unexpected. He raised his eyebrows and asked, What does this have to do with the fact that I want to have sex with you? As he said this, he even tugged at her so forcefully that Cheng Xi had to grab onto the edge of the sofa with all her strength to avoid being dragged any closer to him. Right now, Cheng Xi felt that Lu Chenzhou and Baldy were truly meant to be friends; they both shared the same tendency of saying things in a direct and unpleasant fashion. She frowned and replied, Of course theyre related. Only after understanding your specific situation can I help you control these urges of yours. If we approach this from the perspective of animal behavioral studies, then we start with the assumption that all uncontrollable urges are bestial. Thus; the best thing you can do, Mr. Lu, is to learn how to control your body better so that a situation like what happened last night doesnt happen again. You might not have realized it, but what you did last night was in fact very dangerous. Driving at high speeds while in that sort of condition could have, at any point Cheng Xis tone was particularly sincere, and everything she said was to help him. However, Lu Chenzhou didnt have the patience to listen to another word. While she was still in the middle of talking, he suddenly pulled at her body with one hand while holding her waist with the other, and Cheng Xi fell onto his body. Luckily for Cheng Xi, there was a thick quilt between the two of them, sufficient to cushion her fall. But while she was still feeling thankful, Lu Chenzhous hand moved as though it were about to snake into her clothes. That was the last straw. Resigning herself to the fact that she wouldnt be able to reason with him, Cheng Xi decided to use the same strategy she had last night and tried to punch him to calm him down before talking with him any further. But this time, the clearheaded Lu Chenzhou reacted quickly; just as her punch was about to land, he tilted his head, almost sheerly through instinct. Peng! Her fist landed on his jaw instead. Oh! Lu Chenzhou fiercely sucked in air through his teeth. Because the sudden spike of pain was so strong, his eyes teared up, but he also let go of her. Even Cheng Xi couldnt help but exclaim in sympathy. It must really have hurt because even her hand hurt; her fingers almost felt like they were broken! This was all because her punch had applied force incorrectly and in the wrong position. Hey. She quickly extricated herself from the sofa, and watched on from a few paces away. I didnt intentionally try to hit you there. Are you alright? Lu Chenzhou glanced at her as he rubbed his jaw, his gaze becoming more lucid with each passing second. Evidently, the pain had caused his urges to wane. Cheng Xi relaxed, releasing a long breath. If you feel like somethings wrong with your body, I recommend that you go to the hospital and get a diagnosis. Now, are you finally going to leave? She was even chasing him away. Lu Chenzhou was angry enough that he started laughing, no longer caring about the pain. He looked at her dimly. Youre actually chasing me away? You can think of it that way. After all, given your condition, it isnt suitable for you to remain here. I already have a boyfriend, so you doing those things to me is unethical. Boyfriend if she hadnt brought it up, Lu Chenzhou would have forgotten about it. Hed really taken precautions against that too late, given that she even knew to use it as a warning against him. How exasperating! And his lower jaw was pulsing with painno, his entire face was pulsating. Thinking back to last night, he said, You punched me twice. Cheng Xi was stunned speechless by his rebuttal. She watched him return to lying down on the sofa. When he stretched his hand out to pull the quilt back over himself, he noticed that his shirt sleeves were shorter than usual, so he lifted his arm and looked at it quizzically. Whose clothes are these? He smelled them gingerly and his frown deepened. Where are mine? The expression of disdain on his face was so evident that Cheng Xi couldnt help but suspect that the clothes that her mother had found for him were ones that Cheng Yang had worn but hadnt washed yet. And then she saw him, without hesitation, start to unbutton his shirt and remove his clothes. Cheng Xi instantly turned away. My mothers coming back soon. Oh. Lu Chenzhou continued unabated after already having removed his shirt, which revealed his pale and well-toned upper body. He looked at her, and then a rustling sound coming from within the quilt; he was obviously taking off his pants too. Cheng Xi couldnt bear it anymore. Cant you wait even a minute? Let me see if your clothes are dry. She walked to the balcony and saw that Lu Chenzhous clothes were indeed hanging up there. But since they had been hand-washed, they were still dripping wet. Her hardworking mother couldnt stand having piles of dirty laundry in the house, so she must have washed them in the morning before she left. But she had forgotten to dry them so was he going to end up naked in front of her mother again? Cheng Xi already felt a headache forming. It was precisely this sort of thing that Lu Chenzhou didnt care about at all. It wasnt that he was shameless, but rather that he just didn''t care at all about what other people thought, because his own comfort was the most important thing to himfrom this perspective, the fact that he had been able to suppress his urges for so long was amazing to Cheng Xi. And last night, all of his repressed desires had probably exploded forth, his actions no longer under the control of his reason. In other words, Lu Chenzhou had been acting purely on instinct last night. After this thought popped into her head, Cheng Xi decided to treat him a bit better, but this decision lasted only until she reentered the living room. The first thing she saw was Lu Chenzhou, utterly naked and exposed to the air after having left the confines of his quilt. At least his back was facing her. He was standing there, meticulously inspecting his body for any anomalies. When he heard her approaching, he turned around. Cheng Xi swiftly raised her hand to cover her eyes, turned around to avoid looking at him at all, and said, Do you really have to behave in such an exaggerated way? Lu Chenzhous voice was fierce. I have a rash on my body. Cheng Xi helplessly said, ...Put your clothes on first. Ill look at it. I wont put them on! Then get back into your quilt first! Is that necessary? If I remember correctly, we seem to have already gotten in bed together. What?! Cheng Xis mothers voice suddenly rang out. Before Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou could even react, they heard her shrill, high-decibel yell. Aaaaaaaaaah! Why arent you wearing any clothes?! Neither Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou could respond. Cheng Xis house had an entranceway that was separated from the living room by a thick wall, so neither of them had realized that her mother had entered the room earlier. And as Cheng Xis mother entered, she heard Lu Chenzhou and her daughters conversation filled with explosive details, so she hurriedly ran inside. The first thing she saw was the incomparably and unusually provocative naked body of Lu Chenzhou. Her mother was about to collapse. Cheng Xi!!! Do you want to die?! The first precept of the Cheng familys child-rearing method: if someones at fault, its always your children. Even if someone else started it, its still your childrens fault---who asked them to provoke others? Cheng Xi had a premonition that, if she didnt handle this matter well, she would have a very hard life in the future. Previous Chapter Next Chapte Chapter 67: Do You Like My Daughter? At the very least, Lu Chenzhou had enough shame to cover himself up with the quilt when he realized that Cheng Xis mother was in the room. He was even obedient enough to apologize to her. Sorry, I didnt expect you to be here. This time, he really wasnt wearing anything. Luckily for Cheng Xis mother, all she saw was his naked backside---but just that was shocking enough already. Cheng Xis mother glanced at him, summarily ignored him, took a deep breath, and glared at Cheng Xi. Come out here right now! Cheng Xi looked at Lu Chenzhou, causing the latter to say in a particularly serious tone, I really do have rashes on my body. When Cheng Xi and her mother stepped out to the corridor outside, her mother immediately started questioning her. Cheng Xi responded, He has rashes on his body, so he took off his clothes to see how serious it was. Her mother stared at her in annoyance. Do you think that Im an idiot? Even if he has rashes, would he have to strip naked for you to look at him? Cheng Xi blinked innocently. We had to conduct a thorough inspection. Her mother was so angry she began to yell incoherently. Thorough are the two of you thoroughly crazy?! Somehow, she had hit the nail on its head. Cheng Xi nodded seriously. Actually, he is, so please dont mind what he does too much. Hes somewhat abnormal in the head. Cheng Xi was truly speaking her true thoughts, even if her mother didnt believe her. But her mother pointed at her head and said, I think that your heads also abnormal! Make him leave! Make him leave quickly! As her mother said this, she clutched her chest; whenever she thought about that scene just now, she felt like her eyes were really going to go blind from shock. Cheng Xi also wanted Lu Chenzhou to leave as quickly as possible, but the key problem was Erm, he doesnt have any clothes to wear Brothers clothes are too short for him. In their family, both her father and her brother were shorter than Lu Chenzhou, so naturally, they didnt have any clothes that would fit him. At this point, Cheng Xis mother was so angry that she was about to burst out into laughter. So theres nothing you can do, is there? She ran inside the living room angrily, preparing to roll up her sleeves and chase Lu Chenzhou out of the house herself; dolts could only be dealt with by force! But when she entered the room, she heard Lu Chenzhou making a call: ...Send me a set of clothes. Yes, right now. Ill send you the address. Once Lu Chenzhou finished making the call and saw that Cheng Xis mother had entered the room, he lowered his body and said, Im sorry. I might need to bother you for a little while more. He was quite handsome, so when he said these courteous words with his eyes lowered, it could almost make one forget all the unreasonable things that he had done. Cheng Xis mothers anger was immediately halved, and her voice softened. Its not that I want to chase you out, but do you realize that your actions have been highly inappropriate? Yes. The feeling he gave to others was still very cold, but now, it was a charming coldness, like a white lotus blooming on a snowy mountaintop. Last time, Cheng Xis mother had been so angry and shocked that she hadnt looked at him that carefully. This time, however, when she looked closely, she noticed that the fellow actually looked quite handsome; no wonder her normally obedient daughter would secretly defy her for him. She gradually relaxed and then asked, How long have you been dating my daughter for? Lu Chenzhou raised his head and vigorously shook it. Sorry, were not dating. At this moment, Cheng Xi quickly interjected, Mom, I already told you this. Hes not my boyfriend. Yes, Lu Chenzhou added on, still in a cool tone, but with an additional tinge of grievance. Cheng Xis mother twisted her head around to glare at her daughter, the meaning in her eyes particularly obvious: Step to the side and stop talking nonsense! She turned back around and kept talking to Lu Chenzhou. If youre not my daughters boyfriend, then whats your relationship with her? When she entered the house, she had definitely heard him say that the two of them had even been in bed together. That wasnt a hallucination, was it? Definitely not! Lu Chenzhou remained silent, like he was reluctant to say anything. Cheng Xi, who had been forbidden from speaking nonsense, couldnt bear it any further. She stepped in and said, Mom, were just friends. Regular friends. This time, Lu Chenzhou responded, glancing at Cheng Xu as he did so. Oh. My goodness. Is he really trying to paint himself as a white lotus on a tall mountain and me as the evil boss of a crime syndicate? Cheng Xi huffed in angershe didnt know that Lu Chenzhou was this skilled at acting. She glowered at him as she threatened, Hey, Mr. Lu, can you speak properly? Her mother stared at her. Youre the one who should speak properly! Go to the side. I didnt ask you anything! Looking back at Lu Chenzhou, she then straightforwardly said, Do you like my daughter? I dont dislike her. Without a doubt, he was speaking the truthhe indeed did not dislike Cheng Xi. As for like, well, he really just liked her. Unfortunately, her mother thought that Lu Chenzhou was trying to be tactful as there were some things that he didnt dare to say. She sighed, and comfortingly said, Dont worry. Ill have Cheng Xi make it up to you. Cheng Xi made an orz expression on her face [TL: orz looks like a person kneeling down with his head on the ground], and finally felt that this misunderstanding couldnt be allowed to deepen any further. She stretched out her hand and pulled her mother towards her. Mom, come here. Ill explain everything to you. But Lu Chenzhou reacted quickly and smiled coolly as he said, Mrs. Cheng, actually, nothing much happened. Were truly not in a relationship, and she owed me nothing. The first time we met, something happened that shouldnt have, but that was my fault. Cheng Xi was about to explode. What do you mean something happened that shouldnt have?! Nothing happened, alright? Lu Chenzhou glanced at her casually, nodding. Oh. Cheng Xis mouth was open, but she had no response to give. She really couldnt clear things up anymore! Even if she dragged her mother into a room and told her the truth, that Lu Chenzhou was only her patient with an abnormal mental condition, her mother most likely wouldnt believe her, would she? Evidently, her mother couldnt hold it in anymore, and started scolding her loudly. I told you not to talk. Dont you understand?! She looked at Lu Chenzhou again, her tone as amiable as could be. Dont worry. I said that she would make it up to you, and she will. As for last night, why did you come looking for Cheng Xi so late at night? Lu Chenzhou was silent, and only after a little while did he say, Actually, I have nothing. I also dont know how I ended up here. Looking towards her mother, he said, And again, Im sorry. I didnt intentionally strip in front of you. I really am having an allergic reaction. Look. As he said this, he stretched out his hand. The wrist he revealed did have a large lump of red rashes; because his skin was white and hed been scratched himself, it was particularly striking. Cheng Xis mother believed him with absolute certainty now. She stood up and said, It really does look quite serious. Sit down, and Ill get some medicine for you. Itll get better in no time. You come too, help Mom take a look if this medicine is fine. The last sentence was directed at Cheng Xi. Disregarding her willingness, Cheng Xis mother pulled her into another room and closed the door. The first words out of her mouth were, I dont know when you became like this. How can you be so wild with intimate relationships? And then she asked, Do you really have another boyfriend? Cheng Xi was still trying to process the situation, speechless. She couldnt laugh or cry. Mom, can you not cause more trouble? The relationship I have with him isnt what you think it is. I promise. You promise? Last time, you even promised to break up with him. But, what was the result? Through the video call, your father and I clearly saw that he pounced on you as soon as he entered! And, last night, old grandfather Li even told us that, in the middle of the night, you ran downstairs to be intimate with him! Cheng Xi, if youre unwilling to admit what your relationship with him is because of our objection, thats nothing. Last time, your dad also convinced me that you younger generation will do fine even without my supervision. Given your age, its also normal for you to get a boyfriend. I just think that hes a bit dazed. But after looking at him again today, I guess hes alright, a bit empty headed, but he does truly like you. If the two of you want to get together, then thats fine too. As long as his familys background is alright and he truly treats you well, then as your parents, we wont object. So dont pretend to have another boyfriend to dodge our questions. Really, Ive seen those two-timing people, and they make my heart worry for them. Cheng Xis mother waved her hand, and in a clearly exhausted voice, she said, Go out. Go look at his rashes. Tell him that if hes serious, then we should make plans for our two families to meet and get food together sometime. ...Mom, havent you changed your mind a bit too quickly? Her mother became incensed again. If we didnt change our mind, then would we have to wait for you to become pregnant before acknowledging the two of you? A doorbell rang outside. Cheng Xis mother glared at her one last time before walking out. Cheng Xi followed her out, and somewhat felt exhausted when she saw Lu Chenzhou curled up on the sofa like a mealworm. Her mother had gone to open the door when she heard her somewhat forced laughter. Ah, its Lin Fan? Whatre you doing here so early? Lin Fans warm voice responded, Good morning, Auntie. Im here to bring Cheng Xi to work. Upon hearing this, Lu Chenzhou tilted his head at her. As for Cheng Xi, well, she really didnt know what to do now. At this time, she really wanted to make an anonymous forum post: my real boyfriends at the door, and hes about to see my purported boyfriend sleeping in my home. But really, nothing happened. How can I explain the situation to everyone involved? Waiting online, quite urgent! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 68: Untitled Since she didnt understand the full story, Cheng Xis mothers heart was forlorn upon seeing Lin Fan. This was the perfect son-in-law for her daughter: capable and thoughtful, possessing a good pedigree, a good educationand from abroad, no less! This was someone shed be proud of bragging about. More importantly, he was old classmates with her daughter, so they knew each other through and through. But since her daughter already had Lu Chenzhou, she could only restrain her feelings and say, Picking up Cheng Xi? How could we trouble you to do something like that? Her boyfriends already here to pick her up. Although Cheng Xi couldnt see Lin Fans face, she could imagine what kind of expression he was making. It was undoubtedly a complicated one, impossible to describe. She quickly walked out, already exasperated with her mother. Mom, what are you saying? And then she looked at Lin Fan. Ah, youre here? Why dont you come in for now. She couldnt just leave him standing outside; if she did, his questions would only increase. Her mother and Lin Fan both looked at her with very different expressions. Her mother looked like she was blaming her, as she probably felt that she was being too intimate with Lin Fan. But Lin Fan, on the other hand, was quite calm and was even smiling at her. Her mother sighed in her heart again, and she reluctantly opened the shoe cupboard to retrieve a pair of slippers for him. When Lin Fan walked in and saw Lu Chenzhou, who was draped in a quilt and lying on the sofa, he clearly became flustered; in his confusion, he looked at Cheng Xi once again. Cheng Xi looked back at him hopefully, but he didnt say anything. With his eyes half-closed, he remained silent for a while before putting the things he was carrying on the table. They were fruits that he had bought on his way over. There were some farmers growing strawberries by a shed on the roadside. He had seen them and specifically picked them out himself, choosing the freshest ones that were bright, vibrant, and still glistening with morning dew. As if her mother was afraid that Lin Fans misunderstanding wasnt deep enough, she introduced the other man in the room. This is Lu Lu Chenzhou finished Cheng Xis mothers sentence for her. Lu Chenzhou. Right, Lu Chenzhou, Cheng Xis boyfriend. Lin Fan, if youre here so early, then you must not have eaten yet, right? Ill go and make something for you to eat. After saying this, she ran to the door to do exactly that. The rumors that the neighbors were spreading outside left her incapable of staying in the shop, so after Cheng Xis mother had finished all her errands in the morning, she used the excuse that she needed to bring her daughter breakfast to go back home and see what Lu Chenzhou and her daughter were up to. But right as she entered, she had been so shocked by what she heard and saw that she had completely forgotten about bringing them food. Before she could enter the kitchen, Cheng Xis mother even called her over. Come help me, quickly. Old Lis helping too, but Im afraid that your dad wont be able to handle the diner on his own. Cheng Xi looked at Lin Fan with a somewhat helpless expression, but she still followed her mother into the kitchen. As the two of them worked, her mother initially didnt say anything. But when breakfast was almost ready, she softly said to Cheng Xi, Theres nothing going on between you and Lin Fan, is there? Cheng Xi didnt respond. The situation outside was way too complex to explain right now, and while her mother was trying to help, she was only making matters worse. Her mother clearly misunderstood her and sighed---not to scold her, but to express her sentiments. I dont care what youre planning, but since youve already got someone and arent planning on ending the relationship, you should wrap up all your other intentions. Do you hear me? As a closing remark, her mother even earnestly said, In life, whats most important is knowing when you have enough! Cheng Xi looked at her mother, her feelings complicated. After the lecture, all she could say in response was, Oh. Breakfast was particularly quiet. Lu Chenzhou ate from the sofa, Cheng Xi and Lin Fan ate at the dining table, and as for Cheng Xis mother, once breakfast was prepared and her husband called for her, she had left hurriedly. Once Cheng Xis mother left, Lu Chenzhou put down his bowl of noodles and used his chopsticks to pick up a little steamed bun. He ate it slowly as he watched Cheng Xi and Lin Fan. Cheng Xi was trying her hardest to pretend that he didnt exist. After a few bites, she felt that the atmosphere in the room was too strange, and she talked to Lin Fan in an attempt to disperse it. Didnt you say that you were going to go on a business trip for a few days? Why did you end up returning so quickly? After arriving, I realized that they didnt need me. So, I took the overnight flight back. As he explained, his expression was somewhat strange. Cheng Xi noticed it and thought that he was still offended by Lu Chenzhous presence. To assuage him, she quickly reached out and grabbed his hand. Lin Fan, do you trust me? Lin Fan looked at her in a daze. Lu Chenzhou and I really arent what you think youre seeing, Ill explain it to you later, but for now, will you believe me? As she said this, even Cheng Xi herself felt pale and feeble. Lin Fan strove to smile, but was unsuccessful. He put down his bowl and chopsticks, rubbed his face, and said, Im sorry. I just got off the plane and am still a bit tired. If its fine with you, Im going to leave first. Is that okay? Cheng Xi stared at him for an indeterminate length of time before finally quietly saying, Alright. Lin Fan got up very quickly. Cheng Xi sent him to the door, and he didnt even turn around as he left. When she returned to the living room, Lu Chenzhou was still nibbling at his little steamed bun. With a casual glance at Cheng Xi, he said, Hes mad. All thanks to you. Thinking about it some more, she sat in front of him and seriously asked, Mr. Lu, what exactly are you trying to do? I told you already. I want to have sex with you. And besides that? I want to marry you. As for whether I should marry you first and then have sex with you, or have sex with you first and then marry you, Im still considering. She took a pillow by the sofa and threw it savagely at him. What do you mean youre considering?! Have you ever stopped to consider how I feel? I dont like you, so Ive never even considered marrying you! Can you stop thinking about yourself? And it must have been a while since you last had any sexual activity, right? As a fully grown adult, if your body is normal, abstinence is harmful to your body. In serious cases, both males and females might experience symptoms such as insomnia, loss of appetite, reclusive and eccentric behavior, violent tendencies, and so on. You should consider releasing your pent-up desires appropriately and not just fixate on a single person or a thing, okay?! Lu Chenzhou stared at her, his gaze profound. She returned the stare fiercely. Whats the matter? Do you not understand? Lu Chenzhou asked, Are you like that? What? Do you experience insomnia, loss of appetite, reclusive and eccentric behavior, or any violent tendencies? Originally, out of concern for his feelings, she had tried to be tactful, but he had used those exact words to mock her. Cheng Xi glared at him, a feeling of helplessness washing over her yet again. She shrugged her hands, too lazy to say any more, and got up to wash the dishes. She only had one notion in her mind now: to hurry up and tell Cai Yi that she was of humble talent and shallow learning; that surely she couldnt treat this fellow. Behind her, Lu Chenzhou was still looking at her back, and he was unable to stop himself from clutching at his chest. When he heard her say that she didnt like him and that she wasnt planning on marrying him, he had felt his chest suddenly start throbbing. It was an indescribable and strange feeling, as if the blood coursing through his heart was overheating, or as if someone was gently, subtly, and incessantly poking him with a needle. It hurt so much that he couldnt calm down. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 69: He鈥檚 My Boyfriend Now Cheng Xi didnt want to face Lu Chenzhou right now, so she started to slowly clean up the dining table. Once she felt like her emotions had settled back to normal, she went out again. Lu Chenzhou was curled up in his quilt and sitting there like an old monk deep in meditation. When he saw Cheng Xi enter the room, he opened his eyes and asked, Whats your house number? Cheng Xi had originally decided to ignore all his words, but when she heard this question, she could only stifle her indignation and answer. Lu Chenzhou picked up his phone to make another call. Not long after, the doorbell rang again. Cheng Xi opened the door, and, as expected, someone was here with Lu Chenzhous clothes. It was Mr. Chen, who had driven them to Chen Jiamans hometown. He was carrying a large pile of miscellaneous things, including quite a number of bags. Seeing Cheng Xi, he smiled, removed a bag, and then gave the rest to her. These are presents that old Mr. and Mrs. Lu have prepared for you, to make up for Mr. Lus inconvenience. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say. She twisted her head around to look at Lu Chenzhou, who was sitting upright and still. He maintained an impassive expression, ignoring Cheng Xis questioning glance. With Lu Chenzhou refusing to intervene, Cheng Xi could only say to Mr. Chen, Please take these things back. Old Mr. and Mrs. Lu are too polite. I cant accept these gifts. Mr. Chen had already walked in and given the bag of clothes to Lu Chenzhou, and he smiled upon hearing her words. I dont have any choice either. Old Mr. Lu told me that even if you refuse to take them, Im not allowed to bring them back. Dr. Cheng, please dont make things difficult for me. After saying this, he immediately left. Without any other choice, Cheng Xi could only say to Lu Chenzhou, These gifts But before she could finish speaking, she quickly turned around again; Lu Chenzhou, the shameless prick, had just tossed his quilt aside and shamelessly started changing his clothes without any misgivings whatsoever. Cheng Xi flew into a rage. Cant you cover yourself up a little? Oh, he responded simply before meandering in a circle in front of her and then finally entering the bathroom. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say anymore. Once he entered, she went through the gifts that she had been given. They werent too expensive, and, perhaps it was because they knew Cheng Xis parents worked in a diner, but the gifts mainly consisted of seafood that could be used to make stock?Cheng Xi had even seen some of them in her parents diner before. No one in Lu Chenzhous family was simple to deal with; even their gifts were carefully selected so that people couldnt find a reason to refuse them. Once Lu Chenzhou had changed clothes, Cheng Xi asked him, Why dont you bring these back with you? He stood in front of her without looking at the gifts. After quietly staring at her for a long time, he finally said, Are you worried that if you take these things, youll be entangled with us? No. I only feel that I shouldnt receive these for having done nothing. Lu Chenzhou lowered his head, rolled up his sleeves, and coolly replied, Then think of it as the fee for letting me stay over last night. After saying that, he prepared to leave. However, as he did so, Cheng Xi called him back. You still have clothes As she said this, he kept walking; but before she could finish speaking, the door was slammed shut in her face. Some time later, Cheng Xi realized that Lu Chenzhou had been angry, but she couldnt fathom why. Cheng Xi wasnt sure what had caused it, and she didnt want to think about it either. She didnt have to go to the hospital in the afternoon, but she still had classes at that time. If she didnt leave now, she would be late. She rode the bus to campus, which shook over and over on the bumpy road. In the meantime, she tried to call Lin Fan, but he didnt pick up and instead replied with a terse text message. Something came up. Ill call you later. Cheng Xi looked at his message, sighed silently, and then called Cai Yi. She had originally wanted to discuss Lu Chenzhous case with her, but it turned out that Cai Yi was also on a trip, and she would only return after two days. Thus, Cheng Xi could only discard her thoughts about him and focus on teaching and working. When she had time, she would ponder Chen Jiamans illness. She currently had two very troublesome patients: Lu Chenzhou, shed already decided to get rid of, but she very much wished to cure Chen Jiaman. Not only because shed promised Lin Fan that she would do so, but also because this was the only way that she could prove to herself that she hadnt completely failed as a doctor. That day, after Cheng Xi had got out of a meeting, the head nurse told her, Theres a pretty lady looking for you. I told her to wait in your office. Cheng Xi thanked her and went back to her office. The first thing she saw as she entered was a well-behaved back sitting upright and facing away from the door. When that person heard the door open, she turned around, her face showing a slight smile. Dr. Cheng. She stood up, greeting her. It was that colleague of Lin Fans, Meng Qingyang. Cheng Xi was a bit surprised, not because she had come to find her, but rather because her condition seemed to have improved considerably. Even though it had only been a few days since Cheng Xi had seen her, she no longer looked as gloomy, and even her eyes had brightened up considerably. Cheng Xi nodded back, and then asked Meng Qingyang how she was doing, if she were an old friend. Why didnt you call me before coming over? Then, as she put her documents down, she asked, Would you like something to drink? Do you have coffee? Cheng Xi smiled. I recommend water instead. Its better for you. Doctor, its not that you dont have any coffee, is it? Meng Qingyang was even making jokes now; her tone was a bit pampered, but at least, she hadnt gotten mad from her demands not being met. Haha, youre right. So do you want a glass of water? Alright. Cheng Xi poured her a glass, and then one for herself as well. She looked at Meng Qingyang as she commented, Your complexion looks much better. Its because Meng Qingyang rubbed the glass in her hands and smiled lightly as she drew out the words in her answer. I also found a very beautiful boy. Cheng Xi raised her eyebrows in surprise. Really? Then, congratulations. For patients suffering from depression, being able to fall in love and having someone to look after them was a very good thing. Cheng Xi was truly quite happy for her, even if she thought that the speed at which Meng Qingyang had found love was somewhat fast. But in modern society, a fateful encounter that led to romance could take place in the blink of an eye. Meng Qingyang asked, Doctor, will you be happy for me? Of course, Cheng Xi answered with a nod. In the future, you have to continue telling yourself that youll get even better. Therell be many more wonderful experiences for you to discover in life. Meng Qingyang stared at Cheng Xi with a focused gaze for some time before she cryptically said, Doctor, youre a good person. She then stood up and politely said, Im going to leave now. I came here today to thank you. If not for what you said that day, then I really might have dug myself into a dead end. Cheng Xi smiled. No problem. Its your own strong will that dug yourself out of there . She got up to send Meng Qingyang to the door. But right before Meng Qingyang was about to step out, she suddenly paused, her hand on the door handle but not making a move. Cheng Xi found it somewhat odd, and carefully called out to her. Miss Meng? Meng Qingyang turned her head around and abruptly asked, Dr. Cheng, what happened with you and the boy you met? Was she trying to find strength from her? Cheng Xi smiled. Em, hes my boyfriend now. Meng Qingyang raised her head to look at her again. Cheng Xi thought that her gaze was a bit strange; it felt like she was very interested in her story and that she also wanted to try to do the same. At that moment, Cheng Xi thought that Meng Qingyangs longing gaze was because she also wanted to get together with the beautiful boy shed met. But not long after that, Cheng Xi found out that she was wrong. Nothing was as shed thought it was. After Meng Qingyang left, Cheng Xi thought of Lin Fan again and sent him another message. Just now, your colleague Meng Qingyang came to talk to me. Almost instantaneously, Lin Fan called her, even though he hadnt picked up any of her calls that day. He sounded particularly anxious. She went to find you? Did she say anything bad? Was he concerned about her? Cheng Xi smiled. How could she? Unless you think I look like someone easy to bully? Lin Fan didnt speak. Cheng Xi softly asked, Are you not angry anymore? Lin Fan responded, Yes. After a pause, he said, I know what sort of person you are, so I believe you. If he really believed her, then he wouldnt have ignored her calls for a few days in a row. But Cheng Xi was willing to let it slide as long as he thought it through in the end; who didnt have a bit of a temper? It was ok as long as it wasnt excessive. Really? Really. Cheng Xi smiled. Alright. Since youre being so obedient, Ill treat you to dinner tonight, ok? Okay. After hanging up, Cheng Xi pondered what she should make for dinner today. When she thought about it, this was their first real date after their relationship started, so she had to do a good job. Lin Fan liked rustic flavors, so she decided to make dinner by hand. She also planned to later explain to him what was going on between her and Lu Chenzhou. Despite his saying that he believed her, Cheng Xi didnt want to leave a twisted knot inside of his heart. Between two people, an appropriate level of trust was also a type of respect. After she got off of work, Cheng Xi went out of her way to buy a Western-style cookbook along with some vegetables. She was planning on making a candlelit dinner with red wine and steak. Given how long Lin Fan had been overseas for, he would probably enjoy it immensely. But as soon as she returned home with her supplies, without even having any time to change out of her shoes, she received a call from Cai Yi. Lu Chenzhous sick. Did you know that? Cheng Xi was slightly shocked. What? He went down with a serious flu as well as an allergic reaction. Hes only half-alive right now. If theres nothing urgent right now, then you should go over and see him. Im flying back right now, and Ill be there early in the morning tomorrow. Cai Yis tone was unusually solemn; clearly, there was more to Lu Chenzhous illness than just that. But as soon as the call ended, the doorbell rang. And on the monitor appeared Lin Fans youthful and gentle face, smiling at her through the screen. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 70: A Cute Weakness Cheng Xi opened the door and Lin Fan entered, hugging her before saying, I missed you so much. Even if I get mad in the future, I wont ever ignore you again. It wasnt as much a punishment for you, as it was one for me. He then lowered his head and looked at the ingredients by her feet, smiling. Steak? Do you need any help? But when he saw Cheng Xis look, he asked, Whats the matter? Cheng Xi opened her mouth, but nothing came out. Lin Fan released her. Did something come up? This was the first time she had ever truly been at a loss for words. Lin Fan, She grasped his hands and strugglingly pushed out, Im sorry. I cant have dinner with you today. Lin Fan chuckled lightheartedly. You really scared me with your severe look and everything. Its just a meal. Whats the big deal? Is Jiaman acting up again? Not her. Then its the hospital, right? Dont worry, I can cook too. Ill send it over to you once its done, alright? After Lin Fan said this, he was about to grab the ingredients and start cooking when Cheng Xi stopped him again. Its not the hospital. She exhaled and steeled himself. Originally, she had planned to tell him all the details about what was going on between her and Lu Chenzhou. But given the situation, while she couldnt explain it right now, she also didnt want to hide anything from him. My professor just called me, saying that Lu Chenzhous ill. Shes not here, so she wants me to go and look after him. Lin Fan paused before asking, Really? What illness? A severe cold and a serious allergic reaction. Lin Fan smiled wryly. Can you treat those things? As I recall, youre a psychiatrist. Lin Fan this isnt about whether I can treat him or not. He got sick after leaving my place, and his allergic reaction also first started at my place. Thus, as my professors sponsor, and with her request, I really do have to go and see how hes doing. Is it really just that? Yes. Lin Fan looked at her, and Cheng Xi looked back at him, her gaze completely devoid of evasion or hesitation. He finally released her. Alright. Then go and come back quickly. Alright. She smiled and consoling said, Ill do my best to return early. If youre hungry, then you should order something to eat. Theres a Chinese restaurant near my place that makes great beef dishes?Ill give you their number later. If youre bored, you can also read some books or watch TV. Ill be gone for a bit and will be back quickly. Okay. Cheng Xi turned around to head out, but just as her hand touched the doorknob, Lin Fan hugged her from behind. I really dont want you to go. What should I do? She didnt respond, and instead gently leaned into his caress, comfortingly rubbing the back of his hand as she did so. She knew that he wasnt someone who would endlessly pester her. Sure enough, after a short but intense hug, Lin Fan let go of her. Cheng Xi turned around, reached up on her tiptoes, and then kissed him lightly on the cheek. Im sorry. He shook his head and lightly caressed her lips as he lovingly replied, Go. Ill wait for you. Cheng Xi smiled, eventually turning to leave. Bathed by the bright and resplendent lamplight, Cheng Xi was waiting for a bus by the side of the road when she saw a roadside food cart selling scones. Even from a distance, the crispy, golden brown toasted scones emanated an enticing aroma. It had been a very long time since Cheng Xi had last eaten something like that. She used to eat them every so often back when she was a senior in highschool. Whenever she studied late into the night, she would walk back home with Lin Fan. It was often so late that the roads would be empty. They would slowly stroll back, and at the halfway point, they would always see a young man pushing a food cart and selling scones. Cheng Xi would always buy two without fail, and then eat them side by side with Lin Fan, the two of them basking in the lovely scent of the scones. Even long after she had graduated from high school, Cheng Xi would dream of their scent. She walked over, bought quite a number in one go, took two out for herself, and then packed the rest away in a bag, which she gave to the security guard office nearby. Could you please help me find someone to bring this back to my place? The security guard was familiar with Cheng Xi, so he readily agreed without any questions. Cheng Xi then got on the bus with her twp scones. Cai Yi had sent her Lu Chenzhous address; it wasnt the one in Donglai or the Lus manor. Rather, it led to a small area that had a very homely feeling. It was a bit far away. When Cheng Xi left, it was only six. However, it was already eight when she arrived. She called Lu Chenzhou twice, but he didnt pick up either time. So with no other choice, Cheng Xi called Cai Yi, who said, Give me a moment. After a while, Cheng Xi received a four-digit number with the description, This is the passcode to his main door. Hes at home, and you can just enter. If the inner door is locked, then just bash it open. Theres no problem even if you break it. Cheng Xi started sweating and nervously asked Cai Yi, Is this really alright? Its fine. Dont worry about it. I just called his grandfather, and he told me that Lu Chenzhou only started not picking up anyones calls recently. Is there anyone else inside? No. This is one of the quirks of our dear Director Lu; he doesnt like there to be anyone besides him in his house. But I believe that youll definitely find a way to stay there. Cheng Xi was speechless. She didnt know where Cai Yi had found so much confidence. Cheng Xi herself had no expectations because she didnt know what Lu Chenzhou would end up doing. Without any helpers, the stress was a bit overwhelming. After exhaling slowly to calm herself down, Cheng Xi stepped forward. This area seemed low-profile, but the security was quite strict. Cheng Xi reported Lu Chenzhous name and house number, and even had to take out her ID to register her visit before she could obtain a temporary pass to enter the community. Lu Chenzhous house was in the innermost region of the area. It was a small standalone bungalow with its own wall and backyard. As Cheng Xi walked up, she didnt see a single light on inside. When she got to the door, she first pressed the doorbell, but no one answered. Then she used the passcode that Cai Yi had given her to open the front door. After stepping inside, she found that the house was silent, and it was lit solely by a little wall lamp on the other side of the main corridor. As she followed the light, she found that the living rooms door was half-closed, which she then pushed open lightly. It opened smoothly, so silent that even Cheng Xi was surprised. Luckily, the living room was bright and well lit. When the door opened, the first thing she heard was her own voice. Little fox, I like you! And then she saw Lu Chenzhou, asleep on the sofa with his head tilted towards the sofa and a trailing hand touching the ground. Her own unfamiliar voice reverberated inside the room. Then, a voice echoed from behind. I like you too. And then it kept repeating the same story about the little rabbit liking the little fox. She had recorded many stories inside that device; it seemed like this was the one that he liked best. Cheng Xi stood at the door, hesitating about whether she should first enter and look around, or whether she should wait around for him to wake up. Suddenly, as if he had sensed something, Lu Chenzhou turned around. His jaw dragged on the sofa, but he still managed to look at the door. Cheng Xi felt a sudden sense of anxiety overcome her. She explained, Sorry, your door was unlocked May I enter? Lu Chenzhou maintained his original posture, not moving or speaking; he merely continued to watch her silently. Alright, Ill assume that youre ok with it. Cheng Xi walked inside. Only when she got closer did she realize that he was visibly thinner, and his complexion was sallow. Nonetheless, he was still very tidy and clean-shaven. He looked weak, as if hed just woken up, and his eyes were still bleary with sleep. This created a bit of an innocent aura about him, stripping him of his usual aloof attitude and replacing it with a bit of cuteness instead. He seemed like a big, sickly dog lying pitifully on the ground, waiting for his owner to pat him on the head. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 71: She is a Germ Even Cheng Xi was a bit scared by her own thoughts. She coughed quietly and softly asked, Are you feeling okay? Have you taken any medicine? She put down the things in her hands and continued, saying, Ill give you a checkup, alright? Lu Chenzhou was still looking at her, as if he was trying to confirm whether or not the person standing in front of him was real. After a while, he finally said, I remember the front door being locked. Cheng Xi started sweating, but she still nodded in response and said, It was locked, but I have the passcode. His forehead scrunched up slightly as he turned around and slowly sat up to look at her. Cheng Xi noticed that his body was very weak; even this simple action caused him to start breathing heavily. She stretched out her hand, preparing to help him, but he shoved it away in rejection despite the pain. He closed his eyes and rested by leaning against the sofa for quite a while before asking in a tired tone, Why are you here? I heard that you were sick, so Im here to see you. Youve seen me. Now leave. Mr. Lu He opened his eyes, completely lucid by this point. His gaze held a familiar disaffection, reminiscent of his look the first time they had met; under that cold examining gaze, anyone would feel like a worthless speck of dust. Scram! His voice wasnt loud, and a sense of fatigue could be heard within it. ...Its dirty now. Cheng Xi looked at her own pair of shoesshe had indeed forgotten to take off her shoes when entering the house. The main problem was that she hadnt even seen a shoe cabinet. Additionally, she was anxious to ascertain his condition, so she hadnt even thought about this normal courtesy. Realizing that she had unintentionally triggered one of his pet peeves, Cheng Xi put on an extremely apologetic tone. Im sorry. I didnt see a pair of slippers that I could change into A pillow came flying at her, and along with it, a very familiar recording device. The pillow harmlessly fell by her feet, but the recording device bounced off of her leg, ultimately coming to a rest on the underside of the coffee table. Her voice hummed out from within. The little rabbit secretly fell in love with a little fox When Lu Chenzhou realized that he had accidentally thrown the wrong thing at her, he got even angrier. Scram! he shouted, panting. When he saw that his shout had no effect on Cheng Xi, another pillow came flying at her. Actually, if there were enough items by his side, Cheng Xi believed that he would have thrown them all without hesitation. The look in his eyes was very scary, heavy and gloomy. She had only seen him for a couple of minutes, but the evident weakness that he had shown while she was by the door seemed like a mirage, which had completely evaporated. His loss of control came even quicker. Almost immediately after running out of things to throw, he exploded. He grabbed his head with both hands and shouted hoarsely, Scram! Scram immediately! Cheng Xi immediately took off her shoes and walked closer, barefoot. She had planned on consoling him gently, but he forcefully shook her off. Even while weakened, Lu Chenzhous strength was way beyond what she could contend with, and she was pushed away before she could get any closer, almost falling down. Cheng Xi took a deep breath, about to try again, when a voice suddenly called out to her from the door. Dr. Cheng! Cheng Xi turned around to see Lu Chenzhous grandparents by the door. She glanced back at Lu Chenzhou, who was cradling his head in pain, and then walked out. It wasnt just Lu Chenzhous grandparents standing outside; there were also a few doctors in white coats that had come along with them. One of them was particularly old, likely someone who had been specifically called over. Indeed, Lu Chenzhous grandfather introduced him as such. This is Dr. Xie from the central hospital. The reason we werent here just now is because we were specially entreating him to come over. And then he introduced Cheng Xi to Dr. Xie, saying, This is Dr. Cais student, Dr. Cheng. Cheng Xi knew of a very famous old general practitioner in the central hospital who was also called Dr. Xie. Most likely, he was the man standing in front of her. Because he was an esteemed senior, Cheng Xi still politely greeted him despite her rush. Im honored to have the opportunity to meet you. Dr. Xie was a kindly man, and he smiled at her briefly. Because of the occasion, the two didnt have any time to exchange pleasantries. Lu Chenzhous grandmother was even more rushed than she was; once Cheng Xi had finished greeting them, she pulled on her hand and anxiously and quietly asked, What do we do? Zhous been locked up in here for a few days and he hasnt eaten anything in that time. When we came over in the evening to check on him, he was still running a high fever, and his skin was red and blotchy all over. He refuses to see a doctor, he refuses to take medicine, and he refuses to let us touch him. What do we do? Cheng Xi patted her hand reassuringly and asked, When did you discover that he was sick? Just today. Someone from the office was looking for him but couldnt get into contact him, so they called us instead. We searched all over town for him before we ultimately found out that he had fallen ill and locked himself in here. We want to enter, but given his condition, can we? Upon hearing their tone, it seemed as if something like this had also happened in the past. Thus, this time, not only did they call Dr. Xie over, but they also had Cai Yi call Cheng Xi over too. Cheng Xi then asked, Did he behave the same way when he was last ill? Lu Chenzhous grandmother glanced at her husband before hesitatingly answering, ......Yes. And then she hurriedly explained, He has a very strong cleanliness complex, which intensifies when hes ill. Its so severe that almost no one else can touch him because he claims that theyre all dirty. It was understandable, and a common physiological symptom of patients suffering from emotional detachment. Cheng Xis medical books contained a case study with patients suffering from the exact same problem. She had originally thought that Lu Chenzhous strong willpower would allow him to overcome his desire for cleanliness, but she didnt expect his cold rationality to be so easily destroyed by illness. But when she reexamined this situation again, her actions did seem to have been a bit too excessive that day. Despite knowing that he had contracted a cold and was possibly also having an allergic reaction, she had reacted to his provocations and lost control. In the end, she had even ignored all his symptoms and was going to let him leave just like that. After taking a deep breath, Cheng Xi rolled up her sleeves. Dont worry. Ill find a way so that at the very least, Dr. Xie can help inspect his condition. As she said this, she looked at the doctors standing behind Dr. Xie. They were all very young; clearly, Lu Chenzhous grandparents had planned on using force if Lu Chenzhou refused to cooperate. I hope that it wont be necessary for you guys to handle the situation, so give me a bit of time, alright? Lu Chenzhous grandfather and the rest immediately nodded. Cheng Xi smiled, turned around, opened the door, and went back inside. Before she entered, she lifted her feet and removed even her socksthe corridors outside looked clean, but who knew if Lu Chenzhou thought the same. Cheng Xi also removed her outer jacket. Inside, she was wearing a sweater with a similarly colored long skirt; the whole outfit accentuated her figure, making her look particularly slim and graceful. She was usually fond of this style of clothing because it was both comfortable and warm, but she was regretting it a little now because her skirt might make the next couple of actions a bit difficult. As she rolled her sleeves up, she turned around and asked, Did you guys bring any food? Lu Chenzhous grandmother immediately said, Yes, yes. A young man walked up to Cheng Xi with a massive lunchbox. Cheng Xi opened it and peered inside, satisfied. She took the lunchbox, closed the door, and walked inside. When psychiatrists treated their patients, they tended to isolate themselves to ensure that there would be no distractions and that the patients privacy would be protected. Naturally, this meant that she didnt plan on letting people observe her. Lu Chenzhou had already stopped throwing things around and he seemed to have calmed down, but his gaze remained cruel. Cheng Xi felt that, if not for his enervating hunger and illness shaving away at most of his vitality, he would have thrown her out of the house as if she were a piece of garbage. At this point, he had almost completely forgotten that he had once told her that he wanted to woo her despite his straightforward confession of wanting to have sex with her. In his eyes, perhaps she was no more than a germ, a human-sized germ that he abhorred with all his being. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 72: I Don鈥檛 Have Any Feelings Cheng Xi stooped down halfway. She first picked up the recording device that was under the coffee table, turned down its volume, and then opened the lunchbox. Lu Chenzhous grandparents really did love him, and their love could clearly be seen in the food that they had prepared, particularly refined and meticulously made. It even took his feeble physical condition into account: most of the dishes were supposed to be good for the body and easily digested. There wasnt much of each dish, but everything looked wonderfully delectable. Ignoring his gaze, Cheng Xi brought out a bowl of yam and jujube porridge. As soon as she lifted the cap covering it, a delicate fragrance filled the room. Cheng Xi had only eaten two scones that night, so as soon as this enticing aroma wafted towards her, her hunger pangs became painfully clear. Her craving for food was so great that it felt like her heart and lungs were aching with desire. She put the bowl of porridge down on the coffee table in front of the desk and lightly stirred it. Mmm, it smells quite fragrant. Do you want some? Lu Chenzhou didnt move at all, only continuing to stare at her coldly. Cheng Xi ignored his lack of reaction. Instead, she picked up one of the pillows that had fallen on the floor and sat on it before leisurely starting to eat the porridge. The lunchbox had more than enough food to spare, and since Lu Chenzhou wouldnt be able to finish everything, it wouldnt matter if she had some. Cheng Xi ate in a particularly alluring manner, even smacking her lips every few bites. As she ate, she praised the food. Yum, its really tasty. She smiled at Lu Chenzhou and asked, Do you want to try some? Her expression made Lu Chenzhou want to beat her up. Cheng Xi felt like Lu Chenzhous gaze was getting even gloomier. If she looked closely enough, she would have seen his eyes about to burn up from anger. When she was almost done with the porridge, she brought out another dish: stir-fried meat with sauted celery. To Cheng Xi, this dish was pretty light, but it must have been something that Lu Chenzhou particularly liked, because she could clearly see him swallowing his saliva. Even the craziest person in the world had to eat. She picked up a large piece and waved it temptingly under his nose. Do you want to eat it? She even lightly teased, I remember telling you that the nature of clean freaks is to like dirty things. Last time, you ate the sweet potatoes that I peeled, and how dirty they were! Buried in the ground, plucked from a damp and dark environment with earthworms and bugs crawling all aroundbut didnt you still enjoy it nonetheless? She pushed the food on the coffee table closer to him, commandingly saying, Try some. It was already right next to his mouth; if Lu Chenzhou merely opened his mouth, hed be able to eat it. However, he didnt. Besides his frown deepening and his gaze turning even colder, Lu Chenzhou remained stoic. But a lack of reaction was in and of itself a reaction, so Cheng Xi kept going. Do you think that Im being particularly annoying right now? Then eat. Only if you eat and regain your vitality can you throw me out, and remove my annoying presence from your eyes. Upon hearing this, Lu Chenzhou glared at her for another period of time before suddenly opening his mouth and biting down fiercely on the chopsticks. Then, he he sucked in a breath, evidently having hurt himself from biting down too hard. Cheng Xi tried to stop herself from laughing outright as he stared at her fiercely. Alright, Im sorry. Laughing at someone else is wrong, but you can laugh at me too. Once, I was so hungry that I even started chewing on my own fingertips. After saying this, she brought him another dish. After he finished it, she took out a bowl of fish porridge and placed it by his side. He didnt take it, so Cheng Xi had to move next to him and feed him with a ladle. Thankfully, he didnt reject her again this time. Cheng Xi smiled at his compliance, and fed him the entire bowl of porridge quite naturally. A patient was similar to a child, so she didnt mind doing this. After she finished feeding him, she gathered up all the dishes. Lu Chenzhou stared at her, unsatisfied, with his gaze landing on the lunchbox by the coffee table. Cheng Xi smiled. You havent had food for a while, so you cant eat too much at the beginning. Eat some more later after youve had some time to digest. Now, can you let me give you a checkup? He didnt respond. Perhaps the food had helped his rationality recover somewhat, but he could recognize her now. Its you. Its me. You arent angry anymore? When she heard this, her heart seemed to ache out of pity. Im sorry, she sighed. I shouldnt have let you leave like that that day. He smiled, very faintly and very coolly, and with a taunting air. Evidently, he understood that, in her heart, Lin Fan was far more important than he ever would be. Cheng Xi didnt give an explanation; this simply wasnt something that she could explain. She treated his response as a silent acceptance of the situation and grabbed his hand. Indeed, it was quite warm to the touch. She lightly rolled up his sleeve, only a little, but it was enough for her to see lines upon lines of welts. Some were from scratching, and others She wanted to continue examining him, but Lu Chenzhou had already snatched his hand back. He lazily said, Leave. I dont want to have sex with you right now. Alright, Ill leave. But I cant just leave you like this. Youre my friend. When youre sick, I cant just abandon you. Friend. He smiled. Right after Cheng Xi detected the danger in his eyes, he exploded forth. He suddenly grabbed her, and then she felt a twinge of pain in her shoulder. He was biting down deeply on her just like a vampire. Cheng Xi felt like she was about to be bitten to death, and she was too afraid to struggle and too afraid to provoke him. As she endured the pain, she said, somewhat helplessly, My bodys really dirty. I was at the hospital the entire day, and was even in close contact with two patients who just entered the hospital. One of them even spat at me in his agitation. Hmm, its about at the same place where youre biting me Although she had told him that the nature of clean freaks was to like dirty things, this description was evidently beyond Lu Chenzhous tolerance. He froze before slowly letting go of her. Cheng Xi leaned backwards as she extended her hand into her clothes and touched the area that had been bitten. As expected, there was blood. This was truly an unlucky year for her, being bitten by both of her patients. Who knew if this time the injury would be more serious than the last? But when she saw the unbearable expression on his face, Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh. Im joking. Afraid that he was about to pounce on her again, however, she shook her head and said, Dont bite me. Im all skin and bones. What if I hurt your teeth? The pain was so intense that her face was contorting, but she was still joking with him. Even though he had just hurt her, she didnt shy away from him. Lu Chenzhou was reminded of that day when she had been hugging that little girl, not letting go even though she had been painfully biting down on her. Cheng Xi might not ever know that, when he witnessed that scene, only his greatest efforts had been able to restrain the brutality in his heart. In this moment, he had realized that his nature was just like that of the little girls: equally crazy, equally ill. He shut his eyes, trembling. ...Arent you afraid of me? Cheng Xi was curious, and asked, Why would I be afraid? I dont have any emotions. No, you do. Cheng Xi looked at him seriously. You care about your family, and youre afraid that theyll worry about your marriage affairs. So, you tried every trick you could think of to make me your girlfriend; this is kinship. You accompanied me to Chen Jiamans hometown and helped me interview local residents, discover what made everyone so suspicious, and investigate Chen Fuguo; this is sympathy. You also help your friends by helping them close business deals they wouldnt have been able to on their own; this is friendship You have all of these emotions, so why do you keep saying you dont? Her voice was so pleasant to the ear, so gentle. It was just like a long forgotten dream that he had once had. In that dream, he was surrounded by darkness on all sides. But then, a beam of light appeared from afar, so bright it chased the darkness away. He unconsciously confessed what he had never told anyone before. Thats all fake, all of it. I only did it because they told me that it was time for me to date someone and get married. At that time, coincidentally, Cai Yi wanted me to meet you, and so I did. Then I read some books that said that I had to help my girlfriend with anything she wanted, which was why I accompanied you to the Chen family house and helped you investigate them. It has nothing to do with sympathy; whos Chen Jiaman, and whos the Chen family? How are they related to me? The only reason I made friends and helped them is because I dont want to be a lonesome freak Honestly, I hate people. I hate social interaction, marriage, romance, family, friends To me, none of them have any meaning! I live only because I havent died yet. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 73: Sleeping Beauty Are you going to call that a pretense? I didnt think so. Lu Chenzhou even looked a little proud of his speech, opening his eyes to observe Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi responded, At least its not just me who hasnt noticed. I think that your grandparents havent either because theyve always believed that youre an intelligent, capable, righteous, and kind child. Your friends havent noticed. Baldy is very protective of you. Because he thinks that youre loyal and always willing to help, he treats you as his best friend. If so many people havent noticed, then how do you know that thats not the real you? Perhaps those words are the actual lies. Perhaps in reality, you really are intelligent, handsome, and sympathetic and passionate Its just that you havent noticed. As Lu Chenzhou listened, the pride in his face transformed into doubt, almost as if he were asking himself, Could that really be the case? Cheng Xi smiled, and reached out to grasp his hand. Alright. You can think about this problem yourself later. Now, lets look at your condition, okay? Her finger lightly pressed down on where she had seen scratch marks. With a sigh, she asked, Youve scratched away all the skin in this region. Does it hurt? Yes, it hurts. Does it itch? Yes, it itches. It hurts and itches? How uncomfortable that must be! Shall we call the doctor in to take a look at you? He stared at her. Arent you a doctor? This isnt my specialty, and youve been sick for quite a while. Thus, you need a holistic checkup. She went on, asking, Youre tired, arent you? If youre tired, then you should go to sleep for a while. The checkup will be very quick. Lu Chenzhou frowned and he adamantly refused. No! Why not? Its just a cold. Many people go to a doctor for this. You too? Me too. You are a failure of a doctor. His tone was so serious that Cheng Xi almost accepted it as a fact. But then, Lu Chenzhou yawned and simply said, Im tired, before falling forward and landing in her lap. She had seen what had happened last time he was tired, so Cheng Xi wasnt surprised when it happened again. She steadily propped him up until he was comfortably resting against her body with one hand clutching hers and the other unrestrainedly reaching into her clothes and pinching her waist as he sighed, How comfortable. Once he was sound asleep, Cheng Xi carefully extricated herself from Lu Chenzhou and went outside to call for Dr. Xie. Lets just have Dr. Xie enter, its better to have as few people inside as possible so that he doesnt wake up. She looked toward Lu Chenzhous anxious grandparents. Would the two of you mind waiting awhile? Despite their worry, they didnt object. Dr. Xie followed her in. He first put a hand to Lu Chenzhous forehead, before taking out a thermometer from his medicine box and giving it to Cheng Xi. Take his temperature. Cheng Xi took it and carefully maneuvered his hand around before putting the thermometer in his armpit from his collar. The cold sensation shocked him awake, and Lu Chenzhou opened his eyes. Cheng Xi explained, You have a fever. I need to take your temperature. He didnt respond, and merely looked at her, but he didnt object either. After a while, he took her hand and used it to prop his head up like a pillow. Cheng Xi was speechless, as now she was forced into a half-kneeling position to serve as his human pillow. Their postures were embarrassingly intimate, but Dr. Xie ignored them. He put on his stethoscope and very seriously moved it about Lu Chenzhous body for some time before asking Cheng Xi, Can you have him stick his tongue out for me? This was a highly difficult request, and Cheng Xi wasnt sure if she could accomplish it. The key was that she didnt know what would happen if she woke him up, so after a moments thought, Cheng Xi said, Can you look at something else first? Hes still suffering from an allergic reaction. The old doctor nodded and removed Lu Chenzhous clothes, but the resulting sight caused both of them to suck in a breath. Underneath the clothes, Lu Chenzhous back was all but covered with lacerations; the key point wasnt just the wounds, but the fact that the edges of those wounds were turning white from infectiona few places even showed signs of serious ulceration. No wonder Lu Chenzhou had been sleeping on his front when Cheng Xi had entered. Even now, he wasnt in a normal sleeping posture. Dr. Xie looked at him severely. Did he scratch himself with a blade and then dunk himself in water? How could it get so bad? I cant treat this; with the way he is now, he has to go to the hospital and receive specialized treatment for infection. We cant delay this any further, or hell really lose his life. When he was finished with his diagnosis, he peeled back Lu Chenzhous eyelids to check on his pupils, took his pulse, and then went out with a serious expression, saying nothing more. Cheng Xi also wanted to go out, but Lu Chenzhou was holding her hand so tightly that she couldnt move. The door outside wasnt shut completely, so she could hear snatches of the conversation going on. Lu Chenzhous grandfather seemed to be calling his son, Lu Chenzhous father. Your sons so ill that hes about to die. Even if you cant come back right now, cant you think of a solution? He has to go to the hospital now, but the way he is, who can send him there? Not long after the call, she heard Dr. Xie angrily shout, Whats the purpose of having all these people come over? In his condition, he needs a perfectly germ-free environment to recuperate in, and he also needs a fair number of examinations to ascertain how deep the infection is To think of building a germ-free environment here and to even bring the diagnostic machines over? You guys are really Silly but rich. Cheng Xi finished Dr. Xies evaluation that he couldnt say out loud in her head before looking at Lu Chenzhou and smiling. All of you are so similar, just waving money around to get your way. Lu Chenzhou slept quietly. It was the first time that Cheng Xi had ever been this close to him. Only now did she realize that the man in front of her was really a beautiful man; his skin was white and delicate and his facial features exquisite, cool, and grave. After meeting his father, Cheng Xi felt that his mother either had to be a peerless beauty or Lu Chenzhou had inherited the best features of his parents. The way he slept very much made him look like a sleeping beauty. Cheng Xi sighed, thinking that even if she couldnt be a prince, then she could at least be a manly enough woman to wake up a sleeping beautyas a doctor, she very much understood Dr. Xies exasperation when the Lu family had proposed bringing a whole hospitals worth of equipment to the Lu estate. If Lu Chenzhou still refused to cooperate, she was prepared to punch him in the face again and forcefully bring him to the hospital while he was dazed. He was different from Chen Jiaman, so being a bit rougher wouldnt matter. Lu Chenzhou didnt sleep deeply; his illness had made his whole personality a bit dazed, sometimes clear-headed and sometimes not. When he saw her after waking up again, he frowned as he repeated, What are you doing here? Probably thinking that she was too close to him, he even pushed her away. Cheng Xi didnt know whether to laugh or cry at this point, but at least she didnt have to serve as his pillow anymore. Before he could get angry again, she quickly poured him a glass of water. Have some water. Your lips are parched. Lu Chenzhou was really quite thirsty, and he took a big gulp of water from the glass in her hands. After taking in some fluids, he seemed to become more clear-headed, and he even leaned up and sat upright as he rubbed his forehead. Why are you here? Cheng Xi ignored his muddle-headedness and sincerely said, Youre seriously ill. You have to go to the hospital. After hearing this, he put his hands down, looking at her. She also looked back at him, her eyes completely devoid of hesitation. Under normal circumstances, you should already be lying in a hospital bed, so lets go there now, alright? Because he always had a specific sequence that he did things in from start to end, Cheng Xi wanted to implant in his mind the need to go to the hospital when he was sick. She wasnt sure of her chances of success, so she could only look at him anxiously. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 74: Hurdle After Hurdle Within the room, time seemed to pass even slower. The door to the living room wasnt closed, and the voices of the people talking outside could be intermittently heard. Cheng Xi was very worried that this might upset or rile Lu Chenzhou up. Luckily, her hint was successful, and Lu Chenzhou said, Lets go. It was said in a cool tone, but one that made Cheng Xi feel as though she had been relieved of a great burden. She stood up, and reached out with a hand to support him. He glanced at her and then leaned on her arm. Cheng Xi couldnt help but burst into laughter. He naturally noticed and asked, What are you laughing at? Mmm. Indeed, when looking at him, he seemed like he had returned to normal, as long as he didnt flare up again. Cheng Xi said, I feel like, if my waist were any lower, then Id essentially be a eunuch from ancient times helping his emperor up. After she said this, she even asked, Should I ask if youd like to rise? Lu Chenzhou glanced at her haughtily, and imperially responded, Rise. He stood up, his spine completely straight. Originally, he wanted to do it in a domineering manner, but his forehead uncontrollably scrunched up as he got up. Cheng Xi guessed that his clothes must have touched his infected skin, making him uncomfortable. When Cheng Xi thought back to that wound-riddled back that was unbearable to even look at, she started feeling guilty and also somewhat sympathetic. She really wanted to call and ask her mom when she had last washed or dried the quilt and Cheng Yangs clothes that he had used. Had it been the reason why Lu Chenzhous allergic reaction was this bad? Thats right. Her intuition told her that only those two things could have triggered Lu Chenzhous allergic reaction. As such, this was naturally one of the reasons why she felt particularly guilty and apologetic towards Lu Chenzhou. If something truly happened to him, then she felt like she would carry that weight for the rest of her life. But even in this state, Lu Chenzhou insisted on changing his clothes. Cheng Xi asked, confounded, Why not just put on an outer jacket? He shook his head, and stubbornly insisted on changing his clothes. Cheng Xi couldnt dissuade him and could only help him up the stairs to change. By the time he was finished, his grandfather was already starting to contact people to have the various medical instruments sent over; when he was halfway into his call, his wife suddenly pulled on his arm. He turned around and saw his grandson standing straight and imposing by the door. That Lu Chenzhous grandfather was at an advanced age, but this was the first time he had stammered in a long while. Zhou are you alright? Dr. Xie couldnt keep watching, and started ridiculing from the side. Look at how hes barely standing up straight. Does it look like hes alright? Oh, thats right. Only now did Lu Chenzhous grandfather see that Cheng Xi was standing by his grandsons side and trying her hardest to hold him steady, so much so that her petite body was about to fall over. A couple of the young doctors walked up to help, but Lu Chenzhou didnt let them. So, Cheng Xi could only grit her teeth and say, Its fine, I can handle it. Lu Chenzhous grandfather almost sighed at this sight, his only thought being that it was so fortunate that a person who his grandson didnt despise had finally appeared. He clutched the phone that was still connected and said to Cheng Xi, deeply moved, Then Ill trouble you, Dr. Cheng. Cheng Xi smiled, but she was sighing in her heart. If you have the time to say this, then get in the car! At least Dr. Xie was reliable. He truly understood that Lu Chenzhous situation was very precarious, so he immediately readied the cars, decided who would go where, and assigned tasks to everyone. As Lu Chenzhous grandmother watched on anxiously, Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou got into the first car. Once he had assigned everyone their respective roles, Dr. Xie commanded from outside, Go to the central hospital. Quickly. Lu Chenzhou immediately scratched Cheng Xis palm. They were the only two people in the backseat. He was leaning on her shoulder, so when he scratched her, she turned around. His black eyes were gleaming enigmatically at her. Whats the matter? she asked. Go to Renyi Hospital. Dr. Xies a famed specialist in treating your illnesses. If he takes care of you, youll also recover quicker. You dont want to stay in the hospital for too long, do you? Lu Chenzhou stopped talking, but some coldness nonetheless seeped through his mask; clearly, he wasnt in favor of this decision. For lack of a better option, Cheng Xi could only say, Dr. Xie personally came here to treat you, so it would be rude to dismiss him at this point. Of course this was just an excuse; in truth, she could see that Lu Chenzhous reliance on her was unhealthy, so she wanted to maintain as professional a doctor-patient relationship with him as possible. But even though she wanted to put some distance between them, other people always got in the way. Lu Chenzhous grandmother, who was sitting in the front passenger seat, peeked her head back and smiled at them as she said, Dont worry. We can go to Renyi Hospital. Ill just let your grandfather know. As if to alleviate Cheng Xis earlier concerns, she added, Itll be fine. Dr. Xie and my husband are on good terms with each other. Even if we go to Renyi Hospital, we can still invite him to perform the medical examination. Cheng Xi looked silently at Lu Chenzhous grandmother, who had spoiled her plans. His grandmother then quickly called her husband to inform him of the change in plans. Tell Dr. Xie that were going to Renyi Hospital. Her phone was set to speaker mode, so Lu Chenzhous grandfathers voice rang out through the car. He first asked, Why are we going to Renyi? But then he seemed to have thought of something, and his voice quickly changed. Alright, alright, well go to Renyi. Ill tell all of them. Leave quickly and let me handle the rest. Once Lu Chenzhous grandmother finished the call, she turned and smiled at them again. This time, her gaze was directed particularly strongly toward Cheng Xi, which made her feel very uncomfortable. She knew what these two old folks were thinking. Undoubtedly, it was something along the lines of how compatible their grandson and she looked. With regards to this, Cheng Xi felt both speechless and helpless. The Lu family was in complete control of Donglais medical branch, so they had connections in the medical field that Cheng Xi could only dream of. In fact, they had managed to arrange everything in the hospital mid-ride. Once the car arrived, Lu Chenzhou was immediately sent to a VIP-level intensive care unit. Because of his high fever, he had fallen into another stupor during the ride over. Cheng Xi sat outside the ward for a very long time, waiting all the way until Lu Chenzhou finished his general inspection, took a few doses of medicine, and fell into a deep sleep. Only then did she tiredly head home. When she finally got home, it was past midnight. The lamp in the living room was still lit, but Lin Fan had already left. On the dining table was the food that she had bought after getting off work earlier. When she lifted the plastic covering the food, it only revealed cold steak and spaghetti that had already congealed into tasteless lumps. Then she noticed that the scones she had asked to be delivered back had been left to the side. She had sent six back for him, but there were still six left; Lin Fan hadnt eaten a single one. Cheng Xi sighed and took out her phone to call him. He didnt pick up. Unfortunately, it seemed like he was angry again. Cheng Xi caressed her forehead, thinking about what she could do now to make it up to him. Right now, Lin Fan was drinking at a bar with some colleagues. With music being blasted at ear-splitting levels, nothing could be heard from the other end. Meng Qingyang was sitting by his side, watching Lin Fan drain glass after glass of beer with the pretense of being punished for being late. All of his colleagues were cheering him on, so he poured himself another glass. But just as he was about to down it, Meng Qingyang stopped him. What happened to you? she asked as she squeezed closer. Lin Fan turned to look at her, causing the girl by his side to quickly flush red, her eyes seemingly flashing underneath the bars strobe lights. He shook his head and said nothing as he pushed her hand away and drank another glass. As the beer slowly fell down his throat, he felt the coldness seep all the way from his mouth down to his heart. His colleagues were partying crazily. The effect of the alcohol even caused two colleagues who were mutually interested in each other to finally break through their barrier and kiss, causing everyone to clap for them. But even then, Lin Fan only felt the cold sensation of desolation in the laughter of the crowd. He also wanted to love someone like that, without a care for anything else. However, he didnt know if his timing was off, but he kept feeling like he was running into hurdle after hurdle, even after they had successfully made their feelings clear. The owner of the hand came closer, immediately filling his nostrils with an enticing scent. Lin Fan, this isnt fun. Lets go. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 75: You Care That Much About Him? Perhaps it was because she was too tired, but Cheng Xi didnt sleep well that day. She dreamed throughout the whole night, but her dreams were filled with scenes of neither rhyme nor reason, a large number of people and random things flitting through them. When a loud knocking sound came from her door, she was dreaming of walking barefoot along a cliff as loose stones cut at her like sharp knives. On some level, dreams reflected the inner self. As a psychiatrist, Cheng Xi clearly understood that this dream represented the danger that she felt from Lu Chenzhou. The intense knocking on her door shattered her dreams of danger. When she raised her head, she saw Lin Fans face through the screen door. She was very surprised because he exuded an aura of absolute dejection; his clothes were a mess and his hair disheveled. Once the door open, he immediately leapt over, hugged her, and started kissing her passionately. Cheng Xi was very unsettled; unlike Lu Chenzhous dazed actions that one night, Lin Fans passion seemed to be fueled by anger and suppressed emotions. His bodys stench was hard to bear, as it was the smell of stale beer mixed together with bitter tobacco and a cloyingly sweet perfume. She tried to block his advances. Lin Fan, whats wrong with you? Dont be like this. He ignored her and grabbed her hands. This never before seen impatient behavior felt like he was urgently trying to obtain something from her. Cheng Xi had never liked this sort of out-of-control intimacy. When he started pinning her hands down, she leaned back to build up some momentum before headbutting him with her skull when he kissed her behind the ear. The headbutt hurt Lin Fan enough to make him suck in a deep breath, forcing him to release her and grab his nose. Not long after, fresh blood seeped through his fingers. Unfortunately, Cheng Xi hadnt been very accurate and had accidentally smashed his nose. Even though her own face also hurt, Cheng Xi was still concerned for him first. Are you alright? Lin Fan shook his head, clearly having sobered up from the shock. Faced with Cheng Xis clear-headed and somewhat cool expression, he was so embarrassed that he couldnt even look her in the eye. Cheng Xi pretended not to have noticed his embarrassment and poured some cold water into a basin to serve as a compress to stop the bleeding. Then she even grabbed a wad of cotton for him to stuff up his nose. Once she had prepared everything, Cheng Xi stooped to a side and watched him wash his nose. Her expression was filled with concentration, her expression oozing gentleness, and her clear eyes carrying a faint hint of a smile; her entire mien made one calm down quickly. Lin Fan couldnt help but splash her with a bit of water. Cheng Xi was unable to dodge it, and the water droplets dripped down her face like pearls. After a mess of a night, he could only marvel at how wonderful it was to see her again. Unable to resist the temptation in his heart, Lin Fan leaned in closer, trying to lick her lips. Cheng Xi dodged, wiping her face while simultaneously laughing at him. Whatre you laughing at? If I were you, I wouldnt have chosen to hit on someone at this time. She stretched out her hand, pointing at his nose. Only then did Lin Fan remember that two wads of cotton were still stuffed inside his nostrils. He quickly lowered his head and mumbled, Youre quite fierce. Sorry. I only wanted to hit you lightly. As she said this, she couldnt help but think of Lu Chenzhou and the two punches that she had given him; that was truly fierce. She could still see a bit of bruising by his jaw last night. And for some reason, men always seemed to like trying to be intimate while they were out-of-control. Just what did they think they could achieve in that state? Lin Fan had completely sobered up by now, saying, Its fine. Ill treat it as the price I have to pay for being frivolous. Upon hearing this, Cheng Xi patted his head. Keep reflecting. Ill go wash up. If the bleeding doesnt stop after a few minutes, then Ill look at your face again. Her expression was so natural, it was almost as if his losing control wasnt surprising at all. Although Lin Fan had felt somewhat guilty at first, not wanting her to ask about what happened that night, he actually felt somewhat depressed when she didnt bring it up at all. He nodded as he responded somewhat stuffily, Alright. Cheng Xi was actually somewhat curious about what had happened. The reason why she didnt ask was because she was trying to be conscientious; he would definitely tell her if he wanted to talk about it. She didnt think too much of it, so she went to wash her face with a relaxed heart. When she returned, Lin Fan was still kneeling in front of the wash basin. She walked over and his expression was one of extreme shock as he looked at her. Whats the matter? His expression was too obvious, so much so that Cheng Xi couldnt help but ask him about it. She asked, Did something happen? No. Lin Fan clutched at his nose, forcing himself to laugh. Im afraid that youll dislike me. Dislike you for what? For running over to your place and doing all that after I became really drunk Dont you blame me? He glanced at her, his tone sincere. Im sorry. I originally wanted to wait for you to return, but my colleagues asked me to go drink, and I couldnt blow them off. So, I had to head over Oh, right. Is Mr Lu alright? Its a bit serious. He scratched the hives that were caused by his allergic reaction and that broke the skin, which then led to a serious infection. In the end, he has to stay in a germ-free environment for a few days. Oh, Lin Fan responded, before asking a while later, Did he actually not know that he cant scratch himself after an allergic reaction? This was said somewhat maliciously, but Cheng Xi knew what he was feeling and could sympathize with his reaction, so she pretended to not hear it. He probably knows that, but he wasnt paying attention. Actually, not only did he break through his skin, but he also immersed it in water, making it even more serious. Alright, lets not talk about him anymore. She stood up and rolled up her sleeves. Im planning on making up for last nights dinner. Do you want to help? No. Lin Fan had also realized that he was being petty, so he jokingly said, I made all the food yesterday, so you have to make all of it today if you want to make it up to me. Cheng Xi smiled. Alright. Then just go wait outside for a big meal. After saying this, she went into the kitchen. Lin Fan looked at her back, his smile slowly vanishing until his face was completely expressionless. The steak from yesterday was already cold, and it wouldnt taste good even if she heated it back up. Cheng Xi felt that it would be a waste to throw it away, so she called her mom and asked her for advice on how to best revise it. As a chef with many years of experience, her mother quickly responded with a method. After she taught it to her daughter, she casually asked, Whats Lu Chenzhous phone number? Give it to me. Admittedly, Lu Chenzhou had clearly been more excessive on that day than her. In her mothers eyes, he had already gone from that dolt to Lu Chenzhou. Black streaks marred Cheng Xis forehead. Why do you want his number? You refused to let us parents meet up, so I want to talk to him about his aspirations and goals. Cant I do even that? Cheng Xi chuckled. No, mom. Dont cause any more trouble for me. And then she hung up. When she turned around to grab some starch, she saw Lin Fan standing by the door. Her heart jumped a little, but she didnt let it show. Instead, she put on a smile and said, Whats the matter? Did you decide that you couldnt bear have me work alone and came to offer me help? And Lin Fan indeed did wash his hands and start to help her. As Cheng Xi covered the steak in starch, he washed the vegetables by her side. As he washed them, he asked, What do you like about me, Cheng Xi? Cheng Xi looked at him, still smiling. Im not quite sure. Perhaps its because you stood out from the crowd? Upon hearing this, Lin Fan also laughed, responding, Then how long will you like me for? If you dont change, then I probably wont change either. Really? Yup. Lin Fan just looked at her as his laugh started to turn somewhat forlorn. Cheng Xi wasnt as skilled as her mother at cooking, so she had messed up the modified steak dish. In the end, it was Lin Fan who saved the day by making two ham sandwiches. When breakfast was finally served, Cheng Xis phone rang. Lin Fan had come to her house very early, at almost six in the morning. So, they were also having an early breakfast, at around seven. The call was from Lu Chenzhous grandmother, who was almost crying while on the phone. The results are out. He has septicemia. What do we do? Even though she could predict that Lu Chenzhous condition was quite serious from Dr. Xies expression last night, it was still hard for Cheng Xi to accept that the worst had actually happened. After the phone call ended, she put down her utensils. Upon seeing her expression, Lin Fan quickly asked, Whats the problem? Lu Chenzhous examination results are out. He has septicemia. Lin Fan didnt like her serious expression, and after a while, asked, ......Is it hard to cure? Yes, somewhat. She stood up and said, I have to go to the hospital. Lin Fan pulled her down. Cant you eat something first? He tried to restrain his anger as he looked at her. Its not your specialty, so being late isnt a big deal. Please eat something before heading over, alright? Im sorry. I really cant eat anything right now. She broke free and was about to walk away, truly very worried. Peng! In his anger, Lin Fan threw his utensils onto the plate. He suddenly stood up. Do you really care that much about him?! Cheng Xi stopped in her tracks, slowly turning around to look at him. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 76: You Only Care About Him Lin Fan was still angry. He knew that, at this time, he should calm down, act kindly, and be considerate of her actions. But he couldnt stand it. His mind was consumed by agitation and a tinge of sorrow, but his tone did become gentler. Do you care that much about him? What about me? Even after I came here in this wretched state, why didnt you ask why? When I said that I was drunk, did you really believe that? Why was I drunk, what did I do while I was drunkdont you care about any of that? Do you only care about him? Cheng Xi took a deep breath. What he was saying wasnt technically correct; in reality, she had asked him all those questions when he had first entered through the door. It wasnt that she didnt care, but rather that she could tell that he didnt want to answer. But now wasnt the time to worry about this. She looked at him directly. Lin Fan, I already know why you got drunk, and I also know why youre not feeling well. But I can only say one thing: Im not romantically involved with Lu Chenzhou at all. As I said yesterday, hes ill, and theres a reason why I have to personally take care of him. If you believe me, then Ill be very happy, but if not, then I also understand why. This again. Lin Fan smiled a desolate smile. You say all this as if Im a petty person. You always ask me to believe you, but how can I? Dont you feel that your care and attention to him is way beyond whats normal? Cheng Xi, I really want to be generous and gracious, but I dont like that youre so close to him. No matter what you think, I dont like it. He had finally revealed his deepest thoughts. With his heart bare, he looked at her, his expression pleading for her to consider his feelings. Before, Cheng Xi had always felt that Lin Fan was too introverted and that he was bottling all his emotions up in his heart. She didnt expect that a day would come when he could be so forward. But this was fine too, as it allowed them to exchange thoughts candidly. She didnt get mad, turning back around instead. Alright, Im sorry. I was too hasty when deciding just now. She reached out for his hand and guided it to her face. I know that its not good for me to act like this since it bothers you. However, please dont be angry, alright? Then are you still going to go? Cheng Xi didnt respond, so Lin Fan slowly retrieved his hand and left without another word. Cheng Xi called out to him a few times, but he never responded. In the end, she had no choice but to let him go. She felt that, since he was still angry, it would be better for her to wait for him to calm down before explaining everything, but she didnt realize that, when Lin Fan saw no sign of Cheng Xi chasing after him as he walked out, the disappointment in his heart was almost enough to drown him. All men held an insatiable desire within their hearts. Before Lin Fan and Cheng Xis relationship had solidified, Lin Fan had been able to wait for her patiently despite her other boyfriend. However, now that their relationship was confirmed, Lin Fan found that he wasnt able to stand seeing her care so much about any other man. Especially after what happened last night. After Lin Fans outburst, even though Cheng Xi was certain that she would be able to get back together with him, she didnt feel very well. She rubbed her face vigorously, and then did so again. Only after she felt like she had rubbed all her unease away did she rush to the hospital. The Lu family was arranged in a neat little row. After a night had passed, Lu Chenzhous father had also arrived, and he was currently standing with his parents in front of Lu Chenzhous ward. Apparently, his brother had also come, but Cheng Xi didnt see him anywhere. Lu Chenzhous grandmother explained, Hes still a kid in school. Its useless for him to be here, so we made him leave first. Cheng Xi didnt mind, and instead tried to persuade Lu Chenzhous grandparents to rest. If theres nothing to do, then the two of you should go rest as well. Mr. Lu will have the best doctors taking care of him. If you persist, then not only will be delaying his recovery, but the two of you might also get sick. Lu Chenzhous father was also trying to persuade his parents to leave. Lu Chenzhous grandmother, however, was very stubborn. Im not leaving. With the way he is now, how can I leave without worrying? Lu Chenzhous father logically rebutted, But you cant help even if youre here. He was trying to take care of his mother, but this was the straw that broke the camels back. Lu Chenzhous grandmother was originally just worried about her grandson, but when she heard this, she became so angry that she stopped caring about her image and turned to her son, prepared to give him a public scolding. Then, how about you? Are you of any use right now? As his father, are you even worried about your son? If I hadnt called you so many times last night, would you have come home at all? When have you ever cared about your son? Youre already middle-aged; a failure of a father leads to a failure of a son. If someday the two of us die, then this familys going to fall apart too! Lu Chenzhous father was a middle-aged man in a position of power, and he was made so discomfited by this public humiliation that he turned to leave, not even properly greeting Cheng Xi. Lu Chenzhous grandmother began to tremble in anger, and his grandfathers expression also turned more serious as the corners of his mouth drooped. Cheng Xi felt very awkward about stepping into this situation and was getting ready to leave when Lu Chenzhous grandmother suddenly pulled on her hand, complaining, Whats going to happen to our little Zhou? Hes never been close to his father even when he was young, and now hes fallen illhes still not married. What can he do in the future? Only then did Cheng Xi find an excuse to leave. Dont worry. Even though septicemia is a troublesome disease, its not hard to treat once we determine the bacteria responsible for it. Please dont be too anxious. Ill go look at him, alright? Lu Chenzhous grandmother finally let go of her. Cheng Xi then proceeded to look at Lu Chenzhou. He was lying in a germ-free ward, still deep in sleep. If not for his hospital gown, this would have been the most peaceful that Cheng Xi had ever seen him. She really felt quite guilty as she headed to the doctor in charge of Lu Chenzhou, an authority in the field. He had already finished looking at Lu Chenzhous file, and wasnt in a hurry to answer her questions. Instead, the first words out of his mouth was, Hes the boyfriend who booked all of your appointment slots because he was worried youd be tired, isnt he? Was this gossip not over yet? She was speechless, but still had to say something in response. Its all a misunderstanding. Could you please tell me how hes doing? Not well at all! Despite his good physique, hes taken such poor care of his body that hes lucky hes not dead yet. Cheng Xi didnt say anything, and only looked at him with pleading eyes until the doctor smiled and said, Alright, stop looking at me like that! And to think that your professor said that you were her best studentit doesnt seem like youre anything special. Dont worry. We just have to treat him slowly. At the very least, he wont die on my watch. Even though he didnt mention any specifics, Cheng Xi still relaxed. Next, she went over the possible reasons for his illness again, saying, I asked my mom. She washes and dries that quilt every year, so we dont know how he ended up getting an allergic reaction. If you need it, I can get you a sample of it. Alright. Please do so, as we have to check everything. And so, Cheng Xi went to her department, took a days leave, went home, got a sample of the quilt, and then sent it to the lab before receiving yet another call from Lu Chenzhous grandmother. Dr. Cheng, are you at the hospital? Can you come over quickly? Our little Zhou refuses to stay in the hospital and wants to leave. What do we do?! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 77: Suggestive After Cheng Xi rushed over to the hospital, she found that Lu Chenzhous grandmother had been exaggerating. Lu Chenzhou didnt plan on leaving, but he had woken up, and was sitting by the head of his bed with a severe mien as he listened to the doctor explain his illness to him. It was true that his expression wasnt good, but he certainly wasnt crying and shouting about leaving the hospital. From the monitor, Cheng Xi saw that Cai Yi was also inside the room, and immediately calmed down. She didnt rush in, and silently observed the scene for a moment before heading outside again. Lu Chenzhous grandfather had already left, and his grandmother was the only family member outside. She was somewhat embarrassed that she had called Cheng Xi over for nothing, and said, He really was shouting about leaving the hospital just now. Luckily, your professor arrived and convinced him not to. Cheng Xi smiled. She could understand her worry and didnt mind it much, comforting her with a warm voice instead. She was quite good at it too; not long after, Lu Chenzhous grandmother was convinced by her words and indeed did calm down. Upon noticing her wan and bleary expression, Cheng Xi was about to persuade her to leave and restthe truth was that she wasnt doing much here; Lu Chenzhou was in a germ-free environment and receiving the best possible treatment with a professional nurse and doctor attending to him. The presence of his family members was unnecessary. There was only one thing they could provide: because Lu Chenzhou had septicemia, besides the necessary medical treatment, he also needed to be well nourished. In the Lu household, this was no problem at all. And so, Cheng Xi began discussing Lu Chenzhous future diet with his grandmother. But before they could finish, the door opened and Cai Yi and the others came out. Lu Chenzhous grandmother was called away by the doctor in charge, while Cheng Xi and her professor stayed behind. Sorry to bother you last night. It was fine. Cheng Xi shook her head and glanced at Lu Chenzhous ward before asking, How is it? Its in the early stages, so its not difficult to treat. As long as he cooperates, it wont be a big deal. Cai Yis words were concise, her tone calm. Cheng Xi clutched at her chest as she sighed, Thats a relief. When she raised her head, she saw that her professor was looking at her with a half-smile, and she blushed. I was worried that I was responsible as I suspected that he fell ill at my place. Cai Yi was somewhat shocked. What do you mean? Cheng Xi explained what had happened that day briefly, only leaving out the fact that he had hugged and kissed her right after seeing her. When Cai Yi had heard everything, she started shaking her head. You love to take responsibility for everything, dont you? Do you know why hes such a clean freak? Its because his skin is naturally sensitive, and just a bit of carelessness can lead to endless problems. Who knows whether or not he touched something dirty beforehand? As you said, he ran to find you while dripping wet. Cheng Xi had no reply. Cai Yi stopped comforting her, and instead said, But his situation really was quite dangerous. If it took us any longer to get to him, then he might not have been saved. Go and take a look at him first. If theres anything wrong, we can talk later. So Cheng Xi tidied herself up and put on a face mask and isolation suit before entering the ward. Lu Chenzhou was still sitting by the head of the bed, his complexion pale and stark white, even his lips color bleached out. He seemed like a flower past its prime whose petals were wilting pitifully, completely devoid of its previous cold and haughty demeanor. Cheng Xi walked over. She first picked up the medical records by the head of his bed in a smooth manner. Goodhis last few temperature readings showed that his high fever had broken. Although she wasnt a specialist, she knew that, given his situation, as long as the fever broke, the rest would be far easier. She put down the records and finally turned around to face him. Cheng Xi couldnt help but smileLu Chenzhou couldnt see her smile, but he could tell that she was smiling because her eyes, the only part of her body that was exposed, had curved into crescents. Are you better? Lu Chenzhou didnt respond, turning instead to face the other side of the room. A nurse pushed a cart inside; on the pushcart were cups filled with medicine, needles, and other medical paraphernalia. Cheng Xi almost immediately noticed Lu Chenzhous anxiety, and couldnt help but be momentarily startled. It couldnt bethe brilliant Lu Chenzhou, who acted as though he didnt care much about anything, was actually afraid of needles? He was really quite scared, so much so that he even ignored Cheng Xi as he stared rigidly at the needle in the nurses hands. Lu Chenzhou? The nurse pinched the needle tip, verifying his identity. Lu Chenzhou didnt speak, so Cheng Xi had to answer for him. Yes, hes Lu Chenzhou. The nurse glanced at her, and then lowered the needle, preparing to give him an injection. Lu Chenzhou stretched out his hand rigidly, and the nurse had to tap his wrist several times before finally saying, Relax. But despite the request, Mr. Lus hand remained as taut as ever. Even though he was trying his hardest to cooperate, his muscles contracted of their own accord. His physique wasnt bad, and the muscles in his hand were well developed. Once he got nervous, his muscles became bundles of steel. Seeing this, Cheng Xi suddenly grabbed his other hand as she lightly called out to him. Lu Chenzhou turned around subconsciously, his mind relaxing for a moment. And in that moment, the nurse found the correct vein and thrust the needle into his skin. Good, there was blood flowing. Beautiful people always received preferential treatment. Were he an ordinary man, the nurse might have sneered at him and left upon realizing that such a big fellow was afraid of a needle. But because he was so handsome, the nurse even comforted him. Look, it doesnt hurt, does it? Dont be so anxious. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh, which made Lu Chenzhou glare at her. When the nurse left, he snatched her hand, pulled it next to his face, and ran his teeth over it. There wasnt any blood, but he did leave a neat row of teeth marks; it didnt hurt, but it was quite suggestive. Cheng Xi took her hand back, somewhat embarrassed, but Lu Chenzhou behaved like nothing had happened. He closed his eyes and shamelessly requested, Id like to hear a story. His tone was cold, but his voice was hoarse. Without his usual power, he sounded like an awkward child acting coyly with an adult. Cheng Xi didnt refuse and told him a story, his favorite one. Lu Chenzhou must have been exhausted, because he fell asleep before she could even finish. Cheng Xi adjusted his bed a little to help him sleep easier, only leaving when she saw him sleeping soundly. As she exited the room, she saw Cai Yi looking at her strangely. Cheng Xi couldnt help but touch her face as she asked, What is it? Is there something on my face? Cai Yi merely responded, Cheng Xi, how old are you? Twenty-nine. Hmm, age isnt the problem. At least now I know why, despite your looks and personality, youve never been in a romantic relationship until now. Cheng Xi was very surprised, as this seemed like a random topic to bring up; when had Professor Cai started behaving like an ordinary woman, gossiping about such things? But she didnt correct her; the main reason why she had never been in a relationship was because that person wasnt here. Once he returned, however, she had indeed quickly gotten into one. Somewhat amused, she asked, Why do you say that? Because the way you look at other people is too benevolent. From their point of view, your eyes probably remind them of their mothers. Cheng Xi choked quite abruptly. Cai Yi laughed loudly, and then she dragged Cheng Xi to her office. Instead of first discussing Lu Chenzhous illness, she instead asked, Cheng Xi, even though youre more of a mother than me, what will you do if someone particularly likes that aspect of you? Let me ask you somethingtell me honestly, have you ever considered getting into a relationship with your patients? After running around for the entire morning, Cheng Xi had been thirsty and had naturally poured herself a glass of water and taken a sip right as she entered. When Cai Yi asked such a bizarre question, she almost choked again. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 78: Let鈥檚 Get Married Cheng Xi could only reply very seriously. Professor, I already have a boyfriend. Cai Yi made a soft Oh in response as she inspected her closely. The girl in front of her had a very youthful face and was young, pretty, and filled with an exuberant vitality. This really made her admire Cheng Xi. She had known her for quite a while now: the first time Cai Yi had met Cheng Xi was when the latter was a senior in college, following behind a bunch of students doing a practicum. While the others had been somewhat frenetic and wary about the prospect of facing a mentally ill patient, she had already started approaching him. Even after all these years, her vitality had not been depleted one bit; it wasnt just a matter of youth, but also her passion and love towards her career. But Cai Yi put all this aside and casually asked, How long has it been going on for? After hearing that it hadnt been too long, she clicked her tongue. You should still be in the passionate stage, but I dont see any of that sweetness in your face. Cheng Xi responded somewhat drolly, I didnt know that you could read faces too, professor. Cai Yi was proud. Of course, Im a psychiatrist! Ive been very interested in psychoanalysis lately, and my ability to glean information from other peoples expressions has improved. Ive been reading fewer books than I should lately. Cheng Xi was ashamed at hearing that even a famous psychiatrist like Cai Yi was still working hard to advance herself. Cai Yi was very understanding. Youre working and have a lot of busy work too. As long as your heart is there, its fine. The two of them discussed their studies and some medical cases for a while when Cai Yi suddenly asked, out of the blue, Hows your research on Lu Chenzhous illness progressing? Cheng Xi nonchalantly responded, Id like to request that you assign him another doctor, professor. As soon as she made her request, she knew there was going to be trouble. Originally, even if she was going to ask that the case be re-assigned, she should have brought up a good reason first before proposing it. However, now that she had brought it up with a worried tone Indeed, Cai Yi clapped her hands together, excited. He likes you? Cai Yi laughed. Theres nothing strange about that. Patients who suffer from mental illnesses find it very easy to latch onto their doctors. As a young pretty woman, its actually quite natural for people like you. But its not too appropriate if you withdraw from his treatment in the middle of it. You know how particular Lu Chenzhou is. He probably wont accept a new doctor taking his case. Cheng Xi lowered her gaze, not speaking. Cai Yi asked, What, is it really that big of a problem? What happened last time caused Lin Fan to have a misunderstanding with Mr. Lu. Is it just that? Cheng Xi, youre not that helpless of a woman. Cheng Xis heart was shaken. After that, Cai Yi said something else about being lazy and applying a quick patch. This was the crudest method of solving problems; she was all but admitting that she had no confidence in extricating herself from her problems. A mental patients mind was often a big mess, with particularly strong deviations in their thoughts and actions. When facing such patients, psychiatrists often had to ignore what was right or ethical, because they needed to empathize with their patients before they could accept them on a psychological level. Cheng Xi had always been very good at this aspect of being a psychiatrist, and Cai Yi really hadnt expected that there would be a time when she too would falter. Last time, Cai Yis words had only been a reminder for Cheng Xi. But this time, when she saw and heard about how differently Lu Chenzhou treating her, Cai Yis question about whether she would consider entering a romantic relationship with one of her patients was actually a reminder in disguise. But the response that she got from her was quite unexpected. Cai Yi couldnt help but caress her forehead. I didnt imagine that Lu Chenzhou would be this charming. Cheng Xi blanked for a moment before realizing that her teacher had misunderstood. However, she had no words to say: she was originally afraid that her presence would influence Lu Chenzhou too much. But now, she was afraid that she wouldnt have enough strength to see matters through. She also couldnt directly mention Lu Chenzhous erratic behavior, so Cheng Xi could only try to salvage things. Its not thatIm just a bit worried. Cai Yi nodded with an understanding expression on her face. She even gave her some advice. It seems like you dont feel particularly strongly about your boyfriend. So, be careful to not randomly choose someone just because youre being pressured. A matter as important as marriage cant be rushed. Truly, it couldntlook at her, she was the model of waiting patiently. In response, Cheng Xi said, Im not in a rush. Ive already known him for so many years. Hmm, so youre childhood sweethearts. Not letting Cheng Xi relax, Professor Cai added, But so what? Sometimes, even a childhood sweetheart cant beat a new contestant. As psychiatrists, we should understand that time alone doesnt mean very much. Time represents mutual understanding, a deepening of emotions and affections. Cheng Xi was forced to rebut. We really love each other, and its unlikely that wed be easily replaced. Everyone said that one shouldnt speak carelessly of love, and Cheng Xi would soon have to eat her words. But in that moment, because she wasnt aware of what would happen in the near future, she had declared her love very calmly. But Cai Yi only treated it as a last-ditch effort. She gave up on fighting with her any further, instead smiling and saying, Alright, what you do is up to you. As long as youre happy, thats fine. Anyways, emotions are a very small portion of your life, so lets stop talking about it. Lets go see your patient instead. Cheng Xi felt like she had just been steamrolled, but she still took Cai Yi to see Chen Jiaman, first taking out her medical reports and her observation diary; it was a habit of hers to record daily observations of each of her patients in a diary. Her observations were particularly detailed, even including her insight on how their treatments were progressing. Cai Yi thought highly of this practice, and she had requested that all her future students do the same. But no matter what, Cheng Xis were still the best. Cai Yis observation lasted for half the afternoon. She even personally observed Chen Jiaman for quite a while. In the end, she said to Cheng Xi, I think that your treatment methodology will work, but hospitals care more about efficiency. Luckily, with the way her situation is, she doesnt have any family members pressuring her to leave the hospital. Thus, you can take your time and observe her while trying to find the best method to treat her. Who knows, you might even make a major finding in our current understanding of this syndrome. Cheng Xi had never been thinking about any of that. All she wanted to do was her duty as a doctor. What Cai Yi appreciated about her the most was this quality that Cheng Xi embodied: her ability to forge ahead, devoid of selfishness or desire for fame; all her passion rested with her patients. If not for the fact that Cheng Xi had already signed a long-term contract with the hospital, Cai Yi would have snatched her up for her own laboratory. And as for Chen Jiaman, Cai Yi had previously thought that her illness was too unusual to be studied as a part of a larger set of medical cases. But after reading through Cheng Xis observation diary, Cai Yi became much more interested in the casenot only did Chen Jiaman suffer from Cotards syndrome, but she also had the classic symptoms of autism and depression. As a test subject, she would definitely be a valuable addition to her clinical study. Cheng Xi didnt yet know that Cai Yis thoughts were steering this way towards her patient; after she sent Cai Yi away, she went back to look at Chen Jiaman again. Thanks to her recording device, Chen Jiaman was now very familiar with Cheng Xis voice, and even if Cheng Xi were to stand in front of her, she would no longer have an extreme violent reaction. But they still couldnt communicate; Cheng Xi had tried to play games with her, simple finger games where she would twist her fingers together and stretch them in front of Chen Jiaman in different ways, saying things like, Look, this is a piece of ginger. This is the moon. This is the wind in a willow tree. Chen Jiaman only ever looked at her expressionlessly, as if she were staring at a foolish mortal. What the mortal Cheng Xi was diligently trying to accomplish was probably about the limits of what Chen Jiaman could tolerate. Seeing no response from her erstwhile patient, Cheng Xi could only leave in defeat. It was already time to get off work, and the nurses were getting ready to change shifts at their station. Cheng Xi made one last stop at Lu Chenzhous ward to check up on him. Lu Chenzhou hadnt woken up yet, but his entire family was all here, neat and orderly as they waited outside. And then Cheng Xi finally saw Lu Chenzhous little brother, Lu Chenming. The two looked at each other, and Cheng Xi was the one to react first. Its you? Lu Chenming was actually the student auditing her class, the one who loved to sleep and who always blushed upon making eye contact! Lu Chenmings face immediately flushed red, all the way to the tip of his ears, and he scrambled behind his grandfather. Lu Chenzhous grandmother asked curiously, Dr. Cheng, you know our little Ming? Ive seen him around school a couple of times. Wow, really? You must share a connection. Although his grandparents found it somewhat curious that their grandson, an applied math major, would know Cheng Xi, who was a psychiatrist, they were both very pleased. It clearly showed on their faces, and Cheng Xi felt that interacting with these two old folks would only increase her stress, so she instead went to look for Lu Chenzhous head doctor. She found out that, despite the fact that they had yet to identify the bacteria responsible for Lu Chenzhous health issues, his response to the medicine was very good. Cheng Xi could finally relax. Lu Chenzhous grandmother was grabbing her hand and trying to chat with her some more when Cheng Xis phone rang. It was a call from the nurses station: Dr. Cheng, havent you left yet? Your boyfriends here for you! Cheng Xi was somewhat surprised and also a little excited, because, judging by Lin Fans personality, it was quite unusual for him to pick her up the afternoon after they had had a fight in the morning. She didnt tarry any longer, and quickly returned to her own department. Once she entered the room, the nurse pointed in the direction of her office. Cheng Xi smiled and thanked her before pushing the door open and entering. Lin Fan was facing the window, his back to the door. He was dressed in a suit, which only further accentuated his smart and handsome looks, truly an elegant man. Cheng Xi crept over, trying to tease him, but Lin Fan turned around before she could stretch her hand out. Eh~ Cheng Xi stuck her tongue out cutely, retracting her claws. You caught me. Lin Fan looked at her seriously. Whats the matter? Cheng Xi, lets get married. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 79: You鈥檙e Not Happy? Lin Fan was very serious, his tone and expression earnest. Cheng Xi was suddenly reminded of a time when they were still in school. One day, he had abruptly said, Lets skip school. Without any premonition, a usually industrious and model student had suddenly proposed to skip school, and he had even dragged another good student along with him. As two of the top students in the best class, Cheng Xi didnt even need to think to know what the consequences would be. At that time, however, she was calm and cool-headed, and had first asked him, To where? For how long? Afraid that he would start seriously planning, she even added, If were gone for too long, I have to get some more money. Lin Fan hadnt thought about any of that; he just wanted to skip school, to run far, far away. Then lets think about it first. And so they thought about where they would go, how much money they would have to bring, what might happen on the way, what they would do if an emergency happenedbut after making all their plans, though they had skipped school in their minds, nothing ever came of it. Why? Because it was too troublesome. And to extend that to now, getting married wasnt like skipping school. It was a far more troublesome event with even larger aftershockspresently, they were only aftershocks because, having not met each others parents yet, they hadnt really settled their relationship. Thus, they were still, in many ways, unprepared for marriage. All of these thoughts raced through Cheng Xis head, but her expression remained unchanged. She even smiled and naturally asked, Why are you suddenly talking about this now? Lin Fan stubbornly asked, Are you unwilling? Of course, because the conditions werent ripe yet! Cheng Xi smiled, pulled him into a seat, and then poured him a glass of water as she said, Its not that Im unwilling, but rather its that there are too many things that we havent yet considered, like are we going to have a banquet afterwards? Oh, we probably have tomy mother only has me and my brother, so shes been thinking about our marriages for a long time. But where would we host it, and how many people would we invite? Who would help us? Were both new to all of this, so we definitely have to get someone else to help, but before that, we still have to meet each others parents, dont we? And then well have to think about where to stay after we get married, how to set up our bridal chamber, whos going to take care of the baby if we have one soonmy mother and your mother are both too busy to help, you knowso well have to hire a nanny. But since were both busy with our work, our baby would then be with a stranger for the entire day, so we definitely have to choose a good nanny well in advance, or itll be easy for all sorts of incidents to crop up In one breath, she listed out a whole pile of incidents that could happen and lead to all sorts of developmental and educational issues with their child. Then, she continued talking about the problems that came about from all sorts of parents getting married, expected or otherwise. Lin Fan just looked at her dumbstruck. It was because marriage was just a thought that had popped into his head, and the resthe hadnt thought about it at all. He couldnt even tell her to not overthink it, because Cheng Xi was very seriously planning their future. After she finished speaking her thoughts, she even looked at him seriously, waiting for his response. But he couldnt even answer her first question about the banquet. It wasnt that he was unwilling, or that he couldnt, but just that he wasnt sure if his mother would prevent it. All he wanted to do was get married, just the two of them, and after properly (in truth, secretly) getting their marriage certificate, they would move in together; his plans didnt account for anyone else. Cheng Xi was still looking at him, waiting for his answer. He smiled. Cheng Xi, do you really want to get married? I wouldnt object to it. Yes, no objections, but not a commitment either. Lin Fan thought she would have been shy and pleasantly surprised about it, or even astonished and unpleasantly surprised. However, Cheng Xi displayed neither of these two sets of emotions. Instead, she theorized coolly about the future, her words like a cold basin of water that had splashed him awake. Only then did he realize his own hurry and carelessnesshe didnt even have a ring with which to propose to her. After being silent for a moment, he asked, Then when are you free? Id like to bring you to meet my mother. This time, it wasnt like skipping school, because he wouldnt give up on his plans so easily. Cheng Xi agreed. Alright. Lin Fan left with a heavy heart, but only when he reached the lobby did he remember that it was time to leave work; hadnt he come here to fetch her? But how was he to return now? Ha, all it would do was clearly show Cheng Xi how careless he was towards marriage. In truth, Cheng Xi really hadnt noticed his carelessness, because she had been focused on herselfLin Fans proposal made her realize a very surprising thing, which was that, even after they had become a couple, she didnt really want to get married. She had never planned on being single for the rest of her life like her professor, but in her current plan for the future, she hadnt really thought about marriage, and she wasnt looking forward to it at all. This really made her quite vexed. Cheng Xi caressed her forehead and sighed, only breaking out of her reverie when the nurse came in, looking for her. After Cheng Xi dealt with the nurses request, she contacted a few of her friends, specifically, the ones who were still single at Shen Weis marriage, and asked them to go out. One responded, Im at my boyfriends house. Another, Im not free today. Im going on a blind date. Only Tian Rou laughed loudly upon picking up. Wahaha, Im finally not single anymore. Did you call because you found out and are planning on celebrating with me? Why dont you secure your own affairs first? Unable to help herself, she even tried calling Shen Wei, who had just gotten married, but she was also busy, with a business trip as her excuse. Everyone was preoccupied with their own affairs. With no other option, Cheng Xi could only make herself busy as well. Coincidentally, Lu Chenzhous grandfather called her just then. Could we trouble you to come over? My wifes gone home to rest because she was exhausted, and our grandsons unwilling to eat. So Cheng Xi went over, bumping into Lu Chenzhous father on the way there. When they met, he stopped and asked, Are you really Lu Chenzhous friend? Cheng Xi blinked, and Lu Chenzhous fathers expression warmed up several degrees from its previously frosty state as he nodded appreciatively at her. Given his temper, it must have been hard on you. Only upon seeing Lu Chenzhous grandfather did she realize the whole story. The old man was yelling at his son in front of a few young men. Dont you have any patience? All you do is keep flaring up. Zhous body is weak, so isnt it normal for him to be unable to eat? After she walked closer, she found that most of these people were actually already familiar: Baldy, Xu Po, and someone she didnt seem to know. When Baldy saw her, he introduced the third person to her. This is Xie Ziming. Cheng Xi thought back long and hard until she finally remembered something. During the first time she had played mahjong with Baldy, it seemed as though a man had had to cancel on them, which was why she had to stand in for him in the first place. Xie Ziming looked pretty average, but his smile was cordial. In the few months while I was out, yours was the name that I heard the most. Its nice to finally meet you. Cheng Xi was somewhat embarrassed, and she didnt bother asking what he had heard about her, instead exchanging a few pleasantries before quickly saying, Im going to go inside to look at him first. This was her way of hiding. She much preferred working with her patients over social interactions. Baldy and the rest exchanged a knowing glance with each other behind her back. Xie Ziming said, This doctor seems so gentle. Can she really do anything? Lu Chenzhous grandfather trusted her completely, and nodded confidently. Of course she can. Ive never seen Zhou so obedient before. Everyone grew even more curious, but unfortunately, the door to Lu Chenzhous ward was tightly closed. In general, visitors werent allowed in; Lu Chenzhous father had only been allowed in because Lu Chenzhou had refused to speak or talk to anyone. However, he had gotten so angry that he had been forced to leave. Cheng Xi again put on her mask and isolation suit before entering. Lu Chenzhou was sleeping peacefully, a sumptuous and nourishing meal by his bedside. The nurse was watching him from the side of the room. Upon seeing Cheng Xi, she quietly said, He refuses to eat anything. This isnt good for his recovery. Cheng Xi smiled understandingly and walked over. Lu Chenzhou was only pretending to sleep; when he heard her footsteps, he opened his eyes. Do you want to eat something? She pretended to not know anything, and asked this question naturally as she sat down in front of his bed. Lu Chenzhou didnt respond, only looking at her. Why dont you have something. Wont it be nice to get out of here earlier? How terrible it must feel to be cooped up in here. She took a bowl of porridge and held a spoonful up to his mouth. The two stayed still until Lu Chenzhou finally relented, opening his mouthit truly was quite uncomfortable to stay here. He felt trapped in this pure white room, which was too small and hard to bear. But after seeing her, it didnt feel as hard to bear anymore. He finished the bowl of porridge and ate some of the other dishes as well. Throughout the whole process, Cheng Xi kept talking about random things, like how much his grandmother was worried about him, how often his grandfather thought of him, and how she had met Baldy and the rest, including a man called Xie Ziming. Her voice was very pleasant to the ear, neither hurried nor slow, and neither anxious nor impatient. It was soft and gentle, like a relaxed spring breeze. But Lu Chenzhou could still detect something off in her voice. He looked at her, suddenly asking, Are you unhappy? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 80: Are You Shy? This was perhaps the first time that Lu Chenzhou had ever asked about someone elses emotions since she had met him. Honestly, Cheng Xi was a little surprised. She wanted to support this sort of behavior from him, so she reached out and touched her facemask with her glove as she sighed and said, You can tell even though Im dressed up like this? Lu Chenzhou snorted lightly, and Cheng Xi decided to put down the bowl. The nurse came over to clean everything up, and once he was done, Cheng Xi propped her head on her hand and observed him carefully. Her eyes were slightly curved up as her bright pupils stared straight into him, as if they were piercing through him and gazing upon his heart. Lu Chenzhou had once read in a sappy romance book that if she loves you, then her eyes would be filled with stars. He used to scoff at such sayings, but now, it really did seem like her eyes were filled with stars. He didnt know why he felt this way; perhaps it was because of her gentleness and voice, her eyes that always held a smile no matter what she encountered, and her resolute will that never seemed to be afraid of anything. Cheng Xi found that the Mr. Lu in front of her had suddenly taken on a serious expression, but his ears were flaming red. In the past, she probably would have assumed that she had somehow accidentally made him mad. But given Lu Chenzhous novel behavior, she was guessing that he was probably embarrassed right now? Upon realizing this, Cheng Xi also became embarrassed. She wasnt deliberately staring at him. My goodness, this guy wasnt having any wild thoughts, was he? Cheng Xi quickly shifted her gaze away and changed conversation topics. Im not unhappy. Its just that something happened to me recently, which made me suddenly understand something. She spoke in a very vague fashion. Lu Chenzhou glanced at her briefly. Youre hiding something. Cheng Xi laughed. Im a bit unsure of what to tell you. After thinking about it a little, she asked, Why did you want me to sign that contract in the beginning? After a period of silence, Lu Chenzhou noncomittaly replied, Romance, marriage, isnt it necessary? He looked at her. Youve got guts. Actually, not only did she have guts, but she was also very calm and not at all annoying. He put on the pretense that they had had a one-night stand, but not only had she not made a fuss or cried about it, but she had even calmly investigated the situation on her own afterwards. And in the end, she didnt mind letting him know that she knew everything. At that time, he had felt that, if romance and marriage were indeed necessary, then hed choose her to be his partner. He didnt speak very much, and because of his bodys condition, his words were spoken somewhat softly, but Cheng Xi understood him nonetheless. It was just that the wise and strong Mr. Lu had gotten so sick of his grandparents insisting that he had to get into a relationship and get married that he had thought that he might as well choose a girl who he found pleasing. Cheng Xi laughed when she heard this even though his answer didnt surprise her at all. When Lu Chenzhou saw her stop talking, he frowned, looking at her. Was he waiting for her to continue? This guy must be bored to death, languishing in here all day. Unfortunately, she couldnt tell him that Lin Fan had proposed to her, so Cheng Xi instead found another reason to explain away her unhappiness. I was scolded by my department head again. She thought that she had stumbled upon a good excuse. So much so that now, I understand that I cant just butt my head into random affairs anymore. Lu Chenzhou kept looking at her. After a while, he unexpectedly said, Did that guy propose to you? And you dont want to get married? ...Cheng Xis eyes widened involuntarily. She wanted to deny it, but the time had already passed. It seems like thats the case. Cheng Xi was once again rendered speechless. If youre this perceptive, then youll lose the rest of your friends. Lu Chenzhou started smiling, very faintly, but he was truly smiling now. Cheng Xi asked, How did you know? But in her heart, she wondered if her hesitation was that obvious. Lu Chenzhou must truly have been bored because he patiently explained, Its not your expression, but rather your words. If you had been scolded by your director, then why would you start off by asking me about our agreement? You clearly havent studied psychology properly. Cheng Xis face was red from embarrassment. She had actually been told by her own patient that she didnt have a good grasp of psychology. How mortifying. She clutched her face in mock shock. No wonder I always end up kicking myself in the foot when Im with you. It must be because you know more about psychology than I do. Isnt that to be expected? After all, youre stupid. Are you consoling me? What sort of response am I supposed to give if you talk to me like that? Mr. Lu didnt care at all how she would respond, and just coolly grunted in response. However, his eyes subconsciously revealed a bit of mirth. The two kept talking like this. When she confirmed that Lu Chenzhou seemed to be feeling better, Cheng Xi finally got up and left. When she left, her head started hurting about the prospect of having to meet Lin Fans mother. At that time, she thought that Lin Fan had proposed out of the blue because he had been provoked by Lu Chenzhou. It was not until afterwards that she had found out that it actually had nothing to do with him. Lin Fan worked quite quickly. A day later, he told Cheng Xi that he had arranged things with his mother. The appointed date was set for Christmas Eve; old folks here didnt celebrate that sort of Western holiday, so Cheng Xi didnt need to go home to be with her family. And because they had scheduled it beforehand, she couldnt just push it off, either. Cheng Xi didnt want to push it off because she had thought it through very carefully. Although she felt that their relationship hadnt reached the point of marriage, if the groom was to be Lin Fan, then it didnt seem like a big problem They had known each other for so many years, so whether they got married first and then developed their romance later or vice versa, both were about the same to her; both required some commitment. After preparing herself mentally, Cheng Xi waited to meet Lin Fans mother. She hadnt mentioned this to anyone else, but Lu Chenzhou had noticed it when she went to see himhe really was a patient now, as his illness had scared the Lu family half to death. So, upon their request, the virology department had asked a doctor from the psychiatry department to meet him for a consultation. Cheng Xi was that doctor, which meant that she would see him for a routine checkup and his daily treatments. When Lu Chenzhou was clearheaded, he didn''t need any counselling, and she couldnt do any physiological therapy either, as he was so bored from staying in the hospital that more often than not, Cheng Xi ended up being his research subject instead. He would always find some gap or loophole in her words, and then use it to analyze her feelings from that. That day, he told Cheng Xi, Youre very nervous. Cheng Xi was silent, now finally understanding the envy that her senior Ceng Xing must have felt towards her. If you were to switch professions, then you would leave all of us with nowhere to go. Lu Chenzhou proudly raised his jaw. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh. Then, great master, please help me understand why Im nervous. Upon hearing this, Lu Chenzhou finally looked somewhat speechless, somewhat helplessly asking her, Do you think of me as a fortune teller? Cheng Xi laughed. This topic passed without any further comment. Cheng Xi didnt explain why she was nervous, and neither did Lu Chenzhou ask. As he watched her leave, his gaze slowly became cold. Perhaps it was because of him, but Cheng Xis feelings eventually calmed down at the final juncture. But, that day she wasnt able to meet up with Lin Fan on time because his mother had directly come to the hospital. At that time, Cheng Xi still hadnt gotten off of work. While she was arranging the last batch of medical records for her patients, she received a call from Lin Fans mothers. On the phone, her voice was superficially calm and gentle. Im sorry for the short notice, and I know well see each other soon. However, before then, Id like to meet you first. Is that fine? Where? Im at the hospital. Cheng Xi went out, and indeed saw Lin Fans mother right outside. But she wasnt alone; with her was another girl that Cheng Xi also recognized. That girl had a very youthful face and a delicate and charming look. Before she spoke, she was the epitome of grace and demure elegance. Upon seeing Cheng Xi, she raised her eyes slightly. Within her gaze was an unsavory hint of provocation. Before Lin Fans mother could speak, she said, Dr. Cheng, we meet again. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 81: I Will Do My Best to Break You Up After hesitating for a brief moment, Cheng Xi greeted Meng Qingyang back with a smiling expression. Its good to see you, Miss Meng. Lin Fans mother, somewhat surprised, asked, Do the two of you know each other? Meng Qingyang nonchalantly said, Yes, Dr. Chengs a good person. Lin Fans mother looked at Cheng Xi again curiously. Thats good, then. She patted Meng Qingyangs hand. Let me speak with Cheng Xi for a little bit. Wait here for me, alright? Alright. Meng Qingyang even waved at Cheng Xi amiably. Goodbye, Dr. Cheng. Cheng Xi had seen how temperamental Meng Qingyang could be, so her demure behavior now only felt strange to her. However, she didnt say anything and brought Lin Fans mother into her office instead. Would you like something to drink? Lin Fans mother shook her head. Dont bother. Lets just talk. Cheng Xi nonetheless still poured her a glass of water before sitting down, facing her. The gaze that Lin Fans mother was directing towards Cheng Xi was exceptionally kind, reminding her of a similar gaze that she had seen many years ago, when Cheng Xi and Lin Fan had been walking through the streets on a school-sanctioned extracurricular activity. When they ran into Lin Fans mother, she had looked at her with a similar gaze that was part kind, part gratifying, and part frustrated, saying, My little Lin Fan also has a friend now. At that time, Cheng Xi hadnt noticed her frustration, but now, as Lin Fans mother kept talking, Cheng Xi finally understood what it meant. Lin Fans mothers speech was long-winded, with two main points. Cheng Xi, youre a good child, and I like you very much. Ive liked you since your high school days. However, youre not compatible with Lin Fanhes suffered through a rough childhood with me, and I dont want him to suffer anymore. I want him to have an outstanding and successful career. So while she did like Cheng Xi, she felt that Cheng Xi couldnt help Lin Fan. Cheng Xi listened passively. Only when Lin Fans mother finished talking did she ask, Mrs. Lin, does Lin Fan know that you reached out to me today? I havent told him, but I know that youre a sensible child, and Ive always liked you. So, Im sure you wont do anything that would embarrass both of us later on. She then leaned in and asked surreptitiously, You dont want to do this either, do you? Cheng Xi had long since predicted that Lin Fans mother would oppose their relationship, having heard all about her aspirations and plans for Lin Fan. All of this was within her predictions, but she didnt treat it like an obstacle. Lin Fan wasnt a piece of dough to be kneaded and rolled around, and neither was she. She felt that she and Lin Fan could definitely be happy together. Although she wouldnt be able to further his career very much, she definitely wouldnt be pulling him down either. Furthermore, if Lin Fan wanted to start a business, she had a few connections of her own. With that in mind, Cheng Xi asked her second question. Mrs. Lin, what would you consider a successful life? Without missing a beat, Lin Fans mother replied, Money and power! We dont have any power, so we can only focus on making money. Lots and lots of money. She looked at Cheng Xi, her gaze revealing her naked ambition, so calm that one couldnt even dislike her. I know that you definitely cant understand my thoughts. But no matter what, I only want Lin Fan to be able to live a carefree life, without needing to suffer through hardships or be forced to do something he doesnt want to because of money. Mrs. Lin, do you feel that having both money and power will allow one to lead a carefree life? Yes! She was so certain, so full of confidence, that Cheng Xi didnt try to persuade her otherwisesomeone who felt this deeply about a subject wouldnt be easily persuaded by mere words. Lin Fans mother hadnt come to be persuaded by her, either; these words were ones that she had always kept in her heart, hidden away from everyone else. Once she revealed them, she could only forge forward on that path of hers relentlessly. Cheng Xi then asked her final question. If Im unwilling to separate with Lin Fan, then what will you do, Mrs. Lin? Ill do my best to make you two break up. Lin Fans mothers expression was severe. Cheng Xi, do you know how I managed to escape with him that year? He had to threaten to kill himself. He was only twelve, but he put a knife by his neck and told me, Mom, if I die, will there be peace again? Do you know how Ive lived all these years? Im 38, but I married an old man whose hair is turning white. So many people have looked down upon me, and even my stepchildren guard against me as if I were a thief. They look down on Lin Fan in the same way. I was weak for half of my life, so I caused him to suffer so much. Now, I dont want him to have to suffer anymore. I dont want him to be looked down upon for the rest of his life Though you might feel that wealth wont necessarily bring you respect, itll definitely at least shut their mouths! Its just like how, if I bring their old man out to discipline those sons and daughters of his, what can they do? As she said this last sentence, her face reflected a bit of pride, as if she had won a spiritual victory. Did you see that girl just now? If you know her, then you should know that she and Lin Fan are colleagues, but only colleagues. Shes a board member of Longchang Commerceoh, perhaps you dont know about Longchang Commerce. Its the domestic proxy for a number of large global brands, which youd probably recognize if I mentioned them. She rattled off a few companies, and even though Cheng Xi herself didnt care about these things, she knew that most people in the country would go mad over those companies products. Lin Fans mother didnt think that this sort of relationship was immoral, and she didnt even acknowledge the fact that if Lin Fan had such a girlfriend, people would think that they were only together because he was eyeing her position and connections. Its just that were trying to find a higher starting point. Marriage is nothing more than a job; doing it well will bring happiness. It was rare for Cheng Xi to be unable to counter an argument, but she was actually struck speechless after hearing Lin Fans mothers confident speech. She didnt argue back, as she knew that Lin Fans mother wouldnt listen to her; if she talked with reason, Lin Fans mother would appeal to emotion; if she appealed to emotion, then Lin Fans mother would switch to reason. If they werent on the same page, then what was the point of talking any further? Cheng Xi politely sent Lin Fans mother out. They didnt see Meng Qingyang at the entrance, and Lin Fans mother directly left after making a phone call. Cheng Xi stood by the elevator. As she watched the doors close, the smile on her face finally collapsed. She rubbed her exhausted face, lightly breathing out. As she turned around, she unexpectedly saw Meng Qingyang, who had told Lin Fans mother that she had already gone down. She was standing by the elevator on the other end of the corridor; it wasnt clear if she had just come up or if she had always been standing there. At this hour, there werent many people left in this area of the hospital. Only the two of them stood in the corridor. Cheng Xi stopped moving, merely looking at Meng Qingyang. Meng Qingyang slowly walked in front of Cheng Xi as a brilliant smile lit up her face. Mrs. Lin likes me very much, and wants me to be her daughter-in-law. Dr. Cheng, I really want to reject her because youre a good person, and because I like you very much. At this point, Cheng Xi wanted to laugh. Today, she had been told that she was a good person by two different people; they both said they liked her very much, but hidden behind their liking was a but. Meng Qingyangs but was that Lin Fans genuinely a very gentle person, and he looks so beautiful when he smiles. At first, I didnt want to steal him away, but Dr. Cheng, why did you have to make him unhappy? After being lectured in psychology by Lu Chenzhou, Cheng Xi was now being taught how to be a better girlfriend by Meng Qingyang. This girl who had just broken free of her depression said, Dr. Cheng, youre not doing a very good job at being a girlfriend. Even if we ignore the fact that you dont have any time to spend with him, you still have an unclear relationship with another man. You always make him unhappy, forcing him to drink, making him wan and sallow. For you, he even hurt me. As she said this, she rolled up her sleeves and stretched out her hand with an innocent expression on her face. Look at how forceful he was. He even left such a big bruise. It hurts so much. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 82: I Came to Accompany You Cheng Xi didnt know what she was feeling at that moment, but it was probably something akin to the feeling of accidentally swallowing a shard of bone while eating chicken feet. It wasnt a big piece, but it had gotten stuck in a particularly aggravating spot; she couldnt swallow or cough it out, which made it all the more disgusting. She looked at Meng Qingyang, who seemed to have been completely cured of her depression. Her mien was entirely devoid of her earlier gloom and reservation, her eyes bright and vivacious. When Cheng Xi had told Meng Qingyang her own story of redemption and rebirth, she had not imagined that it would help the girl in front of her find such a novel path forward. Suppressing her disgust, she asked Meng Qingyang, Are you certain that you like him? Yes. Cheng Xi smiled. She sympathized with Meng Qingyang, but she refrained from saying anything more. When she got back to her office, she received a text message from Meng Qingyang that consisted of three photographs. The backdrop of the first photograph was some hotel; in it, Lin Fan was hugging Meng Qingyang, and she had clearly used her phone to covertly take this picture. The photograph was time-stamped out of consideration. Cheng Xi had a good memory, and recognized the date as the second day of the fishing expedition by Cheng Xis house. Lin Fan had originally said that he would accompany her, but then, his office had needed him for a sudden business trip. He wasnt gone for too long, only a single day, and he had come to her house the next morning, saying he would take her to work. That was when hed encountered Lu Chenzhou. The backdrop of the second photograph was a bar. In the dusky lighting, a mans hand was tightly entangled with a womans. This photograph was also timestamped; if Cheng Xi remembered correctly, it should have been a few days ago, when she had insisted on seeing the ill Lu Chenzhou. What had Lin Fan said when he saw her the next day? Oh, that he had been drinking with his colleagues. Then, he had pounced on her in a drunken haze. In the third photograph, Meng Qingyang was lying by Lin Fans side, and their heads were propped up next to each other. Meng Qingyang was smiling towards the camera, and Lin Fan was asleep by her side. This last photograph was the most recent one, and that day after it, Lin Fan had proposed to her out of the blue. The phone suddenly rang, and Cheng Xi couldnt see the photographs anymore. In their place was a screen with the characters Lin Fan. Cheng Xi didnt pick up. After thinking about it for a moment, she forwarded the three photos to Lin Fan. If Meng Qingyang was so brazen as to send her these photographs, then she probably wasnt afraid of Lin Fan seeing them either. Lin Fan quickly called again, and Cheng Xi picked up this time. Where are you? The hospital. Ill come and find you. Dont bother. Cheng Xi sighed. Im going to leave now. Then Ill go to your house! Actually, Cheng Xi didnt want to see him right now. However, his voice was so ridden with anxiety that she relented. To be fair, she couldnt just take Ming Qingyangs story for granted?she should also let Lin Fan explain his side of the story too. Meng Qingyangs mental condition was clearly somewhat abnormal, and what she had said might not be the whole truth. But if Meng Qingyang were making things up, then Lin Fans tone should have been angry, not flustered and exasperated. Cheng Xi went home. Because her departure had been delayed, she ended up returning a bit later than planned. In the end, Lin Fan never showed up. He called her, saying, Sorry, but something came up with my mom. I cant go over at the moment. Cheng Xi had just reached her front doorstep when the call came. As Lin Fan talked, she smiled and thought back to Lin Fans mothers I will do my best to separate the two of you. She was suddenly overwhelmed with the feeling that she had been blind; despite knowing Lin Fans mothers attitude, she had still fallen into this situation unknowingly. Was I too confident, thinking that I had the ability to deal with this? Cheng Xis lack of response made Lin Fan even more anxious. Cheng Xi, even though I cant go over, can you still listen to me explain? Those photographs arent real. That day, the company suddenly notified me that I had to go on a business trip with Meng Qingyang. When we arrived at the hotel, she twisted her ankle and was unable to walk, so I had to carry her up the stairs. And that day, when I was drinking, it really was with all of my colleagues, and they can confirm this. I only drank that much because I was mad that you had insisted on seeing Lu Chenzhou that night. All she did was try to persuade me to not drink so much. How could I have known that a colleague sitting opposite us would take that picture, and, and that time In the middle of his explanation, he suddenly stopped for a moment, and Cheng Xi faintly heard him yell out exasperatedly, Can you let me finish my call!? Then, he continued explaining to Cheng Xi. The last picture is something she set up. Cheng Xi, I always thought that she was just ill, and the reason I was nice to her was because, as you said, she was ill, and she needed patience and care. I only ever treated her like your patient, and Ive never had any unfaithful thoughts about her. I dont like her, and I wont marry her. The person I love will always be you. Ha. If you only love her, then does my Qingyang deserve to be thrown away after being used by you? A strange voice suddenly came from the other end of the line before the call hung up in a very timely fashion. A total mess. She unlocked her phone expressionlessly, wanting to send him a text message. As she aimlessly stared at the screen, she realized that she had nothing else to say. Her friend feed, however, was bursting with colors and excitement. Some people were being lovey-dovey, as usual, others were showing off their presents and purchases, others uploading pictures of the crowds on the streets, and yet others sighing. It really made her feel like everyone was enjoying themselves while she was the only one working. In her classmates group, Tian Rou was sending red packets into the group chat. Shen Wei even messaged her to Go snatch Rous red packets! Even she, who didnt lack money, felt happy upon snatching up a red packet with 8.8 yuan in it. As for Cheng Xi, her luck was pretty good, and she picked up one of the largest red packets that Tian Rou sent. Everyone hollered for her to give out some red packets, too, so Cheng Xi magnanimously sent out ten with 88 yuan each inside. She very rarely snatched or sent out red packets in that group chat, so her actions caused a commotion in the chat, and everyone asked her if something good had happened. Cheng Xi very seriously replied, Someone tried to give me a lesson, and I realized that Im quite dumb. Does that count? Everyone laughed, and someone even posted a horrified emoji in the chat. If a doctor like you is dumb, then what about the rest of us? Cheng Xi laughed, and elected not to respond. Tian Rou called her and Shen Wei messaged her at the same time, both asking the same thing. Who, who did that? Cheng Xi didnt respond. She slammed her head into her desk, very much overwhelmed. She wasnt actually all that sad, but it felt like there was an immovable fireball in her heart that she couldnt expel. In the past, she thought that she would succeed in anything she did. But recently, shed suffered defeat after defeat, always having to reflect critically on her own actions afterwards. She wanted to read a book, but couldnt calm down enough to do so, so she posted a message on her feed: I want to go out and explore the town. Does anyone want to accompany me? She quickly received many responses, but they were almost all persuading her against it. Going on the streets at this time?are you mad? Cheng Yang also responded with, My sisters finally ready to have fun! My hearts reassured, but can you pick another time? But the person she was waiting for never answered her. It wasnt until around 8:30 that Lu Chenzhou suddenly called her. Are you home? Yup. Come down. Cheng Xi hesitated. Whats the matter? Didnt you want to go for a stroll? His tone was as cool as usual. Cheng Xis shock quickly turned into anger. You left the hospital? How could you leave the hospital? She hurriedly ran out without even changing her clothes. Lu Chenzhou was indeed waiting outside her apartment, accompanied by old Mr. Chen. He was sitting in the backseat with a face mask and a bundle of clothes. How did you convince the doctor on duty to let you out? Despite the fact that Lu Chenzhou was responding very well to his treatment and had been transferred to the regular wards yesterday, he was still technically in a critical period. How could the doctor have possibly let him out? Lu Chenzhous style was to ignore anything that he didnt like. He looked at her disdainfully as he asked, Why are you dressed like this? Do you think that its suitable to go outside when youre this ugly? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 83: Should I Kiss You? Cheng Xi was fuming with anger, but she still subconsciously looked down at herself after Lu Chenzhou commented on her appearance. She didnt look that bad. After getting home, she had changed into her regular clothes. They were a little old, but not worn out or anything. She looked back at him. This time, she wasnt as confrontational, and her tone had softened somewhat. Why are you out of the hospital? There are too many people roaming around outside. It wont be good for your body. Lu Chenzhou responded with a single word, saying, Long-winded, as if she were a meddlesome mother. Cheng Xi scrunched up her face, gave up on him, and instead called the doctor on duty to ask him about the situation. That doctor explained, Oh, have you seen him? He took two hours to go see his girlfriend. He insisted on going, so I let him dress himself up properly and go. Part of it was because his grandmother said that hes already thirty-something and still hasnt been able to get into a relationship, so since he finally has someone that he likes, it wouldnt be good to stop him from pursuing that. When Cheng Xi heard the word girlfriend, her face started to redden, but she stayed calm enough to hear the rest of the explanation before her face truly started burning up. Were his family members there? Of course. With the way his situation is, I definitely had to ask the department head and inform his family members before I could let him go. Hes doing fine outside, isnt he? Cheng Xi looked at Lu Chenzhou. He was sitting there in a composed manner, his face calm and serene. As he watched her talk on the phone, he seemed even more lively than before his illness. Afraid that the doctor would worry too much if she reported such astounding results, she could only say, Oh, he looks just fine at the moment. I coincidentally met him outside and was a bit shocked to see him, so I just wanted to call you to confirm that everythings ok. Oh, alright. Since youve met him, then help him out a little bit. Make sure that he doesnt go crazy outside, and, the doctor lowered his voice before mysteriously continuing, I forgot to tell him. If he wants to do something with his girlfriend, then he should take it easy and not go at it too fiercely. This sort of thing was too hard to explain to Lu Chenzhou, so she hung up expressionlessly. The chauffeur, Mr. Chen, had already come over and opened the car door for her. After thinking about it for a moment, Cheng Xi got in. Before she could settle in, Lu Chenzhous voice rang out from next to her ear. Youre feeling uncomfortable. She knew that this would happen. Recently, he had gotten very good at grasping her feelings. Cheng Xi maintained her serious expression. Why would I be? Did he tell you that I came out to see my girlfriend? Lu Chenzhou asked in an especially serious tone. Cheng Xi became visibly frantic, and he sighed. Youre really overthinking it. What I wanted to say was that, an idiots unhappy, and I wanted to stare at her for a little bit. This tone Cheng Xi instantly felt that her shyness and conjectures had been wasted, all gone to the dogs. She consciously ignored the first half of his reply and asked, How do you know that Im unhappy? Lu Chenzhou answered with a rejoinder. Didnt you want to go out on a stroll? Also, dont women only go out and buy things if they want to feel better when theyre unhappy? It was so reasonable that Cheng Xi couldnt refute it. And so they ended up strolling around town. Cheng Xi didnt want to be called an idiot; she really hadnt planned on buying anything, and it had been so long since she last went out she didnt really care much about shopping. The crowds milled about in the streets; whenever there was a holiday, regardless of what holiday it was, it always felt like everyone in China would come out. It was hard to find a place to rest even in the middle of the city, and Cheng Xi wanted to go home as soon as she stepped foot into the streets. However, since Lu Chenzhou had said that he would accompany her, he wouldnt let them return before she bought something. Helpless, Cheng Xi ended up buying a jacket each for her mother and father, a little razor for Cheng Yang, and two small handicraft pieces for her. On the streets, there were many children experiencing life by selling apples and Christmas ornaments. Because their parents were accompanying them, they were particularly lively, energetically shouting out for customers. But despite how cute they tried to act, Cheng Xi didnt buy anything from them. Instead, she bought a huge bundle of knickknacks from a girl dressed in little more than rags. After they left the little girls stall, Mr. Chen asked her, Dr. Cheng, why did you buy from that little child? His curiosity stemmed from the fact that, amidst the huge crowd of children, that little girl wasnt eye-catching at all; not only were her items ordinary, but she was also inarticulate, silently standing by her stall as she watched everyone pass by. Cheng Xi turned around to look at that girl again, smiling as she did so. Because shes the only one out there whos doing this in order to live. Hmm? Mr. Chen didnt understand. Lu Chenzhou glanced at him. Cheng Xi was all too familiar with that glance, having been a recipient of his disdain for stupidity far too many times to count. But the disdained Mr. Chen didnt seem to notice. Cheng Xi felt a subconscious desire to laugh, and she picked out a box and gave it to Lu Chenzhou. A gift for you, as thanks for accompanying me. And then she gave the remaining bag of items to Mr. Chen. Do you have any kids at home? These are gifts from me. As Mr. Chen took the gifts with a smile, Cheng Xi explained why she chose to buy from that child in more detail. She was dressed plainly, but tidily. Her hands had calluses, but her fingernails were very evenly clipped. She was obviously poverty-stricken, but neither helpless nor impatient, and her gaze was clean and gentle. While this child might be poor, her family clearly cares for her. The fact that shes standing out there by herself at a stall and selling ordinary things can only mean that shes not out there to experience what lifes like for a regular person, but rather because she truly wants to help her family make a bit of money. After hearing Cheng Xis extended explanation, Mr. Chen praised her. You really have an eye for detail. Cheng Xi smiled. This is nothing. You should look at your own boss. Mr. Chen chuckled; he didnt dare to speak carelessly about his boss. When he noticed that the car was parked just in front of them, he said, Why dont the two of you wait here? Ill drive the car over. Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou agreed and waited in place. The latter was still carrying a bright red box, which contrasted with his cool demeanor and refined clothes to create a strange atmosphere. Cheng Xi smiled at the sight. Shall I take a photo of you? He didnt object, and though his expression remained aloof, it seemed agreeable enough. Cheng Xi considered it as him tacitly agreeing, so she took out her phone and backup slightly to take a picture. People would frequently walk by in the background, but he stood still in the middle of the moving crowd. Even before the picture was taken, the scene held the ambiance of a desolate landscape portrait: alone, but calm and lofty. As Cheng Xi depressed the shutter, a string of gorgeous fireworks suddenly emerged from the plaza behind him. They whooshed magnificently through the skies, a long tail of sparks following behind them. The plaza quickly became jam-packed as everyone started cheering and heading over. Cheng Xi put down her phone and also immersed herself in silently watching the sky that was being brilliantly dyed by the light of the fireworks. Against the fireworks bright glare, she saw the lights in the tallest tower dim and brighten repeatedly as the lamplight mixed with the incessant splendor of the fireworks; everything seemed like a dazzling light show, almost blinding everyones eyes. This sudden firework performance lasted for quite a while, only slowly dissipating after it had grabbed everyones attention. The sparkling lights by the building opposite them also gradually stopped blinking, slowly settingly into several clear words. Dr. Cheng, I love you. Cheng Xi, who was also a Dr. Cheng, was struck speechless. Lu Chenzhou was uninterested in the fireworks, but when he saw her unusual expression, he raised his eyebrows slightly and turned to see what the matter was. As soon as he saw those words spelled out in fireworks, his face involuntarily turned green with envy. Upon seeing his expression, Cheng Xi actually calmed down. Good, it had nothing to do with her. With that settled in her mind, she was able to calmly watch the rest of the show, and she even took a few pictures of the glittering words in the sky. Then, Lu Chenzhous phone rang. He answered the call, and his eyes revealed a trace of shock a seconds after he answered. He turned around to look at Cheng Xi strangely. Cheng Xi noticed his gaze and walked closer. Lu Chenzhou hung up before she could say anything, still gazing at her. Cheng Xi somewhat anxiously asked, Whats the matter? By now, everyone was swarming toward the plaza, and there was a short-lived moment of calm around them, which let Cheng Xi hear Lu Chenzhous words especially clearly. He slowly said, The fireworks were from my grandparents. They said that it was to help me woo you. After he finished explaining, his gaze landed on her glistening red lips as he asked, Should I listen to them and kiss you right now? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 84: Do You Like Her? Lu Chenzhou had asked to kiss Cheng Xi seriously. It was so serious that she wanted to simultaneously laugh and be serious. In the end, Cheng Xi responded in an equally serious tone. Of course you dont have to listen to them. Lu Chenzhou made an Oh sound, showing a hint of dejection. Cheng Xi was afraid that he was about to say something else even more shocking, so she didnt even dare to mention the fireworks or his grandfather. Why hasnt the car come yet? Nows a great time to leave. Lu Chenzhou called Mr. Chen, and not long after, he drove out. His expression could hardly conceal his anticipation; once Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhou got into the car, he immediately and delightedly asked Cheng Xi, Dr. Cheng, did you enjoy the fireworks just now? What could Cheng Xi say but Yes? Mr. Chen then looked at Lu Chenzhou through the rearview mirror. However, his expression was neutral, and his thoughts completely hidden. Cheng Xi turned away and looked outside the window. Despite Lu Chenzhous grandparents making life difficult for her, as Lu Chenzhous doctor, she still felt their warmthnot for her, but for Lu Chenzhou. He clearly had family members who would help him make thoroughly detailed plans. At the very least, he wasnt lacking for love. As the final minutes of Christmas Eve slipped away, more and more people appeared on the road. The car inched along slowly, letting its passengers clearly see the red lamplight illuminate peoples smiling faces, showing a world seemingly dyed in peace and happiness. Cheng Xis vexation started to dissipate. The car first drove to Cheng Xis house. Mr. Chen tactfully reminded his boss, probably having received an order from Lu Chenzhous grandfather, by saying, Its a bit late. Lu Chenzhou looked at the time. Cheng Xi asked, Are you late? Almost. Cheng Xi turned to say to Mr. Chen, Then lets stop at the roadside. I can walk home myself. How could we do that to you? It wouldnt be safe for you to walk back on your own so late. Mr. Chen then looked at Lu Chenzhou. Do you want to send Dr. Cheng upstairs? Theres still some time, so we can still make it. At this time, who cared about whether or not they would get back to the hospital on time? The most important thing was to send the girl home safely, and while the night was still bright and their emotions running wild, do some wonderful things! As a fellow man, Mr. Chen cheered Lu Chenzhou on in his head. But all Mr. Lu did was raise his head and look at his driver, frowning. He clearly didnt like anyone meddling in his affairs, so Mr. Chen quickly adjusted to an honest and earnest expression as he drove the car single-mindedly. The car went directly to Cheng Xis apartment. When they arrived, Lu Chenzhou asked Cheng Xi, Do you feel safe? Yep. Lu Chenzhou nodded in satisfaction, and Cheng Xi got out of the car with her bag. Mr. Chen could only sit in the drivers seat and watch her walk up the building alone. Actually, Lu Chenzhou wasnt as indifferent as he appeared to be; he was tightly clutching the apple that Cheng Xi had given him. Of the many gifts that she had bought him, there were many apples like the one he was holding, but the one in his hand was the only splotchy one. He gently stroked the apple in his hand, not even letting go even when he reentered his ward. After Lu Chenzhous grandfather had helped his grandson out on their date, he had naturally come over to the hospital to see the outcome. But when he and his wife excitedly ran into the ward, they saw that their grandson, whom they had expected to be flirting cutely with Cheng Xi, was instead sitting dazedly on the sofa by the bed, his hand clutching a silly little red apple. Lu Chenzhous grandfather immediately shouted, What are you doing here? Lu Chenzhou was startled, and he raised his head to look at them. His grandparents looked each other in the eye before they faced their grandsons cold and aloof gaze together, saying in sync, Zhou, why are you still here? Lu Chenzhou perfunctorily asked, Where should I be, then? His tone, which was as cold as the winter wind, immediately deflated his two grandparents eagerness. They sat down on one side of the sofa and looked at each other with wooden expressions. But then, Lu Chenzhous grandmother finally remembered what Cheng Xi had told herdont think that his heart is cold just because of his expression. Dont worry about upsetting him, dont be afraid of his aloofness, and definitely dont do as he wishes. Instead, its best to treat him like a normal family member: tell him if youre happy, and tell him if youre unhappy With this in mind, she gathered her courage and asked Lu Chenzhou, Zhou, did you like the fireworks that we released? Lu Chenzhou fidgeted with the apple in his hand. I didnt look at it. Then you didnt do what we told you to do either, right? Lu Chenzhous expression became even more chilly, and a sensation of rejection emanated from his body. She didnt let me. You didnt do it just because she didnt let you? My goodness, I didnt think that our Lu Chenzhou was such an obedient boy. How unexpected! Lu Chenzhous grandmother retreated, defeated by the cold atmosphere surrounding him. She quickly looked at her husband, her eyes saying, Your turn! His grandfather hurriedly tried to pick up the conversation by putting on a fierce expression and asking, Whatre you going to do with that apple? Is there anything nice about it? Lu Chenzhous tone was still apathetic. Nothing much. His grandmother anxiously butted in. Then stop looking at it. When she confirmed that he wasnt angry, she felt like she could proceed. Dr. Cheng How do you feel about her? Shes ugly. Lu Chenzhous grandmother almost spat out blood. Shes ugly?! She seriously felt that her grandsons sense of beauty had to be reworked. Shes actually very pretty. Just look at her facial features and temperamentshed be considered beautiful anywhere in the world. She has a single dimple. My goodness, she had forgotten about this fellows severe dislike for asymmetry! Neither of Lu Chenzhous grandparents knew what to say in response, until his grandfather finally ventured to say, Youll get used to it if you look at it enough A single dimple isnt all that important. He had made that comment off-handedly, but Lu Chenzhou had still heard it, and he nodded in agreement. It isnt that important. He had finally had enough of playing with the apple in his hand, so he put it down and went to wash his hands. After he returned, he saw that his grandparents were still there, so he asked, Is something the matter? Does trying to help you get a girlfriend count? His grandfather stared at him anxiously. You said that it was fine if Dr. Cheng was a bit ugly. Does that mean that you dont dislike her? Lu Chenzhou looked at him strangely as he responded, Why would I dislike her? Arent you an extremely picky person? You shun anything thats asymmetric!!! His grandfather swallowed his saliva before carefully asking, Then do you like her? What do you mean by like? As they looked at their grandsons serious expression, his grandparents hearts ached. No wonder he still didnt have a girlfriend even at such an age! Not knowing what liking someone was, how pitiful! His grandmother resolutely forged ahead and tried to teach her grandson this concept. Liking someone means that you always think about her, that all you can think about is her. When you see her, you become nervous, you blush, your heart beats faster, you When she ran out of words, Lu Chenzhous grandmother waved her hands to clear her mind before concluding, Anyway, if you like her, then youll feel like shes a wholly unique person, separate from everyone else. Do you feel that way about Dr. Cheng? Lu Chenzhous grandparents stared at him together, both holding their breath. But Lu Chenzhou just stood there, as youthful and handsome as ever. After pondering his grandmothers eloquent speech for a long while, he finally said, I dont know about the rest, but I want to have sex with her. Does that count? This was a devastating bombshell, causing even Lu Chenzhous grandparents to stare at him open-mouthed. My goodness, if my grandson was this bold and unconstrained, then hed scare away any potential granddaughter-in-laws! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 85: Am I The One Whom You Like? When Cheng Xi returned home, it was still early in the night. Without any pressing concerns, she decided to do some yoga. Practicing yoga could help people relax and calm down. After she finished her session and her heart had returned to its normal pace, she picked up her phone and started scrolling through. Her feed was inundated with photos of the impromptu fireworks show and fiery from proclamation that night. They were taken from a myriad of different angles, capturing the scene from various viewpoints. But their captions were all essentially the same: at the end of XX year, I saw a nouveau riches expression of love! She even received a few direct messages along the lines of, Heh heh heh heh, your surnames also Cheng, and youre a doctor. Are you the recipient of this message? Black lines marred Cheng Xis forehead as she rubbed her temples. Out of frustration, she bluntly discarded her phone and ignored it for the rest of the night. Gossip was a very strange phenomena; a good piece of gossip could gain popularity quickly, but if there werent any follow-ups, then it would die down just as fast. She prepared to bathe and sleep, pretending that none of this had happened. But just as she laid out clean clothes to change into, the doorbell rang. Through the front doors camera screen, Lin Fans face was looking steadily at her. Cheng Xi hesitated for a moment before opening the door. When Lin Fan entered he immediately noticed that Cheng Xi was in her pajamas with a light smile on her lips, a warm gaze, and slightly damp hair. You just came back? This was the first thing he said. Cheng Xi wasnt surprised; tonights incident had even ended up on the local news, so it would be more strange if Lin Fan hadnt heard about it. She didnt answer his question. Are you done with your tasks? In the afternoon, Lin Fans mother and Meng Qingyang had personally come to find her, but he hadnt had the time to do so. Now, after hearing about this incident, he had come over so late at night Even if Cheng Xi had no intentions of interrogating him, asking him such a question at this time nonetheless made it feel like an interrogation. Lin Fan slightly stilled for a moment, a sense of gloom flickering through his eyes. You want to give up. His tone was certain. Yes. Upon hearing this, Lin Fan seemed to lose all energy, his figure deflating against the doorframe. He looked at her despondently, almost pleading, If its because of Meng Qingyang or my mother, then I can explain. Okay. She responded straightforwardly, but Lin Fan found that her responses only made his mouth dry up even quicker. By now, Cheng Xi had moved to the side of the door. Why dont you come in first? She was still warm and thoughtful, but her warmth and thoughtfulness lacked their usual intimacy. Lin Fan followed her inside. Her room was as clean as always with a book and a vase of flowers tastefully sitting on the coffee table. The flowers were thin and elegant, while also silent and independent, as if they had some of Cheng Xis unique charm. Cheng Xi poured him a glass of water and sat down in front of him. After a moment of silence, Lin Fan started talking. Meng Qingyangs my colleague, and the only reason why I took care of her was because you told me that she was depressed and that her thoughts would easily tend towards the extreme. Thus, I was more patient with her than others, as I thought that doing so would help you. I never thought that my actions would give her the impression that I treated her differently from others, and that she would end up thinking something I never expected. Cheng Xi silently listened to him talk. Honestly, his avoiding the main points and focusing too much on the trivial ones made her slightly disappointed. Before she set you up, did she really not display any suggestive actions toward you? And, Lin Fan, do you feel like youre truly happy when youre with me? Lin Fan quickly replied, Of course Im happy. When I found out that you liked me back, Cheng Xi, you dont know how happy I was! Cheng Xi smiled bitterly. Youre talking about when you found out. Then what about afterwards? Lin Fan was in a daze. Was there an afterwards? Right, was there? After they had confessed their mutual feelings and started their relationships, they had barely even had a chance to have a normal date. The closest that they ever got was probably them visiting Chen Jiaman together; only then had nothing been able to disturb them. Cheng Xi was mute for a moment before she apologized. Im sorry. Even though she was a professional psychiatrist with a major in psychology, even though she had always had an academic answer, she was still learning to apply that knowledge in her personal life, including her love life. I think that I overreacted. She couldnt help but admit her own faults. I shouldnt have decided to start this romance so carelessly. Perhaps we should spend some more time together to understand each other better. This was why she always felt that love was just a beautiful illusion; it made people lose their logic and rationality, and it easily created unrealistic expectations in people. Cheng Xi thought that she had been perfectly honest in this relationship, but Lin Fan couldnt accept her honesty. He knew that when Cheng Xi admitted her carelessness and impetuousness, it also implied that she regretted their relationship, and her regret meant that she had already decided to cut him off. Almost frenetic, he shouted, No, its not like that! Im not unhappy! Ive been happy all this time! When Cheng Xi saw him act like this, she couldnt help but sigh. Then why were you set up when you went out drinking with your colleagues? Lin Fan, even though weve only confessed our feelings for each other recently, weve already known each other for ten years. In the past, Ive never had a relationship because no one was able to move my heartthat was, until I encountered you again. I thought that, maybe for these past ten years, the person I was waiting for was you. I thought that you would feel the same way as me, but you were set up by someone else while we were still in a romantic relationship. That makes me think that you might not truly love me, or at least, not love me as much as you thought you did. How else could the Lin Fan that I know be so easily set up by someone else? Upon hearing her emotional confession, Lin Fans heart trembled. Cheng Xis words were too much for him to bear, each word piercing and terrible, forcefully triggering memories of that night when he had gone drinking with his colleagues. Meng Qingyang had invited him to leave with her; they were both tipsy and so had chosen not to drive back. Instead, they slowly meandered through the streets. After a long round of drinking, he had been feeling gloomy, and in that state of mind, he had wanted to unburden the heavy thoughts weighing on him. As he talked with Meng Qingyang, the conversation had actually turned to Cheng Xi, about her experiences with Lin Fan in the past. And Meng Qingyang, despite the fact that she was talking about another person with Lin Fan, had actually smiled brightly. Her smile had thrust Lin Fan into the past, conjuring an image of when he had been by Cheng Xis side---she had a savory scone in her hands and was smiling as she asked, Lin Fan, will you come home with me? Ill give you this, alright? When he had been abroad for all those years, whenever he felt lonely or upset, he would think of this scene. And then without fail, he would always wake up in a melancholic moodhe had been by her side for so long, but he had never found the appropriate moment to tell her that he loved her, to kiss her. Their childhood nights together were lovely, but there always remained some intangible distance between them; they were neither too close nor too far, but just close enough for him to watch her. It had been right before dawn, when the streets were very, very quiet, so quiet that it seemed as if they were in a dream. Unable to restrain his emotions, he had stretched out his hands and pulled her into his embrace. But when the dream ended, he had realized that the person he was embracing wasnt Cheng Xi, but rather someone entirely different He didnt know how to process the confusion that he was feeling, so he followed his instinct and hurriedly ran away to find the actual woman of his dreams. Once he did, hed hugged and kissed her anxiously, wanting to convince himself through his actions that he had only hugged the wrong person because of his drunken stupor. At that time, Cheng Xis cool-headedness had made him calm down, but he had also felt an exceedingly strange feeling from her: a little bit of disappointment, but also relief from a burden And when he listened to Cheng Xi reveal all her thoughts, Lin Fan found that he actually couldnt refute her words. Perhaps she was right, perhaps the person who he had loved might have just been a childhood fantasy of his, the product of her offering a small kindness in a time of hardship. He loved her, not the present her, but the youthful her, the young girl who only cared about him. And she was no longer her, her heart now filled with too many people and far too many things. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 86: Did You Break Up? Lin Fan looked at Cheng Xi. She appeared to be calm, impassively analyzing everything with neither sadness nor disappointment. He couldnt help himself from asking, Then, what about you? Did you really love me? Cheng Xi didnt respond. You never liked me either, right? He suddenly felt that this realization might be harder to bear than the fact that the Cheng Xi he truly loved was just his childhood memory. When you said all those things, were you lying to me? About how you were only his shield. But actually, Im your shield, arent I? You love him, but the difference in your social standings made you hesitant of accepting him. So, you used me Lin Fan! Cheng Xi had to stop him there. She looked him squarely in the eye. Weve known each other for so many years. Dont you know what kind of person I am? Then why cant you give me another chance? He buried his face in his hands. Why must you analyze everything so coldly and logically? Cheng Xi, we never even had a good start. Even before their relationship could properly start, a third party had already been thrown between them. Lin Fan knew this, and the only reason Cheng Xi hadnt mentioned it was because she wanted to preserve both their dignities. In the end, they were the ones who knew each other the best, so all he was hoping for was another chance from her. But rather than wait for a reply, Lin Fan had already gotten up and was preparing to leave. Cheng Xi didnt send him out. After he left, she remained sitting there, frozen in the same posture for an indeterminable amount of time. Only when her sweat had evaporated and her body gone chilly did she bathe and sleep. The next morning, Cheng Xi woke up and went to work as usual, running into Dr. Su at the hospital gates. She had on minimal makeup and was wearing a tan overcoat that fluttered in the breeze with her steps. Despite still being somewhat thin, she looked full of vitality. Clearly, she had already moved on from her divorce. Upon seeing Cheng Xi, Dr. Su said, You dont look too good. Cheng Xi rubbed her face tiredly as she replied, I didnt sleep well last night. Breakup? Cheng Xi choked out of surprise. Dr. Su smiled and patted her shoulder. In return for last time, Ill accompany you for a night. Thanks, I might take you up on that. After she stepped into the elevator, Cheng Xi carefully inspected her reflection on the elevator walls. Besides her dark eyebags, she couldnt identify any trace that she had gone through a breakup. But it was true that she wasnt feeling too good. As Cheng Xi made her usual rounds, when she got to Chen Jiaman, she noticed that Chen Jiaman was speaking far less than usual. Perplexed, Cheng Xi turned off the recording device and sat there, looking at her dazedly. Then, Chen Jiaman raised her head to look at her. Cheng Xi belatedly realized that something had changed. That was the first time that Chen Jiaman had ever looked someone in the eye after her illness. Her gaze carried a very careful doubt within it; Cheng Xi maintained her posture without moving, not shifting her gaze or posture even a little. It felt as if the air around them had congealed. Only after a while did Cheng Xi finally hear a somewhat low and hoarse voice pierce the silence. Arent you going to talk? Cheng Xi lightly replied, What do you want me to talk about? Chen Jiaman thought for a moment before replying in an equally light tone. The little rabbit. The little rabbit was the protagonist of all of Cheng Xis stories; no matter which story she told, there would always be a little rabbit in it. After hearing Chen Jiamans request, Cheng Xi finally released a pent up breath: her persistence had finally paid off! Chen Jiaman had gotten used to her voice, her company, and the little rabbit in her stories. So, Cheng Xi told her a story, a brand new story. There was once a little rabbit, a very cute rabbit. She had snowy white fur and big beautiful eyes. Everyone who saw her immediately fell in love with her. She rarely went out because her grandmother told her that obedient children didnt carelessly go outside as there were bad people in the streets. So, the little rabbit never left her home. But as she grew up, her desire to see the outside world also grew; she wanted to make friends. And one day, she finally couldnt resist the temptation anymore. When Cheng Xi reached this point in the story, she stopped. Chen Jiaman was hugging herself tightly with both hands while her small body was curled up in a corner. It seemed like she was trying very hard to prevent something. Afraid that Chen Jiaman wouldnt be able to accept the story, Cheng Xi revised the ending. But the little rabbit was too afraid. She only stepped out a little before running back in. She breathed in the outside air through a slightly ajar door and told herself that she had already gone very far, and that she could see the horizons ahead. After finishing, Cheng Xi asked Chen Jiaman, Do you think that the little rabbit went far enough? Chen Jiaman didnt answer, only retreating further into her blankets, just like that little rabbit who had retreated back into her home. But Cheng Xi knew that Chen Jiaman had already cracked open the door, and that perhaps not long after, she would take her first step outside. Cheng Xi was very happy with Chen Jiamans progress, and she called Lin Fan as soon as she left her ward. Only when the phone started ringing did she remember that they had broken up last night. But since the call had already connected, Cheng Xi didnt hang up. Lin Fan picked up very quickly. The eagerness and indistinct excitement in his voice was so palpable that it made Cheng Xi feel a little awkward, but she forged on and asked, Are you free now? I have something to tell you. Go for it. Its about Chen Jiamanshe just responded to me. Cheng Xi tried to calmly and professionally describe Chen Jiamans response. When she was done, she concluded by saying, If her condition continues to improve, then shell officially be in the recovery phase. At this point, if you have time, then please visit her more often. Lin Fan had listened attentively throughout her report. Only when she was finished did he bitterly say, Did you know? I thought just now that What he thought, he didnt say. Instead, he mockingly laughed at himself in a low tone. Evidently it was wrong for me to have hoped for something else. If I let go of Chen Jiaman and stopped caring about her, then would you be disappointed in me? Cheng Xi seriously responded, I wouldnt be disappointed because she isnt your responsibility. And your personal opinion? Cheng Xi remained silent, taking a while before saying, I think that you can take on this responsibility. As for Lin Fans mothers, even ignoring her attitude, her ideology alone would be problematic. In any case, Cheng Xi didnt think that it would be good for her to take care of Chen Jiaman. Lin Fan smiled wryly as he said, Alright. If this is your last request to me, then Ill definitely handle it with care. Then he hung up. It was this conversation that triggered Cheng Xis pain. A faint and subtle pain dwelled deep in her heart, and this conversation was like a small dagger that had pricked her heart. From that small hole, pain was flowing out with each heartbeat, infusing itself into her every breath. She took a deep breath. At least she was so preoccupied at work that she could ignore it; she didnt have any time to register her emotional pain before she was called away for a pre-surgery consultation. Afterwards, it was time for Lu Chenzhous daily treatment. The ward he was staying in was the best in Renyi. It was quiet and comfortable, and felt less like staying in a hospital room and more like staying at a very nicely furnished rehabilitation resort. The room was a suite, with a living room outside and the ward inside. When Cheng Xi entered the living room, she saw the nurse that the Lu family had hired sitting there. Meanwhile, she could also hear a voice from inside the ward that was clearly Baldys. In an agitated tone, he was complaining about something. ......its actually your Dr. Cheng? Damn, why didnt you tell me anything? Cheng Xi was somewhat curious, as she was not entirely sure what they were talking about that would involve her. She wanted to listen in some more, but the nurse spotted her and had already stood up to greet her. Dr. Cheng. Within the ward, Baldy seemed to have suffered a big fright, as he suddenly started coughing violently. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 87: I Like You in This Way Cheng Xi quickly pushed open the door. Luckily, Baldy wasnt too close to Lu Chenzhou, and he was also wearing a face mask. It seemed that Baldy was as skilled at pushing the blame onto others as ever. Even before he finished coughing, he had started criticizing Cheng Xi. Were you eavesdropping on our conversation? Cheng Xi really wanted to dismiss him with a supercilious look, but after deciding that she probably couldnt win in an argument against him, all she did was gave him a serious reminder. The patient needs to rest, so I highly recommend you avoid coughing or sneezing in front of him at this stage. Baldy wanted to talk back, but Lu Chenzhou warned him with a stern glance. Stymied, he could only stuff his words down and pretend that he hadnt been about to say anything. After he stopped coughing, he put on a smile as he told Cheng Xi, Dr. Cheng, you sound just like an outsider right now. In fact, it makes my teeth hurt even just watching you. I really miss the you who would pay prostitution fees to Boss Lu. Cheng Xi was stunned by Baldys shamelessness. Her scalp prickled, and she distanced herself frostily. Mr. Gao, you did pretty well just now by consciously distancing yourself from the patient when you started coughing. Baldy laughed out loud, and even Lu Chenzhous eyes crinkled out of amusement. Cheng Xi ignored them both and instead focused on performing her job. She walked over to check Lu Chenzhous daily medication, and Baldy followed behind, asking, So you can prescribe medicine for infections? Not really. Having finished reading though the drug records, she put them down as she continued, But I can get a sense of how the illness is progressing from the change in drug dosage and administration. Then has Zhous illness gotten any better? No. What a decisive response, Dr. Cheng. Can I take this to be a sign that you want to keep Zhou in the hospital so you can see him every day? One of Baldys unique talents was to make Cheng Xi want to throw something at him every time he opened his mouth. How on earth had he come up with such a ludicrous conclusion? She looked at Lu Chenzhou with an amused expression. You really have unusual standards for your friends. Lu Chenzhou was sitting by the bed with a laptop in front of him. But when Cheng Xi had entered the room, he had stopped looking at the laptop. Right now, he was looking straight at her, and his gaze deepened even further after hearing her words. He nonchalantly replied, Yes. You too. Cheng Xi could read these two words in his gaze. A small smile unconsciously crept into her face. When Baldy noticed the two of them making eyes at each other, he grabbed at his own and exaggeratedly complained, My eyes are going blind just from watching you two! Alright, Im going to leave. You two have fun doing whatever youre doing. And with that, he went out swiftly. Luckily for the two people remaining in the room, they werent regular people who would feel awkward from what Baldy had said. Instead, Cheng Xi continued that train of thought and asked Lu Chenzhou, Have you ever thought about what your girlfriend or wife would be like? When she didnt get a response, she laughed a little and said, Hmm, I can guess a part of your thoughts. From the nature of your friends, I think that you most likely prefer girls who are lively and open-minded, right? Baldy, Xu Po, and Xie Ziming: Lu Chenzhou considered all three of them to be his friends, but Lu Chenzhou was clearly closer to Baldy than the other two. From a psychological perspective, this was most likely because they had complementary natures: people who were introverted and more serious preferred to spend time with easygoing and simple people. Cheng Xi wasnt planning on conducting any sort of therapy. Rather, she only wanted to find a topic to talk about that could further her understanding of him. Earlier, whenever she brought up kinship and friendship before, Lu Chenzhou had been uninterested without exception. But it seemed like she had finally found a good topic this time because Lu Chenzhous gaze sharpened, as if he were seriously considering this question. After quite a while, he asked in response, Are you lively and open-minded? Cheng Xi thought for a moment before replying, No, not really. Then no, I dont. And then he gazed at her. Cheng Xi briefly thought about the subtext of his response for a moment, and then stilled. Are you saying that you like girls like me? Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything, but Cheng Xi didnt change topics. That really surprises me. I still remember that when we first met, the first thing that you told me was that I was really ugly. I have a peculiar sense of beauty. This was him using her words against her, and Cheng Xi was speechless at his brazenness. If you always chat like this, then youll kill off any conversation you ever have. You dont like my responses? I dont think that anyone would, no. Then what should I say? Something like, I like people like you? ...That works. Lu Chenzhou sat upright and placed both of his hands on his knees, giving off a regal aura as he did so. From this position, he looked seriously at Cheng Xi and said, Cheng Xi, I like girls like you. Her face heated up, and she was barely able to continue the conversation. When Cheng Xi finally remembered her capacity and responsibility as a doctor, she mustered up all her will and put on a serious expression. Can I ask what you feel when you like someone? Lu Chenzhou paused, thinking back to what his grandparents had said about how, when he liked someone, he had to be reserved and tactful, or else he would scare them away. At that time, he hadnt thought much of this advice because he had already spoken unreservedly to Cheng Xi a few times before, and she hadnt been scared away those times. The reason why she was unable to accept his feelings was simply because she didnt like him and because she persevered in maintaining a distance between them; it had nothing to do with directness. After this random thought, Lu Chenzhou suddenly felt a bit uncomfortable. He frowned, before directly saying, I want to have sex with you. Afraid she would misunderstand, he even added, Whenever I see you, it makes me want to know what making love feels like. At least he looked cold and aloof. Otherwise, Cheng Xi really would have wanted to drag him outside and give him a beating like he were a hoodlum. Instead, she scratched her face awkwardly. Thats just a physiological reaction. I dont think that it truly counts when you think about a girlfriend or wife because, when you truly love someone, youll want to be close to her both physically and mentally. Many types of love have nothing to do with sex or desire, and instead focus on mutual understanding and cooperation. Hoo~~ She had finally dragged the topic back to the original one she had started with. Lu Chenzhou actually understood her, and remarked in a deep voice, A platonic relationship. Cheng Xi smiled. Thats right. You want a relationship like this? Yes. He looked at her, his gaze as deep as ever. After a while, he calmly concluded, That man cant give you this. That man referred to Lin Fan; Lu Chenzhou didnt remember his name. Cheng Xi smiled bitterly. Why are you so perceptive? Because your eyes are melancholic. And you seem hurt. Of course, her eyes were also brimming with tears, but Lu Chenzhou didnt want to mention these things; why would he point out her grief for other men if he could help it? Once Lu Chenzhou took his medicine, Cheng Xis rounds for the day were done. She still hadnt had a successful conversation with him. In the end, it had become another dissection of her feelings. If Chen Jiaman had bundled herself up securely as a safety measure, then Lu Chenzhous safety measure was to equip himself with logic. As long as he was clear-headed, Cheng Xi had never gotten anything out of him, which made her feel like her intellect was of little use. Metaphorically speaking, she was a little girl climbing a hill with a shovel. And on this hill was a tough wall in the way, preventing her from climbing up any further. Her only option was to slowly scrape away at it with her shovel. The wall was very thick, and the shovel very small, so her progress was minuscule. Cheng Xi felt like she should continue talking about this issue with Cai Yi, and coincidentally, Cai Yi ended up coming to see her at around that time. When the head nurse saw Cheng Xi, she asked, Youre back? Professor Cai was just here. She has something to tell you, so she wanted you to go to the heads office to find her when you get back. After being informed, Cheng Xi turned around and headed to the heads office. But the head wasnt there; Cai Yi was the only one in his office. She was wearing reading glasses, and she was looking at a copy of a patients medical records in her hands. When she noticed Cheng Xi walking over, she smiled and said, Have a seat. Cheng Xi sat down. Whats the matter, professor? Cai Yi didnt answer her, and instead started talking about Chen Jiaman. I heard that her condition had a breakthrough? Yes. Upon mentioning Chen Jiaman, Cheng Xis feelings instantly improved, and she began describing Chen Jiamans earlier behavior to Cai Yi in detail, and Cai Yi listened very seriously. After Cheng Xi finished, she smiled at Cheng Xi. Her face was naturally good-natured and kindly, and her smile accentuated those aspects of hers. But the words that she spoke next chilled Cheng Xis body to her core. I didnt expect her to have a breakthrough at this time. As your professor, thisll look like Im trying to snatch away your contribution. Professor? Cheng Xi was somewhat shocked. Cai Yi was still smiling. But what can I do? Chen Jiamans family has already officially started her transfer proceedings. Tomorrow, shell be transferred to my laboratory. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 88: Schism Cheng Xis brain seemed to explode; it took her a significant amount of time for her to process this new development. Cai Yi looked at her, unable to help herself from laughing. Alright, this reaction of yours makes me feel like Ive snatched some precious thing of yours. Dont worry. Even if she is transferred over, shell receive the best treatment. Your hard work hasnt been for naught. I dont care about that Cheng Xi finally finished processing the news, and her expression slowly calmed. Professor, who was the patients family member that you mentioned? Her birth mother, Madam Lin. Cheng Xi ground her teeth in frustration. As far as Im aware, shes been divorced from Chen Fuguo for many years now. After they lost contact with each other, she should have long since lost custody of Chen Jiaman Cai Yi looked at her, still half-smiling, as if she knew that Cheng Xi was going to say something like that. Then, she took out a piece of paper from her bag and placed it in front of her. Cheng Xi didnt look at the contents; the first thing that caught her eye was the signature on the bottom, Chen Fuguos. Only then did she read the neat, calligraphed words above it. I hope that you can take on the responsibility of being a mother and take good care of her Cai Yi looked straight at Cheng Xi as she explained, Madam Lin came to me two days ago, and I told her what you said. Then yesterday, she handed this paper to me. She knows about the relationship between us, and she also wanted me to tell you something: back then, she was forced to give up this daughter of hers, and because of this, she feels like the only way she can make up for it is to transfer Chen Jiaman into the best possible hospital and have her receive even better treatment. Then, Cai Yi waved her hands, motioning for Cheng Xi to continue listening to her. Of course, Renyis psychiatry department is already considered one of the best in the nation, and since youre my favorite student, Ive never doubted your ability. Initially, I truly wasnt planning on taking her. Cheng Xi felt like someone had shoved a block of ice into her heart, and that the cold was seeping into her flesh and piercing her bones. Then why did you agree to take her in, professor? Cai Yi fell silent, taking some time to gather her thoughts before finally sighing. Cheng Xi smiled coldly at her reaction. Let me guess, professor. Youve always taken care of me, and fundamentally speaking, theres not much of a difference between me treating her and you treating her, unless When Cheng Xi reached this point in her thoughts, she couldnt stop her eyes from reddening, and she took a couple of breaths to gather her wits before continuing. She gave you an offer you couldnt refuse. And just what could be so irresistible as to tempt Cai Yi? As a student, Cheng Xi was perfectly aware. It was this awareness that made her sad, that made her seethe with rage. Cai Yi remained calm as she looked at Cheng Xi. I invited you to join my research laboratory after you graduated, but you refused. At that time, I already knew that you didnt support my research that focused on standardizing treatment for clinical depression. I didnt say anything back thenafter all, everyone has their own aspirations and no one can force someone else to do anything. But Cheng Xi, you have to understand, not all doctors are as smart as you. The majority of them arent willing to give their all, like you are, to help their patients recover. Rather, they prefer to subject their patients to standardized treatment, which means removing all other disruptions at the very beginning and then performing a routine set of targeted tasks specific to the illness As such, researching a better standardized procedure for treating clinical depression, the leading mental illness in the modern world, is an aspiration that I dont think is wrong. I also dont think that its wrong either, Cheng Xi replied. In fact, I approve of such research, but scientific research is filled with cruelty and coldheartedness. Im not suitable for such an environment, and I respect those who can work in one. But, professor, Chen Jiamans different. Her mind has been damaged far too deeply, and her ability to trust much too impaired. Shes not a suitable test subject. Cai Yi stopped Cheng XI there. As you well know, shes perfectly suited for that. But I also understand why youd say that to my face, why you only talked about her symptoms with regards to Cotards syndrome, and why you cried like that in front of me. Cheng Xi, I understand your worry for her being handed over to a for-profit corporation like mine. When Chen Jiamans sole guardian lost his ability to take care of her, you were already trying to give me a heads-up, right? Cheng Xi didnt respond. Actually, I really wanted to help you, especially after I read through your treatment records. As a doctor, youre more qualified to treat her than anyone else. But Cheng Xi, scientific progress demands that some people be sacrificed. Whats more, just because Chen Jiaman is being transferred to my laboratory doesnt mean that shell be sacrificed. Although she is a test subject, shes also my patient. Im not doubting your ability, but I still disapprove of her being a test subject. If you used an incorrect approach with other patients, they may still be salvageable, but not her. Her mentality is already so weak that, if this treatment fails, she might never be able to recover. Youre exaggerating too much. Cai Yi was somewhat angry now. Didnt she receive a huge mental shock last time? But shes alright now, isnt she? And our goal is, after all, to treat patients; well only help her, not provoke her. But your methods are clearly not suited for her case, professor. When Cai Yi heard these words come out of Cheng Xis mouth, her gaze immediately sharpened. She finally shed her identity of Cheng Xis familiar and amicable mentor and instead donned the guise of the cold-hearted head researcher of her laboratory. Do you know whats suitable for her? You might think that her condition is improving, but I dont mind telling you this. Before you came here, I was investigating similar illnesses. I dont think that shes truly recovering, Cheng Xi. Your method might not work either! I believe that it will work. You believe? Cai Yi started to laugh incredulously. Science isnt about intuition. If intuition were useful, then what would be the point of having all these diagnostic devices? Will your belief help her recover? Will your belief help her lead a normal life after she leaves the hospital? Yes! Cheng Xis response was resolute and decisive. Cai Yi laughed disapprovingly. Cheng Xi looked straight at Cai Yi and solemnly said, Professor, will you make a bet with me? If I can cure her, and have her ultimately lead a normal lifestyle, then will you give up on making her one of your test subjects? Cai Yi smiled, feeling like she had been blindsided by one of her students. Curing illnesses and treating patients arent something to gamble about. Upon seeing that Cheng Xi was about to continue speaking, Cai Yi shook her head again, finally calming down. Furthermore, it wouldnt matter even if you do convince me. The person you actually need to convince is her guardian. Cai Yi stood up as she prepared to leave. I believe that youll be able to delay the transfer procedure for one or two days, but not any longer than that. I came here today to tell you that Im not about to reject such an ideal and willing test subject, and that you dont have much time to do anything about it. After she finished speaking, Cai Yi left. Cheng Xi went over to help her up out of habit, but Cai Yi just smiled. Leave me be, and go think of a method to convince Madam Lin instead. I dont want to lose a student like you quite yet. Cai Yis assistant came in then, and with that, she patted Cheng Xis hand and left. Cheng Xi stood at the door as she watched them depart. The department head, who normally didnt treat her very well, suddenly appeared beside her, popping up from who-knows-where. Department head. The department head made a hmph. Get back to work. He walked inside with his hands clasped behind his back. Stubborn girl, you can come to me if you need any help. I may not be your professor, but I am still your department head. Cheng Xis eyes blurred as a wave of emotion overcame her. She took a deep breath to calm herself, bowed at the department head, and then ran off. After returning to her office, Cheng Xi thought for a little before ultimately deciding to first call Lin Fans mother. The reason why she didnt call Lin Fan was because he couldnt truly be considered Chen Jiamans guardian; while it might be fine to ask him to spend some time to take care of Chen Jiaman, if something big happened, she couldnt ask him for any help. Luckily, Cheng Xi still had Lin Fans mothers number. As soon as Cheng Xi pressed the call button, the line connected. Cheng Xi. Lin Fans mothers voice was eerily cordial. I was just at the hospital, but you werent there. Its good that you called me. Were thinking of transferring our Jiaman to a different hospital. If its convenient for you, could you sign the transfer request? Mrs. Lin, regarding this issue, can we meet up and discuss it in person? I can meet you at any time youre free. There was silence on the other side. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 89: Frightening Cheng Xi waited patiently until she finally heard Lin Fans mother sigh lightly. Cheng Xi, why are you making this so difficult? Ive known you for so many years, Mrs. Lin. Wont you satisfy even this one small request of mine? Lin Fans mother fell silent again, mulling it over before finally saying, Alright. Ill send you an address. Im free this afternoon, so you can come then. Not long after, Cheng Xi received a text with an address in it from Lin Fans mother. When Cheng Xi looked it up, it was a private residence in the best area in the city, and not too far from the hospital. The head nurse suddenly knocked on the door. Time to eat. She already knew that Chen Jiaman was being transferred, and her gaze toward Cheng Xi was filled with sympathy. Cheng Xi stood up. Alright. Lets go. As they walked through the hospital corridors, the head nurse tried to comfort Cheng Xi. Actually, isnt it good that shes switching hospitals? You wont have to worry over her anymore. We all know how troublesome Chen Jiaman can be, and you should be happy that shes being transferred. Cheng Xi only smiled wryly, and the head nurse covered her eyes. Alright, alright, you shouldnt force yourself to smile. She patted Cheng Xi back as she repliably said, If youre not feeling well, then I can give you a massage to relieve some tension. Cheng Xis heart warmed, and she leaned against the head nurses shoulder. Thank you. I already feel better just by hearing this from you. Indeed, even though Cheng Xi was a bit angry, she wasnt all that sad; perhaps it was because she had a team supporting her by her side. In the afternoon, she had to request time off to go see Lin Fans mother. The department head gave her no trouble at all; he simply waved his hand and said, Go, go. He then personally scheduled a doctor to fill in for her. Cheng Xi was very grateful. She took a taxi directly to the address that Lin Fans mother had sent her. Despite the cold winter winters, the streets were still crowded, and Cheng Xis ride over was plagued by traffic jams. When she finally arrived, she waited at the doorstop for quite a while before a housekeeper-like figure came over to answer the door. Are you Ms. Cheng? Yes. Only then did the housekeeper open the door and let her in. Lin Fans mother was on the second floor. When Cheng Xi walked over, she was trimming flowers by the corridor. The temperature had been unprecedentedly cold these last few days, and even though they were indoors, she was dressed very warmly with a white wool sweater and a sapphire-blue marten coat with a white fur collar trim. Framed by the dusky rays of the sun, Lin Fans mother looked far younger than her actual age. But she was clearly not in a good mood, and her mood was reflected in her pruning; a perfectly good banyan tree had been ruined by her terrible trimming. Cheng Xi noticed that upon seeing Lin Fans mothers handiwork, the housekeeper by her side snorted lightly with a speck of disdain in her eyes. Then she curtly announced, Shes here, before leaving right away. Lin Fans mother ignored the disdain in the housekeeper, put down the scissors, and then smiled at Cheng Xi. Ill bring you to see my old man first. The old man she was referring to was the owner of this house, as well as Lin Fans mothers current husband. She had said that he was old, and she hadnt been exaggerating at all; the man who appeared in front of Cheng Xi was old, very old. His head was completely bald, his body thin and skinny, and his skin covered in liver spots. His bedroom had long been converted into a sickroom. In front of the bed were some common medical apparatuses, and two people who looked like doctors were sitting by his bedside. The master of the house was lying in bed with one hand outside the blankets. There was an IV by the bed, with fluid slowly dripping down from it. Upon hearing the noise of two people entering the room, he opened his eyes slightly. Lin Fans mother walked in, leaned by his side, and said, This is Lin Fans classmate. Shes here to see you. The old mans dusky gaze meandered over, landing on Cheng Xis face. After quite a while, he opened his mouth and said, Okay. Then Ill go and talk with her now. Stay well. After Lin Fans mother finished talking to the old man, she considerately helped him arrange his blankets before pulling Cheng Xi out of the room. Only after they exited the room and were once again breathing the fresh air outside did Cheng Xi slowly release a pent up breath. Were you scared? Lin Fans mother asked with a smile. Cheng Xi didnt know what to say. Lin Fan has always thought that this was an embarrassing affair, but I thought that it wasnt so bad. These past years of being married to him are some of the most peaceful days of my life. She brought Cheng Xi to a small living room on the side of the house, sat down in front of her, and started chatting. She had neither the gentleness and grief of her early years nor the snobbishness and affectation that Cheng Xi had seen in her recently. Lin Fans mother was very calm today. Do you know why I wanted to meet you here? Its to show you that Lin Fans different from you, that the burdens hes been carrying is different from the average persons. Dont even try to convince me to let Jiaman stay in Renyi Hospital. I dont want her to become his burden. Cheng Xi tartly replied, She wont be his burden. Really? Lin Fans mother looked at her with a placid smile. Just because you say so? What if she doesnt improve for the rest of her life? As youve said before, her illness cant be solved through moneyshe also needs familial care, ceaseless kindness Lin Fans mother had actually used the word kindness. Cheng Xis heart stiffened, but she didnt stop her from speaking and silently listened as Lin Fans mother continued. Lin Fans not willing to follow the path that I chose for him. He wants to bear all these burdens alone, and I have no choice but to let him do so. However, this shouldnt be his responsibility, and I dont want him to be forced to carry this burden. I dont care about why you want him to care for Jiaman. Whether its because of your duty as a doctor or because of your selfishness as a woman, none of it matters to me. Cheng Xi glanced at Lin Fans mother, her eyes limpid and determined. Mrs. Lin, do you think that the reason why I want Lin Fan to take care of Chen Jiaman is because I want to woo him? Lin Fans mother didnt reply, but it was clear that she did indeed think so. Cheng Xis face turned red. I didnt know that, in Mrs. Lins eyes, that Im an undignified girl who doesnt have any self respect. What if I promised to never be romantically involved with him again? Would you No. Lin Fans mother shook her head, cutting Cheng Xi off. Cheng Xi, I dont want to take any risks. Even though I do want him to choose a wife who can help him achieve his goals rather than choose one out of impulse, as his mother, I do want him to both have a successful career and marriage. He likes you. I dont want to deny this, and neither can I deny it. However, if he has to see you from time to time while still harboring feelings you, Cheng Xi Then do you think this would be good for him? Also, I dont understand why you wouldnt agree to transfer Jiaman to another hospital. Professor Cai was your professor and a national authority on psychology. Her laboratory is well-funded, and as long as Jiaman volunteers to be a test subject in her laboratory, then even if she cant recover, she will still receive very good treatment and care. Isnt this the best outcome for everyone involved? Cheng Xis voice was trembling as she replied, But do you know what shell have to face as a test subject? Her minds already so fragile. If the methods that they use arent suitable Do you think that youre more experienced than Professor Cai? How are you so sure that she wont receive suitable treatment over there? If your method is indubitably the right one, then why hasnt she improved even after spending such a long time in the hospital? Cheng Xi, weve known each other for a while, and I dont want to hurt you by being too blunt. Youre so young and so talented, and youll surely encounter many more men and patients in the futurewhy spend so much time on this one? So, Mrs. Lin, you really do think that I want to keep Jiaman here because of Lin Fan, dont you? Cheng Xi took a deep breath, trying to calm herself down. Youre right. Im still young, and therell be many more men and patients in my future. Men, I dont care too much about As for patients, while you might not understand my attachment to them, you should understand the disgrace and humiliation I feel from knowing that I can cure Chen Jiaman but not being able to do so. I dont doubt my professors work, and Im certainly not brash enough to claim that I know more than Professor Cai. However, Im also a psychiatrist in my own right, and I know what sort of treatment my patients need. Thats enough reason for me. After Cheng Xi finished speaking her mind, she got up, ready to leave. After taking two steps towards the door, she stopped again, turned around to Lin Fans mother, and said, I didnt think this in the past, but I feel like theres something I have to say to you now. Its really frightening that anyone can become a parent. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 90: Can You Give Me a Reason? Cheng Xi seldomly spoke harshly towards others, but today, she couldnt help herself. Lin Fans mothers extreme way of thinking had led to her abnormal condition; she stubbornly wanted others to follow the plans that she deemed to be the best, but she never respected their wishes. When she was young, she had been weak and powerless, unable to protect Lin Fan and Chen Jiaman. And now, she was still powerless to protect them. After she left Lin Fans mothers place, Cheng Xi contacted the officer who had initially brought Chen Jiaman to her. Id like to see Chen Fuguo. Is that possible? At this point, normally, only a lawyer would be permitted to see him. Whats the matter? Cheng Xi then left to find a lawyer. She had two lawyer friends, but coincidentally, neither of them were around. One of them was on good terms with Cheng Xi, but he was out of the country on vacation. When he heard her explanation, he couldnt help but scold her. Are you crazy? Why do you care so much about others affairs! And he even posted about it on his feed: I just met the stupidest doctor of the year! But despite his obvious misgivings, he still helped Cheng Xi get in contact with a friend of his. Hes a bigshot lawyer who doesnt take on just any kind of case. See if hes willing to help you. But Im warning you: I dont think that you stand a chance unless you can prove that your professors laboratory treats its test subjects inhumanely beyond a shadow of a doubt. How on Earth would she be able to prove that? And Cai Yis methods of treatment werent inhumane; most of them fell within the scope of standard treatment methods used worldwide. It was just that in Cheng Xis opinion, they were overly simple and too rough for Chen Jiaman. The lawyer that her friend recommended had some time to talk, and, coincidentally, he was even at Renyi right now. Cheng Xi rushed over and found him standing in the main lobby. Surprisingly, she saw a familiar facehe was the lawyer that Lu Chenzhou employed, the one who had drafted that relationship contract for her and Lu Chenzhou. The lawyer wasnt particularly surprised upon seeing Cheng Xi, and he even smiled as he said, We meet again. Im just about to go see Director Lu. Do you want to talk on the way there? Cheng Xis current mental state wasnt appropriate for her to see Lu Chenzhou; she was too fretful. The lawyer didnt push her to do so either. Then Ill come find you afterwards. And so, Cheng Xi waited in her office. Because it was still visiting hours when went back to her office, a patients family member immediately came up to her and started talking to her. Without much of a choice, she could only tamp down her emotions and carefully help him analyze the patients condition. Before she could finish helping him, her phone rang. It was Lu Chenzhous lawyer. Cheng Xi thought that he had finished his tasks, but it turned out that he actually wanted her to go to Lu Chenzhous ward. Director Lu also wants to hear about the situation. Are you willing to come? Cheng Xi sighed---she could only acquiesce. After sending the patients family member away, the first person Cheng Xi saw after stepping out was Lin Fan. He was wearing a sky blue dress shirt and holding a similarly colored jacket draped over his arm as he gracefully stood by the nurses station and chatted with the nearby nurses. Maybe it was because he was paying close attention to the area around him, but he turned around at almost the same instant that she stepped out. When he saw Cheng Xi, he momentarily stilled before taking big strides toward her. Cheng Xi recalled Lin Fans mothers words, and couldnt help but smile bitterly at the situation. Lin Fan was already standing in front of her by the time she reacted. Im here to see Jiaman Cheng Xi, I heard that my mothers trying to transfer her away. Is that true? Yes. His forehead scrunched up. Why? But after looking at Cheng Xis calm gaze, he realized that he had asked a silly question. Im sorry. I shouldnt have asked you that. Dont worry. Ill talk to my mom about it. Jiamans doing very well here, and I dont feel like she needs to be transferred. Cheng Xi looked at him. The concern in his gaze hadnt been diminished at all by the souring relationship between the two of them. She knew that, as long as she asked, he would definitely talk with his mother and use every means at his disposal to stop it from happening. But since Lin Fans mother already thought that Cheng Xi was using Chen Jiaman to deepen the feelings between her and Lin Fan, none of Lin Fans words would work. Also, she didnt want to intensify the conflict between Lin Fan and his mother. So after briefly thinking about it, Cheng Xi said, Thank you, but you dont have to say anything to Mrs. Lin. As Chen Jiamans birth mother, if theres anything that needs her attention, then Ill let her know myself. Cheng Xi was feeling thankful for the slight break she had just now, as she had been able to calm down considerably. At the very least, it had been enough that Lin Fan hadnt detected anything unusual. He looked at her with a dazed expression. But Cheng Xi didnt look back. Instead, she stretched out her out and pointed at another room. Im sorry, but Im still busy right now. If theres anything else that you need to know, you can go ask Dr. An. Right after saying this, Cheng Xi turned to leave, but Lin Fan called her back. Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi stopped, and quietly turned around to look at him. Her gaze was too calm, so calm that it naturally commanded ones silence. The pressure was so intense that Lin Fan felt like he couldnt say anything, as anything he said would be extraneous. So he could only laugh bitterly and say, Alright. Sorry for the trouble. Cheng Xi smiled and left. When she entered Lu Chenzhous ward, the first thing she saw were Lu Chenzhous grandparents sitting outside. The scene was reminiscent of a silent movie, as the two were playing cards without making a single sound. When they saw Cheng Xi enter, they became excited and happily whispered to her, Dr. Cheng, youre here? Cheng Xi nodded and looked into Lu Chenzhous ward. Lu Chenzhous grandmother chuckled. Theyre inside. After gathering her cards, she happily shouted inside, Zhou, Dr. Chengs here. After her announcement, the lawyer came out and led Cheng Xi in. Lu Chenzhou was sitting by the bed; one hand was connected to an IV drip and the other was holding a stack of documents, all while an elite-looking man stood by his side. Clearly, the three of them had been discussing business matters. Cheng Xi stood by the door, assessing Lu Chenzhous mental condition. He seemed to be doing finefor someone like him, maintaining his normal cold and aloof demeanor meant that he was normal. She asked, Should I wait outside? No worries, were almost done, the lawyer said. At that moment, the elite-looking man started packing his things up. As he left, the lawyer said, Ill send him out. Please wait for me, Dr. Cheng. Then the two left. Now, only Cheng Xi remained in the room with Lu Chenzhou. Out of habit, she started checking his medicine before realizing that Lu Chenzhou was still sitting there; his legs were stretched out, his hands folded by his abdomen, and his gaze coolly directed at her. Are you feeling alright today? Cheng Xi asked. I thought that your relationship with Cai Yi was pretty good. This, Cheng Xi would never deny. Shes my professor, and I respect her very much so. Lu Chenzhou laughed mockingly. Respect, but also disagreement. She is a respected professor, but I dont necessarily have to agree with all of her thoughts and viewpoints. Even in the ancient times, conflicts between a teacher and their student was a normal occurrence. Like with Plato and Aristotle? She had just discussed platonic love with him, and now he was even bringing up the schism between Plato and Aristotle; truly, he was a studious patient. Cheng Xi sighed. I dont dare compare myself to the great sages. Its just like what my professor said. Im ill-suited for scientific research. Ill-suited, but you even want to prevent it from happening? Cheng Xi was serious. Shes my patient. She came to my hands, and Im responsible for her Even if I know that it might be useless, I still want to work hard and try to help her. Im not a saint, as Im just trying my best to maintain a clear conscience. So if its convenient, Id like to request your lawyer to help me. Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything. His eyes drooped slightly as he looked at his folded hands. Over the course of his illness, he had gotten quite a bit thinner. His slim body had even become a bit bony, and his skin even paler. Under the wards harsh lighting, his long eyebrows made his severe expression look a little more gentle. But when he spoke again, his words were as detached as before. Then you should also know that Donglai is the largest investor in Cai Yis research laboratory. As the current CEO of Donglai, why should I help you rather than her? He looked straight at her. Can you give me a reason? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 91: Another Kiss After Lu Chenzhou asked his question, Cheng Xi felt as if a bolt of lightning had struck her out of the blue. She had actually forgotten about the relationship between Donglai and Cai Yi, and had even foolishly tried to ask Lu Chenzhous people to help her stop her own professor. No wonder the lawyer had insisted that she come over; shed thought that Lu Chenzhou had taken a personal interest in the matterall right, he had indeed taken an interest in the matter, but a professional one. As the CEO of Donglai, of course hed be interested in the going-ons of one of Donglais most important laboratories. However, she wasnt prepared at all for this! Cheng Xi was feeling frantic: her intellect didnt seem enough to handle a problem as large as this, and she was quite annoyed that she even had to deal with it in the first place. Honestly, shouldnt it be enough for doctors to just focus on treating their patients? Why did she have to be involved in all these bureaucratic affairs? But she quickly halted these defeatist thoughts. Cheng Xi quickly readjusted her mental state by rubbing her face and letting out a long breath. My apologies, I forgot about that. Cheng Xi felt like Lu Chenzhou was about to make a disdainful expression again, and she was exasperated at the thought of it alone. But its alright if youre not able to. If your lawyer isnt able to help me, then Ill find another way on my own. As for what Lu Chenzhou had said about giving him a reason, she ignored it. But Lu Chenzhou didnt. Perhaps the person who introduced Lawyer Du to you didnt make it clear, but if he cant handle the case, then no one else can. Cheng Xi stared at him. Lu Chenzhou repeated himself seriously. I can let him help you, but you need to give me a reason to do so? If this were a drama, then at this time, Cheng Xis response might have been something like, Alright, Ill give myself to you then. But this wasnt a drama, and Cheng Xi would never say something like that. She looked at him and ground her teeth as she begrudgingly asked, What sort of reason do you want? How about bringing down Donglai Pharmaceuticals? If Donglai Pharmaceuticals falls, then Cai Yis laboratory will definitely be affected, and she wont be able to conduct any further experiments or take in Chen Jiaman. At least, not in the near future. This wasnt a drama, and Lu Chenzhou definitely wasnt one of those brain-addled tyrannical CEOs who were only interested in pretty women! Cheng Xi very much wanted to praise him for his reasoning. Great idea! But would you help me? If youd accept it, then yes. In that instant, Cheng Xi was stupefied. Because she had realized that Lu Chenzhou was serious, and when she remembered his personality, she couldnt help but ask, Youre kidding, arent you? Lu Chenzhou smiled nonchalantly. You dont dare to? Cheng Xi choked, walked over, and inspected him carefully. Lu Chenzhou looked back at her, his gaze as calm as usual. There was neither a ridicule nor jest in his eyes; these were his true intentions. He truly wanted to bring down Donglai Pharmaceuticals. This was really too shocking. Cheng Xi restrained the shock in her heart. She didnt make a big fuss, but she felt herself suddenly relax, as if a big boon had fallen into her lap for no reasonafter chatting with him so often these last few days, a breakthrough had just landed in her lap today! She responded cautiously, Yes, I dare! If Donglai Pharmaceuticals is guilty of poor business ethics, like if they replace their products with inferior ones, or if their business constitutes a major threat to society, then I would definitely dare to do it. But, does it? Lu Chenzhou smiled. No, it doesnt. As he said this, he suddenly leaned in toward her. Cheng Xi almost jumped back in fright, but she forced herself to not back down. She saw her image reflected in his pupils. That Cheng Xi seemed like she was forcing herself to calm down while looking very timid. Lu Chenzhous eyes was utterly devoid of his previous smile. He stretched out his hand and lightly lifted her lower jaw up. Are you scared? Let me guessin the eyes of psychiatrists like you, cold-blooded humans dont have any sense of morality, and they sometimes even hope for the destruction of the world, giving them the potential to do things that would frighten normal humans You think that I want to bring down Donglai because my mental condition is worsening, dont you? This was why they said very intelligent people were frightening; they could see through everything. Cheng Xi didnt deny his accusations. I almost had that notion, but after talking to you now, I dont think that your condition has deteriorated at all. It hasnt, he said with absolute certainty as he continued gripping on her jaw. Cheng Xi wanted to free herself from his grasp, but she wasnt able to do so. She could only give him a reminder. This is a very impolite gesture, you know. He smiled again. How strange. Why am I so interested in a person as dumb as you? Cheng Xi was speechless because she realized that she might have just fallen into his trap: his statement about bringing down Donglai was just a test for her, wasnt it? And to think that she had ever believed him. I dont like it when you do this, she said gloomily. Do you feel like your high intellect makes you amazing when you suddenly test people like that? She raised her head and looked at him before realizing that she had no other choice but to advise him. Sometimes, you should act a bit dumber, so that other people can feel better about themselves. After saying this, Cheng Xi sincerely felt an impulse to throw down all her responsibilities and walk out. This job used to be her sole passion and love, but the recent setbacks it had thrown at her were nearly unbearable. When a doctor admitted defeat in front of a patient, that was also a disgrace. But someone like Lu Chenzhou couldnt be understood through common logic. The stopgap measure that shed implemented to lighten the tension was something that he took seriously. His pupils stared straight into hers for quite a while even as he continued to hold onto her face. The lamps glare made Cheng Xis eyes stream, its harsh intensity almost bringing Cheng Xi to tears. However, not only did Lu Chenzhou not release her, he instead lowered his head and kissed her. ! ! ! Cheng Xi was so taken aback that she couldnt even react; a teardrop that she had spent great effort to squeeze out coalesced in one eye, reflecting her image like a fool. The mood had changed so quickly that she couldnt keep up at all! Mr. Lus identity as the quintessential tyrannical CEO had evaporated so quickly that Cheng Xi couldnt even escape from him if she wanted to. After a few trial runs, his skills had improved significantly. He first kissed her directly, and then before Cheng Xi could react, rapidly extended his other hand underneath her shoulder, lifting her up and pushing her down. In the end, Cheng Xi was left pressed up against him in an embrace without any way to resist. Peng! As she was forced up, she knocked over the stool she was sitting on. In comparison to the silent room, the resulting noise was as loud as an earthquake. Cheng Xi felt a pinch of pain in her heart, but even as she tried and failed to stop him with her hands, the door behind them opened from the outside. Oh! Ah! The two cries came from Lu Chenzhous grandfather and grandmother, respectively, before the door quickly closed again. Cheng Xi could hear Lu Chenzhous grandfather complaining to his wife. Why did you go in? Didnt you see what they were doing? His wife whispered back in a rather loud voice. His hands bleeding! Hes a man. Whats the harm in a little blood? Rather, what he should be scared of is not ever finding a wife! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 92: Come Chase After Me Cheng Xis body seemed slim, but she practiced yoga whenever she was free, so she wasnt all that weak. Since Lu Chenzhou was still ill, she actually managed to break free from his grasp. She took two steps back and looked at him. Her eyes were so bright that it seemed like sparks of flame would come out of them at any moment; meanwhile, her lips had become red and swollen from his biting, and they looked just like ripe peaches that had been slightly pinched, which gave them an unusual charm of their own. Lu Chenzhous fingers moved a little, and the IV drip was pulled taut against the back of his hand, sparking a jolt of pain. He regained his senses and found that the needle had been half pulled out. The medicine was now mixing with his red blood, and the resulting blend was slowly dripping down the side of the bed. He decided to just rip the whole needle out, throw it to one side, and use his other hand to tightly press against the bleeding one. When Cheng Xi saw this series of actions, she became quite disconcerted, so much so that she eventually called the nurses station. The VIP rooms patient is bleeding from his hand. Lu Chenzhou glanced at her, put on his shoes, and got off of the bed as Cheng Xi looked at him warily. If you keep messing around Before she could finish, he had already left the room without looking back, all the while clutching his hand. Cheng Xi heard his impatient tone. The beds dirty! The nurses quickly came over. Some changed the bedsheets, others mopped the floor, and some others changed the IV drip; the room was suddenly filled with bustling activity. Cheng Xi had calmed down by now, and was currently standing to one side. Lu Chenzhous grandparents noticed that she was forcing herself to stay calm, and when they thought to their grandsons valiant actions, they felt a bit guilty. But they didnt even mention anything about him to her, instead trying to fawn over her. Dr. Cheng, do you want something to eat? Or, Dr. Cheng, are you tired? As Lu Chenzhous grandmother was asking if she was tired, her husband pulled on her arm. Cheng Xi pretended to not have heard anything. Given how convoluted it all was, what could she say? Upon hearing the commotion, Lu Chenzhous primary doctor also rushed over. After finding out that Lu Chenzhous IV drip had had a problem, he was very displeased. Was he playing around with it? First, he scolded all the bystanders. What were all of you doing? His hands as swollen as a steamed bun. Do you think that his illness is funny? And then he scolded Lu Chenzhou. Mr. Lu, I know you have a bad temper, and honestly, my tempers worse than yours. However, you shouldnt think that you can relax just because your condition has improved a lot these last few days. If septicemia were that easy to treat, then you wouldnt have been sent here in a hurry that night! Your life is your own affair. If you think that its funny to play around with it, then fine. Please turn right as you exit, and stop causing trouble for the hospital! Besides Lu Chenzhou, everyone else was scolded so much that their faces turned green. The primary doctor grew more and more mad until he finally left in a huff with a cold face right after he finished inspecting Lu Chenzhou. Lu Chenzhous grandfather quickly chased after him. On the other hand, Lu Chenzhou acted as if nothing had happened. His face was still frowning as he complained, The beds dirty. Nurse A replied, Weve already replaced the bedsheets, theyre all clean. Its still dirty! Nurse B explained, Its really not dirty. Weve already disinfected everything, and the floors been mopped clean too. Even his grandmother coaxed him, trying to get him to relax, Its really not dirty anymore. I just inspected it. Its really clean. Lu Chenzhou still felt that the sheets werent clean, so he sat on the sofa as he continued to frown heavily with pursed lips and an expression saying that he wouldnt tolerate it one bit. While they were stuck in a deadlock, Cheng Xi stood up. Do you feel like your bloods dirty too? Then do you also know that you used to stoop and poop near the dining table in your home? And who knows how many peoples saliva, sweat, germs have touched the road that you walk on daily. And thats not even mentioning the children and pet feces and urine Lu Chenzhous grandmother anxiously cried out, Dr. Cheng! Cheng Xi ignored her, continuing to look at Lu Chenzhou and monologue. Do you think that when you wash yourself after going home that youre really clean? Do you think that, after you disinfect yourself, everything will be just fine? Yes, at least youll be clean and free from germs, but so what? Youre a clean freak through and through, but do you think that your unnaturally sensitive skin is actually natural? No, its not. Its a result of your overly fastidious habits. Your bodys immune system has lost its capabilities, which is how such a small allergic reaction could lead to such a severe cold and even to septicemia! Do you remember what I told you that time? About how the nature of clean freaks is to like dirty things? Its not you who likes it. Its every cell in your body, every strand of hair and every gland in your skin! Theyre all particularly susceptible to dirtiness and attractive to all sorts of bacteria! Do you understand?! She said this with such vigor and conviction that the two nurses listening had been struck dumb. She waved them away. Leave, let him do what he wants! As the doctor said, this illness is his to treat or not treat. This body is his. As to whether its dead or living, why should we care? All hes doing right now is throwing a tantrum because he knows that there are others who are willing to coddle him! Doctor Dr. Cheng Leave! Nurses A and B looked at Lu Chenzhou, who was sitting on the sofa with a face like biting cold, and then at the severe expression of Cheng Xi, before wordlessly deciding to leave together. The door opened and closed again. The lawyer who was sending someone out had returned. But when he popped his head in and noticed the heated atmosphere, he quickly closed the door again and retreated. The sudden silence left the room feeling like a bottle devoid of oxygen, and Lu Chenzhous grandmother felt like she was unable to breathe My goodness, what sins had she wrought, that she was forced into a situation such as this? Cheng Cheng Xi, should I also leave? Cheng Xi turned towards Lu Chenzhous grandmother, her tone calming down. No, its fine. Coincidentally, I have something to say, and its better if you listen to it too. Lu Chenzhous grandmother made an Oh sound before obediently standing to the side of the sofa and looking at Cheng Xi anxiously as she clutched the hem of her clothes. She could only look away from her and refocus on Lu Chenzhou instead. His face was still like a mask of cold indifference as he stared at his hands. Cheng Xi asked, Do you want to go back inside and lie down? Lu Chenzhous face twisted. Despite his refusal to answer, it was clear that he had been truly disgusted by her words. But Cheng Xi didnt mind. Alright, its fine if you stay here too. She dragged a stool over and sat down in front of him. Mr. Lu, theres something that Id like to confirm with you. Go on. Lu Chenzhou didnt say anything; his grandmother had responded for him. Cheng Xi looked at her. Lu Chenzhous grandmother tried to explain, slightly embarrassed. He Ah, he doesnt like to speak very much. Its fine if you just talk. Hell listen. Cheng Xi was silent. If this was how Lu Chenzhou had been brought up as a child, then this was the source of his tendency to only care about his own actions, wasnt it? In her heart, she sighed before she openly said, Alright, then Ill say it. I want to confirm that you like me. Dont you? No matter what kind of like it is, you feel something towards me, right? Lu Chenzhou finally looked at her. Alright, I understand you. But I wont be in a romantic relationship with any of my patients because thatd violate my ethics as a doctor. Lu Chenzhou suddenly opened his mouth. As I recall, before I became your patient, wed already been in bed together. ! ! ! Lu Chenzhous grandmother, who had been prepared to be a wallflower, was badly startled. Her old eyes suddenly widened as she looked at the two of them with both shock and a desire for gossip. Cheng Xi, on the other hand, had no words to respond to Lu Chenzhous brazen words. She once again regretted her rashness that night, that she had rashly left with him, that she had rashly drank the alcohol that another person had given her, and that she had been unable to absolve herself from blame! She took a deep breath. Im sorry. Im sure that you know better than me what exactly happened that day. She then abruptly changed topics. This isnt my main point. What I want to say is that, given that our doctor-patient relationship has already been corrupted, that I plan on requesting the hospital to assign you another psychiatrist. She waved her hands with a rare conviction, stopping Lu Chenzhous grandmother from interjecting. And now, Im single once again, and I dont have someone I like anymore. If youre really sure that youre interested in me, no matter what kind of interest, then you can try to woo me. Lu Chenzhou, I wont accept a kiss from you as a friend, but Im very much willing to accept a kiss from a man that I love. If youre truly interested in me, then do your best to make me love you! Again, I believe that any kind of intimacy not founded on love is immoral. Youve read through so many books about love and romance that I think you know what to do. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 93: She Wants Me to Woo Her As soon as Cheng Xi finished speaking, she pulled the door open and left without giving Lu Chenzhou any time to respond. A whole throng of people were crowded outside the door, including the two nurses who had just left, Lu Chenzhous lawyer, and Lu Chenzhous grandfather, who had left earlier to chase after his primary doctor. The reason why everyone had crowded here was probably to eavesdrop on their conversation. However, none of them had expected Cheng Xi to leave right when they had gotten into position. Cheng Xi looked at them all while maintaining her dominating presence. Finally, she called out Lu Chenzhous grandfather by saying, May I have a few words with you? Oh, sure! Sure! Cheng Xi went to one side with him. He immediately said, Dr. Cheng, whats the matter? Tell me! He patted his chest, his expression indicating that he would take care of everything, as if he hated the fact that he couldnt immediately have Lu Chenzhou marry her. The corners of Cheng Xis mouth wiggled in amusement. She paused and said, First, Id like to apologize. My emotions today have been a mess, and I irrationally got angry at Mr. Lu just now. Lu Chenzhous grandfather replied in a somewhat embarrassed manner, Its alright. He deserves a scolding, and you were still too kind. He probably doesnt mind at all. ......Anyways, if hes not feeling well or anything, please let me know. Afraid that Lu Chenzhous grandfather would say another shocking statement, she quickly continued, May I ask, whats Mr. Lus view on Donglai Pharmaceuticals? Lu Chenzhous grandfather turned pale with fright. Youre not really going to try to destroy it, are you? So they were indeed eavesdropping, werent they? Looking at her face, Lu Chenzhous grandfather rubbed his head awkwardly but then resolutely said, But if destroying it will help you achieve your goals, then its alright with us. Cheng Xi couldnt help but massage her forehead. Given Lu Chenzhous grandfathers personality, it wasnt surprising that Lu Chenzhou had turned out the way he had. In a somewhat powerless manner, she said, Thank you, but Im not that desperate yet. Theres no need for such trouble. Mr. Lus attitude towards Donglai Pharmaceuticals is very important, and it would be very helpful if you could explain it to me. Or, if you could help me find someone who understands his viewpoints, whom I can talk to, that would be even better. Its very possible that this could be a breakthrough point in Mr. Lus illness. Ah, is he still ill? Lu Chenzhous grandfather sounded disappointed. I thought that hed recovered. Look, he already knows how to be in a relationship now. Lu Chenzhous grandfather started smiling again toward the end of his sentence. Cheng Xi looked at him severely. Grandfather Lu, thats not romance. Following instructions like a robot was completely unrelated to love, joy, or anger. But in his attitude towards Donglai Pharmaceuticals, Cheng Xi could feel something hidden beneath the surface. Actually, it would have been fine if Lu Chenzhou had repressed his urges and emotions this way for his entire life. As long as he could control himself, he wouldnt do any harm to society. But on the other hand, given his intelligence and capabilities, if he focused solely on his career, then he could probably achieve miraculous results. But clearly, for the Lu family, rather than Lu Chenzhou having an exceptional career, they would much prefer him to marry and have children like a regular person, for him to experience happiness and anger, sorrow and joy. Lu Chenzhou himself likely felt this way as well, or else he wouldnt have become interested in her. Cheng Xi thought about a lot, but in reality, only a little bit of time had passed. When she saw Lu Chenzhous grandfather forcefully calming himself down to think about her words, she relaxed. Theres something else that I need to do, so Ill leave first. Due to Mr. Lus attitude towards me, Ill have the department assign another doctor to him. Lu Chenzhous grandfather, who had been secretly happy that his grandsons relationship seemed to have noticeably improved, anxiously asked, Would you please reconsider? Zhous very picky. Dont worry. His new doctor will surely be excellent. Lu Chenzhous grandfather looked at her desperately, as if his teeth were sore. This was why he had said that being too direct would scare people away. Why didnt his grandson listen? And now shed found an excuse to run! He quickly tried to think of excuses to bring the two closer again. Then, as for what you need Lawyer Dus help with Yes, Ill think of a method on my own. Please, dont worry. I wont make things difficult for you. In his heart, Lu Chenzhous grandfather regretfully thought that he was very willing to be worried and overthinking things, and that he very much wanted things to be made difficult for himself. But Cheng Xi had already made up her mind, and she submitted her request as soon as she returned to her office. Then, at the end of the day when the other doctors were getting off work, Lu Chenzhous family met the new psychiatrist who had replaced Cheng Xi for a medical consultationhe was the director of some psychiatry department, as well as a famous old psychiatry professor with a face full of wrinkles. Although he was gray-haired, his features were very balanced with a square face and big ears. Perhaps Cheng Xi was trying to appeal to Lu Chenzhous unique sense of beauty as, while this replacement might have been a little old, his face was perfectly symmetrical, and even the eyebags and wrinkles by his cheeks on either side of his face were equally sized. The first thought that went through Lu Chenzhous grandparents mind was that it must have been hard for Cheng Xi to find and invite such a renowned professor like him. They were happy because, given how much effort Cheng Xi must have spent, she must have been serious about telling Lu Chenzhou to woo her. Because of Lu Chenzhous willful behavior, he had ended up being saddled with a few more tests and inspections in the afternoon, two of which theyd been told could be skipped upon entering the hospital. From this, Lu Chenzhous family all guessed that this was actually a covert reminder from the primary doctor who had been angered earlier. Dont you have money? Dont you like messing around? Then mess around a bit more, why dont you? Lu Chenzhou didnt care either way, as that was just his personality. Before he went to the hospital, he hated it and would avoid it by any means possible. But once he was there, he would adapt to his situationas long as everything was as he requested. He wasnt very responsive when Cheng Xi was scolding him, nor when Cheng Xi had asked him to chase after her. After Cheng Xi left, he had simply continued his previous activity: discussing an acquisition contract with Lawyer Du. His grandparents were sitting by his side, so anxious for him that they were scratching themselves raw. When the new doctor arrived, the first thing he did was make Lu Chenzhou fill out a questionnaire. He looked at the responses and started smiling right away. Cheng Xi had never made Lu Chenzhou fill out any questionnaires, but he was very familiar with the questions on this one. She had slightly disguised each of them and asked him about them over the course of their regular conversations. He quickly answered the questionnaire. After the doctor read through Lu Chenzhous answers, he looked curiously at him before he stretched out his hand out and, in a somewhat kind tone, asked, Shall we shake hands? In the future, Ill be working with you. This doctor even had a nice voiceparticularly mellow and rich, and imbued with charm. Lu Chenzhou stared at the proferred hand, indifferent. Im sorry, I have mysophobia. Oh, Im sorry. The doctor smiled as he retrieved his hand, a fingertip resting on an answer from the questionnaire. You answered that you didnt mind on here. It had been an instinctive response; old people were wily, and this man was evidently much more sly than Cheng Xi. Lu Chenzhous expression was cold, without a single sign of emotion showing on his well proportioned and handsome face. His hands nearly folded on top of his abdomen as he changed the topic. Are you familiar with Cheng Xi? Yes, the doctor answered tactfully. Despite her age, Dr. Chengs a very responsible doctor with considerable skill in what she does. She wants me to woo her. Lu Chenzhous expression was cold and his tone insipid when he very calmly threw down this bombshell. Do you have any advice? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 94: Young Madam Lu Cheng Xi was once again sent to her department heads office. When the head nurse came over to fetch Cheng Xi, she was accompanying Chen Jiaman. In the end, Cheng Xi didnt mobilize Lu Chenzhous high-profile lawyer. Instead, she had contacted another one through her lawyer friends. After having done everything that she could, she was now calmly waiting for the news. After Chen Jiaman heard another new story, she covered herself in her blankets again, but not completely this time. There was a small hole from which she was secretly observing Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi smiled upon seeing her behavior. Cai Yi had once told her that she was very well suited to be a psychiatrist; she was beautiful but not flirtatious, plain but not bland, warm and graceful but also bold and daring, and even her voice was melodious and moving. Presently, Cheng Xi was taking full advantage of her strengths by stooping down, lying by the side of the bed, looking into the little hole that Chen Jiaman had dug out, and saying, You know, I was like you when I was little. You were brought up by your paternal grandmother, and I by my maternal one. She would often tell me stories, mostly horror stories that were popular in the countryside. I loved listening to them, but afterwards, I would always be very scared. Every time I tried to sleep after she told me a story, I would be afraid that a ghost would float in from the windows, or that something would crawl onto my bed from underneath it. So, I would always cover myself in my blankets, thinking that the ghosts wouldnt be able to see me even if they showed up. And then when I got a little older, I realized that there were no ghosts in this world, that ghosts only exist in your heart. If youre afraid, then theyll appear. But if you overcome your fear, then theyll vanish as well. Jiaman Can I call you this? I know that you can definitely understand what Im saying, and I hope you will too. I want you to understand that I very much want you to get better. Even though staying in this little room might be safe, its too small, and its unable to shield you from the wind or rain. The only way to free yourself from the evil ghosts in your heart is to walk out and become a braver and stronger version of yourself. When the head nurse walked in, this was the scene that she sawDr. Cheng, who was intelligent, capable, and sophisticated, was currently lying on her patients bed, completely unconcerned for her own image, and saying something profound to a little lump of blankets. She looked particularly childish and particularly adorable. The head nurse was wholly impressed by Cheng Xis patience. Young doctors tended to be somewhat fickle and impatient, but she couldnt see any of that in Cheng Xi. When the head nurse pushed the door open lightly, Cheng Xi felt it but didnt turn around. Instead, she waved her hand at her, dismissing her. The head nurse retreated. After a while, Cheng Xi came out. Whats the matter? The department heads invited you over. When the head nurse saw Cheng Xi who seemed like she had a headache, the head nurse couldnt stop herself from laughing. Its the first time that someones ever been in your situationno one else has had the honor of getting called in by the head so often. Cheng Xi wryly replied, Thanks for the praise. Ill keep doing my best. The head nurse laughed herself to tears. Cheng Xi went over. The head, who had been surprisingly nice to her the day before, gave her a full scolding today. And this time, he even pointed to her forehead all the while. You, you, you. Why do you cause so much trouble? Do you know what youve done this time, hmm? Those of us who understand know that its a little trick to help treat a patient, but those who dont will think that youre trying to climb the social strata by ignoring your professional ethics for money! You, you, you you have the intelligence and the ability to use any method you please. But why did you have to come up with such a drastic tactic? Cheng Xi noticed that, while he was scolding her, he was also making meaningful glances at the room inside, and once he finished his tirade, he mouthed, The patients here. Cheng Xi was momentarily speechlessif the patient were here, then did that mean that Lu Chenzhou had come over? Shouldnt he be getting his shots right now? Did he run here to proclaim that he was officially going to woo her? Cheng Xi very much wanted to scold him again, but at this point, she could only pretend to not know anything about it. So, she clutched her forehead and joked with the head, saying, Youve always demeaned me, and I even thought that you didnt like meI never expected your evaluation of me to be so high. Hmph! If I actually didnt like you, then I wouldnt have recruited you. Thats right. When Cheng Xi had joined Renyi, the department head had been the main recruiter associated with her. Cheng Xis eyes happily curved up; her ignorant and blissful expression really made one so angry to the point that their liver would hurt! The head had originally been joking with her too, as this was just a ploy to clarify her intentions and redeem the reputation of the hospitalthis sort of affair might have been a romantic encounter in any other department, but in the psychiatry department, it was a disaster because their ethics didnt permit it! Cheng Xi, as an excellent student of Cai Yi, could not have been unaware of this point. And so, he really was getting a bit mad as she maintained her uncaring and evasive mindset, and his scolding even became a bit more serious. Stop changing the topic. You have to settle this matter. Doctors wooing patientsyoure lucky that this wasnt overseas, or it would have been considered harassment, and you could have easily lost your reputation from getting sued. Dont you know this? Even if youre just trying to treat your patient, you dont have to use such a stupid method! Perhaps the head felt that he was being too vicious, so he awkwardly softened his last sentence. Cheng Xi had naturally already guessed the heads intentions, but he was unaware of Lu Chenzhous condition, and she was worried that their conversation might reveal her true intentions to Lu Chenzhou. She blinked before quickly, correcting him. Who said that I was trying to treat him? Why cant it be because the two of us fell in love at first sight? After all, Mr. Lus handsome, wealthy, young, and intelligent. Hes very attractive to all females, and as a female, especially an older, single female, after meeting such an outstanding and compatible single man, isnt it normal for me to lose my head like that? Upon hearing this, the head became so angry that he started trembling and pointing at her. You you- you- you- you He was so furious that he picked something up from the table and was about to throw it at her when someone suddenly ran out from the room and grabbed the heads hands at lightning speed. Dont hit her! You cant hit her! This is my granddaughter-in-law! You cant damage her! Cheng Xi and the head were both stunned speechless from this turn of events. Cheng Xi was instantly dazed. Why was Lu Chenzhous grandmother the one to rush out; how had the patient turned into the patients relative? Cheng Xi twisted her head around to look inside the room. The door was open, and the room was clearly empty! Lu Chenzhous grandmother stopped the head, and then turned around to look at Cheng Xi, smiling with joy from the bottom of her heart as she pulled on Cheng Xis sleeve and said familiarly and excitedly, Dr. Cheng, oh, noCheng Xi, I knew that my grandson would be able to find a wife someday. Look at how good his taste isoh, wait a moment. After she said this, she patted Cheng Xis hands, rushed inside, and brought out a lunchbox. Zhou said that you were working too hard, so we brought some soup specially made for you. Drink it while its warm! He highly regards you, so if you told him what you said just now, hed surely be so happy! Cheng Xi disagreed; at the most, Lu Chenzhou might say, Oh. She hugged the lunchbox in front of her chest and wanted to explain, but Lu Chenzhous grandmother didnt give her the chance to do so. After his grandmother finished talking to Cheng Xi, she immediately followed up with, I have to go. I wont keep you from your work any longer. And then she turned around to instruct the head. Our Zhou and Cheng Xi are fianc and fiance. Theres no harassment, so dont scold her anymore! And then she left in an energetic buzz. Cheng Xi felt like she was about to collapse as she looked at the head sullenly. Didnt you say that Lu Chenzhou was inside? After Lu Chenzhous grandmother rushed out, the heads expression had become cold and indifferent. What difference does it make anymore? Congratulations, youre about to marry into the Lu family, and soon, youll be the most influential person in our hospital, young Madam Lu. . The department head had gone crazy from anger! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 95: Did My Heart Rate Quicken? The department head was wondering why on earth Cheng Xi would even bother fighting with Cai Yi over a patient if she was this well connected. Couldnt she just ask the Lu family to withdraw their investment? Since they were the main sponsor of Cai Yis laboratory, it wasnt like Cai Yi would fight with them over a mere patient. He had really wasted his time worrying about her affairs! And to think that he had even called the patients family member over to help her quell those rumors Just how foolish was he? Cheng Xi also understood that the head was genuinely trying to help her, and she was naturally very touched by his actions. With eyes brimming with tears, she tried to assuage his despondency. Head, youre really a good person. With you as a boss, its no wonder our psychiatry department is so great! Dont worry, Ill work hard and wont bring shame to you or Renyi! Unable to hold his emotions back, the head brusquely waved his hands. Stop, stop. Its enough if you dont cause trouble for me. Just think about what youve done in the last two years Cheng Xi quietly protested, But I havent done anything wrong. She carried out her duties, behaved ethically, worked hard, and was undoubtedly a model citizen and excellent worker. The head glared at her. Cheng Xi blinked. Then, can we change topics? It actually wasnt too hard to persuade the head to her side; she just had to tell him the truth. Despite his recent proclivity towards bureaucracy, he was ultimately still a doctor of psychiatry at heart. After Cheng Xi finished explaining her story, he finally understood what was going on. However, he only became even more concerned, and his response was to coldly laugh and say, With this sort of affair in your history, how many people do you think you can date in your lifetime? He was almost starting to feel resentful. Do you really think that you can avoid the gossip? And even if youre not afraid of gossip, what if he really starts to like you after hes cured? What do you plan on doing then? I can see that his grandmother very much likes youshe can hardly wait for you to sign a marriage certificate with her grandson tomorrow, and I bet she thinks that the best thing would be if a child popped out right away! The department head wasnt the head for nothing, as his eyes were particularly discerning. Lu Chenzhous grandmother was as he described. Cheng Xi joked, If so then I guess Ill become Miss Lu. The head stared at her, unable to speak for quite a while. Finally, he shouted one word. Scram! And so Cheng Xi scrammed away. During her afternoon break, she visited Lu Chenzhou again. He had finished his shots in the morning, and was currently resting. There was no one in this massive ward besides him, His eyes were closed and his body lying in bed, while he had earbuds in, clearly listening to something. His resting posture was reminiscent of Chen Jiamans when she had first entered the hospital: straight and still with the hands neatly folded on top of the abdomen. But Chen Jiaman had preferred to cover herself up from head to toe while Lu Chenzhous blanket only extended up to his waist. In some sense, his orderliness gave off an adorable feeling to Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi didnt know whether or not he was asleep and was standing there, hesitating, when his long eyelashes fluttered and he slowly opened his eyes. It was the first time that Cheng Xi had realized how pleasing it could be to watch someone open their eyes; it was like watching a flower slowly bloom. In that tranquil moment, it felt almost as if she could hear the rustle of flowers swaying in the breeze. He was handsome enough to violate common sense, Cheng Xi thought as she sighed. If a person like this didnt have any mental issues, then even if he didnt have power or wealth, girls would still chase after him in wave after wave, wouldnt they? She walked over, and Lu Chenzhou looked at her. Youve changed the time of your visits. Cheng Xi smiled. It was very much like him to notice details that others would overlook. Are you not used to it? Sorry, but Im not your doctor anymore. I can only come see you after work. He didnt say anything, though he seemed to silently accept this change. Cheng Xi asked him, What are you listening to? He handed one earbud to her, and Cheng Xi a long speech in English. Cheng Xi was about to praise Mr. Lu for being studious and hardworking, and then she heard the contents. I dreamt of him, his gaze, his uniform, his long legs, his slender fingers, and his mysterious atmosphere The syntax was suspiciously evocative of a cheesy romance novel. She took the earbud out. Whats this? A novel? Yes. Its title? She asked somewhat innocently. Fifty Shades of Grey. Oh my god! Cheng Xi almost choked on her own saliva. She knew this book, as it was a famous foreign erotic romance novel; of course, she hadnt personally read it, but there was a time when Rou had been fervently proselytizing it in their group chats. She had even run around trying to find a place to watch the movie upon its release, which was about all Cheng Xi knew of it. She restrained her shocked expression and calmed herself down, shifting her facial expression to one of curiosity. How did you end up listening to this kind of book? Lu Chenzhou continued speaking in his usual calm tone. Baldy recommended it. He said that it would be suitable for me and you. A tyrannical CEO and a debutante dipping her toes in high society, was it? What in the world was Baldy thinking? Cheng Xi caressed her forehead as she wearily asked, And what do you think of it? Lu Chenzhou frowned. It was hard to read. And because it hurt your eyes to read it, you chose to listen to it instead? Lu Chenzhou raised his eyebrows; clearly she had guessed correctly. Cheng Xi couldnt help but laugh, but after she finished, she pitied him a bit. Lu Chenzhou might not have said it, but he must have been truly lonely in his heart. His inability to understand other peoples happiness and anger, or sorrow and joy meant that he had resorted to reading books and studying so that he could still pretend to understand everything, and that he didnt lack those emotions. He was neither crazy nor a freak. Sighing in her heart, Cheng Xi asked, If its too hard to read, then how does that make it easier to listen to? If it hurts your eyes, then itll also hurt your ears. You should just stop listening to it. After saying that, she leaned over to pull his other earbud away. When she stretched her hand out, he instinctively tried to block her hand half-heartedly. It was an action born from his subconscious revulsion when others came near him, but he quickly caught himself and put his hand down, pretending that nothing had happened as he craned his head to look at her. Cheng Xi smiled, also pretending that nothing had happened as she took his earbud off. This time, she was successful, but he still moved a little, and her fingertips brushed by his ear. That ear immediately turned red! Cheng Xi blinked once, took a second glance in case she had seen wrongly, and momentarily froze, unable to look at him. She was too innocent; her first thought was that shed accidentally hurt him, but Lu Chenzhous expression was very calm. His lips curled up slightly and he didnt give off his usual oppressive feeling, which meant that he had to be in a pretty good mood. Cheng Xi tried hard to think of a topic to talk about when Lu Chenzhou suddenly said, My grandmothers back. Hmm? She turned around, but didnt see anyone enter, so she asked, Are you saying that she went to our department and then came back here again? Yes. Are you happy? The usual. Oh. That means that you must not like me that deeply, or that your interest towards me is unrelated to your feelings because otherwise, you wouldve been elated to hear her words and subsequently experience excitement, emotion, a quickening in your heart rate Lu Chenzhou suddenly grabbed her palm and placed it against his chest. Cheng Xi expressionlessly finished her sentence. ......and other similar reactions. Lu Chenzhou looked at her seriously. Did my heart rate quicken? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 96: You Scared Her Away In the heat of the moment, Cheng Xi didnt know what to say. During her indecision, Lu Chenzhou clutched her hand even tighter and pressed it against his chest again as he repeated, Is it beating quickly? His voice was calm but serious, and in this moment, Cheng Xi felt a bizarre gentleness in his demeanor, and even his cold voice seemed warmer than usual. But, in reality, his heart wasnt beating any quicker. It was just that he was wearing one of those thin hospital gowns, so Cheng Xi could feel each distinct heartbeat. Back when she had been a student, she had once gotten bored and decided to experience traditional Chinese medicine and to learn to feel peoples pulses, so she had taken a years worth of classes and practice on the subject. She didnt really learn how to feel pulses that much better, but she did had gotten significantly better at understanding the significance of others heart rates in different situations. Right now, Lu Chenzhous heart was not beating any quicker than usual. In fact, it was actually beating a bit slower. When Cheng Xi remembered his unusual body condition, she had a hunch that he wasnt feeling anything at all. His excitement was closer to a guise, but one that could trick even himself. Regardless of the truth, she still said, Yes, a bit faster. And then Lu Chenzhou smiled, a truly joyful smile that contained a bit of childish innocence and sincerity; it was just like the dark clouds that Cheng Xi had once seen before, the ones that had silently blossomed in the biting cold. Joyful, and heart-wrenching. Such was the power of handsome people. Cheng Xi was dazed just from looking at him, until an Oh! rang out from the door. The two both regained their senses at the same time and turned towards the door, but all they saw was someone hurriedly running out. It was one of the Lu familys private attendants. Cheng Xi calmly pulled her hand away, slightly tilted her head, and looked out the door. You scared her away. She then looked at him. You should smile more in the future. Smile if youre happyyou look so wonderful when youre smiling. Lu Chenzhou responded with a simple Oh. Still cool and aloof, but it was missing a bit of the tyrannical tone that he usually displayed. Yes, she had made at least a little progress; the flower blooming on the high cliff was now willing to look towards people below it. Cheng Xi felt slightly gratified. But then her phone rang, a call from her department. The patient in ward 24 is in the process of leaving the hospital. Dr. Cheng, are you still in the hospital? Cheng Xi froze for a moment. The patient in ward 24 was Chen Jiaman; although she had managed to delay the proceedings for all of yesterday, it had just ended up happening today instead. Keeping the phone line open, Cheng Xi said, Im going to leave, so rest well. Lu Chenzhou looked at her. Youre unhappy. Yes, a bit. She didnt hide the reason from him. Chen Jiamans familys here to transfer her out of the hospital. Lu Chenzhou asked, Do you want me to help? Would you? No. Even though she knew that this was the inevitable outcome, and even though she had never expected his help to come, his cold and firm rejection still caused her to feel a bit depressed. Lu Chenzhou was feeling good, so he even tried to explain why he couldnt help her. As an investor, Im contractually obligated to not interfere with the workings of the laboratory. So unless we bring Donglai Pharmaceuticals down and I file for bankruptcy Even mentioning filing for bankruptcy Cheng Xi sucked in a breath to stabilize her emotions. Its not that important, really. She was honestly starting to get afraid of what he was saying, and quickly found an excuse to leave. I really have to go. Rest well. Then, Cheng Xi hurriedly left, as if ghosts were knocking at her door. When she thought back to Lu Chenzhous serious expression, her heart started bleeding again; she was frightened that he would actually bring down Donglai Pharmaceuticals, and then she would undoubtedly be lambasted by the media. Dont underestimate the lengths a patient suffering from mental illness is willing to go to, especially if that patient is stubborn and intelligent! Cheng Xi returned to her own department. Lin Fans mother was waiting there, and she wasnt alone. She had brought along a crowd of unfamiliar people, each of them rubbing their palms as if they were preparing to enter battle. Lin Fans mother was still dressed as exquisitely as ever, just like a perfect wealthy housewife. That days unhappiness seemed to have vanished without a trace, and her smile at Cheng Xi remained warm and amiable. However, this amity veiled her true feelings of disaffection and arrogance. Im really sorry. I must be interrupting your afternoon. But as you know, I was busy all morning, and I only became free just now Jiamans exit procedurescould I trouble you to help me with them? Cheng Xi looked at the nurse by her side. The head nurse wasnt present, and only one of the other nurses on duty was here. When she noticed Cheng Xi glance over, that nurse coolly pursed her lips and said, We already told her, but she said that she knows you, and was insisting that you were present. Without any change in her facial expression, Cheng Xi pivoted to look at Lin Fans mother. Please follow me. Leaving the unfamiliar people outside, Cheng Xi brought Lin Fans mother with her to her office. But instead of proceeding with the procedures as she wanted, Cheng Xi instead sat in front of her desk and said, Im sorry, but Jiamans exit procedures cant be processed at this time. Why? My lawyers currently in contact with Chen Jiamans father. Before receiving his personal confirmation, I dont think that I can continue with this process in good faith. She made a hand gesture, stopping Lin Fans mother from speaking, and continued talking. Its because I initially promised him that I would finish treating her before I let her out of the hospital. Right now, even though shes improved greatly, her emotions still arent very stable, and she still desperately lacks a sense of security. Changing her environment at this stage will not benefit her at all. Out of my consideration for the patient, I dont recommend that she switch hospitals. Lin Fans mother frowned. Not even if I move her to a better hospital? Cheng Xi nodded. Thats right. Perhaps not expecting Cheng Xi to make this move, Lin Fans mother stared at her for awhile before saying, Cheng Xi, youre joking, arent you? No, Im not. And Chen Jiaman was sent here by law enforcement. So, before she is given a directive from the corresponding office, no one can move her away. Even if she fully recovers and is able to leave, she has to submit an application before doing so. Then why didnt you say so beforehand? Lin Fans mother became shrill. Because I forgot about it, Cheng Xi thought as she very calmly said, Because it was a notice that I just received. Lin Fans mothers mouth was left hanging open in shock. She felt like Cheng Xi was deliberately targeting her and that Cheng Xi was obfuscating her own personal interest in the matter, so Lin Fans mother became quite angry. Even as she tried to restrain her anger, she asked, Cheng Xi, cant you accommodate us even a little? Cheng Xi was quiet as she unyieldingly answered, Im sorry. Are you really going to go against me just because I wont let you and Lin Fan be together? Cheng Xi, I honestly thought that you were a better person! Even if I said that this had nothing to do with him, you wouldnt believe me, so I wont bother explaining. Lin Fans mother clearly didnt believe her. Its more like you cant explain it at all, right? Honestly, Ive seen plenty of girls like you. Regardless of whether or not you have a job, all you can do is try to catch a good man and climb the social ladder that way, not even caring if you can handle it! Its just that I didnt imagine that you wouldnt let go even after I talked to you so candidly that day. Hah, if I cant make it clear to you, then Im going to find your director and give him a piece of my mind! After she said this, Lin Fans mother got up and prepared to leave. At this point, Cheng Xi almost thought that Lin Fans mother, whom shed known in the past, was a fake all along! What did she say just now? That time that she called her over to Lin Fans stepfathers house, when she had displayed both her weakness and her aptitude for being endlessly bothersome, was that all to dissuade her from marrying Lin Fan? Cheng Xi was honestly quite impressed by Lin Fans mothers train of thought. She could deeply feel how her mental compass had been twisted and distorted by her long years of fighting with her stepchildren over the Wang inheritance. To a person like her, no amount of reason could explain anything. Mrs. Lin, I hope that you wont make this messy. When Cheng Xi saw that Lin Fans mother was about to head out, Cheng Xi quickly spoke out. Or itll be hard for me to promise that youll get what you want. What do you mean? Lin Fans mother turned around to glare at her. Are you threatening me? No. Cheng Xi sighed. I only wanted to advise you to be prudent with this matter. Renyi has reporter correspondence connections to the major media outlets. If you make a big fuss, I cant promise that news of this matter will be suppressed, or how deeply the reporters will investigate. Regardless, if you really want Lin Fan to marry a wife that will be of use to him, like Miss Meng, then I think its better if you save him some face. Additionally, Id also like to tell you that I indeed like Lin Fan very much. However, its not enough for me to eschew everything else. With a mother like you, it will be difficult for him to ever have a happy marriage, and I dont plan on taking on such a difficult challenge. After Cheng Xi finished her speech, she walked over and opened the door for Lin Fans mother. Please choose wisely. And then she saw Lin Fan standing outside the door, his face stark white, looking at her with a mournful expression. Cheng Xi was at an utter loss for words. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 97: Aren鈥檛 You the One Wooing our Boss Lu? It hadnt been that long since Cheng Xi had last seen Lin Fan, but he seemed to become much thinner, his face was now wan and sallow, and his overall demeanor exuded exhaustion. She felt like she was once again looking at that miserable high school youth who was silent and dyed with a melancholy unbefitting of his age. He looked at her for quite a while before he turned towards his mother and hoarsely said, Ma, Ill promise you, Ill promise you anything. Please, can you drop this matter about transferring Jiaman away? Lin Fans mother glanced at Cheng Xi before responding, You promise? Almost as if she were asking Cheng Xi. Lin Fan looked down. Yes. And then his mother left; of course, before leaving, she also dragged Lin Fan away, and warned Cheng Xi one last time. Ill still transfer her away if her illness doesnt improve. Of course, this warning was more of an excuse, a pretense that gave off the impression that her ardent desire to transfer Chen Jiaman out of Renyi was purely because she cared about her illness, and was worried about Cheng Xis medical expertise being inadequate. But Cheng Xi ignored her two-faced excuse. She was feeling very gloomyin the end she had had to rely on Lin Fan to resolve this problem, and it even seemed like he had been forced into a disadvantageous compromise to do so. Her heart was in shambles, an indescribable feeling. So, when Lin Fan later invited her out to dinner, she ultimately decided to go. Lin Fan had always been considerate, but this time, he had chosen a restaurant that was quite far away from her. Only when Cheng Xi arrived did she realize that it was next to a middle school. And by that time, school had already ended; the students were all gone, and the area by the school doors was deserted. As the car drove past it, she clearly saw the school name. The nearby surroundings had all changed; only that school door remained the same. When she arrived at the designated restaurant, Lin Fan was already standing outside, staring into the window. His face was bathed in the soft glow of the twilight sunset, giving him a somewhat bleak appearance. Cheng Xi walked over. He didnt turn around as he said, I remember the first time we met, when we were both competing in a math competition here. I didnt expect that, even after all these years, this school would still be around. Cheng Xi smiled. How old were we back then? Fourteen, I think? Lin Fan nodded. I was fifteen, and we were in the eighth grade. Middle school was really the most relaxing period of my life. At that time, even though our family was so poor, he hadnt found us yet. My mom was doing her best to support me, and I wanted to give up on school to help her make more money. So at that time, the reason why he had purposefully failed his test wasnt to accompany her. Rather, it was to lower his mothers expectations of him so that he wouldnt have to continue going to school and could instead go find a job and start earning money. And here, Cheng Xi had always thought that it was to accompany her. Yes, this world was truly filled with misunderstandings. Cheng Xi remained silent for a while, and then smiled. No matter how good the past was, people have to look forward Today, thank you for your help. What are you thanking me for? He turned around as he asked, For arguing with my mom? He then smiled, a self-deprecating smile. Shes still my sister, my mothers daughter, and youre Whatever Cheng Xi was to Chen Jiaman, he didnt say, only staring at her. There was another period of silence before he said, Actually, its I who should be thanking you. I know why you said it that way. You wanted to help wake up my mom. Cheng Xi couldnt help herself from wanting to sigh, but she refrained herself and instead put on a smile as she said, As long as you dont mind me being nosy. Lin Fans voice was gentle. How could I? At this moment, the waiter knocked on the door. Are you ready to order? The two of them returned to their table and began ordering. Cheng Xi looked through the entire menu seriously, and eventually decided on a plate of pork chops. After she said the name of the dish, Lin Fan couldnt stop himself from laughing. Just this? Given her serious expression, Lin Fan was half-expecting her to order some rare and expensive dish. Cheng Xi plainly replied, Just this. Were a small party, so we wont be able to finish everything if we order too much. Thus, I might as well order something familiar that I like. Lin Fan stilled for a moment before smiling again. After the waiter left, Cheng Xi straightforwardly asked him, Did you call me out for a reason? Lin Fan looked at her seriously. Id like to ask you to take special care of Chen Jiaman from now on. With the state that my mothers in, I dont think that itd be a good idea to let her participate in Jiamans treatment. Of course, these words of his carried a hidden meaning: that he wouldnt be able to take as much care of Chen Jiaman as he had in the past. Cheng Xi frowned. He was still looking at her, focused on her pretty face which was as elegant as a waxing crescent moon and as calm and warm as a spring flower about to bloom. Cheng Xi seriously asked, Lin Fan, have you thought about how youre going to face your mother? Is following her every word actually any good for her? After a while, she continued talking. You actually understand, dont you? Youve already done very well for yourself overseas, but then you willingly started over from the bottom when you came back. Why? Isnt it just to, again, lower her expectations of you? But have you succeeded? Regardless of whether or not you have the capability, she keeps pushing you to achieve her dreams and desires, and you can only compromise. Its the same for Chen Jiamans affairs. Youre willing to take care of her, and you have the ability to do so, but simply because your mother said so, you have to avoid her Regardless of whether its good or not, or right or not, you only follow her desires. Lin Fan, are you really that devoid of your own opinions? Lin Fan smiled bitterly. I also dont want to be like that, but He clutched his face as he confessed, Im the only thing she has. Upon seeing this scene, Cheng Xi suddenly understood Lin Fans thoughts: he was full of guilt toward his mother, so he would always compromise with her, and could only compromise. And with that, the dinner ended on somewhat bad terms. Lin Fans mental condition left Cheng Xi somewhat worried, and when they left, she sighed as she told him, Im not sure if youve seen the movie Gaslight before, but it gave rise to a word, gaslighting. Lin Fan, you were once my imaginary rival, and beyond that, weve also been competitors, friends, and, even if only for a short time, lovers. Thus, I hope that, no matter what, you can always maintain an independent personality, a healthy mind, and an irrepressible vigor. After leaving, Cheng Xi felt a bit stifled. When two people were in a close relationship, it wasnt uncommon to see these supposedly intimate people start manipulating each other. In the study of psychiatry, gaslighting referred to someone twisting and manipulating their victims reality in order to control their feelings. Cheng Xi didnt know what sort of things had happened between Lin Fan and his mother, but evidently, the confident, unhurried, and generous Lin Fan was vanishing. Cheng Xi could only hope that, after she provided some unbiased perspective about his situation, the clever him would be able to react accordingly. Chen Jiamans affairs also seemed to return to a calm after Lin Fans compromise with his mother. Afterwards, Cai Yi even called her to say, Dont think of me as a bad guy, Cheng Xi. I wont. We simply have different standpoints. Im just the doctor of Chen Jiaman, and professor, you want to be the doctor of many such Chen Jiamans. After hearing you say this, Im very relieved. Cheng Xi smiled. Later, she went to see Lu Chenzhou, and even discussed these events with him. Lu Chenzhous body was responding well to the medical treatment; after two weeks of treatment, his vitals had all returned to normal. But out of prudence, the doctor still recommended that he stay the full three weeks. Lu Chenzhou had also started treating the hospital like it was his own house. Every afternoon or evening, after she left work, Cheng Xi would go visit him. Sometimes, she would bring him some soup or flowers, and whenever she did that, Baldy would always jokingly tease, Dr. Cheng, actually, its you whos wooing our Boss Lu, right? But Cheng Xi and Lu Chenzhous discussions were entirely unrelated to romance. For example, today, their discussion was about the schism between Cai Yi and herself. For Lu Chenzhous grandmother, who was nearby, it almost bored her to tears. But Lu Chenzhou very seriously said to Cheng Xi, I support you. Cheng Xi smiled, and his eavesdropping grandmother smiled as well. My goodness, her grandson was finally starting to understand relationships! Wonderful! But right after celebrating, she heard a particularly shocking set of words from her grandson. Lets get rid of both Donglai Pharmaceuticals and Cai Yis laboratory! Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 98: As Beautiful as a Fairy! My goodness, those words sounded particularly savage due to the contrast of how calm Lu Chenzhous tone was. Lu Chenzhous grandmother was greatly shocked, and she was even momentarily unable to breathe. But Cheng Xi, who was sitting by Lu Chenzhous side, didnt seem to be shocked at all. She instead asked in a somewhat interested tone, How? Lu Chenzhou looked at Cheng Xi and then glanced at his grandmother, who was still clutching her chest lightly behind them before saying, Ill listen to you. He had purposefully altered his words because his grandmother was here. Cheng Xi wrung her wrists, thinking that his wariness was still too strong as she joked, Wed surely fail if you listened to meIm not smart enough. Lu Chenzhous lips curled up slightly. You understand yourself quite well. Despite the disdainful compliment, Cheng Xi didnt get mad. Thats also a virtue. Lu Chenzhou glared at her, and Cheng Xi smiled in response. When Lu Chenzhous grandmother saw these two behave like this, she became a bit flummoxed again. Sighing, she went outside to call her husband. Cheng Xi had already changed topics to Lu Chenzhou leaving the hospital. The doctor said that tomorrows fine? Lu Chenzhou seemed like he wasnt too happy about it, casually responding with a grunt. Did he not want to leave? Cheng Xi put her chin in her palm as she smiled and said, What a coincidence, the day after is Shen Weis birthday. Lu Chenzhou didnt understand what the coincidence was, and shot a confused glance at her. That day will be very lively. For Shen Weis final birthday in her twenties, Fu Mingyi wanted to host a grand birthday banquet for her. He had invited their families for the day celebrations and Shen Weis close friends for the night festivities, a huge, themed party. Everyone in her classmates group chat had been posting about this for the past couple of days. Rou was even asking her day and night, Do I look good in this outfit? Her classmates had participated in many activities together, but this was the first themed party they would ever attend. Cheng Xi wasnt particularly interested in this sort of event, but she felt that Lu Chenzhou, who had been living a more and more secluded life ever since he had been admitted into the hospital, very much needed to go to such a lively place. So, she asked, We can bring family members to the party. Do you want to be my plus one? Out of habit, Cheng Xi had used the words that Shen Wei had used to invite them, not realizing that family had inexplicably given Lu Chenzhou a warm feeling inside. He nonchalantly nodded his head as he responded, Thats acceptable. Alright, then its settled. The events at night, so you have the afternoon to rest when you get home. The theme is holy angel. What you wear and how you wear it is all up to you, so feel free to explore and be creative. The next day passed by in the blink of an eye, and then it was Friday. Cheng Xi had something to do in the morning, but she was free in the afternoon. Earlier in the morning, Tian Rou had asked, Have you decided what youre going to wear? Yes. What? A doctors costumedont they say that all say doctors are angels in white? And then Tian Rou bashed her. Scram! With such a half-hearted outfit, its no wonder you couldnt steal my male idol away despite your temperament and looks! Tian Rous male idol was none other than Lin Fan; Shen Wei had at least kept her lips sealed and never revealed Cheng Xi and Lin Fans relationship, so Tian Rou still thought of them as sisters in hardship. Naturally, she had to share the newest hot gossip that she had just heard. Hes engaged now, apparently to a rich heir. My goodness, Im also a rich self-made woman. Why didnt he choose me? Cheng Xi was slightly dazed by the news, and bitter feelings slowly seeped out from her heart. Tian Rou continued gossiping. I never expected that we would be the last ones left. Honestly, I cant accept this situation! Cheng Xi laughed. Dont you have a boyfriend? We broke up. He hates going out, so he should just stay home single his entire life. Whats he even doing, trying to find a girlfriend?! Tian Rous tone was very relaxed, and it didnt sound like she had been hurt at all by the breakup, so Cheng Xi only comforted her superficially. Hng, Im not upset at all. As long as youre still with me, Ill be reassured! And then she happily planned out what they would do at the party. What if the two of us go as a couple together? Based on our looks alone, I bet that well get lots of attention. So all her earlier talk had been leading up to these last few sentences. Cheng Xi almost couldnt bear to tell her that she had already found a male partner. But conveniently, when Lu Chenzhou got out of the hospital, Baldy had come along with him, so Cheng Xi had extended an invite to him on Tian Rous behalf. Yes, at that time, she had purely been trying to help Rou find a suitable partner for the party, with no other thoughts at all. Upon hearing her offer, Baldy accepted at once. Zhous going? Then I have to go too! She just didnt expect that Rou would actually get outfits for the both of them: a set piece with a white angel and a black demon costumes. As soon as Cheng Xi arrived, Tian Rou was dragging her doctors outfit off and insisting that she change into the angel dress. Shen Wei and the others were standing to the side and enjoying the excitement, but none of them responded to Cheng Xis pleas for help. In the end, she could only plead, I already have a male partner, and I even found you one too. Can I not change? Cheng Xi could tell, even without wearing the clothes that Rou had found, that they were far too risque for her tastes; Rous black dress exposed a large part of her bare back that her demon wings didnt cover. She really couldnt go out dressed like that, alright? She wanted Shen Wei to testify that she had indeed brought two other people, because her doing so had to be approved by Shen Wei beforehand. But Shen Wei was very dissatisfied with Cheng Xis doctor outfit; it was just too different from everyone elses! So, she lied and said, Really? I didnt know that. In the end, Cheng Xi still had to change into the angel outfit. At least her outfit wasnt as exaggerated as Tian Rous; it was just particularly skintight and had a small exposed patch by her chest. Cheng Xi thought that she looked fine, but when she came out, she shocked Tian Rou, Shen Wei, and all the others. The first two reacted the quickest and immediately hugged her as they possessively squealed, Alright, youre my wife! Youre not allowed to run away! Cheng Xi coolly replied, Do you have a dick? My goodness! Dr. Chengs been corrupted! Tian Rou was rubbing against Cheng Xi, dabbing some oil onto her body. It took Cheng Xi some effort to push her away, but then it was Shen Weis turn. She jokingly said, With the way you look right now, Im afraid to show you off to my manyoure too sexy! Cheng Xis heart trembled. She trusted that Shen Weis words were a joke, but after that, she was very careful to spend most of her time with her female classmates and to not talk too casually with any of her male classmatesmost of the males in their group were already married, and those that werent tended to have girlfriends. And so, Rou happily monopolized most of Cheng Xis time, all the way until Lu Chenzhou showed up. Lu Chenzhou had shown up a little late, and Cheng Xi was half expecting him to not show up at all. But in the end, he and Baldy had ended up appearing in the lounge almost without a sound. The party lost control for a moment because these two people were too just eye-grabbing; they were wearing a pure white outfit and standing straight. Baldys looks were only decent, though he had a surprisingly imposing manner. And as for Lu Chenzhou, he was too handsome with his elegant facial features that contrasted with his cool gaze. Dressed all in white, he seemed like the epitome of purity, cleanliness, and restraint. Someone immediately sighed, He looks more like an austere monk than an angel, doesnt he? Many people immediately agreed. Even Fu Mingyi and Shen Wei were surprised. The two of them, hand in hand, handsome, and pretty, greeted their two new arrivals; all in all, the four of them looked like they were from a painting. Baldy was quite pleased with himself, but his behavior, like a peacock spreading its tail, quickly destroyed his bad-boy persona. Lu Chenzhou, on the other hand, ignored the gazes directed at him, and turned around as he scanned his surroundings and asked, Where is she? Shen Wei didnt expect him to only care about Cheng Xi, and with slightly raised eyebrows and after exchanging a glance with Fu Mingyi, she answered, Oh, shes upstairs. Follow us. Well bring you there. And so they went upstairs. Quite a few people were standing by the stairwell, all of whom had run out upon hearing the commotion. Cheng Xi was also there, but she had been accosted by one of Shen Weis relatives children; the little girl very much liked the wings on Cheng Xis back, and she had managed to find an exact replica from somewhere else and was now insisting that she put it on for her. So when Lu Chenzhou entered the room, all he could see of Cheng Xi was her slightly leaning down to affix the wings onto the little girls back. He was facing her side, where he could see her back curving in a graceful arc as her head was slightly lifted, which exposed her snow-white and thin neck. It had to be said that that night, her attire perfectly suited her; the skintight white dress clearly delineated each curvaceous line of her body. When coupled with her long black hair that was slightly curled and extended to her waist, and the circlet of flowers on her head, Cheng Xi was as beautiful as an ethereal fairy, as if the two wings on her shoulders were angels wings that would flutter once and carry her away at any moment. The lamplight illuminated her figure, as resplendent as the starry sky. She was so beautiful that she seemed to transcend reality, almost as if she were a figure in a classic scroll who had been drawn carefully with a brush, every stroke enchanting, each brush mesmerizing. Anything and everything next to her became but a foil. Lu Chenzhous eyes only contained her in this moment; he very much wanted to run over and hug her, to touch her delicate stance with his own hands. He put his thoughts into action. Lu Chenzhou no longer felt like he had to restrain himself. She had invited him over, and she let him woo her. Wasnt that giving him the power to be a bit presumptuous? And so, he walked over, ignored everyones glances, and hugged her from behind. At that moment, Lin Fan had also just the room as he had noticed Shen Wei walking up the stairs due to everyone elses reactions. He hadnt yet noticed Cheng Xi, but was wondering why everyone else seemed to be entranced by something. As he followed their gazes, he raised his head, and immediately saw Lu Chenzhou and Cheng Xi together. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 99: I鈥檓 Her Fianc Actually, it wasnt just Lin Fan who saw their romantic display, but also Tian Rou and the other passersby who had run out to see the hot guys. Everyone witnessed the abrupt hug, and they all stared open-mouthed at the two of them. Tian Rou was the first to react, almost immediately putting both hands on her hips and jumping out as she exclaimed, Who on earth are you, and whatre you doing, casually hugging my wife? Lu Chenzhou lifted his eyes and glanced at her before releasing Cheng Xi and standing to one side. His gaze travelled from Tian Rous long hair to the area between her legs as he bluntly asked, Youre male? Tian Rou subconsciously closed her legs at his brusque remark. And then Lu Chenzhou asked the same question that Cheng Xi had earlier. Do you have a dick? Tian Rou immediately thought, Oh my godnow I know where Cheng Xi became corrupted! Cheng Xi made a face while Lu Chenzhous expression was as uncaring as ever. He turned around to look at Cheng Xi and casually commented, This is quite beautiful. He touched her wings. The crowd was speechless. Was he praising Cheng Xi, or was he praising her wings? Baldy even clutched at his face as he sighed. With the way his boss was, he was destined to be alone for life. At least Cheng Xi didnt mind. She leaned back down to tie down the last strap on the little girls set of wings, and then removed her own set from her back. Do you want it? Lu Chenzhou nodded. Cheng Xi summarily strapped her wings onto his body. The wings were very small, so when she put them on her body, he looked like a little bird that had just grown wings, imbuing him with an indescribable cuteness. Lu Chenzhou even stretched out his hand to touch them. Haha! Shen Wei couldnt stop herself from laughing. Director Lu, I didnt expect you to look so good with those wings. Lu Chenzhou didnt respond, but he was clearly pleased. After Shen Wei opened her mouth, it was as if she had broken the silent curse on everyone, and they all started chattering right away, asking, Cheng Xi, whos this? Is he your boyfriend? Or, How handsome! Can I get an autograph? Or, even fiercer, Hes a pretty cute young guy, isnt he? Cheng Xi, are you sure that youre not an old cow chewing on green grass? Cheng Xis made a -_-|| face at that comment. She wasnt that old, was she? And did these people really have to be this excited? She felt like her hand was about to be jabbed to pieces, and meanwhile, Rou was standing to the side, just looking at her and laughing! What had happened to accompanying her to the end of time? Cheng Xi felt a headache coming on, but Lu Chenzhou was being unusually nice today; he was even willing to talk to them, and slowly answered each question. Shes not an old cow chewing on green grass as Im older than her. I wont give you a signature. Im not her boyfriend. When the crowd fell silent at that answer, he continued to say, Im her fianc. Cheng Xi and the crowd were both shocked speechless. Someone then asked, Is there a difference between these two? Yes. A boyfriends motive isnt necessarily to get married, but a fiancs is. Everyone in the crowd made a (o) face as they thought, How logical. Cheng Xis only reaction was to complement Lu Chenzhous memory in her head; how long ago had she said those words? And to think that he still remembered them. Rou was still chuckling to the side, and she stretched her hand out and looped it around Cheng Xis neck. Ah, Cheng Xis fianc. Can I borrow your fiance and have a word with her? And before he could respond, she had already dragged Cheng Xi away from the encirclement. The two went down an empty set of stairs, coincidentally running into Lin Fan on the other side. He was dressed fully in black today with a black overcoat and a black pair of pants. He had also cut his hair short. With his mouth slightly pursed, he gave off a sense of coolness that accompanied his usual melancholy and gentleness. Tian Rou immediately became dazed when she saw him, only regaining her wits when Cheng Xi pulled on her back. The first thing she did when she regained her senses was to let go of Cheng Xi, who was pulling on her clothes, and start posing with her body as she did her best to make a flirtatious expression at him. Hey, idol! She revealed her intentions as soon as she opened her mouth. Cheng Xi couldnt bear to look at Tian Rou out of embarrassment. Lin Fan didnt look at Cheng Xi either, instead only responding to Tian Rou. The two of you are here quite early. Tian Rou played her hair as she coquettishly said, Were bored. Then she shot him a teasing gaze as she asked, Youre here alone? Yes. Didnt you say you were engaged? Why didnt you bring your gi But when she recalled Lu Chenzhous distinction between a fiance and a girlfriend, she sourly corrected herself. your fiance over? After all, Shen Wei was already married. So in tonights party, she had specifically instructed the attendees to bring their family members over. Lin Fan replied, Something came up and she couldnt come. He then raised his head and looked in Shen Weis direction. The couple was currently trying to help Lu Chenzhou extricate himself from the crowd, and coincidentally, the latter was glancing over at him at the same time. Their gazes met, but Lu Chenzhou was expressionless as ever; he only glanced at him briefly with an air of indifference and arrogance, as if he were looking at an ordinary speck of dust. Lin Fan thought back to his mothers words again. When he had pleadingly begged, Why do you look down upon Cheng Xi so much? Dont you know that the Lu family cant wait for her to marry into their family? Its because their surname is Lu, because theyre the Lu family! Do you know what the difference between a kid from a rich family and a kid from a poor family to going to work and washing dishes is? The formers looking for new life experiences while the latters trying to live! These words rang true, and they were so cruel that Lin Fan couldnt say anything in response. And in this moment, when he saw that man being revered by the crowd and when he received his glance, he once again understood the true meaning behind those words that had been said so long ago. He didnt hear a single word of Tian Rous, carelessly finding an excuse to keep walking downwards. Behind him, he could indistinctly hear Tian Rou ask in a perplexed tone, My idol isnt angry, is he? And then a familiar and gentle voice responded, No, hes not. Lin Fan paused. His hand clutched the handrail as he tightly clenched his eyes shut. Tian Rou looked on, disappointed, as her idol walked further away. He looks more and more handsome but why does it also feel like hes getting further and further away from me at the same time? Cheng Xi glanced at Lin Fans back with Tian Rou. He was only down there a few moments before he was tugged away by some male classmates, who hooked their arms around his shoulders as they said who knows what and pressed down on him so much so that his waist seemed like it was about to break in half. After this, Cheng Xi didnt see Lin Fan again for the rest of the night. After Rou had had her fill with her, Cheng Xi was dragged off by Shen Wei to be interrogated in another corner. Her first question was naturally, Whats going on between the two of you? Is Lin Fans mother not okay with you two being together? Cheng Xi was a bit surprised, but soon remembered that it was very normal for Shen Wei to know about things; even though her circle of friends didnt overlap that much with Lin Fans, she was intimately connected to his stepfathers family. She rubbed her face, exasperated. Can we not mention it? Shen Wei stubbornly denied that request. No. As your good friend, I have to tell you something. Its actually a really good thing that the two of you didnt get together! Did you know about this? Lin Fans mother used her illness as an excuse to trick him to return home from overseas, all so that she could use him to fight with her husbands stepchildren for their family assets. Lin Fan was initially unwilling to do so, so she forced him to marry the Mengs daughter. This sort of mother, honestly I wanted to tell you this earlier, but I was afraid that youd get upset, so I held it in until now. Upon hearing this bombshell, Cheng Xi was slightly dazed. She knew that something had been up, but she could never have expected it to be this dramatic Shen Wei prodded her again. Lu Chenzhous better, isnt he? Cheng Xi didnt know what to say, and only after quite a while did she answer, Yes. Tell me, are the two of you really going to get married? It feels very quick. How did you two end up together anyways? What could Cheng Xi say to that? She still hadnt fully recovered from Shen Weis first question. She was really rendered speechless by Shen Weis behavior. Luckily, Fu Mingyi came over to find them at that moment, and Cheng Xi managed to escape from a tribulation without needing to make an excuse or to lie. After Cheng Xi escaped, she spent the remainder of the party with Lu Chengzhou. Baldy and Rou werent very comfortable with each other in the beginning, but after Tian Rou praised Lin Fan and then subsequently mocked by Baldy, animosity arose between the two. They started ridiculously and unfathomably mocking each other, which generated a particularly lively atmosphere around them, a rather unique form of attachment. All in all, the party was quite successful: a large group of people had split up according to Shen Weis circle of friends and then played a team game where they teased each other and drank so much that the party almost devolved into a frenzy. Because Cheng Xi was worried about Lu Chenzhou, who was still recovering, she had helped him drink some of his alcohol. However, this only made Baldy start targeting her, and she ended up having to drink a few more glasses on top of all that. She managed to drunkenly stagger away after the game, and she secretly maneuvered herself to the lounge in the Fu familys garden, where she tried to sober up and regain her wits. A moment later, a cup was thrust towards her from behind. She turned around, and when she saw that it was Lin Fan, her heart shook a little. Its warm water. Here, have some. Cheng Xi remained silent for a moment, and then she accepted the glass of water after thanking him. The temperature of the water was just right, neither too cold nor too warm. After drinking it, Cheng Xi wiped her lips and said, Then, Ill be leaving. Are you still only acting as his shield? Lin Fan suddenly interjected. Cheng Xi stopped. She couldnt not stop, because she had seen Lu Chenzhou. He had appeared out of nowhere, and was coolly standing under a tree, looking at heroh, at them. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 100: I Want to Woo You Regardless of how long Lu Chenzhou had been there, he must have heard Lin Fans question because he directly asked, What shield? And whos he? When Lin Fan heard these questions, he turned around, a little shocked. Cheng Xi was now standing between the two men, trying hard to balance her emotions. She opened her mouth. She didnt even have time to utter a single word before Lin Fan interrupted her. The he were talking about is you. Cheng Xi once told me that the two of you werent romantically involved, and that you were only using her as a shield. Lu Chenzhou seemed very perplexed by Lin Fans answer, but his eyes remained fixed on Cheng Xi. Why would I have to use you as a shield? His tone was calm, and he spoke with a slow and methodical cadence that he normally only reserved for when he was being accommodating. He asked one question after another. Havent we slept together? Havent I kissed you? Isnt our relationship intimate enough? Cheng Xi couldnt even think of a response. All she could do was try her hardest to act dull and lifeless. But Lin Fan was shocked, and his face turned red. After a few moments of silence, he left without another word. Only Cheng Xi was left to face Lu Chenzhou. She didnt know what to say. Lu Chenzhous face was still wearing that ever present cool expression of his. He didnt even glance back when Lin Fan departed; he had only ever looked at Cheng Xi from start to finish, even as he slowly said, Your idols gone. That unhurried tone, without any hint of mockery, made Cheng Xi subconsciously blush. She stiffly responded with an Oh as she tightly clutched the cup in her hand. The nights wind blew at her until she started to feel dizzy, which made her so uncomfortable that she almost wanted to vomit. Lu Chenzhou didnt forget to remark, He ran away too easily. He really has no combat strength! Cheng Xi rubbed her temples, as she even felt more drunk after the nausea caused by the blowing wind. Her brain was still wooden, but a fire and anger had been lit in her heart by his mocks and taunts. Without thinking, she stretched out her hand, pinched his forehead, and maliciously said, And what about you? Getting a cold and a severe allergic reaction Ah! Cheng Xi tripped. Though she flung her hand out quite quickly, Lu Chenzhous body responded even quicker. She barely touched a clump of his hair, but for some reason, maybe she had used too much strength or something, it had made her fall forward and almost hit the ground head-first. The reason it was only almost was because Lu Chenzhou had caught her in time. He had grabbed her from the back, one hand snaking underneath her armpit and clutching her chest, and the other firmly grasping one of her breasts. The chest of a young woman was plump and luxurious, with a wonderful elastic feel to the touch. Lu Chenzhou found it quite nice, and didnt let go even after he pulled her up. Instead, he actually began squeezing it harder and harder. Cheng Xi looked at his hand in a somewhat delayed fashion. You.. She only had enough time to say one word before he grabbed one side of her face, forcibly tilted it to the side, and then kissed her. Cheng Xi didnt know how she was supposed to react after this plot twisthad they discussed anything ever like this before? And even at this time, she was still pondering if she was even fluent enough to speak. After all, she still hadnt spoken a full sentence tonight without being interrupted. Lu Chenzhous kiss was somewhat rough because of his inexperience. At first, Cheng Xi didnt feel good at all, but she wasnt able to break free this time. The alcohol had left her whole body feeling woozy, weak, and lazy. As her struggles weakened, Lu Chenzhou relaxed his grip, and the hand pulling on her face became much gentler as it stroked her long and thin neck. This part of her body was beautifully sculpted, the curve reminiscent of a swans: pretty and long, and white as jade. Lu Chenzhou had wanted to touch it the first time he laid eyes on it, and he could finally fulfill that desire tonight. He felt a warm and satiny response from his fingertips, and continued to fondle it admiringly. Cheng Xi didnt feel anything in particular from his kiss, but his touches made her scalp tingle. His palm was quite large, his fingers cold. As his cold fingertips slowly and lazily drifted across that little area of skin, electric shocks coursed through her whole body, from the tip of her head, through her heart, and then to her toes. She slumped into his embrace as she moaned out, Lu Chenzhou Even she couldnt even tell if she was trying to stop him or entice him further. The surge of both emotional and physical numbness gave her a few moments to reflect on her actions, but that quickly all turned to shamegoodness, who would have known that her neck was her sensitive spot! All this time, Cheng Xi had devoted herself to reading and working, to liking and waiting for Lin Fan. She had excelled at the theoretical aspects of relationships, but in practice, she had never entered into a real relationship before, and especially not one with such intimacy. She was getting quite nervous, but she was unable to break free. So what could she do? Only close her eyes, accept it, relax her body, and slide down with gravity. Unable to prevent it herself, she could only pretend to be drunk. Lu Chenzhou had originally been hugging her, and when he felt her body sag down, he conveniently lifted her upit wasnt easy to pretend to be drunk, especially with someone like Lu Chenzhou who always acted unusually. He picked her up and then sat down where she had originally been sitting. Now, his two legs were clamped against hers, one hand pulling her waist in, and the other very impolitely slipping into her clothes though the space between her breasts. Cheng Xi immediately sat up and stretched out her hand to clutch that hand of his. Lu Chenzhou lowered his head and lightly nuzzled her face with his as she smiled and asked, Youve woken up from your stupor? Then he even breathed lightly into her ear and, with an unusually happy tone, said, You were as nice to touch as I expected. If not for him trapping her legs with his on and him also clutching her hands, she really would have wanted to knee his groin and then punch his face. But it was just a thought. Since she was unable to actually do it, she could only concede. Stop messing around, she said with a sigh. Were at someone elses house. Lu Chenzhou didnt listen to her; his entire being was too stimulated, his breathing heavy, his eyes slightly reddened. Cheng Xi turned her face, ready to persuade him again, but all she saw were his scarlet lips, swollen from their kiss, and his deep brows and distinct features. His eyes were shining with delight, just like a rippling pool of water. The wind had blown his usual coldness away, and his whole body radiated a bottomless adulation. I want to woo you. He lightly pecked her lips, pressed his forehead against hers, and then softly said, Without a contract, and without you feeling any obligation towards me. Just me and you, a man and a woman. Lu Chenzhous words made Cheng Xis heart skip a beat. Only after a while did she finally ask, Why? He pulled her hand into his chest and asked, Can you feel it? His burning gaze was focused solely on her, and she could clearly see his slightly inclined face under the contrasting illumination of the lambent lamplight in the garden. His lips curved slightly up, his smile for once somewhat warm and refined with a few glints of gentleness that made it hard to resist. Its beating very quickly, isnt it? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 101: Public! Display! Of! Affection! Cheng Xi, now lightheaded, was dragged back by Lu Chenzhou, which only made her feel more uncomfortable. Baldy opened the door for the two, and she heard him ask, Is she really that drunk? Lu Chenzhou nodded, and Baldy clicked his tongue before replying, She must really like you. Just look at how much she was willing to drink on your behalf even when her tolerance is crap! After a lengthy pause, he continued, Whyd you bring her back here? Take her away! If nothing happens while youre drunk, then wouldnt it have been a waste for me to have poured her so much alcohol? So he was plotting this all along! Cheng Xi stared fiercely at Baldy, but it just made her feel dizzy. She rubbed her temples and incoherently rambled, Baldy, dont you dare be too excessive. Her tongue was lolling around, almost dangling out of her mouth. Instead of being threatening, her words had the opposite effect. Baldy leaned over and innocently replied, Dr. Cheng, Im being perfectly honest. I didnt do anything. But behind Cheng Xis back, he urged Lu Chenzhou on. Go on, go on. Lu Chenzhou pulled her away. His gaze was profound, almost as if he were seriously considering the feasibility of Baldys suggestion. Cheng Xi felt a cool sensation on the back of her neck; his other hand had suddenly started caressing her neck, his fingers lightly stroking the tender skin there. She struggled and tried to pull away, but she was much too weak to succeed, and when she tried to withdraw into her clothes, he simply extended his entire hand into them His touch didnt make Cheng Xi angry, though. Instead, she softly called out, Lu Chenzhou! She actually wanted him to stop messing around, but the lazy positioning of her body and the soft tone of her voice made it appear as if she were simply being coy. Lu Chenzhous hand, which was caressing her neck, suddenly stilled. He lifted his head to look at her, suddenly leaned down, and bit her lips. Before anyone could react, he raised his head and randomly said, I want to buy a cat! Baldy was struck dumb. Who could possibly predict Boss Lus train of thought? He had acted so intimately, and then suddenly blurted out something like that. Were the two things at all related? Rather, how was wanting to buy a cat relevant to anything happening right now? Baldy looked at Lu Chenzhou blankly, still pondering the relationship between him and Cheng Xi, when he suddenly saw Cheng Xi point her slender finger at Lu Chenzhou and say, Youre a clean freak. You cant- cant raise one. Lu Chenzhou lowered his head and bit her lips again. Baldy balked at their display as he made a weird sound. Urk! Their intimacy was blinding him! Was Lu Chenzhou provoking him on purpose by not leaving when Baldy told him to?! It was just because he didnt want to see a Public! Display! Of! Affection! Youll face retribution! Baldy said discontentedly. And retribution came quickly indeed, in the form of Tian Rou and the others running over. They had been playing a game, and Tian Rou was trying to escape from her punishment. She had been chased into a tight spot by the others, and her eyes gleamed when she spotted the three of them. She quickly ran over and grabbed Cheng XiCheng Xi, help me! Theyre bullying me! Youre shameless! You lost a gamble and now youre trying to act dumb! Cheng Xi, you cant help her! The crowd swarmed around the two women. Before they got close, however, Lu Chenzhou let go of Cheng Xi and coldly retreated a few steps. The others didnt notice his abrupt behavior in their revelry. The pitiful Cheng Xi was swallowed up by the crowd of people, their dragging and pulling only intensified her dizziness. She felt like she was in a spaceship soaring through the sky, the g-forces sending her stomach turning and tossing as a resplendent starry landscape appeared in front of her eyes. She waved her hand around helplessly. Im about to vomit. No one heard her, and she started dry heaving. Tian Rou noticed Cheng Xis plight at this moment; but she was trying to escape her own plight, so Tian Rou immediately yelled out, Cheng Xis pregnant! Shes pregnant! Cheng Xi was stunned speechless. She was dazed and dizzy, but her mind was still clear. When she heard Tian Rous slander, she tried to punch Tian Rou, but ended up hitting her shoulder in a drunken haze instead. But Tian Rou was committed to her lie. She turned pale with fright and exclaimed, Theres a baby! Dont make any big motions! By the time she said this, everyone had stopped moving, so her statement seemed particularly loud against the silence. Baldy tried to confirm that he hadnt heard wrongly by turning to Lu Chenzhou. Youre a father now? Actually, he really wanted to ask if the baby was Lu Chenzhous, because he knew that Cheng Xi had been with Lin Fan before this. And when he considered the timing of things, it seemed to work out very well! But he was afraid of receiving a beating, so he had phrased his question neutrally. Lu Chenzhou ignored himhe didnt need to respond because Cheng Xi vomited, and as she vomited she also listlessly scolded, Tian Rou, youre a pig! After Cheng Xi finished vomiting, she finally passed out even as she thought about how impressed she was with her own alcohol tolerance. When she regained consciousness again, her ears were filled with buzzing chitter-chatter, as if she were in the middle of a flock of ducks. Youre awake. Tian Rous huge face appeared in front of hers, as if magnified. Cheng Xi had a big headache now, and she stretched out one hand to cover her eyes. Where am I? She felt the other side of the bed sink down, and then Shen Weis voice rang out. My home, of course! Are you still drunk? You really sleep soundly after drinking. Only then did Cheng Xi put down her hand and look at her. What time is it? Eleven. At night? Tian Rou looked at her superciliously. At night!? Even if you sleep soundly, do you really think that you couldve slept that long? Why not just sleep till the end of time at that point? Shen Wei smiled and calmly replied, But then what would happen to Mr. Lu? Hed lose his fiance that way. Cheng Xi froze for a moment as she recalled what had happened last night in the garden, and also Lu Chenzhous unusual heartbeat. Even while drunk, she could tell that he did indeed have an intense emotional response. But why? Was it because he had been provoked by Lin Fan, so much so that his emotions had finally emerged from the deep? After Shen Weis mention of Lu Chenzhou, Cheng Xi started pondering last nights events very seriously. Before her thoughts could get very far, however, even more people came up to her to talk about Lu Chenzhou. One said, Cheng Xi, where did you find such a boyfriend? Hes so adorable! Another asked, Ah, are you really pregnant? Its true, isnt it? If your child looks like the father, then please arrange a marriage between your baby and mine! Cheng Xi was shellshocked! She remembered the mess that had taken place before she vomited, and she looked tenderly at Tian Rou as she gently asked, Rou, Im pregnant? Rous heart trembled as she wiped away the non-existent sweat on her forehead. I was joking! She grabbed Cheng Xis wrists and coyly replied back, I know that you were just drunk. Im sorry, will you forgive this baby? Then she mimicked a babys face, making everyone laugh. Cheng Xi, I feel like youve been corrupted by your fianc. Look at that tone you used with meits frightening. Cheng Xi immediately clarified, Hes not my fianc what could I learn from him? Another classmate interrupted. Thats right, how is Dr. Chengs Mr. Lu scary? Hes as suave as anyone else, alright? Then she looked at Cheng Xi briefly before saying, When he was playing games, he never lost. So, everyone heckled him, and do you know his response? She coughed once, and then imitated Lu Chenzhous tone and his cool expression as she said, Its fine if I lose, but my punishment has to be for me to kiss Cheng Xi, or for her to kiss me. Besides her pitch, that female classmate had really imitated him to perfection. Her impersonation instantly caused a hubbub to break out as everyone fell off the bed, laughing. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 102: Small Thoughts Cheng Xi started sweating when she heard this story about Lu Chenzhouafter all, she knew Lu Chenzhou best out of everyone there. He was totally lacking in shame, and to him, kissing was a minor thing. At least he had exercised some restraint and not said something even more shocking. To top it all off, Lu Chenzhou had never been penalized; his intelligence was one thing, but Cheng Xis male classmates were also very protective of their female cohorts. How could they allow a mysterious fianc who had sprung out of nowhere take advantage of one of their classs idols? Yes, Cheng Xi felt that her male classmates were very adorable! Cheng Xi was satisfied with their behavior in her heart, but after satisfaction came exasperation: in a single night, she had not only become pregnant out of nowhere, but also found a fianc. Her decision to invite Lu Chenzhou to this sort of gathering as her plus one had clearly been a mistake. But what could she do now? She couldnt explain the situation away, so she could only let it be. And she had still succeeded in her goal. Lu Chenzhou actually didnt leave even after she became incorently drunk, staying and nicely playing games with everyone else. It was truly a rare and precious achievement. Besides mahjong, Cheng Xi hadnt ever seen Lu Chenzhou and Baldy play anything else; the main reason why he had participated in the social activities last night was to not appear as aloof as he usually did. Of course, a good temper for Mr. Lu was also relative. His cold demeanor seemed arrogant and unapproachable to men, but handsome, adorable, and extremely charming to women. In this time and age, beauty was everything. Because Cheng Xi had found such a good fianc and yet not told her classmates about him, she had been ravaged by a band of female classmates. Only after she escaped them did she finally get to wash up and change her clothes. She was still wearing the angel outfit from last night, which was now rumpled and wrinkled after sleeping through the night. After Cheng Xi got out of bed, she quickly ran into the washroom for some privacy and called Lu Chenzhou. The response she got to her greeting was, Buy a cat. She paused. A cat? Yes. Why do you want one? Lu Chenzhou didnt respond, and Cheng Xi didnt understand why he was suddenly interested in cats. Instead, she warned him, saying, Cats shed hair all over the place. Are you sure? After saying this, Cheng Xi felt like she had done her due diligence by reminding him, and then hung up. On the other end, Lu Chenzhou, who had just been reminded, turned to look at the cat carrier on the passengers seat next to him the cat inside was silent. It was a white Scottish fold with big eyes and a small, red nose. It was currently lying on its stomach and looking at him with a particularly sweet expression. He had searched for half a day before finally finding a cat that reminded him of a specific someone and then she told him that cats would shed hair! His nose was already starting to feel itchy, and it was getting harder to breathe as well. His mysophobia seemed to manifest almost immediately upon hearing her words; unable to bear it any further, Lu Chenzhou stopped by the roadside and was just about to throw the cat away when his phone rang. The hand on the cat carriers handle stilled. He took his phone out, and on it was a text message from Cheng Xi. I feel like its not a bad idea for you to get a cat, but a cats life is still a life. So if you buy one, please take good care of it. He returned to his office and looked at the cat for the entire morning before eventually calling his assistant over. Send this cat to my grandmother. When Lu Chenzhous grandmother received the cat, she was pleasantly surprised. She could feel in her heart that, after she introduced Cheng Xi to her grandson, he was behaving much more personably. Look, he even knew to give her gifts now! And such a cute little cat at that! She was so happy that she immediately called Lu Chenzhou after receiving the cat, saying that she would definitely take good care of it, and that she even wanted him to give it a name. Lu Chenzhou put down his pen, closed his eyes, and thought for awhile before saying, Call it Daggry. Hmm? Daggry meant daybreak in Danish. Why Danish? Because Cheng Xi liked telling childrens stories! ^o^ [TL: Hans Christian Andersen, prolific writer of fairy tales, was Danish.] Cheng Xi had completely forgotten about the strange conversation that she had had with Lu Chenzhou about cats, and naturally knew nothing about Mr. Lus thought processes. After washing up and exiting the bathroom, everyone had finally gotten tired of Lu Chenzhou and moved on to an even more extreme topic. It wasnt clear who first suggested it, but a few girls were playing a game that tested the loyalty of their husbands and boyfriends. Despite Tian Rou having neither, she was still energetically throwing out ideas left and right. And when Cheng Xi came out, she could hear her cackling voice. Change to this one, this one. This one is sexy! One of her classmates had a secondary WeChat account, which her classmates were planning on disguising and then using to catfish their husbands and boyfriends. Upon hearing this plan, Cheng Xi couldnt help but caress her forehead. Dont you guys have anything better to do? She advised them very seriously. With how fragile feelings are, how many tests can it withstand? If it fails, youll be happy, but your husbands and boyfriends definitely wont be happy if they find out; if it succeeds, then even if you know that youre just joking, and even if he doesnt cheat on you, itll be something lurking in the back of your mind for the rest of your relationship. Whats the point? Why create trouble for yourself? No one listened to her. Shen Wei teased her for being a female Xuanzang [a famous monk, the protagonist of Journey to the West], and another classmate of hers even said, Dont preach at us! We know just how much your Mr. Lus enthralled with you. As for us, our husbands and boyfriends dont have as much wealth as the Wei family, or look as handsome as yours. So, they have to at least be loyal, dont they? They had brought up Lu Chenzhou again. Cheng Xi sighed and weakly protested, Hes not as good as you guys think he is And then everyone ignored her. She could only helplessly watch on as they sent out friend requests. Besides Tian Rou, the four women waited fervently for a response. Everyone here had drunk too much, and their partners were all staying in the other wing of the Wei estate. If the men were all staying together, then the fact that these requests had all been sent out at once Even a fool would realize that something was fishy, right? Regardless, Cheng Xi had given up on trying to persuade them, and she let them do whatever they wanted. But it turned out that there were still fools left in this world after all. One such was the husband of her classmate. The two had grown up as childhood friends, and the man had always seemed sincere and earnest; however, he was the only one who had accepted the unknown womans friend request. Even though her husband ignored the messages that she sent, anyone could see that her smile was a little forced. And the second fool was Shen Wei. Cheng Xi originally thought that this spur-of-the-moment event would peter out after the incident. After a sudden fit of anger, her classmate listened to Cheng Xis advice and blacklisted her husbands WeChat, and refrained from testing his limits anymore. But Shen Wei had been extremely bored and was inspired by this incident instead. After they all left, she actually made another WeChat account to catfish Fu Mingyi. This time, she set the profile picture to a cute little girl that gave off a pure and fresh image. She had known Fu Mingyi for a few years by now, and naturally knew his tasteswhat he liked was mature women, like herself. But this time, Fu Mingyi accepted the friend request from that fake account of hers. Not long after the party, Cheng Xi received a call from Shen Weis family. Cheng Xi? Youre Cheng Xi, arent you? Could you please come over? Fu Mingyi was caught in an affair. Cheng Xi, shes about to go crazy from anger. Cheng Xi couldnt even think of a response. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 103: Gifts, Dates, and Kisses! When Cheng Xi picked up her phone, she was in the midst of a heated and somewhat arduous discussion with Lu Chenzhouwho knew which book Mr. Lu had read this time, but after he had announced that he was going to woo her during Shen Weis birthday banquet, he had started faithfully performing the three daily tasks required for wooing a girlfriend: giving gifts, going on dates, and asking for kisses! After leaving Shen Weis place, Cheng Xi had originally planned on heading to the suburbs to see her parents, but when she was halfway there, she received a call asking her to sign for a gift that had been delivered. She asked the management office to hold it for her, but an employee there embarrassedly replied, Sorry, but this gift is one we cant hold at the moment. Helpless, Cheng Xi could only turn around and head back home, where she saw a pickup trucks worth of flowers. It was an uncountable number, so much so that the two couriers had to make multiple trips to move all the flowers upstairs. The security guards at Cheng Xis place even thought that she had changed careers to become a florist. The flowers were even the pink roses that famously entranced young girls. When they were all moved into her apartment, half of her living room was occupied. Mr. Lu had even included a very artistic handwritten note from himself, which read, Love only blossoms when youre carefree. The words had a deep philosophical meaning, but Lu Chenzhous usage of it in this situation made Cheng Xi feel a bit awkward. Looking at all these flowers, her first thought was that, at the very least, it was a Sunday, and that the flowers had been sent to her home rather than her workplace. Otherwise, after that appointment booking incident last time, she would probably become infamous in Renyi Hospital. Her second thought was that once these flowers wilted, there would be so much trash Somewhat powerlessly, she called Lu Chenzhou. Thank you for the gift, but whats the purpose for this? Lu Chenzhou coolly responded, To woo you, of course. Thank you, but can you not spend so much money? In his usual nouveau riche manner, Mr. Lu replied, Its fine. I make a lot. Cheng Xi had to first praise him before she could try to persuade him. Youre really amazing, able to make so much money despite being so young. But no matter how much you make, you cant be so wasteful. The flowers are pretty, but once they dry up, theyll just become useless piles of trash! Mr. Lu fell silent, the word trash striking him in his mysophobic heart. The next day, Cheng Xi received something in place of flowers. He invited her out for dinner, and afterwards, he said, Lets go watch a movie. Dinner and a movie, a standard date for a couple. Cheng Xi couldnt refuse because she was the one who wanted him to woo her, and she wanted to see how far he would go in pursuing her. Thus, she went along with him. Because it was almost Chinese New Year, there werent any good films showing. So, the two of them had no choice but to watch a dreary, mediocre romance flick. Then, it was another round of gifts, dinner, and movies again. After Cheng Xi explicitly said to not send anything to her because she wasnt lacking anything and that she would have to work to find a place for anything he did send her, Lu Chenzhou began to send breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Like clockwork, meals would appear by her side at the same time everyday. The first time it happened, Cheng Xi was a bit surprised and somewhat touched. The second time, she felt somewhat embarrassed that he was spending so much money on her. To console herself, she started recording all of the meals that he sent her in a little notebook, planning on repaying him after he regained his emotions. The third time she received a meal, she was already very calm. Everyone in the department admired her delivered meal, and she responded, My brother insisted on ordering it for me, saying that Im too skinny. Everyone looked at her skinny body, unsuspecting of her white lie. Lu Chenzhou had been busy with his own affairs recently, so even though he regularly sent gifts, he never actually delivered them himself, and thus her lie was never exposed. She managed to muddle through the gifts in this manner, but the dates were somewhat harder. Lu Chenzhous dates were on a fixed schedule; they took place once every two days, regardless of how busy he was. Though Cheng Xi was sometimes preoccupied and couldnt go, but when she had the time, they would go out without fail. And so, the two of them thus started dating. Lu Chenzhous performance conformed with societal norms. Cheng Xi felt that this wasnt bad, and she treated it as if they were just friends. But those thoughts were quickly overturned because Lu Chenzhous actions soon transcended the realm of friendship. On that day, they had gone out for food as usual, but they didnt go to a movie afterwards, as they had seen them all by now. Instead, the two of them started playing tennis. Given Cheng Xis fitness, yoga was fine, but trying to match Lu Chenzhou in a sport was an entirely different matter. Losing was one thing, but after three matches, she was exhausted. Afterwards, she wasnt even able to walk steadily, and her racket slipped out of her hand as she slumped down to the floor, panting. Lu Chenzhou slowly walked up to her from the other side, put his racket underneath his arm, and crouched down in front of her. Cheng Xi waved a hand at him in resignation. Im done, I cant keep going She couldnt even say anything else because Lu Chenzhou had started wiping her sweat away with his towel. She wanted to avoid it, but was unable to do so as Lu Chenzhou was firmly yet gently grasping her head as he dabbed at her face. Dont move. Cheng Xi had no choice but to stiffen up her body and let him wipe her sweat off. Although he wasnt particularly gentle, he was very detail-oriented as he gradually and exasperatingly slowly moved down her forehead. After waiting for such a long time and not seeing any significant progress, Cheng Xi gave up, closed her eyes, and let him take his time. And after who knows how long, she felt a strange softness on her lips. She quickly opened her eyes and saw his dark brows. You Her voice was hoarse and her throat dry. What are you doing? Kissing you, of course, he said as if it were to be expected. His voice tended to be cool and chilly, as if he were detached from the natural world. And, as usual, his face was calm and refined, without a hint of embarrassment regardless of the situation. Its time. We can kiss now. Then, he knelt down on one knee, bent his head, and began sucking on her lips. After Cheng Xis strenuous exercise, her lips had become a little dry, so he patiently and slowly caressed her lips with his own. Because of his patience and care, it ended up being somewhat touching. Cheng Xi couldnt clearly identify the emotions that were welling up endlessly from her heart; perhaps she was a little frenetic, and maybe even a little happy, a kind of sweetness that she couldnt control. As she lightly exhaled, Cheng Xi pushed him away. Did your heart beat faster again this time? He felt his chest for a moment, and then shook his head. But shouldnt we be proceeding to the next step around now anyways? When he saw Cheng Xis confused look, he even smiled a little. Giving gifts, having dates Dont couples always kiss in the end? Cheng Xi was speechless. My goodness, so it was all a trap! Return my sweetness and take this panic back! And so she immediately launched a rational discussion. Thats moving a bit too fast. You still havent felt what love is, so its not appropriate to act so intimately yet. He made an Oh sound, and then, with his unusual brand of logic, said, Then, you kiss me. Why should I kiss you? So that I can fall in love with you more quickly. Dont they say that a male chasing after a female has to scale a mountain, whereas a female chasing after a male only has to lift a veil? It sounded quite logical when he put it that way. Shen Weis family called Cheng Xi right when she was at a loss for words. Even through the phone, Cheng Xi could hear the unusual shrillness in Shen Weis voice. Cheng Xi immediately became serious, and despite her flailing limbs, managed to stand up. I have to go somewhere right away. She didnt intend to let him tag along because she didnt know what sort of situation Shen Wei was in and didnt want to stimulate him. However, when she turned around, he pulled her back. Ill go with you, he said. Were still on our date. Cheng Xi...couldnt think of a rebuttal. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 104: I Want Him to Die! Cheng Xi looked at the hand holding onto her, and then at Lu Chenzhou. He seemed to be quite serious, and his face was clearly unhappyhis date being interrupted made him feel quite uncomfortable. Cheng Xi suddenly felt an urge to laugh, but she resisted the temptation. Shen Wei might cause a big commotion. She was afraid that it would scare him. Lu Chenzhou adamantly stated, Dont worry. Even if she does go crazy, it wont frighten me. He seemed to have completely forgotten about how badly Chen Jiamans relapse had affected him. In the first place, Shen Wei wasnt very likely to have actually gone crazy. She had a pretty robust mentality, and even if Fu Mingyi was truly having an affair, she was more likely to be overreacting because of excessive stimulationcalling her crazy was most likely an exaggeration. But Cheng Xi really didnt want to bring Lu Chenzhou with her. Shen Weis pride wouldnt be able to accept her former idol seeing her in such a disarrayed state. On the other hand, Mr. Lu wouldnt be able to accept such an abrupt end to their date either Cheng Xi thought for a little while and then said, Send me home, will you? If he sent her home, then the date would be over. As expected, Lu Chenzhou happily agreed and sent her home, but there was a small incident when Cheng Xi tried to leave the car. When she went to open the door, he pulled her back into the car. Cheng Xi thought that he still wanted to tag along to the Shen estate, and she preemptively said, Its really not too convenient Say goodbye and then well kiss. Having said that, he tilted his lower jaw up, looking at her expectantly. She leaned over, quickly kissed his forehead, threw a casual Bye at him, and then ran off without looking back. She didnt dare look at Lu Chenzhous expression after her haphazard farewell, so she didnt see his shallow smile and pursed lips. Cheng Xi was mainly concerned for Shen Wei, and when she returned home, she grabbed a few common over-the-counter drugs for mental stabilization before taking a taxi to the Fu household. Neither the Shen family nor the Fu family were lacking in money, so when the two of them had gotten married, both bride and groom each had their own house. One was the villa where Fu Mingyi had hosted Shen Weis birthday party, which they occasionally stayed in, and the other was in the city. While the latter wasnt as big, it was in an optimal location, and was where the couple generally resided after their marriage. Today, Shen Wei was staying in the city. As soon as Cheng Xi arrived at the buildings front entrance, she could already hear Shen Weis shrill yells. There were quite a number of residents gathered around, looking up at the building as they gossiped wildly. Cheng Xi calmly took the elevator up and knocked on the houses door. Fu Mingyis aunt opened the door for her. Inside, there were quite a few people sitting in the main living room: Shen Weis parents, two brothers and sisters-in-law, Fu Mingyis parents, her aunt, and Fu Mingyi himself. So the direct relatives of both families were here. Presently, they were sitting far from each other, Shen Weis family members guarding the bedroom door while Fu Mingyis family sat obediently in the living room. The living room, which had originally been designed to be comforting and relaxing, had become a total mess, destroyed beyond recognition. Shen Wei herself was in the bedroom, yelling out helplessly. She wasnt scolding anyone, but rather howling out her raw anger, despair, and helplessness to the world. Cheng Xi and Shen Wei were quite good friends, so both families instantly recognized her, causing them to relax. Fu Mingyi was crumpled up on one side of the living room sofa, but even he couldnt help but raise his head. His face was full of scratches, as if a violent beast had clawed him. Cheng Xi only spread him a glance before turning away and greeting Shen Weis distraught parents. Mr. Shen, Mrs. Shen. Cheng Xi. Before Shen Weis mother could say anything more, she broke down in tears. She was a very gentle woman, thin and skinny. Please help me look after Shen Wei. Whats she going to do? Cheng Xi nodded, not asking about the situation as she went into the room to first look at Shen Wei. The room was even more devastated than the living room. Shen Wei was being pressed against the bed by her brothers and sisters-in-law, like a beached fish stranded on a land full of despair with nothing she could do but yell her heart out. Cheng Xi took a set of medicine that she had prepared earlier out of her bag. Her voice is completely hoarse. Take this and prepare some water for her. Alright. With trembling hands, Shen Weis mother took the medicine and turned around to pour out some water. Cheng Xi stepped over the jumble of random items on the floor as she called out Shen Weis name from the foot of the bed. Shen Wei didnt respond, so Cheng Xi grabbed her hand to check her pulse, How long has she been like this for? Almost half an hour, Shen Weis brother replied. Were too afraid to release our grip on her. One time when we did, she tried to kill him before trying to jump off the building. Seeing Shen Wei like this Shh! Cheng Xi softly shushed him, and then pushed him aside and grabbed one of Shen Weis hands in his place. Shen Weis strength was much greater than she expected; she had been struggling for so long, but in the short time when Cheng Xi took over, Shen Wei almost struggled free. Cheng Xi had no other option but to lie down on Shen Weis hand, using her entire body to hug Sheng Wei as she incessantly called out, Shen Wei, Shen Wei, Shen Wei, beautiful Shen Wei, adorable Shen Wei, the most perfect Shen Wei who we know Will you calm down? Then, Cheng Xi whispered into Shen Weis ears, I know that youre certainly very mad, and you want to kill him, dont you? Ill help you. Ill help you! Ill definitely help you! Cheng Xi repeated this phrase a few times. Maybe it was because Shen Wei was finally tired from venting, but her howls weakened soon after, and then when she recognized Cheng Xis voice, she turned her head around to look at Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi raised her voice. If youre quiet, then well let you go, alright? Promise me, and believe in me! Shen Wei started panting as she continued to look straight at Cheng Xi. Cheng Xi didnt shy away, looking straight back at Shen Wei, her gaze calm and resolute. Shen Wei slowly calmed down, but the expression on her face remained as malevolent as ever. I want him to die! Alright. Cheng Xi didnt hesitate to agree at all. Now, immediately, right away! Alright! Cheng Xi responded even more decisively. Then, she turned around and said, Go and pour two glasses of water for us, as she looked at Shen Weis mother. The requested water quickly came. Shen Wei saw Cheng Xi drop two pills into one glass, and then call Fu Mingyi in. Upon seeing him, Shen Wei couldnt hold the enmity in her eyes back, and she started shrieking shrilly again. Cheng Xi hugged her tightly and said to Fu Mingyi, Shen Weis thirsty, and she wants you to feed her a glass of water. Fu Mingyi hesitantly looked at Shen Wei, and then picked up a glass of water. Wait. Cheng Xi stopped him. Shes afraid that youll poison her, so drink this glass of water first. An embarrassed expression emerged on Fu Mingyis face, but he didnt protest as he downed the glass of water in one gulp. And then, he collapsed onto the floor in a heap. He had fallen so suddenly that everyone was shocked, and Shen Weis two sisters-in-law even yelled out in fright for a brief moment. All of Fu Mingyis family members were standing by the door and were subsequently shocked upon seeing the situation. Fu Mingyis mother and aunt quickly ran forward as they desperately shouted, Fu Mingyi! Mingyi! Fu Mingyi didnt respond at all, almost as if he was dead. Cheng Xi didnt look at either of them, focusing solely on Shen Wei as she conspicuously spoke by her ear, That was a prohibited drug from our laboratory. Those who ingest it will fall into a deep coma. Not long after, hell start to have difficulty breathing and then his heart and lungs will collapse. The cause of death isnt very different from a sudden heart attack, and even forensic investigators will have a hard time identifying his true cause of death. She hugged Shen Wei as she asked, Isnt it better this way? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 105: The Intrepid but Soft-hearted Dr. Cheng Shen Wei completely quieted down, now looking at Cheng Xi dazedly. Cheng Xi smiled in response, and then said to Shen Weis equally dazed brother, Shen Weis thirsty. Get her some water to drink. When the water was brought over, Cheng Xi personally helped Shen Wei drink it. As Cheng Xi held the glass up, she said, Dont be afraid, and dont worry. Drink this and go to sleep. After you wake up, everything will be fine. Dont worry. If anything happens, Ill shoulder the blame with you. Perhaps it was because Fu Mingyis death had shocked her too much, or perhaps it was because Cheng Xis words had warmed her heart, but for whatever reason, Shen Wei actually cooperated and drank that glass of water. Not long later, amidst the sobs of the Fu family, she closed her eyes and fell into a peaceful sleep. Only then did Cheng Xi lightly exhale, put down Shen Wei, and turn to address the distraught Fu family. They were all clustered around Fu Mingyi, hugging him, crying, and calling for help. Dont worry, hes not dead. He just ingested a few sleeping pills. Even though she had been whispering into Shen Weis ears, she hadnt done it very softly, so most people in the room had heard at least a little of that exchange. In this sort of situation, it was honestly already quite level-headed for them to only embrace Fu Mingyi instead of rushing up to Cheng Xi to beat her up. Nevertheless, when Cheng Xi spoke, despite her gentle tone, a cold indifference permeated her words. Fu Mingyis mother and aunt both choked at her callousness, and then his aunt criticized her. As a doctor, how can you frighten someone like that? Then, should I wake Shen Wei up and let her stab him? Her tone was practical and realistic as she continued, I do have to say, shes currently in a bad mental state. Even if she does stab him, it would be a waste. Fu Mingyis mother and aunt, who were familiar with Shen Weis crazy behavior, were rendered speechless. Luckily, Fu Mingyis father was reasonable, and he went up to talk to the two of them. In the end, the three of them lifted Fu Mingyi up and brought him out. Only then did Cheng Xi look at the Shen family. Right now, they were still a bit dazed, mainly because Cheng Xis behavior today was very different from normal. Before this, they had all thought that she was a pure and soft-hearted woman. Someone pretty with a good character, good temperament, and a kind, generous, and understanding heart. And only now did they even realize that the familiar woman they thought they knew had such a daring side to her. The intrepid but soft-hearted Cheng Xi then said, The way this place looks will negatively impact Shen Weis mood. Id like to take her back to my place. The hospital? Upon hearing Cheng Xis request, Shen Weis mothers voice started trembling. Cheng Xi didnt respond, and instead asked a few questions. When did she start having these abnormal feelings? Two days ago, when she found out that Fu Mingyi cheated before they got married. At that time, she was very angry, but just angry. She wasnt throwing things around or hitting peopleshe was just saying that she wanted to divorce Fu Mingyi. We all thought that she might have been acting a bit rash, so we advised her not to be so impetuous, to think it through carefully. However, this merely made her feel that none of us understood her and that we wanted to see her die. Aside from this, did she display any other unusual behavior? Yes. She said that Fu Mingyi wanted to kill her, and she said that he married her all to do that. But we thought that she was just spouting nonsense after being excessively angered. So we didnt place much importance on it. Cheng Xi nodded. Then what happened today? Today, the two families got together to see if we could persuade the two of them to reconcile Cheng Xi interrupted her. Is it true that Fu Mingyi had an affair? Actually, she was hoping that it was false, and that it was all in Shen Weis imagination. But after a mild silence, Shen Weis brother said, Its true. When she made a fake account to test Fu Mingyis loyalty, he mistook it for another womans account and immediately warned her to stop harassing him, saying that they were over After Shen Wei led him on some more, she found out that, before they got married, Fu Mingyi had had multiple girlfriends besides her. One of them had gotten pregnant and threatened him, so Fu Mingyi had found someone to forcibly cause her to have an abortion before breaking off all connection with her and you still want them to reconcile after this? What else can we do? Shen Weis mother interrupted through her tears. Shen Weis also pregnant now. When Shen Weis mother said this, everyones expressions revealed various levels of annoyance and exasperation. It wasnt just Cheng Xis; even Shen Weis father looked ashen. Cheng Xi was similarly at a loss for what to say. She remained silent for quite a while before asking, How long have you known? We only found out after it was all revealed. Shen Wei was so mad that she fainted, and we were afraid that something more serious had occurred, so we sent her to the hospital for an inspection. It was then that we found out that she was pregnant. A happy occasion that couldnt be considered joyful was preceded by tremendous anger and sorrow No wonder the normally strong-willed Shen Wei would collapse like this. Cheng XI sighed and then asked, Then whats all this today? Were still not sure about the overall picture. Originally, the atmosphere was still manageable, and Shen Wei was willing to listen to reason for the sake of the baby. But then, out of nowhere, she received a phone call and suddenly went crazy. She started scratching and clawing at Fu Mingyi, and even grabbed up a knife while saying that she would kill him. Luckily, there were plenty of other people around today. Otherwise, something truly horrific might have actually happened. Shen Weis brothers were a bit scared as they recounted this, and one of her sisters-in-law quickly asked, Is Shen Wei truly insane now? Everyone in the Shen family looked towards her indignantly, and Shen Weis father frowned. What nonsense are you spouting? Shen Weis just lost control of her rage! Are you going to believe that nonsense too? Shen Weis father had a severe demeanor, and he rarely talked, so everyone went silent at his sudden tirade. After a while, Cheng Xi asked, Do you know who called her? Everyone shook their heads. We asked Fu Mingyi, but he said that he didnt know. Shen Wei also smashed her phone, so we cant find out even if we wanted to. Cheng Xi stopped her questioning, and after thinking for a while, started muttering to herself. Finally, she stated, I feel like its in Shen Weis best interests to go to the hospital. She seemed to have a strong inclination towards death, and Im worried that something drastic might happen when she wakes up. When Cheng Xi saw Shen Weis family hesitate, she continued pushing them. We have to make a decision quickly. The medicine I gave her was a mental suppressant, and the only reason she fell asleep was because she was fatigued from all that struggling. Its better to have everything planned and ready to go before she wakes up. Shen Weis mother looked at Cheng Xi, tears still brimming in her eyes. Is Shen Wei doing that badly right now? At the moment, its not clear. We have to wait for her to wake up before we can ascertain her situation. However, staying here is evidently not suitable for her. Then well move her! Shen Weis father made a decisive statement. But not to the hospital. Well first go to our house. Well watch over her there, and she should be fine, right? This last question was directed at Cheng Xi. Shen Weis mother anxiously added, Shen Wei cares a lot for her appearance, and sending her to a place like that Im afraid that shed really ruin herself. Regular people were always somewhat fearful and held huge misconceptions towards mental asylums and mental illness Cheng Xi sighed, finally relenting. Alright, but she should come to my apartment. My home is closer to the hospital, so if anything happens, we can always resort to that. Additionally, I feel like its better for her to be as isolated from her past as she can right now. Perhaps itll aid in her recovery. This suggestion was approved by everyone from Shen Weis family; as for the Fu familyat this time, who would listen to their opinions? They were pests that had to be chased away! Finally, Shen Wei was sent to Cheng Xis apartment. Her parents accompanied her; they stayed in the guest room, Shen Wei the master bedroom, and Cheng Xi the living room. Everything was settled on the way there, but once they entered the house, Cheng Xi saw that her house was still full of flowers. She instantly remembered that she still hadnt dealt with these things, and felt a small impulse to make a 塱 face. Even though they were concerned with Shen Weis situation, the Shen family was still slightly shocked by this house full of flowers. Shen Weis elder sister-in-law even joked, Cheng Xi, are you switching jobs to become a florist? Cheng Xi muddled through the question before instructing Shen Weis elder brother to carry her to Cheng Xis room. The reason why the flowers in the living room were shocking was because of their quantity, and also because of their artistic presentation. All the pink roses were grouped up by the balcony, and from them was a little road interlaced with ivy and orchids that extended to the living room. From afar, it seemed as if fresh flowers had overtaken the room. The fragrance of the flowers permeated everyones nose, and their pink color saturated their eyes, but otherwise, they didnt inhibit anybodys activities. Before Shen Wei woke up, the Shen family had already divided up the tasks that they had to accomplish. Her elder brother would go and fix Shen Weis phone to see if he could find out why she had gone crazy earlier. Her second brother and sister-in-law would go back and fetch some of her casual clothes. Finally, Shen Weis parents and elder sister-in-law would stay here so that they would have enough people to deal with Shen Wei if she went berserk again. Shen Wei didnt end up sleeping for very long, and she woke up almost right after they finished planning. Cheng Xi walked inside upon hearing her stir, and saw that she was already sitting upright. Shen Wei opened her eyes wide and looked right at Cheng Xi. Is Fu Mingyi dead? Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 106: Who鈥檚 Worse Off than Whom? Before Cheng Xi could respond to Shen Wei, Shen Weis mother, who had followed Cheng Xi in, anxiously replied, Hes dead. Completely dead! Dead? Shen Wei stilled, and then started laughing loudly. Hes dead? Hahaha, is he finally dead? And then she suddenly started crying loudly, Hes a murderer, he wanted to kill me! Why didnt you guys believe me? Why? As Shen Wei monologued, she gritted her teeth and stared at everybody in the room. Her eyes were slightly discolored, and her normally beautiful face now seemed sinister and frightening. Her demented expression scared Shen Weis elder sister-in-law so much that she shuddered and slid back as she tremblingly said, If she goes insane, shell kill someone. Why not why not send her to the hospital?! Shen Wei suddenly stood up, and her sister-in-law was so scared that she let out a shriek. Cheng Xi turned around and tried to push everyone else out, but just as she was about to close the door, Shen Weis father stopped her. You alone? Why dont I stay here too? Cheng Xi twisted her head to look at Shen Wei, and then tacitly approved of Shen Weis fathers suggestion. In that time, her mother also took the opportunity to squeeze back into the room. She wasnt reassured about her daughters condition. Glistening tears were still dripping from Shen Weis face, but she was laughing while standing on the bed with one hand on her hip and the other pointing at them. A madman, a lunatic. Kill him! She normally liked to be clean and pretty, but she was unabashedly wearing yesterdays dirty and creased clothes, her hair in a complete mess. Shen Weis parents had two sons and a single daughter, and they loved her as dearly as could be. But they didnt expect that their daughter, whom they had raised with all their heart, would end up like this. Shen Weis mother had to bite down on her hand to keep herself from crying out, and her father was just standing there, dazed. He might have considered her earlier condition a fluke, but was no longer able to do so after hearing her shout about killing someone while turning in circles to try to find a weapon. Lets send her to the hospital. Shen Weis father said even as tears fell from his face. Ill make the call. Cheng Xi said nothing as she walked up to hug Shen Wei, who was getting ready to jump off the bed and head outside. Shen Wei struggled forcefully against Cheng Xis arms. Im going to kill you, Fu Mingyi! Its better that we die together! She howled and continued screaming even after her throat went hoarse. Shen Weis mother was scared and tried to snap her out of her reverie. Shen Wei! Shen Wei! She then turned to her mother and yelled, Whos Shen Wei? Who? Im not Shen Wei! Im not! Shen Weis dead! Shes dead! Her expression looked as though she was about to rush out and murder someone. Cheng Xi was almost unable to restrain her, but her father responded quickly, rushing over to also stop her. He was stronger than Cheng Xi, and the three of them fell off of the bed together. Shen Wei was unable to break free from their grapple, and resorted to howling out like before. In the end, Cheng Xi had to roll up her sleeves. Are you quite finished yet?! Her sudden outburst shocked Shen Weis parents, and Shen Weis mother even weakly tugged at her in protest. Cheng Xi ignored her, continuing to stare at Shen Wei. Yes, Shen Weis dead! Killed by Fu Mingyi, that murderer! So are you going to go crazy because of that? Whos going to benefit from this? Shen Wei, Im telling you, Fu Mingyi isnt dead. Hes living happily and well. Even if you go crazy or die, hell still live well. After a few years, hell once again get together with another woman Either way, the two of them will go on to lead a happy life. Are you satisfied with things turning out this way? To admit defeat like this? To give everything you have up to someone else? If youre willing, then alright, Ill satisfy you. If you want to die, then Ill stab you. If you want to go crazy, then we have spots open at our hospital. And even if we didnt, Id leave you a spot! Shen Weis throat had long gone hoarse from yelling, and now, when she was provoked, she couldnt say a single word. So, Cheng Xis voice easily dominated over hers. She started yelling again, and Cheng Xi let her, only hugging her tightly and preventing her from moving. The three of them, Cheng Xi and Shen Weis parents, were prepared this time and handily suppressed her. Cheng Xi thought that Shen Wei would do what she did before: yell until she lost her voice. Then, without any other alternative, they would have to send her to the hospital. She didnt expect that this time, Shen Wei actually gradually calmed down before finally laying her head against Cheng Xis shoulder and crying miserably. Shen Wei cried as she collapsed, but not very loudly, possibly because she wasnt physically capable of making that much noise at this point. But when Cheng Xi heard her soft sobs, she knew that Shen Wei had truly woken up this time. She put her hand on Shen Weis back and slowly patted her, letting her cry her heart out. When Shen Wei finished crying, Cheng Xi could see that Shen Wei had truly calmed down. Next, Cheng Xi had Shen Weis parents leave the room before closing the door, leaving only herself and Shen Wei in the room. Cheng Xi poured her a glass of water. Have some. Shen Wei gulped it down. Her emotions had finally stabilized, but she was still feeling a bit dazed and lacking her usual quick-wittedness. Shen Wei remained in that state for quite a while before she seemed to jolt awake. She quickly covered her face as she laughed bitterly. Cheng Xi, why was I so dumb? Why didnt I notice anything? She said that she wanted to be my bridesmaid, and I even agreed. Ha, she didnt want to be my bridesmaid! She just wanted to stand by his side in front of everyone! But I was so stupid that I agreed! Cheng Xi was stunned speechless by Shen Weis words. A bridesmaid, and even someone who could provoke Shen Wei into madness Cheng Xi had a good idea who Fu Mingyis illicit lover was. Shen Wei had once even wanted to help that homewrecker get together with Lin Fan. Given Shen Weis pride and arrogance, how could she not go crazy from anger? Her best friend and her newlywed husband Why did her life have to be filled with so much drama? Shen Wei gritted her teeth furiously. Why couldnt he be with someone else? Anyone else! Why her? Cheng Xi silently listened on as Shen Wei kept ranting. Only when Shen Weis emotions started deteriorating did she interrupt. I remember that you once said that a man who could be enticed away wasnt your man. If hes not yours, then why would you be upset over him? No, you dont understand at all! Shen Wei looked at her with red eyes. Youve always excelled in everything youve done. It would have been fine if all you did was leave us in the dust in school alone, but you even have the same capability with men. Lin Fan, Lu Chenzhou after losing one, you still had another. Both are wonderfully talented men, and youd be happy no matter whom you ultimately chose. How could someone like you understand me? Actually, Cheng Xi was wondering why she had to have a man at all. She didnt expect that Shen Weis unrestrained appearance was actually just a facade. But she couldnt say this, as Shen Weis emotions were about to go haywire again. Instead, Cheng Xi quickly said, I can understand you. She looked at her friend, who had almost gone crazy due to love, as complicated emotions filled her gaze. Its just that I dont want to talk about my difficulties. Youre right. Lin Fans a good man, and Ive liked him for many years. Didnt you use to always ask me why I didnt look for a boyfriend? Its because I felt that no one was better than Lin Fan, and that no one understood me better than him! When he first returned, I thought that it was a miracle brought about by fate. I ignored my instinct and disregarded the timing and recklessly confessed to him. But then, a few days later, a girl came up to me and told me that she and Lin Fan were already in a relationship, and that the one he loved wasnt the me of the present! She even sent me photos of Lin Fan acting intimate with other girls, and when I sent them to him, his response was that he had been set up. Do you know how disappointed I felt? Even if he had frankly said that he had fallen in love with her, it would have been better! When I later suggested breaking up, he didnt show a single sign of wanting to fix the relationship! As for me, I had to hold myself back as I didnt want to ruin my name as a psychiatrist. I didnt even dare to curse him or shed a tear. Instead, I had to force a smile onto my face and say, Ah, it must be fate. Please bravely seek true love! Ill give you my blessings! Shen Wei looked at Cheng Xi, shocked. Cheng Xi continued pouring out her feelings. As for Lu Chenzhou I dont love him, so no matter how good he is, what good can come out of it? When she said, I dont love him, Cheng Xi felt a trace of discomfort surface in her heart, but she forcibly repressed this feeling. After telling her whole story, she looked at Shen Wei and concluded, Do you understand now? Im also suffering, and also feeble. Even worse, when a disaster befalls you, you can vent and go crazy, but I cant. I cant because Im afraid of losing my job, and even more afraid that Ill provoke the other party enough to become my patient. Then, I would even have to treat his illness, and having to deal with that honestly, its too terrible. I dont want to live that kind of life. Ha! Shen Wei couldnt help a laugh from slipping out, and as soon as she did, she hugged Cheng Xi again. She was still crying as she said, Cheng Xi, Im sorry. I didnt expect that you would also have to deal with these things. Cheng Xi sighed, and then relaxed. Comparing misfortunes really wasnt a good thing, but it was a very useful method to ease patients, psychologically speaking. Compared to someone elses misery, especially an outstanding persons, ones own misfortunes usually didnt look so bad after all. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 107: Kiss Me Once Shen Wei seemed like she had truly recovered. After she cleaned herself up, she was once again the intelligent and capable eldest daughter of the Shen family. The only signs of her previous condition was her still-hoarse voice and puffy eyes. Thus, she temporarily didnt want to see anyone. Cheng Xi went out and relayed Shen Weis desire. Shen Weis father and the others didnt mind, as Cheng Xis professionalism had already convinced them that she would be able to appease Shen Wei. He only asked, Does this mean that Shen Weis recovered? I still have to observe her for a bit more. The Shen family became anxious at her uncertainty, and Shen Weis mother eyed her nervously. What happened to her? Cheng Xis voice was calm as she reassuringly replied, It hasnt been long since the onset of her mental condition, and given how rapidly it developed, its very likely that its an acute but brief issue. As for the specifics, we have to watch over her. The best thing to do would be to get her a checkup at the hospital. This time, Shen Weis father didnt object. When? They didnt want something like this to ever happen again; it felt like they had lost ten years of their life in just a couple days. Ill convince her to go with me. But afterwards, Mr. and Mrs. Shen, you might have to keep an eye on her and have regular talks with her to stabilize her mentality. This sort of rapid-onset mental illness was usually rooted in external causes. And although the mental condition would develop rapidly, if it was handled well, then the patient would recover just as quickly. However, the most important to be aware of were the aftereffects. Cheng Xi was worried that even if Shen Wei recovered, she would wind up doing something extreme. But she couldnt mention this sort of worry at the moment, as all she could do was help her family steer her towards the light. After grappling with the mad Shen Wei for so long, Shen Weis parents had become exhausted. But they still had to go back and discuss what to do about Shen Wei and Fu Mingyis marriageeven though the two had married out of love, they had only been in a relationship for a few years, and the two families had already received quite a few benefits from each other. Thus, it wouldnt be easy for the two to get a divorce, especially considering the fact that Shen Wei was now pregnant. But Cheng Xi ignored all of this. After sending Shen Weis family away, she reentered the room. Shen Wei was currently sitting by the head of the bed, with her gaze directed away as she thought about something that Cheng Xi couldnt discern. Upon seeing Cheng Xi enter, she softly asked, Rapid-onset mental condition? Cheng Xi hadnt deliberately lowered her voice when she was speaking to Shen Weis family outside, and Shen Wei had easily heard her words by leaning against the door. Cheng Xi didnt try to hide it from Shen Wei and nodded affirmatively. Then, she sat down in front of her and casually said, When regular people are overwhelmingly stimulated by their surroundings, they often experience this sort of thing, though in varying levels of severity. In a xianxia novel, they would call it something like falling into an illusion, oh rather, more like fighting against your inner demons. Theres nothing to be upset aboutyou just have to slowly and steadily walk out of it. Shen Wei looked at Cheng Xi, her expression looking like she was about to laugh and cry at the same time. Only after a while did she cover up her face and finally say, Heh, illusion that does seem to be the case. She put down her hands again. The corners of her eyes were still wet, but she was smiling now. I didnt expect that Dr. Cheng would be familiar with the world of xianxia novels. Yup, I know a little about it. Shen Wei laughed again. Cheng Xi didnt laugh. Instead, she clutched Sheng Weis hands and lightly squeezed her fingers. Shen Wei gradually relaxed and unclechened her hands, letting Cheng Xi knead and pinch them. The house was incomparably quiet. After a while, Shen Wei said, You and Lin Fan Honestly, I feel like the two of you were incompatible from the very beginning. Cheng Xis heart warmed up slightly. Yes. Hes too weak and unable to protect you. Cheng Xi smiled radiantly. I dont need his protection But youre right. The two of us really arent compatible. Forget about him. Shen Wei stretched her body, ending the conversation. Then, she sat up. Lets go to the hospital. Looking back into Cheng Xis curious gaze, she explained her actions. Even though I feel like Im perfectly alright right now, I think that I should listen to you and get a mental checkup at the hospital. An illusion or whatever it was, experiencing it once is enough for me. Being able to think like this meant that Shen Wei really was free from the worst of the problems. But just in case, Cheng Xi brought her to the hospital the next day as requested. After a whole bevy of tests, Cheng Xi could finally confirm that Shen Wei had indeed been suffering from an acute but temporary mental condition. She then prescribed Shen Wei a couple common pills. If you feel like you have difficulty breathing or an extremely fast pulse, you can eat some of this. Normally, if you feel your emotions fluctuate wildly, you can also take some, but otherwise, dont take it Also, because Ive owed someone money recently, Ive been quite poor for awhile. Do you want to move in with me for now? Ill cover food, and rent will be very cheap. She wasnt kidding; Lu Chenzhou had helped her weasel information out of Chen Jiamans teacher and made him tell the truth, but he had spent quite a lot to do so. Cheng Xi had established a payment plan to fully repay him in installments over a period of twenty years, but each payment was still quite significant. In addition, Cheng Xi regularly helped her parents with their living expenses, so when she said that she was poor, she really meant it. Shen Wei laughed lightly. Are you afraid that Ill relapse? No. This is preferential treatment Im giving to an old classmate of mine. Alright then, Shen Wei responded indifferently. And so, Shen Wei ended up living with Cheng Xi. The next day, when Lu Chenzhou invited her out on a date, Cheng Xi had a brand-new excuse. I have to take care of a friend, so I cant go out. She was very sincere in her reply. Its also almost time for Lunar New Year. Why dont you work on your things first, and then well go on a date afterwards? Lu Chenzhou didnt respond to Cheng Xi at that time, but after she got home and started making dinner with Shen Wei, he suddenly showed up. He brought flowers, a bottle of wine, and a whole pile of snacks with him. Also, behind him was an unfamiliar young man. According to Lu Chenzhou, it was someone from a big family. Shen Wei knew of him, but Cheng Xi hadnt even heard his name before. After all, she wasnt well connected with high society. Nevertheless, Cheng Xi was still relatively surprised that Lu Chenzhou had brought anyone over at all. She even thought that this was a possible sign that he was recovering from his mental disorder and had made a new friend. But unexpectedly, after Lu Chenzhou introduced his companion, he looked directly at Shen Wei and said, Im introducing him specifically to you. His background, character, education, and intellect are all superior to Fu Mingyis. Upon hearing Lu Chenzhous distasteful words, Cheng Xi barely stopped herself from chasing him out the house with the gifts that hed brought. He even went on to calmly turn his head around and say to that man, Isnt she pretty? And then he pointed at Cheng Xi. At least, much better looking than her. Cheng Xi was speechless at Lu Chenzhous brazen behavior. Shen Wei was initially a bit disgruntled, but she found Lu Chenzhous last statement so funny that she couldnt help herself from letting out a hearty laugh. All right, Mr. Lu indeed had some talent to be able to make her laugh like that. Exasperated, Cheng Xi welcomed the two of them inside. The friend whom Lu Chenzhou had brought along didnt show even the slightest hint of embarrassment after Lu Chenzhous mortifying introduction. Later, behind Lu Chenzhous back, he explained his situation to Cheng Xi and Shen Wei. Actually, Im here on a mission. My grandmotheroh, Lu Chenzhous grandmother is my mothers godmother, so I also call her my grandmothershes always wanted my brother to invite you to their house, but my brother was never able to do so. And she was apprehensive of randomly showing up in person to invite you over, so she had me come over with my brother. He then paused and scratched his head awkwardly as he said, As for a blind date or whatnot, that was just an excuse to come over. He looked at Shen Wei. Of course, Ms. Shen is truly outstanding. Shen Wei naturally knew that he was just being polite, and she coolly smiled back at him and thanked him. His family seems to truly care for you quite a bit. I feel like Director Lu isnt a bad choice at all. Cheng Xi was unable to explain her relationship with Lu Chenzhou, so she simply smiled, turned around, and went back to cooking. She silently added two more cups of rice to the rice cooker and prepared two additional portions of the other dishes. The four subsequently ate dinner, and, afterwards, with nothing to do and no desire to go out, Lu Chenzhous godbrother suggested, How about we play some cards? He ran downstairs to buy a deck, and the four of them started playing Hearts. Cheng Xi and Shen Wei were partners, sitting opposite each other, and Lu Chenzhou and his godbrother sat to Cheng Xis left and right, respectively. Cheng Xi was very lucky at mahjong and very talented at studying, but at Hearts, she was a total mess. Shen Wei was dragged down by Cheng Xis lack of skill, and the duo were unable to win even a single game. Ashamed by their string of losses, Cheng Xi began to count cards. At the very end of the next round, Cheng Xi and Shen Wei finally saw a shot at victory. Before playing their remaining two cards, Cheng Xi flipped through everyone elses discarded card piles seriously. When she went to inspect Lu Chenzhous stack of cards, he suddenly grabbed her hand midway. Cheng Xi was shocked, and Shen Wei opened her eyes wide to look at the two of them. Lu Chenzhous godbrother stilled for a moment before happily saying, Good block! We cant let her check the cards. If we win this round, then well have the overall victory too. Lu Chenzhou ignored him as his gaze was focused solely on Cheng Xi. Kiss me. The three, in unison, went, Huh? Ill tell you my cards if you do it. Lu Chenzhous godbrother took a moment to process those words before an expletive ran through his mind. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 108: You鈥檒l Scare the Little Children After abruptly witnessing a public display of affection, Lu Chenzhous godbrothers eyes were about to go blind! This effect was especially magnified by the fact that Lu Chenzhou and Cheng Xi had behaved pretty coolly toward each other during the rest of the night. But just when the other two were beginning to suspect that they werent an actual couple, their eyes had been struck by an overwhelming glare of sappiness. My goodness! Who was it that said Lu Chenzhou didnt know how to pick up girls?! Even as all these thoughts raced through the two bystanders heads, Lu Chenzhou continued to hold Cheng Xis hand and look at her with a cool expression. It was as if all he had merely said was something like, Quickly play your cards. I cant wait. A crack had appeared on Cheng Xis detached veneer, but she was at least used to his antics by now, and could quickly adapt to his erratic behavior. At times, she could even act in concert with him and reply appropriately, like now. She firmly wrenched her hand out of Lu Chenzhous grasp and then warned him seriously, Next time, dont say it so suddenly. She looked at the other two. Youll scare the little children. The two little children were speechless. Lu Chenzhous godbrother slapped the table angrily. Keep playing, keep playing! Dont go easy on them! He was one of those people who turned very serious when playing games, so Cheng Xi naturally followed suit. The last two cards in her hand were enough to give her and Shen Wei a strong finish, allowing them to eke out an arduous and timely victory against Lu Chenzhou and his godbrother. Cheng Xi started to play more seriously, and the luck of the draw slowly started favoring her more and more. One full deck of cards lasted them the entire night; Cheng Xi and Shen Wei eventually ended up losing by two games, so they only had to pay up 100 yuan per person, which was about the cost of a round of drinks. Except for Lu Chenzhou, the other three were quite tired after the game, and even Shen Wei commented, Losing these 100 yuan was quite difficult. Lu Chenzhous godbrother gave her a supercilious look. Then you shouldve admitted defeat earlier. How could I do that? A defeat has to be glorious! With the way you do things, would you be excited even if you won? Shen Weis words seemed to have a hidden meaning. Cheng Xis eyelids twitched, and she looked towards her. But Shen Weis smile was casual, as if she were just discussing the game. As the two bantered back and forth, they all looked toward Lu Chenzhou, who was sorting the cards meticulously. He moved them one at a time, neatly and tidily, and even smoothed out the corners that had become somewhat creased during the game. The other three were somewhat impressed by his meticulousness, and for a moment, all conversation paused as everyone watched his thin and slender fingers pick out the cards one at a time. Only when he finished everything did they breathe out simultaneously. Lu Chenzhous godbrother said, Its already quite late, so were going to go back now. Brother, you are heading back? Lu Chenzhou nodded, put the sorted cards in the middle of the table, and stood up. Lu Chenzhous godbrother looked at Shen Wei, swallowed the words you could stay down, and then once again reiterated Lu Chenzhous grandmothers request. Ms. Cheng, if youre free, then you should come to our house and play some time. Then, with a frustrated look at Lu Chenzhou, he muttered to himself, Now that Ive broached the topic, why arent you inviting her and setting up a time?! All hed done today was tease her just now. And then nothing? But Lu Chenzhou didnt even look at him. He was calmly putting on his shoes, and only when he finished did he stand up and look at Cheng Xi. His worrying godbrother thought that he was finally about to extend her an invitation. However, he simply leaned down slightly until his face was right in front of Cheng Xis, and then lightly licked her lips. Goodbye. And that was it. He left. The other three found them shocked speechless yet again. Even long after Lu Chenzhou and his friend had left, Shen Wei was still laughing. Although it was a good thing that Shen Wei could laugh after her hardships, this laugh had lasted far too long for Cheng Xi, and she was getting exasperated. Havent you laughed enough? Nope. She started laughing again, and even as she laughed, she said, I didnt expect Director Lu to be so interesting. She put her face in front of Cheng Xis. Why dont you like him? Shen Wei wasnt stupid, and she could see that while Cheng Xi treated Lu Chenzhou indulgingly and leniently, it was devoid of a womans romance when she interacted with her beloved. Of course, it was also possible that Cheng Xi was just hiding her affection, like what she had done towards Lin Fan. Who could have noticed that she had liked him that much? Cheng Xi pondered the question briefly. Perhaps I will, later. But right now, she couldnt and wouldnt dare to. A patient suffering from emotional detachment who had never developed feelings for anyone even at this age, who had just met someone whom he didnt detest Cheng Xi felt that Lu Chenzhous feelings were very likely just a temporary flood of emotions. Shen Wei didnt know what was going through her mind, and was even under the impression that Cheng Xi was opening up to that possibility. She couldnt help but chuckle as she said, Yes, you definitely will in the future. Playing cards had been surprisingly taxing on the brain, and both of them were mentally exhausted. After exchanging a few more words, they went to clean themselves up before going to bed. Cheng Xi thought that Shen Wei would sleep more soundly that night, and didnt make her take any medicine to calm her emotions. What she didnt expect was that, in the middle of the night, Shen Wei suddenly told her, Cheng Xi, Im going back tomorrow. The shock instantly cleared her mind as Cheng Xi turned to face Shen Wei. Shen Wei had been sleeping by her side, but her eyes were currently wide open. Cheng Xi couldnt tell if she had just woken up or if she had never fallen asleep in the first place. She inspected Shen Wei for a brief moment. Whats the matter? I cant avoid this situation forever. She laughed emotionlessly as she continued, I want to deal with this matter as quickly as I can. If it drags on She then lightly caressed her stomach as her eyes drooped. It would be bad for the child, and for me too. Ive wasted enough of my time on a piece of garbage. Her words were logical, and even though Cheng Xi knew that her mental condition might not have fully recovered, Cheng Xi couldnt forcibly keep her here. Then get a daily check-up at the hospital, or at least call me daily, alright? Shen Wei smiled back. Youre this worried about me? Yes. Shen Wei smiled and obediently nodded. Shen Weis brothers and parents all came to fetch her the next morning. Cheng Xi told each of them about the doctors instructions; shed originally thought that, after Shen Weis nervous breakdown earlier, the Fu family would be scared of her and would accept a divorce, even if the pregnancy made things a little complicated. But Fu Mingyi was actually unwilling to accept a divorce. Not only was he unwilling, but he even called Cheng Xi in his desperation. Can you help me change Shen Weis mind? Shes the one I truly love, and ever since I married her, Ive never wanted a divorce. Cheng Xi couldnt even think of a proper response. Truth be told, Cheng Xi really wanted to look him in the face and say, Ive never seen a more shameless person! But as a professional, she had to maintain a certain level of propriety, so she couldnt reply so bluntly. Instead, she asked, Then, why did you have an affair? That was all before the marriage Before the marriage so, while you and Shen Wei were dating? Fu Mingyi then used the all-purpose phrase that every man used to push the blame away after sinning. She was the one who seduced me! She was the one who seduced me! and I was framed! To Cheng Xi, these words were even more loathsome and detestful than I made a mistake that all men make. Without a second thought, she immediately responded, Just because she seduced you, you fell for it? Are you a fish? Even fish know how to spit out bait after they realize their mistake! As for you, not only did you just bite down even more, but you even got the other party pregnant! Fu Mingyi, you- Considering that he was still married to Shen Wei, Cheng Xi felt that it wasnt quite appropriate to call him worse than livestock, and tried very hard to restrain herself. The most important things in life are work and love. In both these cases, people have to learn to master their own emotions in order to avoid hurting important people and making mistakes. There are two ground rules: they cant take money obtained through illicit means, and they cant take emotions that shouldnt have been offered to them. And since you took those illicit emotions, then you should deal with the resulting consequences. Rather than tormenting yourself with your tattered relationship, just break off ties with Shen Wei instead. Shen Wei isnt a weakling. The reason she was so mad that she went insane was not because she loved you that deeply, but rather that she hated herself. So youd better not come pining after her, or something that we cant even imagine might happen. As harsh as it sounded, Cheng Xi was giving Fu Mingyi her earnest advice. When Shen Wei left, she had seemed calm, but the emotions that were boiling right beneath the surface Cheng Xi was honestly scared of them. Unfortunately, Fu Mingyi didnt listen, and his fate was tragic. Previous ChapterNext Chapte Chapter 109: Shock All this time, Fu Mingyi had thought that Shen Wei still loved him, the prodigal son who was nevertheless accepted by his family, someone who disgusted outsiders but thought of his own actions as moving and compassionate. Cheng Xi hadnt interacted with him that often, and she only knew him to be somewhat shallow and superficial. However, she didnt expect that he would actually be so shameless. Since he wouldnt take her advice to heart, she decisively hung up. Some people wouldnt learn their lesson until something truly catastrophic happened to them. On the other hand, Shen Weis condition was steadily improving. From her behavior in the morning alone, everyone thought that she had vented out all of her negative feelings and was feeling hale and hearty again. This was the biggest reason why Fu Mingyi felt that the two of them could get back together; shed beaten him and scolded him, so naturally, in his mind, she should forgive him. But in reality, she hadnt slept well at all. After an arduous battle to fall asleep, she had been shocked awake by her emotions in the middle of the night. Afterwards, she had stayed up until dawn. Sometime during that night, Cheng Xi had asked her, Whatre you thinking about? She drily responded, Killing people, of course. And then a second later, Im joking. Actually, Im not thinking of anything, but I just cant fall asleep. But actually, her first sentence was true, and her second false. Even though she wouldnt actually kill anyone, her heart was still dripping with an untold fury. All Cheng Xi could do was try her best to enlighten her and prescribe her some mild medication. However, Shen Wei was pregnant and wasnt sure about whether or not she wanted to keep the baby, so she had to be very careful about what she consumed. Even the medicine that she had been prescribed wouldnt be good for her in large doses. Given this situation, Cheng Xi was speechless that Fu Mingyi thought that she would forgive him if he just put in a little bit of effort. Two days later, it was Lunar New Years Eve. Cheng Xis vacation only started on the first day of the new year, so she had to work even on Lunar New Years Eve. In the morning, she stayed at home to accompany her parents and had a traditional Lunar New Years Eve meal. Then in the afternoon, she had to return to the hospital to work. Her brother Cheng Yang had it slightly better than her, but he too was only free after the twenty-ninth. Since the two of them were both busy, their parents ignored the fact that the new year was supposed to be joyous and festive and instead used their time to nag at Cheng Yang. As soon as they finished their meal, they started talking about how he was old enough to be looking for a girlfriend by now, how if he didnt, hed remain single for the rest of his life, and that even his sister was getting married before him. Cheng Yang was shocked. My sisters dating someone? Shes going to get married? And then the subject suddenly shifted to Cheng Xi. She was speechless, whereas her parents were smiling even as they grew angry. Yes, quite. Theyve been together for half a year, or even a year by now. So, are you two planning on getting married at the end of next year? Cheng Xi was relieved that they had at least left her a years buffer, but then she heard her mother continue, You would always say that the two of you were very, very busy, and so I didnt nag at you. However, you must have a few days leave now that its the New Year, right? Talk to his parents so that we can meet them sometime during the fifth to the eighth and have a family meal together. Of course, dont keep mentioning it to Lu Chenzhou. Just remind him once or twice. If he doesnt arrange it, then he probably doesnt care that much about you, in which case you should quickly give up on him. In my opinion, that someones someones son is pretty good, and you can meet up with him on the way back. Even if the two of you arent compatible, you can still find new friends, and having more friends will broaden your opportunities and stop others from thinking that youve unwisely saddled yourself with a burden. Cheng Xi looked at her own mother, unsure whether she should laugh or cry. Cheng Yang honed in on one particular part of their conversation. Lu- Lu Chenzhou? Sis, your boyfriends Lu Chenzhou? During these last two months, he had been busy working on an engineering project in the countryside, and truly hadnt had any time to worry about his sisters romantic life. No. Her mother triumphantly stated, Thats him! She looked at her daughter, and then unabashedly continued to throw shade at her without restraint. If youre unwilling to recognize him as your boyfriend, then stop bringing him home. And that was already her holding back to preserve her daughters face. After all, the two had already slept together, but for some reason she still wouldnt admit that he was her boyfriend! Did she want to be known as a promiscuous woman that badly? Her own daughter was secretly immoral Oh, how Cheng Xis mothers heart hurt! This time, it was Cheng Yang who was rendered speechless. He looked at his own sister as he said in disbelief, You even brought him home? You damn, youre moving quite quickly! And then his father scolded him without missing a beat. Its the new year. Why are you cursing? The nagging continued until both their faces were drained and devoid of color, and their parents never stopped talking until Cheng Xi had to leave for work once more. Cheng Yang obediently offered to send her out, and Cheng Xi accepted with a smile. The disaster-stricken siblings escaped from their parents house as if they were running away from a calamity. As the two hastily walked along towards the hospital, Cheng Yang asked her with some concern, Is your relationship with Lu Chenzhou real or fake? Fake. Then why did